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I Lost My Mother to Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 193 People

    She Was My World. - On the 23rd of May, 2006 my mother committed suicide. I was 19. I loved her so much and wanted so badly to be close to her. She raised me alone. We were close...
    Wlwdimlp Wlwdimlp 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 1, 2013

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    My Story - I was 20 years old when I lost my mother to suicide. I remember the days leading up to it, and how strange they felt. Someone I knew had lost their mother to cancer on...
    carwalte carwalte 22-25 2 Responses May 4, 2013

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    "she Aches Just Like A Woman, But She Breaks Just Like A Little Girl" - My mother was a complicated person. She was the most beautiful person for many people, and gave much more...
    misternnu misternnu 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2013

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    Mom - My mother hung herself when I was five. I found her. It's not fair that it's my only memory of her.
    Lynnkaz Lynnkaz 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 2, 2013

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    September 26, 2013 - My mother shot herself in the chest on this date. I am lost and have no idea what to do, how to feel, what to think. She had a history of attempts (5 by...
    ALA444 ALA444 36-40 2 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    Coming Up On The 1 Year Mark Of My Mom Being Gone And Its Getting Harder... - I will explain what happened to my mom in another post some time ...it is too long and complicated and...
    skipper02 skipper02 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 21, 2013

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    Going Through The Motions - I lost my brother to suicide 8 years ago and my mother to suicide last year! My mother had agoraphobia and anxiety but managed to overcome it for a long...
    FourHearts FourHearts 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2013

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    When I Was 17, My Mother Shot Herself In The Head - One month before her 41st birthday, my mother went into the woods near Great Falls, Maryland to shot herself in the head with a...
    Karental Karental 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 4, 2011

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    My mom just committed suicide. She passed away on March 7, and I found out March 13. I just want to wake up from this wretched dream. I just want to call her so badly and talk to...
    alexthornton alexthornton 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 18

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    One Month Ago Today - It's been exactly a month since my mom committed suicide. I'm 28 years old. She didn't have any mental health issues. no substance abuse. My stepfather died...
    lisaedge1 lisaedge1 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    Still Lost - I'm 27 and I lost my mom when I was 15.. exactly 13 years ago today. I was a freshman in high school. She shot herself in the stomach... Was found by someone and taken...
    HeatherAshley28 HeatherAshley28 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

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    Recent Loss - I'm 40, my mother shot herself by putting a gun in her mouth 3 weeks ago. Her and my dad had gotten a divorce 8 months ago, they were on and off again since. Things...
    Workingirltoo Workingirltoo 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 13, 2013

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    15 days ago I found my mom dead in her closet. One single gunshot to the head...It's kinda crazy how someone can be here one second and then not the next...I remember it all so...
    isiszh isiszh 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    She committed suicide on March 3rd and my wife and I found her on March 4th. I'm lost and don't know what to do.....This is just so unreal......
    ToliverLyons ToliverLyons 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    Mom - My brother, Andrew, and I lost our mom, Joanie, to suicide in July of 2011.  My mom was only 57 years old. She had battled with alcoholism and depression for many years.  I...
    J4momsquad J4momsquad 22-25 5 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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    The Why Of It All - My mother was a major depressive, schizophrenic alcoholic... so she was basically doomed from the start. Despite all that, she still managed to survive 37 years...
    Lullacus Lullacus 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 26, 2013

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    On November 2nd 2012 it happened. Alot of things were going wrong in the lives of the people she loved most. She wasn't thrilled with her own either. She was the most gifted...
    Brett83 Brett83 26-30 1 Response Apr 8

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    I Miss Her. - In 7 hours and 50 minutes it will be fourteen days since I lost my beautiful momma. She was 52. Her spouse of 25 years said she had been pretending for years. She...
    danibooks danibooks 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    Vivid Memories.., - December 2007; I remember the day ever so well. I was still in middle school and was attending a pantomine on the lead up to Christmas. The night before, I...
    WayUpHigh WayUpHigh 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2013

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    This happened 3 days ago... My mother and I are pretty close, the closest of any of the others in our family. My mom is divorced now and lives alone. She is 40 years old and is...
    TheStrain TheStrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 12

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    "She lived a charmed life" Words from my aunt, my mothers oldest sister, trying to make sense of her sisters suicide. My mother shot herself in my head on November 19th, 2013. She...
    simmk simmk 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    My Mommy Is Gone - My mommy jumped off a 20 story building this month. i have lost her and my mind. I love my mommy. It has been a few weeks but for me it is like ground hogs day...
    scrapsbear scrapsbear 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    I Survived - Still Fighting. - Chemical depression "runs" in my family's genetics. My mother has it, as did my cousin and as do I. When I was 13, I noticed some changed occuring...
    TheVantriloquist TheVantriloquist 16-17 Jun 30, 2013

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    Why? - I lost my mother to suicide exactly one month ago today. Looking back at our lives, my family realized that her angry moments truly reflected bipolar disorder just like her...
    usmcgirl1231 usmcgirl1231 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    My Story - My mom has tried committing suicide three times in the past three years. Her mother, my grandmother, committed suicide four years ago. It's been a rough four years. I...
    snataly snataly 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    My mom hung herself on october 17, 2003. I was 17 and we had the biggest arguement ever the night before. My last words to my mom were i hate you, get out of my life! Im 27 yrs...
    calmdownmom86 calmdownmom86 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    The Other Heart - If it is ok, as I do not want to hurt anyone with my story. I only hope to shed light on the other side of this deeply sad coin. What I am about to write comes...
    MegentaMoon MegentaMoon 51-55, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    The Day I Stopped Believing - It happened just this year... I'd just moved out of my mother's house a year ago, right after High School. She was having financial problems but was...
    AverageSpazz AverageSpazz 18-21 3 Responses Sep 4, 2013

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    Lost My Mom When I Was 14. - I was 14 when my mother took her life. She had tried a few times before. That was in 2006 and she was 43. She had been struggling with depression...
    fridgursol fridgursol 22-25, F Aug 25, 2013

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    You Feel Like The Only One... - I never really knew how many people have went through losing their mother from suicide until now...because in that moment you feel so alone. I am...
    KelYor KelYor 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    My Moms Died. - My mom commited suicide yesterday at 5:00 pm. I am only 12 years old. I'm extremly depressed. I dont have a dad. But I have a grandma and a uncle. I'm just looking...
    MikaleH MikaleH 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 24, 2013

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    Mom - My mother commited suicide on January 29th of this year... My dad and I found her hanging in our bathroom. She had been depressed but that runs in our family... she was...
    tmmacleod tmmacleod 18-21 2 Responses May 31, 2009

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    My Mum - I recently lost my mother to suicide on the 5th of March 2013 Ive been in disbelief and shock since only crying briefly and then not really knowing what to think until...
    prosperousme prosperousme 26-30 8 Responses May 18, 2013

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    My mom was the only one I could talk to.. The only one who understood. I wrote this poem, it's not very good at all but here it is... A little over a year ago, I lost a best...
    123me321 123me321 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Traci - Everyday I think about the times we could have shared, I think of the things you could have taught me, how much love I missed from you, how much love you missed from me...
    MESB MESB 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2013

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    Two weeks after I graduated from high school my world came crashing down. I spent the night at my friends house so we could go see the late night showing of Eclipse of all movies...
    stilldealing stilldealing 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I Lost My Mom On November 6, 2005 At 2:30am - My mother decided to take her own life on November 6, 2005. She was a kind soul and raised me and my sister well. After 34 years of...
    mmm434 mmm434 31-35, M Aug 18, 2013

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    Why Are You Gone, Mother? - I never thought that I would lose her. When my father had passed and I had gone four months of my mother secretly taking alcohol as a daily relief for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 28, 2013

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    My Mom Took Her Life - My mom passed away on may 23 2013 but i dident find her untill the 29th my mom was mentally ill and i guess it got to her she alienated the whole family and...
    abigheartedleo abigheartedleo 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2013

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    My Mother Broke My Heart - My mother overdosed on ambien, (sleeping pills), after chasing them down with wine. My heart is shattered into pieces. I have a 5 month old son whose...
    beccamarieday420 beccamarieday420 18-21 1 Response Nov 18, 2013

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    The last time I saw my mom, I drove over to her house, to bring her a veggie burger. She met me outside, because I was rushed and going away for a week, to Disneyland with my...
    boomer97146 boomer97146 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 17

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    Smiling Face - I just lost my mom on 02/16/13. I have never thought my mom will do that. She has been sick. Nothing major but could be painful. She took pain killer almost everyday...
    smilihspirit smilihspirit 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    Lost Without You - On the 23rd of December 2011 at 7.15 am I found my mother/soulmate dead she had committed suicide. I jjust cannot accept it believe or ever gonna get over this...
    Misses56 Misses56 31-35, F Aug 8, 2013

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    Dark Memory - In 2008 my mom seemed distant from me (10) and my younger brother (5). One day in march, she got really upset and went to the bathroom and loaded the gun in front of...
    KeepOnDreaming1 KeepOnDreaming1 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    To anyone who has ever lost a parent to suicide. You need to know something, You are one of the most beautiful people in the word! Even If you have to look in the mirror every...
    thriving thriving 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Hi my name is Julie, I am here because I dont know where else to go.............In May 2012 I lost my dad he was 82 years old, 6 weeks later my mother died of a broken heart, they...
    julesmcj3 julesmcj3 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I was devastated.....on labor day in 1987 i was awakened by my little sister on top of me shaking me and crying she was screaming"Mommies dead Bub Mommies dead!!!!"....i opened my...
    shannon744 shannon744 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 30

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    I lost my 18 year old son to suicide on September 09, 2012. IT has been a very emotional experience for me. I have my moments of sadness and then my moments of just good memories...
    esanchez5195 esanchez5195 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    I am in my mid-twenties. Did not finish college. I am adopted and don't know my biological family. My adopted parents got divorced-the father commited suicide four years ago and...
    layla99 layla99 22-25 1 Response Mar 25