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I Lost My Virginity To Rape

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    I was raped and now I don't know what to do.

    It's changed me. Message me if you want to hear the story.
    BandLover27 BandLover27 13-15, M 8 Responses Oct 27

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    I just feel so lost..

    ... Like there is no one that can hug me and tell me it will be okay..
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 22

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    I was raped when I was 11 by my sisters

    boyfriend they took me abroad on holiday and that's when it happened I have never really got over it and I'm 27 now I still have nightmares and I still blame myself and since that day everything in my life went wrong
    lostandlonely87 lostandlonely87 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 12

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    This Time Of Year

    It's always this time of year when I remember more things that happened when I was raped since the holidays are like a jumbled together I don't know how I remember them but its like every time a holiday comes my brain releases something I locked up in a vault in my head to forget...
    melvis501388 melvis501388 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    New Years Eve 1992

    I was young it was the first real New Years Eve party I was ever invited to. Getting ready to go was better than prom. I had a formal dress with a white top and a black skirt. The wrap for my sholders was red and sparkley just like my shoes. It was the first time I wore perfume...
    LadyGypsy LadyGypsy 36-40, F 48 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    A Stolen Childhood.

    I was eight when he first put his hands down my pants. i was eight when he trhreatened to hurt my baby sister if i said anything to anyone. I never said a word. I began to beg my mom to let us stay home and she thought it was because i didn't wanna have a stranger replace my...
    Cbaybay1992 Cbaybay1992 22-25, F 8 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    I was raped. Intensely

    and physically raped. I also had sweat dripping from my chest..
    DepressedClevelandSportsFan DepressedClevelandSportsFan 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 9

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    DONT READ IF YOURE WEAK STOMACHED//MINDED I

    was 14 I was stupid. I had gone to my friend Katie's party, it was only meant for myself and her. Word got around and with us freshmans there were sophomores, juniors, and seniors mixed in. We are neighbors and we live quite spaced out, so noise was no problem. We had a...
    Psychxdelic Psychxdelic 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    I don't know if posting here is a good idea

    but isn't this site especially meant for that? About a month ago I went to this party with my friend Maya. A big party with lot of people. I admit I got pretty drunk. At some point I decided to use the bathroom. All the bathrooms downstairs were the actual party was were taken...
    Alina1234455 Alina1234455 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 9

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    Dumb Little Girl

    I'm not sure this actually qualifies as rape, but I decided to put my story here to share with you all. This experience, while scary and painful at first, hasn't devastated my life, nor does it haunt me. But this experience has taught me to use better judgement. Here's my story...
    LittleDuck622 LittleDuck622 26-30, F 11 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    It's your fault. It wasn't rape.

    You didn't want it, but you didn't try hard to resist. Right? I mean.. it's not like you were an insecure 14 year old and he was a responsible adult or anything. Crying, pleading and gently trying to push him off aren't exactly going to do anything- you turned him on, and you...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 12 Responses Apr 4

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    TheDyingButterfly TheDyingButterfly 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 14

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    I lost my virginity at 8 years old thanks to a

    friends dad. I went to my friends for a sleep over for the first time and her father called us into the studie. He then told us to take our cloths off friend did so and then I slowly started to *****. He walked over to me and grabbed my nipple and swedes it. Then i feel him turn...
    dumbbutt11 dumbbutt11 22-25, T 6 Responses Sep 29

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    I am pregnant by the guy

    who hurt me I just want to die
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    I was found unconscious,

    naked and covered in blood. Just laying in the street dumped. I was only found because a car accidentally ran me over. I was taken immediately to hospital and into surgery. My brain had a massive hemmorage with pressure being put onto my brain. My urethra had been severed...
    sarahwhoknows sarahwhoknows 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 14

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    2015 March 22 3:25 p.

    m. I was wearing a blue t - shirt and skinny jeans. He was wearing a blue and orange viking sweatshirt that belonged to our school. And black sweatpants. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Jason was my best friend. Was. I remember how he had talked me into going to the...
    MadHatter1521 MadHatter1521 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 21

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    I Was Stupid

    Well it started when I had saw this guy at school many of times and he sort of looked weird but I never paid him no mind my friends would always want to go hang out with him and he would want me to come but I said no thank you and I got straight A's I was your typical girl so one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    I told. Finally, I told.

    And I'm proud of myself. Yeah, there's been questions, and lots of them, but the evidence is good apparently. I'm just so scared, you know? This is going to tear my family apart. My aunt is gonna have to choose between her son, and her sister. Her son raped me. My cousin raped...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 7 Responses Sep 1

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    Just Another Story..

    I dont like starting my story about how awful my rape was... I need to tell you about me.. My name is Kaylan. I am 18 years old, & i have a son named Asxen Larkin. Now here is my story. I was a freshman in high school. Short blonde skinny, everyone called me beautiful and told...
    LarkinsMommy LarkinsMommy 18-21, F 24 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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    I posted an experience about being raped

    and yes I was fully true I was raped again by a diffent guy last month and now in pregnant
    hayhaytaytay hayhaytaytay 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Just read this on someone's blog

    and it's so true .. "Defining virginity ultimately has to be an individual journey. From a personal perspective I prefer to say that I was raped as a virgin rather than I lost my virginity to rape. My virginity was never up for grabs as it was always mine to choose to share with...
    demie18 demie18 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 27

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    I Lost A Whole Lot More...

    About a year ago, I lost my virginity to my stepfather. I blame myself for the incident a little bit. If I had maybe fought a little harder, screamed a little louder, maybe I'd still be a virgin. My therapist and grandparents continue to try convince me that it isn't so, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 60 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    You Will Never Forget Your First...

    I'm going to make this simple and to the point. I was raped 9 years ago, when I was 14. I was a freshman in high school, had a steady boyfriend and great grades. However, I had to stay after school one day in April, to make up a World History exam. I asked my sister, who was a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 37 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    When I was 17 me and my twin brother (let's

    call him James) where staying over at my boyfriends house (let's call him Aaron) with some other friends. our parents were out of town so my mum had asked get friends step-son (let's call him Tom) to keep an eye on us, he was coming round to Aaron's with us, he was in our year...
    TheGreenEyedGirl TheGreenEyedGirl 18-21, F 13 Responses Jan 6

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    I don't really know how to start.

    it is like there is a filter in my brain keeping me from talking about it. But maybe i can write about it. So Hello there i guess. it is almost exactly 6 months ago, i can't believe that 7 months ago it wasn't a part of me, i was just trouble free, foolish little me. Any ways 6...
    helloandgoodby helloandgoodby 16-17, F 10 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    I didn't though but my ex did.

    She used to be very shy when we started dating but when she got over the 1st fear, it was as if she couldn't stop! We had sooo much seks it was crazy!
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    While My Mother Was Watching And Did Nothing

    I was 14 years old when it happened. I grew up in a bad neighborhood and always heard stories of all the horrible stuff people would do. I was scared all the time, but I never would of thought that I would be raped in my own house and my mother watched.. I walked into the house...
    deleted deleted 26-30 51 Responses May 6, 2012

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    I have decided to tell my story,

    well I got raped this pass sunday by my (now ex) boyfriend. So he and I was out on a date and we decided to go to his house and so he was talking about sex and how he thought it was time, I told him I wanted to wait till we got married if we did bcuz I that moment to be special...
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 19

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    I Should Have Been Smarter

    i had just turned 16 years old and i already struggled with depression from previous verbal abuse as a child but now one of my closest friends had passed away, i had never felt so lost in my life. there was this guy who was 23, he started showing interest in me and knew all the...
    lookingforsomethinglost lookingforsomethinglost 18-21, F 45 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    My Life Of Mysery

    Right now, I'm on the edge of suicide. I feel more alone than ever. I don't even have words to express how I feel. Ever since the truth came out, things have gone 360 degrees left for me. My life long dream has always been to confront him, but I don't think I have the courage to...
    kathyln kathyln 16-17, F 25 Responses Nov 11, 2012

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    When I was 5 years old my older brother raped

    me . He used to kiss me on the lips when my mom & dad weren't home. I told some of my friends , they want me to tell my mom but I don't want to put my brother in jail.
    mrsalsina mrsalsina 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 16

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    It was this past summer.

    I had really liked this guy, maybe even loved and I was hopelessly head over heels for him. He was my neighbor (he lived around the block ) and we had met on Halloween the previous year. We never really talked, but I knew enough about him to know he didn't feel the same way...
    nicolamariee nicolamariee 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    i still class myself

    as a virgin though, no one knows i was actually raped, i just told the police what happened but left out the rape bit... im just too embarrassed; i dont want to be a victim or i dont want people to feel sorry for me. and i just want to forget it myself, act like it didnt happen...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 12

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    Left For Dead

    I was 12 years old when I was brutally drugged, raped, and left for dead in a ditch in front of a church. My father would not believe me when I told him. I became pregnant but because I was heavy into drugs I lost the child. It took me 2 years to become sober. I told lies and...
    Izzy1569 Izzy1569 16-17, F 8 Responses Sep 20, 2013

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    4 Years Later, I Could Say The Word "rape".

    The word "rape" makes me cringe, especially when used so lightly and in common conversations. Such as "I just got raped by that test" or "I would rape a sandwich right now". I get cold and sick and when I have to say it, I stutter it. Four years afterwards though, I could say I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 11 Responses Jun 21, 2012

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    When i was 14 which is 5 years ago a cousin of

    mine stayed over and watched me while my parents were gone but then after they left he put me on the couch and i screamed i kicked i punched but he did rape me and after he did he ran out of the house and left so i called the police and he was put in prison
    SexyBlonde777 SexyBlonde777 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 31

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    3 years later and it still won;t leave ma lone.

    I thought that the memory was locked away and it was over but recently he's come back to haunt me. He seems to pop up just when i think I' getting over it. The nightmares are back and so is my insomnia. I'd rather have insomnia then nightmares though. The nightmares are so bad...
    scarsthatsmile scarsthatsmile 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 23

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    Please bare with me because this is hard to

    write out. The only people who know are my parents and the one friend involved at the end. I feel like sharing my story to people who understand me will really help anyways,it was 2 years ago I was a freshman and I wanted to go to this end of the year party hosted by one of...
    hopeandlovex hopeandlovex 16-17, F 33 Responses May 29

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    It all started a 5 years ago I went to my best

    friends house while my mom was at work. My best friends dad was watching us because her mom was also at work. Me and my friend decided to take a nap after playing karaoke for 3 hours straight . While she was sleep her dad woke me up, he said that he needed help getting something...
    aliceloves123 aliceloves123 22-25, F 7 Responses Aug 2

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    The Story Of How

    My story starts when I stayed late at my friends house. It was dark by the time I was leaving and her brother offered to walk me home. It wasn't that far so I said he didn't have to. But he insisted. On our way we laughed and joked. Shared embarrassing school moments. He was my...
    oOoAllieoOo oOoAllieoOo 18-21, F 17 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    Well um it happend last year

    when i was 14. I am now 15. I was leaving a friend's house around 11, and at the time i didnt think it was a big deal since we lived close to eachother. I didnt have a phone at the time because my stupid brother broke it (dropped it in the pool), Anyways it was dark and cold and...
    Kylieblazinit Kylieblazinit 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 29

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    One Night.

    One night. One night is all that it takes for your life to change. And before that night, I was a virgin. My name is Danie Lynne, I am 18 years old and a Freshman in college. All my life, I have been a pretty typical person. I never got into trouble and I had friends and was good...
    DanieLynne DanieLynne 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    I am so lost I just need help.

    I am 15 years old. Two night's ago I had a sleepover with my friend who has an older brother. We go to her house from a party where we both had been drinking. Me and the older brother have eachother's phone number because we happen to be in the same art class. He texted me...
    lifeofateenager520 lifeofateenager520 13-15, F 10 Responses Sep 8

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    I was one of those who waited- I don't know

    for what exactly, I guess I thought I'd know when it was right. I'd had boyfriends but I hadn't slept with them. In Freshers Week, first year of uni, I joined the hiking society. I went out on their social and wanted to make a good impression, make friends. This guy started...
    justnobody1272 justnobody1272 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 11

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    I like to keep my experiences down to a select

    group of things that are important to who I am as a person. And, here I am and here it is. I was contemplating getting coffee once I had my book. I was going to get an Agatha Christie book, because I was in the mood for a good mystery. It was warm, near the end of July, with the...
    colaut colaut 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 4

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    I need to find out if this is rape I might have

    been raped, well me and my boyfriend have been dating for 3 yrs and he's been pressing me about about sex well last night I told him I would have sex with him last night and well while we were kissing I had second thoughts about having sex and he continued and kinda kept kissing...
    alwaysmeforever alwaysmeforever 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 16

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    I don't really know what to say without

    sounding biast, but, if someone is out there, male, female or anywhere inbetween I will happily provide my support and experiences to hopefully help your world make more sense.
    hereforyouforever hereforyouforever 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Best Friend's Boyfriend Stole My Virginity

    It was 2 days before I turned 17 and the end of the school year. My friend M and I were going to skip school together because it was the last day before finals. She had asked her boyfriend to come with us and he said he would. But that morning she found out she had to do a test...
    zesta zesta 31-35, F 9 Responses Apr 22, 2013

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    I was raped at 14. No one found out I was raped

    until 3 years later when I finally spoke up about it.. It was three years of my life I know I'd never get back and the day it happened, I felt I was no longer in control of anything in my life. It felt like my own life had slipped through my own fingers. Every day I'm constantly...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 17 Responses Jul 22

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    I Had To Give My Boyfriend A Substitute Virginity

    I was raped by a guy I met at a party my freshman year of college. At the time, I was a virgin. When I finally met my current boyfriend, I went through months of guilt for not being able to share my virginity with him. Finally, I decided to give him my anal virginity...
    notavictimasurvivor notavictimasurvivor 18-21 7 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    11 Year Old

    my mother and i were homeless. she was a heroin addict and well she could use some money, so she used me as her personal prostitute.. first time i had to work i was just 11 years old. this old guy i guess begin 50, dont know for shure. I still cant believe how a 50 year old could...
    Woesh Woesh 18-21, F 37 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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