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I Lost My Virginity To Rape

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    A Stolen Childhood.

    I was eight when he first put his hands down my pants. i was eight when he trhreatened to hurt my baby sister if i said anything to anyone. I never said a word. I began to beg my mom to let us stay home and she thought it was because i didn't wanna have a stranger replace my...
    Cbaybay1992 Cbaybay1992 22-25, F 9 Responses Oct 2, 2013

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    This is very hard to tell,

    I have not told anyone and I just need someone to vent to. This was a terrifying experience and I can't help but think I could've prevented it in so many ways. Alright, so I was going with a new friend to his house. I was 14, he was 16. I obviously cannot drive so he had to...
    al2isun al2isun 13-15, F 5 Responses Dec 8, 2013

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    Hey there it was new year Eve my mum

    and dad were out of town, my bf parent were also out of the country I was chatting with my brother on my laptop and he was in his room. We were pretending like we don't know each other, a while we were chatting my bf called me he wanted to see me and I said ok.I told my brother...
    themara226 themara226 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 28

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    I lost my virginity to rape

    when I was 14. My sister left me alone with her drug dealer and he got me high so that when i tried to tell someone.. He would just say that I didn't know what I was talking about because I was under the influence. No one believes me.
    KatIsCrazy KatIsCrazy 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    I Was Stupid

    Well it started when I had saw this guy at school many of times and he sort of looked weird but I never paid him no mind my friends would always want to go hang out with him and he would want me to come but I said no thank you and I got straight A's I was your typical girl so one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    My first ever sexual experience happened right

    after my 13th birthday when I was gangraped by my sister's boyfriend and three other men I had never seen before, but would see again. My sister was then 23, and her boyfriend was in his thirties. I had a little crush on him, and he was always flirty with me but not overtly so...
    thegirlnobodyknows thegirlnobodyknows 26-30, F 8 Responses Jul 12

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    It all started a 5 years ago I went to my best

    friends house while my mom was at work. My best friends dad was watching us because her mom was also at work. Me and my friend decided to take a nap after playing karaoke for 3 hours straight . While she was sleep her dad woke me up, he said that he needed help getting something...
    aliceloves123 aliceloves123 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 2

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    11 Year Old

    my mother and i were homeless. she was a heroin addict and well she could use some money, so she used me as her personal prostitute.. first time i had to work i was just 11 years old. this old guy i guess begin 50, dont know for shure. I still cant believe how a 50 year old could...
    Woesh Woesh 18-21, F 37 Responses Nov 13, 2012

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    If I was to write every single detail,

    I'd probably be typing all night. Plus I am too lazy :P But well me name is Emily, I'm 17 years old. I was raped when I was 12 by a ********* when I was left in a shop on holidays in turkey. It didn't really hit me until this year and I started to self harm and even attempted...
    Emily97x Emily97x 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 9

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    Please bare with me because this is hard to

    write out. The only people who know are my parents and the one friend involved at the end. I feel like sharing my story to people who understand me will really help anyways,it was 2 years ago I was a freshman and I wanted to go to this end of the year party hosted by one of...
    hopeandlovex hopeandlovex 16-17, F 33 Responses May 29

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    Hey! I uhh, lost my virginity at the age of 10.

    . my cousin forced me. :( Somehow I managed to keep it a secret to my mom not until she read my diary. That was hell, I tell you! But the good thing is I didn't write my cousin's name so my mom still doesn't know who did it to me. The rape case gave me a mental breakdown. After...
    mrmshkh mrmshkh 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 3

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    I Had To Give My Boyfriend A Substitute Virginity

    I was raped by a guy I met at a party my freshman year of college. At the time, I was a virgin. When I finally met my current boyfriend, I went through months of guilt for not being able to share my virginity with him. Finally, I decided to give him my anal virginity...
    notavictimasurvivor notavictimasurvivor 18-21 6 Responses Apr 2, 2013

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    Here I am again writing another experience on

    this site. I guess people really understand here and I've never seen a bad comment towards anything I have posted. Thanks so much if you are taking the time to read this. I'm not coping at all I guess pretending doesn't make it happen does it? So as you may or may not know, I...
    hopeandsoul hopeandsoul 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 9

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    I Lost A Whole Lot More...

    About a year ago, I lost my virginity to my stepfather. I blame myself for the incident a little bit. If I had maybe fought a little harder, screamed a little louder, maybe I'd still be a virgin. My therapist and grandparents continue to try convince me that it isn't so, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 60 Responses Sep 7, 2011

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    lisarowell420 lisarowell420 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    When I was 9 the head librarian at my school

    pulled me in his office... Told me I'd been sneaking books out and that I was in trouble... When I said I hadn't done anything wrong he had his belt around my head and in my mouth... And the rest is hazy dark memories I never want to feel again. I remember after him telling me...
    xkayleex xkayleex 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 24

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    If any of you women want to chat with me about

    what happened to you and need help to learn and heal and move on toward finding peace and strength and reaching for and taking hold of your power again, PM me .. I sincerely want to understand and to help ok :-))
    wunderluv wunderluv 41-45, M Jul 11

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    The Story Of How

    My story starts when I stayed late at my friends house. It was dark by the time I was leaving and her brother offered to walk me home. It wasn't that far so I said he didn't have to. But he insisted. On our way we laughed and joked. Shared embarrassing school moments. He was my...
    oOoAllieoOo oOoAllieoOo 18-21, F 18 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    I was 14 at that time n it was my friends dad

    who 😞😞 mesg me for whole story
    jkmkjk jkmkjk 22-25 4 Responses Jul 1

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    Would someone please talk to me & help me cope

    with my rape? I have also been raped multiple times by my current girlfriend. 😞
    spaceghosts spaceghosts 16-17, T 3 Responses Jul 23

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    New Years Eve 1992

    I was young it was the first real New Years Eve party I was ever invited to. Getting ready to go was better than prom. I had a formal dress with a white top and a black skirt. The wrap for my sholders was red and sparkley just like my shoes. It was the first time I wore perfume...
    LadyGypsy LadyGypsy 36-40, F 45 Responses Mar 21, 2013

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    Dumb Little Girl

    I'm not sure this actually qualifies as rape, but I decided to put my story here to share with you all. This experience, while scary and painful at first, hasn't devastated my life, nor does it haunt me. But this experience has taught me to use better judgement. Here's my story...
    LittleDuck622 LittleDuck622 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 26, 2013

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    Anyone else pissed off

    and overcome with anger? https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=19ep5H6sNMg
    Banabear Banabear 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I wrote back here not to long ago

    but I thought I have moved on, I had a horrible panic attack today I was washing the dishes and I just dropped them I started having horrible flashbacks of me being raped and my husband ran into the kitchen and I thought he was one of my rapist so I started to scream and panic...
    Sarah4orever Sarah4orever 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I Should Have Been Smarter

    i had just turned 16 years old and i already struggled with depression from previous verbal abuse as a child but now one of my closest friends had passed away, i had never felt so lost in my life. there was this guy who was 23, he started showing interest in me and knew all the...
    lookingforsomethinglost lookingforsomethinglost 18-21, F 45 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    I was 14 and for so long I suffered from it.

    I was suffering from depression and the person who I thought was going to get me out of it poisoned my life.
    tonightsthenight tonightsthenight 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    Just read this on someone's blog

    and it's so true .. "Defining virginity ultimately has to be an individual journey. From a personal perspective I prefer to say that I was raped as a virgin rather than I lost my virginity to rape. My virginity was never up for grabs as it was always mine to choose to share with...
    demie18 demie18 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    Reading everyone else's experiences.

    ... It makes me feel so young. I lost my virginity at 10. To a 14 year old. He was my friend's brother. I was really close with him and we were pretty good friends. It happened at my friend's 11th birthday party. It was a sleepover. The girls were playing Just Dance and I was...
    DarkSoulInsaneHeart DarkSoulInsaneHeart 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 23

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    My Life Of Mysery

    Right now, I'm on the edge of suicide. I feel more alone than ever. I don't even have words to express how I feel. Ever since the truth came out, things have gone 360 degrees left for me. My life long dream has always been to confront him, but I don't think I have the courage to...
    kathyln kathyln 16-17, F 26 Responses Nov 11, 2012

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    Never Again

    It happened when I was 12. At school's bathroom. With like hundred of classmates in the hallway outside. I was like frozen through it, then got away. I told a friend that someone TRIED to rape me. She got scared and told it to everyone. It spread around the school and I was put...
    rulinna rulinna 26-30, F 13 Responses Mar 24, 2013

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    I was raped and I still remember

    and hurt like it happened yesterday...
    Unheardscreams Unheardscreams 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    Just Another Story..

    I dont like starting my story about how awful my rape was... I need to tell you about me.. My name is Kaylan. I am 18 years old, & i have a son named Asxen Larkin. Now here is my story. I was a freshman in high school. Short blonde skinny, everyone called me beautiful and told...
    LarkinsMommy LarkinsMommy 18-21, F 26 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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    Stolen Innocence

    Throughout my childhood I had never learnt about sex. The summer before starting seventh grade, I still didn't really know what sex was, I was twelve. That summer my family and I had gone to Balina, Queensland for the holidays and stayed with mum and dad's friends there, they had...
    isabellemitchell isabellemitchell 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2013

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    This is the first time in my life I will ever

    be sharing my story. It all started when I was 13. My parents were on meth from when I was 6 months old till I was 13. So yes at time things got really hard. But my older sister always had each other. She is my best friend my everything. My rock shoulder to cry on. When I say...
    Keishahamilton Keishahamilton 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 30

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    I don't really know how to start.

    it is like there is a filter in my brain keeping me from talking about it. But maybe i can write about it. So Hello there i guess. it is almost exactly 6 months ago, i can't believe that 7 months ago it wasn't a part of me, i was just trouble free, foolish little me. Any ways 6...
    helloandgoodby helloandgoodby 16-17, F 9 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    You Will Never Forget Your First...

    I'm going to make this simple and to the point. I was raped 9 years ago, when I was 14. I was a freshman in high school, had a steady boyfriend and great grades. However, I had to stay after school one day in April, to make up a World History exam. I asked my sister, who was a...
    orchidlove23 orchidlove23 22-25, F 37 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    I lost my virginity to rape.

    I was 9. My father raped me repeatedly, almost every day. It was horrible. I am currently 14, it was around 5 years ago. He died due to drug use and excessive drinking. I shouldn't have been sad about his death but I was, he was still my father after all.
    thefaultinmylife thefaultinmylife 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 3

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    I was raped on July 4th 2009,

    so almost exactly 5 years ago. To keep this brief, I am mostly over it, and entirely ready to become stronger. But what's eating away at me is wondering if he remembers it at all.. I wonder if he remembers that he used and abused a stupid 17 year old girl at a party with all...
    MyMindCravesNectar MyMindCravesNectar 18-21, F Jul 3

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    Left For Dead

    I was 12 years old when I was brutally drugged, raped, and left for dead in a ditch in front of a church. My father would not believe me when I told him. I became pregnant but because I was heavy into drugs I lost the child. It took me 2 years to become sober. I told lies and...
    Izzy1569 Izzy1569 16-17, F 8 Responses Sep 20, 2013

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    Two months of being mislead.

    Two years of denial. Two more years of not letting go. Two sides of this story, and I'm dying to know his. But since I can't have that, and I probably never will, I'll just have to share mine. I was twelve years old, it was the middle of summer. I'd never been a very social kid...
    FixatedDreamer FixatedDreamer 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 10

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    2015 March 22 3:25 p.

    m. I was wearing a blue t - shirt and skinny jeans. He was wearing a blue and orange viking sweatshirt that belonged to our school. And black sweatpants. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Jason was my best friend. Was. I remember how he had talked me into going to the...
    MadHatter1521 MadHatter1521 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    While My Mother Was Watching And Did Nothing

    I was 14 years old when it happened. I grew up in a bad neighborhood and always heard stories of all the horrible stuff people would do. I was scared all the time, but I never would of thought that I would be raped in my own house and my mother watched.. I walked into the house...
    deleted deleted 26-30 53 Responses May 6, 2012

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    This Time Of Year

    It's always this time of year when I remember more things that happened when I was raped since the holidays are like a jumbled together I don't know how I remember them but its like every time a holiday comes my brain releases something I locked up in a vault in my head to forget...
    melvis501388 melvis501388 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 31, 2013

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    It's your fault. It wasn't rape.

    You didn't want it, but you didn't try hard to resist. Right? I mean.. it's not like you were an insecure 14 year old and he was a responsible adult or anything. Crying, pleading and gently trying to push him off aren't exactly going to do anything- you turned him on, and you...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 13 Responses Apr 4

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    I was raped at 14. No one found out I was raped

    until 3 years later when I finally spoke up about it.. It was three years of my life I know I'd never get back and the day it happened, I felt I was no longer in control of anything in my life. It felt like my own life had slipped through my own fingers. Every day I'm constantly...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 16 Responses Jul 22

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    When I was 13 me and my family went on this

    "family trip" so we were headed to where we were going, until I told my mom I had to use the bathroom. And that's when she stopped over and turned in the woods so I could go, but I didn't want to go alone cause I was scared, so that's when my brother(he was 18) said he would...
    lanadelreyyfan lanadelreyyfan 18-21, F 15 Responses May 11

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    My Best Friend's Boyfriend Stole My Virginity

    It was 2 days before I turned 17 and the end of the school year. My friend M and I were going to skip school together because it was the last day before finals. She had asked her boyfriend to come with us and he said he would. But that morning she found out she had to do a test...
    zesta zesta 31-35, F 10 Responses Apr 22, 2013

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    Well um it happend last year

    when i was 14. I am now 15. I was leaving a friend's house around 11, and at the time i didnt think it was a big deal since we lived close to eachother. I didnt have a phone at the time because my stupid brother broke it (dropped it in the pool), Anyways it was dark and cold and...
    Kylieblazinit Kylieblazinit 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 29

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    Flashbacks are starting to comeback

    and it really sucks I feel like there is no one at all to talk to I hide all my emotions inside til someone pushes my button then I blow up...
    Sarah4orever Sarah4orever 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Survived...

    I was twelve years old when it first happened. My mother had only recently separated from my father (a man who never gave a damn about us). My mother soon met a man, whom she married. We lived in a very narrow apartment, only one bathroom, and two bedrooms. I slept in one of...
    Alykz20 Alykz20 18-21, F 10 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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    I'm a good person, I help every one I can

    and would never hurt a fly. I was a good student and a amazing friend but life just never dealt me very nice cards. I was barely 14 when I got sick, it progressed quickly and sooner then later I was unable to go to school. Soon after that I was unable to even go out of the house...
    abusedandused abusedandused 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I'm 15 and I honestly don't

    even remember the age it started , I finally told my parents 2 years ago he got away with it because I told my experience to only 2 teachers before and they didn't want to get in trouble so they kind of killed me even more when they said that I didn't say anything to them so the...
    hiddenname23 hiddenname23 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    I lost my virginity to rape

    when I was 19. I was on break at work when he pushed me against the wall. I told him no several times but he still untucked my work shirt and slammed his hand into my slacks. He tried to stimulate me but it didn't work. I pulled his hand out and tried my best to push him away...
    Daddysdirtyslave Daddysdirtyslave 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 18

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