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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    You can’t say that the moment

    when your brought into this world is going to be good. Hey my mom had me when she was sixteen, and she tried charges the guy who she got pregnant by with rape. My real dad. I don’t know. But then me being born, under a young teen mom. Her on the move and go with her mom and...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Today I thought I found a friend.

    .....who knew everything I felt,she knew all my weaknessesand the problems that I have been dealtshe always understood my wondersand listened to my dreamsshe listened to how I feltabout life and lovesorrow and sadnessheart break and shameand she knew what it all meant to menot...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Oct 22, 2014

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 46-50, F 6 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    On my way to love... I saw the storm,

    I know its coming may way. I'm scared, I know it will destroy everything I had, but I know I need to go through it... There's no turning back... Now I'm in it... It doesn't as bad as I thought it was... But I lost my heart...
    vavaeast vavaeast 31-35, F Nov 10, 2014

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    I have no drive. I'm currently studying

    for my exams and I dont want to study. Its been like this all year, my marks are pretty bad. I wasnt always like this. I dont know whats changed. How do I get my drive back?
    mj985 mj985 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I feel like I used to be this wonderful,

    bright, affectionate person. I gave Free Hugs, was everyone's shoulder to cry on, and just tried to enjoy living. Sure, I had my own issues that I dealt with in terrible ways, but at least I was happy some of the time. It feels now like I'm in a daze, a kind of robotic, never...
    onebadstrudel onebadstrudel 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 12 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    What I have to do now is find my way back to

    myself. And once I have found myself I must hang on to it.
    alan61a alan61a 51-55, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I'll start off saying

    that perception is reality, reality isn't based on anything existing but ourselves, our perceptive. When we are born, we are nothing but little creatures little infants full of pure innocences, love and forgiveness, somewhere along the way we get lost in reality as we grow up...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Dec 3, 2014

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    Why do you come to me Searching

    but hidden Things you must say But know are forbidden Our souls have entwined I feel your sweet presence The desires you feel To devour my essence Running from something Afraid of your heart Desires overcome you Even though we're apart Are you afraid? Of what can never be You...
    Hidndesires Hidndesires 41-45, F Feb 7

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 May 28, 2014

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    I know when you were little girl you dreamed of

    living in my world don't forget it , don't forget respect that bow down ******* . i took sometime to live my life but don't think i'm just his little wife don't get it twisted This is my ****!! Bow Down ******* #Beyonce
    Yovanna Yovanna 18-21, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 41-45, M Dec 8, 2014

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    I was here, then I wasn't.

    Now I am back with a few more ingredients to ad to my lonesome recipe. Today she told me she no longer see's me as her rock... Her man. That she feels she must be my rock. That she wants us to get back to where we once were... But that she has had to be her own rock. Wow...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Engkinky Engkinky 31-35, M Oct 15, 2014

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    I've been doing fine

    for the past few months.. but I think about dying, and it doesn't seem like a bad idea.
    ripmalia ripmalia 18-21, F Nov 18, 2014

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    I was on ep before...

    .loved it...it was my place. i met someone on here, we met, now live together. deleted my ep sometime along the way. three years later now ive lost myself entirely. holy ****. i created this ep sometime in may last year i guess...i posted some songs here...that i cant...
    LostInTheLight LostInTheLight 26-30, F Sep 12, 2014

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    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 7 Responses Feb 9

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    This will sound super childish

    but whenever im in school I always feel ignored,invisible and hated. I talked to a friend about it and all she said is that I need to be more confident and talk however when I do its just me talking to myself. This seems to be happening alot. Also Ive been failing in my classes...
    animatedgirlpaula animatedgirlpaula 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I know I'm losing myself.

    depression and anger are the only feelings I have. well that's not true but I really don't feel like I'm genuinely happy. It takes a lot for me to smile and I only do it for my little ones. Because I just can't bare the thought of them seeing me so down. I pretend to at least...
    Jeshayna Jeshayna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I didn't know that was possible,

    i did not know that you would lose your own identity. For you to understand what i truly mean do you need to know this, i suffer from an amnesia. my parents died in a car accident but i somehow survived. i broke my arm and hit my head really badly. The only reason I'm alive is...
    Theresa248 Theresa248 22-25, F Sep 19, 2014

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    I lost myself. All my hopes

    and dreams went down the toilet long ago. I was once thin and beautiful but didn't think so. Therefor I gave up on everything. Now I am ugly and fat I could never do what I wanted to do before. I feel like I'm 70 years old at 21. My life is boring, depressing, and I hate myself...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I feel like i am losing control of my existence.

    I can be anybody at anytime and that technically makes me nobody. It's like after struggling for a while between who i am and who i wanna be i fell in a dark abyss. No where to go, no road to follow.
    bluenightmare bluenightmare 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Just wondering, how many times do i need to try

    before making things right. I have tried like... I have lost count, it sucks but mayBe worth it. My ideas are like a a wave of uncertainities, they boil somewhere I less expect. I just lost myself, soewhere along the way and I don't know why.
    lonelypeople lonelypeople 26-30, M Nov 22, 2014

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    I had to grow up too fast

    and somewhere along the line, I lost myself...
    oneofthoseweirdos oneofthoseweirdos 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    M1362 M1362 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 24 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 18-21, M Dec 11, 2014

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    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F Jun 6, 2013

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 9 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I just don't know who I am anymore.

    I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that my "popular" friends weren't real and it was all fake. I'm trying to remember who I was before party girl me. I know I loved Hello Kitty...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 5 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    TheRealMaxStax TheRealMaxStax 26-30, M 3 Responses