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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 12,177 People

    M1362 M1362 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    my history is dark and gruesome

    where I thou I could protect those I loved where I didn't have to hide but those days are long since gone I still remember the pain of the past I still remember as it spills in my mind of all I have failed to do I was young about 7 or 8 around that time I was confused I thou...
    ronchetto ronchetto 22-25, M Nov 29, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 8 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I feel like i am losing control of my existence.

    I can be anybody at anytime and that technically makes me nobody. It's like after struggling for a while between who i am and who i wanna be i fell in a dark abyss. No where to go, no road to follow.
    bluenightmare bluenightmare 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    I was here, then I wasn't.

    Now I am back with a few more ingredients to ad to my lonesome recipe. Today she told me she no longer see's me as her rock... Her man. That she feels she must be my rock. That she wants us to get back to where we once were... But that she has had to be her own rock. Wow...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 18-21, M Dec 11, 2014

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    JulianLucci JulianLucci 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 14 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I feel like my entire life has just been a

    struggle. Im too chicken **** to kill myself but i pray every night to die in my sleep. Im tired of living, im exhausted. I cant do this, and i honestly no longer have hope. I feel like its one struggle after the next. Trauma after trauma. People tell me to stay strong but i...
    niellyn niellyn 22-25 2 Responses Mar 31

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    Just wondering, how many times do i need to try

    before making things right. I have tried like... I have lost count, it sucks but mayBe worth it. My ideas are like a a wave of uncertainities, they boil somewhere I less expect. I just lost myself, soewhere along the way and I don't know why.
    lonelypeople lonelypeople 26-30, M Nov 22, 2014

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    It's the day before my court.

    And I am preparing and getting ready for my court trial tomorrow morning. I had to hitch hike to wiky this afternoon. Rode in the back of a truck. Got off at the band office, walked inside and got the thing I was looking for. A brochure stating "Wikwemikong PeaceMaker Justice...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Mar 28

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    You can’t say that the moment

    when your brought into this world is going to be good. Hey my mom had me when she was sixteen, and she tried charges the guy who she got pregnant by with rape. My real dad. I don’t know. But then me being born, under a young teen mom. Her on the move and go with her mom and...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    I just don't know who I am anymore.

    I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that my "popular" friends weren't real and it was all fake. I'm trying to remember who I was before party girl me. I know I loved Hello Kitty...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    - Losing life is like losing love In every

    direction a dim touch Twin stares single breath Gone Even the flower that blooms Red or grey A fluttering butterfly Or still And the beating heart Only bleeds blood To beat life But not love Bearing repeating starts Every moment is the moment you left me Every drudge...
    Ymfas Ymfas 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 8

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    You think to yourself "what the **** am I doing"

    but that doesn't stop you from making the mistakes you know will break your heart. Because somewhere in that ****** up little head of yours you think someone might genuinely give a **** about you.... but that's ludicrous and you're a masochist. So you just give yourself away...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 12

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    I don't know who I am anymore I have completely

    lost my self. I began this year trying to change my life and all I did was make it worst I am falling all of my. lasses I have no true friends. I have literally convinced my self not to love or trust any one . all I see in my life is down hill I am always at war with my self my...
    misprisy101 misprisy101 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 51-55, F 6 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    On my way to love... I saw the storm,

    I know its coming may way. I'm scared, I know it will destroy everything I had, but I know I need to go through it... There's no turning back... Now I'm in it... It doesn't as bad as I thought it was... But I lost my heart...
    vavaeast vavaeast 36-40, F Nov 10, 2014

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    What I have to do now is find my way back to

    myself. And once I have found myself I must hang on to it.
    alan61a alan61a 51-55, M 1 Response Feb 20

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 18-21 May 28, 2014

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    I had to grow up too fast

    and somewhere along the line, I lost myself...
    oneofthoseweirdos oneofthoseweirdos 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I lost myself while loving a man too hard.

    I wish I knew before it happened. if I knew this was all going to be game to him I would've gave half of me or ended. Now my heart is filled with so much bitterness and hate. I'm distant from family and friends. I've been drinking for 3 weeks straight. I don't eat. I sleep all...
    candij1983 candij1983 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I have no drive. I'm currently studying

    for my exams and I dont want to study. Its been like this all year, my marks are pretty bad. I wasnt always like this. I dont know whats changed. How do I get my drive back?
    mj985 mj985 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be,

    but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life where I honestly dont care if people think of me and that I am building a friendbase that is accepting and loving towards me, just like I accept and...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response May 20

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    I sometimes wonder what people don't like about

    me. How some hate me even. What did I do? Why can't I be your friend? We may like the same things...
    chantie95xo chantie95xo 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 5

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    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F Jun 6, 2013

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 41-45, M Dec 8, 2014

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    Along The Way

    I wonder if its just the fact that I'm getting older and don't view things in the same mindset as i did when i was younger, but I cant seem to shake the feeling that im lost here. I used to be the "life of the party" so to speak. I was a very strong minded person, quick to jump...
    kayblue kayblue 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    Look at me. Notice me.

    Is this person ME? Understand why I'm doing this. Hug me. Tell me everything will be alright. Tell me you are sorry. Tell me you are going to be here for me. Tell me this is a joke. Tell me I can always count on you. I really nedd you. I'm really lost. Why is she doing this to...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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