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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer 46-50, F 27 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    I'm not sure exactly what it was

    or maybe I do, but I don't want to admit it to myself. I lost who I was. I lost my close relationship with God. I lost my cool BC I snap at people. I'm too quiet now. I can't even have a conversation with someone. I'm always sad and when I'm happy I feel like I'm supposed to be...
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2015

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 18-21 May 28, 2014

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    The blank wall which seems to be screaming at

    me. Who am I? Where am I going? Why exist when all there is only suffering? Do I want to live the same day repeated till death only it's a downward spiral like NIN album? My shoulders are tense. I seem to be paralysed when I attempt to do a chore. I feel as if I am frozen while...
    Hamhavi Hamhavi 18-21, M Jul 25, 2015

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    I married young... I loved being married,

    but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and I both were, there are parts of me that stopped developing. I didn't need to be strong in certain ways because of who he was. It is a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    the best thing when get lost,

    is that before you get lost was someone, something, but when you open your eyes to find your self lost in family lost in society, don't know where to go and why I'm doing this, family fight al time, murder Threat ? my brother kill my dad, kill my cousin ,and know will get to me...
    justforgottenSOS justforgottenSOS 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 8, 2015

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 3 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    I was stuck in a loveless marriage,

    but it was worst than that. For over 10 years I knew I didn't love her, but I though if I changed who I was I would be happier. ...and then I started to change more and more. I had a number of affairs to try and feel something. than I fell in love, I talked my wife in to an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 8, 2015

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    Along The Way

    I wonder if its just the fact that I'm getting older and don't view things in the same mindset as i did when i was younger, but I cant seem to shake the feeling that im lost here. I used to be the "life of the party" so to speak. I was a very strong minded person, quick to jump...
    kayblue kayblue 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2014

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 9, 2015

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I feel like I lost who I am,

    but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel like I can't go on adventures anymore. I miss the person I used to be, the class clown goof ball who couldn't find anything...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    You think to yourself "what the **** am I doing"

    but that doesn't stop you from making the mistakes you know will break your heart. Because somewhere in that ****** up little head of yours you think someone might genuinely give a **** about you.... but that's ludicrous and you're a masochist. So you just give yourself away...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 12, 2015

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    i feel like something is misssing in my life ,

    i don't know what ,but there is something which is holding me back and i am in search for that particular thing..it feels like a parasite which is growing on my positive energy.
    GetRudra GetRudra 18-21, M Jan 28

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 51-55, F 4 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    i lost my self again

    even i was try to move on with my life but seems im still can't feel how about my self its like nothing spirit and just trapped by condition i cant go on again ouuuu God... what happen with thats all im so hopeless seems no one again who want me and love me :(
    DaynaLidya990 DaynaLidya990 22-25, F Jan 24

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    It's a funny old world ain't it ?

    I just wanna write about my experience that I've had with EP over the last couple of years as a way of closure to a relationship with an online community that has brought me laughs, sadness, enlightenment, insight, inspiration and last but no means least connected me with a very...
    RolexRush RolexRush 31-35, F Feb 5

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 13 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    HollowBravado HollowBravado 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    I am unsatisfied, restless,

    and constantly feeling uneasy. This is all after my ex and I broke up. I don't feel like myself, and want to get back on track, but I am not sure how.
    brentlz brentlz 16-17, M Aug 25, 2015

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 21 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be,

    but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life where I honestly dont care if people think of me and that I am building a friendbase that is accepting and loving towards me, just like I accept and...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response May 20, 2015

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    I am a runner I will not mind the roughness

    nor the steepness of the way Nor the chill, unrested morning, nor the searness of the day I will no more take a turning to the left or to the right But go straight ahead, for the road leads home. :)
    Solegne Solegne 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I've struggled with a horrendous cocaine

    and alcohol addiction (the worst combination ever) for the past few years. I've been in a hole and I never thought I'd surface. Idk what's happened to me in the past week, but something's changed. A switch has turned on.. Or off (depending on how you look at it). I haven't drank...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2015

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    I feel like my entire life has just been a

    struggle. Im too chicken **** to kill myself but i pray every night to die in my sleep. Im tired of living, im exhausted. I cant do this, and i honestly no longer have hope. I feel like its one struggle after the next. Trauma after trauma. People tell me to stay strong but i...
    niellyn niellyn 26-30 2 Responses Mar 31, 2015

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    Most of the time I don't

    even know what I like anymore. I don't know what I want to eat, watch or do. I don't have fun doing much anything. I feel like I'm just living my life wrong, like I'm on the wrong path or there's still something missing. I just don't know what to do the only feelings I seem to...
    LostInADream96 LostInADream96 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11, 2015

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 11 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    I used to score the best in the college,

    I was always on the top, I used to study 12-15 hours a day,I don't know why but I couldn't join masters after graduating.First I got admission in some university but due to my father's sickness I had to come home leaving it.The year later I tried in many universities and was...
    destinedboy destinedboy 22-25, M Sep 10, 2015

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 8 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    Probably Probably I'm not really crazy

    but I'm having a set back tonight. Probably I'll be okay by bedtime. Probably I'll get on with things. I'm going through the motions and things are going great. On the inside though, there's storms brewing and occasionally I lose it. It's when I'm alone. Everyone is tired of...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2015

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    Some say true love prevails ,

    but what if your heart was so smashed you just are not able to love properly . You can be loved and feel loved, but it is like impossible to give back cause that feeling of having a heart has been destroyed and stretched for across the galaxy. Just lingering fragments of ones...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 18-21, M Jul 12, 2015

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I sometimes wonder what people don't like about

    me. How some hate me even. What did I do? Why can't I be your friend? We may like the same things...
    chantie95xo chantie95xo 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 5, 2015

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    - Losing life is like losing love In every

    direction a dim touch Twin stares single breath Gone Even the flower that blooms Red or grey A fluttering butterfly Or still And the beating heart Only bleeds blood To beat life But not love Bearing repeating starts Every moment is the moment you left me Every drudge...
    Ymfas Ymfas 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 8, 2015

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    BurningArrows BurningArrows 18-21, M Nov 27, 2015

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