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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    JulianLucci JulianLucci 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    I've been doing fine

    for the past few months.. but I think about dying, and it doesn't seem like a bad idea.
    ripmalia ripmalia 18-21, F Nov 18, 2014

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    I feel like i am losing control of my existence.

    I can be anybody at anytime and that technically makes me nobody. It's like after struggling for a while between who i am and who i wanna be i fell in a dark abyss. No where to go, no road to follow.
    bluenightmare bluenightmare 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer 46-50, F 28 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    You can’t say that the moment

    when your brought into this world is going to be good. Hey my mom had me when she was sixteen, and she tried charges the guy who she got pregnant by with rape. My real dad. I don’t know. But then me being born, under a young teen mom. Her on the move and go with her mom and...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    I have no drive. I'm currently studying

    for my exams and I dont want to study. Its been like this all year, my marks are pretty bad. I wasnt always like this. I dont know whats changed. How do I get my drive back?
    mj985 mj985 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I just don't know who I am anymore.

    I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that my "popular" friends weren't real and it was all fake. I'm trying to remember who I was before party girl me. I know I loved Hello Kitty...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    M1362 M1362 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 May 28, 2014

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 18-21, M Dec 11, 2014

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    What I have to do now is find my way back to

    myself. And once I have found myself I must hang on to it.
    alan61a alan61a 51-55, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    I was here, then I wasn't.

    Now I am back with a few more ingredients to ad to my lonesome recipe. Today she told me she no longer see's me as her rock... Her man. That she feels she must be my rock. That she wants us to get back to where we once were... But that she has had to be her own rock. Wow...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F Jun 6, 2013

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 15 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I lost myself. All my hopes

    and dreams went down the toilet long ago. I was once thin and beautiful but didn't think so. Therefor I gave up on everything. Now I am ugly and fat I could never do what I wanted to do before. I feel like I'm 70 years old at 21. My life is boring, depressing, and I hate myself...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 51-55, F 6 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 41-45, M Dec 8, 2014

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    Why do you come to me Searching

    but hidden Things you must say But know are forbidden Our souls have entwined I feel your sweet presence The desires you feel To devour my essence Running from something Afraid of your heart Desires overcome you Even though we're apart Are you afraid? Of what can never be You...
    Hidndesires Hidndesires 46-50, F Feb 7

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    Don't Kow Where Or How I Became So Lost

    I've often thought to myself and even said that somehow or somewhere I lost my way.  And the feeling is numbness and loss of direction.  It's like I took a wrong turn (it goes way back) and I just kelp going blindly and never regained sense of direction. And this makes...
    wordsforliving wordsforliving 46-50, F 7 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    Engkinky Engkinky 31-35, M Oct 15, 2014

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I was very lost for a very long time,

    which almost all of us experience i am sure. I made so many mistakes and there are so many things i could have done differently. Alas i stand where i am today because of each and every moment leading up to what i have in my life and in myself right now! The truth about my...
    VintageSparrow VintageSparrow 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2014

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    I don't know who I am anymore I have completely

    lost my self. I began this year trying to change my life and all I did was make it worst I am falling all of my. lasses I have no true friends. I have literally convinced my self not to love or trust any one . all I see in my life is down hill I am always at war with my self my...
    misprisy101 misprisy101 13-15, F Mar 6

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    I feel like my entire life has just been a

    struggle. Im too chicken **** to kill myself but i pray every night to die in my sleep. Im tired of living, im exhausted. I cant do this, and i honestly no longer have hope. I feel like its one struggle after the next. Trauma after trauma. People tell me to stay strong but i...
    niellyn niellyn 22-25 1 day ago

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I know when you were little girl you dreamed of

    living in my world don't forget it , don't forget respect that bow down ******* . i took sometime to live my life but don't think i'm just his little wife don't get it twisted This is my ****!! Bow Down ******* #Beyonce
    Yovanna Yovanna 18-21, F Sep 14, 2014

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    I had to grow up too fast

    and somewhere along the line, I lost myself...
    oneofthoseweirdos oneofthoseweirdos 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I'll start off saying

    that perception is reality, reality isn't based on anything existing but ourselves, our perceptive. When we are born, we are nothing but little creatures little infants full of pure innocences, love and forgiveness, somewhere along the way we get lost in reality as we grow up...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Dec 3, 2014

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2014

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    meh, i remember when i was a happy chappy 99%

    of the time, no worries and no drama, then stuff all changed, i put my dreams on hold to help support my gf at the time, and ended up never getting a chance to chase them, just settling for mediocre and as long as she was happy..i was :3...but things change..people destroy you...
    PonderingPanda PonderingPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 13, 2014

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I know I'm losing myself.

    depression and anger are the only feelings I have. well that's not true but I really don't feel like I'm genuinely happy. It takes a lot for me to smile and I only do it for my little ones. Because I just can't bare the thought of them seeing me so down. I pretend to at least...
    Jeshayna Jeshayna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    This will sound super childish

    but whenever im in school I always feel ignored,invisible and hated. I talked to a friend about it and all she said is that I need to be more confident and talk however when I do its just me talking to myself. This seems to be happening alot. Also Ive been failing in my classes...
    animatedgirlpaula animatedgirlpaula 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    my history is dark and gruesome

    where I thou I could protect those I loved where I didn't have to hide but those days are long since gone I still remember the pain of the past I still remember as it spills in my mind of all I have failed to do I was young about 7 or 8 around that time I was confused I thou...
    ronchetto ronchetto 22-25, M Nov 29, 2014

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