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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I started out trying to be a good person

    but there is this side of me that's like a virus infecting my very soul. It is a addiction that never goes away no matter what it always comes back my own personal demon. It is the reason I am a liar. It is the reason I fear moving forward with my life for fear I will screw up...
    MrAnonymous13 MrAnonymous13 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 7

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    my history is dark and gruesome

    where I thou I could protect those I loved where I didn't have to hide but those days are long since gone I still remember the pain of the past I still remember as it spills in my mind of all I have failed to do I was young about 7 or 8 around that time I was confused I thou...
    ronchetto ronchetto 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I was on ep before...

    .loved it...it was my place. i met someone on here, we met, now live together. deleted my ep sometime along the way. three years later now ive lost myself entirely. holy ****. i created this ep sometime in may last year i guess...i posted some songs here...that i cant...
    LostInTheLight LostInTheLight 26-30, F Sep 12

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    I've been doing fine

    for the past few months.. but I think about dying, and it doesn't seem like a bad idea.
    ripmalia ripmalia 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I feel like I lost myself 4 years ago.

    Ever since I met this stupid guy. I wish I never met him in the first place. Because I fell in love with him and it just messed up everything. And people always tells me that everything happens for a reason. But when I think about and think if I didn't meet him would I still be...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 1

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 9 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 May 28

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    I'm 60 yo male that at one point in my life I

    had everything in control, everything normal my emotions my confidents, somewhere within the last several years because of trouble with my kids(adults now) problems with my spouse of 30 years-getting divorce , losing my job-meeting a young lady in Central America--I don't know...
    dangon75 dangon75 56-60 2 Responses Sep 7

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16

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    Today I thought I found a friend.

    .....who knew everything I felt,she knew all my weaknessesand the problems that I have been dealtshe always understood my wondersand listened to my dreamsshe listened to how I feltabout life and lovesorrow and sadnessheart break and shameand she knew what it all meant to menot...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Oct 22

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 24

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 21

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 41-45, M Dec 8

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 24 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I wonder if most people feel this way about

    themselves at some point (or multiple times) in their lives. I know I have. Although for me it's like I can't really put a finger on where I lost myself. I look back on life and wonder how did I end up here? Was it this reason or that reason? I simply don't know. I...
    thedude5600 thedude5600 36-40, M 2 Responses Aug 29

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    Mnabil Mnabil 36-40, M Oct 15

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    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 9

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Hi Guys GOOD TO BE BACK I have not been on here

    for a while but I have come back as I feel that you are some of the best people to talk to as there are no judgements and you tell it how it is so here we go. From the age of about 12 I have been a compulsive lier. Then I would only use it to fit in to certain social...
    AlexUK23 AlexUK23 18-21, M Aug 19

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    I know when you were little girl you dreamed of

    living in my world don't forget it , don't forget respect that bow down ******* . i took sometime to live my life but don't think i'm just his little wife don't get it twisted This is my ****!! Bow Down ******* #Beyonce
    Yovanna Yovanna 18-21, F Sep 14

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    I had to grow up too fast

    and somewhere along the line, I lost myself...
    oneofthoseweirdos oneofthoseweirdos 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I had a dream this morning.

    I was back in my school hanging out with my first love. Someone I've loved but did not love me. In the dream we were laying on the bench under the tree. The sun was shining. .. we comforted each other with words and gestures. He told me about his ambition. I listened lovingly...
    SolitarySol SolitarySol 31-35, F Aug 27

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    Just wondering, how many times do i need to try

    before making things right. I have tried like... I have lost count, it sucks but mayBe worth it. My ideas are like a a wave of uncertainities, they boil somewhere I less expect. I just lost myself, soewhere along the way and I don't know why.
    lonelypeople lonelypeople 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 22

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    I am tired of my relationship with my husband

    and yet there is no end in sight ....:(
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 5 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm 35 and I am still not sure

    who I am going to be when I grow up. If you had asked me when I was a child or a teenager, I had goals and dreams. Things in life have taken me off that path and now I feel like I just exist, take up space, with no real purpose.
    Blue1513 Blue1513 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    ActionMax ActionMax 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3

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    I'll start off saying

    that perception is reality, reality isn't based on anything existing but ourselves, our perceptive. When we are born, we are nothing but little creatures little infants full of pure innocences, love and forgiveness, somewhere along the way we get lost in reality as we grow up...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F Dec 3

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Don't Kow Where Or How I Became So Lost

    I've often thought to myself and even said that somehow or somewhere I lost my way.  And the feeling is numbness and loss of direction.  It's like I took a wrong turn (it goes way back) and I just kelp going blindly and never regained sense of direction. And this makes...
    wordsforliving wordsforliving 46-50, F 7 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 12

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    I was very lost for a very long time,

    which almost all of us experience i am sure. I made so many mistakes and there are so many things i could have done differently. Alas i stand where i am today because of each and every moment leading up to what i have in my life and in myself right now! The truth about my...
    Sproetjies3 Sproetjies3 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    This will sound super childish

    but whenever im in school I always feel ignored,invisible and hated. I talked to a friend about it and all she said is that I need to be more confident and talk however when I do its just me talking to myself. This seems to be happening alot. Also Ive been failing in my classes...
    animatedgirlpaula animatedgirlpaula 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 23

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 46-50, F 7 Responses Sep 5

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    On my way to love... I saw the storm,

    I know its coming may way. I'm scared, I know it will destroy everything I had, but I know I need to go through it... There's no turning back... Now I'm in it... It doesn't as bad as I thought it was... But I lost my heart...
    vavaeast vavaeast 31-35, F Nov 10

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    My therapist wants me to be okay,

    my stepmom wants me to be perfect, my dad wants me to go away, and my teachers want me to try harder. It's had to be yourself when people are asking you to be something else. :(
    celiy celiy 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I feel like i am losing control of my existence.

    I can be anybody at anytime and that technically makes me nobody. It's like after struggling for a while between who i am and who i wanna be i fell in a dark abyss. No where to go, no road to follow.
    bluenightmare bluenightmare 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    You can’t say that the moment

    when your brought into this world is going to be good. Hey my mom had me when she was sixteen, and she tried charges the guy who she got pregnant by with rape. My real dad. I don’t know. But then me being born, under a young teen mom. Her on the move and go with her mom and...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 14

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    meh, i remember when i was a happy chappy 99%

    of the time, no worries and no drama, then stuff all changed, i put my dreams on hold to help support my gf at the time, and ended up never getting a chance to chase them, just settling for mediocre and as long as she was happy..i was :3...but things change..people destroy you...
    PonderingPanda PonderingPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I didn't know that was possible,

    i did not know that you would lose your own identity. For you to understand what i truly mean do you need to know this, i suffer from an amnesia. my parents died in a car accident but i somehow survived. i broke my arm and hit my head really badly. The only reason I'm alive is...
    Theresa248 Theresa248 22-25, F Sep 19

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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