I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I feel like I lost who I am,

    but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel like I can't go on adventures anymore. I miss the person I used to be, the class clown goof ball who couldn't find anything...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2016
    BurningArrows BurningArrows
    18-21, M
    Nov 27, 2015

    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

    i lost my self again

    even i was try to move on with my life but seems im still can't feel how about my self its like nothing spirit and just trapped by condition i cant go on again ouuuu God... what happen with thats all im so hopeless seems no one again who want me and love me :(
    deleted deleted
    Jan 24, 2016

    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom
    31-35, F
    39 Responses Dec 2, 2008

    But I'm back, baby ;-) Sincerely,

    I did find my way back. But is it the good part or the bad part of me that I got back too? Not sure yet.
    mercedes810 mercedes810
    26-30, F
    Mar 22, 2016

    Sometimes I just wonder "Life is playing games

    with me or I am playing games with my life" I am lost and finding a way out.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016


    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Oct 27, 2013

    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Sep 5, 2014

    It feels like I am lost somewhere in halfway

    home... Like I am in wrong place, time... and people around faceless, unfeeling.... On the other hand, I'm myself don't give'em any chance to take off their masks - I am trustless. Like I'm lost in a fog and wander there aimlessly - I'm powerless... ​ I am NO FACE.
    WhineWolfe WhineWolfe
    18-21, F
    Mar 11, 2016

    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 16, 2014

    In this municipality

    where I live, they say that when you start working for the city, you'll end up being slower and "calm" and that no one escapes it. My aunt did it, my dad did, I worked for the local authorities three months, and bam, I'm back in a state I was in BEFORE senior high school...
    mercedes810 mercedes810
    26-30, F
    Mar 27, 2016

    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

    the road used to be paved with promises

    blooming like flowers. birds singing songs of truth, of love. the sun illuminating my deepest desires and intentions to evolve and know god. Truth. every step created a ripple of love, of pure life energy. pure consciousness. it was as if it was always meant to be...
    beaubeau7 beaubeau7
    26-30, M
    Mar 7, 2016

    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Feb 9, 2015

    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer
    46-50, F
    26 Responses Jun 28, 2010

    i feel like something is misssing in my life ,

    i don't know what ,but there is something which is holding me back and i am in search for that particular thing..it feels like a parasite which is growing on my positive energy.
    GetRudra GetRudra
    22-25, M
    Jan 28, 2016

    i came here because someone i loved remembered

    horrible things from her past. it destroyed any relationship. i loved her. but things were broken. i wanted to find ways to cope...but i then found people who had similar pain in their past. i tried to help where i could. i remembered my own fight with self harm. and...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Mar 23, 2016

    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes
    May 28, 2014

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 3, 2016

    Fear has choked all possibilities of getting

    better. I woke up paralysed in consumed with thoughts. Unable to make choices, especially major ones. Afraid that it'll be a wrong one. I accept what I can't change but don't do anything when I can change possible outcomes. My body physically trembles in fear. My insides full...
    SelfishShellfish SelfishShellfish
    41-45, F
    Mar 8, 2016

    the best thing when get lost,

    is that before you get lost was someone, something, but when you open your eyes to find your self lost in family lost in society, don't know where to go and why I'm doing this, family fight al time, murder Threat ? my brother kill my dad, kill my cousin ,and know will get to me...
    justforgottenSOS justforgottenSOS
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 8, 2015

    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Mar 11, 2012

    It's a funny old world ain't it ?

    I just wanna write about my experience that I've had with EP over the last couple of years as a way of closure to a relationship with an online community that has brought me laughs, sadness, enlightenment, insight, inspiration and last but no means least connected me with a very...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 5, 2016

    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    I may like the premise of the Theroy of a

    Deadman song. Blow. A part of my soul has dissapated...
    Myzery Myzery
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 15, 2015

    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Aug 25, 2013

    I taught I had friends .

    ... I know I did wrong ??? But all I did was share my feelings ?? I became best friends with my best friend boyfriend ... And taught I caught feelings ... I told the two people I trusted the most him and my other best friend ... And they were the ones who told her ??? Now I...
    Norealfriends Norealfriends
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 3, 2016
    nevets68 nevets68
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Mar 31, 2016

    meh, i remember when i was a happy chappy 99%

    of the time, no worries and no drama, then stuff all changed, i put my dreams on hold to help support my gf at the time, and ended up never getting a chance to chase them, just settling for mediocre and as long as she was happy..i was :3...but things change..people destroy you...
    PonderingPanda PonderingPanda
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 13, 2014

    Most of the time I don't

    even know what I like anymore. I don't know what I want to eat, watch or do. I don't have fun doing much anything. I feel like I'm just living my life wrong, like I'm on the wrong path or there's still something missing. I just don't know what to do the only feelings I seem to...
    LostInADream96 LostInADream96
    22-25, F
    Sep 11, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    If you don't pray about it

    as much as you complain about it you shouldn't be complaining about it. Sometimes we say we want things to change, but we never go to the one who can bring change. Many times He is just sitting up their waiting to see how bad you want it. When you want something bad enough, you...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2016

    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 10, 2016

    I don't know what or how it happened.

    But at times I completely change. I can no longer be happy or enjoy myself. I can't even love myself for who I am anymore. I push all those around me as far as I can send them.
    Dakgu Dakgu
    31-35, M
    Mar 27, 2016

    Probably Probably I'm not really crazy

    but I'm having a set back tonight. Probably I'll be okay by bedtime. Probably I'll get on with things. I'm going through the motions and things are going great. On the inside though, there's storms brewing and occasionally I lose it. It's when I'm alone. Everyone is tired of...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    1 Response Dec 23, 2015

    I don't know why, but I seem

    so alienated from everyone. People come and people go..... I feel like a man without meaning, without purpose, yet I continue to move onto another day. I do not understand why I am still here, yet I am.
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    I sometimes wonder what people don't like about

    me. How some hate me even. What did I do? Why can't I be your friend? We may like the same things...
    chantie95xo chantie95xo
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 5, 2015

    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted
    20 Responses Mar 18, 2013

    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    HollowBravado HollowBravado
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2014
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 14, 2016

    Lately I've been feeling this sense of

    impending doom I look in the mirror and wonder who I am It's almost as if I don't even belong in my own body.. I look back in my life What I've done & what's been done to me and all I feel is regret And a sickening amount of failure I wonder if I will ever feel good about...
    anisahyama anisahyama
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 27, 2016

    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Aug 13, 2010

    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan
    26-30, M
    12 Responses Nov 21, 2014

    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    I married young... I loved being married,

    but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and I both were, there are parts of me that stopped developing. I didn't need to be strong in certain ways because of who he was. It is a...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2015

    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine
    26-30, F
    Jun 6, 2013

    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi
    56-60, F
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2011

    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2014

    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    I don't know where I am going

    and I don't even know where I am at. It's 1:46 am and I am sitting outside in my driveway crying and wondering why I keep going and what is the point? I have two people in my life who I talk to, one who knows more about me than anyone, and I mean nothing to them. This all just...
    WentAway WentAway
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 16, 2015

    When life is rough, pray.

    -------:------:-------:------:------ Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    18-21, M
    Apr 1, 2016

    you are here but not.

    when did it get so dark? when did this snow start to fall? we laughed and shared, basking in the warmth of the sun. your smile meant life to me. but bit by bit the laughter stopped and it grew cold. now i realize that my sun was you. you came into my life and touched it...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer
    46-50, M
    Mar 7, 2016

    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2014
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