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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    What I have to do now is find my way back to

    myself. And once I have found myself I must hang on to it.
    alan61a alan61a 51-55, M 1 Response Feb 20

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    I'm not sure exactly what it was

    or maybe I do, but I don't want to admit it to myself. I lost who I was. I lost my close relationship with God. I lost my cool BC I snap at people. I'm too quiet now. I can't even have a conversation with someone. I'm always sad and when I'm happy I feel like I'm supposed to be...
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 22-25, M Dec 11, 2014

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    M1362 M1362 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 14 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I feel like my entire life has just been a

    struggle. Im too chicken **** to kill myself but i pray every night to die in my sleep. Im tired of living, im exhausted. I cant do this, and i honestly no longer have hope. I feel like its one struggle after the next. Trauma after trauma. People tell me to stay strong but i...
    niellyn niellyn 22-25 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I don't know where I am going

    and I don't even know where I am at. It's 1:46 am and I am sitting outside in my driveway crying and wondering why I keep going and what is the point? I have two people in my life who I talk to, one who knows more about me than anyone, and I mean nothing to them. This all just...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    - Losing life is like losing love In every

    direction a dim touch Twin stares single breath Gone Even the flower that blooms Red or grey A fluttering butterfly Or still And the beating heart Only bleeds blood To beat life But not love Bearing repeating starts Every moment is the moment you left me Every drudge...
    Ymfas Ymfas 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 8

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    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer 46-50, F 28 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 18-21 May 28, 2014

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Some say true love prevails ,

    but what if your heart was so smashed you just are not able to love properly . You can be loved and feel loved, but it is like impossible to give back cause that feeling of having a heart has been destroyed and stretched for across the galaxy. Just lingering fragments of ones...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Jul 12

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    I was stuck in a loveless marriage,

    but it was worst than that. For over 10 years I knew I didn't love her, but I though if I changed who I was I would be happier. ...and then I started to change more and more. I had a number of affairs to try and feel something. than I fell in love, I talked my wife in to an...
    BarrelOMonkeys BarrelOMonkeys 41-45, M Aug 8

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    I sometimes wonder what people don't like about

    me. How some hate me even. What did I do? Why can't I be your friend? We may like the same things...
    chantie95xo chantie95xo 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 5

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    I am unsatisfied, restless,

    and constantly feeling uneasy. This is all after my ex and I broke up. I don't feel like myself, and want to get back on track, but I am not sure how.
    brentlz brentlz 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F Jun 6, 2013

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    I don't know who I am anymore I have completely

    lost my self. I began this year trying to change my life and all I did was make it worst I am falling all of my. lasses I have no true friends. I have literally convinced my self not to love or trust any one . all I see in my life is down hill I am always at war with my self my...
    misprisy101 misprisy101 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2014

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 8 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I just don't know who I am anymore.

    I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that my "popular" friends weren't real and it was all fake. I'm trying to remember who I was before party girl me. I know I loved Hello Kitty...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I Have Lost My Personality And Sense Of Humor

    And It Is Ruining My Life. For the past year i feel as though my life has been tumbling down a hill with an endless slope. In the past I was one of the funniest people out of all of my friends and that I personally knew of. I would be able to turn even the most dry statment or...
    Yappogi Yappogi 13-15, M Aug 13

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    JulianLucci JulianLucci 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 46-50, M Dec 8, 2014

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    What a difficult and confusing process.

    ..trying to 'un-become', to understand and accept who I truly am...and hopefully get back some of the passion that has been lost in my soul for far too long.
    lifesinlimbo lifesinlimbo 51-55, F 5 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I lost myself while loving a man too hard.

    I wish I knew before it happened. if I knew this was all going to be game to him I would've gave half of me or ended. Now my heart is filled with so much bitterness and hate. I'm distant from family and friends. I've been drinking for 3 weeks straight. I don't eat. I sleep all...
    candij1983 candij1983 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I was here, then I wasn't.

    Now I am back with a few more ingredients to ad to my lonesome recipe. Today she told me she no longer see's me as her rock... Her man. That she feels she must be my rock. That she wants us to get back to where we once were... But that she has had to be her own rock. Wow...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    You think to yourself "what the **** am I doing"

    but that doesn't stop you from making the mistakes you know will break your heart. Because somewhere in that ****** up little head of yours you think someone might genuinely give a **** about you.... but that's ludicrous and you're a masochist. So you just give yourself away...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 12

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    The blank wall which seems to be screaming at

    me. Who am I? Where am I going? Why exist when all there is only suffering? Do I want to live the same day repeated till death only it's a downward spiral like NIN album? My shoulders are tense. I seem to be paralysed when I attempt to do a chore. I feel as if I am frozen while...
    Hamhavi Hamhavi 18-21, M Jul 25

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    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 9, 2014

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I married young... I loved being married,

    but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and I both were, there are parts of me that stopped developing. I didn't need to be strong in certain ways because of who he was. It is a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24

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    I have no drive. I'm currently studying

    for my exams and I dont want to study. Its been like this all year, my marks are pretty bad. I wasnt always like this. I dont know whats changed. How do I get my drive back?
    mj985 mj985 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I've struggled with a horrendous cocaine

    and alcohol addiction (the worst combination ever) for the past few years. I've been in a hole and I never thought I'd surface. Idk what's happened to me in the past week, but something's changed. A switch has turned on.. Or off (depending on how you look at it). I haven't drank...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    Along The Way

    I wonder if its just the fact that I'm getting older and don't view things in the same mindset as i did when i was younger, but I cant seem to shake the feeling that im lost here. I used to be the "life of the party" so to speak. I was a very strong minded person, quick to jump...
    kayblue kayblue 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses