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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I'm one really f-ed up person.

    I'm such a monster. I don't know what's wrong with me sometimes. I manipulate people so badly. The ones that actually have liked me. I manipulate it somehow and I dunno. I guess that's why i'm all alone.
    Sometimesilence Sometimesilence 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I was working my way to becoming a whole person

    instead of a broken mess. I was fixing my life. Now I just feel like I'd deceived myself into thinking things were starting to be okay. I feel like everything I was, what made me...well...me, has been scooped out and discarded. I feel empty. All the joy and anger and...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 1 Response Apr 18

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    Yesterday I was curling my 14year olds

    daughters hair, she looked at me and said your face looks pretty, I said thanks she asked why I had makeup on ... I told her because I wanted to look nice...She goes what for your just mom you don't do anything but take care of us kids....... It hit me right then and there I...
    tspring tspring 31-35, F 17 Responses Jan 15

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    My whole life I've had a close,

    tight-knit relationship with my parents. Family is really important to me, including both of my sisters. A lot of the views and beliefs I have today clearly come from the familial influence I have. But as I've gotten older (and still very young, only a few months away 20), I...
    odm3 odm3 18-21 1 Response Apr 20

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    It took me a while to realize

    that somewhere along my path of life I actually managed to lose myself in reality. I lost old friends and gained new ones and realized I had changed myself and who I am to fit in with these new friends I changed my like in music not a lot but I do like the new music I discovered...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F Mar 26

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    My life has changed so much in the last couple

    years, I've lost all of my closest friends, I moved far away from my family and I've just been feeling really lost and confused. I've been making some pretty bad decisions but I'm trying to get my life back on track, but it's a lot harder than I expected.
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 2 Responses May 24, 2013

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    I feel like I lost myself 4 years ago.

    Ever since I met this stupid guy. I wish I never met him in the first place. Because I fell in love with him and it just messed up everything. And people always tells me that everything happens for a reason. But when I think about and think if I didn't meet him would I still be...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 1

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    Here I am, cruising through my mind

    and crawling through my heart in the Hope of finding pieces to finish this puzzle of " who am I". Not many years ago, I was a confident and ambitious girl ever ready to conquer the world. Can one person turn you into a stranger to yourself?! The deeper I swim, the more I...
    Hz228 Hz228 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 1

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 9 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I'm 35 and I am still not sure

    who I am going to be when I grow up. If you had asked me when I was a child or a teenager, I had goals and dreams. Things in life have taken me off that path and now I feel like I just exist, take up space, with no real purpose.
    Blue1513 Blue1513 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    meh, i remember when i was a happy chappy 99%

    of the time, no worries and no drama, then stuff all changed, i put my dreams on hold to help support my gf at the time, and ended up never getting a chance to chase them, just settling for mediocre and as long as she was happy..i was :3...but things change..people destroy you...
    PonderingPanda PonderingPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    OvOBrien OvOBrien 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 3

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    Idk anymore. Being nice

    and a great person wont help people to want to be your friend. After being treated like **** for so much of my life i am becoming an annoying ******* who pushes away people that care.
    sassysauron sassysauron 16-17, M Jun 17

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    lost and lonely i want more

    but dont know how
    madmanbryan madmanbryan 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    My heart is sore. Literally.

    It's been years since I've felt this way, this alone. Futility. That's been my word for the day. It manages to be a word both handed to me and selected by me. It hit me like an arrow to the chest. Futility. There really actually is no point to it, no point to anything, really. I...
    KeagzB KeagzB 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 27

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    Between ten and 14. Or

    after 7. Or before third grade. Or during third grade. Or after my parents divorced. Or at birth. So. EP Link
    converted converted 46-50, M Jun 8

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Along The Way

    I wonder if its just the fact that I'm getting older and don't view things in the same mindset as i did when i was younger, but I cant seem to shake the feeling that im lost here. I used to be the "life of the party" so to speak. I was a very strong minded person, quick to jump...
    kayblue kayblue 36-40, F 9 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 41 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    I used to be a much more positive person,

    but over the last few years I've added an increasing flavor of cynicism to my worldview cocktail. Don't get me wrong, the good parts of life are just as beautiful as the bad parts are ugly - but sometimes I look at the way the world is and it depresses the hell out of me. I...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    Don't Kow Where Or How I Became So Lost

    I've often thought to myself and even said that somehow or somewhere I lost my way.  And the feeling is numbness and loss of direction.  It's like I took a wrong turn (it goes way back) and I just kelp going blindly and never regained sense of direction. And this makes...
    wordsforliving wordsforliving 46-50, F 7 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    I want back all that goodness

    that I've lost. All the optimism that used to be in me. The smile that I used to carry with a light heart. It's all gone.. I'm not saying I'm not happy. I am. Days have turned better. But then there are those dark days that still steal you away from your sleep and makes you...
    Brokenhurricane Brokenhurricane 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    shadow010 shadow010 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    I used to be so outgoing

    and full of energy. Now I just stay at home, worrying about disappointing or upsetting my husband. I have tried to leave so many times but I don't trust that I will make it on my own anymore. I lost all confidence somewhere along the way.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 9

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    Life Is A Labyrinth

    Have you ever felt losing yourself along the peak of success? Have you ever felt so unhappy in spite of all the blessings showered upon you? Well, I am. I have been so aimless for some time. I don't know the main reason but depression might be a contributing factor.  I am...
    md08 md08 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    Take me where I'll feel the sun shine on my

    face.. Take me where the mistakes I made never took place.. A place where It's warm and filled with loves embrace.. A place where my mind is finally free and bliss..
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 5

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 16-17 May 28

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    I don't know who I am anymore.

    I hate to go out with friends, hate clubs, drinking, even going for a walk. This all changed drastically almost three years ago. I met my current boyfriend in college and he is an epileptic. Until then I was quite social, I used to hate to be home and have huge fights with my...
    InesLudovico InesLudovico 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 16

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    I lost myself and i'm trying to pick those

    pieces back up to find myself once again. I'm not sure how to, needing a little help, also lost my faith.
    TwisterTy TwisterTy 22-25, M 3 Responses May 4

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    badgirl72 badgirl72 41-45, F 25 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    i hated my friend ...

    . hurted me a lot ,,,, i was innocent :-(
    babyit babyit 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    Everything I've once found passion in is slowly

    fading away. I used to love skateboarding and playing video games but now every time when i think of picking it back up again i just feel like it wont make me happy. Recently everything has seemed so bland to me lately. I try to find meaning in everything: having friends...
    FranklynF FranklynF 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    I need to focus on what's real.

    Worrying and analysing bring up problems that don't need to be there. All that you need to know is what really matters: people who have stuck by you, your health, and your creativity and humor. Everything else is irrelevant. I just wish I could apply that to myself...
    mindstatic mindstatic 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Yep - in a hopeless funk - -

    but coffee & humor saved the day - - -
    Ironicman Ironicman 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    So had friends. Grew up with my loving parents,

    who sometimes abused us, So that was touch, bonus, parents got into fights late at night. Parents with problems. umm watched it burn away. They split up. Single mom, She struggled taking care of us. Umm, we ended up in and out of foster homes for some time. Got out. In the end...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Mar 26

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I lost myself somewhere along the way

    when I found love, a deep, penetrating love that I've never known before, that I never could've imagined for myself. And I'm grateful that I lost myself to such a force as this
    Heartbeatangel Heartbeatangel 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    One good thing about being lost is you get an

    opportunity to reexamine yourself and to redifine the who and what you are and what life means to you
    bayouboy65 bayouboy65 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    I lost myself in you

    and now that you're gone, I don't know what to do. I sit in my room, tackling mountain after mountain of homework, desperately waiting for your name to pop up on my phone. I'm unaccustomed to this emotional intimacy, this emotional reliance and I hate myself for it. I hate it so...
    Heartbeatangel Heartbeatangel 18-21, F 3 Responses May 7

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