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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I Call this One. Self Where-abouts.

    Where are you now? Like right now: I am inside a home. It is warm here. The feeling is safe and comfortable. There is no tension or stress, no worries are concerns here; where I am. There are lights where I am. There is power moving around me. In the walls, under the floor. Keep...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    Falling for my best friend actually fell,

    really hard. Was there for her when she told me she was abused n broken...told her I was gay(I'm a girl) n that I needed a friend ...we became inseparable. Not a day went by those first two years where I didn't wanna kiss her and hold her, I lost sleep over it tried to drink the...
    Rhythmnblues9 Rhythmnblues9 26-30, F Apr 5

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    Along The Way

    I wonder if its just the fact that I'm getting older and don't view things in the same mindset as i did when i was younger, but I cant seem to shake the feeling that im lost here. I used to be the "life of the party" so to speak. I was a very strong minded person, quick to jump...
    kayblue kayblue 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 21, 2011

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    Here's what I think. "Nobody care's what you

    think". Anyway. You create your own world. You create your own reality. How you react to things good or bad, defines you and shapes the picture. The truth is. You want to go through a good day, everyday. You got to make it happen. How can I be better?, do better?. Ask your self...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    Filling In The Gaps...

    I used to be a much less complicated person. Life was fairly easy and carefree, and I had no stresses. I was confident in who I was, what I was doing...where my life was going. There have been many twists and turns along the way in my journey, and somewhere on that road I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 14, 2012

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    I had always dreamed of having a beautiful

    life; great husband along with children........it didn't exactly turn out that way. Now, I'm older.......still attractive but could lose a little weight. I feel lost........I can't help but wonder........has my time really passed?
    OneMystery OneMystery 61-65, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I'm 35 and I am still not sure

    who I am going to be when I grow up. If you had asked me when I was a child or a teenager, I had goals and dreams. Things in life have taken me off that path and now I feel like I just exist, take up space, with no real purpose.
    Blue1513 Blue1513 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Sometimes the pain is unbearable

    and I wish I were dead. Ever since I was a 13 year old kid I have been haunted and tormented by overwhelming feelings of guilt, sadness, anger, loss, and abandonment. What kept me going all of those years was a feeling that something big was going to happen for me and I would...
    squirsh2k squirsh2k 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 8 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Words of a life I know.

    Fear. Pain. Sorrow. Tragic. Friendly. Lied. Mislead. Misread. Not informed. A trail so narrow to the edge. Afraid. Can't let go.
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M Feb 16

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    Life Is A Labyrinth

    Have you ever felt losing yourself along the peak of success? Have you ever felt so unhappy in spite of all the blessings showered upon you? Well, I am. I have been so aimless for some time. I don't know the main reason but depression might be a contributing factor.  I am...
    md08 md08 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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    I don't know who I am anymore.

    Then again, I don't believe I never knew who I was in the first place. Everywhere I've gotten to or accomplished was because I had others to help me. Mainly my family and my boyfriend. Even then I continue to feel like I've disappointed them from cracking under the pressure of...
    eidolon6 eidolon6 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 28

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    Yesterday I was curling my 14year olds

    daughters hair, she looked at me and said your face looks pretty, I said thanks she asked why I had makeup on ... I told her because I wanted to look nice...She goes what for your just mom you don't do anything but take care of us kids....... It hit me right then and there I...
    tspring tspring 31-35, F 17 Responses Jan 15

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 9 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    lost and lonely i want more

    but dont know how
    madmanbryan madmanbryan 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Lost

    Somewhere along the line in life I lost myself, when all my pains and feelings of being rejected by others and feeling like a failure weighed heavy on my shoulders. I thought I was capable of doing great things to help others, until I got lost in my bitter feelings. I feel I have...
    marx5 marx5 18-21, M Jun 21, 2013

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    Here I am, cruising through my mind

    and crawling through my heart in the Hope of finding pieces to finish this puzzle of " who am I". Not many years ago, I was a confident and ambitious girl ever ready to conquer the world. Can one person turn you into a stranger to yourself?! The deeper I swim, the more I...
    Hz228 Hz228 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 1

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    Ok so I don't know how long this will be.

    . Growing up I was always a confident popular girl.. I met my ex when I was 15, he was 17.. He was cool, had a car and was fun to be around.. A couple of months into the relationship he became abusive and extremely controlling and we moved in together.. I was not allowed to hang...
    crrc crrc 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I know i'm young and some may

    even say im to young to lose myself in the first place. Well i believe there wrong. I used to have goals that i tried hard to get. I used a facade of happiness and stupidity in the public to hide who i truly was. Now i lied to myself and other so often i don't know what's real...
    KIRa53 KIRa53 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Limbo

    I feel like I’ve lost my sense of belonging. I’m an outsider lost in limbo. Older than half the people around me but with the knowledge of a youngun’. I’m not a part of anything and I have no one to identify with, I feel quite lonely and lacking in something to put my...
    WittyDittyInc WittyDittyInc 26-30 3 Responses May 24, 2013

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    It's been 25 years now

    and I still haven't found myself ha. It's difficult to put into words but I still just can't figure myself out. I think leaving my current town would probably put things in better perspective and allow me to live. Perhaps then I'd understand even a fragment of who I am.
    aBlackRoseBurial aBlackRoseBurial 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    My life has changed so much in the last couple

    years, I've lost all of my closest friends, I moved far away from my family and I've just been feeling really lost and confused. I've been making some pretty bad decisions but I'm trying to get my life back on track, but it's a lot harder than I expected.
    hollylynn91 hollylynn91 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16

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    I used to be so happy

    and social. After all this, I'm just a mess. I rarely ever want to go out with friends, I have to force myself to be happy. I miss who I used to be and I don't know how to get her back.....
    JerseyRoyaltyx0 JerseyRoyaltyx0 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    It Totally Fits

    Who am I? I am mommy to two little boys. I am the wife of a man that has no passion for me, body or mind. I am a cook, a maid, a wiper of little noses, the one that picks your dirty clothes up off of the floor...washes, dries, folds them and tucks them in neat stacks in your...
    autimom autimom 31-35, F 42 Responses Dec 2, 2008

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    redhotridinghood redhotridinghood 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Somewhere along the way i lost

    who i was, i have always been of chivalrous nature....but last year i lost my life, every last bit of it, my family has basically abandoned me in the moments that i needed them most, last year started with the birth of my healthy son, that would be the only good thing to happen...
    ddmagnum ddmagnum 18-21, M Feb 27

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    It took me a while to realize

    that somewhere along my path of life I actually managed to lose myself in reality. I lost old friends and gained new ones and realized I had changed myself and who I am to fit in with these new friends I changed my like in music not a lot but I do like the new music I discovered...
    ariel2891 ariel2891 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    airisfleeting airisfleeting 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Life.

    I used to be one who was afraid to do a lot of things. I was afraid of being hurt, afraid of being afraid. But ever since I went to this thing with my church, my life changed, I've thought a lot more that usual, I seem to always help others a lot more. I seem to keep my head held...
    KittayGoesRawrxD KittayGoesRawrxD 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2012

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    I used to be so happy

    when I was younger things were more fed up than they are now but I always had something that made me smile but now nothing makes me happy I think about so many negative things that it's making my life a living hell! I want to find my old self again
    Imdonebye Imdonebye 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 10

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    I don't know what happened.

    I don't think I really care. But somewhere along the way I lost myself. I don't know if that's a bad thing or a good thing. I just know that it happened. I don't know who I am or who I want to be anymore. Some days I want to break down for no reason, some days I'm overjoyed for...
    Kymir Kymir 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    I feel like I lost myself 4 years ago.

    Ever since I met this stupid guy. I wish I never met him in the first place. Because I fell in love with him and it just messed up everything. And people always tells me that everything happens for a reason. But when I think about and think if I didn't meet him would I still be...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 9 Responses Feb 1

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    Somewhere... I started to mature.

    I started to think about consequences and avoided danger. I lost the effect of fun, but I want to find it again. It's hard to fit in here in this society, so I grew up. That was my first major mistake. I'm reverting back, though. I'm starting to slacken my reins and let myself...
    MNightlySnow MNightlySnow 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Don't Kow Where Or How I Became So Lost

    I've often thought to myself and even said that somehow or somewhere I lost my way.  And the feeling is numbness and loss of direction.  It's like I took a wrong turn (it goes way back) and I just kelp going blindly and never regained sense of direction. And this makes...
    wordsforliving wordsforliving 46-50, F 7 Responses Aug 9, 2010

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer 46-50, F 29 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    I never was the type to trust people real fast.

    My dad left my mother when I was three. Raised my two sisters with my mom until I became 11. After that my stepfather was there to do the job. I became more carefree, started to enjoy life more. Five years ago, I fell in love, really in love, for the first time. We had a...
    Luminarch Luminarch 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 17

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    Everything I've once found passion in is slowly

    fading away. I used to love skateboarding and playing video games but now every time when i think of picking it back up again i just feel like it wont make me happy. Recently everything has seemed so bland to me lately. I try to find meaning in everything: having friends...
    FranklynF FranklynF 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    meh, i remember when i was a happy chappy 99%

    of the time, no worries and no drama, then stuff all changed, i put my dreams on hold to help support my gf at the time, and ended up never getting a chance to chase them, just settling for mediocre and as long as she was happy..i was :3...but things change..people destroy you...
    PonderingPanda PonderingPanda 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    shadow010 shadow010 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    ActionMax ActionMax 26-30, M 4 Responses Jan 3

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    I woke up and realized

    that I'm under 30 and all I do is work. I have become no fun and I am constantly worried about being responsible. Sometimes I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder for no reason. I just want to be who I use to be.
    CrayCraze CrayCraze 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    There once was a family.

    Two parents. He had a mom and dad. Dedicated. Allowed. On script. In a city. Downtown. He was raised by his parents. He was there along with his siblings. Brother and Sister. Not a rich family, but one that was put there, by her. His mom. A young hard tempered loving women. She...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M Feb 10

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    I was working my way to becoming a whole person

    instead of a broken mess. I was fixing my life. Now I just feel like I'd deceived myself into thinking things were starting to be okay. I feel like everything I was, what made me...well...me, has been scooped out and discarded. I feel empty. All the joy and anger and...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 70+ 1 Response 2 days ago

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    Ramblings Of Lost Time, The Art Of Reflection, Cups Of Coffee, And A Reflection Or Two...

    I stumbled into the room and looked around, wondering what brought me here to this god forsaken place. I saw before me the past that I lived, the life that I lost, the being I surrendered for someone else's needs and profit. I found the keepsakes that I cherished stored in old...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 12 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    So had friends. Grew up with my loving parents,

    who sometimes abused us, So that was touch, bonus, parents got into fights late at night. Parents with problems. umm watched it burn away. They split up. Single mom, She struggled taking care of us. Umm, we ended up in and out of foster homes for some time. Got out. In the end...
    HybridWolf27 HybridWolf27 16-17, M Mar 26

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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