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I Lost Myself Somewhere Along the Way

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    I lost myself while loving a man too hard.

    I wish I knew before it happened. if I knew this was all going to be game to him I would've gave half of me or ended. Now my heart is filled with so much bitterness and hate. I'm distant from family and friends. I've been drinking for 3 weeks straight. I don't eat. I sleep all...
    candij1983 candij1983 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I don't know who I am anymore I have completely

    lost my self. I began this year trying to change my life and all I did was make it worst I am falling all of my. lasses I have no true friends. I have literally convinced my self not to love or trust any one . all I see in my life is down hill I am always at war with my self my...
    misprisy101 misprisy101 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 6

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    Piece Of Me

    My story may read just like some others; but it is personal to me. I got dealt a crappy hand, like many in this life and I truly believe you must play the hand you are dealt. But that analogy is getting harder and harder to understand, with each new hand that I am dealt. I am...
    JadeBleu JadeBleu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jun 27, 2013

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    I Would've Never Thought

    I've always been the friend that was there. I would drive to my friends house at 11 pm at night because they were depressed, pick them up, buy them food, and blow half a tank of gas driving around singing Mayday Parade or whatever made them feel better. I was there. I let my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    So, there is something I've been holding onto

    for months... Something that happened to me, and I don't really know how to talk about it, not that I really have anyone to talk about it with anyway. So around two months ago, I broke up with my girlfriend (ex) due to what would amount to shopping list of problems. She was...
    TheZEEMan TheZEEMan 22-25, M 14 Responses Nov 21, 2014

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    I have no drive. I'm currently studying

    for my exams and I dont want to study. Its been like this all year, my marks are pretty bad. I wasnt always like this. I dont know whats changed. How do I get my drive back?
    mj985 mj985 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Im so stupid ., :( how can i sove this problem

    sorry Mom i lost your things :( its an ACCIDENT .
    lerej16 lerej16 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 24, 2014

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    for the last 5 years I have become someone new.

    someone I would not be. I was manipulated to change to suit someone else then they have faded from my life and claim the love and care about me still. for so long they were there by my side helping me survive. they were the family I didn't have. now they have gone. though not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 19

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    Desperately looking to find the person I used

    to be. I miss the confident woman and the happiness bursting within me. She's gone, broken almost beyond repair.. I don't like this new self loathing person..
    Smckinnis Smckinnis 26-30, F 9 Responses Dec 4, 2013

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    As an eight-year-old child,

    I was innocent and pure, with my eyes lost in the direction of sunshine and clouds. There was no real darkness. I was very optimistic, happy, and idiosyncratic. So different and strange that my peers didn't approve of my strangeness, yet it didn't phase me. A few years later, I...
    JumpingTomatoes JumpingTomatoes 18-21 May 28, 2014

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    Into The West

    I just watched (for the umpteenth time) LotR, The Return of the King. I have read the book a gazillion times, since  school days, before the movies came out, and even in between that. And it always saddens me to read it. More so, to watch the movie where it comes to life before...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 12, 2012

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    Twisted ambitions Demented perception Loveless

    lust No retention Faults forgiven Bridges burnt Broken down Into the abyss The inner workings Of your mind Trapped Eyes are a succubus Into the soul Thoughtless mistakes Witless banter Mistakes made No happily ever afters Tired eyes Weary heart Time and time again Without a...
    KristinaBeena KristinaBeena 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be,

    but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life where I honestly dont care if people think of me and that I am building a friendbase that is accepting and loving towards me, just like I accept and...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response May 20

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    M1362 M1362 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    Confusion

    I can feel so happy, sitting here laughing at shows, smiling like a normal person. As soon as the laughing stops, I feel like I get hit in the gut, and I feel like crying. I don't understand what's going on in my brain. I feel like I know what I need to do to get better, but I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I feel like my entire life has just been a

    struggle. Im too chicken **** to kill myself but i pray every night to die in my sleep. Im tired of living, im exhausted. I cant do this, and i honestly no longer have hope. I feel like its one struggle after the next. Trauma after trauma. People tell me to stay strong but i...
    niellyn niellyn 22-25 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I just don't know who I am anymore.

    I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that my "popular" friends weren't real and it was all fake. I'm trying to remember who I was before party girl me. I know I loved Hello Kitty...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    I've lost my soul, or a part of it.

    Life has not been the same since she's been gone. I tend to not care much about anything and i've missed so much of my son's life. The separation kills me! It's so easy for my friends to find connections but for me, it's mission impossible! I've endured so much and it's made me...
    JulianLucci JulianLucci 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    I can nevert be myself

    because im o different n am not accepted in my society and its killing me. everyday i drift more into solitude
    livetobefree12 livetobefree12 18-21, M Dec 11, 2014

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    I Lost Myself Along The Way

    i've been married for alomost 16 yrs and a mom to 3 kids,13,6 and 4 - i am a stay at home mom and have been for 13yrs - I recently had a mini breakdown and wanted to leave it all - in that difficult time I came to the realization that it was really all me - I had been a wife and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I'm not sure exactly what it was

    or maybe I do, but I don't want to admit it to myself. I lost who I was. I lost my close relationship with God. I lost my cool BC I snap at people. I'm too quiet now. I can't even have a conversation with someone. I'm always sad and when I'm happy I feel like I'm supposed to be...
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    I've struggled with a horrendous cocaine

    and alcohol addiction (the worst combination ever) for the past few years. I've been in a hole and I never thought I'd surface. Idk what's happened to me in the past week, but something's changed. A switch has turned on.. Or off (depending on how you look at it). I haven't drank...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    Some say true love prevails ,

    but what if your heart was so smashed you just are not able to love properly . You can be loved and feel loved, but it is like impossible to give back cause that feeling of having a heart has been destroyed and stretched for across the galaxy. Just lingering fragments of ones...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Jul 12

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    I've really messed up on my freshman year at

    college.. I usually do not have a difficult time putting myself out there and making new friends but in my first of college I've made about one really good friend while the rest are just basically acquaintances (some are closer than others). I'm not sure if it's just because I...
    dabc12 dabc12 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    A break up left me back at my parents,

    jobless, depressed, and so out of touch with who I really am. Today I want to try to find myself again. Live a fulfilling and humble life. Growing and learning everyday with out unhealthy dependencies. I hold myself to such a high standard I never want to fall short. Any advice...
    purelaughter purelaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    I know I'm losing myself.

    depression and anger are the only feelings I have. well that's not true but I really don't feel like I'm genuinely happy. It takes a lot for me to smile and I only do it for my little ones. Because I just can't bare the thought of them seeing me so down. I pretend to at least...
    Jeshayna Jeshayna 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Somewhere between babies,

    divorce and disability I last who I was. Thankfully I am getting back to the things of life I love and miss.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 16, 2014

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    I married young... I loved being married,

    but being single for the last year has really made me examine who I am as an individual. I realize that as independent as my husband and I both were, there are parts of me that stopped developing. I didn't need to be strong in certain ways because of who he was. It is a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 24

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    Who Am I?

    Im 33 I lost my job and im single. What a way to start this story huh. When i was younger I was the life of the party every one wanted to be my friend and I was outgoing we partied every weekend and I lived laughed and loved as the song says but never took anything seriously...
    irvinebrown78 irvinebrown78 31-35, M 8 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    I don't feel badly about it though.

    Brad paisley said it well, When you lose your way that's when you find yourself. The path of rediscovery isn't dull; I find it enlightening. I appreciate all those who -for better and for worse-have helped me see more clearly.
    smoothpaddle smoothpaddle 41-45, M Dec 8, 2014

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    The Dance

    In pink, she dances her choreographed dance. She's spinning to her demise. Star filled eyes now as hollow as her heart. She's spinning to her demise. Sheer perfection, a permanent smile pasted to her frail face. She's spinning to her demise. Her tears are now found in a...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 14 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    I think I once knew exactly

    who I was and what I wanted. I think that there was a time in my life where I was so sure of myself and I wasn't afraid. But then it's like one day I woke up and I was lost. I don't know when that was. Sometimes I feel that I look in the Mirror and it's not me. But the thing is...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 2, 2014

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    I was stuck in a loveless marriage,

    but it was worst than that. For over 10 years I knew I didn't love her, but I though if I changed who I was I would be happier. ...and then I started to change more and more. I had a number of affairs to try and feel something. than I fell in love, I talked my wife in to an...
    BarrelOMonkeys BarrelOMonkeys 41-45, M Aug 8

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    I was here, then I wasn't.

    Now I am back with a few more ingredients to ad to my lonesome recipe. Today she told me she no longer see's me as her rock... Her man. That she feels she must be my rock. That she wants us to get back to where we once were... But that she has had to be her own rock. Wow...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I lost myself. All my hopes

    and dreams went down the toilet long ago. I was once thin and beautiful but didn't think so. Therefor I gave up on everything. Now I am ugly and fat I could never do what I wanted to do before. I feel like I'm 70 years old at 21. My life is boring, depressing, and I hate myself...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Where Did I Go? I Lost Myself Yet Again?

    I think it happens to all of us.  Not like a clap of thunder or the slam of a door.  More like the gentle slow leak of sand from a cracked hour glass or the slow leak of water from a tiny crack in the water glass.  But you realize it suddenly....when your...
    PrayerWhisperer PrayerWhisperer 46-50, F 28 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    Yes, i did long time ago,

    but i will try my best to find him again, although i know that will be unfortunately difficult!!.
    umayyad umayyad 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 8

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this

    someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't care anymore. I told him not to ever bother me, because I wont be there. As a year passed, I began to start to think about him, to dream about...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 22, 2014

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    I Have Lost My Personality And Sense Of Humor

    And It Is Ruining My Life. For the past year i feel as though my life has been tumbling down a hill with an endless slope. In the past I was one of the funniest people out of all of my friends and that I personally knew of. I would be able to turn even the most dry statment or...
    Yappogi Yappogi 13-15, M Aug 13

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    But I'm Finding My Way Back

    I don't want to define myself by my circumstances, but i guess I was doing that up until about 6-months ago. I remember a time about 2-years ago, when I was crying and suddenly realized that I didn't feel like a human being anymore, let alone a woman.  I felt like a "thing...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Oct 26, 2011

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    I don't think I was ever completely in one

    piece i guess u could say..just the older I got the more lost i became..i though i was getting better at finding my self..and there was a period where i really thought i was gonna make it lol..but that didnt quite work out like that..i have gotten better at somethings..dealing...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    The blank wall which seems to be screaming at

    me. Who am I? Where am I going? Why exist when all there is only suffering? Do I want to live the same day repeated till death only it's a downward spiral like NIN album? My shoulders are tense. I seem to be paralysed when I attempt to do a chore. I feel as if I am frozen while...
    Hamhavi Hamhavi 18-21, M Jul 25

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    Lost Cause

    Once upon a time, there was a girl that was a fledgling and valiant. She thought of nothing and did what she wanted without shame. She laughed often and didn’t care to play the fool; there was always a smile on her face, and a twinkle in her eyes. But one day that girl grew...
    Ariraine Ariraine 22-25, F Jun 6, 2013

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.

    I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013.After 5 years, I recaptured each foot print and saw all the lapses & loop holes.Lapses in judgement.Being young and trusting...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    It's the day before my court.

    And I am preparing and getting ready for my court trial tomorrow morning. I had to hitch hike to wiky this afternoon. Rode in the back of a truck. Got off at the band office, walked inside and got the thing I was looking for. A brochure stating "Wikwemikong PeaceMaker Justice...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M Mar 28

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    You think to yourself "what the **** am I doing"

    but that doesn't stop you from making the mistakes you know will break your heart. Because somewhere in that ****** up little head of yours you think someone might genuinely give a **** about you.... but that's ludicrous and you're a masochist. So you just give yourself away...
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