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I Lost Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    Why are there so many weird people on here,

    im itSaying in great because I'm far from it but what's with the peopleSending weird ****? A while ago a guy asked me if I want to be his doggy, like what the hell people. This website if for people sharing things like what they are going through like hard times(like me) and...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F May 27

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    I Lost Everything...but Am Trying To Rebuild Myself.

    I am twenty four and at times I still feel lost. I have dealt with years of severe depression stemming from the death of my father over eight years ago. My life had a plan but after his death my world fell apart and I was never the same again. I attended a great high-school and I...
    medt medt 22-25 2 Responses Dec 26, 2010

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    Where did she go? There

    once was a beautiful flower Blossomed so bright and vibrant Her fragrance filled the rooms of a tower, Nothing could stop her sprout She grew so tall, so proud Her leaves and petals were at it's finest until anunstoppable darkness grew so loud Her vibrancy hid from it...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F 1 Response May 7

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    when i was 15, i started to really like girls.

    of all sorts. but i had a peculiarity: i liked depression. i was only mildly depressed, but i would seek out the depressed ones and do what i could. this leads to the second thing: it was all online, and i cheated. a lot. as in 20 girls who would exchange words of love and...
    Josephdalepi Josephdalepi 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    I Have To Get This Out...

    How long have I been kidding myself? What a tangled web I've weaved myself into. I woke her up to drive me to school just as I have every Tuesday morning since the fifth of January. She cusses me, yells at me, the yanks the covers off her in a fury, gets up and comes after me...
    charlottes1web charlottes1web 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2012

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    wearefools wearefools 18-21, M Apr 24

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    How I Lost Myself

    Everyone saw me as a good girl. I hated it! I should do no wrong, nor could I. I feel like if I made a mistake then I am a bad person. You have to be the role model and you have to do what is right even if you dont like it. I saw my self like that all the time. I could not...
    lostthoughts lostthoughts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Too May Emotions

              I think maybe it's because I'm extremely bipolar that when my mood changes are so fast I get confused..  I mean it's like "Oh, I'm happy." Then like ten seconds later "God you ******* **** I hope you choke on a ****!" I'm mean, then I'm nice. I'm not stable...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I've broken down but I'm back.

    I haven't been on EP for a few months. I had a metal collapse and have only recently stopped retreating from everyone. I've missed this community. Reading your stories makes me feel strong and supported. To my friends who message me, I've missed you and cannot wait to catch up...
    tulsateacher tulsateacher 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    Lately, I feel like I'm drowning.

    There isn't really a lot going on, it's just my inner demons trying to drag me into the darkness. I know I need help. I'm on meds, tried counselling.. this is something I need to face head on. I know all of the truths of my life, but these demons keep sowing negativity in all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30

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    I thought I knew who I was,

    energetic, athletic, whimsical, and just enjoyable. That's what I was all about that 3 months ago. Then bam. Depression came. I'm none of those, I'm antisocial, I barely utter a word or Show emotion everyday. Nothing makes me laugh or happy. I feel so NUMB.
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    The Total Opposite

    I had everything in life. More than actually what one needs. Great loving family, Loads of friends, the school and course i wanted. I played sports. I was in dance. I sing. I love animals. I paint. I enjoyed every single bit in life. And just before all this was taken away from...
    Maya08 Maya08 18-21 Jan 6, 2013

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    Lost The Best

    I know, I'm not a normal girl. My best friend is a 6' 5" guy, named Ben. Seems normal..but he hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks.. He's everything to me.. Heres how I lost him.. He's always been so close to me.. We would talk everyday, and we'd share secrets, and he knew...
    Djarrett117 Djarrett117 16-17, F Jul 31, 2012

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    The Fall Of Pride

    Ok, so I did it. I signed up on one of these forums and am going to post a personal story. I never thought Id be the one to do it but I guess that is one small joy of life. The inevitability of seemingly random spontaneity . If you read this whole story, thank you in advance...
    JohnRain1988 JohnRain1988 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    No Easy Way Out

    I am sat here up at an ungodly time of nite alone,unable to sleep..A mind full of thought and a heart full of pain,hurt and dread.....My partner of 8 years sleeps in the room next too me but his presence is not felt..I try to push aside the envatible but the pain is unbearable...
    kindredspiritalways kindredspiritalways 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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    I Found Me

    My 39th year and I am now, just finding me. I would not describe this time in my life as a mid-life crisis, but I am definitely experiencing mid-life awareness. I keep reminding myself that I am younger today than I ever will be again in my life. I turn 40 next summer. Over...
    Hollipop Hollipop 36-40 Oct 24, 2012

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    The Not Me

    But damnit, I'm trying to find me again.Back there in the depths of my eating disorder and the pit of my depression...  I don't have any clue who I was. I kept some journal entries and poems during that time.  When I go back and read them, my throat starts to close up and my...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    I Wanted To Be Better

    I recently forgot who I was, completely lost myself in what I thought was the right thing to do. I was so scared of hurting people, and I was so desperate for love, I stopped being who I am. I tried to be what I felt was right, I tried to change in ways that would help people. In...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    On my way to love... I saw the storm, I know its coming may way. I'm scared, I know it will destroy everything I had, but I know I need to go through it... There's no turning back...
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    You can’t say that the moment when your brought into this world is going to be good. Hey my mom had me when she was sixteen, and she tried charges the guy who she got pregnant by...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 14

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    I feel like i am losing control of my existence. I can be anybody at anytime and that technically makes me nobody. It's like after struggling for a while between who i am and who i...
    bluenightmare bluenightmare 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    I've been doing fine for the past few months.. but I think about dying, and it doesn't seem like a bad idea.
    ripmalia ripmalia 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm waking up to ash and dust I wipe my brow and I sweat my rust I'm breathing in the chemicals I'm breaking in, shaping up, then checking out on the prison bus
    soccerislife14 soccerislife14 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    We met and it all was magical , we could not stop talking , not for hours but for days, nights continuously, it was more than magical, I lost myself in him, infact we were lost in...
    broookeennnn broookeennnn 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 7

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    10 years ago when I was a young and as everybody was saying very beautiful girl I got diagnosed with a tumor and had to have a very hard surgery to take it out. After the surgery I...
    Shakelance Shakelance 36-40 1 Response Nov 1

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    I was diagnosed 4yrs ago. It feels like i have lost myself. Im about to start meds..but im soo afraid. When the doctor called to tell me my meds have arrived,i broke down and cried...
    Beekaay Beekaay 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    Today's is one of those days where I just wallow. No one's home and with my headphones and computer, it's like I'm completely alone in my own little world. I'm torturing myself...
    HarleyQuinn326 HarleyQuinn326 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    Hi, I'm 66 years old man who has recently lost my wife of a 22 year marriage to cancer after she had a 10 month battle with this rotten disease, so now there's a big hole in my...
    WilliamTell100 WilliamTell100 66-70, M 1 hr ago

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    Yes I Love Myself...It took me awhile to get to this level of love with myself, but now that I am here...THANK YOU GOD! My GOD, My Creator loves me and ALL whom HE created...Thank...
    yvyie1 yvyie1 51-55, F 6 hrs ago

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    I hate myself. I hate being so stupid, and not being good at anything. I hate my face, my nose, my cheeks, my lips, and my eyes. I hate my personality, and my laugh. I hate the way...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I just lost my two and a half year old son to his father. His father works for the school district and my sons grandmother works for cps. Two years ago I broke up with my ex, I had...
    brokken4412 brokken4412 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 26

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    Hi there! I've recently come out of an 8 year long relationship where I was constantly criticized, belittled and mocked. I didn't like it at all, his personality wasn't very nice...
    buttonthimbles buttonthimbles 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    This was early 2012 and I met my lost best friend at a party where we talked about personal things and exchanged things. We became best friends after that. I don't think she...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I suffer from depression, I self harm almost every night now and I have a lot of suicidal thoughts. I get bullied for my appearance, skin colour and weight. My parents expect me to...
    IllBeGoneSoon IllBeGoneSoon 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 30

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    I have so many good things in my life, beautiful experiences, lots of opportunities, caring friends, amazing kids, but I can't fight this sickness that's infected me. I feel...
    LittleBirds0827 LittleBirds0827 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 10

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    I've stayed at my sister's every night this week except this night. She went out to eat, and I'd just be sitting there doing nothing anyway. I ended up going to my niece's and...
    NastasyaFilippovna NastasyaFilippovna 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0. Here I am again, a hide-and-seek with myself, lost. I look myself in the mirror and wonder if someday, somehow, I would find that naive boy...once I used to...
    nopathnogoalnolife nopathnogoalnolife 18-21, M Oct 31

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    I met this woman last year. It was at work. Although I wasn't interested in pursuing romance, I instantly became infatuated with her. I convinced myself that it was just a simple...
    AlexCorvace AlexCorvace 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    There is beauty surrounding my very core and being, I didn't think I would feel alive again. Feeling cold and numb deeply lately, I pick you up... Lost in time, centuries, decades...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I first met my wife, I had lost my faith. Years of being married to a cruel, gambling b#@!h had just drained my faith in marriage, in myself and in people in general. I was...
    overtherainbow47 overtherainbow47 41-45, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I am 19 I want to be 140 pounds I weigh 195 and I am 5'3 I just want my body to be perfect I feel so fat I need a little motivation im going to starve myself idk how long its going...
    BeautyAMM BeautyAMM 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I'm trying to understand why I can't stand to be in my own skin, I want out of this. How can I be so kind to others but I can't I be kind to myself? What is wrong with me??
    prettyballerina prettyballerina 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Now that I love and care about myself I don't focus on other people because It doesn't benefit my bottom line.
    overit1984 overit1984 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    Today I lost one of the best friends you could ever have he never judge me he never got angry with me he'd sit quietly listening to my problems and would tell me how to fix them...
    AhavaGamoran AhavaGamoran 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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