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I Lost Myself

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    I am passing out of high school this year.

    I'll be in college soon. I'm sure my grades won't be that great for I'm not the same me now. Since my very childhood I have been very responsible to my duties. My father is going through a mental disease, schizophrenia. My mother got to really know about it after their marriage...
    25mayni97 25mayni97 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I Found Me

    My 39th year and I am now, just finding me. I would not describe this time in my life as a mid-life crisis, but I am definitely experiencing mid-life awareness. I keep reminding myself that I am younger today than I ever will be again in my life. I turn 40 next summer. Over...
    Hollipop Hollipop 36-40 Oct 24, 2012

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    I've broken down but I'm back.

    I haven't been on EP for a few months. I had a metal collapse and have only recently stopped retreating from everyone. I've missed this community. Reading your stories makes me feel strong and supported. To my friends who message me, I've missed you and cannot wait to catch up...
    tulsateacher tulsateacher 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Lost The Best

    I know, I'm not a normal girl. My best friend is a 6' 5" guy, named Ben. Seems normal..but he hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks.. He's everything to me.. Heres how I lost him.. He's always been so close to me.. We would talk everyday, and we'd share secrets, and he knew...
    Djarrett117 Djarrett117 16-17, F Jul 31, 2012

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    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F Apr 18

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    I thought I knew who I was,

    energetic, athletic, whimsical, and just enjoyable. That's what I was all about that 3 months ago. Then bam. Depression came. I'm none of those, I'm antisocial, I barely utter a word or Show emotion everyday. Nothing makes me laugh or happy. I feel so NUMB.
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    How I Lost Myself

    Everyone saw me as a good girl. I hated it! I should do no wrong, nor could I. I feel like if I made a mistake then I am a bad person. You have to be the role model and you have to do what is right even if you dont like it. I saw my self like that all the time. I could not...
    lostthoughts lostthoughts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Where did she go? There

    once was a beautiful flower Blossomed so bright and vibrant Her fragrance filled the rooms of a tower, Nothing could stop her sprout She grew so tall, so proud Her leaves and petals were at it's finest until anunstoppable darkness grew so loud Her vibrancy hid from it...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    I Have To Get This Out...

    How long have I been kidding myself? What a tangled web I've weaved myself into. I woke her up to drive me to school just as I have every Tuesday morning since the fifth of January. She cusses me, yells at me, the yanks the covers off her in a fury, gets up and comes after me...
    charlottes1web charlottes1web 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2012

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    I Wanted To Be Better

    I recently forgot who I was, completely lost myself in what I thought was the right thing to do. I was so scared of hurting people, and I was so desperate for love, I stopped being who I am. I tried to be what I felt was right, I tried to change in ways that would help people. In...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    wearefools wearefools 18-21, M Apr 24, 2014

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    The Not Me

    But damnit, I'm trying to find me again.Back there in the depths of my eating disorder and the pit of my depression...  I don't have any clue who I was. I kept some journal entries and poems during that time.  When I go back and read them, my throat starts to close up and my...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    Too May Emotions

              I think maybe it's because I'm extremely bipolar that when my mood changes are so fast I get confused..  I mean it's like "Oh, I'm happy." Then like ten seconds later "God you ******* **** I hope you choke on a ****!" I'm mean, then I'm nice. I'm not stable...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    when i was 15, i started to really like girls.

    of all sorts. but i had a peculiarity: i liked depression. i was only mildly depressed, but i would seek out the depressed ones and do what i could. this leads to the second thing: it was all online, and i cheated. a lot. as in 20 girls who would exchange words of love and...
    Josephdalepi Josephdalepi 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2014

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    Lately, I feel like I'm drowning.

    There isn't really a lot going on, it's just my inner demons trying to drag me into the darkness. I know I need help. I'm on meds, tried counselling.. this is something I need to face head on. I know all of the truths of my life, but these demons keep sowing negativity in all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    The Total Opposite

    I had everything in life. More than actually what one needs. Great loving family, Loads of friends, the school and course i wanted. I played sports. I was in dance. I sing. I love animals. I paint. I enjoyed every single bit in life. And just before all this was taken away from...
    Maya08 Maya08 18-21 Jan 6, 2013

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    Why are there so many weird people on here,

    im itSaying in great because I'm far from it but what's with the peopleSending weird ****? A while ago a guy asked me if I want to be his doggy, like what the hell people. This website if for people sharing things like what they are going through like hard times(like me) and...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F May 27, 2014

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    I Lost Everything...but Am Trying To Rebuild Myself.

    I am twenty four and at times I still feel lost. I have dealt with years of severe depression stemming from the death of my father over eight years ago. My life had a plan but after his death my world fell apart and I was never the same again. I attended a great high-school and I...
    medt medt 22-25 2 Responses Dec 26, 2010

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    The Fall Of Pride

    Ok, so I did it. I signed up on one of these forums and am going to post a personal story. I never thought Id be the one to do it but I guess that is one small joy of life. The inevitability of seemingly random spontaneity . If you read this whole story, thank you in advance...
    JohnRain1988 JohnRain1988 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    No Easy Way Out

    I am sat here up at an ungodly time of nite alone,unable to sleep..A mind full of thought and a heart full of pain,hurt and dread.....My partner of 8 years sleeps in the room next too me but his presence is not felt..I try to push aside the envatible but the pain is unbearable...
    kindredspiritalways kindredspiritalways 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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    This became a longer story then I wanted to be, but its my story and I carry it with pride. I have always been a weirdo and I love myself for it. I am now in a point in my life...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Something went wrong in my life at one time. I am so preoccupied by my looks it's disgusting. I used to have the lowest self esteem, I was antisocial, hated my looks, hated my skin...
    Abdulaziz94 Abdulaziz94 18-21, M May 2

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    I've really messed up on my freshman year at college.. I usually do not have a difficult time putting myself out there and making new friends but in my first of college I've made...
    dabc12 dabc12 18-21, F 1 Response May 4

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    I just can't find me. I don't feel as if I actually exist like I'm watching a life through a tv screen. I keep getting deeper in my darkness and I've lost all.substance.
    thewolfwiththecollar thewolfwiththecollar 13-15, F May 11

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    I have lately been throwing up my food , i weight 122.5 and that number just kills me ... I have to stop eating and if i eat i will throw up ..
    iwanttodiesobad1212 iwanttodiesobad1212 13-15, F Apr 27

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    You think to yourself "what the **** am I doing" but that doesn't stop you from making the mistakes you know will break your heart. Because somewhere in that ****** up little head...
    sa3r1na sa3r1na 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I miss my dad. Today I truly miss him. For the first time since his death in 1992, I am grieving for his loss. When he died, I didn't only lose him, I also lost myself. There's a...
    SapphireSol SapphireSol 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 24

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    I lost you. I lost myself in fear of losing you. I wish I didn't do but I did. People say fools rushin. People say everything happens for a reason. You changed me. I turned into...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F May 6

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    The demons. They win again. They take over my whole self. My whole being. They push away others. They manifest themselves deep in my mind. They turn those who are trying to help me...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response May 6

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    I always believed in the inherent consistency of myself; that, since I was depressed as a child, being down in the dumps is just a fact for me...as if it's my hometown that I am...
    Ewoo Ewoo 16-17 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I lost myself to suicide ...
    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    i dnt know whats wrong with me is it because of depression or someother thing.I feel so lost and im not happy.i smile and laugh act like everything is fine but im not. i dnt know...
    dazzlingheart dazzlingheart 22-25, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    February 17 2000- Early on this morning,two police officers showed up at the club I was dancing at(don't judge me!) and ask "Are you the mother of J------ Martin-Zecharias?". That...
    CocoaBelle CocoaBelle 41-45, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I have accidentally exposed myself naked twice. One time i was water skiing at the lake with some friends. My guy friend was driving and the four girls were watching me. Next...
    swimguy0812 swimguy0812 22-25, M 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Have you ever gone out clubbing, went into a bar or pub, been to a concert or just an outdoor park where a local band is playing and just listened, felt the music enter your soul...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I lost my virginity at age 14 , it was 3 months ago , a week after my birthday . At that moment I just finished getting out of a relationship , my ex moved on real fast he had a...
    ValentinaSz ValentinaSz 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I lost someone very dear to me, she doesn't feel like the person I met and feel in love with anymore. She finally walked away and now... I don't even know who I am anymore.. I'm...
    Sakaratte Sakaratte 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    Its been awhile since ive written anything.. I have been feeling lost lately and i was reminded that i used to write.. So here i am. Wondering where to start..... I suppose ill...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F May 7

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    when people ask why I lost my faith I tell them because I lost my gf while trying to be a good brother to my dying sister.then they say so you will only have faith if you get...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M 3 Responses May 3

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    I lost it. All my faith that I got just a few years back. They are gone. Drained out. I prayed and prayed. Slowly depleting. Slowly finding myself in more and more dire situations...
    Bernsch Bernsch 18-21, F 10 Responses May 2

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    I had spiritual dryness for several 7 years and it seemed the Holy Ghost wasn't interested in empowering me to grow like the old days. I admit, that I lived half hardheartedly...
    someonehere111 someonehere111 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Im in my 20s, I have no friends, No girlfriend (never did), I noticed I am boring to be around.I have social anxiety and depression. I have trouble connecting with others. I dont...
    carreola765 carreola765 22-25, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Lol sounds abit corny , anyway ... Hello people :) I'm new here obviously lol just thought I'd introduce myself to the virtual world .. So here's me introducing myself :) friends...
    FancyPantiesBitches FancyPantiesBitches 18-21, F 6 Responses 12 hrs ago

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