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I Lost Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 134 People

    Too May Emotions

              I think maybe it's because I'm extremely bipolar that when my mood changes are so fast I get confused..  I mean it's like "Oh, I'm happy." Then like ten seconds later "God you ******* **** I hope you choke on a ****!" I'm mean, then I'm nice. I'm not stable...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I Lost Everything...but Am Trying To Rebuild Myself.

    I am twenty four and at times I still feel lost. I have dealt with years of severe depression stemming from the death of my father over eight years ago. My life had a plan but after his death my world fell apart and I was never the same again. I attended a great high-school and I...
    medt medt 22-25 2 Responses Dec 26, 2010

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    Lost The Best

    I know, I'm not a normal girl. My best friend is a 6' 5" guy, named Ben. Seems normal..but he hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks.. He's everything to me.. Heres how I lost him.. He's always been so close to me.. We would talk everyday, and we'd share secrets, and he knew...
    Djarrett117 Djarrett117 16-17, F Jul 31, 2012

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    How I Lost Myself

    Everyone saw me as a good girl. I hated it! I should do no wrong, nor could I. I feel like if I made a mistake then I am a bad person. You have to be the role model and you have to do what is right even if you dont like it. I saw my self like that all the time. I could not...
    lostthoughts lostthoughts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    I thought I knew who I was,

    energetic, athletic, whimsical, and just enjoyable. That's what I was all about that 3 months ago. Then bam. Depression came. I'm none of those, I'm antisocial, I barely utter a word or Show emotion everyday. Nothing makes me laugh or happy. I feel so NUMB.
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    I Found Me

    My 39th year and I am now, just finding me. I would not describe this time in my life as a mid-life crisis, but I am definitely experiencing mid-life awareness. I keep reminding myself that I am younger today than I ever will be again in my life. I turn 40 next summer. Over...
    Hollipop Hollipop 36-40 Oct 24, 2012

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    Lately, I feel like I'm drowning.

    There isn't really a lot going on, it's just my inner demons trying to drag me into the darkness. I know I need help. I'm on meds, tried counselling.. this is something I need to face head on. I know all of the truths of my life, but these demons keep sowing negativity in all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    Why are there so many weird people on here,

    im itSaying in great because I'm far from it but what's with the peopleSending weird ****? A while ago a guy asked me if I want to be his doggy, like what the hell people. This website if for people sharing things like what they are going through like hard times(like me) and...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F May 27, 2014

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    I Have To Get This Out...

    How long have I been kidding myself? What a tangled web I've weaved myself into. I woke her up to drive me to school just as I have every Tuesday morning since the fifth of January. She cusses me, yells at me, the yanks the covers off her in a fury, gets up and comes after me...
    charlottes1web charlottes1web 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2012

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    The Total Opposite

    I had everything in life. More than actually what one needs. Great loving family, Loads of friends, the school and course i wanted. I played sports. I was in dance. I sing. I love animals. I paint. I enjoyed every single bit in life. And just before all this was taken away from...
    Maya08 Maya08 18-21 Jan 6, 2013

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    when i was 15, i started to really like girls.

    of all sorts. but i had a peculiarity: i liked depression. i was only mildly depressed, but i would seek out the depressed ones and do what i could. this leads to the second thing: it was all online, and i cheated. a lot. as in 20 girls who would exchange words of love and...
    Josephdalepi Josephdalepi 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2014

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    I Wanted To Be Better

    I recently forgot who I was, completely lost myself in what I thought was the right thing to do. I was so scared of hurting people, and I was so desperate for love, I stopped being who I am. I tried to be what I felt was right, I tried to change in ways that would help people. In...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    I've broken down but I'm back.

    I haven't been on EP for a few months. I had a metal collapse and have only recently stopped retreating from everyone. I've missed this community. Reading your stories makes me feel strong and supported. To my friends who message me, I've missed you and cannot wait to catch up...
    tulsateacher tulsateacher 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    No Easy Way Out

    I am sat here up at an ungodly time of nite alone,unable to sleep..A mind full of thought and a heart full of pain,hurt and dread.....My partner of 8 years sleeps in the room next too me but his presence is not felt..I try to push aside the envatible but the pain is unbearable...
    kindredspiritalways kindredspiritalways 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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    The Not Me

    But damnit, I'm trying to find me again.Back there in the depths of my eating disorder and the pit of my depression...  I don't have any clue who I was. I kept some journal entries and poems during that time.  When I go back and read them, my throat starts to close up and my...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    wearefools wearefools 18-21, M Apr 24, 2014

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    The Fall Of Pride

    Ok, so I did it. I signed up on one of these forums and am going to post a personal story. I never thought Id be the one to do it but I guess that is one small joy of life. The inevitability of seemingly random spontaneity . If you read this whole story, thank you in advance...
    JohnRain1988 JohnRain1988 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Where did she go? There

    once was a beautiful flower Blossomed so bright and vibrant Her fragrance filled the rooms of a tower, Nothing could stop her sprout She grew so tall, so proud Her leaves and petals were at it's finest until anunstoppable darkness grew so loud Her vibrancy hid from it...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    I lost myself while loving a man too hard. I wish I knew before it happened. if I knew this was all going to be game to him I would've gave half of me or ended. Now my heart is...
    candij1983 candij1983 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    I just don't know who I am anymore. I cared so much about fitting in and being popular and that has blown up in my face. Finally, it took being diagnosed with bipolar to see that...
    Isabellarose94 Isabellarose94 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    I feel like I used to be this wonderful, bright, affectionate person. I gave Free Hugs, was everyone's shoulder to cry on, and just tried to enjoy living. Sure, I had my own issues...
    onebadstrudel onebadstrudel 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    Yes. It was 2008-2010.I found EP when I was completely lost.I was on and off, juggling in a labyrinth of daze.I was unaware of the incomprehensible maze.I was groggy until 2013...
    4BlackForest 4BlackForest 36-40, F 7 Responses Feb 9

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    What I have to do now is find my way back to myself. And once I have found myself I must hang on to it.
    alan61a alan61a 51-55, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    Why do you come to me Searching but hidden Things you must say But know are forbidden Our souls have entwined I feel your sweet presence The desires you feel To devour my essence...
    Hidndesires Hidndesires 41-45, F Feb 7

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    Not trying hard enough.. I lost my resilience when I lost myself.
    simmerdame simmerdame 16-17, F Feb 13

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    I've lost myself along the way, picked up bits and pieces, and now I'm just shaping them altogether.. Like a work of art sat on an easel, a sculptor moulding clay, a pencil...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 8 Responses Feb 6

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    S'group describes me. People always ask for my help, and I help them. I ask myself for help, I try to go through the same steps as I do other people. I split myself into two that...
    C9Poke C9Poke 16-17, M 16 hrs ago

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    You wanna find out some personal ****? 1. Any scars? Yeah, I was a clumsy child 2. Self harmed? No 3. Crush? Yes, the owner of this account... god, what I would dO TO THAT GIRL 4...
    Colourfi Colourfi 13-15, F 1 Response 15 mins ago

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    I feel totally stupid useless I don't know I don't care lost lonely understatement I just want to give up I don't want to be here anymore I'm so done I hate it I hate people no...
    jaxpdx jaxpdx 41-45, F 13 hrs ago

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    you can't be lost unless you have a destination. I live in the moment, I don't plan for the future or get my life figured out. I take things step by step because there's no...
    lvyrusl lvyrusl 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    oh no........................................... lost 2 kg in a few hours
    timeisvaluable timeisvaluable 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm 15 and my boyfriend was 18, he loved his car and he loved to go fast. I loved him so much. He was my first true love, we had everything planned out and he told his mother on...
    yourmine11314 yourmine11314 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I find myself, lost in confusion when it comes to someone. A person I never knew, but a face I've seen in a dream. A dream that showed me a future, a future that has happened. She...
    WarzJack WarzJack 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 14

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    I have no idea what to do with my life. I'm completely lost. I never had "goals" or "dream jobs". I just got my Bachelor's degree in something I'm not even remotely interested and...
    mtea mtea 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 9

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    I hate my life so much, I really have been compensating whether or not I should kill myself, but I can never bring myself to it, like it's just thoughts; but seriously Life's...
    Krchan2 Krchan2 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Oh am I lost, I have been lost for years. I feel like I barely know myself anymore. I have this 'idea' of who I am, who I want to be, but the world doesn't know who I am. I don't...
    kateegirl kateegirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 25

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    When I listen to the music I like, I search for ratings online. And if the music is rated horrible. I feel like that I am a horrible person. And I can't get rid of it because I...
    lostfreakinglost lostfreakinglost 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Have you ever come across a song that penetrated straight into you so hard that you are unable to listen to anything else? A craving that is growing at monstrous rate to get lost...
    TheCasualChick TheCasualChick 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I lost my razor and was about a good 2 month since I have cut myself. I felt like part of myself was missing when I lost it. I sometimes have this urge to cut myself. Then I don...
    NocturnalMiss23 NocturnalMiss23 26-30, F a week ago

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    Disclaimer: I am not interested in debating anyone on the existence of God. I believe, but I do not expect you to. I feel it's a personal choice and I will respect your belief and...
    Welllaugh Welllaugh 36-40, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I get confused and lost often lately. I am in a state I've never seen before, visited, and know nobody. Except for my boyfriend and roommates. Often ask myself, "where am I...
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I believe God has told me that I have truly lost my salvation. When I was young I prayed to God asking Jesus into my heart, (though not feeling any conversion or conviction), I did...
    unsaveable unsaveable 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I remind myself I was never lost in the first place. Like that song. Didnt know I was lost... When do we lose ourselves? Do we really? or just learning and wanting more means we...
    R0GUE R0GUE 70+ Feb 24

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    My father passed 11-4-14. 16