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I Lost Myself

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    Lost The Best

    I know, I'm not a normal girl. My best friend is a 6' 5" guy, named Ben. Seems normal..but he hasn't talked to me in 2 weeks.. He's everything to me.. Heres how I lost him.. He's always been so close to me.. We would talk everyday, and we'd share secrets, and he knew...
    Djarrett117 Djarrett117 16-17, F Jul 31, 2012

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    I've broken down but I'm back.

    I haven't been on EP for a few months. I had a metal collapse and have only recently stopped retreating from everyone. I've missed this community. Reading your stories makes me feel strong and supported. To my friends who message me, I've missed you and cannot wait to catch up...
    tulsateacher tulsateacher 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Why are there so many weird people on here,

    im itSaying in great because I'm far from it but what's with the peopleSending weird ****? A while ago a guy asked me if I want to be his doggy, like what the hell people. This website if for people sharing things like what they are going through like hard times(like me) and...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F May 27, 2014

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    How I Lost Myself

    Everyone saw me as a good girl. I hated it! I should do no wrong, nor could I. I feel like if I made a mistake then I am a bad person. You have to be the role model and you have to do what is right even if you dont like it. I saw my self like that all the time. I could not...
    lostthoughts lostthoughts 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    The Not Me

    But damnit, I'm trying to find me again.Back there in the depths of my eating disorder and the pit of my depression...  I don't have any clue who I was. I kept some journal entries and poems during that time.  When I go back and read them, my throat starts to close up and my...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn 18-21, F May 9, 2012

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    Lately, I feel like I'm drowning.

    There isn't really a lot going on, it's just my inner demons trying to drag me into the darkness. I know I need help. I'm on meds, tried counselling.. this is something I need to face head on. I know all of the truths of my life, but these demons keep sowing negativity in all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30, 2014

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    Too May Emotions

              I think maybe it's because I'm extremely bipolar that when my mood changes are so fast I get confused..  I mean it's like "Oh, I'm happy." Then like ten seconds later "God you ******* **** I hope you choke on a ****!" I'm mean, then I'm nice. I'm not stable...
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I thought I knew who I was,

    energetic, athletic, whimsical, and just enjoyable. That's what I was all about that 3 months ago. Then bam. Depression came. I'm none of those, I'm antisocial, I barely utter a word or Show emotion everyday. Nothing makes me laugh or happy. I feel so NUMB.
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15, 2014

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    I Found Me

    My 39th year and I am now, just finding me. I would not describe this time in my life as a mid-life crisis, but I am definitely experiencing mid-life awareness. I keep reminding myself that I am younger today than I ever will be again in my life. I turn 40 next summer. Over...
    Hollipop Hollipop 36-40 Oct 24, 2012

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    Where did she go? There

    once was a beautiful flower Blossomed so bright and vibrant Her fragrance filled the rooms of a tower, Nothing could stop her sprout She grew so tall, so proud Her leaves and petals were at it's finest until anunstoppable darkness grew so loud Her vibrancy hid from it...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 18-21, F 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    I Lost Everything...but Am Trying To Rebuild Myself.

    I am twenty four and at times I still feel lost. I have dealt with years of severe depression stemming from the death of my father over eight years ago. My life had a plan but after his death my world fell apart and I was never the same again. I attended a great high-school and I...
    medt medt 22-25 2 Responses Dec 26, 2010

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    when i was 15, i started to really like girls.

    of all sorts. but i had a peculiarity: i liked depression. i was only mildly depressed, but i would seek out the depressed ones and do what i could. this leads to the second thing: it was all online, and i cheated. a lot. as in 20 girls who would exchange words of love and...
    Josephdalepi Josephdalepi 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2014

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    When you so alone like this sometimes o believe

    that suicide is the right answer
    kaitlynmarchinkoski kaitlynmarchinkoski 13-15, F Jul 14

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    I Have To Get This Out...

    How long have I been kidding myself? What a tangled web I've weaved myself into. I woke her up to drive me to school just as I have every Tuesday morning since the fifth of January. She cusses me, yells at me, the yanks the covers off her in a fury, gets up and comes after me...
    charlottes1web charlottes1web 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 13, 2012

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    I Wanted To Be Better

    I recently forgot who I was, completely lost myself in what I thought was the right thing to do. I was so scared of hurting people, and I was so desperate for love, I stopped being who I am. I tried to be what I felt was right, I tried to change in ways that would help people. In...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    No Easy Way Out

    I am sat here up at an ungodly time of nite alone,unable to sleep..A mind full of thought and a heart full of pain,hurt and dread.....My partner of 8 years sleeps in the room next too me but his presence is not felt..I try to push aside the envatible but the pain is unbearable...
    kindredspiritalways kindredspiritalways 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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    wearefools wearefools 18-21, M Apr 24, 2014

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    The Fall Of Pride

    Ok, so I did it. I signed up on one of these forums and am going to post a personal story. I never thought Id be the one to do it but I guess that is one small joy of life. The inevitability of seemingly random spontaneity . If you read this whole story, thank you in advance...
    JohnRain1988 JohnRain1988 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    I am passing out of high school this year.

    I'll be in college soon. I'm sure my grades won't be that great for I'm not the same me now. Since my very childhood I have been very responsible to my duties. My father is going through a mental disease, schizophrenia. My mother got to really know about it after their marriage...
    25mayni97 25mayni97 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    The Total Opposite

    I had everything in life. More than actually what one needs. Great loving family, Loads of friends, the school and course i wanted. I played sports. I was in dance. I sing. I love animals. I paint. I enjoyed every single bit in life. And just before all this was taken away from...
    Maya08 Maya08 18-21 Jan 6, 2013

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    I lost my close and only friend.... She was bipolar and depressed...her ex bf had been telling her a lot of crap... Then they got together and everything was looking bright. But...
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    All i do most of the time any more is sit and satire at the tv. its not on i just sit and wonder what my life could have been if i choose a different path. i wonder if the choices...
    bw32 bw32 31-35, M 2 hrs ago

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    I know that was super young, I was a freshman at the time. I honestly think I only did it because my bestfriends did it, but I'm happy I lost it to my boyfriend. It was awkward and...
    tiori tiori 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    Ugh I hate everything about myself. I make everyone around me unhappy. I am so alone. No one understands me.
    AlliesWorld AlliesWorld 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I get annoyed with myself, but overall, I like who I am as a person. I have things I need to work on, like everyone else. Sometimes I wish I was a little more extroverted...
    kRypt0lite kRypt0lite 22-25 2 hrs ago

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    I think when someone don't know her passion, she hasn't found herself yet. I still m searching and because I can't find it , I feel lost and insecure. I envy those who are so proud...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    A few days ago when i sybolized my love I kept looking at the necklace and cried myself to sleep.
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    About an hour ago, all my memories of being an evil person and causing others pain came rushing back to me. I could not stop myself. And I try to be a really good person, and I...
    JSylvia1015 JSylvia1015 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    My mother said that I don't know what it's like to be hungry. I know she didn't mean it in a bad or insulting way, but I'm self consists about my weight and sometimes I starve...
    Mewl Mewl 18-21, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I definitely need to take better care of myself.. I forget to eat or get too lazy to eat, so my weight fluctuates constantly. I forget to drink enough water and have lost...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

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    Dear you, You don't know how much I appreciate your presence in my life. Yes, you are a patient I see twice a month or sometimes only once but you are an inspiration and a bless...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I'm stuffing myself all everyday this week until my parents come home from work. I'm already so full. Wish me luck.
    KrazyCat13 KrazyCat13 13-15, M 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    What's the old saying, "learn to laugh at your problems because everyone else is". Well, that about sums it up. I can definitely laugh at myself, and often do. Laughter is the...
    TW8NY TW8NY 41-45, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    Wishing I could unburden myself, release the excess weight I've been carrying for a thousand lives. I've seen trust dismantled before my eyes. And if I glance back into my past...
    FindingNirvana420 FindingNirvana420 18-21, F 6 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    i love touching myself any girls wanna see and send back?
    jimperson jimperson 18-21, M 16 hrs ago

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    it was when i was a teenager. i was in the fields with my dad. he didn't need me anymore so i went to the house to take a shower. when i got to the house there was no one home...
    jsmith19941978 jsmith19941978 36-40, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I was a late starter. I lost mine at 21 and my current girlfriend is the only girl I've had sex with. before her I was in a 2-year relationship with a girl who wanted to wait til...
    Funderburk93 Funderburk93 18-21, M 20 hrs ago

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    Hi, this is my story about said topic.. thanks for reading, if you stick around to the very end .. it all started when i was about 4. . i "accepted Jesus into my heart", and it...
    tobeheld tobeheld 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've struggled with a horrendous cocaine and alcohol addiction (the worst combination ever) for the past few years. I've been in a hole and I never thought I'd surface. Idk what's...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I always had a thirst for the center of attention without rationalizing what comes with it. I always wanted to be desired and looked up to. I always wished I could have better...
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F 6 days ago

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