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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 8,439 People

    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 12 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    I keep seeing posts about suicide Here's

    something for those who post these things: You think nobody cares about you, you think you're only here to be picked on. And worst of all you think nothing is going to change. Everything is going to change; your mom is gonna quit her job and lay in bed bawling every single day...
    Jurnee16 Jurnee16 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    Today was the celebration of life

    for a high school friend of mine who took his own life in April. I thought that I'd processed it and would be ok, but hearing all the stories and seeing all the photos made it hard again. No one knows why he did it or what was going on that he was struggling with, not his family...
    kcfrenchhorn72 kcfrenchhorn72 18-21, F Jul 19

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    And my family are gonna lose me

    if bullying keeps to continue.
    Annaambrose Annaambrose 16-17 9 Responses Jul 21

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    I was 18 and quit tech school

    and my job to run away with my friends in my car to a month long festival in the Ocala forest. I met a guy my first night there he was mixed with bright blue eyes. We kept locking eyes, he played the guitar and had a dog that he loved the whole festival. His eyes pulled me in...
    Worleybirdie Worleybirdie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 17 Responses Jan 9

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    Mistakesmakeus Mistakesmakeus 18-21, M 20 Responses Jan 22

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    Hello. My husband committed suicide I still

    can't believe it. He did it the last day of March this year. He was my caretaker he helped me with everything. I can't walk very good. Plus I just had surgery in May I wish I saw the signs. They were all there I ignored them.
    coolcindy59 coolcindy59 56-60, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Wow. I just learned a few minutes ago

    that someone I knew committed suicide. It's still unbelievable that something like this could happen. I knew he had some problems at home, he ran away once, but he never mentioned it, so I never brought it up. I should've said something. Gotten him help. I wasn't as close to him...
    Wowzersgeewilly Wowzersgeewilly 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 7

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    11 years ago, you smiled at me.

    You loved me. You trusted me. You were my secret. I was yours. I never expected your father to suspect. I never expected him to follow us. I never expected that would be the last day, I gazed into your eyes. I never expected that would be last day, I smelled your hair. The...
    Maelia816 Maelia816 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hi. I am new to this,

    I have just posted about my normal home life & what I have been through with 5 babies under the age of 5, but I would love to tell you a story that happen just after my twins were born. I had been friends with this girl called Grace, I met her on a opening day at college a few...
    Florence1994 Florence1994 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    here it is. Today. 6 years gone.

    We love and miss you more than you know. You're really missing out. Your precious girl is so much like you and growing up without her mom. I choose life. I choose to ignore the psycho on this site who had the nerve to blame me for your decision. I choose to honor your memory by...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 29

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    My best friend of 13 years took her life a few

    days ago. I feel like I'm spinning. I'm so very sad and angry and confused right now.
    mimsywils mimsywils 41-45, F 5 Responses Jul 9

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    there was a time in my life

    that i felt surrounded by death, every where i turned it seemed that death was coming for ever one and every thing that i loved. in a short span of seven years i lost four very good friends to suicide and two good people i wish i could have known better, i often think of these...
    bobbymcyaha bobbymcyaha 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 6

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    It's been 2 years now,

    but he's always on my thoughts. I lost a good friend and mentor, he helped me learn the tricks of the trade and always seemed to be in a good mood. Sadly I wasn't able to see him in his last few months and it came out of the blue when I heard he killed himself. He never seemed...
    theunkownguy theunkownguy 18-21, M Aug 12

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    A friend of mine took her life just a few days

    ago. I know she was sad. She told me so many times that she wanted to die. She told me she was starting to have physical symptoms from the depression. I listened. But I didn't force her to get help. I asked her if she wanted me to come over and just sit with her- she told me no...
    magicalaughter magicalaughter 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    My younger sister committed suicide on May 11,

    2015. I need to say that she was an alcoholic/addict and I am an alcoholic/addict that has been in recovery for a few years now. I yelled, screamed, fought, pleaded, cried, spoke softly, had normal conversations, approached her anyway possible trying to get her sober. Finally...
    rwgh79 rwgh79 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 1

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    I lost the best mate I ever had,

    I didn't know him for long, he was my flat mate in a western suburbs halfway house I lived in after I got kicked out of home at 18. He was pretty much my partner in crime. He was more than a friend to me back the, he never knew I had feelings for him (not that I'm gay or Hetro...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    I lost my boyfriend in 9th grade.

    It's been 4 years since it happened and I'm still not over it. He was really special to me. We both suffered from severe depression, and I still struggle with it today, and he understood me and we just clicked. Idk, 14 may be too young for someone to find "the one", but I really...
    babym00n5 babym00n5 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    My girlfriend committed suicide in the school

    storage room 2 years ago. Everyone was crying and were upset but for some reason I didnt feel anything, when I found out I didn't know how to respond to it. People at my school thought something was wrong with me because I didn't cry and I acted like my usual self. I said that...
    Dasani85 Dasani85 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    3 years ago I lost my brother to suicide.

    ..and I swear it seems to never get easier to deal with...R.I.P Josh..until we meet again...love u
    gabrielle04 gabrielle04 26-30, F 10 Responses Apr 29

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    I lost my dad last year he suffered from alcohol

    and depression and his life finally got to hard he was in care but the let him go through wrong decision and he took his own life I put every second of every day to try to help him get better but the one chance he had he left me and its so horrible wish I could have done more
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 7

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 46 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Well , November 6th, 2014 ,

    my boyfriend at the age of 20 took his life. I feel so responsible . We were already not on good terms and we talked it out prior to that moment , but then I became enraged with his actions shortly after our talk which put us on irregular terms once again. As we traveled by car...
    KiNieeBee KiNieeBee 22-25, F 8 Responses Jul 27

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    June 29th is always an emotional surprise.

    It was around 1pm and we were instant messaging on Facebook. Joking around as usual. We had no idea she was planning to do this for years. She said someone was at the door and she'd be right back. I didn't know she was already gone. The phone rang. My mother in law was crying...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 24

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 14, 2012

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 8 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    I lost my close and only friend.

    ... She was bipolar and depressed...her ex bf had been telling her a lot of crap... Then they got together and everything was looking bright. But one day..she wanted to commit suicide and I told her that there are people who are going thru so much worse....I wish I didn't said...
    SweetButPainfulRose SweetButPainfulRose 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 3

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    My older brother Chad <3 He was 33

    when he took his life. back in 2012. doesn't seem that long ago. I miss him terribly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
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