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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,513 People

    They called me saying they had found the body

    of my older brother a few weeks ago, hit by a truck, "At least he didn't suffer", they told me, when I had arrived at the hospital, somehow that didn't cheer me up too much. It was only clear that it had been suicide a few days later, but I had known it from the first second. He...
    Asherix Asherix 36-40, M 6 Responses Apr 9

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    Because the wealthy gained power.

    And made not caring popular.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 16

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    I have lost my brother on March 23,

    2014. I really miss him. We didn't really talk and i think I'm part of the reason.
    laceyrose03 laceyrose03 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Six months today, your beautiful smile was

    wiped from the earth. The longer you're gone the more I realise you really aren't coming back. I miss you..
    livingmylifeonewayoranother livingmylifeonewayoranother 13-15, T 3 Responses Mar 25

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    My friend, Jake, committed suicide today.

    He mixed alcohol with sleeping pills.
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 15

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    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 1

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    My cousin, he was 19.

    It was about a Month ago... I... I just don't know anymore. He wasn't just a family member. He was my friend. And the more I go on with this... The more I want to do the same thing.
    Jewelia5555 Jewelia5555 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 31

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    I lost someone to suicide today

    and it is making me think a lot about life and how close I myself came to doing the same thing but I was very lucky I had someone to help me get through the tough times. I'm feeling very sad at the moment that there are people out there that don't have anyone they can turn to...
    Kelly2Kelly Kelly2Kelly 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Even though he was my EP friend I feel

    so heartbroken. He was my only friend :(
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I struggle with some of my religion's

    statements about suicide and how I feel.
    alexis77 alexis77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    My girlfriend was my world.

    . The only person that accepted me and loved me for who I am.. The only person that made me happy. I knew her for 7 years and we were together the 3 last years (we were too young before that). Her parents used to kick her out of her house for months and she would have nowhere to...
    Yiannos Yiannos 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    when I was in high school ,

    10th grade, my best friend Emily started getting jealous of me and my bf Nick... because she never had a boyfriend....and I hate to admit it but I started ignoring her, I saw the way she looked at me 'when are you going to dump this dropout' and I saw the way she looked at him 'I...
    SelenaStevens SelenaStevens 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013.

    We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both balanced. Through a crazy turn of events, we began a relationship in February of 2014 and stayed together until his death in June of 2014. His...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Ive just heard that a dear friend of mine has

    taken their own life, I feel saddened shocked hurt and ******* angry
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    It's been almost a month now,

    it still feels so unreal, I remember holding you in my arms and thinking at any moment now you are going to wake up and hold me back....you didn't :/ my brother I have those unanswered questions that unbearable pain and then next mintue that horrible calm and numbness that I...
    Junostars Junostars 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 22

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    How many do I count, more

    than I can on my fingers. Except the tragedy is a few of them died in my presence, how simple is it that depression goes on behind your very back.
    RawrrItsAlexa RawrrItsAlexa 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    highomeal highomeal 18-21, M 19 Responses Jan 22

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    Why is this happening to me again.

    ....I lost my father when I was 11. I lost the father of my 4 month son 2 months ago. Just spent the last two hours pouring my heart out telling my story and something happened to my pc and it was erased right before I could post it!!! I am just wanting to heal!!!!!!! Why is...
    katslost2 katslost2 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I wasn't planning on sharing this,

    at least not this soon. But after my talk with another EP member two days ago and my talk with a different one just now, I figured that maybe I should and that with this, I could also release some of the feelings I've been having. So for those that don't know.. most of you...
    Niran3 Niran3 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    Even now, after over a year,

    I still can't truly believe it. I still can't get my head around the fact that I'll never hear his voice, I'll never see his smile again. And it just breaks my heart every time that realisation sinks in a little more. I'm the only one who knows why he did it. And it kills me to...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    She was my best friend

    and i miss her so much:( if only i could talk to her one more time.. I just hope shes someone watching over me.<3
    Deletedemotions Deletedemotions 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    testing11 testing11 51-55, M 3 Responses Apr 18

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    My boyfriend. He was abused,

    bullied and he self harmed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    I miss my dad. Today I truly miss him.

    For the first time since his death in 1992, I am grieving for his loss. When he died, I didn't only lose him, I also lost myself. There's a deep wound in my heart, still raw and bleeding and ever consuming me. It is this huge black hole that can never be filled in. It was too...
    SapphireSol SapphireSol 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Last year a very good friend of mine committed

    suicide. I had no idea that he was suffering and I blame myself a lot because I didn't notice his pain. For those of you who have very recently lost someone to suicide, know that it gets easier as the days pass. I'm here for anyone who needs to vent :) (Here's a pretty...
    00Marley00 00Marley00 16-17, F Mar 29

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    My brother, my best friend,

    and half of my soul passed away on February 16,2015. He had been battling with depression for over 13 years and I tried to help him every step of the way and failed at the very end. He had just gotten out of the hospital a week before that for a suicide attempt and didn't feel...
    finallyfree2fly finallyfree2fly 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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