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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,149 People

    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    hey, This is my first post

    so please bare with me.. She was my best friend.. her name was Hannah. we used to hang out a lot together, smoking, and having laughs.. she would always give me advice on my present gf's and tbh, she was Always there when she was needed. Her just being there and talking made...
    Shadow6six6 Shadow6six6 22-25, M Jan 24

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    3 already. Its not even been 2 months.

    .. I miss all of you guys. Im so sorry i couldn't save you. I tried...
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    Okay, its a month till my birthday today

    but im not excited because today was the day i lost my best friend nikki to suicide and in exactly five minutes was the time i walked into her lifeless body on the floor covered in blood. I miss her so much. Stupid bullies judging her. I love you boo, have fun up there...
    Suicidesilenced Suicidesilenced 13-15, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013.

    We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both balanced. Through a crazy turn of events, we began a relationship in February of 2014 and stayed together until his death in June of 2014. His...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    No amount of tears I've cried

    or many prayers I've said can ever bring you back. Happy Birthday, Brian... I miss you and love you so much.
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    Seriously don't come to me with the suicide

    stuff unless you're being honest. I can't take talking about that stuff if you just want attention. It kills my nerves and makes me cry and I'm so sick of it. If you want attention find it some other way! Some people have first hand experiences with suicide and don't need you...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F Feb 15

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    It's been nearly two months

    and I'm still terrified to sleep...terrified of the images of you, terrified to wake up drenched in tears and sweat, screaming. Why Ben...why did you do this to me!?
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 40 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    On 11/24/14 me and my mother got a call in the

    middle of the day. I was at school she was at work. I got the call first. It was from a friend. I answered "Hello?" All I heard was crying on the other end of the phone. "Hello? What's wrong?" I said. "TY, your brother. He killed himself" she said. There was silence on the phone...
    chadderman chadderman 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 17

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    I thought I was moving on,

    that I could be able to start dating again, opening myself to someone again. But alas I was wrong. Whenever I start to think I've found someone to form a relationship with I feel like I'm betraying her in some way. Like I'm just trying to replace her. That somehow I'm...
    Mordacai Mordacai 18-21, M 3 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I hate it when people think no one understands

    when they loose someone like a grandmother. You knew they were gonna die in the first place. I've lost my WHOLE FAMILY and I don't go out in public and blubber, saying poor me and shoving the fact Someone in my family is dead. You know what my relatives do when I cry over my...
    CYANIDExSILENCE CYANIDExSILENCE 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    I just lost my dad may 5th 2014,

    he committed suicide, he put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. His suicide note kills me everytime i see it. I miss him, he was my hero
    madicakes123 madicakes123 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I was surprised to see a highlighted message

    and lifeline numbers for help when searching this topic....Thankyou EP!! Ive lost more than one person this way and appreciate this gesture very much.
    Angelkins Angelkins 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    I could've stopped him

    if I was there I talked him outta it once I could've done it again
    silverstrike silverstrike 13-15, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I lost my uncle to suicide,

    he was driving somewhere and decided to end it all. I learned all of that from the radio, two days after, the local news repeated events that happen in the town and I remember, Man committed suicide in high speed chase. I was about 12-ish..I really can't remember really. He...
    prettybombie prettybombie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    My older brother, the only protection I had

    from my parents, I hated him for such a long time, he left me to be hurt, and it only got worse once he was gone. But now almost 2 years later I get it. He couldn't handle it, he didn't want to be treated like that, and I don't blame him, I've though about joining him, I could...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    I just learned that a friend of mine committed

    suicide yesterday. it just feels unreal, I just don't know what to say.
    andrewD51 andrewD51 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 10

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    when the love of my life committed suicide 2

    1/2 yrs ago I felt lost for a long time. I went thru a wide range of emotions the lsdt few years but can honestly day I'm ok. losing him will never be ok, but you can learn to keep living life again. in the beginning I went to his grave as often as possible to talk to him... I...
    slovek slovek 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    Stay strong baby girl,

    I can't handle losing another one, not you and Chris please hold on.
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    Hello everyone, I am 15 yrs old

    and I lost my dad to suicide last year after thanksgiving. I woke up to my mom screaming and calling 911 me and my 3 other sibling were in the living room after I realized what I thought had happend my heart was beating so fast I though I was having a stroke I felt sick, my mom...
    Fangedwang Fangedwang 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 4

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    Suicide is a serious issue.

    If you posted something about someone offending you all I can say is I'm sorry. It's hard watching someone grow up without their dad.
    Johnviolinist823 Johnviolinist823 22-25, M Jan 27

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    1 month and 11 days ago I lost my mother to

    suicide. I remember when my sister called me. I was in school. She told me our mum had OD'D and that she was in the hospital. I started crying, and she told me everything was going to be OK - mama would get the help she needed. But I knew. I knew she wouldn't survive. How did...
    leavingtraces leavingtraces 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    My girlfriend was my world.

    . The only person that accepted me and loved me for who I am.. The only person that made me happy. I knew her for 7 years and we were together the 3 last years (we were too young before that). Her parents used to kick her out of her house for months and she would have nowhere to...
    Yiannos Yiannos 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    highomeal highomeal 16-17, M 19 Responses Jan 22

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    It's more of my girlfriend's experience

    as she lost a friend, but that doesn't mean the rest of the world has nothing to do with her. The thought of someone pushing up daisies also pushes up sorrow into the atmosphere, especially within her social circle. Now the world is one person less who could've made a positive...
    CurtainOnFire CurtainOnFire 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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