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I Lost Someone To Suicide

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    I lost someone to suicide today

    and it is making me think a lot about life and how close I myself came to doing the same thing but I was very lucky I had someone to help me get through the tough times. I'm feeling very sad at the moment that there are people out there that don't have anyone they can turn to...
    Kelly2Kelly Kelly2Kelly 46-50, F Apr 3

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    How many do I count, more

    than I can on my fingers. Except the tragedy is a few of them died in my presence, how simple is it that depression goes on behind your very back.
    RawrrItsAlexa RawrrItsAlexa 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Even now, after over a year,

    I still can't truly believe it. I still can't get my head around the fact that I'll never hear his voice, I'll never see his smile again. And it just breaks my heart every time that realisation sinks in a little more. I'm the only one who knows why he did it. And it kills me to...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My younger sister left this world 9 years ago

    on her own terms. A belt wrapped around her neck in her bedroom closet. She was 11 years old. Left behind were several journals filled with progressively more legible cursive writing both in English (which was our mother's only language)and our father's native language also.My...
    ShahirAnkara ShahirAnkara 22-25, M 8 Responses Apr 8

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    It's been almost a month now,

    it still feels so unreal, I remember holding you in my arms and thinking at any moment now you are going to wake up and hold me back....you didn't :/ my brother I have those unanswered questions that unbearable pain and then next mintue that horrible calm and numbness that I...
    Junostars Junostars 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 22

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    They called me saying they had found the body

    of my older brother a few weeks ago, hit by a truck, "At least he didn't suffer", they told me, when I had arrived at the hospital, somehow that didn't cheer me up too much. It was only clear that it had been suicide a few days later, but I had known it from the first second. He...
    Asherix Asherix 36-40, M 6 Responses Apr 9

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    Why is this happening to me again.

    ....I lost my father when I was 11. I lost the father of my 4 month son 2 months ago. Just spent the last two hours pouring my heart out telling my story and something happened to my pc and it was erased right before I could post it!!! I am just wanting to heal!!!!!!! Why is...
    katslost2 katslost2 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I have lost my brother on March 23,

    2014. I really miss him. We didn't really talk and i think I'm part of the reason.
    laceyrose03 laceyrose03 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I wasn't planning on sharing this,

    at least not this soon. But after my talk with another EP member two days ago and my talk with a different one just now, I figured that maybe I should and that with this, I could also release some of the feelings I've been having. So for those that don't know.. most of you...
    Niran3 Niran3 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    when I was in high school ,

    10th grade, my best friend Emily started getting jealous of me and my bf Nick... because she never had a boyfriend....and I hate to admit it but I started ignoring her, I saw the way she looked at me 'when are you going to dump this dropout' and I saw the way she looked at him 'I...
    SelenaStevens SelenaStevens 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I got a call about 2:30 am this morning .

    I knew she was having problems but I didn't know how depressed she was. She called me last week and said hey girl - she was suppose to visit this week . We were friends since age 5 - went all through school together. This is the third friend I have lost to suicide. I love you...
    Dancemomisme1 Dancemomisme1 46-50, F 15 Responses Mar 9

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    My brother, my best friend,

    and half of my soul passed away on February 16,2015. He had been battling with depression for over 13 years and I tried to help him every step of the way and failed at the very end. He had just gotten out of the hospital a week before that for a suicide attempt and didn't feel...
    finallyfree2fly finallyfree2fly 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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    My cousin, he was 19.

    It was about a Month ago... I... I just don't know anymore. He wasn't just a family member. He was my friend. And the more I go on with this... The more I want to do the same thing.
    Jewelia5555 Jewelia5555 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    MissConduct329 MissConduct329 26-30, F 6 Responses Mar 31

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    Theres a point in everyones life

    when they feel that they have no purpose to be here anymore, cause i myself have those feelings often, life is far from easy but the only thing that keeps me up is God, whenever i feel down i pray, everyone has to face negativity, you have to be strong enough and fight and prove...
    QueenQB QueenQB 18-21, F Mar 9

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    My boyfriend. He was abused,

    bullied and he self harmed.
    SkinnyBiGirl SkinnyBiGirl 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    The police said it was suicide,

    all the evidence say otherwise. That's what happens in a third world country.
    koh72 koh72 41-45, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Even though he was my EP friend I feel

    so heartbroken. He was my only friend :(
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 6 Responses Apr 1

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    Last year a very good friend of mine committed

    suicide. I had no idea that he was suffering and I blame myself a lot because I didn't notice his pain. For those of you who have very recently lost someone to suicide, know that it gets easier as the days pass. I'm here for anyone who needs to vent :) (Here's a pretty...
    00Marley00 00Marley00 16-17, F Mar 29

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    My girlfriend was my world.

    . The only person that accepted me and loved me for who I am.. The only person that made me happy. I knew her for 7 years and we were together the 3 last years (we were too young before that). Her parents used to kick her out of her house for months and she would have nowhere to...
    Yiannos Yiannos 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 43 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    He was a boyfriend. I was 15,

    when he took his life. I never knew that he was having a hard time. Wish I could've done something. I guess because I was suicidal, during that time, I couldn't see what was happening.
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Six months today, your beautiful smile was

    wiped from the earth. The longer you're gone the more I realise you really aren't coming back. I miss you..
    livingmylifeonewayoranother livingmylifeonewayoranother 13-15, T 3 Responses Mar 25

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    I struggle with some of my religion's

    statements about suicide and how I feel.
    alexis77 alexis77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    just lost a good friend yesterday.

    this is so wild. I just saw him and now he's gone.
    LeviKururugi LeviKururugi 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 14

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    Well not really suicide

    but still she's gone. She was 15. I had the biggest crush on her as a freshman in highschool. Then she left school for a year due to Liver Cancer. Then she came back a year later and said her cancer was cured. Then she died 3 weeks later. I should have attended her funeral. She...
    Chelsea248744 Chelsea248744 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Because the wealthy gained power.

    And made not caring popular.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    My friend, Jake, committed suicide today.

    He mixed alcohol with sleeping pills.
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...