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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,831 People

    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 43 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I lost an old friend to suicide 3 months ago.

    Maybe if we had stayed friends I could have done something to help.
    imsoclassic imsoclassic 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 29

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    I miss you everyday, I think of you

    and sometimes I close my eyes so I can remember. I know the pain you felt was real and that the memories of war were too much for you to bare. PTSD was way too much and that night you took your precious life. I love you my dearest friend I hope and pray you have found peace.
    Oliviaa92 Oliviaa92 41-45, F May 25

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 17 Responses Jan 9

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    4 days ago I was in the phone with a friend of

    mine who is a police officer. We were planning an atv ride that afternoon into the forest. At that moment he got a missing person call on his police radio. I'm good friends with the same person who had gone missing. Because I know the area like the back of my hand, and my cop...
    mongoheadmonster mongoheadmonster 31-35, M 3 Responses Apr 30

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    testing11 testing11 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 18

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    My friend committed suicide on my birthday.

    Since then, my parents doesn't know about it. I've been depressed about it.
    TheHauntedSoul TheHauntedSoul 16-17, T 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    My best friend killed himself last night.

    He was an amazing person and like a brother to me. And now he's gone. I can't stop crying.
    FireFlames FireFlames 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013.

    We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both balanced. Through a crazy turn of events, we began a relationship in February of 2014 and stayed together until his death in June of 2014. His...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    April 16th will mark the one year anniversary

    since I lost my father to suicide. One year later, and it still hurts that your not here to hold me, go tell me everything will be okay. One year later, and I still cry knowing how long it's been since I've heard your sweet voice or have smelt your strong, but welcoming cologne...
    hrose69702 hrose69702 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 14, 2012

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    My friend Ryan. We never talked much

    but I wish we had spent more time together. I miss him and pray that he found peace. I pray for his wife and daughter as well. I forgive him.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response May 25

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Last year I lost my brother jonees to suicide.

    I found him in the bath tube wrist cut up ,water red.At the time I found him he had over dosed on all my moms pills that where laying my around he still had a pulse but was knocked out .when we got to the hospital they tried to pump his stomach but nothing was working.that same...
    kassidyforreal kassidyforreal 16-17, F 4 Responses May 17

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    Ive just heard that a dear friend of mine has

    taken their own life, I feel saddened shocked hurt and ******* angry
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 24

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    3 years ago I lost my brother to suicide.

    ..and I swear it seems to never get easier to deal with...R.I.P Josh..until we meet again...love u
    gabrielle04 gabrielle04 26-30, F 10 Responses Apr 29

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    I lost my step brother to suicide.

    The feeling I got after I found out, was a feeling I've never had before with such intensity; the only way I can describe it is, it felt like actual heart-break. It was so intense that I thought it would never go away. The feeling passed, but I still feel upset to think about...
    BexBaby84 BexBaby84 31-35, F 2 Responses May 9

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    my husband killed himself.

    left myself and a 2 year old boy. our son is four now and I still miss him so much. I have moved on and have an amazing boyfriend but I still think about him everyday. I am just so sad. I fight depression daily. been on a ton of different meds. nothing is working. the worst part...
    kayliw kayliw 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    I miss my dad. Today I truly miss him.

    For the first time since his death in 1992, I am grieving for his loss. When he died, I didn't only lose him, I also lost myself. There's a deep wound in my heart, still raw and bleeding and ever consuming me. It is this huge black hole that can never be filled in. It was too...
    SapphireSol SapphireSol 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 8 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    My friend, Jake, committed suicide today.

    He mixed alcohol with sleeping pills.
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 15

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    I lost one of my only friends to suicide.

    I wish I could talk to her just one more time. I always wonder if there is something that I could have done... I always wonder if there's something I could have said... I miss her so much... She's only been gone for about a month now but it seems like she's been gone for an...
    TheRealSamsClub TheRealSamsClub 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Even though he was my EP friend I feel

    so heartbroken. He was my only friend :(
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    The police said it was suicide,

    all the evidence say otherwise. That's what happens in a third world country.
    koh72 koh72 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I find it hard to cope without my dad I can't

    understand why he would do this to Me and my brothers
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I can't believe it's over 2 years ago.

    He was the first one to show me it's ok to struggle but also the first one I knew who struggled. With his creativity and kindness came such an amount of sadness. He couldn't fight it any longer. He took his life just one week after his 16th birthday. Even though he died so young...
    VivienHope VivienHope 16-17, F 2 Responses May 21

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    Because the wealthy gained power.

    And made not caring popular.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 16

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    The telephone rings. It's troubling news.

    A father's distraught. I'm a daughter confused. A flood of emotions, Agony afflicting my mind. Will my prayers be answered, If I can make it on time? At the end of my tortuous drive, While I'm unlatching his gate, I hear that echoing sound, I know that I'm a minute too...
    Loverofpeace Loverofpeace 41-45, F 14 Responses Apr 16

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    DoubleEOneL DoubleEOneL 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 12 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    highomeal highomeal 18-21, M 19 Responses Jan 22

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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