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I Lost Someone To Suicide

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    I have lost count of the number of friend mates

    and acquaintances i have buried. It is why i work with the youth of today. I expect to suit up more over the next yet or so. I hate knowing that. I am sick of seeing people i know, love and respect in wooden boxes.
    LifesCoach LifesCoach 31-35, M Aug 5

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    Okay, facebook sucks

    and as I was trying to comment on a post, it deleted it, so I'm going to make my statement again. On the topic of whether or not suicide is selfish or not.. YES. It is. I love Robin Williams, and I'm sure a lot of people will be pissed off at me. But yes, it is selfish. My...
    ruca28 ruca28 26-30, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I lost my syster two yeas ago

    and my mother yestetrday. I am only 22 and I need and want someone to tell me it will all be ok, that I will end up fine, even though I have no one left.
    florence91 florence91 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 34 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    Life has had many cruel twists.

    .. I went from an unhappy abusive home to an unhappy and abusive marriage. My ex-husband had a best friend who eventually became the Godfather to my oldest son. The moment "M" held my tiny little miracle I began to see how cruel life can be. M was 10 times the father my...
    skk1966 skk1966 46-50, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 16-17, M 9 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    My Sweet Baby Brother

    I always carried him through everything hard, even when he started to walk. My sister and I took turns lugging him around and watching over him. I left our chaotic home as soon as possible, got married and tried not to look back. My mom is an addict and my father (step) has had...
    roses4me2 roses4me2 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 35 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I lost my Dad. The day it happened I sat on the

    couch while he walked out the door that morning. An hour later I went to my grandparents and was greeted by a state trooper who told me that my father had taken his own life. It's going to be a year in a week since that day. I am still just as heart broken as that day. I can't...
    Brittany4991 Brittany4991 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 6

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    one of my best friends tyra was

    so supportive of me and I met her in the hospital so she was basically the only person I had for weeks. being in the hospital for suicide was so hard but she kept me through it with her smile and jokes. a few weeks after we were both discharged from the hospital I got a text...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    Its only been a little of a mounth.

    He was the only person who loved my for who i am (body,mind and heart). Learning to deal with it is the hardest thing i ever had to do. I have guilt. I wish i could of been there to tell him, he could make it threw. We promised each other we would all ways be there for each...
    stillgoingcrazy stillgoingcrazy 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This is the first time I have written about

    and I know there are no answers. I am not really sure why I am writing about it but this is my story... Just over 2 years ago my best friend took his own life. In an instant life as I knew it changed so abruptly and has never been the same since. Our circle of friends drifted...
    Isthereonlyoneofme Isthereonlyoneofme 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 4

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    A New Year And An Unmended Heart

    Jesse. He has been my best friend since I was seven. Or I guess I should say 'had been'. It's my first New Years Eve without him. And its been exactly one year since I saw his gorgeous eyes, his friendly smile. No, he didn't commit suicide on New Years. But he did move six hours...
    SamIsGay SamIsGay 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I was really close to my cousin.

    He was more like a brother to me. The day he decided to take his life was one of the darkest days in mine. I cannot comphrehend why he did it. Not a day goes by where I don't think of him. I frequently dream about him... in my dream he does actually shoot himself but he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 13

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    In January of this year.

    .. Someone once said that it's a gift from God that we don't know when we're going to die... you'd live you're whole life knowing you had a 100 years or maybe just a few days left with someone. It'd drive you completely mad.... Well I knew. I knew I had less than a year with...
    Aleacam Aleacam 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    I just found out my good friend committed today

    my little angle you will always be in my heart🌸your always gonna be a beautiful flower to me
    baileyzook baileyzook 13-15, F Aug 5

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    I don't even know why I am writing this here

    but I promised myself to finally get over this so maybe this is like a last ..hmm don't even know how to call it lets just say I will here write the whole story 1 time one last time... what a great way to start this here since its my first post sooo a bit of background...
    Nicoisanaupair Nicoisanaupair 18-21, F Aug 5

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 6 Responses Mar 19

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 33 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    This past Saturday a good friend of mine lost

    her battle and fell short to her depression. Depression is a real disease. It's not something that can be easily controlled. Sometimes the people who appear the happiest and the strongest are fighting the hardest battles, often within themselves. I wish I would have known sooner...
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 4 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Trevor was one of my best friends

    and past boyfriends but he just couldn't take it anymore i had no idea he had so many problems. He hid it well I miss him every day its almost been 4 years but feels like 4 days
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    tyra. my little precious angel.

    I remember when we would sit in the hospital and talk about random dreams we had and things we wanted to achieve when we got older. we both wanted to inspire each other.. but now you can't do that. I wish you were still here with me tyra. I miss you a lot, and I know this is out...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    It is Throwback Thursday,

    and this one is a very emotional one for me. With the death of Robin Williams who committed suicide, it brings back the moment I found out about my sister Barbara..in our family we called her Titi (pronounced Teedee) who committed suicide - 23 years ago. Every time I hear...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    My dad took his own life in 2008 a

    after finding out my mum was cheating, he suffered from depression and anger issues for a long time before.
    Tabby1017 Tabby1017 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    My stepbrother Matt. Yesterday he slashed his

    wrists. I loved him so much and I really didnt see it coming. He always seemed happy but I guess he wasnt
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    It's been two years since my cousin committed

    suicide he would of been 18 this year i don't know why he did it though.... He always was so happy and got along with everyone he made everyone smile.... He had lots of friends he seemed like the happiest person I knew... I remember when my dad told me what happened and I...
    PrincessAyyoBbyBoo PrincessAyyoBbyBoo 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    its probably better we're not together.

    The world's on fire. It's a ****** up mess. Do your wings fit good? Can you fly? I hope your wings fit good when you fly. It's almost like you've been carrying me. A little angel always watching over me. Save me from the danger I can't see. I always seem to know where I'm...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    My Friend Michael

    I was raised by my single mom in a poor area surrounded by other families headed by single mothers. This is where I met my friend Michael and his mother. Michael was sweet, shy, caring, playful, bright, energetic and creative. When I was 10 and he was 9 we often hung out together...
    gumshoejane2 gumshoejane2 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2012

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    I lost a friend. Her name was Skyler,

    I refer to her as Sky. She was amazing, beautiful, courageous, good hearted, loving, caring, sympathetic, silly, she was my everything. I was head over heels in love with her. She made me so happy. One night, she got into a fight with her parents, and she came to my house for...
    hopelovecare hopelovecare 16-17, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    Two Months Later..........

    Oddly enough in a way I feel free........... yet I am broken. This week will be two months since my husband chose to end his life. He is dead and I am lost. This realization has not been easy, every day I look at my younger son and I see his face. Everywhere I go I am reminded...
    bobbyswife30 bobbyswife30 26-30, F 11 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    A day in March 2012, had been one of the most

    darkest days.. I have had it with life and was going to end my life. I had forgotten that my cousin that my cousin who had moved in didn't go to school that day and he saved my life, he got me out of the bathroom and cried with me and from then on every night we would talk...
    March122014 March122014 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    Since my partners suicide a bit over two months

    ago I find myself constantly questioning rather I really want to remain here with out him.
    smurffy422 smurffy422 36-40, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 10 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    it's been nearly a year

    since I lost my best friend to suicide. it happened when I was working at an event. I'd told her that morning that wouldn't go if she needed me but she said she'd be fine. I shouldn't have left her alone I'm such an idiot. I got a phone call half way through the night telling me...
    hidingbehindthefacade hidingbehindthefacade 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 21

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    Although not a direct loss to me,

    my great-grandmother committed suicide when my grandfather was only fourteen. She was going through a terrible divorce and my grandfather had ran away from home for a week to live with some friends after an argument between him and the family. He later returned home to find his...
    xSundip xSundip 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 4

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    When I was 9 lost my uncle

    who was very close to me. I loved him so much. I was told he was hit by a car. That was all I got told. I only found out 2 years ago that he had actually committed suicide. I blame myself for his death and I always have. I feel like I could of helped him. He was the only person...
    ConfusedAndScared1234 ConfusedAndScared1234 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Seeing the news about the comedian Robin

    Williams brings back to me thoughts about my friend Luc. He committed suicide when we were both sixteen. He was walking in the alps with friends, and at a precipice near to the Italian border, he just jumped off! To this day I do not know why.
    Lecuyer90 Lecuyer90 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 12

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    I've known a few people in my 20's whom

    committed suicide. Three good friends who seemed happy and not in any way depressed or unhappy. It's sad to know they couldn't talk to me and kept things bottled up. But that's the way it goes sometimes. The first friend wrote a letter saying she had a brain tumour and was...
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 7 Responses May 3

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    I lost my brother to suicide

    when in 2010. he hung himself by the ceiling fan and I was the one who found him. I put so much guilt on myself. I should've known he was so upset. I should've done something to help him. he was my best friend. i just want him back. id take his place in a heartbeat if I could. I...
    Katelynann30 Katelynann30 13-15, F 10 Responses Aug 7