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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 9,338 People

    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 31 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    My older brother Chad <3 He was 33

    when he took his life. back in 2012. doesn't seem that long ago. I miss him terribly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    EVERY time I see someone post a question

    or an experience about looking for ways to kill themselves, I ALWAYS post the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number. 1-800-273-8255. Who knows? Maybe it's hopeless, but maybe I'm going to save someone's life. I've been to a point where I attempted it before, and I just...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    I miss my gay best friend

    so much.. :( He's name was Adam and we met when I went to America to study there. Unfortunately he was a loner and me being the shy but kind girl, i approached him and we became instant best friends. It's because we could relate to each other's problems. I met him at the age of...
    xXGothicAngelxx xXGothicAngelxx 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    My first boyfriend's name was Robert.

    He was a brooder. He thought about things a lot. I liked him a lot. But his was an obsessive nature which was very time managinng. At the age of fifteen, in 2013, he threw himself through his bedroom window. He had a white cord around his, neck, and his copy in his pocket...
    Beannie97 Beannie97 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 13

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    On November 2nd, 2015,

    my world started to crumble apart. I received a call that my best friend had committed suicide. It was a complete shock she would do such a thing. In the depression that followed, my wife announced she had filed for divorce because she had realized she had never actually loved...
    wildcard117 wildcard117 31-35, M 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 73 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    When I was around thirteen,

    I watched my biological mother try to kill herself, and being the only one with her at the time had to call another adult to come help get her to a hospital. Luckily she survived. When I was fifteen, I remember my Nona telling me one of her classmates had killed himself at the...
    ToughLoveKitten ToughLoveKitten 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I just lost a friend to suicide.

    I'm broken I need to talk with someone
    russianangel russianangel 18-21, F 19 Responses Oct 11, 2015

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    A good friend of my best friend committed

    suicide on Tuesday. I just wish he could see everything that people have posted and said about how much they love him and miss him. He had so much to live for and so many people cared about him. calling my best friend to tell him that our friend killed himself was probably one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 16

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    this year will be 7 years

    since I lost my daddy when I was 16. I miss him so much.
    lindseymc1993 lindseymc1993 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    here it is. Today. 6 years gone.

    We love and miss you more than you know. You're really missing out. Your precious girl is so much like you and growing up without her mom. I choose life. I choose to ignore the psycho on this site who had the nerve to blame me for your decision. I choose to honor your memory by...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    My best friend's favorite song came on the radio

    and i had to turn it off i cant listen to it right now even after so long i just cant
    TeenmommyNikki TeenmommyNikki 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Did you know that when you left the pain you

    felt would be left for everyone who loved and cared for you? Everyday, I think of you and miss everything that made you amazing. You were my friend, my brother, a wounded warrior. I know that you are free from the emotional and physical pain. But living without your physical...
    Oliviaa92 Oliviaa92 41-45, F Jan 16

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    Tomorrow marks 10 years

    since we lost my brother. So far things haven't gotten any easier with time. I still get that weird knot in my throat around this time of year. Not so sure that it'll ever get easier, even though people always say it will.
    chickenstrips chickenstrips 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I meet her here... We used to talk everyday,

    and when she confess me her depression, we talked even more, I was always there to support her, and she was always there for me. Then she found a boyfriend, I was so happy that she wasn't alone, cuz even that we talked everyday, I was just an online friend, we slowly stop...
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9, 2015

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    I lost my little sister to suicide on May 23,

    2015. I miss her so much. I wish she was still here. My life is now broken into before she died and after. I hope she is no longer in pain and her boyfriend/partner finds peace.
    redmawbk redmawbk 36-40, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    I still wonder if there's anything I could have

    said to help you. I know you had gone through some serious stuff, and I remember telling you that I was here if you needed me. It's been a long time 24 years, but I still remember your little red geo metro, me and the kids piled up in it, and we all went to the zoo. The giraffe...
    LionessGrrr LionessGrrr 46-50, F 7 Responses Jan 29

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    My child attempted and failed

    but the whole experience was traumatic. My heart is with each of you who is suffering.
    v0lition v0lition 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    She was this amazing girl,

    we used to talk and she'd be so open & free, like she's in heaven, I could have fallen in love with her, we were poking each other on Facebook, she poked me, I poked back at 9PM, then she pokes back at around 3AM, and sends a message, I checked the poke, it seemed OK, though she...
    curiousdweller curiousdweller 22-25, T 7 Responses Jan 29

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    This week has been a struggle

    for me, this time of year has always been a struggle for me for the past 6 years now. I'm probably going to ramble so I will apologize now, but it will be 6 years ago on Monday the 8th since I lost a very dear friend to suicide. She was the happiest, most carefree person I have...
    LauraBV LauraBV 22-25, F 6 Responses 2 days ago

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    I lost my childhood best friend,

    James, 4 years ago in July. We had lost touch in our adult lives but I always enjoyed running into him at work and getting a big bear hug. He always knew what I needed. I miss him everyday. Something always reminds me of him. It is a terrible feeling watching his family grieve...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 15

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    In October I loss a very good to depression.

    He decided it was time for him to leave. I met him at work. Very few people actually know how close he and I had gotten. He helped me through dog grooming school and my warehouse job. He came to see me a few weeks before he passed, just to say hello at my new job. Was that his...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Recently a friend of mine took his own life.

    So sad. He wasn't someone I saw very regularly anymore but whenever I did he always lifted my spirits. It is so sad he couldn't see a way forward for himself. Sadly his funeral is in another country at home but a good friend of his is arranging a memorial service and I shall...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 8 Responses 1 day ago

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    One of my friends committed suicide on Friday,

    January 8th, 2016. I didn't even know her that well, and I still balled my eyes out and I'm still crying writing this. If I barely even knew her I can't imagine how her friends and family must feel, and just imagine, it was probably her parents who found her, they must have been...
    xXShellyBeanXx xXShellyBeanXx 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    Mistakesmakeus Mistakesmakeus 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 22, 2015

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    well.... tonight one of Ashley's friends

    who knew her in real life messaged me saying that Ashley had committed suicide..... i had talked her out of it once before in the past, but i guess that wasn't enough..... she took her life on January 21st...... even though i didn't know much about her, i really wish i would've...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    3 years ago I lost my brother to suicide.

    ..and I swear it seems to never get easier to deal with...R.I.P Josh..until we meet again...love u
    gabrielle04 gabrielle04 26-30, F 8 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    As far as I'm concerned anyone

    who commits suicide is my friend. Life is so hard, so torturous. I know exactly how they feel.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My armor is tested. It is hardened.

    Impenetrable some may say. Cold others will accuse. Unnecessary one might add. But, inside this armor is where I collapsed. It is where I lie on the floor. Where I experience the loss of you, my brother, behind the walls of my fortress. Inside this armor is where I will...
    MostlyBehaved MostlyBehaved 41-45, M 8 Responses Nov 11, 2015

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    Today marks one year

    since my friend Carley Rose died. I miss that big smile of hers :c RIP angel save me a spot in Heaven.
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I feel like my experience with suicide may be a

    bit different from a lot of peoples and I've always been a little scared to talk about it. Long story short, I lost my ex boyfriend, who I thought was the love of my life, in a murder-suicide a little over a year and a half ago. He killed a girl and then himself... Its still...
    lvk80 lvk80 22-25, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 12 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    My best friend killed himself 3 weeks

    and 5 days ago. I don't really believe it. I know it's true but for the past three weeks I've thought, "this hurts so much. I need to call Eric to talk to him about it" and "if I call Eric right now, he'll answer. He always answers." Today's one of the bad days. I miss him so...
    ames14 ames14 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I lost the love of my life Dec 23rd last year

    to suicide. This past month has been the worst time of my life. The night before he died we had exchanged rings. We had been together almost 4 years and throughout that time he had talked of suicide but only when he was really drunk and coming off a bender. You see he was an...
    Sarah8183 Sarah8183 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I'm sure he's trying to kill himself

    but I don't wanna get involved. I told him time and time again I couldn't help him and his passive aggressive attitude makes me almost not care. I don't want my name on that suicide note or carved in his arm. I cut ties long ago.
    luv2pee23 luv2pee23 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    so I see a lot of questions being asked such

    as "what does it feel like" etc and I just wanted to give my perspective. it's unbelievable. every second that passes without them. just to know that they had been going through something terrible and heartbreaking but they didn't even bother telling you, you, someone who...
    sxvenfxld sxvenfxld 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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