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I Lost Someone To Suicide

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    It took me long enough to share this

    but I felt I had too. The recent death of the late Robin Williams brought back memories of own biological fathers' suicide. I was ten at the time and my sister Alyson was six. He loved to tinker out in his workshop working on anything from metal artwork to what he could create...
    ChristyyS ChristyyS 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 26

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    stevencollett stevencollett 13-15, M 3 Responses Sep 4

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 33 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    When I was 9 lost my uncle

    who was very close to me. I loved him so much. I was told he was hit by a car. That was all I got told. I only found out 2 years ago that he had actually committed suicide. I blame myself for his death and I always have. I feel like I could of helped him. He was the only person...
    ConfusedAndScared1234 ConfusedAndScared1234 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    My Friend Michael

    I was raised by my single mom in a poor area surrounded by other families headed by single mothers. This is where I met my friend Michael and his mother. Michael was sweet, shy, caring, playful, bright, energetic and creative. When I was 10 and he was 9 we often hung out together...
    gumshoejane2 gumshoejane2 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2012

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    I lost a friend. Her name was Skyler,

    I refer to her as Sky. She was amazing, beautiful, courageous, good hearted, loving, caring, sympathetic, silly, she was my everything. I was head over heels in love with her. She made me so happy. One night, she got into a fight with her parents, and she came to my house for...
    hopelovecare hopelovecare 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Its only been a little of a mounth.

    He was the only person who loved my for who i am (body,mind and heart). Learning to deal with it is the hardest thing i ever had to do. I have guilt. I wish i could of been there to tell him, he could make it threw. We promised each other we would all ways be there for each...
    stillgoingcrazy stillgoingcrazy 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    It's a sin! Cardinal

    or otherwise, they said. Still Jac was dead because she had failed so many of her GCSE's. That was two years ago. I still miss her.
    DearbhalC95 DearbhalC95 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    It is Throwback Thursday,

    and this one is a very emotional one for me. With the death of Robin Williams who committed suicide, it brings back the moment I found out about my sister Barbara..in our family we called her Titi (pronounced Teedee) who committed suicide - 23 years ago. Every time I hear...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 7 Responses Aug 14

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11

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    Brigitte, how I miss you.

    You were my best friend. I will be joining you on the other side soon... and we will be happy again.
    sweeteveryday sweeteveryday 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 2

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    Staci

    My friend, since third grade, Staci, would’ve been 19 years old today. I think about her every day. I still remember her smile, our inside jokes, I can trace my memories with her all the way back to third grade, the first day we met. We maintained a close friendship for nine...
    kalee19 kalee19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    its probably better we're not together.

    The world's on fire. It's a ****** up mess. Do your wings fit good? Can you fly? I hope your wings fit good when you fly. It's almost like you've been carrying me. A little angel always watching over me. Save me from the danger I can't see. I always seem to know where I'm...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I feel like there are really good

    and genuine people in this world, and all the bad people take complete advantage of them. My friend deserved to be loved and cherished. Her parents just completely failed her, people at school didn't understand her, yet she put on a good face for everyone and managed to show...
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28

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    It's almost been 3 months

    and I am falling hard for this new guy. Guilty pleasure or destiny? Idk... I'm following my heart and it feels good and right.
    smurffy422 smurffy422 36-40, M Aug 28

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 7 Responses May 3

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I had this amazing best friend,

    the kind that you see in movies that you always wish you had but never find. We found each other when we were 16, he was working at the hospital i was going to deliver at, he worked in the cafeteria. He was the sweetest,funniest guy ever. He started dating my best girlfriend...
    crazyinbama86 crazyinbama86 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Life has had many cruel twists.

    .. I went from an unhappy abusive home to an unhappy and abusive marriage. My ex-husband had a best friend who eventually became the Godfather to my oldest son. The moment "M" held my tiny little miracle I began to see how cruel life can be. M was 10 times the father my...
    skk1966 skk1966 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 34 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I don't know if it can be said

    that I lost someone to suicide, when I didn't know her at all. You can't loose what you never had. My mother killed herself exactly two weeks after I was born. One morning she left me in my crib, left a note by the window and drove to the apartment complex where she had grown...
    whitemut whitemut 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I remember thinking about her

    while sitting on the sidewalk. Of course, I can never think too hard about her without breaking down, so I have to keep it at a minimum. When a close friend commits suicide, It's almost like the ultimate bad breakup. You lose someone you love, permanently, and you end up blaming...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 1 Response 1 day ago

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 12 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    I was 14-15 at the time.

    And he was my ex. I never knew he was suicidal. Until my mom told me he shot himself in the head. He had been drinking and wrote a suicide letter. I thought that if I could have done something, I could save him. I never imagined that I could lose someone to suicide. I always...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    This past Saturday a good friend of mine lost

    her battle and fell short to her depression. Depression is a real disease. It's not something that can be easily controlled. Sometimes the people who appear the happiest and the strongest are fighting the hardest battles, often within themselves. I wish I would have known sooner...
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    I just found out that my best friend

    who supposedly commit suicide a few months ago might not be dead... I'm about to find out for sure and I'm not sure if I'm readys
    emgg emgg 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 8

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    Abdallahbaki Abdallahbaki 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 2

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    Two of my friends committed suicide recently.

    Both were married and both had a child. The first time was a shock, but before I had the chance to get closure, I found my other friend dead at his house. I still can't get the image of his dead body out of my head and I had to inform his wife and I'll never forget her scream...
    MrMoJo13 MrMoJo13 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 31

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2

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    Why is suicide so wise spread josh marks

    September 5 2014 2 weeks after his baby sister committed suicide
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I was thinking about my mom today.

    And when she died.. And for years after and even now, I wasn't really sorry. She was terrible to me. But I guess every once in a while, I just wish I could talk to her one more time, have her see me now .. But when I picture it she is loving and maternal and tells me I'm...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Trevor was one of my best friends

    and past boyfriends but he just couldn't take it anymore i had no idea he had so many problems. He hid it well I miss him every day its almost been 4 years but feels like 4 days
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    Today is the 9th anniversary of the death of my

    best friend... my soul mate... to suicide. Time does not heal...I hate being here without him.
    skk1966 skk1966 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    I remember all the threats he made of

    committing suicide and I realized he was asking for help in his own way. The time he stopped talking about it, he actually did it. So I think when someone suicidal stops making the suicide threats, it seems like they are better but they actually gave up asking for help. When...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 34 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    Lost my boyfriend a month ago,

    now I'm lonely every night and waiting for him to call..dont really have anyone around me to talk to about him so I turned to the internet people for comfort...anyone out there? message me
    Ashley612 Ashley612 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 3

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    Since my partners suicide a bit over two months

    ago I find myself constantly questioning rather I really want to remain here with out him.
    smurffy422 smurffy422 36-40, M 5 Responses Aug 19

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    It was on June 24 of this year

    that one of my oldest and closes friends took his own life. I remember it like it was yesterday, I was out at an even for feeding the hungry when I got the call that Matt had killed himself. I froze I couldn't move didn't know what to say or how to react even. I had just talked...
    hugsandkisses26 hugsandkisses26 22-25, F 11 Responses Sep 5

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