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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 9,377 People

    My best friend's favorite song came on the radio

    and i had to turn it off i cant listen to it right now even after so long i just cant
    TeenmommyNikki TeenmommyNikki 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    As far as I'm concerned anyone

    who commits suicide is my friend. Life is so hard, so torturous. I know exactly how they feel.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    It's been over a year

    now since he, my uncle, died and I find myself thinking about him a lot. We didn't see much of one another while he was alive, but in my last few years of high school he forced himself to come to family gatherings and Christmas even though he hated how obligatory, superficial...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    Mistakesmakeus Mistakesmakeus 18-21, M 23 Responses Jan 22, 2015

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    I lost the love of my life Dec 23rd last year

    to suicide. This past month has been the worst time of my life. The night before he died we had exchanged rings. We had been together almost 4 years and throughout that time he had talked of suicide but only when he was really drunk and coming off a bender. You see he was an...
    Sarah8183 Sarah8183 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    Recently a friend of mine took his own life.

    So sad. He wasn't someone I saw very regularly anymore but whenever I did he always lifted my spirits. It is so sad he couldn't see a way forward for himself. Sadly his funeral is in another country at home but a good friend of his is arranging a memorial service and I shall...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 8 Responses Feb 6

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    I lost more than 20 people to suicide.

    Saying "more than" makes me even more upset, because 20 is a large enough number alone. I can't take another suicide.. Please talk to me?
    FreeXNow FreeXNow 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    In October I loss a very good to depression.

    He decided it was time for him to leave. I met him at work. Very few people actually know how close he and I had gotten. He helped me through dog grooming school and my warehouse job. He came to see me a few weeks before he passed, just to say hello at my new job. Was that his...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    April 2nd 2015 At 10:20 pm I got a call from my

    sister Katie, she told me mom committed suicide. She shot her self in the head and at the time I thought it was a sick april fools day prank but I heard in her voice how real it was. I was at my boyfriends as we just got back from a spring break trip with his mother and he went...
    bethaneyj bethaneyj 18-21, F 12 Responses 2 days ago

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    When I was around thirteen,

    I watched my biological mother try to kill herself, and being the only one with her at the time had to call another adult to come help get her to a hospital. Luckily she survived. When I was fifteen, I remember my Nona telling me one of her classmates had killed himself at the...
    ToughLoveKitten ToughLoveKitten 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 31 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    My brother committed suicide

    after our Mother had passed away due to an operation. It was a double whammy for my Father who had just got out of hospital himself after seriously injuring his head after a motorcycle accident. I'm now the only adopted child remaining as our sister also died in a car crash...
    whoopfooboonomnom whoopfooboonomnom 18-21 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    3 years ago I lost my brother to suicide.

    ..and I swear it seems to never get easier to deal with...R.I.P Josh..until we meet again...love u
    gabrielle04 gabrielle04 26-30, F 7 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    well.... tonight one of Ashley's friends

    who knew her in real life messaged me saying that Ashley had committed suicide..... i had talked her out of it once before in the past, but i guess that wasn't enough..... she took her life on January 21st...... even though i didn't know much about her, i really wish i would've...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 31

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 45 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    I lost my little sister to suicide on May 23,

    2015. I miss her so much. I wish she was still here. My life is now broken into before she died and after. I hope she is no longer in pain and her boyfriend/partner finds peace.
    redmawbk redmawbk 36-40, F 8 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    My older brother Chad <3 He was 33

    when he took his life. back in 2012. doesn't seem that long ago. I miss him terribly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 12 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    This week has been a struggle

    for me, this time of year has always been a struggle for me for the past 6 years now. I'm probably going to ramble so I will apologize now, but it will be 6 years ago on Monday the 8th since I lost a very dear friend to suicide. She was the happiest, most carefree person I have...
    LauraBV LauraBV 22-25, F 8 Responses Feb 5

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    here it is. Today. 6 years gone.

    We love and miss you more than you know. You're really missing out. Your precious girl is so much like you and growing up without her mom. I choose life. I choose to ignore the psycho on this site who had the nerve to blame me for your decision. I choose to honor your memory by...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    I'm sure he's trying to kill himself

    but I don't wanna get involved. I told him time and time again I couldn't help him and his passive aggressive attitude makes me almost not care. I don't want my name on that suicide note or carved in his arm. I cut ties long ago.
    luv2pee23 luv2pee23 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9, 2015

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    i really want to commit suicide.

    i have 200 000$ gambling debt and the only person i care about just broke my heart and left me. I wonder if anyone has good experience with anti depressants. i really need it i have no chance without meds at this point. Let me know your experience with meds and how many...
    annonymousssss annonymousssss 70+, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I still wonder if there's anything I could have

    said to help you. I know you had gone through some serious stuff, and I remember telling you that I was here if you needed me. It's been a long time 24 years, but I still remember your little red geo metro, me and the kids piled up in it, and we all went to the zoo. The giraffe...
    ZenGrrrlLioNESS ZenGrrrlLioNESS 46-50, F 7 Responses Jan 29

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 12 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    so I see a lot of questions being asked such

    as "what does it feel like" etc and I just wanted to give my perspective. it's unbelievable. every second that passes without them. just to know that they had been going through something terrible and heartbreaking but they didn't even bother telling you, you, someone who...
    sxvenfxld sxvenfxld 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I meet her here... We used to talk everyday,

    and when she confess me her depression, we talked even more, I was always there to support her, and she was always there for me. Then she found a boyfriend, I was so happy that she wasn't alone, cuz even that we talked everyday, I was just an online friend, we slowly stop...
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    She was this amazing girl,

    we used to talk and she'd be so open & free, like she's in heaven, I could have fallen in love with her, we were poking each other on Facebook, she poked me, I poked back at 9PM, then she pokes back at around 3AM, and sends a message, I checked the poke, it seemed OK, though she...
    curiousdweller curiousdweller 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 29

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    Exactly one week ago.

    The wound is still open and bleeding. Miss you incredibly my angel, what have you done.. Hope you feel better now, wherever you are :-) may your soul rest in peace and may god have mercy on mine.
    russianangel russianangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    Sometimes a text, and a conversation can save a

    life... ... But sometimes I wasn't fast enough... I'm so sorry
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 73 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    EVERY time I see someone post a question

    or an experience about looking for ways to kill themselves, I ALWAYS post the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number. 1-800-273-8255. Who knows? Maybe it's hopeless, but maybe I'm going to save someone's life. I've been to a point where I attempted it before, and I just...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    On November 2nd, 2015,

    my world started to crumble apart. I received a call that my best friend had committed suicide. It was a complete shock she would do such a thing. In the depression that followed, my wife announced she had filed for divorce because she had realized she had never actually loved...
    wildcard117 wildcard117 31-35, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Tomorrow marks 10 years

    since we lost my brother. So far things haven't gotten any easier with time. I still get that weird knot in my throat around this time of year. Not so sure that it'll ever get easier, even though people always say it will.
    chickenstrips chickenstrips 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 14, 2012

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    I just lost a friend to suicide.

    I'm broken I need to talk with someone
    russianangel russianangel 18-21, F 18 Responses Oct 11, 2015

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    Today marks one year

    since my friend Carley Rose died. I miss that big smile of hers :c RIP angel save me a spot in Heaven.
    cute4me cute4me 16-17, T 1 Response Jan 19

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    I lost my brother July this year to suicide he

    was dealing with a lot of inner demons as I am too we were sexually, mentally and physically abused by our father I have a investigation going on to charge him for all he has done its hard living daily without someone you'll never see again.
    beccalovesmovies beccalovesmovies 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 19

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