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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 9,361 People

    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9, 2015

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    here it is. Today. 6 years gone.

    We love and miss you more than you know. You're really missing out. Your precious girl is so much like you and growing up without her mom. I choose life. I choose to ignore the psycho on this site who had the nerve to blame me for your decision. I choose to honor your memory by...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 29, 2015

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    Tomorrow marks 10 years

    since we lost my brother. So far things haven't gotten any easier with time. I still get that weird knot in my throat around this time of year. Not so sure that it'll ever get easier, even though people always say it will.
    chickenstrips chickenstrips 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    EVERY time I see someone post a question

    or an experience about looking for ways to kill themselves, I ALWAYS post the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number. 1-800-273-8255. Who knows? Maybe it's hopeless, but maybe I'm going to save someone's life. I've been to a point where I attempted it before, and I just...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 8, 2015

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    i really want to commit suicide.

    i have 200 000$ gambling debt and the only person i care about just broke my heart and left me. I wonder if anyone has good experience with anti depressants. i really need it i have no chance without meds at this point. Let me know your experience with meds and how many...
    annonymousssss annonymousssss 70+, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My best friend killed himself 3 weeks

    and 5 days ago. I don't really believe it. I know it's true but for the past three weeks I've thought, "this hurts so much. I need to call Eric to talk to him about it" and "if I call Eric right now, he'll answer. He always answers." Today's one of the bad days. I miss him so...
    ames14 ames14 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    My older brother Chad <3 He was 33

    when he took his life. back in 2012. doesn't seem that long ago. I miss him terribly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    As far as I'm concerned anyone

    who commits suicide is my friend. Life is so hard, so torturous. I know exactly how they feel.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 31 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    I'm sure he's trying to kill himself

    but I don't wanna get involved. I told him time and time again I couldn't help him and his passive aggressive attitude makes me almost not care. I don't want my name on that suicide note or carved in his arm. I cut ties long ago.
    luv2pee23 luv2pee23 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    My child attempted and failed

    but the whole experience was traumatic. My heart is with each of you who is suffering.
    v0lition v0lition 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Exactly one week ago.

    The wound is still open and bleeding. Miss you incredibly my angel, what have you done.. Hope you feel better now, wherever you are :-) may your soul rest in peace and may god have mercy on mine.
    russianangel russianangel 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I lost the love of my life Dec 23rd last year

    to suicide. This past month has been the worst time of my life. The night before he died we had exchanged rings. We had been together almost 4 years and throughout that time he had talked of suicide but only when he was really drunk and coming off a bender. You see he was an...
    Sarah8183 Sarah8183 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    well.... tonight one of Ashley's friends

    who knew her in real life messaged me saying that Ashley had committed suicide..... i had talked her out of it once before in the past, but i guess that wasn't enough..... she took her life on January 21st...... even though i didn't know much about her, i really wish i would've...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 31

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    I lost my little sister to suicide on May 23,

    2015. I miss her so much. I wish she was still here. My life is now broken into before she died and after. I hope she is no longer in pain and her boyfriend/partner finds peace.
    redmawbk redmawbk 36-40, F 8 Responses Sep 16, 2015

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    When I was around thirteen,

    I watched my biological mother try to kill herself, and being the only one with her at the time had to call another adult to come help get her to a hospital. Luckily she survived. When I was fifteen, I remember my Nona telling me one of her classmates had killed himself at the...
    ToughLoveKitten ToughLoveKitten 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I miss my gay best friend

    so much.. :( He's name was Adam and we met when I went to America to study there. Unfortunately he was a loner and me being the shy but kind girl, i approached him and we became instant best friends. It's because we could relate to each other's problems. I met him at the age of...
    xXGothicAngelxx xXGothicAngelxx 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 45 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    Recently a friend of mine took his own life.

    So sad. He wasn't someone I saw very regularly anymore but whenever I did he always lifted my spirits. It is so sad he couldn't see a way forward for himself. Sadly his funeral is in another country at home but a good friend of his is arranging a memorial service and I shall...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 12 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    so I see a lot of questions being asked such

    as "what does it feel like" etc and I just wanted to give my perspective. it's unbelievable. every second that passes without them. just to know that they had been going through something terrible and heartbreaking but they didn't even bother telling you, you, someone who...
    sxvenfxld sxvenfxld 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    Sometimes a text, and a conversation can save a

    life... ... But sometimes I wasn't fast enough... I'm so sorry
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    3 years ago I lost my brother to suicide.

    ..and I swear it seems to never get easier to deal with...R.I.P Josh..until we meet again...love u
    gabrielle04 gabrielle04 26-30, F 7 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 14, 2012

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    I meet her here... We used to talk everyday,

    and when she confess me her depression, we talked even more, I was always there to support her, and she was always there for me. Then she found a boyfriend, I was so happy that she wasn't alone, cuz even that we talked everyday, I was just an online friend, we slowly stop...
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 22

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 73 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 12 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    this year will be 7 years

    since I lost my daddy when I was 16. I miss him so much.
    lindseymc1993 lindseymc1993 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    In October I loss a very good to depression.

    He decided it was time for him to leave. I met him at work. Very few people actually know how close he and I had gotten. He helped me through dog grooming school and my warehouse job. He came to see me a few weeks before he passed, just to say hello at my new job. Was that his...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    My best friend's favorite song came on the radio

    and i had to turn it off i cant listen to it right now even after so long i just cant
    TeenmommyNikki TeenmommyNikki 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I lost 2 good friends to Suicide,

    I miss them so much. It's because of this I'm afraid to make new friends, I just don't want to lose more people I care about its like everyone always leaves me somehow.
    SR1312 SR1312 18-21, F Jan 16

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    My brother committed suicide

    after our Mother had passed away due to an operation. It was a double whammy for my Father who had just got out of hospital himself after seriously injuring his head after a motorcycle accident. I'm now the only adopted child remaining as our sister also died in a car crash...
    whoopfooboonomnom whoopfooboonomnom 18-21 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    My armor is tested. It is hardened.

    Impenetrable some may say. Cold others will accuse. Unnecessary one might add. But, inside this armor is where I collapsed. It is where I lie on the floor. Where I experience the loss of you, my brother, behind the walls of my fortress. Inside this armor is where I will...
    MostlyBehaved MostlyBehaved 41-45, M 8 Responses Nov 11, 2015

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    June 29th is always an emotional surprise.

    It was around 1pm and we were instant messaging on Facebook. Joking around as usual. We had no idea she was planning to do this for years. She said someone was at the door and she'd be right back. I didn't know she was already gone. The phone rang. My mother in law was crying...
    iusedtolovemyself iusedtolovemyself 46-50, F 6 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    I just lost a friend to suicide.

    I'm broken I need to talk with someone
    russianangel russianangel 18-21, F 18 Responses Oct 11, 2015

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    A good friend of my best friend committed

    suicide on Tuesday. I just wish he could see everything that people have posted and said about how much they love him and miss him. He had so much to live for and so many people cared about him. calling my best friend to tell him that our friend killed himself was probably one...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 16

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 5 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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