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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,502 People

    I struggle with some of my religion's

    statements about suicide and how I feel.
    alexis77 alexis77 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    My friend, Jake, committed suicide today.

    He mixed alcohol with sleeping pills.
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 15

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    They called me saying they had found the body

    of my older brother a few weeks ago, hit by a truck, "At least he didn't suffer", they told me, when I had arrived at the hospital, somehow that didn't cheer me up too much. It was only clear that it had been suicide a few days later, but I had known it from the first second. He...
    Asherix Asherix 36-40, M 6 Responses Apr 9

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    when I was in high school ,

    10th grade, my best friend Emily started getting jealous of me and my bf Nick... because she never had a boyfriend....and I hate to admit it but I started ignoring her, I saw the way she looked at me 'when are you going to dump this dropout' and I saw the way she looked at him 'I...
    SelenaStevens SelenaStevens 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    Even now, after over a year,

    I still can't truly believe it. I still can't get my head around the fact that I'll never hear his voice, I'll never see his smile again. And it just breaks my heart every time that realisation sinks in a little more. I'm the only one who knows why he did it. And it kills me to...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I wasn't planning on sharing this,

    at least not this soon. But after my talk with another EP member two days ago and my talk with a different one just now, I figured that maybe I should and that with this, I could also release some of the feelings I've been having. So for those that don't know.. most of you...
    Niran3 Niran3 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    She was my best friend

    and i miss her so much:( if only i could talk to her one more time.. I just hope shes someone watching over me.<3
    Deletedemotions Deletedemotions 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    Even though he was my EP friend I feel

    so heartbroken. He was my only friend :(
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 7 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    April 16th will mark the one year anniversary

    since I lost my father to suicide. One year later, and it still hurts that your not here to hold me, go tell me everything will be okay. One year later, and I still cry knowing how long it's been since I've heard your sweet voice or have smelt your strong, but welcoming cologne...
    hrose69702 hrose69702 18-21, F Apr 12

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    How many do I count, more

    than I can on my fingers. Except the tragedy is a few of them died in my presence, how simple is it that depression goes on behind your very back.
    RawrrItsAlexa RawrrItsAlexa 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    testing11 testing11 51-55, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Six months today, your beautiful smile was

    wiped from the earth. The longer you're gone the more I realise you really aren't coming back. I miss you..
    livingmylifeonewayoranother livingmylifeonewayoranother 13-15, T 3 Responses Mar 25

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    I got a call about 2:30 am this morning .

    I knew she was having problems but I didn't know how depressed she was. She called me last week and said hey girl - she was suppose to visit this week . We were friends since age 5 - went all through school together. This is the third friend I have lost to suicide. I love you...
    Dancemomisme1 Dancemomisme1 46-50, F 15 Responses Mar 9

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    My younger sister left this world 9 years ago

    on her own terms. A belt wrapped around her neck in her bedroom closet. She was 11 years old. Left behind were several journals filled with progressively more legible cursive writing both in English (which was our mother's only language)and our father's native language also.My...
    ShahirAnkara ShahirAnkara 22-25, M 7 Responses Apr 8

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    It's been almost a month now,

    it still feels so unreal, I remember holding you in my arms and thinking at any moment now you are going to wake up and hold me back....you didn't :/ my brother I have those unanswered questions that unbearable pain and then next mintue that horrible calm and numbness that I...
    Junostars Junostars 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 22

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    My cousin, he was 19.

    It was about a Month ago... I... I just don't know anymore. He wasn't just a family member. He was my friend. And the more I go on with this... The more I want to do the same thing.
    Jewelia5555 Jewelia5555 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    My best friend killed himself last night.

    He was an amazing person and like a brother to me. And now he's gone. I can't stop crying.
    FireFlames FireFlames 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 5 Responses Apr 1

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    My brother, my best friend,

    and half of my soul passed away on February 16,2015. He had been battling with depression for over 13 years and I tried to help him every step of the way and failed at the very end. He had just gotten out of the hospital a week before that for a suicide attempt and didn't feel...
    finallyfree2fly finallyfree2fly 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 29

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    My boyfriend. He was abused,

    bullied and he self harmed.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    The telephone rings. It's troubling news.

    A father's distraught. I'm a daughter confused. A flood of emotions, Agony afflicting my mind. Will my prayers be answered, If I can make it on time? At the end of my tortuous drive, While I'm unlatching his gate, I hear that echoing sound, I know that I'm a minute too...
    Loverofpeace Loverofpeace 41-45, F 15 Responses Apr 16

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    I have lost my brother on March 23,

    2014. I really miss him. We didn't really talk and i think I'm part of the reason.
    laceyrose03 laceyrose03 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 43 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    I miss my dad. Today I truly miss him.

    For the first time since his death in 1992, I am grieving for his loss. When he died, I didn't only lose him, I also lost myself. There's a deep wound in my heart, still raw and bleeding and ever consuming me. It is this huge black hole that can never be filled in. It was too...
    SapphireSol SapphireSol 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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