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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,139 People

    Stay strong baby girl,

    I can't handle losing another one, not you and Chris please hold on.
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    Hello everyone, I am 15 yrs old

    and I lost my dad to suicide last year after thanksgiving. I woke up to my mom screaming and calling 911 me and my 3 other sibling were in the living room after I realized what I thought had happend my heart was beating so fast I though I was having a stroke I felt sick, my mom...
    Fangedwang Fangedwang 22-25, M 5 Responses Feb 4

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    On 11/24/14 me and my mother got a call in the

    middle of the day. I was at school she was at work. I got the call first. It was from a friend. I answered "Hello?" All I heard was crying on the other end of the phone. "Hello? What's wrong?" I said. "TY, your brother. He killed himself" she said. There was silence on the phone...
    chadderman chadderman 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 17

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    1 month and 11 days ago I lost my mother to

    suicide. I remember when my sister called me. I was in school. She told me our mum had OD'D and that she was in the hospital. I started crying, and she told me everything was going to be OK - mama would get the help she needed. But I knew. I knew she wouldn't survive. How did...
    leavingtraces leavingtraces 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    It's been nearly two months

    and I'm still terrified to sleep...terrified of the images of you, terrified to wake up drenched in tears and sweat, screaming. Why Ben...why did you do this to me!?
    diabeticHailey diabeticHailey 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I just learned that a friend of mine committed

    suicide yesterday. it just feels unreal, I just don't know what to say.
    andrewD51 andrewD51 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 10

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    I hate it when people think no one understands

    when they loose someone like a grandmother. You knew they were gonna die in the first place. I've lost my WHOLE FAMILY and I don't go out in public and blubber, saying poor me and shoving the fact Someone in my family is dead. You know what my relatives do when I cry over my...
    CYANIDExSILENCE CYANIDExSILENCE 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    I lost 5 my close friends

    who comit suicide. miss them alot I understand why they did it abd also why somone else doo. The last when I see them alive I wont forget. that about 5 friends who I know personal. There was even more my internet friends who did that and sadly so manny make suicide i try too.now...
    MilenaLena MilenaLena 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 17

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 40 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    It's more of my girlfriend's experience

    as she lost a friend, but that doesn't mean the rest of the world has nothing to do with her. The thought of someone pushing up daisies also pushes up sorrow into the atmosphere, especially within her social circle. Now the world is one person less who could've made a positive...
    CurtainOnFire CurtainOnFire 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Did you know the opposite of life is not

    death--it's birth? It is impossible to die because the soul is energy. Energy moves and changes form but does not die. Think of it this way: it is a scientific fact that all the water on the Earth, that ever has been on Earth, is and always will be, on Earth.. it simply...
    Tannasheart Tannasheart 51-55, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I've never really posted anything about him

    before. You'd have thought I would, considering I've been so open with everything else. But I had a conversation with someone else, who made me realise that it is real, and pretending like it isn't simply will not make it go away. He killed himself, that's it. One of my best...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    My girlfriend was my world.

    . The only person that accepted me and loved me for who I am.. The only person that made me happy. I knew her for 7 years and we were together the 3 last years (we were too young before that). Her parents used to kick her out of her house for months and she would have nowhere to...
    Yiannos Yiannos 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    He's my best friend and my partner.

    He's everything I ever needed when I needed it and he pushed me to be the best me I could be and since he did it I've been on my own. Finding someone to help ease that pain took years and even though now I can manage it I still would never wish this pain on anyone. It's a place...
    Monwell Monwell 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 24

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    I just lost my dad may 5th 2014,

    he committed suicide, he put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. His suicide note kills me everytime i see it. I miss him, he was my hero
    madicakes123 madicakes123 16-17, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    He would have been 18 today,

    nothing's the same without him...it's so much worse, I wish I could talk to him, one last time, so he could tell me how to get through this, how to be strong...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I lost my uncle to suicide,

    he was driving somewhere and decided to end it all. I learned all of that from the radio, two days after, the local news repeated events that happen in the town and I remember, Man committed suicide in high speed chase. I was about 12-ish..I really can't remember really. He...
    prettybombie prettybombie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    ashlynthewolf I think is her username.

    .. this gave me reasons to hate ep. everyone wanted her dead and they kept explaining how it would be an amazing thing if she had. well you know what? most of the people who talked to her are now the cause of her death and this ****** me off. I loved her and I cared for her and...
    highomeal highomeal 16-17, M 19 Responses Jan 22

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    nathan16500 nathan16500 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    My older brother, the only protection I had

    from my parents, I hated him for such a long time, he left me to be hurt, and it only got worse once he was gone. But now almost 2 years later I get it. He couldn't handle it, he didn't want to be treated like that, and I don't blame him, I've though about joining him, I could...
    imsinkinkimg imsinkinkimg 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 25

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    when the love of my life committed suicide 2

    1/2 yrs ago I felt lost for a long time. I went thru a wide range of emotions the lsdt few years but can honestly day I'm ok. losing him will never be ok, but you can learn to keep living life again. in the beginning I went to his grave as often as possible to talk to him... I...
    slovek slovek 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Okay, its a month till my birthday today

    but im not excited because today was the day i lost my best friend nikki to suicide and in exactly five minutes was the time i walked into her lifeless body on the floor covered in blood. I miss her so much. Stupid bullies judging her. I love you boo, have fun up there...
    Suicidesilenced Suicidesilenced 13-15, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    I wished I could of helped you.

    You where like my little brother haha even though we are a month a part. I met you on here and we've became so close. But suddenly you changed, I tried to help but I was to late. I'm sorry I couldn't help. I'll miss you everyday, I'll never forget you.
    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 6 Responses Jan 5

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    One of the persons that I valued most in the

    entire world shot themselves on Thursday afternoon. I didn't find out till today. It hurts knowing that they will no longer ask me how I felt, or help me through this depression. At first I was angry that he was so selfish, but now I feel guilty knowing I maybe could have...
    BrokenCorpse BrokenCorpse 13-15, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Hello. This is my first post

    since the incident. My father committed suicide a month ago as of tomorrow. I am having a difficult time dealing with the fact that he is no longer here. See, I am only 19. I had so much to learn from him. So much more to experience with him. I followed his footsteps and...
    graciegirl37 graciegirl37 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 20

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    I lost my best guy friend to suicide.

    .. his girlfriend that he was going to propose to, cheated on him. When she found out he knew, she cursed at him and told him to kill himself. He had already had depression problems.. but this just added to it. One day he just decided to end it all. I miss him more than ever. It...
    unicornsexist1 unicornsexist1 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013.

    We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both balanced. Through a crazy turn of events, we began a relationship in February of 2014 and stayed together until his death in June of 2014. His...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    3 already. Its not even been 2 months.

    .. I miss all of you guys. Im so sorry i couldn't save you. I tried...
    NobodyCaresOkai NobodyCaresOkai 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    No amount of tears I've cried

    or many prayers I've said can ever bring you back. Happy Birthday, Brian... I miss you and love you so much.
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I was surprised to see a highlighted message

    and lifeline numbers for help when searching this topic....Thankyou EP!! Ive lost more than one person this way and appreciate this gesture very much.
    Angelkins Angelkins 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 24

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    Seriously don't come to me with the suicide

    stuff unless you're being honest. I can't take talking about that stuff if you just want attention. It kills my nerves and makes me cry and I'm so sick of it. If you want attention find it some other way! Some people have first hand experiences with suicide and don't need you...
    LivviyLove LivviyLove 16-17, F Feb 15

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