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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7,784 People

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    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    I met Noah and his brother in 2013.

    We were both in a dark place in our lives and pretty lost. His brother simon was the most beautiful person in the world and kept us both balanced. Through a crazy turn of events, we began a relationship in February of 2014 and stayed together until his death in June of 2014. His...
    MindlessMatters MindlessMatters 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 9, 2014

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    They called me saying they had found the body

    of my older brother a few weeks ago, hit by a truck, "At least he didn't suffer", they told me, when I had arrived at the hospital, somehow that didn't cheer me up too much. It was only clear that it had been suicide a few days later, but I had known it from the first second. He...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Apr 9

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30, 2014

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 18-21, M 13 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 43 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    pansexualgirl pansexualgirl 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    My friend committed suicide on my birthday.

    Since then, my parents doesn't know about it. I've been depressed about it.
    TheHauntedSoul TheHauntedSoul 16-17, T 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    my husband killed himself.

    left myself and a 2 year old boy. our son is four now and I still miss him so much. I have moved on and have an amazing boyfriend but I still think about him everyday. I am just so sad. I fight depression daily. been on a ton of different meds. nothing is working. the worst part...
    kayliw kayliw 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 6, 2014

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2014

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2, 2014

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 32 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    I miss my dad. Today I truly miss him.

    For the first time since his death in 1992, I am grieving for his loss. When he died, I didn't only lose him, I also lost myself. There's a deep wound in my heart, still raw and bleeding and ever consuming me. It is this huge black hole that can never be filled in. It was too...
    SapphireSol SapphireSol 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 33 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    My best friend killed himself last night.

    He was an amazing person and like a brother to me. And now he's gone. I can't stop crying.
    FireFlames FireFlames 18-21, M 6 Responses Apr 14

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    Last year I lost my brother jonees to suicide.

    I found him in the bath tube wrist cut up ,water red.At the time I found him he had over dosed on all my moms pills that where laying my around he still had a pulse but was knocked out .when we got to the hospital they tried to pump his stomach but nothing was working.that same...
    kassidyforreal kassidyforreal 16-17, F 4 Responses May 17

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 14 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I lost an old friend to suicide 3 months ago.

    Maybe if we had stayed friends I could have done something to help.
    imsoclassic imsoclassic 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 29

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I lost my step brother to suicide.

    The feeling I got after I found out, was a feeling I've never had before with such intensity; the only way I can describe it is, it felt like actual heart-break. It was so intense that I thought it would never go away. The feeling passed, but I still feel upset to think about...
    BexBaby84 BexBaby84 31-35, F 2 Responses May 9

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    Yes, I have lost a family member to suicide.

    It was my first husband. We loved each other very much and we had three beautiful boys together. My husband was a military officer and had been to the Middle East war zones repeated times and it took its toll on him mentally. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD. He did not...
    happygoluckywife happygoluckywife 36-40, F 8 Responses Mar 19, 2014

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    The police said it was suicide,

    all the evidence say otherwise. That's what happens in a third world country.
    koh72 koh72 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    September 14th 2014 I lost my younger sister to

    suicide and i miss her so much and wish I could have done somthing so she could be alive today but she ended up only able to stay alive for a few hours after she committed suicide but at least I got to tell her I love her
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 3 days ago

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    4 days ago I was in the phone with a friend of

    mine who is a police officer. We were planning an atv ride that afternoon into the forest. At that moment he got a missing person call on his police radio. I'm good friends with the same person who had gone missing. Because I know the area like the back of my hand, and my cop...
    mongoheadmonster mongoheadmonster 31-35, M 4 Responses Apr 30

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    My friend Ryan. We never talked much

    but I wish we had spent more time together. I miss him and pray that he found peace. I pray for his wife and daughter as well. I forgive him.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11, 2014

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    The telephone rings. It's troubling news.

    A father's distraught. I'm a daughter confused. A flood of emotions, Agony afflicting my mind. Will my prayers be answered, If I can make it on time? At the end of my tortuous drive, While I'm unlatching his gate, I hear that echoing sound, I know that I'm a minute too...
    Loverofpeace Loverofpeace 41-45, F 14 Responses Apr 16

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    testing11 testing11 51-55, M 4 Responses Apr 18

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 14, 2012

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    I can't believe it's over 2 years ago.

    He was the first one to show me it's ok to struggle but also the first one I knew who struggled. With his creativity and kindness came such an amount of sadness. He couldn't fight it any longer. He took his life just one week after his 16th birthday. Even though he died so young...
    VivienHope VivienHope 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Ive just heard that a dear friend of mine has

    taken their own life, I feel saddened shocked hurt and ******* angry
    wheels1972 wheels1972 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 24

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    My sister took her life 5 mos ago.

    I still have to walk myself through this new reality forgetting or finding it impossible to believe that this actually happened. Life is tricky and unpredictable right now. Feel wildly insecure and unbalanced. I'm finding it nearly impossible to do anything I used to find fun. I...
    missdioggi missdioggi 36-40, F 16 Responses Jan 9

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    I lost one of my only friends to suicide.

    I wish I could talk to her just one more time. I always wonder if there is something that I could have done... I always wonder if there's something I could have said... I miss her so much... She's only been gone for about a month now but it seems like she's been gone for an...
    TheRealSamsClub TheRealSamsClub 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Why is this happening to me again.

    ....I lost my father when I was 11. I lost the father of my 4 month son 2 months ago. Just spent the last two hours pouring my heart out telling my story and something happened to my pc and it was erased right before I could post it!!! I am just wanting to heal!!!!!!! Why is...
    katslost2 katslost2 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    She was my best friend

    and i miss her so much:( if only i could talk to her one more time.. I just hope shes someone watching over me.<3
    Deletedemotions Deletedemotions 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 21

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    Because the wealthy gained power.

    And made not caring popular.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Apr 16

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 16 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    My friend, Jake, committed suicide today.

    He mixed alcohol with sleeping pills.
    kurtjaeger kurtjaeger 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 15

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