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I Lost Someone To Suicide

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    My stepbrother Matt. Yesterday he slashed his

    wrists. I loved him so much and I really didnt see it coming. He always seemed happy but I guess he wasnt
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    A New Year And An Unmended Heart

    Jesse. He has been my best friend since I was seven. Or I guess I should say 'had been'. It's my first New Years Eve without him. And its been exactly one year since I saw his gorgeous eyes, his friendly smile. No, he didn't commit suicide on New Years. But he did move six hours...
    SamIsGay SamIsGay 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 16-17, M 10 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    This year, on February 3rd I lost my dad.

    My father and I were never really close. I haven't seen my dad in a couple of years but he still made an effort to talk to me. He was a registered sex offender, due to him being falsely accused by my ex-step mom. She claimed he molested me when I was little, but he never did...
    TheKidDanJ TheKidDanJ 18-21 1 Response Aug 11

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    It took me long enough to share this

    but I felt I had too. The recent death of the late Robin Williams brought back memories of own biological fathers' suicide. I was ten at the time and my sister Alyson was six. He loved to tinker out in his workshop working on anything from metal artwork to what he could create...
    ChristyyS ChristyyS 22-25, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Two Months Later..........

    Oddly enough in a way I feel free........... yet I am broken. This week will be two months since my husband chose to end his life. He is dead and I am lost. This realization has not been easy, every day I look at my younger son and I see his face. Everywhere I go I am reminded...
    bobbyswife30 bobbyswife30 26-30, F 11 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    In January of this year.

    .. Someone once said that it's a gift from God that we don't know when we're going to die... you'd live you're whole life knowing you had a 100 years or maybe just a few days left with someone. It'd drive you completely mad.... Well I knew. I knew I had less than a year with...
    Aleacam Aleacam 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    Okay, facebook sucks

    and as I was trying to comment on a post, it deleted it, so I'm going to make my statement again. On the topic of whether or not suicide is selfish or not.. YES. It is. I love Robin Williams, and I'm sure a lot of people will be pissed off at me. But yes, it is selfish. My...
    ruca28 ruca28 26-30, M 5 Responses Aug 14

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    It's been two years since my cousin committed

    suicide he would of been 18 this year i don't know why he did it though.... He always was so happy and got along with everyone he made everyone smile.... He had lots of friends he seemed like the happiest person I knew... I remember when my dad told me what happened and I...
    PrincessAyyoBbyBoo PrincessAyyoBbyBoo 13-15, F Aug 14

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27

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    Two of my friends committed suicide recently.

    Both were married and both had a child. The first time was a shock, but before I had the chance to get closure, I found my other friend dead at his house. I still can't get the image of his dead body out of my head and I had to inform his wife and I'll never forget her scream...
    MrMoJo13 MrMoJo13 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 31

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    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Sweet Baby Brother

    I always carried him through everything hard, even when he started to walk. My sister and I took turns lugging him around and watching over him. I left our chaotic home as soon as possible, got married and tried not to look back. My mom is an addict and my father (step) has had...
    roses4me2 roses4me2 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Seeing the news about the comedian Robin

    Williams brings back to me thoughts about my friend Luc. He committed suicide when we were both sixteen. He was walking in the alps with friends, and at a precipice near to the Italian border, he just jumped off! To this day I do not know why.
    Lecuyer90 Lecuyer90 22-25, F Aug 12

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    tyra. my little precious angel.

    I remember when we would sit in the hospital and talk about random dreams we had and things we wanted to achieve when we got older. we both wanted to inspire each other.. but now you can't do that. I wish you were still here with me tyra. I miss you a lot, and I know this is out...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I've known a few people in my 20's whom

    committed suicide. Three good friends who seemed happy and not in any way depressed or unhappy. It's sad to know they couldn't talk to me and kept things bottled up. But that's the way it goes sometimes. The first friend wrote a letter saying she had a brain tumour and was...
    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 34 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 33 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 12 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 10 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I lost my Dad. The day it happened I sat on the

    couch while he walked out the door that morning. An hour later I went to my grandparents and was greeted by a state trooper who told me that my father had taken his own life. It's going to be a year in a week since that day. I am still just as heart broken as that day. I can't...
    Brittany4991 Brittany4991 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 6

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    I lost a friend. Her name was Skyler,

    I refer to her as Sky. She was amazing, beautiful, courageous, good hearted, loving, caring, sympathetic, silly, she was my everything. I was head over heels in love with her. She made me so happy. One night, she got into a fight with her parents, and she came to my house for...
    hopelovecare hopelovecare 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 17

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 7 Responses May 3

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    I lost my syster two yeas ago

    and my mother yestetrday. I am only 22 and I need and want someone to tell me it will all be ok, that I will end up fine, even though I have no one left.
    florence91 florence91 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    Its only been a little of a mounth.

    He was the only person who loved my for who i am (body,mind and heart). Learning to deal with it is the hardest thing i ever had to do. I have guilt. I wish i could of been there to tell him, he could make it threw. We promised each other we would all ways be there for each...
    stillgoingcrazy stillgoingcrazy 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    Since my partners suicide a bit over two months

    ago I find myself constantly questioning rather I really want to remain here with out him.
    smurffy422 smurffy422 36-40, M 4 Responses Aug 19

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    Trevor was one of my best friends

    and past boyfriends but he just couldn't take it anymore i had no idea he had so many problems. He hid it well I miss him every day its almost been 4 years but feels like 4 days
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    My dad took his own life in 2008 a

    after finding out my mum was cheating, he suffered from depression and anger issues for a long time before.
    Tabby1017 Tabby1017 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    Lost my mom to suicide November 22,

    2001; felt like god was punishing me for some strange reason ; cause I lost my step father December 23,2002 to TB ; but that's a whole different story !! ; well .. My day started as usual ... Went to school got in trouble and my mom sent me to my grandma house for thanksgiving...
    missingherdaily missingherdaily 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 22

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    I don't even know why I am writing this here

    but I promised myself to finally get over this so maybe this is like a last ..hmm don't even know how to call it lets just say I will here write the whole story 1 time one last time... what a great way to start this here since its my first post sooo a bit of background...
    Nicoisanaupair Nicoisanaupair 18-21, F Aug 5

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    It is Throwback Thursday,

    and this one is a very emotional one for me. With the death of Robin Williams who committed suicide, it brings back the moment I found out about my sister Barbara..in our family we called her Titi (pronounced Teedee) who committed suicide - 23 years ago. Every time I hear...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 56-60, F 6 Responses Aug 14

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    I have lost count of the number of friend mates

    and acquaintances i have buried. It is why i work with the youth of today. I expect to suit up more over the next yet or so. I hate knowing that. I am sick of seeing people i know, love and respect in wooden boxes.
    LifesCoach LifesCoach 31-35, M Aug 5

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11

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    Life has had many cruel twists.

    .. I went from an unhappy abusive home to an unhappy and abusive marriage. My ex-husband had a best friend who eventually became the Godfather to my oldest son. The moment "M" held my tiny little miracle I began to see how cruel life can be. M was 10 times the father my...
    skk1966 skk1966 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    its probably better we're not together.

    The world's on fire. It's a ****** up mess. Do your wings fit good? Can you fly? I hope your wings fit good when you fly. It's almost like you've been carrying me. A little angel always watching over me. Save me from the danger I can't see. I always seem to know where I'm...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F Aug 16

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 35 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    I was really close to my cousin.

    He was more like a brother to me. The day he decided to take his life was one of the darkest days in mine. I cannot comphrehend why he did it. Not a day goes by where I don't think of him. I frequently dream about him... in my dream he does actually shoot himself but he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 13

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    When I was 9 lost my uncle

    who was very close to me. I loved him so much. I was told he was hit by a car. That was all I got told. I only found out 2 years ago that he had actually committed suicide. I blame myself for his death and I always have. I feel like I could of helped him. He was the only person...
    ConfusedAndScared1234 ConfusedAndScared1234 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    4 of my friends have committed suicide in the

    last year and a half. They were amazing and the best friends u could ever ask for. It was a shame they couldn't see that as much as I did #rip James,Becky, Nicola and Luke xx u will always be missed xxxxxxxxx
    georgia2001 georgia2001 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    A day in March 2012, had been one of the most

    darkest days.. I have had it with life and was going to end my life. I had forgotten that my cousin that my cousin who had moved in didn't go to school that day and he saved my life, he got me out of the bathroom and cried with me and from then on every night we would talk...
    March122014 March122014 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 11

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