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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 4,579 People

    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 33 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    Pretty sure I'm about to lose someone to suicide

    and no matter what I say or do its not changin their mind. :/
    SpilledTea SpilledTea 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    One to many Blaze jumped of a bridge Travis

    has probably bled to death Lea had an overdose just like Emily The other Emily died from starving herself I'm pretty sure Anna shot herself Wyatt its been a year you should be 16 but you hung yourself. Aly I'm sorry I couldn't save you... I could go on and on but it makes mes...
    BellaRayZamora BellaRayZamora 13-15, F Jul 15

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 16-17, M 9 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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    it's been nearly a year

    since I lost my best friend to suicide. it happened when I was working at an event. I'd told her that morning that wouldn't go if she needed me but she said she'd be fine. I shouldn't have left her alone I'm such an idiot. I got a phone call half way through the night telling me...
    hidingbehindthefacade hidingbehindthefacade 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 21

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    It's been almost 3 years

    since my step dad/best friend committed suicide in our garage. I love him and I miss him so much. I wish he knew the pain my mom and I go through just by walking through a white painted garage floor. I wish I could show him my graduation pictures and we could play COD together...
    Algophobia Algophobia 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I lost my friend in 2005 to suicide We were

    supposed to go on what would have been our first cruise He took his life on the train tracks He was only 23 Iwas devastated and completely broke down after it happened I'll never forget him I loved him so much
    Stanray Stanray 61-65, M 4 Responses Jul 7

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    Two of my friends committed suicide recently.

    Both were married and both had a child. The first time was a shock, but before I had the chance to get closure, I found my other friend dead at his house. I still can't get the image of his dead body out of my head and I had to inform his wife and I'll never forget her scream...
    MrMoJo13 MrMoJo13 31-35, M 5 Responses Jan 31

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    [open letter] RIP Josh.

    I've been listening to your playlist. Honestly, I need you more than ever now. Some days I feel like ****. Some days I really do just want to quit and leave everything. But I will never forget my promise to you. I'm carrying on for the both of us. I miss you so much. I miss...
    EnigmaSings EnigmaSings 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    Bitter Battle Between Parents - Result : Daughter Commits Suicide

    The most important thing I've learned in life is not to let one's conflict with someone else affect others. Let it affect only the combatants and not innocent 3rd parties. My daughter committed suicide in part because this lesson was not learned early in life. Her parents allowed...
    sakamato sakamato 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 3, 2007

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    Two Months Later..........

    Oddly enough in a way I feel free........... yet I am broken. This week will be two months since my husband chose to end his life. He is dead and I am lost. This realization has not been easy, every day I look at my younger son and I see his face. Everywhere I go I am reminded...
    bobbyswife30 bobbyswife30 26-30, F 11 Responses Sep 2, 2012

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    I just lost my bestfriend to suicide.

    Her mom just called me and told me😓
    ccluhyahhoe ccluhyahhoe 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    4 years ago my older brother

    and only other sibling stepped in front of a freight train and thus ended his life. I never thought that would happen and my family and I are still feeling the shockwaves from the bomb that has been detonated on us. I miss him everyday. He was only 2 weeks away from his 29th...
    QuantumBitch1983 QuantumBitch1983 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    EllieBlythe EllieBlythe 13-15, F Jul 16

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 34 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    My Sweet Baby Brother

    I always carried him through everything hard, even when he started to walk. My sister and I took turns lugging him around and watching over him. I left our chaotic home as soon as possible, got married and tried not to look back. My mom is an addict and my father (step) has had...
    roses4me2 roses4me2 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    I lost my little brother a year

    and a half ago. Our family had gone through some pretty rough patches, and he wasn't coping well. None of us saw it coming. He was always his normal self, playful with his siblings, very loving and still very sporty. Then it all changed. We found him one day in his room, not...
    timeline112 timeline112 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    i lost my ex bf to suicide.

    he was 16, & we had been best friends, even after breaking up. he had been going through a rough time with friends, getting bullied and harassed. one day he couldn't take it anymore. I never got to say goodbye that night, and it kills me to this day. rip Roy June 6th, 2014...
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 28

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    I was fourteen. He was fifteen.

    I was a freshman. He was a sophomore. I was awkward and swooning. He was lost in thought and pain. That first day when our relationship started, and he hugged me, and i could feel the bandages under his jacket, it broke my heart. For the next two years i did everything i could...
    TeddyBearTweaker TeddyBearTweaker 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    My pal larry. My pal bryce.

    My sponsor and buddy robert. Larry proved money dont mean happy. Bryce led to peer support. Robert proved that me is awesome even if not high or at a party. They are missed. God didnt take them from me. Fokyn selfish idiots did. Social trends and peer...
    converted converted 46-50, M Jun 30

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    My older brother stepped in front of a freight

    train on Febuary 23, 2010. I watched him walk out the door, thinking nothing of it, an hour and a half later he was dead. The police came knocking on our door and I was the only one home. I knew something was very, very wrong the second they showed up. I miss him everyday. Four...
    ChildOfWinter ChildOfWinter 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    Today my son would of been 20 yrs old.

    . Though I don't understand and still have so many questions ... I choose to trust God fully ... He is my refuge & my hope is in Him....You are greatly missed Jeremy ... *Christ is King!~JSJr.
    esanchez5195 esanchez5195 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Lost my mom to suicide November 22,

    2001; felt like god was punishing me for some strange reason ; cause I lost my step father December 23,2002 to TB ; but that's a whole different story !! ; well .. My day started as usual ... Went to school got in trouble and my mom sent me to my grandma house for thanksgiving...
    missingherdaily missingherdaily 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 22

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    A New Year And An Unmended Heart

    Jesse. He has been my best friend since I was seven. Or I guess I should say 'had been'. It's my first New Years Eve without him. And its been exactly one year since I saw his gorgeous eyes, his friendly smile. No, he didn't commit suicide on New Years. But he did move six hours...
    SamIsGay SamIsGay 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2012

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    I lost my cousin a few years ago.

    I think the worst part about it was the fact that he was missing for a week before they found his body. That was really stressful. We had no idea where he was, and we had no idea whether he had taken his life or not. His brother had a kid not too long ago, and his brothers name...
    emjagrace emjagrace 13-15, F Jun 29

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    In 2004 when I was 7,

    I had recently departed from the US and my dad was stationed in Germany. As a kid I wasn't aware of many things happening in my past. It was mid november when my mom got a call and I watched her cry her heart out. When I was 15 I learned the reason how this person died. It was...
    SoulWriter17 SoulWriter17 16-17, M Jul 8

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    I lost my uncle(my father's brother) about 3

    years ago. He was a fun and up beat kind of guy. A hard worker and motorcycle rider in spare time. He used to hold me and tell my mother how special I was when I was a baby.. He committed suicide in his home. Which my family tried to cover that detail up from me. Till this day...
    Ter4Doll Ter4Doll 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    I lost a good friend on Friday.

    I found out as I was walking into work. It was one of those moments when time stopped. Everything just stood still. And it hasn't started back up yet. She was the most beautiful and amazing woman. My hummingbird. She never stopped moving. She was the friend I could call for...
    loveandlight29 loveandlight29 26-30, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 14 Responses Jul 11

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 7 Responses May 3

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    i think the worst part about losing friends to

    suicide- there anniversary days. im scared for my friends 1 month in a week. i miss him so much, its going to suck. ugh i hate guilt. ugh
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    I don't really talk about him.

    Not because I'm mad or sad, I've been both of those things, but that's not why. He was my best friend in high school. The first two years of it anyway. We were both misfits, outcasts. He was the fat kid and I was the weird girl. Except he didn't see me like that. To him, I was...
    kbetweens kbetweens 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 27

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    Today I went to the cemetery to visit my

    cousin's plot. As I was sitting there I read his headstone inscription, and noted his date of birth. I sat there confounded and hurt. I was roughly eleven when he passed and he was twenty two. I sat there in utter shock, realizing he was about the same age I am now . It broke...
    MSCris MSCris 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    My own brother committed suicide.

    it really sucks that he felt that was his only way out. He didn't realize the kind of damage it would leave on the people who loved him. It really sucks that i didn't get a chance to talk to him, to try convince him not to. He was struggling with depression and sent off to a...
    eeeosborne eeeosborne 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I lost my closest and best friend.

    He was the best thing in my life. He had come out to his father( a homophobic *****) who had chucked him out of home. He then went to live in Wales with his mum where he was bullied and teased. He spent the next few months of his life in and out of hospital. Several suicide...
    Il0veandre Il0veandre 13-15, T 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    My lovely Rebekka. I used to be best friends

    with her. We were like sisters. She had played a very important role in my life up until that point where we started to drift apart. That was my fault, and ohmygod do I reget it. I can honestly say that she was once the only thing to keep me alive. She didn't know it, but she...
    natliking natliking 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F Mar 30

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    My Friend Michael

    I was raised by my single mom in a poor area surrounded by other families headed by single mothers. This is where I met my friend Michael and his mother. Michael was sweet, shy, caring, playful, bright, energetic and creative. When I was 10 and he was 9 we often hung out together...
    gumshoejane2 gumshoejane2 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2012

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    I lost my best friend to suicide .

    He was literally the one I could tell everything to . I poured to him all my secrets and he would do the same . He never judged either , he would give me his opinions and I would also do the same . He really was my best friend and I miss him everyday . Idk why he was taken away...
    r3alfri3nds r3alfri3nds 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I wish I could go back

    and tell her how much I loved her, tell her how much she changed me. No matter how good of a relationship I'll be in, I'd drop everything for a second chance with her. RIP Thalia, we still miss you<3
    jledoux0690 jledoux0690 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 3

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    Oh my gosh. Graduation is tomorrow,

    two years ago, we lost you. We lost my best friend. We always said we would drive to that graduation together, and we were so excited to get our diplomas. I miss you so much. :'( Your Mom just posted on Facebook about how she'll be at our grad tomorrow, without you. I just miss...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I lost a dear friend.

    It started quite innocently. I got his e-mail and he got mine. We started as pen-pals as we lived too far apart. I would return from school happy and expecting his answer from my latest e-mail. Then vacations came and we had more time and could even skype. We didn't know we...
    Lurikan Lurikan 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Trevor was one of my best friends

    and past boyfriends but he just couldn't take it anymore i had no idea he had so many problems. He hid it well I miss him every day its almost been 4 years but feels like 4 days
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 7

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