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I Lost Someone To Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6,227 People

    How Suicide Has Effected My Life..

    I am writing this story after reading other peoples horrifying experiences with suicide.  Mine seems mild compared to some of the stories i have read on here. My experiences with suicide started with my Uncle Paul.  He shot himself when i was a toddler so i dont...
    kim8701 kim8701 18-21 13 Responses Jul 15, 2008

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    I was going through my phone today

    and came across our text. I miss you so much it breaks my heart. You where always the person I turned to for help and now I can't. Reading the last text you sent me broke my heart into a million pieces. I love you Matt you where always my big brother.
    hugsandkisses26 hugsandkisses26 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 19

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    Today is 2 years since I lost my girlfriend to

    suicide. I miss her terribly. She was not only my girlfriend but also my best friend. And deep inside I feel as if it was my fault she committed. I miss you Skylar..
    CatySansom CatySansom 16-17, F 7 Responses Oct 6

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    Happy birthday, Jess.

    I haven't forgotten.
    Sicarium Sicarium 36-40, M Sep 2

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    Two of my friends committed suicide recently.

    Both were married and both had a child. The first time was a shock, but before I had the chance to get closure, I found my other friend dead at his house. I still can't get the image of his dead body out of my head and I had to inform his wife and I'll never forget her scream...
    MrMoJo13 MrMoJo13 31-35, M 6 Responses Jan 31

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    I remember thinking about her

    while sitting on the sidewalk. Of course, I can never think too hard about her without breaking down, so I have to keep it at a minimum. When a close friend commits suicide, It's almost like the ultimate bad breakup. You lose someone you love, permanently, and you end up blaming...
    EthanFisher EthanFisher 16-17 1 Response Sep 18

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    When will this pain go away I miss her sooo

    ******* much she would of been 15 today girls feel free to inbox me
    homewardbound1990 homewardbound1990 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    Saying Goodbye To Luke

    I cannot believe it has been almost two years since we lost you. My emotions at times can feel just as raw as the day you left. But then there are days where you don’t cross my mind, almost like it was a nightmare, long forgotten, lost in a childhood full of dreams.Saying...
    girlbythebay girlbythebay 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 7, 2011

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    My name is jessica I'm 27 I lost my mom to

    suicide may17 th 2009 I'm starting a support group for families left behind after a suicide it called Julie's hope. I'm looking for other people that would under stand what I'm going through and to join me at my meetings I live in Garfield heights ohio message me or call me at...
    lifeafterasuicide lifeafterasuicide 26-30, F 7 Responses Aug 27

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    I Didn't Think I Would Actually Share This Here

    I really try to not dwell in the past, but someone asked a question this week that reminded me of the unique circumstances around surviving the suicide of someone you love.   My husband took his own life four years ago.  It was not his first attempt, although I had...
    edgargeorge edgargeorge 41-45, F 33 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    I just found out that my best friend

    who supposedly commit suicide a few months ago might not be dead... I'm about to find out for sure and I'm not sure if I'm readys
    emgg emgg 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 8

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    My only sibling, my big brother,

    shot himself a couple of months ago. I miss him so much, I feel like I'm missing him more each day but I don't like to talk about it to my friends any more as I feel like they must be getting tired of hearing the same story again and again but it doesn't stop in my head so I put...
    Botbot10 Botbot10 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 8

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    10/10/14: Lost my 16yo cousin

    who was near and dear to me.. Overdose on prescripted drugs, passed away 15 hours later. She battled depression for what seemed like forever.. She's in peace now. RIP my beautiful angel...
    Killingmesoftlyx3 Killingmesoftlyx3 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 10

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    In 5 days it will make one year.

    I remember the night like it's yesterday, because life changed forever after that moment. I woke up with terrible sharp pains in my head around 3:00 am. I went to the kitchen to get some Tylenol. That's when my mother came downstairs and told me. The police had just came...
    JacobsGirl360 JacobsGirl360 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 24

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    This past Saturday a good friend of mine lost

    her battle and fell short to her depression. Depression is a real disease. It's not something that can be easily controlled. Sometimes the people who appear the happiest and the strongest are fighting the hardest battles, often within themselves. I wish I would have known sooner...
    taylor0430 taylor0430 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 20

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    One of my best friends at high school was

    depressed, just like me but his life so far had been even worse. Every single day I saw his depression consume the beauty of his soul and his life, I saw the broken pieces of his heart crumble every day. Last year when we were biking around town we came at a railroad crossing...
    gomega98 gomega98 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I was thinking about my mom today.

    And when she died.. And for years after and even now, I wasn't really sorry. She was terrible to me. But I guess every once in a while, I just wish I could talk to her one more time, have her see me now .. But when I picture it she is loving and maternal and tells me I'm...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14

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    My Little Girl...

    This is such a hard thing to do. And honestly... I thought I would never be able to share something so hurtful and one of the causes of this terrible state I'm in... but I just read the story of one of my new EP friends, and have the feeling (can be mistaken) that finding the...
    sweetmeisje sweetmeisje 26-30, F 12 Responses Oct 31, 2009

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    Since January, 3 kids at my school have killed

    themselves. I wasn't close with any of them, but I knew them all. My school's solution to this is to pretend that nothing happened. That's worked the other 3 times. I feel like no one cares and I'm so scared it's going to happen again.
    gemmadobbs gemmadobbs 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    xxInes20xx xxInes20xx 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    Trevor was one of my best friends

    and past boyfriends but he just couldn't take it anymore i had no idea he had so many problems. He hid it well I miss him every day its almost been 4 years but feels like 4 days
    WendyDarlin WendyDarlin 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    Staci

    My friend, since third grade, Staci, would’ve been 19 years old today. I think about her every day. I still remember her smile, our inside jokes, I can trace my memories with her all the way back to third grade, the first day we met. We maintained a close friendship for nine...
    kalee19 kalee19 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    I Lost My Dad To Suicide.....Paul Anthony.

    ([Edit] Just noticed over 2000 people have read this. I hope some of you found a tiny bit of something to relate to. and thank you all so much for taking the time to read this ) I found this thread so am taking a few moments to just put my experience out there. Feel kinda kooky...
    CharlieUniform CharlieUniform 31-35, F 74 Responses Apr 24, 2011

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    When I was little, my mom

    and dad were separated. I'd go to his house every other weekend. Then he stopped coming to pick me up for a couple months and nobody knew why. Then my mom got a call one day and she started crying. I didn't know why, but I knew it was a deep, internal cry. Something my mom...
    ImJustMeAlex ImJustMeAlex 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 11

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    A year ago tomorrow, on Thanksgiving,

    my sister will have been gone for one year. She killed herself. I haven’t opened up to anyone about it because I feel ashamed and am extremely worried about how our family is perceived. I am in so much pain and sadness from loosing her I don’t know what to do to help...
    kimberlyyy00 kimberlyyy00 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 12

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    5 years ago a colleague of mine at work hung

    himself. I had worked with Joe for 4yrs up until the year before this, and we had become very close. He was there for me when my marriage fell through 3 weeks before we were due to tie the knot, and every Sunday we would end up in the same pub, in the same spot until the staff...
    Mick672 Mick672 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 10

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    20 years ago today my brother took his own life.

    You would think after 20 years the pain wouldn't be as bad, but it's not true. Today a milestone anniversary and it hurts like ******* hell. I still wonder why. I know I'll never get the answers I want but I can't help but ask them. My brother was the coolest and most...
    SomeoneOutThere SomeoneOutThere 36-40, M 6 Responses Sep 24

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    Today I went to the cemetery to visit my

    cousin's plot. As I was sitting there I read his headstone inscription, and noted his date of birth. I sat there confounded and hurt. I was roughly eleven when he passed and he was twenty two. I sat there in utter shock, realizing he was about the same age I am now . It broke...
    MSCris MSCris 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Lost my girlfriend. It'll be a year in December.

    She sufferes from depression and she cut and it hurt me watching her go through that. When she lost her twin brother, a close friend of mine, to an accidental drug overdose she decided to end it all and hung herself. I will never forget the awful shocking moment when I found her...
    WhiskeyRoger369 WhiskeyRoger369 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 23

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    Two People

    I was one of the first people to discover Alice dead. She had been growing quite distant for some time and one day she said to come to her house to talk with her a little. I was overjoyed! She's reaching out! I quickly put on some good clothes and walked to her place. The door...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 5, 2013

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    I lost my boyfriend to suicide.

    I still havent dealt with it, he was my best friend too. He hanged himself. It was completely unexpected even though we both had a lot of issues. We met in a childrens home and lived there together for a year. Then we moved to the same supported accommodation and were there for...
    featherdibs featherdibs 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I think the worst part about losing someone to

    suicide is when you see them spiraling down, and you know there isn't much you can do. I didn't ever know how to help him and next thing I knew it was over.
    avabellaforb avabellaforb 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    July 6, 2014. My brother committed suicide.

    Worst day of my life. I miss him so much. I think about him all the time. I'm always going to wonder if there was something I could have done to stop him. Other than my mom, my brother was the only other person in this world who I felt truly loved me. And now he's gone. Some...
    NaNeenah NaNeenah 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 19

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    Lost my dad in May. Its

    now September and here I am sipping liquor under a dark cloud. Every time I feel like I'm starting to handle his passing something or in this situation somebody pissed me off.... And I'm back to depress mode. I miss you Dad so much.
    Pokahottyass Pokahottyass 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 21

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    I'm so flooded by memories.

    I call him my best friend, though im sure he hated me in the end. Funny how a few years can poison what could have been the best of friendships. I will never forget him. I won't understand why he wanted to die. He was one of the kindest people in the world. Hell, he loved me...
    Musicthataltersyou Musicthataltersyou 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    He was the best roomate I ever had.

    We worked together a lot and shared stories about our cultures. He had a rich history and he'd tell about his life and how culture in africa was. He also would curse a lot, "Fauq yuu mudafuka, watch out fo black mamba!" Which he said every day haha. He had a dark and stoic sense...
    FreezerDog1 FreezerDog1 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    Goodnight Baby Brother

    It will be a year ago on November 14 that I lost my little brother. I'll never know why and it haunts me everyday. I will never let go of the nagging feeling that I could have prevented it. Maybe if I had spent more time with him, maybe if I had opened up to him more, maybe if I...
    sincerelybritty sincerelybritty 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 3, 2013

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    I lost my best friend Latasha to suicide in

    middle school. it was terrible. maybe one day I'll share the story again.
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My Daughter Megan Shot And Killed Herself 11/3/13

    I just can't let her go. I was kept from seeing her with the best intentions. Maybe that's why I still can't believe it.
    megankentsmom megankentsmom 41-45, F 11 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Elias, my beautiful angel,

    my heart weeps as I think of your demise. I'm so, so sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I saved you twice...why couldn't I save you for the third time? ...I wish you didn't do what you did, but there's no undo button in real life, unfortunately. Lying in bed...
    Etherealinsanity Etherealinsanity 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    My big brother. He hung himself

    because he was bullied for being gay. I miss him more and more everyday. Rest in Paradise Richard <3 I love you. It still hurts, even though this happened nearly two years ago. May 5th will make two years since he's been gone. I just have to remind myself he's no longer in...
    shipmateelyssa shipmateelyssa 13-15, F 7 Responses May 3

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    R.i.p.

    You were an incredible friend. You were so kind and tender. You were never cruel to anyone. I am so sorry it happened like this. I don't pretend to know what was happening in your life, but you changed everyones' lives for the better who knew you. You were such a gentle person...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 14, 2012

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    Ryan

    My best friend Ryan committed suicide 2 weeks ago yesterday. He's always been depressed and talked about it endlessly so I can't say it was a huge shock but it still hit me pretty hard..I'd never been to a funeral or even seen a corpse before and I had to be one of the pall...
    MrHazeinCherubsGrace MrHazeinCherubsGrace 26-30, M 37 Responses Nov 15, 2012

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    My Mom

    Sep 25, 2013 It hurts way more than I thought it would. It's like my mom was two different people. I want to throw up just thinking about it. Her service is Wednesday and I'm dreading it. I can't stop getting into a panic just thinking about it. I'm nervous because its her...
    leestrauss leestrauss 22-25, M 8 Responses Oct 1, 2013

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    Look. I am seeing a lot of people talking about

    how bad theyre life is and how they want to kill themselves. Well guess what? None of you ever think about how that effects everyone else. I talked to my grandpa one day, then that night I heard a gunshot. I ran to his house(assuming a break in or somthing) and there he was in...
    toms420 toms420 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I lost my first love to suicide at age 19 (he

    was 20). I found him hanging in the attic. His parents were out of town…so I rode alone in the ambulance to the hospital with him. But I knew he was dead. I knew it then and I still knew when the doctor told me they were unable to revive him. In the hospital I stood alone...
    shylainey shylainey 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 6

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    My World Lost A Beautiful But Tragic Woman.

    My mother was a stunning woman. She was of irish, french and tahitian heritage. The clearest blue eyes, dark curly long mane for hair, a models body with the height to match. Apple of her fathers eye, eldest of three, spoiled by the love of a family. She had everything. She had...
    DarkHeartLove DarkHeartLove 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    A Sign

    If you are thinkin of committing suicide tonight and you are looking for a sign not to, here is your sign. Do not committ suicide because there is so much ahead for you. I love you and I believe in you. You are amazing
    flippersteen flippersteen 22-25, F 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    I lost my son August 19th 2014 to suicide he

    was a good kid loved by so many but depression got the best of my 17 year boy my only son. I miss you so much buddy but you're pain free now and we will meet again in the kingdom of heaven
    Hornydudetoo Hornydudetoo 36-40, M 3 days ago

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    I think my friend realjax009 killed himself.

    Not calling me or answering texts and is not on here anymore. Wtf!! Why god!!!! Noooo! So pissed right now. Was a talented guy and didn't deserve the illness he had. Don't knowing you are dead or not but know I really did have love for you like a sibling. Why couldn't you stay...
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Was Waiting Until I Was Ready to Write This,,,

                                           A Dedication To Maddie        ...
    QueenOfHearts QueenOfHearts 22-25, F 34 Responses Oct 1, 2009

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    July 15th, 2014 I lost someone I was very close

    to. I met Justin when I was 11, and we hung out almost every single day, and had sleepovers every weekend. We didn't always get along, but overall we were very close friends. About a year ago, I moved away. After a few months we started to lose contact. July 16th I randomly...
    kr1sten kr1sten 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    My Best Friend....

    My best friend... we were both in 8th grade... She was beautiful, but she got bullied by not just girls... guys. She was called fat and she was called ugly... I tried to protect her... but then she got a facebook... by the time I realized what was happening on facebook, it was to...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 16-17, M 12 Responses Oct 27, 2013

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