I Love a Drug Addict

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 509 People

    I Lost My Soulmate

    I am 23 years old but I have the life experience of a 50 year old! I am strong, confident, independant and hard working but love.....oh love. It has always been my weak spot. I have had many great loves in my life but this one that I will write about now I fear I will never get...
    Danijelam Danijelam
    22-25, F
    16 Responses Dec 12, 2011

    Feeling anxious...So much sadness this week

    with death due to drug use around my area. A guy I knew from high school, I hung with him once and he was very close to a few of my friends. He died this week, poor sweet guy. He was found dead in his room, drug overdose (not sure what yet) and only 20 years old. So many people...
    sailed1316 sailed1316
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2014

    Another Weekend

    Tick tock....tick tock. What will this weekend be? Will he indulge in his weekend binge of drugs and alcohol? Will we have a relaxing weekend with a walk beside the river like good old times? Again......the whole week went great. Admitted to his faults saying he didn't mean the...
    Broken2876 Broken2876
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2013

    The Power Of Addicted Love..............I Too Was Married To A Drug Addict.

    I can relate to so many posts on this page, I just had to reach out to you. I too have a story, and I put it in print back in 2005. I was married to a drug addict/alcoholic for 14 years. It ruined my life. Please feel free to take a look: http://www.amazon.com/Power-Addicted...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 29, 2013

    How Do I Stop Loving Him?

    Six years ago I met the Man of my dreams.  After a horrible divorce, I was recovering and raising my daughters just fine on my own.  I was not looking to fall in love, but God had better plans.  This man, now my husband, came into my life and wanted nothing more...
    lwalker1011 lwalker1011
    26-30, F
    28 Responses Feb 12, 2010

    I have been dating a drug addict

    for three years. He didnt use for the first year, and I didnt even know he had ever had a problem until a year later. Then, after we got back together after a month long break after two years, and he had to have another surgery, this nightmare started. He would only use once a...
    Dots2014 Dots2014
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014

    I'm young and I love him

    but it hurts. I knew him for a year as a friend, we are majoring in the same thing. We began dating, his drug habits showed up right away. He smokes too much pot, drinks too much, snorts coke occasionally and shoots up speed and has done meth a few times before. Its really bad...
    sailed1316 sailed1316
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    I just broke up with my boyfriend of two years.

    We ended our relationship because he couldnt keep a job and we were struggling financially, and I just couldn't take providing for him anymore. I was working and going to school full time, literally taking care of everything. When we got together, I knew that he had had problems...
    ononymous ononymous
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2016

    My Family ....

    Actually, the whole lot of them have had or have drug issues and alcohol dependence concerns....... My mum, Sue. I loved her to pieces....she wasn't the greatest mother, due to her drug and alcohol issues but you can't help that, right? She had me very late in her life and it...
    AmberDuponte AmberDuponte
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 6, 2013

    Is Your Boyfriend/girlfriend An Opioid/ Heroin Addict? Some Simple Advices From An Ex-addict

    As an addict for about 8 years I can feel him but also you.Because opioids bind with the endorfin receptors in the brain,when he is 'high' he feels like a god.The feeling of pleasure is so strong he doesn't need anything more.He feels complete.I remember that even the pleasure of...
    he4she2 he4she2
    26-30, M
    7 Responses Aug 30, 2012

    I Loved A Drug Addict..........but Now I Love Myself More!

    I loved a drug addict.........but now I love myself MORE! EXCERPT - Chapter 12 "The Power of Addicted Love", written by Teresa Hamilton “Outside the house, I heard an all too familiar sound. The car door had slammed. It was that all too familiar “slam” that made me cringe...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 15, 2013

    One of the Biggest Disapointments of My Life

      A few years ago, I worked with a girl that I thought was really something special. She was bright, pretty, fun, and she had a fantastic sense of humor. The first time I saw her, I was blown away. She had long reddish-brown hair, dark brown eyes, a terrific body, and this...
    Shinigami69 Shinigami69
    36-40, M
    8 Responses May 29, 2009

    A Poem..........

    IF YOU LOVE ME, LET ME FALL IF you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me, don't throw a pillow under my *** to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it, don't stand in the place I am going to land so that you can break the fall...
    Elizahrose Elizahrose
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Jun 15, 2012
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    Today is my 3 year anniversary with the boy I

    love. I knew I loved him since I was 13. I'm 20 now. This morning I found out he took percocets. He has a history of doing xanax, pain pills, etc.. I feel so sad inside. Everytime he says he's gonna clean up it never last for more than 3 months. Love is supposed to conquer all...
    livelaughlove08642 livelaughlove08642
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2015

    I am in love with a drug addict.

    He is my soulmate. My forever. But he loves drugs. Hes trying so hard to get off of them, and hes made SO much progress, but he's still on them. I just want a future with him. And I know he wants one too, but sometimes I feel like hes just not willing to work for it. But I also...
    hails224 hails224
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 26, 2014

    Ugh- Well he's been using less

    now a days. Seems like he's realizing how much money he's just throwing away. Or maybe its his grandma being in town. Yesterday we took his grandma to the park to walk around. I noticed right away when i picked him up was that he had just done it. You can just tell You know and...
    lovelyytroubledsoul lovelyytroubledsoul
    22-25, F
    Jul 25, 2014

    I loved a heroin addict.

    I still love him dearly but as a friend now. He is an amazing person...probably the most kindhearted, loyal and moral I ever met. I know thats not the qualities that people usually associate with drug addicts but he really is like that. I met him when he was still using. I was...
    littleayeaye littleayeaye
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 17, 2014

    I love my boyfriend very much,

    he's currently in jail. Hes an addict, IV user, and I'm worried about what's going to happen when he comes home. The reason hes in jail right now is because he breached his house arrest so he could go get high. He's an amazing person and I know he wants a better life for himself...
    hillaryalexis hillaryalexis
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30, 2015


    an update to my story....my husband has forced me to leave the house, i'm now living at my parents, (so much shame in that)....last week he wanted my furniture out of the house, so I rented a truck to go get it..my stuff was already out in the driveway, with a note from him...
    prettyinpink prettyinpink
    46-50, F
    8 Responses Sep 18, 2013

    I really like girls who smoke

    and do drugs Cos when it comes to talking for me they make sense thanks to the effect of drugs
    Dpot Dpot
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 17, 2014

    oh withdrawals! i came back

    after work yesterday just to find him in the fetal position. it hurt me seeing him this way but i knew in my mind this was bound to happen. He ran out of money and to top it all off so have I. Yep. I would give him money for drug. Shaking my head girl. See this is where i...
    lovelyytroubledsoul lovelyytroubledsoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 19, 2014

    I had been through serious depression

    because I'm this person who is always alone. I'm new to this place and people don't really accept to be with someone like me. I'm from India and people here are still conservative in thoughts. Anyways, I was pushed to the extreme. I used to cut my hands everyday to let go of the...
    Snapback77 Snapback77
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2014

    I love my fiancé so much we are getting

    married in 55 days. We have been together for 7 1/2 years and engaged for two. When I first met him I didn't know he was an addict; never being around drugs before made it easy to hide. Money started missing he started being meaner, and I started wising up. After a few years of...
    luvjunkie06 luvjunkie06
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jul 6, 2014

    Last year i reconnected with a guy i used to

    date in high school. In a short period of time i fell madly in love with him. He is a heroin addict and hide it for a very long time. After he ended up stealing some things from my house and from his mom i finally realized the truth. He spent 8 months in jail and promised when...
    amymichelle71 amymichelle71
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 22, 2015

    How Do I Walk Away From An Addict Im In Love With?

    I met a guy 3 months ago who makes me feel alive and makes me happy he is an addict he drinks everyday and takes a certain medication that he is not prescribed he says he needs it to be normal I left my husband to be with this man because I'm in love with him I'm not sure if its...
    goldengirl31 goldengirl31
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 25, 2013

    The party is over, Although it never begun.

    I waited for you to get sober, But it's like looking for rainbows in the sun. There are glimpses of hope, But reality is I've lost you. I've lost us. What I knew can't ever be, The drugs won instead of me.
    itiswhatitis987 itiswhatitis987
    36-40, F
    Dec 16, 2014

    Took 8 miserable years

    for me to finally let go. 8 years of lies, broken promises, broken windows, holes in walls, cheating,stealing, heartache, starting over and over, cries, second chances, manipulation, deceit. Been through hell and back again, lost the trust of friends, hurt my family, my...
    missmdcg missmdcg
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    So much has happened with my ex(?

    ) this month. I've posted twice about him already. After last night, I feel so used and worn down. I'm feeling just depressed that I put in so much love and it seems he wants to be around people who give him no love. If you've seen my other posts, he's a severe addict who has...
    sailed1316 sailed1316
    18-21, F
    Jul 27, 2014

    I Loved Him So Much. I Didn't Know.

    A month into my freshman year of high school, I spotted a stranger walking into class ahead of me. Almost immediately, I was intrigued - I supose that isn't strange. He ended up sitting behind me in class....and I was stunned. Absolutely taken aback by his intelligence, his...
    Chassant Chassant
    18-21, F
    5 Responses May 19, 2009

    Even Still The Pain Remains -- A Poem I Wrote.

    "The Aftermath of Greg" In the daytime, my pain is masked by a weak smile and a false sense of security. The only ones who can see through the mask are those who've worn it too, We're soldiers fighting the same war in silent unity. But when night falls and I'm all alone, The...
    physicsgirl physicsgirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2012

    I Thought I Could Make Him Live My Reality

    I fell in love with an amazing man 18months ago. He was exciting and fun. He was not the guy your brought home to mum or invest your future in. But I loved him and thought with my heart only. He moved in with me very quickly after a very intense friendship. I am successful and...
    Elizahrose Elizahrose
    31-35, F
    Jun 15, 2012

    I apologize in advance

    for grammar, i typed this on my phone. i have loved a drug addict for 5 years now. his drug of choice? the 30 mg roxycodone painkillers and now heroin.. we met when i was 17. i was pretty naive to drugs back then. i had no idea he was using anything until a friend told me he...
    tinkerbell1200 tinkerbell1200
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

    He's relapsed. He does every time we break up.

    I thought I had grown enough to see it coming this time. It breaks my heart watching him go through this. I want so desperately to take it all away for him. He always said when he rejects me, he's rejecting himself. I know there's nothing I can do. But it's so hard to walk away...
    danii92 danii92
    22-25, F
    Oct 22, 2014

    I have been with my boyfriend

    for over two years. He was a serious drug addict in the past (shooting up morphine) but since I've met him he only does tabs and anxiety pills. He was doing so much better by getting a job and putting his life back together, but now he is doing pills more than ever and lying to...
    superhaley superhaley
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Oct 23, 2014

    I just recently ended it with a guy I was dating

    for almost two years because of his addiction problems. We've been friends and crushes since the beginning of high school. He became addicted to pain pills when he was 17, I moved away when I was 16. In and out of rehab. Jail time when he was 20 sobered him up. He was sober for...
    annp92 annp92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2014

    You're ruining your life!

    I can't stop you :( why can't you just stop this behavior??? You're losing everything. Piece by piece, everyone is giving up, do you really love this drug so much??? Just snap out of it!!!
    itiswhatitis987 itiswhatitis987
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2014

    Dealing With The Past

    Im honestly so hurt as I write this right now. Ive spent 5 years of my life with this man and I feel like I didn't just lose my love but my best friend. Ive been through hell and back with him he has stolen from me and been abusive with me through hes addiction and yet for some...
    Remy1317 Remy1317
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 31, 2013

    He's someone I can't get out of my head.

    I have no romantic feelings for him but we are tied deeply by the bonds of comradeship and like mindedness. But latey he's lost himself. I scooby dooby don't even think his mind is still in there he's become so warped, irrational, angry and neurotic. I am just waiting for that...
    TaleOfTwoMinds TaleOfTwoMinds
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2014

    Hey so I'm 18 fresh out of high school

    and I just began college, a little over 2 years ago I met a guy I fell for almost instantly. This relationship began when I was a Junior in high school and he was 18 at the time; (we're 2 years apart) anyways I met this guy at a party shortly after me and my ex broke up and I...
    mg1418 mg1418
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2014

    Hope For The Heroin User And His Girlfriend?

    My boyfriend was clean 9 months when I met him. After 3 of the most wonderful, bliss-filled months together, he relapsed. He was days away from a year of sobriety. He used infrequently for a week and a half, but I had no idea since we do not live together and are not the type of...
    Kate1994 Kate1994
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 28, 2012

    This is my first post here.

    I needed a way to let this out and stumbled across this site. My partner is a cocaine addict, and drinks every day too. It's always been the same and I have accepted it. However recently it's really getting to me, I think it's due to our relationship now progressing and I'm at...
    Crystalcastle Crystalcastle
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Aug 19, 2014

    We Don't Know

    We have known each other for 13 years. I was your "perfect" girl ever since we met. We grew apart, came together, apart, then together again. Our lives took us different places. Yours took you to a dark place. Me too, but it was a different dark place. These last 3 months have...
    Amazona86 Amazona86
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2012

    I Loved A Drug Addict.........But Was It Really Love?????

    A PREVIEW from my book "The Power of Addicted Love", written by Teresa Hamilton (link to book is at end of this excerpt) On this particular night it was so beautiful outside. The neighborhood had quieted down and most of our neighbors were inside their homes spending time with...
    deleted deleted
    Nov 27, 2013

    I am in a relationship with a crack addict.

    I love him so much but I am helpless and feel so alone because he can barely hold himself together and I don't have him to turn to when I need it. Like yesterday, I needed to talk and a hug..he now believes he's ruining my life. I just want someone to talk to about it all.
    echog echog
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    Has anyone ever loved someone recovering from

    heroin? My ex and I broke up recently because he's lost total sense of himself. He has been clean for 2 years (14 months of that in a rehabilitation program) he was never in a 12 step program. Is it normal to have feelings for someone one day & lose them all the next day for...
    Girlonthemoon92 Girlonthemoon92
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2014
    chrismarlboro chrismarlboro
    51-55, M
    Sep 7, 2014

    My first post. I love a heroin addict.

    It seems so crazy to even say that because in reality there is no such thing. You love an addict,the addict loves his/her drugs. You have this crazy perception that you are in a relationship and can't leave bc you live in fear of what ifs, but your not in a relationship with...
    lele26 lele26
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    Crazy Beautiful

         I have never been so madly in love, and so heartbroken at the same time. Did'nt know it was possible until about ten months ago. I have been dating this girl I work with for the last ten months. It has been a rocky relationship to say the...
    steveadd steveadd
    26-30, M
    9 Responses Nov 9, 2009

    ... And I'll Love Him Forever

         I have loved a drug addict for seven years this June.  We met in 2003 shortly after I graduated from high school.  I was coming out of an emotionally abusive relationship and although I had supportive friends and family, I lacked self confidence...
    theglassishalffull theglassishalffull
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2010

    The Absolute Truth.....

    Hello, my name is DRUGS, I destroy homes, tear families apart, take your children, and that’s just the start. I’m more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold, the sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. And if you need me, remember I’m easily found, I live all around you...
    mommy23boys mommy23boys
    1 Response Oct 30, 2013

    What it's like to love somebody with a heroin

    addiction To fall inlove with a person after you've been hurt multiple times is a pretty hard task as is. You will always have the fear of being hurt all over again and your trust won't fully be there. But to fall inlove with somebody who later on becomes addicted to heroin...
    nkdxo nkdxo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    Every Time. It's hard loving someone

    who is weighed down by something so heavy.
    22-25, F
    Nov 9, 2014

    Well today is his birthday.

    I had to work today and even though i only worked 6 hours, it felt longer and tough. It's retail, and if anyone else is a cashier should understand me that when i say "people" can exhaust you.. Well..tired and really just wanting to go home and relax, I thought about him first...
    lovelyytroubledsoul lovelyytroubledsoul
    22-25, F
    Jul 17, 2014
More Stories