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I Love Him Although I Shouldn't

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    I Know It Cannot Be Fixed.

     In high school, I met a guy, Matt, that was always there for me. We always had fun together and I was sure that he was going to be the guy that I would spend the rest of my life with. We dated for almost 3 years but the last few months were rocky. I was 19 at the time, and...
    chomikm chomikm 18-21 Oct 16, 2011

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    I've found myself falling

    for this guy in my nursing class. He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy... but he's engaged. And I have a boyfriend. We have so much in common and we enjoy being around each other. He's so sweet and intelligent and extremely attentive. He even notices the little things...
    Naomilove89 Naomilove89 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    The Fire Won't Go Out

    It's been years. He is not mine. He travels. He knows my name. He knows my laugh. We have sung and danced all night. but, We have never touched. I love him even though it would hurt others if I told him. His "girlfriend" and my admirer. Damn love...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F Oct 23, 2008

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    KortneeAnne KortneeAnne 26-30, F Feb 10, 2014

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    How do we escape this labyrinth of suffering?

    This labyrinth being whatever inflicts suffering on you whether it’s this life in general or some other matter that never fails to hit you where it hurts. I don’t quite know what signifies the labyrinth of suffering for me, but I do know I am suffering on some level...
    capitalbreeze capitalbreeze 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I Finally Told Him...:)

    I told my friend I like him. He said he prefers African American boys. But we're still cool! :) That's good enough for me but however this one girl we are both friends with told me she wanted to be there when I told him. She was and she made it more uncomfortable than it...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    Dangerous!

    I sometimes feel like I love my best friend. I told him i have thought about it before. He said he understood and was not surprised. I love him as a brother anyway. But I suppose if it weren't for his dad we might be together. His stepmother likes me and she doesn't know I'm bi...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19, 2010

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    He Might Leave...

    I am more or less in love with my best friend. Unfortunately he might be going to military school if he gets caught dipping again. I have tried to get him to stop, he wants to stop. He is the best friend I have ever made in my school career. I know it's not neccessarliy a good...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 4, 2010

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    He Is Back

    He is back in my life again and i still love him, i have so much to work out..I know i shouldnt care about him cause he hurt me greatly but i just cant make my feelings go away..
    lovelygal lovelygal 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2008

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    Time To Say Goodbye?

    Once upon a time I felt like I was his whole world, like my feelings mattered and I was loved. I believed in him and trusted him. I gave him everything I had to give. I was there when he needed me, staying up all night for days on end if he needed to talk. This was all okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 28, 2011

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    He has a history of being a heartbreaker &

    ladies man. I've been warned but now he's in his 40's & tells me he's a changed man. We've been deeply in love for over a year & he hasn't done anything wrong. Should I marry him?
    jasminebear jasminebear 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2014

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    In Over My Head

    I love my best friend and I don't know why. I'm confused as to whether it's botherly or in a gay way. I would rather have a girlfriend, but I don't know if that will change anything. I find myself OBSESSING over him! I consider him family so this makes it even more damn twisted...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2010

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    I am married with two children.

    I have been married for five years now. To start from the very beginning though, I was in love with a boy from grade school. He was always in the back of my mind as we got older, although we never dated. Only as kids which doesn't count....anyways I met someone else when I was...
    pieces22 pieces22 22-25, F 16 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 16 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 Dec 4, 2014

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    Arrghhh

    It's been 2 years since we broke up.. we did everything together.. he said he no longer loves me... it hurts...and its hurt for 2 years.. its got better to only feel worse then ever before.. i shouldnt love him .. but i cant help it.. and i miss him.. and it makes me miserable...
    popsypop popsypop 18-21 2 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 6 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I was infatuated by a guy

    that I've seen between classes. I usually don't get to know the people that I'm interested in, I always just stay with the desire to meet them until it fades away, but in this case, I did get to talk to him, to get to know him (facebook really helps to start those things). It's...
    Waveheart Waveheart 22-25, F Oct 10, 2014

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    Is There Hope?

    I told my friend I like him. Since we're both bi I thought we could try to be together but I think I ruined whatever chance (if there even was one) and our friendship as well. No matter I will still love him. Even if I shouldn't but I feel so dirty! :'( I am IN LOVE!!! I will...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 20, 2010

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    TeresaChanaki TeresaChanaki 13-15, F Feb 8

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    There's Now A Small Chance...

    My friend broke up with his boyfriend! Now maybe I can tell him how I feel without feeling dirty about it!
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 17, 2010

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    Here We Go Down This Road Again

    I shouldn't love him hell I shouldn't even like him!  The list of what I shouldn't with him could go on forever!  I shouldn't look forward to hearing from him or count down when I'm going to see him again.  I hate that he is at work right now and I...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2008

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    I have a crush on one of my friends... And I shouldn't, because it'll never work out :/ I've kissed her for dares before but she is straight and I doubt she'll ever see me as more...
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    I mean like you can't tell me she isn't hot.... But anyways she used to be a girly girl and we were best friends and then she changed but we were still friends until she dated my...
    FadingStarrr FadingStarrr 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I hate how much I like you... I know I probably shouldn't and that you don't reciprocate, but I can't help myself. Your annoyance is of great company to me.
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    So dramatic, no? And yet so cynical. Se que tu piensas en ella cuando lo lees, y mientras yo pienso en lo que senti por ti. "When you lose someone, someone you love, when they...
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    I met this guy online through someone I met on here actually. We're the same age. Anyways, we dated for 6 months until last month. It was amazing, but I screwed things up by being...
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    ok so I really need help with this. my boyfriend and I have been together about a year now and everything was perfect until a few months ago. I am a very ambitious person and I...
    Autumnrw97 Autumnrw97 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 30

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    Here's the weird thing: I thought he liked me too. Here's the other weird thing: it was like I didn't see him. I don't really know how to explain it. I was so attracted to him...
    RxpperGirl RxpperGirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Well yes, after me putting up with him all these years he decided its time to move on, i always got the sense that he didnt love me as much as i did, he said he did way too much...
    peabophile peabophile 22-25, M Mar 19

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    I thought these words for so long. Looked at myself and cursed my flaws. Wondered what it was I had done. What I could do. Like the dog that gets kicked and keeps coming back for...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 23

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    forgetting my first bf was very much painful but it took like only 2 months for me to recover but this time.. everything is so different at first i cried a lot i was feeling...
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    My parents say I don't know what love is, yet I show more affection to him than my parents show to each other. He is funny, smart, and I can be my complete self around him. I wish...
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    My best friends brother. We dated on and off 3 times and i really did love him, but i know he didnt love me. My other friend started dating him and he loved her to death, but she...
    TheRebel17 TheRebel17 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I love him for those rare occasions he has blown me off my feet for being there for me, i hate him because those occasions are so freaking rare. It has now been a couple weeks...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The first cut is the deepest. I'm so hurt by him. We met when I was 12, he was 14, up until a couple days ago, I would have called him my childhood Romeo. When we met as kids, a...
    Chrysii Chrysii 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I met him in high school and he was sweet with a good family. I made him break up with me and he moved on quickly. I felt myself go crazy and I regretted losing him and I lashed...
    ashb3r ashb3r 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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