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I Love Him Although I Shouldn't

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    Arrghhh

    It's been 2 years since we broke up.. we did everything together.. he said he no longer loves me... it hurts...and its hurt for 2 years.. its got better to only feel worse then ever before.. i shouldnt love him .. but i cant help it.. and i miss him.. and it makes me miserable...
    popsypop popsypop 18-21 2 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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    Ah .. Love unconditionally is not very hard,

    but sometimes it burns a hole inside you. Some nights all I want to do is to cry. I feel my heart and soul connected to this person and I know it is a bless and I am thankful for him in my life. I can't say I wish for more, he is not mine so I shouldn't and I actually don't...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    There's Now A Small Chance...

    My friend broke up with his boyfriend! Now maybe I can tell him how I feel without feeling dirty about it!
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 17, 2010

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    Dangerous!

    I sometimes feel like I love my best friend. I told him i have thought about it before. He said he understood and was not surprised. I love him as a brother anyway. But I suppose if it weren't for his dad we might be together. His stepmother likes me and she doesn't know I'm bi...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19, 2010

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    I was infatuated by a guy

    that I've seen between classes. I usually don't get to know the people that I'm interested in, I always just stay with the desire to meet them until it fades away, but in this case, I did get to talk to him, to get to know him (facebook really helps to start those things). It's...
    Waveheart Waveheart 22-25, F Oct 10

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 6 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 1 Response Dec 4

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    I've found myself falling

    for this guy in my nursing class. He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy... but he's engaged. And I have a boyfriend. We have so much in common and we enjoy being around each other. He's so sweet and intelligent and extremely attentive. He even notices the little things...
    Naomilove89 Naomilove89 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I am married with two children.

    I have been married for five years now. To start from the very beginning though, I was in love with a boy from grade school. He was always in the back of my mind as we got older, although we never dated. Only as kids which doesn't count....anyways I met someone else when I was...
    pieces22 pieces22 22-25, F 12 Responses Nov 17

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    Here We Go Down This Road Again

    I shouldn't love him hell I shouldn't even like him!  The list of what I shouldn't with him could go on forever!  I shouldn't look forward to hearing from him or count down when I'm going to see him again.  I hate that he is at work right now and I...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2008

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    KortneeAnne KortneeAnne 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    Time To Say Goodbye?

    Once upon a time I felt like I was his whole world, like my feelings mattered and I was loved. I believed in him and trusted him. I gave him everything I had to give. I was there when he needed me, staying up all night for days on end if he needed to talk. This was all okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 28, 2011

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 16 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 Dec 4

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    I Finally Told Him...:)

    I told my friend I like him. He said he prefers African American boys. But we're still cool! :) That's good enough for me but however this one girl we are both friends with told me she wanted to be there when I told him. She was and she made it more uncomfortable than it...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    I Know It Cannot Be Fixed.

     In high school, I met a guy, Matt, that was always there for me. We always had fun together and I was sure that he was going to be the guy that I would spend the rest of my life with. We dated for almost 3 years but the last few months were rocky. I was 19 at the time, and...
    chomikm chomikm 18-21 Oct 16, 2011

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    Is There Hope?

    I told my friend I like him. Since we're both bi I thought we could try to be together but I think I ruined whatever chance (if there even was one) and our friendship as well. No matter I will still love him. Even if I shouldn't but I feel so dirty! :'( I am IN LOVE!!! I will...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 20, 2010

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    In Over My Head

    I love my best friend and I don't know why. I'm confused as to whether it's botherly or in a gay way. I would rather have a girlfriend, but I don't know if that will change anything. I find myself OBSESSING over him! I consider him family so this makes it even more damn twisted...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2010

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    He has a history of being a heartbreaker &

    ladies man. I've been warned but now he's in his 40's & tells me he's a changed man. We've been deeply in love for over a year & he hasn't done anything wrong. Should I marry him?
    jasminebear jasminebear 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    He Might Leave...

    I am more or less in love with my best friend. Unfortunately he might be going to military school if he gets caught dipping again. I have tried to get him to stop, he wants to stop. He is the best friend I have ever made in my school career. I know it's not neccessarliy a good...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 4, 2010

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    The Fire Won't Go Out

    It's been years. He is not mine. He travels. He knows my name. He knows my laugh. We have sung and danced all night. but, We have never touched. I love him even though it would hurt others if I told him. His "girlfriend" and my admirer. Damn love...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F Oct 23, 2008

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    He Is Back

    He is back in my life again and i still love him, i have so much to work out..I know i shouldnt care about him cause he hurt me greatly but i just cant make my feelings go away..
    lovelygal lovelygal 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2008

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    I'm still interested in him - but not putting my life on hold, and not going to do anything stupid. For now, I'm letting it go - but not giving up. I have other things in my life...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 20

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    I don't know why but I feel everything will change after marriage. So when my parents talk about my marriage I just tell them I ain't never getting married
    NTsha681 NTsha681 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    And hearing his voice makes my heart skip a beat and break a little at the same time.
    Mbyh20 Mbyh20 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    I Love Him Although I Shouldn't I left my home country to work somewhere looking for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 1 Response Dec 6

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    I know I shouldn't miss him but I crave to be in his arms. I crave to feel his hands caressing my body. My lips crave to feel his. When I'm with him it's just so perfect.... But I...
    AlissiaMarie AlissiaMarie 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Is this the time when I finally understand Taylor Swift's "I knew you were trouble when you walked in"? I am really starting to like Mr. Tattoo Guy but I know, I think, maybe I...
    PieceOfSummer PieceOfSummer 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm into bands and I've been to a few gigs. some of the bands I like are smaller and less well known, so they know majority of their fans by first name basis (me being one of them...
    THEmaryam THEmaryam 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I've talked a little about how I am 21 and pregnant also married but recently I have had my mother drop my little brother off age 14 to raise him. well financially it's going to be...
    blmf1994 blmf1994 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Not really suppose to have feelings for a guy. But It's just he's cute, funny, sarcastic and when I'm around him I can't keep eye contact but I have to stop myself from looking at...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I have a crush on someone all the way across the world from me but they are so amazing. I know shouldn't have this crush but after talking to them for so long its really difficult...
    lilellie415 lilellie415 18-21, F Nov 23

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    Most people that I miss, I shouldn't. They're all doing fine, getting on with their lives, and I'm barely anything in the big scheme of their lives.
    NeonRule NeonRule 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    People shouldn't have kids if they'd b disappointed or unaccepting of their kid being LGBT. That's just stupid to say im gonna have kids and reject them if they don't turn out the...
    burnout96 burnout96 16-17, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm just so tired. I'm not looking for anything to be easy in life. I just need a break. Things bother me that really shouldn't. You know I watch people everyday treat each other...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    It totally sucks when you like someone that doesn't like you back. It is hard to deal with that kind of stuff considering that we go to school and stuff and that shouldn't be on...
    youngnfunboi youngnfunboi 13-15, M Dec 7

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    I know I love him, before I met him I did not believe in love I was a player and he was such a great guy. We started spending a lot of time together but there's a problem we live...
    PrincessMarina PrincessMarina 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    Two years ago I was introduced to a guy whose I knew before but just by sight. He is one year older than me from the same hometown as me, visiting the same Uni as me. He always...
    michaela2 michaela2 22-25 1 Response Nov 25

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    To the girl he left me for, I always wondered who you were and what you were like. I wanted to see why he chose you and not me. Secretly, I wanted you to be superficial and...
    missssyme missssyme 31-35, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    The thing is... our situation isn't good. We can't be more than friends, our situation wont let us. But we love each other, I love him, he loves me... deeply. We spend as much...
    Nyah27 Nyah27 26-30 1 Response Nov 18

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    I'm not really sure what love is, so I'll just say I've liked a guy for almost 4 years. And obviously, he doesn't know me. It wasn't love at first sight. We were in the same...
    rachelenid rachelenid 18-21, F Nov 20

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    He's my best friend and I love him to death, but he loves my girl best friend! I cut myself for him, his initial, at least 11 lines and he knows but he still loves her. She cut...
    Synthia4Ever Synthia4Ever 13-15, F Nov 21

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    “He changed me. He took everything hiding in the shadows of my consciousness and he brought it to the light. He shook me harder than I knew I could be shaken. He cracked my very...
    gravity1 gravity1 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I guess it's the fact that he's everything I need. I don't trust easy and I know I can trust him, I have told him more then my best friends and he just listens, he doesn't judge my...
    MEGH0119 MEGH0119 13-15, F Nov 30

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    I don't know about this, but maybe putting my thoughts out there will help or maybe it'll blow up in my face. A year ago, I found myself getting involved with a long term...
    sassy4u sassy4u 31-35, F a week ago

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    It's been hard today. He's been on my mind lie crazy today. I nearly relapsed by reaching out to him. It's his birthday in two days. I miss him & I flippin love him but my pride...
    kimberleyyy kimberleyyy 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    So yeah I loved someone who didn't love me, I gave him my all, I loved him at his worst and tried to be the one to show him how great he really was, i always listened, and made him...
    Lai96 Lai96 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I told him I loved him in a friendly tone and he said the same to me. Truthfully it was more than friends but I could never say it. One day I built up the courage to tell him how I...
    maureensky3 maureensky3 18-21, F Nov 27

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    He's just so perfect in every way. Whenever I'm with him he makes me feel special and I can just forget about all of the bad things and just focus on the good. We've broken up...
    Cowgirl6140 Cowgirl6140 16-17, F Dec 4

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    So I finally got up the nerve to say it, And you wanna know how he responded? Well, he said "I know" apparently I can't hide something for crap. After I asked how he knew he then...
    BriJC BriJC 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago