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I Love Him Although I Shouldn't

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    Arrghhh

    It's been 2 years since we broke up.. we did everything together.. he said he no longer loves me... it hurts...and its hurt for 2 years.. its got better to only feel worse then ever before.. i shouldnt love him .. but i cant help it.. and i miss him.. and it makes me miserable...
    popsypop popsypop 18-21 2 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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    I was infatuated by a guy

    that I've seen between classes. I usually don't get to know the people that I'm interested in, I always just stay with the desire to meet them until it fades away, but in this case, I did get to talk to him, to get to know him (facebook really helps to start those things). It's...
    Waveheart Waveheart 22-25, F Oct 10, 2014

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    He Is Back

    He is back in my life again and i still love him, i have so much to work out..I know i shouldnt care about him cause he hurt me greatly but i just cant make my feelings go away..
    lovelygal lovelygal 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2008

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    I am married with two children.

    I have been married for five years now. To start from the very beginning though, I was in love with a boy from grade school. He was always in the back of my mind as we got older, although we never dated. Only as kids which doesn't count....anyways I met someone else when I was...
    pieces22 pieces22 22-25, F 14 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    KortneeAnne KortneeAnne 26-30, F Feb 10, 2014

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    Is There Hope?

    I told my friend I like him. Since we're both bi I thought we could try to be together but I think I ruined whatever chance (if there even was one) and our friendship as well. No matter I will still love him. Even if I shouldn't but I feel so dirty! :'( I am IN LOVE!!! I will...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 20, 2010

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 16 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 Dec 4, 2014

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    He Might Leave...

    I am more or less in love with my best friend. Unfortunately he might be going to military school if he gets caught dipping again. I have tried to get him to stop, he wants to stop. He is the best friend I have ever made in my school career. I know it's not neccessarliy a good...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 4, 2010

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    Time To Say Goodbye?

    Once upon a time I felt like I was his whole world, like my feelings mattered and I was loved. I believed in him and trusted him. I gave him everything I had to give. I was there when he needed me, staying up all night for days on end if he needed to talk. This was all okay...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 28, 2011

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    I've found myself falling

    for this guy in my nursing class. He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy... but he's engaged. And I have a boyfriend. We have so much in common and we enjoy being around each other. He's so sweet and intelligent and extremely attentive. He even notices the little things...
    Naomilove89 Naomilove89 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    There's Now A Small Chance...

    My friend broke up with his boyfriend! Now maybe I can tell him how I feel without feeling dirty about it!
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M Nov 17, 2010

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    Here We Go Down This Road Again

    I shouldn't love him hell I shouldn't even like him!  The list of what I shouldn't with him could go on forever!  I shouldn't look forward to hearing from him or count down when I'm going to see him again.  I hate that he is at work right now and I...
    crazyinlove88 crazyinlove88 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 24, 2008

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    I Know It Cannot Be Fixed.

    Β In high school, I met a guy, Matt, that was always there for me. We always had fun together and I was sure that he was going to be the guy that I would spend the rest of my life with. We dated for almost 3 years but the last few months were rocky. I was 19 at the time, and...
    chomikm chomikm 18-21 Oct 16, 2011

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    Dangerous!

    I sometimes feel like I love my best friend. I told him i have thought about it before. He said he understood and was not surprised. I love him as a brother anyway. But I suppose if it weren't for his dad we might be together. His stepmother likes me and she doesn't know I'm bi...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19, 2010

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    The Fire Won't Go Out

    It's been years. He is not mine. He travels. He knows my name. He knows my laugh. We have sung and danced all night. but, We have never touched. I love him even though it would hurt others if I told him. His "girlfriend" and my admirer. Damn love...
    TheRealWoman TheRealWoman 31-35, F Oct 23, 2008

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    He has a history of being a heartbreaker &

    ladies man. I've been warned but now he's in his 40's & tells me he's a changed man. We've been deeply in love for over a year & he hasn't done anything wrong. Should I marry him?
    jasminebear jasminebear 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 11, 2014

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    I Finally Told Him...:)

    I told my friend I like him. He said he prefers African American boys. But we're still cool! :) That's good enough for me but however this one girl we are both friends with told me she wanted to be there when I told him. She was and she made it more uncomfortable than it...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    In Over My Head

    I love my best friend and I don't know why. I'm confused as to whether it's botherly or in a gay way. I would rather have a girlfriend, but I don't know if that will change anything. I find myself OBSESSING over him! I consider him family so this makes it even more damn twisted...
    Wilnara Wilnara 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 29, 2010

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking

    for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and 6 years old daughter back home.I been with my lover for almost two years we just meet once a week coz of the busy sched.He is single that time we...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    So there is this guy who is a roommate in the house I'm in. We'll call him Jordan, he's 22 and when I first met him, I thought he was dreamily handsome and exactly my ideal type of...
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    I feel like a dirt bag. I have been talking to this girl for a few months now. She is really attracted to me but has a boyfriend. She flirts alot and loves chatting with me. We get...
    Derfthequantumpotato Derfthequantumpotato 18-21, M Jan 19

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    I'm really getting interested in one of my coworkers lately. Apparently I want to tell the world about it. I think it's purely physical, so I shouldn't be able to get in too much...
    Starrkya Starrkya 18-21, F Jan 20

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    I'm not in the mood for anything. I basically feel like **** right now. But a few weeks ago when I thought about him I felt nothing and everything was fine. Now all of a sudden I...
    Lolinondoda Lolinondoda 16-17, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    It's never happened to me before, but talking to a friend here on EP has made me realise that in fact, it is happening to me. I have a crush on someone I never should have feelings...
    ForeverIsOver ForeverIsOver 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 4

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    That person was my married female cousin. :/ I know i shouldn't be in love with her but i can't help it.I just love the way she made me laugh when i was feeling down in the dump...
    Stephanieloveowl Stephanieloveowl 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I know I shouldn't for several reasons. However you can't control how you like. I really do like her though.
    Uoaman Uoaman 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    Yea I miss you but, I know I shouldn't. I know you damn well don't miss me or care that I'm breathing. So I'll continue to hold my head high and move forward. Cause there's no...
    candij1983 candij1983 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    Well attleast you think they did at first or don't know how they feel about you I was very hurt and I didn't know what to do because I was very comfortable with this person and the...
    rach232323 rach232323 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    So seeing you tonight really hurt but then I realised..I don't even need you in my life I shouldn't be sad or hurt I have an amazing boyfriend now and he is my best friend and he...
    Scarsdontfade Scarsdontfade 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 9

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    I don't know how I am going to focus on work today. I didn't want to leave my bed. All I can do is cry all day and all night. How can I go on like this. I feel like I want to leave...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    My ex is coming tonight to get the rest of his stuff. I saw him yesterday and he told me he loves me and thinks about me every night. He said I'll always have a place in his heart...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 14

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    I would have thought by now I would have gotten over him. I've been on several dates. Kissed other men. Nothing feels the same. I don't know what to do. I've tried being nice to...
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I mean his my everything I just can never see myself without him . We fight like couples he has gotten me so mad like u don't even know but that doesn't mean I will end it all...
    Iloveastronomy Iloveastronomy 18-21, F Jan 6

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    i loved a boy in our class from my whole heart.he too loved me.bt we never talked.just smiled.oneday i frowned at him.still i can't imagine why i had frowned.i liked him so much...
    jez999 jez999 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    he's hurt me so much and I just go right back to him when he wants me to cuz I love him so much I don't think he knows how much he has hurt me... I know I've hurt him but that was...
    ashleysokolik ashleysokolik 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    so well I'd just moved into a new house and my dog went missing, the neighbors had found her and he was standing outside my dog and his son who is 24. me and mum started talking...
    GeorgiaRhodes GeorgiaRhodes 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I thought I had a chance at him but today, in maths, I was sat across from him at the table and we were talking. I was smiling at him but he was only smiling back half heartedly...
    mejustbeingme123 mejustbeingme123 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    i have a brother who is 17 and one who is 2. my brother Justin(age 17) moved out when he was 16: he didnt wnat to follow any of the rules, he was mean an rude to everyone in the...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 18

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    I miss my ex girlfriend. She was my first love and we haven't spoken in over a year. I find it pretty so heartbreaking that I'm so young and already feel that she is going to be...
    smokebombtom smokebombtom 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 3

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    my boyfriend of just under a year has gone to prison and is going to be there for a long time I cant give up on him because he never gave up on my im 25 and obvs my family don't...
    lauralou89 lauralou89 22-25, F Jan 20

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    Two semesters ago, there was this boy and this girl that always shared a seat on the bus. They would share food and their drinks together every morning. I thought it was sweet...
    BITTERandNAIVE BITTERandNAIVE 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    when my dad died i thought it's the end of the word and i stopped letting people get in my life so that i won't get hurt again by watching them going away but without knowing he...
    sarra02 sarra02 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I have loved him for like 14 years. We're both single now and I'm afraid he doesn't love me back (i guess). All i did was to shut my feelings cause i don't want to ruin the...
    moonchildd moonchildd 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 4

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    I loved him with all my heart. But he just left me in the dust.
    PleaseeHelpMee PleaseeHelpMee 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I really really love him...so much, but he hurt me too much! πŸ’”πŸ˜­
    Gorgeous71 Gorgeous71 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I loved him so much more than I loved myself but it was just a joke, now his best friend is the one picking up the pieces an I have no idea how to explain my true emotions.
    losttay losttay 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    When I was in school some twenty years ago I developed deep feelings for this girl. Over time I convinced myself that this was love, even though the girl barely knew I existed...