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I Love Him But Hate Him At the Same Time

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    I Need The Strength

    My heart hurts. Why can't I just let him go and not pay attention to the "pain" he feels, not pay attention to the lies he says to me, not listen to his promises of doom in my future, why do I even consider him as a situation, why do I keep hurting myself?? Why do I continue to...
    Nychick4 Nychick4 26-30, F Dec 10, 2011

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    I love him because i want to prove something

    for my self.. I love him because i want to make sure that he loves me then I'll break his heart , at the same time I hate him because he madde me unconfidient
    Reemabdlhalm Reemabdlhalm 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26, 2014

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    He came to drop something off

    for my mom. He asked how I was doing and I lied and said I was alright. Then he apologized for slapping me and I said sorry for being rude to his 'girlfriend'... Then he left. There wasn't any "see you later" or "talk to you soon". He just left without saying ANYTHING again...
    ChildOfHarmony ChildOfHarmony 16-17, F Apr 7

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    Part of me wants to leave you alone Apart of me

    wants for you to stay home.... Apart of me says I'm living a Lie and I'm better off without you . Apart of me says to think it through. Apart of me says I'm over you . Part of me wants to leave but a part of me wants to be here here with you. And every time I think we're over...
    BeautynBrains4 BeautynBrains4 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    I love his so much that i think about him all

    the Time. But then I want to get away and scream at him for sting the way he does. But sadly I love him.
    ariboberrXO ariboberrXO 18-21, F Jan 9

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    8 months of laughter,

    flirting, friendship, craziness, confusion, and miles away from eachother. Never met. But so sure he is perfect for me. He drives me crazy. He knows how to make me laugh or fall in love. He plays hard ***. He might be a player. He might be seeing a girl. But I don't care. He is...
    Findingmylittleself Findingmylittleself 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 26, 2014

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    What Do I Do:/

    So me and my boyfriend have been together 4 years going on 5 in feb, off and on though. So long story short we run into the same problem he acts like a kid And he says he doesn't know how to grow up... All I want is for him to grow up and to love me and be there when I really...
    Bibi1307 Bibi1307 18-21 2 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    I love him because I love him.

    but I also hate him for not giving any support for our 8 months old son. He have this condition that he won't give any support as long as he don't have his son with his side.
    arianeshane arianeshane 18-21, F Aug 11, 2014

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    Yes I love him and hate him.

    It was fun hanging out and chatting with him. He lied to me a lot of times and treat me like ***** when he is in a bad mood. He said he love me but later said its only a joke. He is handsome and well dressed. I never thought someone like him would be willing to spend so much...
    YongTauFoo YongTauFoo 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    I love him for those rare occasions he has

    blown me off my feet for being there for me, i hate him because those occasions are so freaking rare. It has now been a couple weeks since i decided to stop having such high expectations from him, actually not have any expectations at all which then means that if he does...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I Love Him For Who He Is, I Ha...

    I love him for who he is, I hate him for hurting me so much.
    sondosia sondosia 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 17, 2007

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    Conflicted

    I love him. I can't deny that any more. When I am around him, it's like something truly wonderful exists; when I am away, the life is sucked out of me. I don't know what to do. At the same time, I sometimes wish never to see him again, to leave him untouched by my filthiness. I...
    Toukos Toukos 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 25, 2013

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    How can love and hate be

    so close but yet so far in definition? I would know considering i love the person i hate most. And i now realize that the only reason i hate him is because i love him so much. He was so annoying and obnoxious but thats what i loved most. I loved it when he would joke on me and...
    verox3 verox3 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 12, 2014

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    I Love Him, I Truly Do But I Also Hate Him.

    When I first met him, I had no intentions. I didn’t want to be his GF, I didn’t want to date him, I didn’t want to sleep with him, and I certainly didn’t even see myself as being anything more than an acquaintance. At first I only befriended him to prove to someone that...
    Shengi Shengi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 9, 2013

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    My best guy friend We were really close,

    I had the teenieeesstt crush on him which vanquished almost immedietly but my friend told him and after saying 'it would break my heart if we weren't friends anymore' and promising that 'we will be friends (besties) for ever until we die and then together in the afterlife' and...
    snazzygal3000 snazzygal3000 13-15, F Mar 26, 2014

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    Now we are talking again

    and it feels like nothing has changed but time itself. You say the things you know I'd like to hear. After all this time I don't know how you can still get through to me the way you do. I know this may not end well but it's the hope that keeps me coming back. I don't know what...
    VerucaRose VerucaRose 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    I met him when I was a sophomore in highschool.

    I had a loving and caring boyfriend at the time but I liked a little spice. Being young and naive I had interest in this bad boy. I had a party and he ironically showed up, the next day I received a text from him and we talked non stop. I knew he was bad, I always did. He had a...
    jcelli jcelli 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    I Hate Love...

    So i was in love with one boy, he was same adge like me and we were going to same school. I was in love with him 4 years, i didn't talk with him so much like with others in my class , so we started to talk more..he found out my number and than he messaged me and i was so happy...
    lastgirlonearth lastgirlonearth 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    I hate him when he yelling at me.

    I love him more when he smile,nice,sweet and romantic to me XD.
    pokwang1111 pokwang1111 22-25, M Jun 30, 2014

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    he is my swimming teacher (@council pool) ,

    10 years older , fit , kind and sweet . he is a really sweet guy and makes me feel good about my self . he's a great teacher I learnt loads from him . from the first day I have been attracted to him , his awkwardness , his playfulness , his kind and accepting heart and yea his...
    bananafruit bananafruit 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2014

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    I love him and he loves me too

    but I love him more. He can make me feel like I'm on top of the world or like scum he might uplift me but he also embarrasses me. I'm so confused I love him and I hate him. I just want to love myself the most but I don't I love us more.
    lostsoulxx lostsoulxx 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    You are such a wonderful

    but miserable person but I can't stop adoring you. I love you so much but then you get angry and the things you say cut deep but even when everyone is saying I should leave I can't make myself leave you I jut love you too damn much. But you have so much anger inside that...
    gypsisoul gypsisoul 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    love is such an awkward feeling,

    it's mixed with pain and pleasure it makes you smile sometimes as it makes you cry, sometimes you feel like flying and sometimes all you want to do it to end your life love is wierd!
    kinaroui kinaroui 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I don't know anymore I am not Happy I am sad he

    loves me but he is acting like a kid he is making angry sad but still I can't break up with him
    IjUstDoNtCare12 IjUstDoNtCare12 13-15, F Jan 24

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    You told me to stop talking to you

    and stay away from you and today u asked me why I did that? After yelled at me and mad at me you ask me whether I was being serious or not. You told me that you're free so you chat me? You told me that you just trying to be nice and im mad? Well, yeah im just a toy that...
    bviita bviita 18-21, F Dec 7, 2013

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    i am falling for him

    even though i knew all along that i was just being played.. FOOLISH ❤️❤️❤️💔😡
    kamialaplana kamialaplana 22-25, F Mar 23, 2014

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    He hurt me many times

    and I always care I love him I always went back to him all the time and the last time he cheated on me and he said leave me alone and left me for the girl I am honestly heartbroken but I keep having dreams about me and him and it's haunting me
    shannondemi shannondemi 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    Is It Over When It’s Over?

    Have you ever loved someone so much that you wanted to end your life after knowing your fairytale isn’t a happy ending? You tried to flip back the pages, but in the end, nothing changes. Still, you won’t give up. You try to look for a sequel. And you won’t...
    kaceirvine kaceirvine 22-25, F 13 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    Confusing

    I will never understand how I can hate somebody yet still love them-and if not love, then deeply care about. So my story starts this way. I was dating this guy on and off (more On than off) for 3 years total through High school. He would do me wrong like cheat on me on a regular...
    TJinFL TJinFL 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2007

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    Oh, Ryan

    Well, our relationship has not been an easy one. For me at least. And I have my insecurities to blame for that. And his lies. Part of me will always love him because he was my first for a lot of things and he is an amazing singer. He also made me actually feel like I mattered. I...
    alliedagony alliedagony 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2012

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    Got No Choice

    I have no choice but to love him and hate him at the same time WHY ? Beause we have a baby together and no matter what i would always love him but within saying that i hate him because he broke my heart by going their with someone who was really close to me, just so he can be...
    Desirablelady Desirablelady 22-25, F Jun 25, 2011

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    My ex bf gave up on me

    and us should I still be sad about it, my feelings were really strong but we just ended things for good
    giselleevelyn giselleevelyn 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 25, 2014

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    Me&him.(: Along With Her:/

    I Love Him, But I Also Hate Him. I Love He's Cute, I Love How He's Understanding. I Love How Me &Him Have Almost The Same Personality. He Gets Me. I Hate Him For Far More Reasons. Honestly, Only One. The Same Reason Why We Broke Up, The Same Reason We Don't Talk. Her, She. She...
    Kristi13 Kristi13 13-15, F Nov 12, 2011

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    I Hate Him For What He Did To Me, But I Still Love Him

    ever heard the song "i hate everything about you" by 3 days grace? yeah that kinda applies here. i hate him for breaking up with me, TWICE, i hate him for being a jerk to me, i hate him for dating 20 other girls right after me, i hate him for lying to me, i hate his dad for lying...
    hiddenbabe hiddenbabe 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2011

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    Its never enough for you to break my heart.

    Its never enough to destroy any sliver of self-importance I may have managed to obtain. You have to keep coming back. Every time I finally start to heal, you're always there to rip off the bandage. We're lost in a never ending cycle of pain and torture. Dont you see what we're...
    21cookielover21 21cookielover21 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    Love-hate Relationship

    Although he told me that he loved  me and lied to me about it, I still love so much, and yet I hate him for saying that in the first place. Every time I try to talk to him or text him, he just doesn't seem interested in being friends again, and he promised we would always...
    XxxFallenAngelxxX XxxFallenAngelxxX 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    I do. He made me so happy

    for a whole year. I felt motivated to do things. I was never without him. We would have such a laugh..and our relationship was almost perfect, friendships etc like that don't happen very often. But the feelings got too much, it was too overwhelming for both of us..and we in...
    rath3rnotsay rath3rnotsay 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2014

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    10 Things I Hate About You

    “I hate the way you talk to me, And the way you cut your hair, I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, And the way you read my mind, I hate you so much that it makes me sick, It even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're...
    Floydess Floydess 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2011

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    Caught My Husband Remotely Spying On Me On My Computer

    About 2 months ago I left my husband of almost 8 years and moved across town.  We agreed that we did both still love each other and would continue to be married and spend time together etc.  For almost our entire marriage I have suspected that he was snooping on my personal...
    shellhopp shellhopp 41-45 1 Response Jan 3, 2012

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    Stilling Confused

    I was with guy for 4 years, we meant when I was still in middle school and he was in high shcool. (I was 14 and he was 17). When I frist met him I had this crush he was one of those guys hot guys that the grils could fall his looks. Besides I told my slef to young I don't have a...
    Nicole Nicole 18-21, F Sep 28, 2006

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    I'm so confused, one day my husband is the

    sweetest man in the world the next he hates me and looks at every flaw. It could be a week an hour there's no telling when his mood will change. He seems so miserable. He tells me Im controlling, that he can do what he wants, that I love to complain etc.. I feel the opposite...
    Mee4 Mee4 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Too Young, Too Old. Who Cares?

    I like this guy that is cute and made me believe that he likes me, but then he gets angry and we fighted, and he says he would never like me "cause i'm too young for him."
    misspestana misspestana 13-15 1 Response Oct 17, 2012

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    Nick dropped me off at home

    and nate was there to kick him of out MY HOME! I hate nate so much for trying to control me and acting like he cares when he's the one who HURT ME! So what if I went past curfew and disobeyed my mom for ONCE!? Nate has no right to judge me! Saying BS like how Nicks a bad...
    ChildOfHarmony ChildOfHarmony 16-17, F Apr 8

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    The silence feels the room.

    . I stare at him although he pays no mind. I cant help but be pissed.... Who says that i mean really?! Its a thrill thing for me... Having sex in places i haven't. I'm staying with him this summer. His mother isnt here. It was his idea.. Lets have sex on her bed.. I was...
    LittleHandGrenade LittleHandGrenade 18-21, F Jun 30, 2014

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    My Ex-Lover - I saw my ex yesterday.

    (Can he really be that since we were never actually together; we just had sex?) His brother's graduation party was yesterday and he came home for that (he's a Freshman in College; his brother is a Senior in High School). My family went because we've been good friends with his...
    BigCityGirl16 BigCityGirl16 16-17, F 1 Response May 19, 2014

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    ugh. it make me feel sick

    whenever i have a glimpse of him in my mind...why on earth did i fell in love with a seminarian?! oh please........what should i do to move on?
    amitist amitist 18-21, F Nov 11, 2014

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