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I Love Self Destruction

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    Perhaps self destruction is the truest form of

    existence. When I self destruct, I feel shards of nirvana piercing through my skin, and for a moment, I am.
    seekingexistence seekingexistence 26-30, M Dec 9, 2013

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    if you take 400 pictures of yourself, its not a selfie as it has company, get a mirror and stop polluting the internet
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    I wish I had someone to sleep with tonight :( I hate being this lonely... So many cute cuddling pictures on the net right now, and it only makes it worse *cries self to sleep*
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    I love taking selfies I have my phone full of selfies!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜˜πŸ’‹
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