I Love Self Destruction

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    Perhaps self destruction is the truest form of

    existence. When I self destruct, I feel shards of nirvana piercing through my skin, and for a moment, I am.
    seekingexistence seekingexistence
    26-30, M
    Dec 9, 2013

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