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I Love Somebody I Shouldn't

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    Some Kind of Closure

    I've poured a lot of myself into this particular group.  Many people would think that it is counter-productive the way i write about all these intense feelings i have for him.  That i will always have for him. But it has really helped me.  It's given me a place to...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Mar 13, 2008

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    I Wish He Would Understand

    Sometimes, when i talk to him everything is great, we talk about movies, and drinking and sometimes even philosophy. These times make it worth while to continue to talk to him, at least on-line like we do.... but other times- like last night for example- he gets depressed and...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Dec 19, 2007

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    Dear Marine,

    I dreamed about you again last night.  It was chaotic, and unlike the other dreams we weren't the only 2 people in the world. There's a lot of things i wish i could say to you right now.  Like the fact that i will never stop missing my best friend.  About how...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 19, 2008

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    My Marine

    For some reason, today i just cant stop thinking about him.  especially his voice- talking to me on the phone pestering me until i laughed and I'd get that goofy *** grin on my face. Or his smell... goodness.. sometimes i could go days just wishing to smell his scent...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2007

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    Resisting Temptation

    I so badly wanted to e-mail or something today. To wish him to have a good day, and maybe even hear about some plans to see a girl or something. But i know it wouldn't have gone that way- all i would have gotten was bitterness for decisions that i wouldn't change and mistakes...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 14, 2008

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    I Had Three

    My first was someone that I lived with but couldn't be legally married to him.  He needed something more than I could give him other than sex, meals and housecleaning. My second was someone that I found who had just lost a spouse.  We became close but knew that it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 1, 2008

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    I Love Somebody I Should

    Many will disagree, but we should be together. I was criminally charged, I went to jail, I lost my job, but I found the greatest friend and love I have ever had. I plan to beat the charges because they are untrue and I am fighting for my job, but regardless we have each other...
    BittenDog BittenDog 46-50, M Dec 28, 2010

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    O My Goodness

    I went out drinking the other night with a good friend of mine.  We've been close since High school, and for a brief period of College, we were "Something more" not really friends with benefits, or dating... we were lovers, but... idk in a unique less defined sort...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2009

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    I Miss Him.

    It doesn't make me bleed when i think of him anymore,  but it aches just the same.  I can close my eyes and see all my girlhood fantasies of him,  beckoning me to come home. Frequently i think  is shouldn't have crossed that line- from best friend to lover...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses May 16, 2008

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    I Loved The Wrong Person... Few Weeks He Will Be Married Guy :)

    a year a go i v met an older guy(man) hes 34 divorced has a 12 year old child. he acts like teen irresponsible, likes young girl, alcoholic, smoker, addicted to hash ,... and yet i felt crazy in love with him. he made me feel like i was his ticket to maturity, i was the savior of...
    lebanongirl lebanongirl 22-25 6 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    Yes Indeed.

    But if I haven't already told you who it is, or you haven't already worked it out, then I'm afraid I won't be telling you about them :)
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M Nov 14, 2009

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    A Titanic Moment Over & Over Again!

    THeres this guy who attends the same gym i attend and I have noticed when im there he is always looking at me and he makes it known so that i return his gaze. He looks at me in a way as if im the only female in the gym! The way he looks at me reminds me of when Jack first set...
    Jaydedgirl Jaydedgirl 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 26, 2010

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    He's Getting Married

    I only met him a couple of weeks ago and we clicked right from the beginning. A few days later I met his fiance. I did everything I could to put him out of my mind, told myself he was unavailable. Still I fell for him. I have never felt so connected to or fallen so hard or so...
    MisadventoursOfLove MisadventoursOfLove 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2010

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    A Tricky Thing

    It's not so much that i shouldn't love him as i should be very very careful about it.  I don't want to break his heart, and i don't want to be dishonorable.  You have to understand that i love my husband and i respect him very much.  I don't even hide this from...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Sep 13, 2008

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    Why Can't I Make This Feeling Go Away?

    I'm falling for a client.  He lives in a different state, is single, and would not be slightly interested in me...even though my marriage is essentially over.  I started feeling something when I saw him in April.  We email each other several times a day...just a...
    snugglebunny156 snugglebunny156 31-35, F 3 Responses May 14, 2008

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    Dear Mv

    I'm tired of trying to figure out what the magic words are that will make you be nice to me when we do talk.  It's always a dice roll between the best friend i used to k now and t he angry bitter man you act like those other times. There's a chance I guess that you are...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Feb 4, 2009

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    Irrationaly Bound... Forever?

    I talk about my Sadist a lot i know, some good some bad.... like i don't really know how to feel about him.  The problem is I love him in away that our time apart doesn't make me ache less but more. I can forget, for minutes, hours and even days sometimes but then when i...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2010

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    No Longer...

    At least for one of my obsessions. In October of this year, a man i have loved since i was 15 years old broke the last straw. I've written about him many times, in fact i actually created this group to help my cope for the conflicting emotions i was dealing with. I cannot...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 13, 2011

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    A Titanic Moment Over And Over Again.....

    THeres this guy who attends the same gym i attend and I have noticed when im there he is always looking at me and he makes it known so that i return his gaze. He looks at me in a way as if im the only female in the gym! I have now developed a huge crush on him as he gives me...
    Jaydedgirl Jaydedgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 26, 2010

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    Obsessing

    I so don't even know what is wrong with me today.  I miss him so bad today i ache... literally it feels like he's reached into my chest and is squeezing my heart for his own entertainment. It's sad and pathetic- first of i have no right to even want him anymore.  I...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2007

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    Most people that I miss, I shouldn't. They're all doing fine, getting on with their lives, and I'm barely anything in the big scheme of their lives.
    NeonRule NeonRule 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 28

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    People shouldn't have kids if they'd b disappointed or unaccepting of their kid being LGBT. That's just stupid to say im gonna have kids and reject them if they don't turn out the...
    burnout96 burnout96 16-17, F 10 Responses a week ago

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    I'm just so tired. I'm not looking for anything to be easy in life. I just need a break. Things bother me that really shouldn't. You know I watch people everyday treat each other...
    ptsdlady ptsdlady 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    Is this the time when I finally understand Taylor Swift's "I knew you were trouble when you walked in"? I am really starting to like Mr. Tattoo Guy but I know, I think, maybe I...
    PieceOfSummer PieceOfSummer 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    The affair is over, the door has been closed. But I am still missing him. After nearly 2 years of sneaking around, lying to my family (which I will say I'm glad is over) I can't...
    yespleaseMrDarcy yespleaseMrDarcy 36-40, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Me and bf is going through a relationship for almost 5 months. I really love him and I know he really love me too. Me and him never have any fight or misunderstanding along this...
    hazyqa hazyqa 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    okay so there's this guy in my school and he's one of my 2 close friends and i like him so much. like I've never felt this way about a guy before because I've always thought I was...
    cookingaubrey cookingaubrey 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    I've found myself falling for this guy in my nursing class. He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy... but he's engaged. And I have a boyfriend. We have so much in common and we...
    Naomilove89 Naomilove89 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 1 Response Dec 4

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    I left my home country to work somewhere looking for the better opportunity.I never imagine that I can find and still feel the love to someone in somewhere else.I have husband and...
    extremelyGirl extremelyGirl 26-30 Dec 4

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    I have a crush on my neighbor Steve and I really wish I didn't! We don't really talk much in person because I'm always trying to avoid bumping into him but whenever he does see me...
    Innocentgirl333 Innocentgirl333 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    alinacc12 alinacc12 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I'm still interested in him - but not putting my life on hold, and not going to do anything stupid. For now, I'm letting it go - but not giving up. I have other things in my life...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 20

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    I miss her a lot but I feel like she doesn't care about me at all. It really sucks :/
    kinkykween kinkykween 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I really miss someone right now but I physically can't see them or talk to them right now
    AppreciateLittleThingsInLife AppreciateLittleThingsInLife 16-17, F Nov 20

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    Last weekend I was enjoying a fantastic break away with my husband, totally surprised that my feelings for him were awakened. This evening I have sent just a brief "hello" text to...
    yespleaseMrDarcy yespleaseMrDarcy 36-40, F Nov 21

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    Not really suppose to have feelings for a guy. But It's just he's cute, funny, sarcastic and when I'm around him I can't keep eye contact but I have to stop myself from looking at...
    JohnoCA JohnoCA 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 22

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    So if you have been following my story at all you know that I am kinda odd and keep getting myself into some strange circumstances. My ex husband is one of 5 children. He has 3...
    daughterofapreacherman daughterofapreacherman 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 23

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    I've liked this girl for two years and when I tried talking to her we talked for a few weeks then it just ended. This happened on two different occasions. I can't stop thinking...
    ncaes ncaes 18-21, M Nov 29

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    I've liked this girl for two years and when I tried talking to her we talked for a few weeks then it just ended. This happened on two different occasions. I can't stop thinking...
    ncaes ncaes 18-21, M Nov 29

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    I'm into bands and I've been to a few gigs. some of the bands I like are smaller and less well known, so they know majority of their fans by first name basis (me being one of them...
    THEmaryam THEmaryam 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    If I created a list of the top ten women that I actually know and have a big crushes on then the current list would have five women whose names start with K and three beginning...
    DefianceUK DefianceUK 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 30

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    He knows. Everyone at work knows. It's far from a secret. I'm married. He's a younger guy (22 to my 28). We flirt endlessly. I try to be chill around him, but I can't. We...
    TryAnStopMe TryAnStopMe 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I miss the conversations and memories we had...but the person he is now is not the same person that I knew. But then again maybe I didn't really know him.
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    she gave up on me...us...I tried and did everything I could, it didn't matter to her, 2 years later and I still can't just forget her
    Muramasa Muramasa 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    So... I have a crush on this boy at my school and I'm not single and I don't think he is either but I keep having dreams about him.
    hellokittyminecraft hellokittyminecraft 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago