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I Love Someone I Shouldn't

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    If it's meant to be, then we will not always

    please each other. People are like that. We'll get irritated, annoyed, get hurt feelings, get outright angry. But grown-up people with reasonable expectations learn to deal with those things, and continue on as good as ever. FWIW, I still love him, miss him, and want him. But...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I love one of my best friends.

    We both have loved each other for years. I don't know what to do, we have never tried dating because we both have a bad track record. I would rather never be with him than risk hurting him. The problem is that I am in a serious relationship, and I feel like I am misleading my...
    dpool92 dpool92 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 22

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    I have this ex, he has ruined my life

    but i still love him slightly, i left him nearly a year ago and went into depression, and now taking anti depressants, he just messaged me telling me that he loves me and everything and that makes feelings come back for him and it makes me so sad. He also sent a picture of a...
    korsakris korsakris 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29

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    I Should Have Walked Away... (Forbidden Is Forbidden For Good Reason)

    The moment an ounce of care seeped into our words. Those first 3 days were great. I guess that's where we planted the first of a million hooks into one another. We hardly knew each other but the chemistry exploded. That must have been the first hook... Because by our mannerisms...
    LovingLaughs94 LovingLaughs94 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 7, 2013

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    It is never wrong to love someone,

    but it's the way we love that makes it "wrong".
    OliviaOcean OliviaOcean 18-21, F Sep 8

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    He Was The One

    Everyone has that person in their past who was The One That Got Away. Mine recently reappeared in my life and I am still reeling from it. PB and I dated for 3 years off and on in the early 90's. He was charming, witty, charismatic and extremely intelligent. We had the most mind...
    VogonPoetry VogonPoetry 31-35, F 12 Responses Oct 13, 2012

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    When I come back here at night to report on

    things, I feel like a knight keeping vigil.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    Married With Crush On Coworker

    I am falling hard for a coworker but I’m married with two children. I can’t say that I love my wife and I’m not sure I did when I married her. Marrying her just felt like the comfortable thing to do. We had been together for so long, since we were teenagers. If we didn...
    serendipity1998 serendipity1998 31-35, M 8 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    This is what I would like to ask God: Why

    can't I, just ONE damn time in my life, have the man I want? Not the nice guy that I date for awhile because he's the best of a bad lot. Not the kind guy who comforts me when I'm still hurting from someone else. Not the guy who has every item on some imaginary checklist, but...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Although started as an innocent way to explore my sexuality. Has now become a very important part of my life. This man has become more than just my online lover. I adore him. I look forward to his phone calls. Texts, emails. Howeve, he chooses to reach me. I shouldn't feel this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 26 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    Yes, you see correctly.

    A song posted tonight - a song posted night before last. I had a quick message last night. (At a time when I knew not to expect any.) Nice!
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    Why Do I Love Her?

    There are so many things that aren't right with my secret obsession. My crush, the person I love so much, it kills me to be away from her. First off, it's a she, I'm a she. We're both girls. Secondly, she is my big sister. Even though I am adopted, and have no blood relation, we...
    Emolia Emolia 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    I still want him. Incredibly -

    after all this time. After he has been through a pattern of encouraging me, then disappearing, at least 3 times in the past year. After two failed attempts to meet. I still want him - but I will not let that fact ruin my life. I will not make major life decisions based on him...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I got a quick drive-by note from him today.

    Not as good as a real conversation - but better than nothing.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    We're both in sexless marriages.

    Today my H said something that really hurt me. I'm not happy. My H isn't happy. The man I want isn't happy. I bet his W isn't happy, either. How can anybody say that this is the way life is supposed to be ? I'm beginning to hope I die soon. I don't think I can stand another 4...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    We talk more often now - this warms my heart.

    Like I said before, I am discovering reserves of patience and consideration that I didn't know I was capable of. Things may not move as fast as I'd like. Worst case scenario, things might not move any further at all. That wouldn't be the end of the world - but it would be a loss...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 10

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    When he flirts with other women,

    I feel a bit jealous and hurt. So far I've always gotten beyond that. And my reaction is to flirt with some other men! But I think I'm getting more attached than I was. If only we could meet IRL and see what that's like. I think it's time. But I'd like it to be his idea. I don...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response May 14

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    Open letter to my crush First things first:

    you have kids, and I respect that. I agree with your desire to be a decent dad for them. I wouldn't have you any other way. Your basic decency and good treatment of other people in general is one of the things I love about you. So, it might be years before you're really "free...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Feb 23

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    Yes, I still do. But I meant what I said - I am

    not going to let that fact ruin my life. I'm not going to make major life decisions based on him unless I start getting a lot more back. He needs to make some effort and spend some time on me.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I'm so crazy about him it's not

    even funny. He sends me a one-line PM and I'm ecstatic. He adds a woman to his circle and I'm worried that he's losing interest in me. If only the roller coaster could stop and we could do something for real. If I could just have a fair chance.... I have a lot to offer a man...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Had a great day!!! sometimes I feel like I

    should be with the guy I just hung out with. We are so alike. But I'm in love with his best friend. :-/
    Lucietabell124 Lucietabell124 18-21, F Jul 1

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    Someone Else's Husband

     You can't always control who you fall in love with. If I could control who I fell for I would definitely not have chosen to fall in love with someone's else's husband. It just happened. He was just so easy to love. We met here on ep. We were both trapped in troubled marriages...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 6 Responses May 2, 2013

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    Harsh Realities

    There's no hiding from the truth tonigh. It's cold outside...it's rainy....loneliness my only companion....so I've plenty of time to think, to be honest about all the things I prefer to hide from or fool myself into thinking in the light of day. Solitude has a way of bringing...
    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 9, 2011

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    I was mad at him. I thought he was behaving

    like a jackass. And I spoke plainly to him. I'm not mad any more; and I'm still interested. But I'm going to call him on his bullshit. After a certain point I can't hold back.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    I have reason to believe he has a real,

    recurring problem - the way he goes trough periods of depression and seems to shrink away from life. If only I could hold him close IRL! I want to comfort him.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    There is a man with whom I became friends

    nearly a year ago. At first, he was all over me (metaphorically) - he had a pretty big crush, but I was sure it would be temporary. I figured he was out of my league - he's attractive, intelligent, funny and popular. He persisted (on and off) - and finally, I succumbed. He...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Feb 10

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    Good conversation 2 days ago.

    ..quick line yesterday...I'm happy. And since he gave me a heads-up, I know not to freak out if he can't be present much the next couple of weeks. (Smile)
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Another drive-by note - that's two days in a

    row now. It's not a real conversation - but better than nothing, I suppose. People probably think I'm crazy. But yanno - I don't care. I know I want at least a fair chance with this guy. I'm prepared to hang in there for quite a long time. BUT - I'm not letting it ruin the...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Sep 6

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    Cake Or Eat It?

    It's been weeks of no contact with my mistress and I'm hurting so bad on the inside. After having multiple affairs over the last few years, I wound up with a single woman 10yrs my junior that was everything I ever fantasies about. I never had any idea I could fall this way for...
    Surferdude7 Surferdude7 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    I'm learning that I have more patience

    than I ever would have imagined. I want to see him and touch him. I want to hear from him more often, have longer conversations. I really got spoiled a couple of weeks ago. But - I know what his life is like. It's quite full. If he doesn't have much time - that isn't because I...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    He was out of town, now he's back.

    My little bruised heart doesn't know how to feel.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    I wish I didn't love him

    but I do. He's in love with someone else but he still says he loves me. I don't really know what to do anymore. It's exhausting loving him and knowing he at least has some feelings for me but he feels guilty acting on those feelings. We also did some naughty things but he just...
    kaylaes52 kaylaes52 18-21, F Jun 25

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    I miss him so much I can't stand it.

    I love him becauseI of the way he smiles. And the way he brightens my day when he talk to me. How comfortable he makes me feel even when I'm super awkward. The way he doesn't care about what ****** up things I've done or happened to me in the past. The way he smells so freaking...
    kaylaes52 kaylaes52 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    This is what I would like to ask God: Why

    can't I, just ONE damn time in my life, have the man I want? Not the nice guy that I date for awhile because he's the best of a bad lot. Not the kind guy who comforts me when I'm still hurting from someone else. Not the guy who has every item on some imaginary checklist, but...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    And when I heard from him a few days ago,

    and we had a really good talk, I swear I could feel my heart singing. And I've been happy ever since. (G) It might not happen right away, but now I feel more like it *will* happen, someday...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    How shall I put this?

    My body has certain needs. I'm feeling very much "in need" this evening. I used a toy to take care of myself, but I still want more. There is no toy in the world as good as a real live person. Especially the one you want. I want his hands and his mouth all over me. I want to sit...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    I feel in love with one of my best friends best

    friends and my my best friend pushed me into telling him how I felt about him so I did then he told me that he likes me too and now my best friend is mad at as because we aren't ever suppose to be together because their both Jewish and I'm not and today the boy I like said he'd...
    MomijiSohma1999 MomijiSohma1999 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Talked with him briefly today -

    but not the really sexy, romantic way. I miss that. I hope we can have it again soon.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Jul 15

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    He hearted my story today.

    That makes me happy. Not as happy as a little conversation would, though. That would take, what - 10 minutes? I still want to meet him IRL....and at the same time, I'm still not putting my life on hold for him. When I was younger, I did that for a couple of men and I really...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    I miss him when I haven't heard in a while.

    I want to kiss him, be in his arms, hear his voice, inhale his scent. Why did the most attractive man on the planet have to come with this set of circumstances ? (Neither of us is free, and we live about 2.5 hours apart.) So close and yet so far. Will this ever come true?
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 2

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    He lives in my neighborhood hez internet dude

    and he has a girl friend !! :((
    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I Don't Want to Love Him Anymore

    He isn't mine, he was for such a long time and in my mind of mind's he is. I have not felt that feeling of pure happiness since we went out separate ways. I shouldn't love him because he's is someone elses. We've hurt her in the past and I would never ever want to do it again...
    lulubelle12345 lulubelle12345 21-25, F 8 Responses Feb 6, 2007

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    I just cannot believe I did this to myself.

    I am in love, absolute 100% madly in love with my boyfriends of years now. BUT recently I started a new job, and I am falling for my co-worker. It was just a little crush and whatever I would get passed it. But its becoming more than that and I can't stop it. The worst part is I...
    NaiYoMie3 NaiYoMie3 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    Once I'm free to date,

    will I? Yes. Until and unless the man I really want makes a commitment to me - I will not tie myself down or make promises. My brain says, "Date other people - keep your options open until HE commits to you." So I'll listen to my head. But I will also listen to my heart...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    Still interested....there is a door in my heart

    with his name on it, if he should choose to knock.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 11 Responses Mar 9

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    This Might Be Wrong

    When I was 10 years old I was not into having crushes and boyfriends. One day I was at the park with my family and friends having a bbq. When my mom's friend calls her son on the phone and tells him to come to the park. I was helping my friend build a paper doll house when all of...
    Kinn23 Kinn23 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2013

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    Distance And Time

    I am in love with someone I shouldn't love and have been for over 10 years. This is kind of a big deal because I am only 27.In January of 2002 I was placed in a higher math class with the idea of getting into a good college. I was a junior. There was a boy. A dark and mysterious...
    sroverturf sroverturf 26-30 1 Response May 25, 2012

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    This is the man I have a crush on - like I said,

    "love" might be putting it a bit strongly. But there's no group called "I'm Not In Love But I Could Love This Person." He finally resurfaced and we had a really good talk. No, we haven't made any plans to do anything. We talked about feelings and painful things that have...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Apr 20

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    He goes through phases - I've seen it

    before - where he doesn't talk much to *anybody*. It's like a cycle. And right now we might be in the quiet part of the cycle.I know he battles depression. I have had this problem myself. If only he felt able to let me in and be close to me at these times. I DO understand. I...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Two steps forward, one step back I'm gone

    for one friggin' day for medical reasons - and while I'm out of action, he flirts outrageously. I know I'm really not allowed to complain. I knew he was a big flirt all along. I'm not his official girlfriend, with a right to object. And, my way of handling it is to flirt...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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