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I Love Someone I Shouldn't

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    Yes, I still do. But I meant what I said - I am

    not going to let that fact ruin my life. I'm not going to make major life decisions based on him unless I start getting a lot more back. He needs to make some effort and spend some time on me.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I'm so crazy about him it's not

    even funny. He sends me a one-line PM and I'm ecstatic. He adds a woman to his circle and I'm worried that he's losing interest in me. If only the roller coaster could stop and we could do something for real. If I could just have a fair chance.... I have a lot to offer a man...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Still interested....there is a door in my heart

    with his name on it, if he should choose to knock.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 10 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Another drive-by note - that's two days in a

    row now. It's not a real conversation - but better than nothing, I suppose. People probably think I'm crazy. But yanno - I don't care. I know I want at least a fair chance with this guy. I'm prepared to hang in there for quite a long time. BUT - I'm not letting it ruin the...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Sep 6, 2014

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    It Seems Impossible..

    All of it seems unreal. He's 16. I'm 13. He lives in England. I live in Canada. Our time zones are 4 hours apart. We live 3000 miles away from each other. There is an ocean between us. I can't think of one thing to make it harder. Today, he asked me to be his girlfriend. And I...
    123IMissYou321 123IMissYou321 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 13, 2013

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    I miss him when I haven't heard in a while.

    I want to kiss him, be in his arms, hear his voice, inhale his scent. Why did the most attractive man on the planet have to come with this set of circumstances ? (Neither of us is free, and we live just far enough apart to make it a bit difficult to meet.) So close and yet...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    After moving to the U.

    S., I met a man and fell in love. I was divorced for a few years and thought I would never again be in love, but I was. We were together for more than a year, but he drank so much. When he was not drinking, he was loving and kind, such a good man. When he drank, he became...
    Shampati Shampati 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 9

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    This Might Be Wrong

    When I was 10 years old I was not into having crushes and boyfriends. One day I was at the park with my family and friends having a bbq. When my mom's friend calls her son on the phone and tells him to come to the park. I was helping my friend build a paper doll house when all of...
    Kinn23 Kinn23 18-21, F Jul 6, 2013

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    Why Do I Love Her?

    There are so many things that aren't right with my secret obsession. My crush, the person I love so much, it kills me to be away from her. First off, it's a she, I'm a she. We're both girls. Secondly, she is my big sister. Even though I am adopted, and have no blood relation, we...
    Emolia Emolia 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 15, 2012

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    I miss him so much...

    For about two and a half years I've tried so hard to keep up the charade of there being nothing there outside of me and my boyfriend of a year less than I've loved this guy. I care deeply for my boyfriend. When he and I are together I hardly think about anything other than him...
    Luca0 Luca0 18-21, T Jul 20

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    Someone Else's Husband

     You can't always control who you fall in love with. If I could control who I fell for I would definitely not have chosen to fall in love with someone's else's husband. It just happened. He was just so easy to love. We met here on ep. We were both trapped in troubled marriages...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 7 Responses May 2, 2013

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    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    amelcc11 amelcc11 26-30, F Aug 3

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    Talked with him briefly today -

    but not the really sexy, romantic way. I miss that. I hope we can have it again soon.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Jul 15, 2014

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    This is the man I have a crush on - like I said,

    "love" might be putting it a bit strongly. But there's no group called "I'm Not In Love But I Could Love This Person." He finally resurfaced and we had a really good talk. No, we haven't made any plans to do anything. We talked about feelings and painful things that have...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Apr 20, 2014

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    I have this ex, he has ruined my life

    but i still love him slightly, i left him nearly a year ago and went into depression, and now taking anti depressants, he just messaged me telling me that he loves me and everything and that makes feelings come back for him and it makes me so sad. He also sent a picture of a...
    korsakris korsakris 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 29, 2014

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    I have a boyfriend already lets just start with

    that. He is kind, caring, and would do anything in the world to make me happy. He loves me for who I am and how i look and loves all my flaws with it. He is working so that one day we can live together at some point and he has already expressed he wants to marry me and have...
    lanaB96 lanaB96 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 3

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    I miss him so much I can't stand it.

    I love him becauseI of the way he smiles. And the way he brightens my day when he talk to me. How comfortable he makes me feel even when I'm super awkward. The way he doesn't care about what ****** up things I've done or happened to me in the past. The way he smells so freaking...
    kaylaes52 kaylaes52 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    Cake Or Eat It?

    It's been weeks of no contact with my mistress and I'm hurting so bad on the inside. After having multiple affairs over the last few years, I wound up with a single woman 10yrs my junior that was everything I ever fantasies about. I never had any idea I could fall this way for...
    Surferdude7 Surferdude7 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 4, 2012

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    That says it all.....

    I'm married
    soutahguy soutahguy 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 28

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    There is a man with whom I became friends

    nearly a year ago. At first, he was all over me (metaphorically) - he had a pretty big crush, but I was sure it would be temporary. I figured he was out of my league - he's attractive, intelligent, funny and popular. He persisted (on and off) - and finally, I succumbed. He...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Feb 10, 2014

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    I was mad at him. I thought he was behaving

    like a jackass. And I spoke plainly to him. I'm not mad any more; and I'm still interested. But I'm going to call him on his bullshit. After a certain point I can't hold back.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    He Was The One

    Everyone has that person in their past who was The One That Got Away. Mine recently reappeared in my life and I am still reeling from it. PB and I dated for 3 years off and on in the early 90's. He was charming, witty, charismatic and extremely intelligent. We had the most mind...
    VogonPoetry VogonPoetry 31-35, F 10 Responses Oct 13, 2012

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    It's strange. There are far too many ways

    that we get on each other's nerves. He's crazy. I'm serious. He's worried about being "cool"....I couldn't care less. I've been pretty successful with my life goals at this point. He's still trying to find his way. (That last one gets to him more than me.) And we have tried...
    MercedesK MercedesK 22-25, F Jan 2

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    And hearing his voice makes my heart skip a beat

    and break a little at the same time.
    ch3ll3 ch3ll3 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    We're both in sexless marriages.

    Today my H said something that really hurt me. I'm not happy. My H isn't happy. The man I want isn't happy. I bet his W isn't happy, either. How can anybody say that this is the way life is supposed to be ? I'm beginning to hope I die soon. I don't think I can stand another 4...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 6, 2014

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    How shall I put this?

    My body has certain needs. I'm feeling very much "in need" this evening. I used a toy to take care of myself, but I still want more. There is no toy in the world as good as a real live person. Especially the one you want. I want his hands and his mouth all over me. I want to sit...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 3 Responses Aug 20, 2014

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    I'm learning that I have more patience

    than I ever would have imagined. I want to see him and touch him. I want to hear from him more often, have longer conversations. I really got spoiled a couple of weeks ago. But - I know what his life is like. It's quite full. If he doesn't have much time - that isn't because I...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 4, 2014

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    It is never wrong to love someone,

    but it's the way we love that makes it "wrong".
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 8, 2014

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    I'm still interested in him -

    but not putting my life on hold, and not going to do anything stupid. For now, I'm letting it go - but not giving up. I have other things in my life that deserve my attention. Like I've said before I'll even date once my marriage is finally over. But I don't think anybody...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 20, 2014

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    Yes, you see correctly.

    A song posted tonight - a song posted night before last. I had a quick message last night. (At a time when I knew not to expect any.) Nice!
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    I loved someone who didn't love me

    and they wouldn't say one way or another allowing me to hurt even more!
    steve393 steve393 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 13

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    Open letter to my crush First things first:

    you have kids, and I respect that. I agree with your desire to be a decent dad for them. I wouldn't have you any other way. Your basic decency and good treatment of other people in general is one of the things I love about you. So, it might be years before you're really "free...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F Feb 23, 2014

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    If it's meant to be, then we will not always

    please each other. People are like that. We'll get irritated, annoyed, get hurt feelings, get outright angry. But grown-up people with reasonable expectations learn to deal with those things, and continue on as good as ever. FWIW, I still love him, miss him, and want him. But...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2014

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    We talk more often now - this warms my heart.

    Like I said before, I am discovering reserves of patience and consideration that I didn't know I was capable of. Things may not move as fast as I'd like. Worst case scenario, things might not move any further at all. That wouldn't be the end of the world - but it would be a loss...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2014

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    Okay. I'm not going to let it ruin my life.

    I'm going to do what's good for me and my life - and take advantage of any good opportunities that come my way. If I find myself feeling pain around him, I will take good care of myself in healthy ways. But I still think of him whenever I feel aroused - whenever I would like...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2014

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    And when I heard from him a few days ago,

    and we had a really good talk, I swear I could feel my heart singing. And I've been happy ever since. (G) It might not happen right away, but now I feel more like it *will* happen, someday...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2014

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    He hearted my story today.

    That makes me happy. Not as happy as a little conversation would, though. That would take, what - 10 minutes? I still want to meet him IRL....and at the same time, I'm still not putting my life on hold for him. When I was younger, I did that for a couple of men and I really...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    Once I'm free to date,

    will I? Yes. Until and unless a man I really want makes a commitment to me - I will not tie myself down or make promises. My brain says, "Date other people - keep your options open until HE commits to you." So I'll listen to my head. But I will also listen to my heart. Which...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 30, 2014

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    annonymous56 annonymous56 13-15, F May 17

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    Kitten2005 Kitten2005 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    I got a quick drive-by note from him today.

    Not as good as a real conversation - but better than nothing.
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 4, 2014

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    This is what I would like to ask God: Why

    can't I, just ONE damn time in my life, have the man I want? Not the nice guy that I date for awhile because he's the best of a bad lot. Not the kind guy who comforts me when I'm still hurting from someone else. Not the guy who has every item on some imaginary checklist, but...
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 5, 2014

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    Good conversation 2 days ago.

    ..quick line yesterday...I'm happy. And since he gave me a heads-up, I know not to freak out if he can't be present much the next couple of weeks. (Smile)
    TheTruthIfItKillsMe TheTruthIfItKillsMe 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    Married With Crush On Coworker

    I am falling hard for a coworker but I’m married with two children. I can’t say that I love my wife and I’m not sure I did when I married her. Marrying her just felt like the comfortable thing to do. We had been together for so long, since we were teenagers. If we didn...
    serendipity1998 serendipity1998 31-35, M 7 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    Although started as an innocent way to explore my sexuality. Has now become a very important part of my life. This man has become more than just my online lover. I adore him. I look forward to his phone calls. Texts, emails. Howeve, he chooses to reach me. I shouldn't feel this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 21 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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