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I Love to Cut Myself

For Those who Self-Injure; What makes you SI? Do you want to stop? Tell us... This group ask to please do not pass judgement on our members... Write about whatever!!!! 95 People

    I Miss It!

    I haven't cut myself in years... But right now I want it so bad. I know it's wrong because my parents and multiple therapists that I've gone to told me so. I just feel so horrible right now and it's like cutting, or slicing as I call it, is the only thing that can make me feel...
    DressageDancer DressageDancer
    22-25, F
    May 2, 2013

    The hurt came back and the scars were faded,

    so I made a few more. But the razors dull and I'm going crazy. They look like scratches and aren't taking the pain away. I want and need to cut right now but my unused razors are at home. I don't think I can wait until tomorrow...
    stormlover16 stormlover16
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2014

    Watching Myself Bleed

    It first started with me when I was 17 and I was in a really crap place in my life and I found an old rusty stanley blade in my jewellwey box and just started scratching at my wrist over and over again till it bled. I then felt immediately relieved (as it had stopped me crying, I...
    MissMidnight MissMidnight
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2008

    War Within

    I used to cut at least 4 times a week, for MANY years.  I still get the urge a couple times a week, but I've learned to look for other outlets.  I would be lying if I said anything else I've tried gives me the same satisfaction and release as feeling the blade...
    FabulousGrrl FabulousGrrl
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Nov 11, 2008


    Well, Its complicated, but i love cutting myself. I love the feeling were all my depression and anxiety can go away when i cut/burn myself. My grandparents and my mom  don't believe in medication or getting a therapist. they know i cut myself, and they honesly don't care.  They...
    ThisPsychoBitch ThisPsychoBitch
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 2, 2012


    DLD... That's what is currently cut into my left wrist... That and the word HATE.I hate myself. I hate the way I look, the way I speak, my thoughts, my personality... everything about myself I hate. I suppose this is the main reason why I cut... though sometimes I just do it...
    Bipolar101 Bipolar101
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2011

    Cutting Myself

    I sit in my room all the time just cutting myself and burning my wrist. When the blood runs down my arms and reaches my hands it feels the best. Sometimes the blood falls all over the floor but I just let it. I love to sit with people and bleed all over there cuts and let them...
    BeastWithFire BeastWithFire
    18-21, M
    Dec 10, 2009

    I Can'T Stop....But Im Not Sure I Want To Stop...

    I love cutting. I love the burn on my wrists. I love the scars it leaves. I know it sounds crazy but I can't help it. Everyone tells me to stop and before, I'd try to stop but now? I really don't want to... I've actually embraced it. It's not like I cut deep to where I need...
    KimmyLuvsYuh KimmyLuvsYuh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2013

    The Good Ol' Days

    I myself haven't seriously SI'ed like I use to in almost 3 year.I have a few flare ups but not like the old days. I started in 6th grade and now I'm in my junior year in collage. I use to realy go at it. I'm talking paragraghs etched into my arm,but as people noticed I had to...
    psyco2babble psyco2babble
    18-21, F
    Sep 4, 2012

    Pain Never Felt So Good

    Cutting is nothing new to me. I began cutting when I was 13, I am now 19 going on 20. The first time I cut myself was when I lost many friends when I came out as gay. I stopped for a few years but I started again. I restarted when I was 16 and was in a relationship with a very...
    mattieboy92 mattieboy92
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 12, 2011

    It's A High...

     I can't stop. It's an addiction, and I can't believe I let it get this far. I love the sight of blood, dripping off my arms, deep gashes, and even the purple after scars. They each tell a story. I know that if I leave any kind of distraction, I will immediately start...
    justthatgirl justthatgirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 2, 2009

    I Love Cutting

    I remember when I was little I always threw myself on the ground and held my breath until I passed out. I would hit myself and give myself black eyes bruises and even broke a few bones. I began cutting when I was about 11 and have been hooked ever since. I cut myself several...
    Secretsx3 Secretsx3
    22-25, F
    Jan 6, 2012

    I Think Im Addicted..

    i think i am addicted to cutting myself. but that's not all im addicted to, i am addicted to popping prescription pills or common pain killers, snorting crushed pills, burning myself, brousing myself, and even putting a belt around my neck for 5-35 minutes. but i think the...
    X585X X585X
    13-15, F
    2 Responses May 13, 2012

    Its A Secret.

    She loves the sight of blood. She loves to push the limit of skin. She loves for the flow to flood. She loves that no one knows her sin. A secret well kept and hidden from people she does not know, hidden from people she loves and a secret that will never be told. Of course...
    happyhyperhell happyhyperhell
    Aug 14, 2010

    Am I Crazy?

    Ever since i was 12, i already had thoughts of suicide. I would sit to myself and think of ways to end my life by any means possible... I wanted an escape.... and escape from this hell hole i call home.. years past and i seem to have better control over this suicidal rage... and...
    masiemai masiemai
    1 Response Jan 20, 2013

    I don't like to cut with a razor

    because the lines are too even and heal nicely. I like scissors…they leave thick raised scars and hurt worse when doing it.
    stormlover16 stormlover16
    18-21, F
    Apr 7, 2014

    CUT Cut Cut

    I like to cut myself because ever sense my uncle died i had no sense in living anymore even if he was alive i will still be cutting. cutting makes me feel good. do u have anthing to say?
    emobabe3000 emobabe3000
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2008


    It all started when my Uncle died. I was about 15 when he died. Since then Ive always thought my life was completely over and now when i want to feel something i CUT. some people think its wierd because i cut to feel something and thats why im always made fun of ALWAYS
    emobabe3000 emobabe3000
    16-17, F
    Aug 9, 2008

    I Saw Red -sublime-

    I am a 25 yr. old mother of one, and i like to cut myself. I havent done it in a while, but i wAnt to do it right now thats why im here ( i actually googled  "i love to cut myself" and i was brought here). i do it for more than one reason, i do it when im sad, when im bored...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Sep 2, 2010

    but I don't anymore :( haven't

    for a very long time...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 19

    It's Tough....

     It's easy to create  group about SI but it's a whole different thing to open up about it, especially here because it used to be a place where i'd open up in the beinning about anything but i have found a few trolls... Anyways, I started SI since i was between 9 or 11...
    andreinac13 andreinac13
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 5, 2008

    What's The Problem?

    I like to cut myself. I like the sight of blood. I like to hurt others too with their approval most times. My fascination is not to actually "hurt" myself or for attention. I just like the way it feels and I think bright red blood on clean olive or white skin looks like...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    Here For You

    Hi im 14 and i have been cutting myself for 3 years. Im not proud of it but fairly ashamed. I havent cut myself in 40 days and im still batteling my inner demons but i am getting there. I also have borderline personality disorder, i find it hard to cope on a day to day basis. I...
    Firellamagirl Firellamagirl
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2013

    Can't Hide It Anymore

    Sounds crazy that i would even think of doing that,90 days out i was just another person,about 90 days ago i got a blood clot in my leg and was in the hosp.for a bit then 2 stay in the sike ward after hearing that the doctor said that i should have die also 5 blood clots in my...
    HH60M HH60M
    41-45, M
    Sep 2, 2012


    I haven`t done it in a while, but I`m starting to think, maybe I enjoy the pain. I`m not absolutely sure as everyone has always said it`s a bad thing but maybe it`s just a fetish or something. I dunno I love the feeling of the blood I love watching it, I`ll even pick scabs off...
    noantidote1 noantidote1
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 19, 2013

    Idk Why?

    I attempted to cut myself for the first time when I was 12, but I actually got the nerve up to do it a few months ago, I stopped and did it again twice this week...the weird thing is....I don't want to stop? It doesn't feel good, it hurts, but I don't care. I still want to do it...
    ThisIsmySN ThisIsmySN
    18-21, F
    Feb 7, 2013

    Please Help Researchers Understand Self-harm

    Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)! Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! Participating in...
    PERL2009 PERL2009
    1 Response Feb 4, 2010

    I Don't Know...

    I never cut... i never dreamed of it  but one day in my early teans..... Christ the release the power and the shame :( i didn't know and still don't.......but sometimes the RELEASE!!!!i did it 4 pure sensation, meaning pleasure and pain!!! i have no idea why or why in...
    Ruthie07 Ruthie07
    May 21, 2012

    My Story

    I started cutting in 5th grade when i was 10, well, it wasn't really cutting. I would bite my forearm and it would leave a mark for a few months, one bit mark stayed visible for a year, and i can still see where one of my caynine teeth went in, but its pretty hard to see. I would...
    someonesome1 someonesome1
    16-17, F
    Oct 7, 2013


    I love it. I need it. It makes me feel. My hands are usually that cuttes i really dont hve any free place left, every single mm marked with my pain.  When i started i promsied myself that only place i cut is my arms and now.. i want more, more more more. I would love to cut...
    LiisiP LiisiP
    Jul 9, 2010

    I Saw Red, One More Cut And I'll Be Dead.

    The first time I cut myself was when I was nine when my parents got a divorce. After that my mother married a very abusive man who I got to see beat her alot. I started cutting again at 14-16 and did it VERY often. My mom sent me to a psych ward about two times then. I stopped...
    Isawred Isawred
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2011

    Just Stop

    I was in french class the other day learning about reflexive verbs. One was to get hurt/to hurt ones self. Some popular girls in the back started teasing and saying ,ean things about cutting. Like lol I'm gonna go slit my wrists and ****. I cut a lot and for different reasons but...
    stormlover16 stormlover16
    18-21, F
    Feb 23, 2013

    My Backround.

    i cut myself. i like it. i love to see the blood everytime i talk about it i want to do it. like right now. no one is home so its a pretty good time. i do in my room by my self. my mom dose not know. some friends and a therapist know. i love it i want to do it more and more. i...
    cutter99 cutter99
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2013

    Let It Go

    I was with some friends partying and the one boy started yelling and judging me about when I was in trouble with with older men. He was acting like he knew what went thro, and still am because of it. The friends that were with me now joke about how I reacted and about what...
    stormlover16 stormlover16
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2013

    Not Hating It

    So I kinda feel bad almost. Everyone says its such a bad thing for cutting. The only regret i Have is because of social norms. Its almost like artwork. I wish i could cut my under arms and my wrist more if i didn't have to deal my parents and other issues. its beautiful. I do...
    acrazysmile acrazysmile
    Nov 19, 2012

    I'm Addicted To Cutting Myself

    I like to cut myself, stratch that I love doing it! I'm hooked. I want to STOP for good. I started about 4 or 5 months ago. Not that long, I know, but I CAN'T STOP! I love the release it gives me! That's only temporary though, so I cut again and again. Especially if I'm angry or...
    cutmedown cutmedown
    1 Response Mar 11, 2012

    The seamripper my mistress my tormentOn a bad

    day she comforts me like an old lover coming back after a bad breakup long ago. She knows me and I know her. She hurts me and I love her, need her, want her and one day she may kill me.She has one leg shorter than the other buy I love her just the same, so enticing, so ready, so...
    badideabear badideabear
    70+, M
    1 Response Dec 13, 2014

    Am I Crazy?

    Ever since i was 12, i already had thoughts of suicide. I would sit to myself and think of ways to end my life by any means possible... I wanted an escape.... and escape from this hell hole i call home.. years past and i seem to have better control over this suicidal rage... and...
    Jan 20, 2013

    What's Better Than Cutting?

    I absolutly LOVE cutting myself. It's always such a relief to me after I do it. I love seeing the blood coming out of my skin. It's almost like a high to me. I've been cutting myself for 6 years now and I can't imagine stopping. I've read stories about people trying to quit, but...
    silverthorn101 silverthorn101
    Oct 23, 2012

    I've recently started cutting again,

    and I don't know if I'm the only one who feels this way, I do not hate myself, I want to better myself, I want to love myself. However, I feel terribly lonely, and afraid of making a fool of myself if I choose to express my emotions to those I care about, so I cut instead. Why...
    vanah vanah
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2015

    I Am In Love With Cutting Myself

    I must start by saying that I have Bipolar, and I am a 34 year old male. I was a puncher and head banger for most of my life, but then I discovered the joys of cutting. I am completely addicted to it. I carry a folding utility knife with me at all times and am uncomfortable...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Sep 7, 2012

    Story Of My Life </3

    CECI91 CECI91
    May 21, 2012

    It makes me feel less crazy knowing

    that other people struggle with this in the way I do. On paper i don't have much to be sad about, pretty standard cookie cutter life but I've been staring at my forearms for the past hour thinking about how pretty they would look covered with deep, bloody cuts. I love everything...
    Napqueen Napqueen
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 20, 2015

    Surprisingly, It Didn't Hurt.

    I cut my thigh. I was upset & had a little fiesta with my blade. It didn't hurt until two days later, but by then it was just sore and healing. I've never cut that much before. I liked it.
    Flutterbai Flutterbai
    18-21, F
    Aug 23, 2012

    I Like To Use Scissors

    Ok dont get me wrong im not suicidal nor do i like knives. But i use scisdors. I like seeing scars on my body. I will turn up certain songs and just start going at it but the scars last maybe a day or two. I am only 20 and yet i have depression. Although scissors calms me down...
    Alielove1 Alielove1
    Mar 24, 2013

    I Don't Want To Stop

    I love cutting myself. I love the feeling of a sharp blade slicing through the flesh of my pale arm and watching the crimson red blood rise to the surface in little bubbles and slowly fall. I started around 4 years ago but stopped for 2 years as my previous boyfriend felt it...
    tiffanyxsparkles tiffanyxsparkles
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2012

    Its not crazy, I've been the same way

    since i was 11. I love it too! I've never been a fan of burning though, i like the blood. I also pick at my skin a lot and create open wounds on my arms and hands. I cut my legs, hips, arms. Everything! I also have bulimia & anorexia. I've recently gone from 156 to 117 in three...
    3amsuicide 3amsuicide
    Dec 4, 2013

    I Saw Red, One More Cut And I'll Be Dead.

    The first time I cut myself was when I was nine when my parents got a divorce. After that my mother married a very abusive man who I got to see beat her alot. I started cutting again at 14-16 and did it VERY often. My mom sent me to a psych ward about two times then. I stopped...
    Isawred Isawred
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2011

    Wow It's Been 10 Years

    Wow, I'm 24 now. I started cutting when I was 14. In high school, I didn't know how to deal then a friend showed me her scars and told me she kinda felt better afterwards. Now that I'm 24 I look down at my arm - sometimes in shame, sometimes in reminiscence and sometimes in...
    ALM250 ALM250
    26-30, F
    Sep 2, 2013
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