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I M Never Anyones Number 1

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 520 People

    Too True

    But that's okay, I don't need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2011

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    3 Guys, Always Second

    So I have been in 3 serious relationships in my life. And when I first start dating these guys they are crazy about me. But then after that it all goes downhill. I have been left 3 times for ex girlfriends. I wish I knew what I was doing wrong
    ked14797 ked14797 22-25, F Apr 5, 2012

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    I Feel Too Much...

    I want to be the last person he see's and thinks about before we go to bed and I want to be the first person he thinks about when he wakes up. I want him to be thoughtful and buy me little things just because he was thinking of me at the time. I want to know that when we are not...
    PrincessLulu PrincessLulu 26-30, F Jun 15, 2010

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    I Am The Last Resort

    Everyone always has someone else they would rather be with at any given time.  I can tell because they are usually being rude and texting someone or thinking about abandoning me.  They always abandon me for someone else.  Apparently I do not matter to...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F Mar 29, 2010

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    No Matter What I Do....

    I am never anyones top priority it seems. Even when I had friends, I always used to feel that I was just there and not really a proper close friend. Almost like if someone better came along then I could be easily replaced and would be kind of thing. Turns out I was right on that...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2011

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    Not Even In The Top 10

      I try to put everyone I love before myself, so I can even say I don't put myself as number one. It's hard for me to give myself that kind of permission. I realized that I had to though, about 6 months ago when I started to have a small breakdown. I didn't tell anyone, I...
    Simplyliving Simplyliving 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

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    Aw Crap

    I'm never a number one..sometimes a number2.  ( ick)   Then I drop down to no number available, at this time..  I'm still alive & it means something.  Everyone must have a bit of hope & personal value.   Oh wait..I'm number one to my...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 5 Responses Mar 27, 2010

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    Number One

    I'm never anyone number 1 and I don't really care.  This isn't important to me, what is, is that I'm important and number 1 for my hubby which I am.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 2 Responses May 15, 2011

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    :(

    I don't want to be everyone's number one but i do want to be his.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 3 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Sigh

    Married over 12 years; his job, our kids, his mother.....I feel like I don't even rank in the top 10
    Lily01 Lily01 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

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    I So Wish I Was A Girlfriends No 1

    I hate being alone. I hate being single, although it is nice sometimes. I'll go to bed tonight alone, with no one but my pillow. I want to be on a girl's thoughts...and not just in a teasing, flirting way, but in a serious way, loving, romantic way. Sigh :(
    Stahl Stahl 31-35, M 4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Number 49 Is More Like It

    After reading a bunch of the stories here, I suppose I have a similar tale to tell. I'm a smart woman. I'm educated and I feel I have a pretty good head on my shoulders. I understand people. I, get how people think and how certain people will react. Due to those skills I somehow...
    Miyo Miyo 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2011

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    I Hate It When It's Not Me

    wanna know my story? here it is. I love him and he loves me.. The problem? he got a girlfriend. they've been together for 2 years already... Let me clarify how he "loves" me.. He told me he love me, but not how he loves his girlfriend...Always the second never the first..
    Amongstars Amongstars 13-15 1 Response Mar 17, 2011

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    I've Been A Number 2

    I was someone's number 2 and for a while I thought I was going to be upgraded to number 1 because I am this amazing and wonderful guy *rolls eyes* but when her boyfriend starting acting better I didn't. Even when she split from him I never became number 1.
    shadow1013 shadow1013 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2010

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    Omg

    oh my god it sucks being single and alone i was sooo tired of puting soo much care and time in a relationship that it eould end so horribly by sum1 that i thought actuly cared to the piont i just never loved and its bin like 3 years sens and its just bin horrible and just soo...
    khalaggarr khalaggarr 18-21, M Jan 28, 2012

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    Never Have, And Never Will Be...

    I have never been someone's 1st choice, and I don't think I ever will be, I just come around, when someone is bored with someone esle, and they want something interesting for a while, and than when someone else comes around, i'm tosses away again, without even a second...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    "supplanter"

    To the innocent 15 year old me, you meant everything.To you, who claimed to love me. I became a simple object.You used me to fill your heart and then tossed me aside.Without caring for my feelings at all.I accepted without a thought.I believed you were never in the wrong.And...
    SeaOfSecrets SeaOfSecrets 18-21, F Aug 31, 2011

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    Ya They All Thought That I'm No.1 In Each Of Their Life, I Believed Too...

    U know if u know culture of one, then u can predict his/her perception. I'm lower class Bengali in India. I loved 3 girls & proposed by another 2 girls till date. Each 3 times my dream had broken. I do know my fault was there, so ... Hard was time when our 9 years of relationship...
    LifeisRisk LifeisRisk 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 13, 2011

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    I Am Seen As The Last On The List The Boring Old Spud

    I hate being the last on the list and men who make out they care and then dump you for better. I don't know how to improve myself other than to continue education and relax time to import my body mind and spirit I think men who play the field and cheat are not good fathers or...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

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    Who needs to be #1 when you could be # 560,

    843,001 on everybody's list!!!! Don't you just love people. * note sarcasm
    OnlyOneNotTaken OnlyOneNotTaken 16-17, F May 7, 2014

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    People All Around And Still Alone

    I have always been the one to take care of things for everyone.Im tired and want someone to want me for a change.everyone seems to be all about them, i guess i will never be anyones number one either. Sucks huh!!!
    mullinsdo1 mullinsdo1 36-40, M Oct 12, 2011

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    Just Once....

    I'd Love to be someone's number one....someone's most important thing in their life, Just once....I don;'t believe that is a Lot to ask for....
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Honestly glad this has never happened to me. I look at love differently like this.. if you are the only one that feels that way, I can't say that would be considered love. Just...
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    An old friend of mine and I were very close.. Very close. And her mother was very nice to me.. I miss the both of them terribly.. I wish her mom was my mom and that I lived with...
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    People think differently. They have different opinions, and whenever some of them blatantly state what they truly think, another person might get offended by it. It's the fault of...
    ArtInsanity ArtInsanity 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I see high school girls going out with guys in college and ask them(not to judge) why they're in a relationship with some guy in their twenties when there are people their age that...
    MarimbaJake MarimbaJake 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I'm talkin about this site only or any site in general. I'm here to chat with people and if I click with someone or if someone needs to speak with me as a depressive emergency then...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F Apr 12

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    Here you need to change the level depending on what gives you more coins. When making the changes you need to consider a number buy fifa 15 ios coins of factors such as the...
    fastfifa15coins fastfifa15coins 22-25, F Mar 26

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    I would love to join your number of crossdressers
    eile eile 61-65, M Mar 28

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    Age really is a number i find the most important quality about someone is their personality that is the real deal breaker for me.
    inloveandeath inloveandeath 22-25, F 8 Responses Mar 30

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    Age really is just a number. i know 9 year olds that are more respectful and mature than most people over legal boundaries.
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F Mar 30

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    I am 20 years old, my man is 38. I get on with him better than with most of the people who are my age. He is my best friend, helps me and teaches me many things so I sometimes feel...
    fosterpaste fosterpaste 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 31

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    I used to work over night in an internet security job. Sometimes my work made me feel like a spy, so I started to listen to numbers stations to entertain myself. They are actually...
    lotusdrum lotusdrum 36-40, F Mar 31

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    It's nice to hear the numbers are growing but I think they always been there but we are more comfortable talking about it.
    Lonely47 Lonely47 66-70, T 4 Responses Apr 1

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    It is only a number and while I know old souls exist in my own age group I have yet to find any. I have only dated two people my own age and they have far been the worst of my...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Give up? Heh. There's no reason for me to give up. If I'm ever truly trapped and start to lose hope, I could start over. I could move tomorrow, completely disconnect from my old...
    Unbeholden Unbeholden 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    It does not stop, it bombards me constantly, it increases in number each day........
    Myabass Myabass 26-30 Apr 6

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    A big, big number age is today.
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M Apr 9

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    I never knew you personally but you were an inspiration to me and so many others. Goodbye and Rest in Peace Lauren.
    Ivygirl96 Ivygirl96 18-21, F Apr 10

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    I wanna money im young boy my age 23 and handsome boy higth 5 fut 10 ench body fit hair coler black face tone white only girl call me any time enjoyment sex any call me now my...
    kamaljitkumar kamaljitkumar 18-21 Apr 12

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    We all have this ideal person in our heads. This ideal person is someone everyone hopes to one day be with or yet alone even meet the person. For me, I met this person at a large...
    cabucabu001 cabucabu001 18-21, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I will never take it back I will never wish we had not met I will never choose to miss the chance To be caught inside your net I will never want to skip this I will not even lose...
    BexAddiction BexAddiction 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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