I M Never Anyones Number 1

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    I Am Seen As The Last On The List The Boring Old Spud

    I hate being the last on the list and men who make out they care and then dump you for better. I don't know how to improve myself other than to continue education and relax time to import my body mind and spirit I think men who play the field and cheat are not good fathers or...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2011

    I So Wish I Was A Girlfriends No 1

    I hate being alone. I hate being single, although it is nice sometimes. I'll go to bed tonight alone, with no one but my pillow. I want to be on a girl's thoughts...and not just in a teasing, flirting way, but in a serious way, loving, romantic way. Sigh :(
    Stahl Stahl
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Who needs to be #1 when you could be # 560,

    843,001 on everybody's list!!!! Don't you just love people. * note sarcasm
    OnlyOneNotTaken OnlyOneNotTaken
    18-21, F
    May 7, 2014

    Omg

    oh my god it sucks being single and alone i was sooo tired of puting soo much care and time in a relationship that it eould end so horribly by sum1 that i thought actuly cared to the piont i just never loved and its bin like 3 years sens and its just bin horrible and just soo...
    khalaggarr khalaggarr
    18-21, M
    Jan 28, 2012

    Number 49 Is More Like It

    After reading a bunch of the stories here, I suppose I have a similar tale to tell. I'm a smart woman. I'm educated and I feel I have a pretty good head on my shoulders. I understand people. I, get how people think and how certain people will react. Due to those skills I somehow...
    Miyo Miyo
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2011

    Never Have, And Never Will Be...

    I have never been someone's 1st choice, and I don't think I ever will be, I just come around, when someone is bored with someone esle, and they want something interesting for a while, and than when someone else comes around, i'm tosses away again, without even a second...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 14, 2010

    3 Guys, Always Second

    So I have been in 3 serious relationships in my life. And when I first start dating these guys they are crazy about me. But then after that it all goes downhill. I have been left 3 times for ex girlfriends. I wish I knew what I was doing wrong
    ked14797 ked14797
    22-25, F
    Apr 5, 2012

    :(

    I don't want to be everyone's number one but i do want to be his.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    "supplanter"

    To the innocent 15 year old me, you meant everything.To you, who claimed to love me. I became a simple object.You used me to fill your heart and then tossed me aside.Without caring for my feelings at all.I accepted without a thought.I believed you were never in the wrong.And...
    SeaOfSecrets SeaOfSecrets
    18-21, F
    Aug 31, 2011

    Ya They All Thought That I'm No.1 In Each Of Their Life, I Believed Too...

    U know if u know culture of one, then u can predict his/her perception. I'm lower class Bengali in India. I loved 3 girls & proposed by another 2 girls till date. Each 3 times my dream had broken. I do know my fault was there, so ... Hard was time when our 9 years of relationship...
    LifeisRisk LifeisRisk
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 13, 2011

    Sigh

    Married over 12 years; his job, our kids, his mother.....I feel like I don't even rank in the top 10
    Lily01 Lily01
    41-45, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2012

    No Matter What I Do....

    I am never anyones top priority it seems. Even when I had friends, I always used to feel that I was just there and not really a proper close friend. Almost like if someone better came along then I could be easily replaced and would be kind of thing. Turns out I was right on that...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 7, 2011

    Too True

    But that's okay, I don't need to be.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2011

    I've Been A Number 2

    I was someone's number 2 and for a while I thought I was going to be upgraded to number 1 because I am this amazing and wonderful guy *rolls eyes* but when her boyfriend starting acting better I didn't. Even when she split from him I never became number 1.
    shadow1013 shadow1013
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Nov 22, 2010

    Just Once....

    I'd Love to be someone's number one....someone's most important thing in their life, Just once....I don;'t believe that is a Lot to ask for....
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Not Even In The Top 10

      I try to put everyone I love before myself, so I can even say I don't put myself as number one. It's hard for me to give myself that kind of permission. I realized that I had to though, about 6 months ago when I started to have a small breakdown. I didn't tell anyone, I...
    Simplyliving Simplyliving
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 28, 2010

    I Feel Too Much...

    I want to be the last person he see's and thinks about before we go to bed and I want to be the first person he thinks about when he wakes up. I want him to be thoughtful and buy me little things just because he was thinking of me at the time. I want to know that when we are not...
    PrincessLulu PrincessLulu
    26-30, F
    Jun 15, 2010

    I Am The Last Resort

    Everyone always has someone else they would rather be with at any given time.  I can tell because they are usually being rude and texting someone or thinking about abandoning me.  They always abandon me for someone else.  Apparently I do not matter to...
    BBUDS BBUDS
    18-21, F
    Mar 29, 2010

    I Hate It When It's Not Me

    wanna know my story? here it is. I love him and he loves me.. The problem? he got a girlfriend. they've been together for 2 years already... Let me clarify how he "loves" me.. He told me he love me, but not how he loves his girlfriend...Always the second never the first..
    Amongstars Amongstars
    13-15
    1 Response Mar 17, 2011

    Aw Crap

    I'm never a number one..sometimes a number2.  ( ick)   Then I drop down to no number available, at this time..  I'm still alive & it means something.  Everyone must have a bit of hope & personal value.   Oh wait..I'm number one to my...
    wiseowl wiseowl
    61-65, F
    5 Responses Mar 27, 2010

    People All Around And Still Alone

    I have always been the one to take care of things for everyone.Im tired and want someone to want me for a change.everyone seems to be all about them, i guess i will never be anyones number one either. Sucks huh!!!
    mullinsdo1 mullinsdo1
    36-40, M
    Oct 12, 2011

    Number One

    I'm never anyone number 1 and I don't really care.  This isn't important to me, what is, is that I'm important and number 1 for my hubby which I am.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2011

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