Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I M Never Anyones Number 1

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 520 People

    Aw Crap

    I'm never a number one..sometimes a number2.  ( ick)   Then I drop down to no number available, at this time..  I'm still alive & it means something.  Everyone must have a bit of hope & personal value.   Oh wait..I'm number one to my...
    wiseowl wiseowl 61-65, F 5 Responses Mar 27, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Never Have, And Never Will Be...

    I have never been someone's 1st choice, and I don't think I ever will be, I just come around, when someone is bored with someone esle, and they want something interesting for a while, and than when someone else comes around, i'm tosses away again, without even a second...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 14, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    "supplanter"

    To the innocent 15 year old me, you meant everything.To you, who claimed to love me. I became a simple object.You used me to fill your heart and then tossed me aside.Without caring for my feelings at all.I accepted without a thought.I believed you were never in the wrong.And...
    SeaOfSecrets SeaOfSecrets 18-21, F Aug 31, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    People All Around And Still Alone

    I have always been the one to take care of things for everyone.Im tired and want someone to want me for a change.everyone seems to be all about them, i guess i will never be anyones number one either. Sucks huh!!!
    mullinsdo1 mullinsdo1 36-40, M Oct 12, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Omg

    oh my god it sucks being single and alone i was sooo tired of puting soo much care and time in a relationship that it eould end so horribly by sum1 that i thought actuly cared to the piont i just never loved and its bin like 3 years sens and its just bin horrible and just soo...
    khalaggarr khalaggarr 18-21, M Jan 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ya They All Thought That I'm No.1 In Each Of Their Life, I Believed Too...

    U know if u know culture of one, then u can predict his/her perception. I'm lower class Bengali in India. I loved 3 girls & proposed by another 2 girls till date. Each 3 times my dream had broken. I do know my fault was there, so ... Hard was time when our 9 years of relationship...
    LifeisRisk LifeisRisk 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 13, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    :(

    I don't want to be everyone's number one but i do want to be his.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sigh

    Married over 12 years; his job, our kids, his mother.....I feel like I don't even rank in the top 10
    Lily01 Lily01 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 28, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Just Once....

    I'd Love to be someone's number one....someone's most important thing in their life, Just once....I don;'t believe that is a Lot to ask for....
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Number One

    I'm never anyone number 1 and I don't really care.  This isn't important to me, what is, is that I'm important and number 1 for my hubby which I am.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 2 Responses May 15, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've Been A Number 2

    I was someone's number 2 and for a while I thought I was going to be upgraded to number 1 because I am this amazing and wonderful guy *rolls eyes* but when her boyfriend starting acting better I didn't. Even when she split from him I never became number 1.
    shadow1013 shadow1013 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 22, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am The Last Resort

    Everyone always has someone else they would rather be with at any given time.  I can tell because they are usually being rude and texting someone or thinking about abandoning me.  They always abandon me for someone else.  Apparently I do not matter to...
    BBUDS BBUDS 18-21, F Mar 29, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Hate It When It's Not Me

    wanna know my story? here it is. I love him and he loves me.. The problem? he got a girlfriend. they've been together for 2 years already... Let me clarify how he "loves" me.. He told me he love me, but not how he loves his girlfriend...Always the second never the first..
    Amongstars Amongstars 13-15 1 Response Mar 17, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    No Matter What I Do....

    I am never anyones top priority it seems. Even when I had friends, I always used to feel that I was just there and not really a proper close friend. Almost like if someone better came along then I could be easily replaced and would be kind of thing. Turns out I was right on that...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Not Even In The Top 10

      I try to put everyone I love before myself, so I can even say I don't put myself as number one. It's hard for me to give myself that kind of permission. I realized that I had to though, about 6 months ago when I started to have a small breakdown. I didn't tell anyone, I...
    Simplyliving Simplyliving 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 28, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Feel Too Much...

    I want to be the last person he see's and thinks about before we go to bed and I want to be the first person he thinks about when he wakes up. I want him to be thoughtful and buy me little things just because he was thinking of me at the time. I want to know that when we are not...
    PrincessLulu PrincessLulu 26-30, F Jun 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I So Wish I Was A Girlfriends No 1

    I hate being alone. I hate being single, although it is nice sometimes. I'll go to bed tonight alone, with no one but my pillow. I want to be on a girl's thoughts...and not just in a teasing, flirting way, but in a serious way, loving, romantic way. Sigh :(
    Stahl Stahl 31-35, M 4 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Who needs to be #1 when you could be # 560,

    843,001 on everybody's list!!!! Don't you just love people. * note sarcasm
    OnlyOneNotTaken OnlyOneNotTaken 16-17, F May 7, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Number 49 Is More Like It

    After reading a bunch of the stories here, I suppose I have a similar tale to tell. I'm a smart woman. I'm educated and I feel I have a pretty good head on my shoulders. I understand people. I, get how people think and how certain people will react. Due to those skills I somehow...
    Miyo Miyo 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    3 Guys, Always Second

    So I have been in 3 serious relationships in my life. And when I first start dating these guys they are crazy about me. But then after that it all goes downhill. I have been left 3 times for ex girlfriends. I wish I knew what I was doing wrong
    ked14797 ked14797 22-25, F Apr 5, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am Seen As The Last On The List The Boring Old Spud

    I hate being the last on the list and men who make out they care and then dump you for better. I don't know how to improve myself other than to continue education and relax time to import my body mind and spirit I think men who play the field and cheat are not good fathers or...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Too True

    But that's okay, I don't need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 6, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    i have this feeling of just sharing all the pains and problems in my life to someone i know and trust deeply in real life and be happy with it and have a funny but nice tal about...
    dathglas dathglas 13-15, M 11 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hahha I am! this may sound crazy, but I'm so obsessed with the combination of numbers, I can't my phone number often. kmsl
    morganza504 morganza504 36-40 18 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    1. I've never thought that I'm gonna be living alone by the age of 18 2. I've never thought I can learn to cook 3. I've never thought I can be a role model to someone 4. I've never...
    LeapingToadstool LeapingToadstool 18-21, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
      My name is Bob. I am 45 and i'm sad. There is a reason for it and once i tell you, i'm guessing you will either laugh at me or feel pity for me. I have held this in too...
    zerobitRaD zerobitRaD 41-45, M 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've never felt love for him. I've never felt comfortable around him. I've never wanted to spend time with him. He's treated me like **** too many times.
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When I was growing up, with so many people around, it was pure chaos. My mother couldn't make it better, so instead she brought me to the fanciest block in the neighborhood. She...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is for a college essay lol, it's probably not a good one to send in, but I liked it. Please give me your opinion My Mother gave birth with one person in her hospital room...
    Lilique Lilique 16-17, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    While walking my Spiritual path I'm always seeing certain numbers everywhere all the time. Sometimes a certain number would start to appear during a energy shift, during a time of...
    ShesSpiritual35 ShesSpiritual35 31-35, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The time has passed, and it's been so long. I can no longer stand to be apart, it hurts so bad and it feels so wrong. I can't stand to say goodbye. Mama, I'm so sorry! Please...
    fulltimemind fulltimemind 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    so Please forgive me, if I use a Number of a time in my life, When I felt better than I do now. ?
    Bekind2meplease Bekind2meplease 31-35, M Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Please tell me if you are a boy who is anywhere between the ages of 5 years old, and 26 years old right now, and please tell me if both you, and your younger brother had to go to...
    kidgoku kidgoku 26-30, M Aug 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A very important number. When I talk with someone quite a bit younger than I am, I hear, sometimes, almost a different language. I am sure it can be the same for them. When they...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    age is always only a number im 16 and i know what i want to do in life. im going to college to do the course to help me to my goal i am a kid with autisum and ADHD but still...
    uGSponge88 uGSponge88 16-17, M Aug 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It is definitely a number which makes it purely a conceptual construct. As being only a conceptual construct, it only has the impact in the empirical that we as physical, thinking...
    RebellioustoanEnd RebellioustoanEnd 18-21, F 12 Responses Aug 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    before I understood my sexuality I had boyfriends but none of those relationships ended up lasting too long. one big reason was that I wasn't attracted to them and I thought I was...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21 Aug 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The reason most people never achieve their dreams is because they simply give up. Life was never meant to be easy – its a constant struggle, with extreme lows and extreme highs...
    khylton96 khylton96 18-21, F Aug 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    why I want to smell men's underwear so badly and nobody else seems to share this issue.I am forty years old and gay and autistic.am male and since I was six ive wanted to smell...
    Quinky99 Quinky99 36-40, M Aug 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Never say never! I just kinda sorta did, didn't I? Perhaps not... With a headliner as "I'll Never Give Up!" Pretty much means I won't so I can pretend I said it....so here it goes...
    DancingNDarkness DancingNDarkness 36-40, F Aug 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Never say never. It's easy to say I'd never do this, that or the other. But when faced with a sexless marriage and temptation comes knocking on your door and is discreetly...
    Henrykay Henrykay 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I never hit a woman or a girl... Will never do and don't understand the excuses to be able to hit one..
    alex07 alex07 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm 15 and I have never been kissed and I've never had a boyfriend. The closest thing I had to a boyfriend just stopped talking to me after we both confessed that we liked each...
    Thegirlwhonevertalks Thegirlwhonevertalks 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 11

    Your Response

    Cancel