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I 'm Cynical About Love and Someone Loving Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 445 People

    When it comes to love I am a stranger.

    I have never truly felt nor experienced this emotion before. I always fear that people have motives or strings attached for their love. Like love is a toy dangled in front of a cat trying to paw desperately to obtain. I just do not seem to trust others so easily, more than...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    But...

    then I realize that I am loved deeply and that he would do anything in his power, and has, to prove it. He is amazing, brilliant (smartest man I have ever dated in fact), sexy, and all mine. MMMMM
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F Apr 17, 2010

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    I don't think I'm an easy person to love

    and I don't like most people. The odds of finding someone who (1) can tolerate me, (2) actually likes me, (3) is attracted to me AND that I like and am attracted to?! The odds of that are astronomical!!
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 5

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    I was never like this I

    though Love was the key to happiness. Then when the person you Love most in the world walks on you, and you're left feeling alone it's changes. If the person who Loved me did that what chance have I got.
    0815Jade 0815Jade 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Good Guys Finish Last.

    I hate to sit on  a pity-pot and whine, but it's so frustrating for nice guys like me.  I the kind of person who is genuinely loving and supportive, compassionate and generous... to a fault.  I love to party and have a good time and I'll hang out with different...
    johnnybliss johnnybliss 41-45, M 7 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    I've never been in a relationship

    but I've seen firsthand what they're like and I think that it's all a load pathetic,cult bullshit.The idea of validating my life by sharing it with someone else makes me feel offended.People cling on to each other like diseased rats and it just disgusts me for some reason.
    KurMujun KurMujun 18-21, M Nov 6

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    I do love people and care deeply

    for every living thing, the problem is that I feel and almost truly believe that I am unlovable. I've been told I don't have a lot of self-respect, I don't want to be one of those people with low self-esteem who talks about how lame they are.. but I'm not sure how to look in...
    thebeautifulprincess thebeautifulprincess 18-21, F Feb 20

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    I try to buy love but I hate

    when someone buys my love. haha that's why people stop loving me haha. lol
    butterflyofchange butterflyofchange 18-21, F Dec 9

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    Where Is The Love?

    Hi there! I was been wondering, where the love has gone and why no one seems to care about the love anymore. I have lost faith in love and I hope I will recover love someday. Please come back into my life and convince me that there is love out there.I will always love you but...
    FaroesePearl FaroesePearl 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2011

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    I Hope To Stop Being So

    I've been in love twice in my life, and although neither ended in some tragic fashion, they each left me affected in a different way. There are many other experiences that feed into my cynicism as well, but it is definitely shaped by my own experiences with love. But I hope to...
    instinct12 instinct12 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 3, 2010

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    Absolutly!

    Love is a form of delusional mental illness characterised by obsessive thoughts about a person.It is certainly responsible for putting many people in the mental hospital, I know it was certainly instrumental it putting me there once.When I see a suggestion of love my inner self...
    waddlergirl waddlergirl 51-55, T 1 Response May 22, 2013

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    As I get older I've started to believe

    that the idea of love is just too good to be true. Who just falls in love at first sight or want to spend the rest of their lives with someone? I know it's possible for some people but I don't think it is for me.
    Savone52798 Savone52798 16-17, F Nov 23

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    No one's going to want to be with me anyway

    once they know how I feel about relationships...
    TheIceDragonReturns TheIceDragonReturns 18-21 Apr 5

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    Thanks To Past Experiences

    I've been with several people and none of them ended very well. The first had been with me and we had been decent with each other though we never really went out on dates, at least it never felt like a date. Though we were together they openly told me they were in love with two...
    doritos1254 doritos1254 26-30, M May 30, 2011

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    Life, Love And Being Cynical

    I have been in love before. Whether it was "really real" or just infatuation, I'm not going to get into here, and I'm not going to guess. But since those relationships in which I believed I was "in love" have since come to an end, it's left me in a strange place. I hate chick...
    ThePainINSIDE ThePainINSIDE 22-25, F Mar 1, 2013

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    Sadly

    I am not totally a cynic when it comes to love but the balance is shifting in favor of cynicism and not entirely by choice. Rather by design, it's years of disappointments and holding onto a faith you are not even sure is even valid in this world you live in. Love seems to take a...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 5 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I guess in this post,

    it won't be about how I want to be loved but I can't because of trust issues, or because I am afraid of being broken hearted. Actually, I've never experienced anything about love and when I was younger, I use to imagine me being in love. Funny huh, yeah well, not any more. I...
    Acezsinkillx Acezsinkillx 16-17 Feb 14

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    LadyBronte LadyBronte 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    It Depends

    When it comes to loving a friend as a friend or loving family, I believe. But BF/GF or Husband/Wife I don't really want. Aromantic Asexual and S.F.L. representin'! Goodbye.
    FortyTheRapper FortyTheRapper 18-21, M Aug 15, 2013

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    Love

    love is something i want more than anything in the world. i want to be loved and i more importantly i want to learn how to love. i know im still young but i feel that if im afraid of love now, i will always be. i come so close to getting into a relationship but then i purposely...
    wonderwall12 wonderwall12 16-17, F 8 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    romantically or platonically.

    i know no one holds those feelings for me and when people tell me i just know they are lying. it bothers me quiet a bit when people try to say something that i know isnt there. do yourself a favor and keep it to yourself.
    fillia fillia 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 21

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