And I'll pretend to be happy.
I'll put on a beautiful smile an be the prettiest girl.
I'll act as if you didn't even exist.
And you'll never know
that when you went away
i wanted to die.
That you make me feel ugly with one look.
That you made me go down.
for four years as a result, has a friend who she introduced to my brother and I as our new Dad, even though she hadn't divorced our real Dad. She left us for this friend, after they were found out.
Her friend is manipulative (my Dad's word) and when I was thirteen he showed...
psh!! yeah take that bad feelings
Heartache, hurt and hate... *smack*
I don't want you around
Only love light and laughter
Allowed in my little town
I'll ignore you, avoid you and act like you don't exist
Till time does it's job and heals this pain
Because you're not...
I don't want to like him. He broke my heart, but that's a different story. Even though he hurt me, I can't help but smile when he is around. We both hang out, since it's been years, but every now and thing, I get this feeling in my stomach. I just wish it would go away. Any tips...
So many people love to relax, completely work-free, but it's the absolute boredom, the ability for my mind to roam everywhere but where I want it to go that I loathe. At school, it's all routine. Think about what you're doing, what you're going to be doing, focus on your...
.. or was it?
All those years spent living in ignorance....ignoring the obvious....ignoring my instincts.
I pushed reality aside and opted for fantasy instead.
I ignored my pain.
I made excuses.
I told myself lies.....his lies.
I told myself that he loved me....that I was...
when you lose yourself in someone and they leave, you lose yourself..
My heart hurts so much right now..
all I want is to sleep and wake up from this nightmare.
wake up and not feel like such a bother.
Whenever I like someone, I always end up getting hurt. When I meet some one new, a little voice in my head says "What if he's different?" and that voice takes over my brain and leads me to heartbreak. How do I get rid of that voice for good? Help me
He is like 22 and I'm under 18. I just love him... The way he walks, his voice, and how smart he is. Not only am I crazily in love with him, I am very sexually attracted to him. He's young and he is super handsome and he has an 8 pack, yet he's not to buff, he's perfect. I have...
ignoring those feelings.
Just going to try and have some fun until we figure out what it is we're doing. I grew up so fast, an independent living adult by the age of 16 because I was safer out there in a corrupt and crazy world than my own home.
Had my first son soon after my...
do not see you often.
I hardly ever see you.
Even though we have a great time on those days we are together
I have to set myself free from you.
I have to accept that we are different and will never be on the same level.
I cannot have you.
I need to find someone else. Someone...
though sometimes yeah ugh.... FML *Sighs*
Little Big Town
I got a girl crush, hate to admit it but
I got a heart rush, ain't slowin down
I got it real bad, want everything she has
That smile and the midnight laugh she's givin you now
I wanna taste her lips, yeah...
honest, and straightforward person. But I'm starting to realize that that actually creeps guys out, even though they SAY they like honest chicks who don't play games. I guess I have to learn to play, to hide my feelings.
as anger, jealousy, hate, pride, and love. Love is one that I will always ignore. Why would I want to burden someone with those feelings? No one wants a broken little girl for the rest of their lives. Not even my parents want to deal with me, why would a man?
for being less than I want to be. Feelings like I want to hurt myself. Damn it. Feelings like I hate myself. Feelings like I want to jump off a building. Today started out so well. What the hell? I took my medication this morning. Damn it.
I am starting to have little crush on this guy?
I just can't. I need to stop myself before I hurt myself.
By ignoring my feelings.
I thought it was just mere crush.
However, it seems that I am starting to like you more and more after seeing your face on social media.
I am going to ignore the feelings of wanting to run away from you because of how it makes me feel inside. My head and my heart fight and i switch between the two and it drives me totally mad. My head says run for the hills i shouldn't be second best to anyone ... let alone...
I don't want to speak to him. I don't want to think of US. I can't. Whether it is our Memoir or my Fantasy with him.. Whether I talk to GOD about him or I talk to my Cat about him. I can't ignore the feelings for him. I miss him everyday.
I would always look for your name no matter what.
It's as if my eyed would automatically look for your name. To check whether you're online or not. To check whether you have seen my snapchat.
If your name pops up in Story, I would sometimes immediately click your name to see...
for a woman I know I have no business falling for. She isn't married or in a relationship. However, she sees me as just a friend. We lost contact with each other for a few months and have recently connected here on EP again. Yet she had no idea how special she is to me and in...
in the back of my mind, I would still think of you whenever.
But I always try not to do that because I know you don't even think of me.
However, you would always appear in my dreams no matter what situations.
Damn my subconscious mind who yearns for you.
I can't, no, I am...
I mentally step back to avoid getting too excited
But who am I to be blame?
You are the only man who makes me feel I deserve to dream
Every problem I came across
Every pain I tried to hide
It is you who pick me up
And make me face it like a boss
But,hey,even if it is you who...
and I lost like 13 pounds or something in like a week and a half, and then that same year I started taking pills for ADHD and they made me lose my appetite and show "Anorexic behavior" one of the doctors put it. we didn't know this, all we did know was that I was dangerously...
and go to take care and have something to symphatize right here, it's been so long since I was here so I'm ok with this. my feelings could be described by songs Otherside and Break Stuff, I'm no suicidal but this all is too much to even be ashamed about. I hate this morning...
and by the end of the night, even though you have your family so close... you feel lonely. No one close to chat with. even the blasting music in my headphones seems to fade away. I'd just sleep it off... but even my sleepyness is nowhere to be found.
Deep inside I really do love you as in love with you, but I know we are meant to be just friends as you are already involved with someone so I am going to ignore these feelings and squash them before they try to take flight and I lose your friendship.
You don't feel that way about me.
I'm glad I got to take a step back and access this without any bias feelings for you.
I accept your feelings for her, just don't do the same things to me, as you do for her. You always smile when you're around her. It's obvious.
Just ask her...