My marriage is terrible, and there are days I barely tolerate my kids. I often think that things would be better if I was a single mom but the humiliation of divorce is overwhelming. It's a public acknowledgment of failure. I know that once the word got out and life started to...
and how much I have to pretend.
Stop trying to start conversations with me about things that I do not consider interesting or important. Stop pretending you are interested just because you feel a familial obligation.
Not to mention how much I have to hide my true self from the...
ever since i turned 12 i created two parts to myself or so my doctors say.
Rayne : the calm, honest, easily aggravated part of me
Payne: the violent, easily pissed and takes no bullshit from no one part of me
Me: the one smiles at everything and acts like little miss perfect...
and pretending. I am so sick of it.
It's gonna be over. Today imma start making changes. No more acting. No more faking. I don't have anymore energy for that kind of stuff. Not anymore.
I'm going to break free of some of what's holding me down.
I want to feel lighter.