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I May Look Calm, But In My Head, I Killed You Three Times

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    Never Underestimate My Silence...

    I am the queen of putting up a calm exterior. Nothing phases me outwardly, and any negative emotions I am very good at hiding. People who know me really well are the only people who ever see me vent any frustration, anger, pain....the bad stuff. The other day someone said to me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 13, 2012

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    I want to do it so bad,

    right now! Not just take you, but own you, and use you, destroy you-not your body but your mind, your soul. I want to shatter every confidence, every hope and dream, and feed off your happiness, pull it into me with your flesh. And when theres nothing left of your soul/mind I...
    JamieMostra JamieMostra 26-30, T Apr 28

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    Composure

    My boss, as well as several employees have commented about how calm I've remained when faced with unbelievably rude and irrational people. It's not professionalism or calm. I'm merely too busy focusing on the gruesome death said lunatic is enduring in my head. What can I say...
    SecretBrokenDoll SecretBrokenDoll 36-40, F 4 Responses May 6, 2012

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    My Dad

    If only he could hear what was going on in my head... It would be quite a war...
    MissingIdentidy MissingIdentidy 26-30, F Apr 13, 2013

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    I usually do this so

    now I only get really irratated and break your arm when you pick on my friends or family... Hey I don't feel like going to jail... So ya know that's why I don't kill ppl...
    Lilwillbe Lilwillbe 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 25, 2014

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    I Hate You!

    Why are you such a ******* *******?! why can't you treat me like a normal human being? well you know what Jesse? I ******* hate you! I dumped you hard! you were crying on the other line. you *****! go **** your fat ***!
    EmoMarceline EmoMarceline 16-17, F Feb 23, 2012

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    iamcarlolita iamcarlolita 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 20, 2014

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    Did He Kill You

    Me: What happened then? Maya: He told me, he says, "I have to kill you because you can identify me." Me: Did he kill you?
    NarutoShippudenFanGirl NarutoShippudenFanGirl 13-15, F Apr 9, 2013

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    Sesshomaru031 Sesshomaru031 16-17, M 1 Response May 20

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    "Killing" Dream

    I'd like say it was the Best dream of my life! Because I have this urge to kill someone all the time but I can't because I don't want to go to freaking prison!So here is what I dreamed last night. One of my second-cousins came to my place. We were having good time chatting and...
    LisbethTylerMorgan LisbethTylerMorgan 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2013

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    I wanna kill ppl all the time.

    I wanna kill someone today.
    TwentythreePER TwentythreePER 13-15, M Dec 5, 2013

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    Not Really, But I Have A Funny Story

    I'm going through a miserable, contentious divorce. As part of this process, I was deposed by my wife's team of lawyers. While the (clearly)subordinate lawyer just seems like an idiot, the lawyer-in-charge is a ***** to the Nth degree. She is the kind of lawyer who gives...
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M Oct 10, 2012

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    -.- I Seriously Hate Her

    My best friend has this OTHER friend...Who i happen to HATE! I have to be nice to her because my friend would get annoyed with me...(WHY AM I FRIENDS WITH HER???)"IT" is rude, selfish, and only talks about herself. "IT" will always find a way for me to be wrong. Example: Me...
    kara2451 kara2451 13-15, F May 2, 2012

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    i hate my older brother!

    !! could you believe?! he tried to kill me..not just once but twice!!!.i just want a peaceful family but all of that is shattered ;'( ..if i grow up i want to be separated to him...and take my parents and sis with me...that will atone his sins..
    miru123 miru123 16-17, F Jul 12, 2014

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    Glazed Over

    While you are carrying on and I am listening to you and looking at you. But inside Im becoming very aggitated, annoyed and irritable. I just want to rip your face off with my fingernails and my body gets a sudden adrenaline rush and a blast of anger. This can happen with anybody...
    tmarker86 tmarker86 26-30, F Dec 15, 2012

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    ...And You Know Who You Are.

    Some days it's only very specific people. Some days it's everybody. No matter the case, whether they know it or not, there are always a select few individuals that stay consistently on that list. What's most frustrating is how people's actions, deaf ears, and closed minds are...
    aktor1970 aktor1970 41-45, M Feb 21, 2012

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    7 years together. he goes to a hotel with a 20

    year old and smokes meth and has sex for 3 days. They are both disgusting human being. Both white trash from alabama. He needs to leave atlanta and go back to bama to be with that trash and away from me. She is trying to win custody of her 1 year old son but is sleeping with...
    mbrr mbrr 26-30, F Feb 24

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    The Kid I Used To Know

    i dated this kid for the LONGEST time like 6 months then he left me for a random kid at a party and i had never been so down before, i cried and it was horrible. that was jan 1 i had talked to him since....... then today he messaged me and just started up again..... should i go...
    lontanus lontanus 18-21, M 3 Responses May 27, 2012

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    brownzugar brownzugar 16-17, M Aug 8, 2014

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    Angelynne Angelynne 13-15, F Jul 12, 2014

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    I Hate Everybody.

    Yep. I hate everybody. At least to some extent. I'm an extremely aggressive person. So sometimes when I box I have someone's picture on my punching bag. Yeah I'd rather not mention the other things I do to channel out my aggression towards other people. Lately I've constantly...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 5, 2013

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    Lol Oh Man

    I love this group, Who thought up the name? its so kickass.
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 66-70 2 Responses Jun 16, 2012

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    Cracking Up!

    I've never even imagined killing anybody, but this title literally had me laughing out loud! Kind of makes me think about the faces I make at my husband behind his back (childish, I know, but it makes me feel a tiny bit better and it saves me the energy of an argument, etc.)!
    finallycthelite finallycthelite 46-50 1 Response Nov 19, 2013

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    What A Line

    This is a badass statement. It sounds like something out of Kill Bill or a martial arts movie. 
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 14, 2012

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    I May Look Calm, But In My Head, I Killed You A Million Times!

    For most of the time I do not look calm but I actually express that I want to kill you, but I use this saying only with one person, he LOVES to see me angry and always ****** me off and then laugh thinking he is being funny so I started to act so cool and calm when he provokes me...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 28, 2012

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    i hate my older brother!

    !! could you believe?! he tried to kill me..not just once but twice!!!.i just want a peaceful family but all of that is shattered ;'( ..if i grow up i want to be separated to him...and take my parents and sis with me...that will atone his sins..
    miru123 miru123 16-17, F Jul 12, 2014

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    I'm totally pissed off with my classmates!

    ! >_< They think they already know me! They judge me and they laughed at me but I just can't express my emotions in front of everybody, cause --I DUNNO T_T Maybe I'm afraid to be mistaken and be judged again. But I really wish I could shout at them and punch them really hard...
    KaitlynFeldman KaitlynFeldman 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 5

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    Perfect statement. Just bc I deal with ur bs

    and can keep calm doesnt make me weak, it actually makes me strong that you. Plus even tho Im calm, I killed you three times in my head! Trust me Im just waiting for the right time to unleash all my anger in a very healthy, less murderish way :)
    CamoCountryGirl CamoCountryGirl 22-25, F Jun 16, 2014

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    All Different....

    Maybe like 8 or 9 or 37 ....
    annirawrmuffin annirawrmuffin 18-21, F Nov 18, 2013

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    I look like nothing goes on in this head of

    mine, nevertheless I have delusions of killing those who I find irksome and offensive. If they don't like it...well that's there problem to solve
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I'm passive aggressive.

    I have murdered many people in my head.
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2014

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    Lol

    Funny experience title!!!........... Playa401
    playa401 playa401 31-35, M Sep 29, 2013

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    What Lies Below

    I think it is a responsibility of each to make this choice. At times we are faced with rude, and/or ignorant people. Evil does exist. 99.9% of the time I have to smile, and just dream.
    marissapillow marissapillow 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 29, 2012

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    Beware

    of the quiet ones *grins*
    MuffinAss MuffinAss 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2012

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    Chances are you won't see this or know who it is, but hey. I miss you. The times I would go over to your house. The time we were walking to your house singing. I don't have the...
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    What's your dream job? Counsellor Where do you think you will be 10 years from now? Married with lots of kids and achieved my dream job! Thats right where I want to be perfect...
    LittleMilwee LittleMilwee 22-25, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    It's weird. I think I am bordering between sanity and insanity. But I still keep myself sane. Or maybe I can see how I was killed in my past lives. I usually feel a gun on my head...
    PrInCeSsLiLo PrInCeSsLiLo 31-35, F 1 Response May 4

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    You rested your head on my shoulder and took a deep breath of air..I could hear you gasping your lungs wanting to suck in as much oxygen as possible and I maintained my calm...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F May 9

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    we met in 2012 or so, the way met was so uniqe, maybe that is why its so hard to leave you. it was Valentines day 2012. i went to buffalo wings and rings with my freind willy and...
    itsram2015 itsram2015 36-40, M May 4

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    We have come a very long way from bygone times when outhouses were the order of the day. There can be no doubt that we all appreciate that we have finally moved away from the...
    deepakrajput deepakrajput 22-25, M May 21

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    But you know what? I desperately want to end. I more likely to choose that than living like this. I have thought ways. I thought I have enough reasons, many reasons, valid reasons...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F May 23

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