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I Might Have a Suppressed Memory

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    Oh, Theres a Few Rumming Around Up There

    Sometimes I have glimpses of things from long ago. Just partial snapshots of something. Sometimes if I think hard I can recall exactly what it was. Other times that image stays in my head for a while and I just wonder. One I have is a good image so it's in color. It is the...
    Josie06 Josie06 56-60, F Sep 2, 2008

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    Gaps

    I used to think that I could remember almost every detail of my past. For example, I have a few very early memories, dating back to when I was a toddler. I am becoming more and more unsure... I have begun to realise that so many parts in my memory are vague or hazy. I feel...
    musicspirit musicspirit 16-17, F 12 Responses Apr 14, 2009

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    I've suspected that I have suppressed memories

    for quite some time now. When I was 12, everything "exploded". Up until then, I can't think of anything being particularly hard in life, but then, everything changed. I was really broken. Dad had abused me. I just remember feeling really hurt because of what dad had done, as...
    rabbitheart rabbitheart 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    Have Many

    but over the last few years they are breaking free of the deprograming and come flooding back both of war and my life and love before viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Nov 11, 2011

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    If I Remember So Much...

    My sister came to visit this past spring and we started talking about our childhood. She has ptsd and remembers next to nothing. I on the hand remember alot but will have flash backs where something comes back. If I remember so much scary stuff, how much worse us the stuff I've...
    justexisting89 justexisting89 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    When My Brother Had Chicken Pox...

      When I have a flash back my typical inclination would be to push down the memories from my past and switch my train of thought. But over the past few weeks I've been forcing myself to deal with these memories as they arise. Since then I've only had a few things come up. One of...
    justexisting89 justexisting89 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    The Afternoon Which Turned Into Night

    I only remember parts of this afternoon. The afternoon kindergarten shift - of which I was a member - was trapped by a roaring thunderstorm that began just as school was dismissed. The older kids ran for the buses at the curb; the first grade and us were too little to make it...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F May 27, 2013

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    5 Years Old

    when i was a child five years old, something happened me, i don't know what it was but i know something bad happened, i can not remember back those times do not exist in my head, i would like to do some sort of regression therapy but am afraid of what i may find out or else that...
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 4, 2008

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    What Happened?

    At 7 years old, I was at a friend's birthday party. All of the ther kids were dancing, and I was on the couch looking at magazines and saw a bunch of hard core ****. I started going through them curiously, when my friend's father came and sat next to me. He laughed and said I...
    notjustjoi notjustjoi 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Random Terriffying Emotions...

    My mom left my dad when I was six (never married) because he was a raging alcoholic. I remained relatively close to him even though he lived two hours away and would often spend weeks at a time at his house, but my mom would always stay with me, in the same room even though he...
    ScreamingGoodbye ScreamingGoodbye 13-15 1 Response May 30, 2012

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    I can't be sure and I don't want to be sure.

    But I have a feeling that its true. It's a very strange story I have only told 1 person and I think they judge me because of it. I wrote about it on here once and some one said it was a sick joke. Which made me not want it to be true again. This is why I suppressed it! So I...
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    I Experienced Just A Flash Of A Memory...

    I'm not sure whether this was a flash of a repressed memory or not. It was not bad or unpleasant at all. Not a buried, painful horror, but just for a second it seemed so, so real! Like any normal memory that I have. Then suddenly it was gone just as quickly as it came to me. I...
    kcam1208 kcam1208 56-60, F Sep 10, 2013

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    I Can't Remember My Childhood.

    I mean, I remember bits and pieces but they come and go.I remember some of the traumatic stuff.It's more that I know **** happened, rather than I remember it.Perhaps it's better this way.
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 4 Responses Jun 12, 2012

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    I Might Have a Lot of Surpressed Memories..

    Okay, so.. I wrote a blog about my life.. well, a part of it because I'm still not done. And after that I'll start to write about my life as I continue it because I don't want to forget the details and experiences. I can't remember a lot of things. I  know the memory is...
    PinkBunnyProject PinkBunnyProject 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 9, 2008

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    Maybe More Then One Memory...

    I have only told one person about this, ever... I'm not even sure how to explain it. I have had a few foggy moments in my early life and I'm not sure how to take them. I don't know whether to call it 'sexual abuse' if the person doing it is the same age. The person happens...
    autosuggestion autosuggestion 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    It used to be much worse. Just a year ago, there were gaps in my memory ranging anywhere from a matter of minutes to a matter of years. False memories would endlessly generate and...
    thetalkingmushroom thetalkingmushroom 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    My memory is awful il think of something then forget it & I'd be doing something then go to the wrong place & just say what am I doing like this one tine I put the chicken patties...
    ThaQueen1 ThaQueen1 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 13

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    So all summer I went without having sex until July 26, I had sex with a previous partner without a condom. A couple days after I started getting yeast infection signs as well as...
    girlxgirlx girlxgirlx 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    There is a part of me who thinks this is just too good to be true. I still miss my ex and of course I am sad...but i am been released from the feelings of utter and complete...
    Beckarae Beckarae 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    I worry just way to much but lately it has gotten out of control, I feel that certain OCD are becoming brought to my awareness just now because of it. I consistently need to check...
    Writersguilt Writersguilt 18-21, F a week ago

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    I forget my own birthday and age from time to time.
    Vumsy Vumsy 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    I forgot what were we talking about?
    Penguin47 Penguin47 66-70, M 1 Response Sep 13

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    I hate it because I always forget really amazing memories and simple things like my old teachers, my old friends, adventures I went on...and I want to be able to hold on to those.
    Cece4 Cece4 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15

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    I was checking myself out down there like I do monthly, just to see if everything's normal and good, and I noticed a little lump by my ..anal passage ahha. And I looked it up and...
    anonymousspleasehelpme anonymousspleasehelpme 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have been NC with her for over 3 years now. It took me almost 40 years to figure it out but once I did there was no turning back. I was raised by a woman without the capacity...
    supercalitex supercalitex 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    Hi everyone; I have posted a couple responses here, I am very familiar with PA Mothers now. I decided to share my story and see if anyone can relate to mine. For a brief...
    XXwoundedXX XXwoundedXX 51-55, F Sep 14

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    The girl I like seems to have changed. Last year we got really close and I thought she liked me, but now that there is a new school year and she has been sick since it started she...
    marchdan marchdan 16-17, M Sep 14

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    The girl I like seems to have changed. Last year we got really close and I thought she liked me, but now that there is a new school year and she has been sick since it started she...
    marchdan marchdan 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 14

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    I have a peaceful phlegmatic temperament, I found this description after taking an online personality test. It is me almost to the letter. It explains why I'm so forgiving and able...
    SignalSarge SignalSarge 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 8

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    I think my teacher has a crush on me.. First I know what your thinking ugh she is just another teenager with hormones. But really hear me out I think he might have a crush on me...
    igotsquestions igotsquestions 18-21, F Sep 13

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    Is it weird that I enjoy laying my head in a persons lap while he/she slowly runs their fingers through my hair? I mean I am too old for that right? Thats something a mother would...
    sikandtired93 sikandtired93 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 3

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    Dealing with mental illness is a *****. And nobody can really understand it unless they have it. I have major depression, severe anxiety, and as of one year panic attacks the...
    ibelovinhimnher ibelovinhimnher 26-30, F Sep 2

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    The onl adverse factor I could say was it might have been performed with a little updating, but in saying that it absolutely was continue to actually at ease and clear. We...
    Jacksonpj05 Jacksonpj05 31-35, M Sep 3

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    Okay, so last week I had what I thought was a pimple and it wouldn't pop. Then I thought it was an ingrown hair. And it kept on getting bigger, with barely any pus coming out. I...
    darktippedrose darktippedrose 26-30, F 7 Responses Sep 3

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    My husband left me seven months pregnant last month to go live with his mistress. He left some of his things here. I texted him two days ago that if he doesn't pick up his things...
    Ealasme Ealasme 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 3

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    I met him four years ago, we never grew up together so I didm;t see him for what he was: my cousin. Yes I know, gross ******. I know. I know. I always knew. But I have accepted the...
    danee012 danee012 18-21, F Sep 3

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    I Have a Broken Heart I met him four years ago, we never grew up together so I didn’t see him for what he was: my cousin. Yes I know, gross. I know. I know. I always knew. But I...
    danee012 danee012 18-21, F Sep 3

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    So many things I'm dying to get off my chest that I cant say to anyone. I keep so much from my parents that i spend every waking minute worrying that they're gonna find out about...
    CanYouHearTheSilence CanYouHearTheSilence 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Today she tryed kissing me when she told me that kissing someone with red lipstick would b hot and sexy she pulled me towards her and i laughed and said ikr and pretended as if i...
    Tooweak Tooweak 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    My mother is a mental health professional who specialises in cognitive behavioural therapy (a common treatment for Dermatillomania) When I told her about my condition she pretty...
    rsmith225 rsmith225 22-25, F Sep 9

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    I just remembered a video it showed how electrons and positrons come in contact with each other and they explode with immense energy that were bright yellow flashes millions...
    Ifixedtheclock Ifixedtheclock 16-17, M Sep 9

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    In my early teens around 2000, I created a Myspace account. This man named Chuck added me. Of course I was fine with it because he was into anime and manga and being a young teen I...
    dreaminginjune dreaminginjune 22-25, F Sep 9

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    I think i might have an eating disorder. I puke up my food. I cry after I eat. And I starve myself. I'm too afraid to admit the truth to myself.
    sydthekid15 sydthekid15 13-15, F Sep 11

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    I first met my best friend/soul sis in first grade. We studied together in nursery and KG but I would usually stay at home so I didn't really have friends. I have a lot of cousins...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 12

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    I realize that running out of the library, after seeing my old crush might have been a bit over the top. I mean, for all I know, it wasn't even him. Pfft. Then again, I'd rather...
    Sourminds Sourminds 18-21, F Sep 12

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    I was born with a lazy eyelid on my right eye. I had four surgeries from when I was a baby to when I was five. I'm 15 now. I absolutely hate my eye. I can open it but it's still...
    crookedteethteen crookedteethteen 13-15, F Sep 13

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    Throughout my life I have had many dreams from my own perspective (seeing through my own eyes) of mediocre moments that have come true exactly as they appeared in these dreams...
    mcordima mcordima 36-40, M Sep 15

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    How do I know when best to speak? How do I know when to say what I am feeling or thinking? I have been holding off for a few days now, giving him breathing room. I have just...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Sep 15

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    It affects my life far too much. Even in 'relaxed' situations such as going for a drink, my legs feel jelly, breathing is sometimes laboured, I'm hypervigilant and want to be near...