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I Might Have a Suppressed Memory

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 114 People

    What Happened?

    At 7 years old, I was at a friend's birthday party. All of the ther kids were dancing, and I was on the couch looking at magazines and saw a bunch of hard core ****. I started going through them curiously, when my friend's father came and sat next to me. He laughed and said I...
    notjustjoi notjustjoi 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    I Can't Remember My Childhood.

    I mean, I remember bits and pieces but they come and go.I remember some of the traumatic stuff.It's more that I know **** happened, rather than I remember it.Perhaps it's better this way.
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 4 Responses Jun 12, 2012

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    The Afternoon Which Turned Into Night

    I only remember parts of this afternoon. The afternoon kindergarten shift - of which I was a member - was trapped by a roaring thunderstorm that began just as school was dismissed. The older kids ran for the buses at the curb; the first grade and us were too little to make it...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F May 27, 2013

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    I can't be sure and I don't want to be sure.

    But I have a feeling that its true. It's a very strange story I have only told 1 person and I think they judge me because of it. I wrote about it on here once and some one said it was a sick joke. Which made me not want it to be true again. This is why I suppressed it! So I...
    ijustneedtoletitout ijustneedtoletitout 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 16

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    If I Remember So Much...

    My sister came to visit this past spring and we started talking about our childhood. She has ptsd and remembers next to nothing. I on the hand remember alot but will have flash backs where something comes back. If I remember so much scary stuff, how much worse us the stuff I've...
    justexisting89 justexisting89 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2011

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    Maybe More Then One Memory...

    I have only told one person about this, ever... I'm not even sure how to explain it. I have had a few foggy moments in my early life and I'm not sure how to take them. I don't know whether to call it 'sexual abuse' if the person doing it is the same age. The person happens...
    autosuggestion autosuggestion 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2008

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    Have Many

    but over the last few years they are breaking free of the deprograming and come flooding back both of war and my life and love before viet nam
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Nov 11, 2011

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    When My Brother Had Chicken Pox...

      When I have a flash back my typical inclination would be to push down the memories from my past and switch my train of thought. But over the past few weeks I've been forcing myself to deal with these memories as they arise. Since then I've only had a few things come up. One of...
    justexisting89 justexisting89 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2011

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    Oh, Theres a Few Rumming Around Up There

    Sometimes I have glimpses of things from long ago. Just partial snapshots of something. Sometimes if I think hard I can recall exactly what it was. Other times that image stays in my head for a while and I just wonder. One I have is a good image so it's in color. It is the...
    Josie06 Josie06 56-60, F Sep 2, 2008

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    Gaps

    I used to think that I could remember almost every detail of my past. For example, I have a few very early memories, dating back to when I was a toddler. I am becoming more and more unsure... I have begun to realise that so many parts in my memory are vague or hazy. I feel...
    musicspirit musicspirit 16-17, F 12 Responses Apr 14, 2009

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    I've suspected that I have suppressed memories

    for quite some time now. When I was 12, everything "exploded". Up until then, I can't think of anything being particularly hard in life, but then, everything changed. I was really broken. Dad had abused me. I just remember feeling really hurt because of what dad had done, as...
    rabbitheart rabbitheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2013

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    Random Terriffying Emotions...

    My mom left my dad when I was six (never married) because he was a raging alcoholic. I remained relatively close to him even though he lived two hours away and would often spend weeks at a time at his house, but my mom would always stay with me, in the same room even though he...
    ScreamingGoodbye ScreamingGoodbye 13-15 1 Response May 30, 2012

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    I Might Have a Lot of Surpressed Memories..

    Okay, so.. I wrote a blog about my life.. well, a part of it because I'm still not done. And after that I'll start to write about my life as I continue it because I don't want to forget the details and experiences. I can't remember a lot of things. I  know the memory is...
    PinkBunnyProject PinkBunnyProject 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 9, 2008

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    5 Years Old

    when i was a child five years old, something happened me, i don't know what it was but i know something bad happened, i can not remember back those times do not exist in my head, i would like to do some sort of regression therapy but am afraid of what i may find out or else that...
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Apr 4, 2008

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    I Experienced Just A Flash Of A Memory...

    I'm not sure whether this was a flash of a repressed memory or not. It was not bad or unpleasant at all. Not a buried, painful horror, but just for a second it seemed so, so real! Like any normal memory that I have. Then suddenly it was gone just as quickly as it came to me. I...
    kcam1208 kcam1208 56-60, F Sep 10, 2013

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