I Miss My Eating Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 30 People

    Come Back!

    last year i went through a very stressful time at home. I had gained fifteen kilos in about 8 months because i stopped my intense gymnastics training that was like 30 hours a week, and went to doing nothing. i felt like **** when i gained the weight, i wasnt obese, i was boarding...
    katarina2 katarina2
    13-15, F
    Aug 16, 2010

    I Feel Worthless When Im Fat

    As a child i was always a bit fat, not hugely but a bit tubby then at 15 i met someone i realy liked i that is when I wanted to be thin as i thought no one would want me if i was fat, i was obviously right as when i got under 50 kg he was my lover ( he is much older than me we...
    wheezylou1990 wheezylou1990
    26-30, F
    Sep 26, 2013

    What an unhealthy thought,

    but it was my life at one point and I won't ever forget that, because it makes me who I am. From sixth grade to my freshman year of high school I tortured myself. I was bulimic and suffered from body dysmorphia. Every lunch my mom packed me for school would soon be thrown away...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    I "miss" it sometimes.

    I don't want to eat today. Whenever I get depressed I miss being bulimic like I was in high school. I'm very slender, but food has always kind of scared me. This is so bad.
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 12, 2015

    I miss the control I had over my body

    and myself throughout my eating disorder and I miss the motivation I had to stay at that weight... I wish I could have that control again because defeating it has made me at the opposite side of the scale I'm now a size 16-18 in uk sizes and this is not what i want to be !!
    alicelt alicelt
    18-21, F
    Mar 12, 2014

    Come Back!

    last year i went through a very stressful time at home. I had gained fifteen kilos in about 8 months because i stopped my intense gymnastics training that was like 30 hours a week, and went to doing nothing. i felt like **** when i gained the weight, i wasnt obese, i was boarding...
    katarina2 katarina2
    13-15, F
    Aug 16, 2010

    I Miss You

    I started this group when I was missing my ED and I didn't have the courage to really admit it with a story.  But I did miss it. I missed it with all my heart. I cried about how I hated myself for not letting my walls down to let her in.  I am happy I did't but if...
    sacredvision sacredvision
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 17, 2009

    I miss being 90-100 pounds.

    I'm 4'11" and weigh 137 pounds now and it's killing me that I'm this fat.
    alexahatesyou alexahatesyou
    18-21, F
    Mar 15, 2014
More Stories