I Miss My First Love

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    when I was 13, I tied up this boy

    that was 14 with a jumprope, then beat the **** out of him. By the time I was done, his lip was split, his wrists were bleeding from the rope cuttin into them, one of his eyes was swollen shut, he was missing two teeth, his small di"ck was entirely black and blue and bleeding...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    Apr 20, 2016


    He was a bastard. He was full of hate. He treated me like crap. He abused me physically. He abused me emotionally. He led me on. He threatened me. He was reckless. He was a monster. He hurt my family. He made me feel ugly. He told me I was ugly. He made me suffer. He...
    deleted deleted
    42 Responses Mar 27, 2013

    I found this excellent quote: Who gives a duck

    about your first love? Give a round of applause for your second love. Your second love taught you love still exists.
    syntheticrhyme syntheticrhyme
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    we been together for around 6years.

    then she moved to miami in 2012 because i sponserd my family and they were coming to united stats in 2012. when she was moving ii begged her just to stay in near by. because i want my kids to come over live with me so of course there mother has to come with kids. but i want you...
    mkdpk mkdpk
    41-45, M
    Jan 19, 2016

    So I met this guy when we were in 5th grade we

    were so shy we couldn't speak to each other but we were boyfriend / girlfriend we both were each others first boyfriend/girlfriend (never had sex only a kiss hug or holding hand) the next year I broke up with him because my friend told me to he hated me until 7th grade when we...
    SaDgirl213 SaDgirl213
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2016

    Still Miss Her After 14 Yrs

    i will never stop dreaming of her....it never goes away.  i had my chance 14 yrs ago, but let others influence my decisions.....life has brought us new partners...and children....i sometimes wonder how many kids we would of had together....i think about how good it...
    mydreams mydreams
    36-40, M
    449 Responses Nov 24, 2006

    What I Miss...

    I miss the way you make me feel.I miss the way you make me smile.I miss the way you make me laugh.I miss your skin.I miss your face.I miss your eyes.I miss your laugh.I miss your cry.I miss everything.I miss the way you kissed me.I miss the way you'd fall asleep on my chest.I...
    FransB FransB
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Mar 21, 2012

    I know I probably don’t cross your mind much

    anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back.
    Ennevi Ennevi
    18-21, F
    Aug 20, 2014
    trophyhousewife trophyhousewife
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2016

    First of all, although I have not been a very

    active user I am crushed to see this site closing down. I guess I just always thought it would be here this safe place to share my deepest self. And soon it will be gone. Actually it reminds me of my first love. I just thought she would always be there. Naively I had just...
    andsail andsail
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2016

    Love is stronger than hate

    I had just moved to Arizona from Georgia and was having a hard time adjusting to everything. Thats when i met my first love. I was walking around my new neighborhood, with my sisters and when we saw him instantly all three of us liked him!  It felt like we were on some kind...
    cancer06 cancer06
    18-21, F
    17 Responses Sep 4, 2006

    hey I'm married for 10 years.

    we have a strained relationship. We have one girl 7. On Saturday night I went out with my best friends. a bunch of friends from years ago came out with us also. Everyone is married. my husband never goes out with myself and my friends. so we're all out with the gang from the 8...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 10, 2016

    Trying To Share A Story Through These Lines..

    Remember the time When you said you love me.. And I said stop kidding me please :) that day you said I'm your world.. now you say I'm 'old' After all that happened between us.. now you ask me to vanish.. I'm telling you Its terrible way to punish.. you are a bird too colourful...
    angelslover angelslover
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 29, 2013

    my first love..... Elizabeth.

    .. freshman year of high school or my second fastest year ; second to senior year. Freshman orientation i see this girl with wavy brown hair, green eyes, skinny and light olive complex, lightly freckled with a smile that would turn anyone to love her, and a presence of pure good...
    joshuaruiz1945 joshuaruiz1945
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    When you said you made it worse,

    you were right. I had managed to suppress my feelings and keep them at bay, but who's kidding? You were always in the background...lurking in my heart, waiting or I just couldn't get over you. I try not to contact you but when I'm drunk I get stupid and do. You are being weird...
    still4him still4him
    36-40, F
    Jan 4, 2016

    My Undying Love for Ed.

    ..It’s been 3 years since I last wrote a blog about my first love. Now, I’m going to write again.I don’t know how I will start my blog. Should I write first how he made me happy again? Or should I write first how he broke my heart again?I met my first love 10...
    red2006 red2006
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2016

    I was 12 and he just turned 17.

    We met on Facebook. I lied to him and told him I was 15 and then about a month later when he was starting to fall in love with me I told him the truth. He told me that it was wrong but the feelings he had he couldn't stop. We were together and a few of our close friends knew...
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    Want You Back

    On June 27, 200* the guy that I had a crush on for three years finally told me how he felt.that he loved "me" in every sense of the word. He loved me.On June 28, 200*, we began what I could call a journey of our relationship.Falling in love with him was effortless.  Loving him...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 8, 2012
    onetouchforever onetouchforever
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2015

    My name is Anthony and I'm 23.

    I went with a girl in high school from Sophomore year to Senior year in high school
    Anthony2400 Anthony2400
    22-25, M
    Jan 17, 2016

    I miss him like crazy today,

    I don't think I'll ever truly get over him.
    TallThing TallThing
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jul 4, 2015

    I watched my first love marry someone else.

    I moved on, loved again, and built a new life with my second love. At random times, I still think about my first love, and mourn the past.
    deleted deleted
    Jan 26, 2016

    I remember my first love.

    He was my all and I would have gladly given everything I had for him. He was the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. He was the first which means wether I like it or not he set the bar as to what I will always search for in anyone who tries to gain my love.
    briannalynn190 briannalynn190
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    Sleep less nights, memories

    and tears flow through me. I miss you soon much :( I would give anything to have you back yet i know its far from possible :(
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2014

    I Ended My Emotional Love Affair With My First Love

    I have been having an emotional love affair, this summer, with my first love  after he called me, after 30 plus years.  We have only talked on the phone, but he brought back all the love I had locked inside me since we parted.  He and I were meant to be soul mates and it was...
    dare2love dare2love
    56-60, F
    38 Responses Sep 1, 2010

    who wana date with me ,

    ,,Baby,if you like me and wnat to know my information , please see my profile.
    maryevea maryevea
    26-30, F
    Feb 16, 2016

    It all started with an argument

    and you leaving me for someone else. I don't think you ever realized how Hurt I really was. You didn't only destroy my heart but you destroyed me as a person. I loved you unconditionally. Even though you were in another state i tried to make you happy. But the truth is I still...
    Navae Navae
    18-21, F
    Mar 22, 2016

    I really don't even know how to express this.

    This is something I have never felt before, I never even thought it was something that I could even feel. I feel like I'm stuck. I miss him everyday, the same as I did when we first broke up. The only thing that's changed is that I've learned to live with the sadness. Him and I...
    TaintedBlueberry TaintedBlueberry
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 22, 2015

    The sanest days are mad Then you'll see the

    price Very closely Some men here They have a special interest In your life They want to help you to grow And then siphon all your dough Then you'll see the glass Hidden in the grass You'll never believe me, so Why don't you find out for yourself? Sick down to my heart That's...
    Tallestdavid Tallestdavid
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 9, 2016

    Why Was She So Special?

    I recently tried to explain to a friend about having my heart broken by my first love, about how I had thought she was the "one."  My friend asked me, "Do you think she was the one? What made her so much more special to you than other women you have dated...
    accomplice accomplice
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Jun 17, 2008

    I'm just afraid that being a homosexual is just

    about lust. What if it is? But then I remember how I genuinely fell in love and it wasn't even about wanting to get into his pants I just loved him. I cried when he was gone and when he was with me I was so happy :) we would hang out and chill and it was amazing even though I...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    There was this kid with red hair

    and it was curly. We used to talk to each other and we were friends at day care. Ive tried looking him up, my mom is going to contact the old day care to see if she knows where he moved to. He could have been my true person if we had gotten to grow up together and know each...
    Ilovetofigureskate96 Ilovetofigureskate96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2016

    You would think after 40 years I would be over

    her but I still thin k about her all the time.
    kma247 kma247
    61-65, M
    4 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    In the last week, as part of my recovery I

    reached out to my first love after 15 years to apologize for breaking his heart when we were kids. I didn't know that our love back then was real, but it was. All these years I denied to myself that I loved him. Suddenly I feel like 15 years ago is happening all over again right...
    wowodeals wowodeals
    31-35, F
    Apr 21, 2016

    I was 18 living in Africa,

    one of my closest friends and i were walking back from school, he ask me if I would please stop by with him at his friend's house just for a minute. It was a Wednesday afternoon and the day I met the love of my life. The minute I saw his friend, everything around us disappeared...
    evolvinggirl evolvinggirl
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    True love is a gift and I want you guys to know

    that..I had my first ever love and he was everything to me but he disappeared on me but you can only cry for so long ...why did he leave...idk but I loved him so much and now I can't feel the same about anyone I have my moments but no one seems to make that feeling of love stay...
    Angel1Hinojosa Angel1Hinojosa
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 31, 2015

    I saw him 2 weeks ago.

    It was heartbreaking. And ever since I can't help but wonder if he would've married me if I had stuck around. Which makes me question my whole life in general. Because I'm married, and I often think about how if I wouldn't have moved in with the man who is now my husband, we...
    MoiraEthne MoiraEthne
    26-30, F
    9 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    "Why oh why what's wrong with me?

    " I have never ever been a cuddly person. Lying in bed last night as I could hear my husband gently breath in his sleep. I wanted and yearned to be in the arms of another. Tears real tears trickled down my cheek. Not feeling sorry for myself, just annoyed why I couldn't and...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 12, 2016

    I know it's totally cliche

    and that we wouldn't have worked out, but it can still be painful. It's actually been around 9 years since we broke up, it was me who chose to, and I still feel regret. I'm married to a lovely guy, we have a good house and good relationship, etc. But I really think you can love...
    KittensExperiences KittensExperiences
    26-30, F
    Jan 6, 2016

    I pass your house and remember the past; a

    lifetime has gone but your presence keeps me alive; knowing you still exist keeps my heart pounding; if I'm lucky I'll catch a glimpse; tears start falling attached to every moment I shared with you my beloved first love; You will be on my mind the day that I die!!
    yollayoub yollayoub
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2014

    We have been apart for 4 years now,

    i'm sure she's moved on and probably doesn't think of me anymore. However, I think of her all the time. I know it's been a long time but I always have this urge to message her or facebook or something just to see how she's doing. I just want to talk to her, but the fear that she...
    kr1sten kr1sten
    18-21, F
    Feb 13, 2016

    He Was The First Real Kiss

    His name was Joey, we met in High school and he was crazy about me. I never expected to have a boyfriend and was afraid what my parents would say when they saw him. He had long hair but was always clean. He had a beard and mustache a little patchy but it was there. lol He didn...
    passionateheart61 passionateheart61
    46-50, F
    40 Responses Apr 26, 2012

    My life is falling apart.

    I can't live without you. I wish you knew the pain I feel every single day for you. My grades are failing. Everything is falling apart. I just lay here every night in constant pain and I can't stop. How do I make it stop? Time doesn't help. It's been literally years now.
    BraveThisStorm BraveThisStorm
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 15, 2016

    Still Grieving

    I still have the most vivid dreams about him and it has been five years since we even stood face to face.  I will never see him again and I know that.  We are on opposite coasts now.  I am married, and have 2 wonderful children that I wouldn't give up for anything...
    mskdwmn mskdwmn
    28 Responses Mar 27, 2008

    It's easy to Deactivate account,

    Unfriend someone Delete a number, Ignore a call, But ...Moving on and erasing that person from your heart seems impossible
    heartless0000 heartless0000
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2016

    11:11 He is still in my life

    and i long for him everyday. I wish there was a way of being with him just to love him and support him in every way i can. He completes me and i feel a part of me missing when i don't hear from him for a while. Today im feeling a deep longing for him i am dreaming of travelling...
    solongago2 solongago2
    31-35, F
    Feb 29, 2016

    I was with my boyfriend

    for 2 years when he left for college last semester. I knew for sure that I don't want a long distance relationship so we decided to break up. We kept on talking even though we were not together. We skyped a lot and texted each other on a daily basis; talking like if we were...
    ecuagirl ecuagirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2016

    I've been around almost 40yrs.

    And I've never missed anyone before. Never knew who my first real love was. Until December 18, 2014. I ****** up and hurt the only woman I loved more than breathing, more than life itself! And I still think of her every minute, every hour she's in my thoughts. And she doesn't...
    Grimmfk Grimmfk
    36-40, M
    1 Response Feb 1, 2016

    It's the Feeling That Is Missed Most.

    I do miss my first love. Not always, necessarily the person, but the feelings that I shared with that person. Nonetheless, it was doomed from the beginning. I met this guy on a whim, it was the summer before my freshman year of college. He was from Cali, I, well, from all over...
    ArdentEyes ArdentEyes
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Jul 8, 2007

    There are numerous older men in the world

    who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to find women for dating and companionship. The spokesperson reports that many older men have started finding perfect companions through their...
    carinaccaa carinaccaa
    26-30, F
    Mar 1, 2016

    She Was 'the One'!

    My high school sweetheart, She had one year left of high school.  The plan was for me to go play college football and She was to join me after she graduated.  We drifted apart during that year, but remained in constant contact.  We tried on getting back together...
    cmnoved cmnoved
    36-40, M
    18 Responses Feb 3, 2009

    I can't stop thinking about her

    but she's gone and she never wants to look at me or hear me again....I gave her my heart..I guess that wasn't enough....
    Isaokomori22 Isaokomori22
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 10, 2016

    Lost Love

    I started dating him my Sophomore year of high school.  He called me up on the phone one night out of nowhere and asked me to go to Homecoming with him.  I had never talked to him before in my life but I had seen him and I thought he was cute.  That was the...
    pookiebear pookiebear
    19 Responses Mar 12, 2006

    Walking the Plank

    I was the only interest in her life at the time, yet she still did not completely give me her trust. But I loved her. I had to see her that day but she had work in the afternoon. I offered to pick her up and take her to work, anything just to be able see her for one moment. She...
    dateanentry dateanentry
    7 Responses Feb 12, 2006

    it's been a few years ,

    were older now but I wonder if he ever wonders about me.
    deleted deleted
    Jan 16, 2016

    It's crazy how "first loves" work.

    Nobody takes it seriously. Your elders classify it as puppy love, your peers classify it as pure fun, but to you it's the most magical and and most wonderful feeling in the world. To be a teenager and be so infatuated and so in love with another human being is absolutely...
    loverspoem93 loverspoem93
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 18, 2014

    Lizbeth was her name.

    First time we meet we kissed and she was a great kisser . We kissed for so long my lips were red and swollen ! She was my first at everything. We went out for the majority of freshman year until March of 2012. She was great. She was funny, understanding , sexual, open, caring...
    joshuaruiz1945 joshuaruiz1945
    Feb 27, 2016

    I was fifteen when I started dating this boy,

    we were together for two years and both being in high school it was rough, so many people hated us together but we never let it get the better of us, we spent almost everyday together while we were teenagers, learnt so much from each other, but best of all we experienced what...
    skindeeep skindeeep
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Apr 14, 2014
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