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I Miss My First Love

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    She Was 'the One'!

    My high school sweetheart, She had one year left of high school.  The plan was for me to go play college football and She was to join me after she graduated.  We drifted apart during that year, but remained in constant contact.  We tried on getting back together...
    cmnoved cmnoved 36-40, M 19 Responses Feb 3, 2009

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    Sleep less nights, memories

    and tears flow through me. I miss you soon much :( I would give anything to have you back yet i know its far from possible :(
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 4 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    He Was The First Real Kiss

    His name was Joey, we met in High school and he was crazy about me. I never expected to have a boyfriend and was afraid what my parents would say when they saw him. He had long hair but was always clean. He had a beard and mustache a little patchy but it was there. lol He didn...
    passionateheart61 passionateheart61 46-50, F 43 Responses Apr 26, 2012

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    Love is stronger than hate

    I had just moved to Arizona from Georgia and was having a hard time adjusting to everything. Thats when i met my first love. I was walking around my new neighborhood, with my sisters and when we saw him instantly all three of us liked him!  It felt like we were on some kind...
    cancer06 cancer06 16-18, F 17 Responses Sep 4, 2006

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    My Luv You Say You Love Me Prove It.

    Ok i was introduced to my ex boyfriend 9 years ao when i was 13 years old he was 12.. he was always head  over heels for me and i was one of those girls that wasnt intersted in a boyfriend.. well time went on and we grew up and in high school we expressed his feeling towards...
    jandreas24 jandreas24 19-21, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2006

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    I'm just afraid that being a homosexual is just

    about lust. What if it is? But then I remember how I genuinely fell in love and it wasn't even about wanting to get into his pants I just loved him. I cried when he was gone and when he was with me I was so happy :) we would hang out and chill and it was amazing even though I...
    internallybroken internallybroken 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 29

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    Times like now in my life I seem to be

    constantly thinking about him.. Why did I fall in love? Why did I give him my time, my love, just everything I thought we would get married... I thought we would live an amazing life together run away... Start a new life... How was I supposed to know I was just another victim...
    LBNF LBNF 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    it's been almost a year

    since we've broken up and consciously thinking about it, it still almost feels fresh. I'm not sure if I miss him, but there is this feeling that I can't get rid of like maybe I'm still waiting for our second chance at working it out because we didn't break up from not loving...
    toekneeow toekneeow 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Still Grieving

    I still have the most vivid dreams about him and it has been five years since we even stood face to face.  I will never see him again and I know that.  We are on opposite coasts now.  I am married, and have 2 wonderful children that I wouldn't give up for anything...
    mskdwmn mskdwmn 26-30 28 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I miss her so much. We broke up

    because we didn't get time for each other. I love her but there is no way of getting her again!
    just4u97 just4u97 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    There really is no word to describe how much I

    want to see his face and hear his voice again. We both made mistakes, hell the week leading up to his death we were arguing like crazy and I really regret that, but i felt something change in him and i wanted to know what was happening too us. I don't really express my feelings...
    Knightt15 Knightt15 18-21, F Jan 18

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    "I Miss My First Love" .

    ... Because I am a dumbass ...
    Nottobeohsoblunt Nottobeohsoblunt 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 16, 2014

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    There isn't a time where you haven't came into

    my mind I loved you more than anything and you disappeared on me and I waited for you but I got nothing but my heart longs for something we had but I don't think that will come again...you loved me so much but your gone Ashton and I just wish someone could take this pain from me...
    trew5432 trew5432 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    Love You So Much

    The bus was almost empty. He travelled on this line every day. It took him around 25 minutes to get to work. But that was all what he had. She was there at the second stop and later she travelled farther down town. They never talked. Probably she didn't even noticed that he...
    Bolek Bolek 41-45, M 4 Responses May 9, 2012

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    It's crazy how "first loves" work.

    Nobody takes it seriously. Your elders classify it as puppy love, your peers classify it as pure fun, but to you it's the most magical and and most wonderful feeling in the world. To be a teenager and be so infatuated and so in love with another human being is absolutely...
    loverspoem93 loverspoem93 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18, 2014

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    Still Miss Her After 14 Yrs

    i will never stop dreaming of her....it never goes away.  i had my chance 14 yrs ago, but let others influence my decisions.....life has brought us new partners...and children....i sometimes wonder how many kids we would of had together....i think about how good it...
    mydreams mydreams 36-40, M 436 Responses Nov 24, 2006

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    Why Was She So Special?

    I recently tried to explain to a friend about having my heart broken by my first love, about how I had thought she was the "one."  My friend asked me, "Do you think she was the one? What made her so much more special to you than other women you have dated...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 17, 2008

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    JoeySavage JoeySavage 18-21, M 5 Responses Jan 13

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    Me and my first love broke up 3 years ago

    because he was leaving for the army. He only ended up going recently and before he left he told me I'd always be special to him and he regrets the way things had to end with us. And saying goodbye and having to walk away from him was the hardest thing ive ever done. Today I...
    bellarose1106 bellarose1106 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    I pass your house and remember the past; a

    lifetime has gone but your presence keeps me alive; knowing you still exist keeps my heart pounding; if I'm lucky I'll catch a glimpse; tears start falling attached to every moment I shared with you my beloved first love; You will be on my mind the day that I die!!
    yollayoub yollayoub 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

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    I saw him 2 weeks ago.

    It was heartbreaking. And ever since I can't help but wonder if he would've married me if I had stuck around. Which makes me question my whole life in general. Because I'm married, and I often think about how if I wouldn't have moved in with the man who is now my husband, we...
    KiraEliseStClair KiraEliseStClair 26-30, F 12 Responses Jan 27, 2014

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    I have every thing in life .

    Money , family . Friends , best life style .but there is something which is missing,i am waiting 4 sm 1 or smthing which i myself dont know
    mwelsh404 mwelsh404 61-65, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    [This is an actual letter

    that I sent. Some details changed/redacted to protect the privacy of the innocent.] Jana, Twenty-seven and a half years is a long time, a very long time, but that's how long it has been since I made the stupidest mistake of my life. That's how long it has been since I hurt and...
    johnkoebbe johnkoebbe 41-45, M 3 hrs ago

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    I miss him so much. He always made me feel

    better when i was upset even about the little things that wasnt important I wish i answer his calls when he call me and i wish i listen to the music he sent me saying how much they reminded me of me and him and all the things he did for me that i never pay attention to .... I...
    PurpleLove18 PurpleLove18 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    Want You Back

    On June 27, 200* the guy that I had a crush on for three years finally told me how he felt.that he loved "me" in every sense of the word. He loved me.On June 28, 200*, we began what I could call a journey of our relationship.Falling in love with him was effortless.  Loving him...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2012

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    Walking the Plank

    I was the only interest in her life at the time, yet she still did not completely give me her trust. But I loved her. I had to see her that day but she had work in the afternoon. I offered to pick her up and take her to work, anything just to be able see her for one moment. She...
    dateanentry dateanentry M 7 Responses Feb 12, 2006

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    I was 18 living in Africa,

    one of my closest friends and i were walking back from school, he ask me if I would please stop by with him at his friend's house just for a minute. It was a Wednesday afternoon and the day I met the love of my life. The minute I saw his friend, everything around us disappeared...
    evolvinggirl evolvinggirl 36-40, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    If one day I saw you again I'd never want to

    let go again. It's one of these moments, when I'm feeling the most sentimental and am truly listening to myself is when my mind is filled will only thoughts of you. It's strange really, that I find myself rereading your emails even as I know them by heart. I replay the memories...
    CindyLEvans CindyLEvans 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    its a Saturday, I just got home from turning up

    with his high school friends whom I see more often than he does. I think its natural to think of him. His friends agree that what he did was ****** up. I just wish I could've left all of that behind. I'm drunk. I know you're drunk right now. Could I maybe be on your mind too...
    toekneeow toekneeow 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I found this excellent quote: Who gives a duck

    about your first love? Give a round of applause for your second love. Your second love taught you love still exists.
    syntheticrhyme syntheticrhyme 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    I know I probably don’t cross your mind much

    anymore but I hope someday you see something that reminds you of me and the things we use to spend hours talking about at night and then your throat gets tight and your heart skips a beat and you finally miss me back.
    Ennevi Ennevi 18-21, F Aug 20, 2014

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    It was the summer before my senior year

    and I was seventeen. I didn't have any friends at the time besides people I may have shared small talk with in class or at lunch at school. I was painfully quiet. No boy had ever showed any real interest in me. I was spending the summer alone until my dad got cruise tickets for...
    cocoagirl95 cocoagirl95 18-21, F Jan 20

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    Caitlyn

    I can't remember the last time I've ever cried so hard. Keep in mind that I don't cry, and it's quite rare to ever catch me showing any sign that something is wrong. Caitlyn has always been my childhood hero and best friend. Her family and mine would always have dinner together...
    alexmartella alexmartella 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    I Ended My Emotional Love Affair With My First Love

    I have been having an emotional love affair, this summer, with my first love  after he called me, after 30 plus years.  We have only talked on the phone, but he brought back all the love I had locked inside me since we parted.  He and I were meant to be soul mates and it was...
    dare2love dare2love 56-60, F 38 Responses Sep 1, 2010

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    I've never been in love

    but I've had a lot of crushes when i was younger. And I hadn't thought of the first girl I had a serious crush on. Actually she had a small crush on me before that and she really liked talking to me. We became best friends. When I asked her out, she said no. Then, a few weeks...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M Jan 17

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    We were such fools in love.

    I haven't seen or spoken to her in over a year. In all honesty if I had one wish it would be to get one more chance. I'm fairly young and I know that I'm always going to remember her as the one that got away, I'm sure I'll find someone else who fill the hole in my heart but it...
    smokebombtom smokebombtom 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    I loved her so much, I'd never met her in person

    but she was the most amazing person I had ever spoke to. I spoke with her every day and she made me so happy. We were together seven months until my mister found out and made me leave her. I was heart broken and it felt like every thing was falling apart around me. I miss her so...
    charliewolfie12 charliewolfie12 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I still miss him, 35 years later.

    We had a beautiful love story, but he got scared and ended it. However, it never really ended. We still talked on the phone. He said he still wanted to marry me someday he just had to get his $h!t together. He joined the Army and went away and when he was able to make a phone...
    ldsgirl923 ldsgirl923 51-55, F 7 Responses Feb 5

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    Unfortunately.

    He was a bastard. He was full of hate. He treated me like crap. He abused me physically. He abused me emotionally. He led me on. He threatened me. He was reckless. He was a monster. He hurt my family. He made me feel ugly. He told me I was ugly. He made me suffer. He...
    deleted deleted 26-30 46 Responses Mar 27, 2013

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    My first love was my best friend.

    His home life wasn't as messed as mine, but not far from.. We were only 13. He knew I wasn't a virgin, but he was.. and i considered myself to be emotionally anyway because everything had been someone far far older than me, and I can't explain my thought process but I...
    megansunshine megansunshine 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I see her on facebook

    and sometimes we text. I've loved her for 27 years,no one has ever had my attention more. I married knowing that I would never have the ability to love them completely. She knows I say I love her but she has never believed me. I wish she only knew how I would be complete with...
    Blaker19 Blaker19 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    I do not miss him because I loved him

    so much. I miss him because he was my friend for the formative years. Plus he's the first person I have ever loved and cared for deeply. This is an awkward story so I hope if you read this you understand. This is a crazy story because in the end the truth is he was my first...
    Jennerrous Jennerrous 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2014

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    The sad part is although my heart is broken I

    don't care because i'd suffer endlessly to see you happy. If that means you're happy with another woman than so be it. You mean more to me than myself, and that's scary. You will always have a special place in my heart, and I believe that someday, somehow, that place will fade...
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I had a girlfriend (R).

    I loved her a lot and we did all kinds of krazy stuff together. She loved guitar, so I learned how to play one. One of the most memorable day that I remember with her is when I took her for a date on our second anniversary. I had told her coz of certain reasons I wasn't able...
    ArupDas20 ArupDas20 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 4

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    It's the Feeling That Is Missed Most.

    I do miss my first love. Not always, necessarily the person, but the feelings that I shared with that person. Nonetheless, it was doomed from the beginning. I met this guy on a whim, it was the summer before my freshman year of college. He was from Cali, I, well, from all over...
    ArdentEyes ArdentEyes 21-25, F 10 Responses Jul 8, 2007

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    Everybody misses their first love!

    They are the ones who hold all your insecurities. They are the ones who you told your deepest thoughts to. They are the ones who saw you at your most vulnerable, at your very best! The only question remaining is do you wonder if they ever think of you?
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 4 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I feel like ALL of my loves have been first

    loves, in one way or another. And I miss them all. I could talk about the girl I loved for five years across middle school and high school. She had beautiful dark-oak skin and was brilliant and kind. We were great friends--we were in clubs together, classes together, liked the...
    straytian straytian 41-45, M Feb 13

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    Yes, I confess here, I miss her.

    She is my first love. Due to some issues, she went away from me, but a little mention of her came today, when she favorite one of my posts I had contributed on her blog. My mind started engrossing in thoughts though it's been 3 years now.. I never met her(though it may sound...
    rko683 rko683 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 6

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    Sometimes I still think about him.

    I know he still thinks about me. He still talks about me and asks about me. I really don't know if I miss him or not. I do know I don't need to. He's so bad for me. He's literally a flame. Unpredictable and liable to get out of control at any time. He's a damaged soul who can...
    DeluxedEdition DeluxedEdition 18-21, F Jan 30

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    I actually thinked my first love was going to

    be my last love.. And nope, didnt happen.
    annaambrose annaambrose 16-17 3 Responses Jan 13

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    It's crazy in away how I can miss my first love!

    I was 14 at the time and thought I would be with him the rest of my life. However he did not treat me right and was not nice to me after a couple years of on and off dating I find out he was cheating on me! To this day he is still with the girl he was cheating on me with ! They...
    lovemags lovemags 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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