Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Miss My Friend That Died

Life & Death 560 People

    He died of suffocation,

    during an epileptic seizure. It was sudden and unexpected and all the light went out of my world for a very long time. I will never tell anyone again that the grief will fade. I miss my friend every single day, and sometimes, seven years later, still find myself crying. I...
    anarchycupcakes anarchycupcakes 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Heard About It While I Was Stationed Overseas

    I'm not sure what was more shocking: that my friend since childhood died or how I got to hear about it.I was stationed in Germany in the late 1980s and my chief means of correspondence was by letter writing. Phone calls to the states were very expensive so I did very little of...
    bitabyss bitabyss 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 31, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    To all those who have messages me these past

    couple days I'm not ignoring anyone just going through a very painful death in my life, my heads not all here but I promise I'll respond to all very soon... Thank you for all the attention and love!! I love it!! Only place where I get to be me!!
    martinex martinex 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've posted on here before

    but I want to again just because I miss him so much. He had so much to give and live for. One bizarre accident and poof he's gone forever. No body to say goodbye to, no opportunity to tell him one last time how much he meant to me, just an "I'll see ya soon" but I never get to...
    aussiegirl2014 aussiegirl2014 26-30, F 3 Responses Oct 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It may be strange, To hold a certain rage,

    For every year, That adds to my rage, But it's true, I do. Wishing I could give them to you My little brother aged barely 16 passed away during my first semester university from an asthma attack. This has been the only way I've been able to express myself about this
    trippysystem trippysystem 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Dear Friend

    My friend died one year back..He was not one of my best friends, but definitely we were good friends..I met him while doing my first year graduation..we were from the same college.. He had a very positive attitude and simply talking to him gave me so much inspiration..he knew he...
    MeDaphne MeDaphne 22-25, F Aug 8, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Every day i still think about you.

    My husband coming to my work and saying "there's been an accident.....it's Sam" You were just such a great person. I miss your hugs and your laugh and voice and jokes. Even miss your inflated ego. I still can't believe you're gone. It's been 5 months and its just not real.
    aussiegirl2014 aussiegirl2014 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I had this horrible nightmare the other day

    about you when I took a nap. I woke up, my sheets soaked in sweat. I couldn't stop my hands from shaking and suddenly burst into tears. They wouldn't stop coming. I sat there like a fool with snot and tears streaming down my face--sobbing uncontrollably. I had to ball up my...
    skinnypsycho skinnypsycho 18-21, F Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Miss You

    You have been gone 2 years. I miss you so much. I didn't think my heart could break but it shattered when you died. You will always and forever be in my thoughts. I hope you hear me when I talk to you ( out loud and I know you would be saying I am crazy). I love you and miss...
    notsosmartypants notsosmartypants 36-40, F 10 Responses Nov 19, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Loving Lucia, The Angel Inside Me

    I have a friend who will never change. She will never lie about me, or bully me or leave me. Se will never cuddle me again, giggle with me, joke with me. She won't tease me, come around my house, smile at me, write a card for my birthday. Lucia Sofia Ximena. We grew up together...
    MummaToAZoo MummaToAZoo 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I used to live with my granny

    and her adopted kids. We all lived down the street dorm the daycare we went to before and after school. So of course we walked. This particular day there was a trash bag by the stop sign but I guess we assumed it was trash and went on about our business. We got to the daycare...
    ConfidentLee ConfidentLee 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 9

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well tomorrow is my friends funeral,

    I went to high school with him, and we kind of lost touch after that, but still ran into each other from time to time during the summer, a great guy, fun to be around.....now he's gone due to an enlarged heart....I love you man, I never got to say bye I'll see you again tomorrow...
    asian12 asian12 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Today at 3:34 my gramps died.

    I'm really not sure how to feel he kissed on the head just this morning so for the doctor to tell me he is dead I'm in disbelief...
    0Rene0 0Rene0 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dec. 1, 2013 I had been involved in a mass

    group message on Facebook that I didn't know about. I was with my dad when I got a message from one of my friends saying that she was so sorry, and she was sorry this happend. I wasn't to sure what she was talking about so I looked at the messages on Facebook, and my friend (I...
    nicoledemers21 nicoledemers21 16-17, F Mar 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I miss all of my friends

    that died especially this one friend me and her were so close we did everything together went everywhere together me and her were inseparable me and her we were at the lark listening to music (it's all my fault btw that she died and I'll never forgive myself absolutely never if...
    PsychoticTendencies PsychoticTendencies 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My grandpas best friend died today at 6:05PM,

    he was so nice to Me, he was pretty much My adopted grandpa, but my grandpa called me crying, and they said they found him in a trailer (he loads trailers) dead.. I can't believe he's gone already, he had just turned 60 last weekend, and he just got back from vacation with my...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel

    He Was Just Unique

    I miss my soul mate, he took his own life , I miss him so much, he was intelligent, funny, quick witted, sensitive and forceful when he needed to be. He shared my love of music, all things spiritual and was just the other part of me that made me whole, I feel like an amputee...
    chadster chadster 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 23, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I lost a friend. I lost someone

    who loved the whole world unconditionally. I feel like ****, I feel like I didn't try hard enough or show him how much he actually meant to me. His death was accidental.. A blood clot that stopped his heart. I just wish I would've made more time for him. I should've messaged him...
    needemerise needemerise 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel

    She was in the my 3rd grade class.

    I'll never forget her smile or her laugh or how she had such a strong personality. It was sixth grade when I heard about her death. She suffered a car accident and died instantly, which is a blessing because then she didn't have to suffer. I was in complete denial. She missed...
    VoiceOfPerspective VoiceOfPerspective 22-25, T 1 Response Feb 11

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I made a great friend on line,

    his name was Jesse Kolb. He was the youngest double lung transplant recipient in AZ. I emailed him after I saw his YouTube video and he wrote me back. I got to know him for a few years and we became good friends. We kind of lost touch and I looked him up and found his memorial...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response Sep 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    GGG

    3 years ago in February my best friend died in an accident. I can't get over it it's so hard to think of things he's missing out on and the things I am missing out on because I can't let him go. To this day I can't believe he's gone was one of those kindred spirits you only meet...
    Canadabro Canadabro 26-30, M Nov 3, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    One week ago you were eaten by a shark.

    It is horrifying to think about and I can't believe you are gone. You were so full of life and laughter. I will never feel you hug me or make inappropriate jokes anymore. You were too young and we should've had the rest of our lives making jokes and going on adventures. It feels...
    aussiegirl2014 aussiegirl2014 26-30, F Feb 14

    Your Response

    Cancel

    10 months ago today, I lost my boyfriend to a

    car wreck. I don't talk about him much anymore, but I need to. All I can think about is how I should've been there for him, or been with him. But I fell asleep on accident. I hope he knows how much I care about him, and how bad I wish I could change things.
    meganmartinez11 meganmartinez11 16-17 1 Response Aug 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Today I found out my soccer coach of 6 years

    just died from choking to death and that is why he mysteriously didn't show up to practice Thursday. I have been crying for about 3 hours... I just.. It hurts so much.
    alliebear1211 alliebear1211 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 2

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Have you evert had someone

    that was your go to person? We were best friends -always said that if neither of us were married by 30 we would marry each other-but we never "dated." We slept together several times but it was never sexual -just comforting. Toward then end he told me her was in love with me...
    zoey0824 zoey0824 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 22

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Miss You Kristina

    I remember this like it was yesterday although I wish I could forget about what happened I know I never will, it was July 29th 2009 my best friend Kristina and I had been dating for a couple months now and I had never been happier I was in college, my life was still easy, and I...
    a7x1187 a7x1187 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 22, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Over the last few years I've lost

    so many every year I've lost someone I loved my uncle my friend and not so long ago my grandad, do you ever regret not making more of the moments you had with them the things you should of said because now you can't
    ElizaChloe ElizaChloe 18-21, F 2 Responses May 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    When i was nine there was a little girl named

    addy and we were good friends until she got leukemia and died about a year after
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dear Carlos,

    I don’t know if you knew, but i had a crush on you 8th grade year. I’d see you looking at me in class and I thought, ohh he’s pretty cute. You were a gangster though-not into my type then. Plus you had the horrible memory of me 7th grade year-ew.lol you were...
    BellaVara BellaVara 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 28, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Jessica Harper

    I wrote this almost 5 years ago when Jessica Harper, who I had Loved since kindergarten passed away in a car crash 2 days before my 16th birthday. I found out about it 2 days later on my 16th birthday and havent had a truly happy birthday since. Jessica, We Remember No one...
    flbiker112691 flbiker112691 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 2, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Do

    I miss our conversations: our talks about the most random of subjects and those of meaningful depth. Hanging out with her was always a pleasant activity. Hours could pass and we’d never tire of each other. I find it unfair that she was taken away from her parents and her...
    Floydess Floydess 18-21, F Nov 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    He Is Dead...but His Spirit Travels With Me...

    He was one of my best buddies....i met him at a local gym and we became great friends....he always wanted to experience life and wanted to try out new things....on one tragic day he met with a bike accident...he was taken to a hospital and was pronounced dead by the doctors....i...
    saveushiral saveushiral 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I lost my best friend .

    . And i miss him so much and dont know how to deal being alone and without him around all the time....
    robzkemp robzkemp 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20

    Your Response

    Cancel

    In four days it will be the 3 month anniversary

    of my beautiful friend's death. This summer was struck by such a dark cloud, as I found out she had died a month after coming home from my freshman year of college. I had been so unaware of what had been going on,and I hate everything about the way I found out about her death...
    moonswooned moonswooned 18-21, F Sep 15

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My friend died 5 months ago.

    He was 17. Us and our other friends spent our summer days and evenings together. We'd go fishing, BMXing, or just lay down on the grass and talked utter ****. Then one weekend I went to the a festival. He text me saying; 'Hey you! Where are you!? Coming out with me to make the...
    khall95 khall95 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 27

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Final

    Granted I suppose he was technically a friend of my parents and I didn't see him nearly as often as my father did but I still considered him a friend. He was best man at my father's wedding for, he had this great laugh and personality that was so distinctive with an accent to...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 19, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Today while walking to class,

    I saw a boy that looked just like you. He was coming my way with a little hop in his strut--just the way you used to walk. His arms reached down to his knees and his legs were clumsy. It made my heart skip a beat. When I looked at him more closely I realized he had your hair...
    skinnypsycho skinnypsycho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 20

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I had a dream about you the other

    night--actually, it was a nightmare. It's usually the same one. I'm chasing you down the block near our old elementary school just when I throw my arms around your neck to hold you, you collapse. You're just limp and freezing in my arms. I can feel the blood drain from my face...
    skinnypsycho skinnypsycho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dance

    Dance Your smile could light up the blackened skies, no darkness could lurk, no secrets, no lies Your fire burned so hot, not a tear could be formed, no screams, no whimpers, it never stormed God knew he was mistaken, when you fell from the sky, so he called back his angel...
    silentandforgotten silentandforgotten 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Richard

    My friend Richard was not just my friend.He had died at the age of 18 from a brain hemorrhage. He had battled brain tumours that were cancerous since the age of 7. Not only did he re-teach me to live my life to its fullest but, also taught me to love God again. He also was the...
    FreshBeginning FreshBeginning 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F Jan 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Pain & Loss

                                                         When you lose someone you love every last word said rolls through your mind like thunder.  "I'm so worried about you sweetie"...."please slow down"...."for your daughter."  silence. The last words...
    dollysworld dollysworld 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Where Are You?

    Today has been tough for some reason. Thinking of Jake, it chokes me when I try to swallow my saliva. His voice has been inside my head all day, and most days lately. I have a child with autism in my art camp this week... he mentioned today that he was so mad he could kill...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 9, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I've never talked about this before

    but here we go.... His name Blake Tomas Boothe, he was 14 when we died. It was in April.. He went to a differnt school then me but we lived in the same state,Everyday he was bullied for being bisexual, people would call him horrible name. He was so strong and he tried his...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    How Will You Be Remembered?

    " What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us." Ralph Waldo Emerson I am asked sometimes to write and deliver a eulogy. I am deeply honored to do this not only for my loved one, but for their survivors. As I compose the words...
    Kathieredart Kathieredart 56-60, F 11 Responses Jun 25, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have PTSD. I watched my best friend

    and boss die unexpectedly in her home.
    lizajanelove lizajanelove 26-30, F Mar 9

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Special Friend

    I had the good fortune to have a great friend in jr. high. We were both interested in cars.He was ALWAYS there for me. He knew I was a crossdresser and even though it was not his thing,He was never judgemental. His family ran a corner store (groceries) that was run by his father...
    Sumner478 Sumner478 66-70, T 5 Responses Aug 17, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Buckley.

    The hole isn't healing. I wish I could say that I'm okay, but I'm not anymore. Sometimes I get really angry that I had to lose you. Some days I just sit there, trying not to cry. Wondering how I'm going to pretend like everything is alright, so my mother doesn't think I need...
    ChemicalVision ChemicalVision 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A memory that distant memory not far from my

    thoughts seemed so long ago now that we were full of laughter and happiness until we meet again you left way too soon long before your time. 15 years old!!!! Four months before your 16th birthday you were soo stoked! The day I got the call saying; your gone fell to my knees next...
    shexlove shexlove 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 8

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Who was Brett Bommer?

      We actually met on here (of all places) in a group that was made to stop bullying. For never actually physically meeting him I can tell you that he was everything a friend should be. He scolded you like a father, kept your secrets like a best friend, and gave advice like a...
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 28

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Dont Cry For Your Friends

    Two friends cared for each other very much....Unfortunately one of them died.....The second friend was so upset that he could not stop his tears.....He kept on crying day and night.....Many people gave sympathy but no arguments could stop his tears.....One night when he slept, he...
    saveushiral saveushiral 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 30, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    His Name Is In Black Granite.

    Bill and I both graduated from high school in 1966. We became good friends during sixth grade. Due to a school district reorganization we ended up going to different schools yet we still kept in touch. We grew up on farms a short bike ride apart from each other and often hung out...
    GrandPaRoo GrandPaRoo 61-65, M 4 Responses Nov 18, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Yesterday really. He was my very best friend and like me was 13 years old. We've been friends almost my whole life, we surfed together, skated together, played soccer together...
    AdamV13 AdamV13 70+, M 2 Responses Oct 17

    Your Response

    Cancel