I Miss My Mom Who Passed Away

I miss my mom who passed away 934 People

    Losing a great mother is the worst pain anyone

    can go through . I'm barely living with so much sadness
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 21, 2016

    There were many conversations

    that I still needed from you Mommy .
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 21, 2016

    Mom the reason I work

    so hard is because you're not here . When I come home the house is empty . They don't know the pain I feel daily
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 19, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 19, 2016

    I miss simple things like your cooking .

    You used to say that someone should be concerned about others . It's just a mess and my spirit is crushed without you here
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I feel bad ...they call me fat continuously

    now . But I use food to deal with your death ... I eat to try forget about the terrible events that have happened since your death ... It's just a way to feel better Mommy
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I no longer have a zest

    for life ..your death triggered my lack of spirituality ... I'll have to pretend forever as I gaze upon other families with moms and I don't have one ... Life is unfair but losing you went too far
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I sleep on too many of my tears .

    ..I accept that I'll never be happy ... The pain is unbearable
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    Just emptiness inside

    and outside of me ... Having a mom is a comfort zone . You can escape to whenever ... But you're gone mommy so what do I do
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    It's scary to know that I'll never be okay .

    I find it hard to say goodbye to someone ... What more a death ? It's so permanent. You're never coming back for me
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    Someone really special wasn't there at my

    graduation to say how proud she was of me ... To hug me and say well done my child... You weren't there so I ultimately feel like I haven't achieved anything ,,, it doesn't work to say I'm doing it to make myself proud ... It would've mattered to know that you were proud of me...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    I'm sorry but I really wish I still had a

    mother . It's that comfort zone that every child , every human that is born needs ... I yearn for you daily ... Nothing can make me smile
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016

    I smile for the sake of smiling

    but it's not like I'm actually happy ...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    I cry because you are the only one

    that loved me unconditionally and with so much unbelievable passion . Only a great mother like you could've loved me the way you did
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    In my mind and heart you weren't supposed to go

    ...what am I honestly supposed to do ?
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    I'm disappointed in myself

    that I'm not able to get past this great loss . The future seems much scarier now without you here
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    Mommy I don't know why you left your children .

    .. I don't know . This world is hard
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    I never ever thought you would die .

    .. I can't believe you're gone
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 13, 2016

    You left your children alone .

    .. We are always alone . Our father doesn't care about us , relatives couldn't be bothered and your friends don't care . Hope you know how miserable I am... But I guess you don't
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 10, 2016

    Eating has helped me a bit to overcome this

    tremendous loss . It's really terrible losing a mother . I wish God could tell me why ...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 9, 2016

    One moment I am a young girl peeping outside

    the window waiting for you to come home from the shops or the mall and next thing you died in my arms ... Only God knows how I feel inside , only God
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 9, 2016

    Even my own sister doesn't care about me .

    You were the only one that loved me . And you're gone ... It wouldn't even help if others knew the pain behind my fake laughter . Why did you leave me mommy ? Why ?
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 8, 2016

    I miss everything about you mommy .

    I just cry and cry with no love in my life . I wish you hadn't died in my arms . I'm really miserable mommy . I never knew I loved you this much ... My soul is empty . My heart is broken
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 8, 2016

    I was 11 and know 13

    when my mom passed away i live life hard but i can make it I think about her day in day out of everyday for almost three years now it is hard to do it but i must live life on and so must you i was very young and people took advantage and now they can not i am way to smart for...
    annie2149 annie2149
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 5, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2016

    I never asked for our father to get remarried

    and it's put me in very awkward situations where I have to face people that are judgemental and it just lowers my confidence everytime and I keep seeing how life is so unfair ... How others have mothers firstly , how people younger than me are married and that's all I want but I...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Apr 2, 2016

    I'm honestly not okay .

    Things just keep getting worse and unbearable in my life . Why did you die on me? I can't even be happy . I can't function at work or anything . Just look how screwed up things were . I've completely lost myself in depression ... It doesn't get better daily . I dream of you and...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2016
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2016

    I miss her so much, it feels like

    now more than ever. It's been more than two years and things just feel worse...
    lememinger lememinger
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    My mom passed away on 2/16/2016.

    I miss her so much. I took her food shopping on Friday nights and took her out on Saturday to Walmart. Some times I would take her to the Christmas tree shops. I regret not taking her there one last time. She wanted to go before the snow came and I just got caught up in doing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Mar 1, 2016
    ShottyB ShottyB
    36-40, M
    Feb 19, 2016

    Who's going to feed all the hungry people

    and offer homeless people into their home when it's so cold? Who going to make my friends feel like she had known them forever? Like everyone has to go but not yesterday. Why'd you have to go yesterday? I at least wanted some closure. Like how do you even want your funeral? What...
    prettyudoli19 prettyudoli19
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2016

    its been so long ago ,

    her voice is fading in my head,maby for the best
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2016

    This incredible sadness ,

    is it because I think it's almost 3 years without you mommy ?
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2016

    It's amazing how useless

    and unaccomplished I feel because all I ever wanted was an acknowledgment from you
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2016

    I know we didn't have a perfect relationship

    but I still miss you terribly
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

    People have no idea how much I wish I had a

    mother ... I carry this heavy emptiness daily . Maybe I dream of you and I get a bit of comfort
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    Well not my mom it was my friends mom Maria the

    one with the big booty I feel so bad for her though I'm supporting her through it which is good
    123qwe42 123qwe42
    22-25, M
    Dec 29, 2015

    I live everyday telling myself.

    .. Another day without Mommy
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2015

    I can't believe you won't be physically present

    at my wedding or see your grandchildren ...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2015

    At this rate your daughters will separate

    and I'll be fine . You knew she was difficult to deal with anyway and we were forced to be close because of your passing but she doesn't think before talking and hurts a lot of people and she's too childish and causes me unnecessary stress but one day soon it will be ok . She...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    I miss the days when we stayed at home during

    the holidays until we could eventually afford going on holidays which was usually shameful for me . I just miss having you as my comfort zone . The perfect mother and you're home while terrible mothers still have their kids ... I carry a huge burden of sadness daily
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    Maybe you were already dying

    that day on my graduation ...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    You tell me one moment

    that this is your favourite picture and next moment you're dead . How is that right ?
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    Your death really hurt me

    and I mean really hurt me . You left me with a stupid sister and a stupid father to deal with without a replacement of the love you showed me ...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    Everytime something goes wrong with these new

    people in my life or when anything else goes wrong I'm reminded of your death and it causes me more pain that I didn't ask for this situation , it was just thrown in my face. Even a stupid dog can see I'm unhappy
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2015

    Why did you have to die

    so that I'm miserable like this and having to deal with these people in my life ? This is such an unfavorable position no matter what angle you look at it and I'm so weak right now I can't even talk anymore. I really am miserable mommy . Don't know what to do
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2015
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    I was honestly robbed of a mother

    and I'm miserable beyond compare
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    After your death instead of our fathers new

    wife's family putting in some effort to get used to us, they expect your children to put in that effort . After a year of neglect , I mean real neglect where he brushed us off to give attention to them he still expected me to sponsor the holiday for both families ...after all...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    People think the first weeks are the worst part

    for a family suffering from a death. It's not -- it's mostly the period after that. When everyone goes away. For me it's been over 2.5 years. And I'm still not ok.
    Merrmaid Merrmaid
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    Happy Winter Solstice beloved Mom,

    also known as 'Dongzhi Festival' for us Chinese which falls today three days before Christmas time. Sister came to chat with me today and she so sad missing you as well as me too. Though I'm far distance away I still remember that I use to call home when it comes to such...
    cloudyvberryz cloudyvberryz
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I wish you were here to look

    after me when I'm not feeling well
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2015
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I want u to know mum,

    that I am trying so hard everyday to live my life and make you proud. I just graduated, and it's the best feeling in the world. I know you are so proud of your baby girl. You have been on my mind so much lately. I just wish I could have a hug from u. I miss u so much. I love you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 20, 2015

    I dreamt last night that i had my mum back.

    I was so happy! And then I realised i was just dreaming and my mum was slowly disappearing, I was reaching for her then she was gone. I broke down on my hands and knees and started crying then the person who I'm falling for in real life was there kissing my forehead and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 19, 2015
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