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I Miss My Mother

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    Three years ago today my mother committed

    suicide by hanging herself in her basement. I never knew why, the only two theories are: She was so broken hearted about losing the love of her life to cancer a few years before and it was too much pain, or she was diagnosed with cancer herself and didn't want to suffer the same...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 36-40, F 4 Responses Apr 5

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    Today is the anniversary of the day she died 21

    years ago and I still miss her each and every single day.
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 12 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    My mom has been sick

    since I was 4, she was diagnosed with cancer. She past away in december 2011. Her I am... almost 4 years later... missing her like crazy.
    Liendakaas Liendakaas 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    So Badly, So Often

    I don't even remember what she smelled like, but I miss her so much.  I wish my mom was still alive...I so need her love.  I have one photo of her pregnant with me, smiling and happy, a little chub in her cheeks...she had such a delicate frame, the slight weight she put on...
    Whym Whym 36-40, F 5 Responses May 31, 2012

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    Mom, I am sorry.

    Last year, before I left my dear country Morocco to come to the United States for the 1st time, at the airport my mom hugged me tightly and looked at me with a teary eye. She said, "Daughter, don't ever change. Stay the same good, innocent girl I have known for my whole life." I...
    LallaZaf LallaZaf 18-21, F 8 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    I Miss My Mommie

    When I was four years old, my mother had loss her year long battle against lung cancer. She had worked in a factory where asbestos was exposed, she of course did not know that. She struggled a lot, and I can only imagine the pain of the cancer and treatment. The pain of knowing...
    Curiouskitty15 Curiouskitty15 18-21, F 26 Responses Jul 28, 2011

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    But she's not dead. The worst kind of missing

    for me. She is crazy, she has mental issues. I had to leave her and many didn't understand. She didn't take me to school, pretended to homeschool me, screamed at me every other day. But she would swing between neutral, angry and overly sweet and make me food and talk high...
    NiniJeanine NiniJeanine 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Wherever you are ....

     We miss you, we miss all the little things.Wish you were here   :-(  
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    I just went to my mothers grave to bring her

    flowers for her birthday. Her headstone was under 4 ft of snow, never mind the 6 ft drift at the edge of the road. I put the flowers in the spot that I think she is. I feel like a horrible daughter, because I am not sure.
    mcrn96 mcrn96 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    I didn't get to know you very long

    but you were the best person in the world. It hurts to know that I won't be able to take comfort in your arms again like I did when I was a kid. Growing up without you was hard, being with a strange family who did nothing but hate me. They still hate me and it burns even more...
    PersistentRage PersistentRage 16-17, F Mar 2

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    I miss you mom. Letter i wrote to my mom.

    Times like these hurt so much for me. Every birthday, holiday or any day all I can think about are the things we did together. I thank God for every second I got to see you, no one's perfect and we weren't an exception, we didn't have much, we fought too much but at the end of...
    Btimez3 Btimez3 13-15, M 2 Responses May 7, 2014

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    she was 44 and I was 15

    when she was taken in a car accident folks IF you love someone tell then everytime you talk to then Love you was my last words to her before she lift that day MOM i miss and love you every day will be a great day when i get to be with her again in gods will
    Randysos50 Randysos50 51-55, M 3 Responses Jun 21, 2014

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    She died when I was 14.

    At a time a teenage girl really needs a mom. I'm 24 and really miss and need her.
    bmorev bmorev 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 28

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    I miss my mother so much

    although we don't get along well. I miss her yelling lol. I know it's weird missing the yelling but I don't know why, although her yelling is getting on my nerves I still miss it.
    RedThatDescribesMe RedThatDescribesMe 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    3 Years ago my mother was diagnosed with cancer.

    She still went to work after receiving chemo and radiation because she refused to quit. 3 Months ago she could still walk - a doctor told her that: "You do realize you're going to die soon." In a condescending manner. She never recovered. She died on the 4th Of February 2015 at...
    pandalien pandalien 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 16

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    I haven't seen her since she left

    when I was 12. I know where she lives but I don't have the strength to go to her. She left us when all of us + my mother moved out of L.A. I know she would understand who I am now. Dad doesn't understand.
    AmbersSuicidalLife AmbersSuicidalLife 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    My Mom Died On Friday

    My Mom died on Friday evening. I am sad. I miss her. I want her in my life. I am only 30. My life has barely begun.  She is going to miss it. I don't know what else I could have done. I only wanted the best for her. She had a hard life. I wish it were better. She deserved...
    BrokenDoll BrokenDoll 26-30, F 63 Responses Jan 5, 2009

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    Lexibaby421 Lexibaby421 18-21, F Jan 29

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    And she didn't leave town yet!

    !! It's breaking my ugly heart knowing My mother is getting medevac today to the big city turns out she's really, really sick in her breast, :-( I'm scared, I just hope she comes home soon... And now I have to babysit my evil minha filha.
    ruthlessbitch13 ruthlessbitch13 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    Today Would Have Been Your 66th Birthday !

    I miss my Mom more than I could have ever imagined. She passed away Februaury 24, 2009. There is an empty space in my heart that will never be filled in the same way again. Today, Friday, August 27th would have been her 66th birthday. I can't help but think of all the birthday...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 35 Responses Aug 27, 2010

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    2 years ago today you fell asleep

    and left us. Love and miss you everyday Mum xx
    sillysoo sillysoo 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    Lexibaby421 Lexibaby421 18-21, F Jan 29

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    "Sometimes when one person is missing,

    the whole world seems depopulated." Dear Mom, I can never stop loving you.
    hiddentears hiddentears 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    A thousand words could not bring you back.

    .. I know because I tried. A thousand tears could not bring you back... I know because I cried. 5 years ago today and I still go to call you. I wish I could be with you.
    absolom absolom 41-45 1 Response Jan 16

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    something happened a few weeks back

    that has an effect on the rest of my life who could believe a scratch from a cactus could give you a fungal infection that attacks your heart so you no longer have the right heart beat
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 6 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I get all choked up inside

    and I feel emotions of sadness, anger, and envy flood my insides when I see daughters spending times with there moms. This doesn't always happen, but when the reality that I will never have a girls lunch, a spa day, or just a hug with my mom sets in, I can't help but want to cry...
    OhGK OhGK 26-30, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    my mother... i Miss the old her

    and how she used to read me bed time stories. how she tucked me in and kissed me goodnight... the night she left me to go to drugs she left for good... how could she leave me for something so simple such as those drugs... she never even said goodbye... she calls me to tell me...
    hollie2parker hollie2parker 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I bet if you were here

    now I won't be sad all the time I won't cry myself sleep it hard to now your gone and I will never see you agen until its my time to go and I will see you agen love you mummy xx
    jessicalove04 jessicalove04 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    she worth gold. she was the mother of her word

    She work hard and manage a full household. She will be truly missed and appreciated.
    bgirl1978 bgirl1978 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Today the sun is shining,

    not a cloud in the sky... A clear view to the heavens, as a single hummingbird flies by... As I sit lost in memories, tears welling up in my eyes... For today is the day, a year has gone by, Today last year, my mom died. It took me a while to think of what to write as a post...
    Kattastrophy29 Kattastrophy29 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    More And More

    I miss my mom. She passed away in November, and I always said she was my hero. She had cancer before I was even born, and due to complications from the treatment, she was in and out of the hospital my whole life. But she never. once. complained. NEVER. She always had a smile on...
    polythenepam polythenepam 26-30 24 Responses May 2, 2012

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    I wait for you every single day; I know you

    are dead but that's ok... I KNOW you live in joy and light in heaven you abide day and night. You are no longer in the misery and anguish , the pain you bore is no longer there... When you closed your earthy eyes last time , the Angels came for you that time.... And then...
    NyxInvictus NyxInvictus 41-45 3 Responses Dec 13, 2014

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    That is a beautiful way to remember your Mom!

    My Mom has been gone for a long time, 18 years, and I miss her every day. You are a very special daughter, and I'm sure your Mother's spirit lives on in you! A special butterfly, bird, dragonfly or other beautiful gift will come your way, and you'll know it's your Mom sending...
    smarjo57 smarjo57 56-60, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Just had a thought of wanting to see you again

    really badly ... To hear your voice , to feel your warm embrace . I miss you so much mommy RIP
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    Ever since she died ,

    I struggle to make decisions and life has become so complicated . She was my voice of reason and gave me good advice . Life is hard and stressful. What I would do just to have my mothers guidance again...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 12 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I remember my very first memory of my mother,

    I was about 3 she was leaving me alone with the girl that lived down the street (my babysitter) for what she said would be a couple hours, she came back days later still high on cocaine, by this time the police and my dad who worked out of town where involved..she was a drug...
    harmonyk harmonyk 18-21, F Feb 3

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    I lost my mother July 20,

    2000. I miss her everyday. On the day that she passed, I left the house early to study and I regret it so much. I wish I had stayed. The pain of losing my mom is still raw and it is something that I'll never get over. I work hard to try to make her proud everyday. Trust me...
    quincyn2014 quincyn2014 31-35 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    My Mom... A Year And A Poem I Read At Her Grave

    Mom. I don't go a day without a tear and a sigh. I see your face with my doggy and a tear rolls from my eye, You were my world, my best friend and my heart. When you left me alone, I have fallen apart. I didn't know how cancer could grab you away And leave me struggling every...
    Extinguish Extinguish 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 26, 2012

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    my mom died March 22 1974,

    I was 9 years old. though I never got the chance to know her , I miss her everyday. the stories I hear about who she was are wonderful. I just always wonder who I would be today had she been here to raise me! I am always sad on this day. she was 42yrs old when she died. such...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 22

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    Today was one of those days.

    On December 25th my mother will have been gone for 20 years, and two weeks before that I will be experiencing my 30th birthday, and also FINALLY graduating from college.. I got angry because I have managed to go back to school, do REALLY REALLY WELL, while raising 3 children...
    PhoenixLF PhoenixLF 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    The tears don't want to stop.

    I miss you dearly mommy. RIP
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 15 Responses Jan 25

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    My mother is my grandma

    and my father is grandpa. Yes, my grandparents are my parents. They are the reason why I am who I am today. My mother had just passed away less than a year ago on March 10th, 2013. I remember when it turned 2013 when spending my New Year's in New York City I had said, "This is...
    GBitty GBitty 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 8, 2014

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    I lost my mother when I was 8 due to

    complications from NF-1 & cancer.
    meanameicallmyself meanameicallmyself 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    After over 2 years if silence,

    I received a hand written letter from my mom. She apologized for the way she behaved and the things she said, acknowledging the inappropriateness and cruelty of the accusations and judgement she passed on us, and especially on my husband. She said she wouldn't call, as it would...
    frostyflower frostyflower 26-30, F 8 Responses Feb 4

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    I don't any more since I learned the truth text

    me if you want to know what happened(the reason I'm doing this is because I have real friends from real life on here and don't want them knowing everything)
    cutekittycat cutekittycat 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    I've written about her many times.

    Tomorrow is special though. She would be 59 years old. Not a day goes by that I do not think about her. It doesn't seem that long ago that everything happened yet it also seems like an eternity. I don't know why God had to take her. I don't know why he didn't just heal her like...