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I Miss My Old Self

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    I went through a mentally

    and emotionally abusive and controlling relationship for a year and a half and finally got out of it and it opened my eyes to the world, how it works, and my place in it. I guess I miss the carefree, Innocent, trusting person I was before it.
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29, 2014

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    I Wish I Was Good

    i used to be good because i was a kind forgiving guy. i miss that time. i used to keep promises that i made to myself. i feel like i am just some worthless piece of trash now. i slowly got worse in my life and eventually became the loser idiot i am now. i hate myself so much that...
    starkweather starkweather 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    I Miss Myself :(

    When i was on my high school days i use to be smart,confident,and friendly girl everyone is my friend, actually i am quite popular in our school.. my classmates and other schoolmates always elect me as a student official... before i am very organize i always make sure that...
    Marianne01 Marianne01 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2012

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    Were I Am Today.

    My mother just got out of jail. my sister the one i have taking care of since was 2 is in Kansas. My bother is on the other side of Texas and I'm in San Antonio. what a life. how did it get this way? that's a good question. i didn't do any thing. my siblings didn't do anything...
    mylife16 mylife16 16-17, F Nov 16, 2012

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    I Miss You

    Dear Self, I am not certain where you have gone but I want you to know that you can come home to open arms.  I miss your carefree, loving, happy attitude and your great big smiles and hugs for everyone. I love you and I miss you. Please come home. Love, Me
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2009

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    I Miss Me

    Dear Myself,We haven't spoken in quite some time now and I need to say I miss you. I miss how you used to be that great guy everyone got along with who didn't have the attitude. Who would always smile and laugh and knew how to have a good time without having to drink or fight. I...
    braindeadteen braindeadteen 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 7, 2010

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    I used to be friendly

    and talkative but now i keep on hiding my true self from my new secondary classmates, afraid to let them know i am someone who is not as good as they think.
    wildthoughts33 wildthoughts33 13-15 Sep 7, 2014

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    I miss the days where I didn't have a care in

    the world. I was focused on the right things. How did I get off track and when?
    Booksaremypassion Booksaremypassion 41-45, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    the one that didn't worry about what people

    said. the one that believed that anything was possible. the one that set out to prove others wrong. the one that didn't question why things happen the way they do.
    toopansy toopansy 18-21, F Apr 19

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    Dear Me.

    Dear me, You have never been the best. But not the worse either. I am starting to be really proud of you. You found friends. You found family. You found true beauty. Your progress is outstanding. Although you will still miss (somewhat) your old self, you are making a new...
    PerfectionIsALie PerfectionIsALie 13-15, F Mar 6, 2011

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    Sometimes I feel so weak inside

    and I just wanna cry. But bc I know it won't make my situation better I jut keep pressing forward. Sometimes I'm extra happy that I was given the opportunity to see the truth about people in my life; other times I just want to go back to being blind and give in. I miss so much...
    donmagic donmagic 31-35, M 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    Ever since third grade,

    my personality went from outgoing to zero. I don't know whether it's because of the fear I was harboring at my math teacher that time, like the way she constantly humiliated and stabbed me with her self-confidence wrenching words. Or because of my mother's constant insults she...
    Momodaki Momodaki 13-15, F May 5, 2014

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    I Dont Know

    I have started to like a girl for some time now...all my friends say im diffrent and say they wish i would be my old self again and i do wish that too...i cut myself now and i feel like dieing and a heavey load of bricks on my chest theres not many people who understand and...
    Suekru Suekru 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 9, 2011

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    I miss being the talkative one,

    i miss being the kinda stupid blonde girl, i miss my old natural blonde hair before i dyed it blackish brown, i miss being called " Old Blue Eyes " before i wore brown contact lenses. Even if i dye my hair a black-brown color, the blonde spirit is still here. :D
    Annaambrose Annaambrose 16-17 1 Response Mar 30

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    I've lost my self The death of my partner then

    the blame and death threats from his parents I use to laugh and I use to be so care free now I feel nothing or sadness!! Everyone thinks I am fine because that's what I let them see
    5omewhere0vatherainbow 5omewhere0vatherainbow 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    What Happened...

    Today I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. At what I have become.I was pale,skinny,tall,with black hair that was short but covered my face, no smile, and my eyes were cold and focused. I was dressed in all black, and I had my grey converses on which I doodled all over...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 8, 2013

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    Before Ocd...

    I have dealt with ocd for a while now I can't even remember how it started or when it started. It's as if a switch was just turned on in my head. I remember a time when I was a real tom boy. I used to be so out going and sporty always out rollerblading, bikeriding or just hanging...
    moonlightserene moonlightserene 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    I really miss who I was.

    I was never this sad or down. I used to have lots of friends who cared about me, now it's just me, myself & I. I hate this.
    lyndssyrmz lyndssyrmz 16-17, F Jan 6, 2014

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    Where Are You Spont?

    I remember the new exciting and spare of the moment challenges I would take on. It was always a question if there was enough time to get everything done in a day. I had no problem accepting and doing. Now have it a downfall from excitement and do not want to accept any new...
    mel498 mel498 31-35, F Mar 28, 2012

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    surround ur self with positive things. don't give anyone or anything the power over u to hurt u. Make a habit of staying positive. happiness is inner peace n success is doing what...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I would tell my 9-year-old self: Be you, stop being friends with her, and...oh, stop talking to trees!
    InfinityMaster InfinityMaster 13-15, F 1 Response May 6

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    I am struggling with the decision to put my cat Sam to sleep. he's 17, having some health problems, probably some dementia, and just sleeps all day. I can see the signs that...
    anderson77 anderson77 41-45 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I want to see you more often but the more i see you the more i miss you. The more i miss you the more sad i become. The more sad i get the more angry i get. The angrier i am the...
    msb2015 msb2015 26-30, M 1 hr ago

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    Today would've been my friends 15th birthday. I never thought that December 29th would've been the last time I'd ever talk to her again, I remember I would text her all the time...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses May 8

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    To my past self, please make sure you think so many times before making any decisions. Don't be impulsive and be sure you use your brain to be balanced with your emotions!
    Shansai84 Shansai84 26-30, F 19 hrs ago

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    We've been separated for over 3 years. She uses our kids as weapons not letting me see or talk to them for months at a time but for some stupid reason I woke up this morning...
    Techtonic Techtonic 26-30, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    When you miss someone so much but you can't talk to them because they didn't reply the last time and you don't want to annoy them by starting another conversation. Your dying to...
    xc0127 xc0127 18-21, M 16 hrs ago

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    To my past self - stop doing what is expected from you and do whatever makes you happy!
    Ajerdna1 Ajerdna1 36-40, F 16 hrs ago

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    When I think of my mother and her disease and how it was suffering ,i suffer she died of cancer i miss her a lot
    sossah sossah 18-21, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    We're finally into the 50s!! omg I'm so happy we got 59 more days apart and then this whole thing is OVER. Can't wait to have my man back home with me I'm missing him so so much. I...
    Katrina8113 Katrina8113 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I know rationally that the relationship is finished, that she's drifting away from me forever, but I miss her so much. For weeks I think about her during many sleepless nights...
    lonelywriter2015 lonelywriter2015 26-30, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I had a dream that he texted me like he miss me or something. o_o
    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I miss you daddy <3 Hope I get to see you again. Love you're only daughter.. -Shay-Lynn Eleanor.
    JustThatTypicalWhiteGirl JustThatTypicalWhiteGirl 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Good days or bad days ... I always thinking about wanting you in my arms. I miss you so much it hurts.
    TRandolph20 TRandolph20 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Dear Mom, There isn't a day that goes by that I dnt miss you& wish to just get a hug from you. K a kiss too. I cry Mamma cuz I am hurting so bad. Lost,so very lonely I feel I...
    Sugasug Sugasug 41-45, M 3 hrs ago

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    I seriously feel like I am crazy! Brent left on Sunday and I haven't cried since he left....but today has been so hard for me...I feel like I have been so needy and I am laying in...
    lilstewey lilstewey 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I miss him so much. I saw him today and I just wanted to freeze the world and bring him home,.. he inocent,,its time to end this ??
    reni888 reni888 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    I want to tell my friends who know about my past self harm problem that I'm cutting again so I can have some sort of support, some sort of freedom from this weight that's crushing...
    BlackenedIrises BlackenedIrises 22-25, F 43 mins ago

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    Someone asked me once if I ever considered suicide. If my memory is correct I think I immediately said no. I said if be more likely to lose it and kill someone else before I'd kill...
    Halestone Halestone 22-25, F May 17

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    I miss being a little kid and thinking anything was possible. just walking up to a playground asking someone if they want to be friends and playing in your imagination not thinking...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3

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