I Miss My Old Self

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 297 People

    I Wish I Was Good

    i used to be good because i was a kind forgiving guy. i miss that time. i used to keep promises that i made to myself. i feel like i am just some worthless piece of trash now. i slowly got worse in my life and eventually became the loser idiot i am now. i hate myself so much that...
    starkweather starkweather
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 29, 2010
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 4

    I miss my old self--my old self

    who was always a positive thinker, always smiling, very hard working even if other take advantage of it, has a long patience, very dedicated to work, very motivated and goal-oriented. I don't know what happened. Life suddenly just ****** me up so much that I have changed. I...
    ayamesan16 ayamesan16
    26-30, F
    Sep 25, 2015

    Were I Am Today.

    My mother just got out of jail. my sister the one i have taking care of since was 2 is in Kansas. My bother is on the other side of Texas and I'm in San Antonio. what a life. how did it get this way? that's a good question. i didn't do any thing. my siblings didn't do anything...
    mylife16 mylife16
    16-17, F
    Nov 16, 2012

    What Happened...

    Today I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. At what I have become.I was pale,skinny,tall,with black hair that was short but covered my face, no smile, and my eyes were cold and focused. I was dressed in all black, and I had my grey converses on which I doodled all over...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho
    13-15, F
    Aug 8, 2013

    I miss my old self too.

    My young self that is when kids were younger and marriage was still good and I hadn't burned out on my job yet. Figure was better too and I didn't have the anxiety and unhappiness I feel now. Wish I could travel back in time to a calmer happier place. I'm sure I was probably...
    Mimi4life2 Mimi4life2
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Oct 5, 2015

    I used to be friendly

    and talkative but now i keep on hiding my true self from my new secondary classmates, afraid to let them know i am someone who is not as good as they think.
    wildthoughts33 wildthoughts33
    13-15
    Sep 7, 2014

    I've lost my self The death of my partner then

    the blame and death threats from his parents I use to laugh and I use to be so care free now I feel nothing or sadness!! Everyone thinks I am fine because that's what I let them see
    5omewhere0vatherainbow 5omewhere0vatherainbow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 12, 2015

    Sometimes I feel so weak inside

    and I just wanna cry. But bc I know it won't make my situation better I jut keep pressing forward. Sometimes I'm extra happy that I was given the opportunity to see the truth about people in my life; other times I just want to go back to being blind and give in. I miss so much...
    donmagic donmagic
    36-40, M
    1 Response May 8, 2014

    I went through a mentally

    and emotionally abusive and controlling relationship for a year and a half and finally got out of it and it opened my eyes to the world, how it works, and my place in it. I guess I miss the carefree, Innocent, trusting person I was before it.
    kxCobra kxCobra
    18-21, F
    Mar 29, 2014

    Before Ocd...

    I have dealt with ocd for a while now I can't even remember how it started or when it started. It's as if a switch was just turned on in my head. I remember a time when I was a real tom boy. I used to be so out going and sporty always out rollerblading, bikeriding or just hanging...
    SoulSoSweet SoulSoSweet
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

    I Miss Me

    Dear Myself,We haven't spoken in quite some time now and I need to say I miss you. I miss how you used to be that great guy everyone got along with who didn't have the attitude. Who would always smile and laugh and knew how to have a good time without having to drink or fight. I...
    braindeadteen braindeadteen
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2010

    Dear Me.

    Dear me, You have never been the best. But not the worse either. I am starting to be really proud of you. You found friends. You found family. You found true beauty. Your progress is outstanding. Although you will still miss (somewhat) your old self, you are making a new...
    PerfectionIsALie PerfectionIsALie
    13-15, F
    Mar 6, 2011

    Ever since third grade,

    my personality went from outgoing to zero. I don't know whether it's because of the fear I was harboring at my math teacher that time, like the way she constantly humiliated and stabbed me with her self-confidence wrenching words. Or because of my mother's constant insults she...
    Momodaki Momodaki
    13-15, F
    May 5, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 4, 2015

    I really miss my old self.

    the happy, confident, funny, smart and annoying me. I had tons of friends before. But when I got into a relationship, I think it has suck out the happiness in me. Now I am an introverted self-seeking, attention-seeker type of girl who gets insecure with my bestfriend all the...
    EmptyHuman EmptyHuman
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

    I really miss who I was.

    I was never this sad or down. I used to have lots of friends who cared about me, now it's just me, myself & I. I hate this.
    lyndssyrmz lyndssyrmz
    16-17, F
    Jan 6, 2014

    where is that fearless,

    optimistic and determined me??? I can no longer find it within myself.all that's left is that coward, doubtful and lost me.....
    glowingember glowingember
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 12, 2015

    I miss what I used to be

    before what I am right now. It's time for me to move on. I used to be without disability it got it later in life I was a different person than what I am right now the nostalgia is hitting me. I used to be a people person when I was young and I was capable and disability free...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 8, 2015

    I Miss Myself :(

    When i was on my high school days i use to be smart,confident,and friendly girl everyone is my friend, actually i am quite popular in our school.. my classmates and other schoolmates always elect me as a student official... before i am very organize i always make sure that...
    Marianne01 Marianne01
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2012

    iv stumbled apun my ancient ipod full of

    spiritual audiobooks & cardio tones only to realize i failed at ANY goals i may have set during the time,i had peace of mind :(
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Dec 17, 2015

    I miss the days where I didn't have a care in

    the world. I was focused on the right things. How did I get off track and when?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 5, 2014

    Where Are You Spont?

    I remember the new exciting and spare of the moment challenges I would take on. It was always a question if there was enough time to get everything done in a day. I had no problem accepting and doing. Now have it a downfall from excitement and do not want to accept any new...
    mel498 mel498
    31-35, F
    Mar 28, 2012

    I Dont Know

    I have started to like a girl for some time now...all my friends say im diffrent and say they wish i would be my old self again and i do wish that too...i cut myself now and i feel like dieing and a heavey load of bricks on my chest theres not many people who understand and...
    LittleKidMeWasOverDramatic LittleKidMeWasOverDramatic
    18-21, T
    1 Response Mar 9, 2011

    I Miss You

    Dear Self, I am not certain where you have gone but I want you to know that you can come home to open arms.  I miss your carefree, loving, happy attitude and your great big smiles and hugs for everyone. I love you and I miss you. Please come home. Love, Me
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Sep 23, 2009

    the one that didn't worry about what people

    said. the one that believed that anything was possible. the one that set out to prove others wrong. the one that didn't question why things happen the way they do.
    nancypixel nancypixel
    18-21, F
    Apr 19, 2015

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