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I Miss My Old Self

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    I went through a mentally

    and emotionally abusive and controlling relationship for a year and a half and finally got out of it and it opened my eyes to the world, how it works, and my place in it. I guess I miss the carefree, Innocent, trusting person I was before it.
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29, 2014

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    I Miss Myself :(

    When i was on my high school days i use to be smart,confident,and friendly girl everyone is my friend, actually i am quite popular in our school.. my classmates and other schoolmates always elect me as a student official... before i am very organize i always make sure that...
    Marianne01 Marianne01 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2012

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    the one that didn't worry about what people

    said. the one that believed that anything was possible. the one that set out to prove others wrong. the one that didn't question why things happen the way they do.
    toopansy toopansy 18-21, F Apr 19

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    What Happened...

    Today I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. At what I have become.I was pale,skinny,tall,with black hair that was short but covered my face, no smile, and my eyes were cold and focused. I was dressed in all black, and I had my grey converses on which I doodled all over...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 8, 2013

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    Ever since third grade,

    my personality went from outgoing to zero. I don't know whether it's because of the fear I was harboring at my math teacher that time, like the way she constantly humiliated and stabbed me with her self-confidence wrenching words. Or because of my mother's constant insults she...
    Momodaki Momodaki 13-15, F May 5, 2014

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    I Wish I Was Good

    i used to be good because i was a kind forgiving guy. i miss that time. i used to keep promises that i made to myself. i feel like i am just some worthless piece of trash now. i slowly got worse in my life and eventually became the loser idiot i am now. i hate myself so much that...
    starkweather starkweather 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    Dear Me.

    Dear me, You have never been the best. But not the worse either. I am starting to be really proud of you. You found friends. You found family. You found true beauty. Your progress is outstanding. Although you will still miss (somewhat) your old self, you are making a new...
    PerfectionIsALie PerfectionIsALie 13-15, F Mar 6, 2011

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    I Miss You

    Dear Self, I am not certain where you have gone but I want you to know that you can come home to open arms.  I miss your carefree, loving, happy attitude and your great big smiles and hugs for everyone. I love you and I miss you. Please come home. Love, Me
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 23, 2009

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    Sometimes I feel so weak inside

    and I just wanna cry. But bc I know it won't make my situation better I jut keep pressing forward. Sometimes I'm extra happy that I was given the opportunity to see the truth about people in my life; other times I just want to go back to being blind and give in. I miss so much...
    donmagic donmagic 31-35, M 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    Were I Am Today.

    My mother just got out of jail. my sister the one i have taking care of since was 2 is in Kansas. My bother is on the other side of Texas and I'm in San Antonio. what a life. how did it get this way? that's a good question. i didn't do any thing. my siblings didn't do anything...
    mylife16 mylife16 16-17, F Nov 16, 2012

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    I miss the days where I didn't have a care in

    the world. I was focused on the right things. How did I get off track and when?
    Booksaremypassion Booksaremypassion 41-45, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    I really miss who I was.

    I was never this sad or down. I used to have lots of friends who cared about me, now it's just me, myself & I. I hate this.
    lyndssyrmz lyndssyrmz 16-17, F Jan 6, 2014

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    Before Ocd...

    I have dealt with ocd for a while now I can't even remember how it started or when it started. It's as if a switch was just turned on in my head. I remember a time when I was a real tom boy. I used to be so out going and sporty always out rollerblading, bikeriding or just hanging...
    moonlightserene moonlightserene 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    I've lost my self The death of my partner then

    the blame and death threats from his parents I use to laugh and I use to be so care free now I feel nothing or sadness!! Everyone thinks I am fine because that's what I let them see
    5omewhere0vatherainbow 5omewhere0vatherainbow 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Where Are You Spont?

    I remember the new exciting and spare of the moment challenges I would take on. It was always a question if there was enough time to get everything done in a day. I had no problem accepting and doing. Now have it a downfall from excitement and do not want to accept any new...
    mel498 mel498 31-35, F Mar 28, 2012

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    I Miss Me

    Dear Myself,We haven't spoken in quite some time now and I need to say I miss you. I miss how you used to be that great guy everyone got along with who didn't have the attitude. Who would always smile and laugh and knew how to have a good time without having to drink or fight. I...
    braindeadteen braindeadteen 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 7, 2010

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    I used to be friendly

    and talkative but now i keep on hiding my true self from my new secondary classmates, afraid to let them know i am someone who is not as good as they think.
    wildthoughts33 wildthoughts33 13-15 Sep 7, 2014

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    I miss being the talkative one,

    i miss being the kinda stupid blonde girl, i miss my old natural blonde hair before i dyed it blackish brown, i miss being called " Old Blue Eyes " before i wore brown contact lenses. Even if i dye my hair a black-brown color, the blonde spirit is still here. :D
    Annaambrose Annaambrose 16-17 1 Response Mar 30

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    I Dont Know

    I have started to like a girl for some time now...all my friends say im diffrent and say they wish i would be my old self again and i do wish that too...i cut myself now and i feel like dieing and a heavey load of bricks on my chest theres not many people who understand and...
    Suekru Suekru 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 9, 2011

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    Why do I feel like this? I hate everything and everyone. I just want to be alone but yet I want someone to listen to me and understand me. This is why I started self harming in the...
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    I have been told by several people that I am an "old soul", and I guess I am okay with that. I love staying in and reading, watching Downton Abbey, listening to classical music and...
    BriocheRoll1989 BriocheRoll1989 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Boys dont self harm... yea right. about 3 percent do... Im out of the 3 percent.... horrible childhood and still horrible now. You were suppose to die at birth i keep telling...
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    I relapsed. I just cut myself. I haven't cut myself in several months since my mom took away my razors. But tonight I found an old razor in my room and cut. I was feeling really...
    princessSadness princessSadness 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    This is one of my first original songs from 2009. I began playing at 8 years old with drums and progressed to bass and guitars, then moved on to keyboards/pianos and some brass...
    NewWaveBallet NewWaveBallet 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Dear brother, I miss you, 3-5 yrs fml, sh*t man.. I have no one now, all alone in this f*cked up world. No one to accept me for the true me and never judge, no one to sit and talk...
    xxAriDollxx xxAriDollxx 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    I haven't seen my bf in a week. It's been the longest in a long time that I haven't see him. And I feel like he doesn't care. When we first started dating he'd tell me he misses me...
    ccm22 ccm22 22-25, F 5 hrs ago

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    I miss my boyfriend he recently just took a job in Alaska for 3 months but I haven't heard from him since he left he doesn't want me to move on and leave him for somebody else but...
    shericka1992 shericka1992 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    We would fly June beetles like a kite or catch butterflies with nets. Sometimes we went fishing, camping, hiking, swimming, etc. we had a lot of fun! I miss those days. Did anyone...
    MinecraftGirl1999 MinecraftGirl1999 13-15, F 6 hrs ago

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    I don't feel like there's something missing, I KNOW there's something missing!!
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 7 hrs ago

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    (This also applies to older women too) I'm in the same boat here. My mom and stepdad hate it as well, because they always think the ones I want to date are perverts (how is it...
    MissLangdon MissLangdon 18-21, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Missing my mum a lot today I lost her when I was 14 years old from a stroke which happened very suddenly and I didn't expect a thing! I never ever thought I would be without my mum...
    Lonelyhannah18 Lonelyhannah18 18-21, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    The passion, feeling of what we had shall now vanish.. Into thin air it will flow freely.. I feel my hand free of yours. You have a strayed. My heart beat for you, hurt, desired...
    xxAriDollxx xxAriDollxx 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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    I started when I was sixteen or seventeen. I read an article about self-harm in Seventeen magazine and in all honesty, I was depressed, miserable, full of hate and anger and I...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F 10 hrs ago

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    I miss having people to talk to, people who understands me, understands my weirdness with no judgment. Life seams to be very complicated without some friend to keep you company...
    GlennSimpson348 GlennSimpson348 18-21, M 10 hrs ago

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    I'm 22 and I find older men so attractive! I am only attracted to 35+ and often fantasize an older man touching me and showing me the ropes. I've only ever dated a couple guys my...
    jlaw22 jlaw22 22-25, F 18 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I still love the girl who killed me. I gave her everything a guy should give to his princess, his love, to his life for 3 years. I made her happy, then one day, she ran away with...
    kennyordway kennyordway 18-21, M 12 hrs ago

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    I use to be extremely addicted to self harm I wanted nothing more then to feel a blade cut through my flesh. it was more when I was losing control in my personal life that I began...
    emovamp emovamp 18-21, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I miss talking to people who love talking. Them type of people come once a blue moon
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    yes I know it's crazy but I miss you we never got chance to really get to know each other no fault of my own but I admit it i miss you a lot I know am a strange character and you...
    susananngoga32 susananngoga32 31-35, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    Hello, I'm looking for some guidance but also trying to give a heads up of sorts to us ladies who give our hearts to the men who join the Marines. I had been with my boyfriend for...
    lmoore12 lmoore12 18-21, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I just wanna know you're OK..where are you? I miss your smell..your lips
    imabitchimamother imabitchimamother 31-35, F 14 hrs ago

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    I miss having someone I can doam throughout the day with all the small things in life. I've lost everyone. I miss the friendships I used to have
    PaigeOfSteel PaigeOfSteel 16-17, F 14 hrs ago

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