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I Miss My Old Self

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    I've lost my self The death of my partner then

    the blame and death threats from his parents I use to laugh and I use to be so care free now I feel nothing or sadness!! Everyone thinks I am fine because that's what I let them see
    5omewhere0vatherainbow 5omewhere0vatherainbow 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Before Ocd...

    I have dealt with ocd for a while now I can't even remember how it started or when it started. It's as if a switch was just turned on in my head. I remember a time when I was a real tom boy. I used to be so out going and sporty always out rollerblading, bikeriding or just hanging...
    moonlightserene moonlightserene 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    Where Are You Spont?

    I remember the new exciting and spare of the moment challenges I would take on. It was always a question if there was enough time to get everything done in a day. I had no problem accepting and doing. Now have it a downfall from excitement and do not want to accept any new...
    mel498 mel498 31-35, F Mar 28, 2012

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    I really miss who I was.

    I was never this sad or down. I used to have lots of friends who cared about me, now it's just me, myself & I. I hate this.
    lyndssyrmz lyndssyrmz 16-17, F Jan 6, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel so weak inside

    and I just wanna cry. But bc I know it won't make my situation better I jut keep pressing forward. Sometimes I'm extra happy that I was given the opportunity to see the truth about people in my life; other times I just want to go back to being blind and give in. I miss so much...
    donmagic donmagic 31-35, M 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    I miss what I used to be

    before what I am right now. It's time for me to move on. I used to be without disability it got it later in life I was a different person than what I am right now the nostalgia is hitting me. I used to be a people person when I was young and I was capable and disability free...
    F00dbarevaporating F00dbarevaporating 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I used to be friendly

    and talkative but now i keep on hiding my true self from my new secondary classmates, afraid to let them know i am someone who is not as good as they think.
    wildthoughts33 wildthoughts33 13-15 Sep 7, 2014

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    I Miss You

    Dear Self, I am not certain where you have gone but I want you to know that you can come home to open arms.  I miss your carefree, loving, happy attitude and your great big smiles and hugs for everyone. I love you and I miss you. Please come home. Love, Me
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 5 Responses Sep 23, 2009

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    I went through a mentally

    and emotionally abusive and controlling relationship for a year and a half and finally got out of it and it opened my eyes to the world, how it works, and my place in it. I guess I miss the carefree, Innocent, trusting person I was before it.
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Mar 29, 2014

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    Ever since third grade,

    my personality went from outgoing to zero. I don't know whether it's because of the fear I was harboring at my math teacher that time, like the way she constantly humiliated and stabbed me with her self-confidence wrenching words. Or because of my mother's constant insults she...
    Momodaki Momodaki 13-15, F May 5, 2014

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    Were I Am Today.

    My mother just got out of jail. my sister the one i have taking care of since was 2 is in Kansas. My bother is on the other side of Texas and I'm in San Antonio. what a life. how did it get this way? that's a good question. i didn't do any thing. my siblings didn't do anything...
    mylife16 mylife16 16-17, F Nov 16, 2012

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    Dear Me.

    Dear me, You have never been the best. But not the worse either. I am starting to be really proud of you. You found friends. You found family. You found true beauty. Your progress is outstanding. Although you will still miss (somewhat) your old self, you are making a new...
    PerfectionIsALie PerfectionIsALie 13-15, F Mar 6, 2011

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    What Happened...

    Today I looked in the mirror and looked at myself. At what I have become.I was pale,skinny,tall,with black hair that was short but covered my face, no smile, and my eyes were cold and focused. I was dressed in all black, and I had my grey converses on which I doodled all over...
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F Aug 8, 2013

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    I miss the days where I didn't have a care in

    the world. I was focused on the right things. How did I get off track and when?
    Booksaremypassion Booksaremypassion 41-45, F 1 Response May 5, 2014

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    I Miss Me

    Dear Myself,We haven't spoken in quite some time now and I need to say I miss you. I miss how you used to be that great guy everyone got along with who didn't have the attitude. Who would always smile and laugh and knew how to have a good time without having to drink or fight. I...
    braindeadteen braindeadteen 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 7, 2010

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    the one that didn't worry about what people

    said. the one that believed that anything was possible. the one that set out to prove others wrong. the one that didn't question why things happen the way they do.
    sleepyhills sleepyhills 18-21, F Apr 19

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    I Dont Know

    I have started to like a girl for some time now...all my friends say im diffrent and say they wish i would be my old self again and i do wish that too...i cut myself now and i feel like dieing and a heavey load of bricks on my chest theres not many people who understand and...
    Suekru Suekru 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 9, 2011

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    I Wish I Was Good

    i used to be good because i was a kind forgiving guy. i miss that time. i used to keep promises that i made to myself. i feel like i am just some worthless piece of trash now. i slowly got worse in my life and eventually became the loser idiot i am now. i hate myself so much that...
    starkweather starkweather 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    I Miss Myself :(

    When i was on my high school days i use to be smart,confident,and friendly girl everyone is my friend, actually i am quite popular in our school.. my classmates and other schoolmates always elect me as a student official... before i am very organize i always make sure that...
    Marianne01 Marianne01 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 18, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    i really do wish i had more self confidence and then maybe i could find someone that loves me. but im always too worried that they wont love me because im too ugly..
    foxxglove foxxglove 13-15, F 1 Response 30 mins ago

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    I miss more than one person
    Lifessoundtrack85 Lifessoundtrack85 26-30, M 1 Response 31 mins ago

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    We didn't talk for awhile then got on good terms again, but today she tweeted that I joined the military because I'm poor. **** that *****. I don't miss her anymore!
    SunnyRaye SunnyRaye 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    A lot, everyday. I'm thankful my scars have disappeared and only one is noticeable, and no one asks me about it. Used to self harm for 5-6 years till I found my husband. Its been 8...
    MidnightKiss082 MidnightKiss082 22-25, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I miss someone I care about deeply. Wish I could work it out with her.
    JeremiahWitte JeremiahWitte 36-40, M 2 hrs ago

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    Last year when I split up from my boyfriend, he left me in such a bad way and I was broken.. I was a different person to what I am now. I was weak back then and he broke me... I...
    Victoriaa95 Victoriaa95 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Its been years since I have been. But I truly do miss the intimacy and conversation a couple has.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    This is not the first time I have been on this mission, and I am very curious as to who else has taken up this mission, if others in my position reached the same conclusion. When...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith 22-25, M 4 hrs ago

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    It's 5 years since I've self harmed. When I look at my scars, I think of the pain, the memories, and knowing there wasn't a way out of my hard times. As years past, I grew wiser, I...
    nicolebunn nicolebunn 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    Which is stupid, considering how much confidence I have. Anxiety attacks are rare now. I maybe have one a few times a month. PTSD, will torment me for the rest of my life. Oh...
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I miss her so much. I used to talk to her about everything, she know all my secrets and the best part she wasn't more than my best friend. then we had an agreement and I can't text...
    20ShadesOfMe 20ShadesOfMe 16-17, M 9 hrs ago

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    I re-read now because all my friends stopped talking to me and I miss have someone anyone to talk to they say Ian boring now I do t do the same old things I use to do like partying...
    spice3xl spice3xl 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    I look at my life compared to others and I really have missed out. I'm 26 now and I feel like I'm missed out on my youth. Well, the good years of it anyway. I see the lives of my...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    She's out of state right now but she said she should be back by tomorrow. COME BACK ALREADY! I miss her, she's my only friend I can get a hold of and go to her house this summer.
    Kayla429 Kayla429 13-15, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have incredible low self worth. I have been through a lot in my life, and I realize that I haven't lived that long of a life, but when your whole life you are made to believe...
    AlliesWorld AlliesWorld 22-25, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Because my life took the wrong turn along the way. Wasted my time rebelling against the consequences of my disorder. I took a self destructive path because I hated myself and...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend died a month ago. He was only 19 . Idont know how to get out of this dark, painful place Im in right now. I've talked to councilors and that hasn't made any difference...
    LeilaAndShane LeilaAndShane 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 5 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 3 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Ok first, do not judge me... I have always been attracted to older men, ever since I began experience arousing thoughts. I was very sheltered but still always fantasize about...
    naughtyprincessbaby naughtyprincessbaby 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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