I Miss Using Heroin

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    Memories I Cannot Escape

    I lie here next to you With your skin so clammy, it sticks to mine The smell of stomach acid on your breath When was the last time youve even eaten In the darkness not wanting to see that look in your blue eyes So clouded with pupils so pinned I quiet myself to listen for...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2013

    Help! I'm trying to get

    that brown and some herb hit me up. I'm in Florida 9739305619, I just moved here from Jersey. Peace
    rmbrad4d rmbrad4d
    31-35, M
    Nov 4, 2015

    Looking in Fort Worth Texas

    if anyone can help
    tanman83 tanman83
    31-35, M
    Mar 26
    zeya23 zeya23
    22-25, F
    Oct 31, 2015

    I'm in winter haven fl I miss using.

    I moved here from Jersey I'm looking to meet some chill people hit me up
    rmbrad4d rmbrad4d
    31-35, M
    Oct 20, 2015

    I was an on and off opiate user

    for uears. 28 with a beautiful 5 ur old child. Got clean 6 months ago. Miss that feeling..of scoring..runningupstairs...dumping it spoon..filling the 1cc pin up...mkxing it up..fishing for a vein..finding one..and ahhhhhhh. Been on methadone. Struggling. Sorry for making this...
    RXQueen4244 RXQueen4244
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2014


    com/stories/Miss-Using-Heroin/7337953. I have lost all hope with my life and I'm at a dead end road and my anxiety has overtaken me all week and my withdrawals have come on something shocking, I'm on edge, panicky and I have been craving caramel heaps (which tastes similar to...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 4

    This photo was taken

    before my last burn of the foil last Saturday. From my experience, I'm amazed how much that little rock nearly became a deadly consequence for me. I went on the nod and forgot to breathe, I felt massive chest pains and heart murmurs. But I'm still breathing. But to not push my...
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    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015
    deleted deleted
    Jan 17
    deleted deleted
    Nov 25, 2015

    Yo I'm in Orlando by ucf.

    Got the most fire boy white subs and I'm always good. Hmu 4078831692
    deleted deleted
    Nov 14, 2015
    Icntstop Icntstop
    26-30, F
    Dec 28, 2015


    My favourite loverOh how you've burned meI am your's my loverI'll never be truly freeThe rush you give meA feeling that beats allFrom the very first tasteNo idea how hard I'd fallYou beautiful temptressWrap me in a warm glowThat glow didn't last longI soon sunk so lowShe turned...
    certifiable certifiable
    70+, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2013

    Clean For Two Weeks

    ive been clean for two weeks now and i think about heroin every second and a way for me to financially maintain a habit. Weed helps a lot. When you're stoned you feel so good to be off junk that u don't crave it at all. being sober and alone is when i can't stop thinking of...
    esantac esantac
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2010

    No Addict Wants To Be Addicted

    as anyone with problems with heroin will know the price of taking it is always bigger than the payoff in the end. i started taking it when i was 17 im now 26 and thats me just off it now a month but i'll never touch the stuff again because my twin brother overdosed died on 8th...
    Barry26 Barry26
    26-30, M
    4 Responses May 30, 2012

    Just got fresh subs from the pharmacy quick

    easy 4072806082. No bullshit ask around
    deleted deleted
    Oct 29, 2015

    Well looks like I'm going to give my self a

    good kick up the arse for slipping, I thought I got over this bad week but today a few things escalated at home and with family life and all other emotional crap in dealing with. My anxiety has gotten the better. My main dealer died a couple of months back and he used to get the...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2015

    Who Would'Ve Thought It Would Have Happened To Me..

    Addiction is one thing I thought I wouldn't have to deal with in my life. It all began when I was 16 and was introduced to prescription pain medication. You think it will just be recreational, no big deal..when I was 18 I started seeing this guy and was taking a couple Vicodin...
    breezy55 breezy55
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

    I Was Gonna Be Someone

    I was never going to be a 35 year old women thinking of it , lying about it . Damn lying to myself . Nah I'm good , just use once a week . Look you're working , taking care of your kids , yep yep all good . No I'm no longer an addict , I don't use every day . **** up Gem , you...
    certifiable certifiable
    70+, F
    1 Response Feb 6, 2013

    Goodbye, My Heroin.

    I was a Heroin addict for four years. Opiate addict for five. I was caught last year. June 10th. Caught in a grocery store parking lot buying dope, in a huge sting operation. Luckily my ex boyfriend swallowed the dope, so we didnt catch a posession charge, but, it was...
    lessieloo lessieloo
    22-25, F
    8 Responses May 18, 2009

    I Miss It So Much. I Need To Get Over This.

    I've been clean this tme for over 2 months. This is the 5 th time I've tried to beat this and I'm not sure I can do it. I'm not sure I even want to do it. I used to dream of a life where I'd marry the man of my dreams, settle down, have some kids, and spend our lives together...
    IrishMegan88 IrishMegan88
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2013

    Never Imagined Being A 'career' Junkie

    to look at me, I am probably the last person who you'd think was an addict. I am an insurance executive, a mother, and a functioning member of society....barely. I have used off and on for 23 years with very little consequences until recently. . my last dance with heroin was a...
    xenni xenni
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Apr 13, 2012

    Hate To Love You

    You gave me many promises And fufilled them all in such a sick way You wrapped me in your receiving arms And away with you I went Overtaken by the warmth and bliss You swiftly quieted my mind And took all the pain away The pain i didnt even know was there But to me you...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 18, 2013

    Heroin: My Love Affair

    Six months ago I couldn't even tell you what black tar was. My boyfriend at the time, a serious drug abuser, introduced me to this evil. But it didn't feel evil. As the vapors from the tin foil filled my lungs I instantly developed a new crush. A new relationship was born that...
    asugirl11 asugirl11
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 22, 2013

    Always on deck for everything

    even precious blues. Subs 2-8mg txt 4072806082
    deleted deleted
    Oct 16, 2015

    Heroin From A Current User Of 15yrs

    hi, im still a current heroin user, and have a message to though who have kicked it, and are missing it. at the moment there are very very bad batches of heroin around the country EVERYWHERE. heroin in apperence in every respect, even when injecting a slight heroin high. but its...
    xmitch00ukx xmitch00ukx
    31-35, M
    9 Responses Nov 13, 2010

    I Can Accept That The Craving Never Goes Away.

    OMG, I was at lunch, and someone opened a bag of vinegar and salt chips. The wind blew the smell my direction, and the crave kicked in. It's been 10 years since I lasted used. But, like a bad childhood, there are still fond memories.
    onemug onemug
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2012

    I miss it so bad you guys,

    its been almost an hour since i last shot up, im starting to have withdrawls but have no money for more heroin :(:(:(
    JimMorrisonsGhost JimMorrisonsGhost
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Mar 6

    I've done everything else,

    looking forward to giving this a shot (sorry about the pun)
    deleted deleted
    Dec 9, 2015

    I missed it so much I relapsed thurs night.

    I have a drug test Monday. I just hope I'm clean by then. On a lighter note, as I was high I had no desire to continue. I think maybe relapsing in that moment was almost a good thing cuz my cravings are gone. I do not suggest relapsing for anyone. I'd say what happened to me was...
    KaoriNyte KaoriNyte
    31-35, F
    Feb 21, 2015

    8mg subutex. 2mg quarters.

    Can get whatever just ask for a small hook up. Quick easy no bs
    deleted deleted
    Oct 14, 2015

    Anyone in TX? Still looking

    for dope friends.
    yourheroingirl yourheroingirl
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 11

    Mother Spoon Calls.......

    On July 8th, 2008 I started at the methadone clinic. Its a day that I celebrate, but also mourn. I've used a handful of time since then. More than 3, less than 7 somewhere in between there. None of those were really satsifying though. In fact I think I only really felt it 2 of...
    Steener2492 Steener2492
    26-30, F
    11 Responses Dec 6, 2010

    got subs in the orlando area quick

    and easy if your trying to not be sick hmu
    newtofl15 newtofl15
    26-30, M
    Oct 21, 2015

    The Fire Inside

    I quit using heroin 2 yrs ago.  There is almost not 1 day that goes by that I don't think about it.  At first it was the anticipation of getting it.  Then fixing it.  Then fixing myself.  That wonderful warm feel good all over sensation.  A feeling...
    darlene darlene
    41-45, F
    26 Responses Aug 31, 2007

    Looking in atx ? Anyone?

    Hook yuh boi up
    ipcusss ipcusss
    26-30, M
    Feb 16

    Been having a real weird week this week.

    As I have made progress to repair all the collateral damage I have done to myself, just when life was getting better, I feel about disconnected this week, I have been having strange nightmares, I woke up from a weird dream this morning, and my emotions and anxiety are getting...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 6, 2015
    diggit1492 diggit1492
    46-50, M
    Mar 20

    I'm in the Worcester ma area looking

    for some good stuff pm me
    cocoagrl24 cocoagrl24
    26-30, F
    Jan 23

    Wanna Get Right Back On That Ol' Horse...

    (Horse is an old slang term for heroin.) I miss it almost every day. Pretty weird, huh? It ruined me more than once. I've kicked so many times I can't even remember how many... since my first habit I haven't stayed clean for more than 2 yrs. That was about 15 yrs ago- I couldn't...
    TorturedLittleThing TorturedLittleThing
    31-35, F
    29 Responses Jun 29, 2008
    zeya23 zeya23
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2015


    and still, I cant get it out of my head. I used to be a ********. I would get all strung out before i went on stage. They would play something good like Passenger which is by the Deftones ft Maynerd or something. Anyway, that song makes me feel like heroin. Sometimes I miss that...
    JoyfulSilhouette JoyfulSilhouette
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2012

    Heroin Ruined My Life. But Now That I'm Clean I Want To Use So Bad

    I'm a 24 year old musician. I come from a "good" family, went to college, had plenty of opporunities ahead of me. I left my college city and moved to New York about two and a half years ago to pursue a career in music. I made an understandable headway equal to my efforts. But I...
    dafork dafork
    26-30, M
    37 Responses Jul 19, 2011

    Done And Never Going Back.

    I am over this bullsh!t. I need to be or my life will end soon, I can feel it. I'm a better person than I give myself credit for and I can do anything I want or put my mind to. I have always used drugs and drank a lot, but a while ago I started using heroin again in a big way...
    keithstone248 keithstone248
    26-30, M
    8 Responses Jan 2, 2013

    Only being 7.5 months clean,

    this is the longest I've ever stayed clean. I feel great most of the time... I'm working 2 full time jobs, in the process of getting my G.E.D and saving to move out of my parents house with my long term boyfriend. Time spent with my family has been amazing since I've been clean...
    whatsadrug whatsadrug
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2015

    I would like to get some

    for a one way trip. Denver/Boulder area
    deleted deleted
    Dec 8, 2015

    No Matter What Happens

    you still completely ache for the drug. I lost everything. I mean, I don't have anything worth anything. I only had a couple black trash bags containing my clothes. I haven't used heroin in over two years but I'm still itching for that release. It's like nothing that even...
    lmperry5824 lmperry5824
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Sep 5, 2013

    I got that good good in Orlando by UCF.

    Ask around i got that fire . Got subs 8mg
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    Why Scumbag Junkie ?

    First of all, why re-enforce society's false view that we are all bad people who will steal your possessions, murder you and your family and rape your dog? This demonisation of the addict began around the 1930's when China had a problem with opium and the US was seeking to be a...
    felixq78 felixq78
    11 Responses Dec 21, 2008


    How it all started: Well I don't know.  Here are some reasons I think would be why... Weed no longer got me high The pills I took were sissy stuff that didn't get the job done I wanted to lose weight and I knew heroin would do that I thought it was cool People...
    Samantha244 Samantha244
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2011

    I Miss Dancin' With Mr. Brownstone

    It's been some time since I used any H, (shooting or snorting) I sure do miss it though! It's nights like this that make it hard to stop. Nothing bad happened today, I actually had a pretty good day at work. I just think about it often and really want to use again. I'm drunk...
    keithstone248 keithstone248
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Feb 26, 2013

    account got deleted again lol.

    ..if you need that in Orlando or the surrounding area feel free to message me and I'll take care of you asap. I have nothing but good reviews on here so u know it's legit.
    26-30, M
    7 Responses Feb 12

    I think I'm gonna start using it again.

    And this time im probably gonna use it until death
    deleted deleted
    Dec 25, 2014
    TheGreatWizard TheGreatWizard
    36-40, M
    Oct 31, 2015

    Can anyone help me I'm new in the area of

    Kissimmee and sick! Please help I need a connect
    damienrod damienrod
    31-35, M
    Apr 20

    Clean For Eight Years

    I used heroin intensely during two periods of my life. The first was in the Lower East Side of Manhattan when I was in a serious Jim Caroll phase (R.I.P. Jim). The previous poster was wondering why it is assumed that all junkies are scum. That's tough to answer, because...
    dukeofurl dukeofurl
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Nov 16, 2009
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