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I Miss Using Heroin

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    I Got the Knowledge - I've been a junkie scumbag for about 17 years and I have not touched a needle in 7.  Not only can I not get it out of my head, but I still have the same...
    MadRavrrrr MadRavrrrr 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 22, 2008

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    I was an on and off opiate user for uears. 28 with a beautiful 5 ur old child. Got clean 6 months ago. Miss that feeling..of scoring..runningupstairs...dumping it spoon..filling...
    confused4244 confused4244 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Heroin From A Current User Of 15yrs - hi, im still a current heroin user, and have a message to though who have kicked it, and are missing it. at the moment there are very very...
    xmitch00ukx xmitch00ukx 31-35, M 9 Responses Nov 13, 2010

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    Hate To Love You - You gave me many promises And fufilled them all in such a sick way You wrapped me in your receiving arms And away with you I went Overtaken by the warmth and...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2013

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    I Wanna Get High Again - i just got out of a 28 day rehab where i detoxed cold turkey for the third time. i havent used in almost 5 months. every time i get out of rehab i...
    cboNess cboNess 22-25, M 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Wanna Get Right Back On That Ol' Horse... - (Horse is an old slang term for heroin.) I miss it almost every day. Pretty weird, huh? It ruined me more than once. I've kicked so many...
    TorturedLittleThing TorturedLittleThing 31-35, F 29 Responses Jun 29, 2008

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    No Addict Wants To Be Addicted - as anyone with problems with heroin will know the price of taking it is always bigger than the payoff in the end. i started taking it when i was 17...
    Barry26 Barry26 26-30, M 4 Responses May 30, 2012

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    So Much It Hurtz.. - Hardest thing I have ever had to do.. n each day that passes doesn't seem to get easier
    HooDxPRiiNCESS HooDxPRiiNCESS 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2010

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    I been sober for exactly 4 months today and its been such a hard day for me. I keep arguing with my mom she doesn't understand what it's like to be a recovered heroin addict and it...
    Ukraine91 Ukraine91 22-25 2 Responses Jan 29

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    No Matter What Happens - you still completely ache for the drug. I lost everything. I mean, I don't have anything worth anything. I only had a couple black trash bags containing my...
    lmperry5824 lmperry5824 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2013

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    Memories I Cannot Escape - I lie here next to you With your skin so clammy, it sticks to mine The smell of stomach acid on your breath When was the last time youve even eaten...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2013

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    I Miss It So Much. I Need To Get Over This. - I've been clean this tme for over 2 months. This is the 5 th time I've tried to beat this and I'm not sure I can do it. I'm not...
    IrishMegan88 IrishMegan88 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2013

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    Who Would'Ve Thought It Would Have Happened To Me.. - Addiction is one thing I thought I wouldn't have to deal with in my life. It all began when I was 16 and was introduced to...
    breezy55 breezy55 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Leaving H Behind - I have four days clean today, thanks to the help of suboxone though. I dont know if i will make it this time i seem to always fail and relapse, so what makes...
    taylortarr taylortarr 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 17, 2012

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    Does The Crave Ever Go Away?! - so saturday i come home from work to my mom crying and my dad standing in front of my stash. my brother thought i needed help and told my parents. i...
    out0fcontrol out0fcontrol 18-21, F 18 Responses Dec 8, 2009

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    Sober Sucks So Far - This freaking sucks. When does being sober start feeling good??
    amira2 amira2 41-45 6 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    The Costs - Mid 2008 is when opiates came into my life. I had hated them until that point. When I was prescribed them I would quickly sell them and get weed. At 33 something...
    SlightlyStoopid73 SlightlyStoopid73 36-40, M Aug 1, 2012

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    Chasing The Dragon - I stopped using h only a week ago my aches and pains are finaly diminishing, although Im still not able to sleep much. I can't stop thinking about it and how...
    Secretdrge Secretdrge 18-21 3 Responses May 7, 2012

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    Goodbye, My Heroin. - I was a Heroin addict for four years. Opiate addict for five. I was caught last year. June 10th. Caught in a grocery store parking lot buying dope...
    lessieloo lessieloo 22-25, F 8 Responses May 18, 2009

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    moved to north jersey and have been **** outta luck when it comes to h... if anyone can help me ill pay double whatever price you pay
    jdog0921 jdog0921 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    Clean For Eight Years - I used heroin intensely during two periods of my life. The first was in the Lower East Side of Manhattan when I was in a serious Jim Caroll phase (R.I...
    dukeofurl dukeofurl 41-45, M 6 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Addicted - Ive been addict to heroin/cocaine for 11 years now im on methadone but still using coke im looking for friends cause im really lonley in mpls
    lazdeleon lazdeleon 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 11, 2012

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    I Miss Dancin' With Mr. Brownstone - It's been some time since I used any H, (shooting or snorting) I sure do miss it though! It's nights like this that make it hard to stop...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 4 Responses Feb 26, 2013

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    Done And Never Going Back. - I am over this bullsh!t. I need to be or my life will end soon, I can feel it. I'm a better person than I give myself credit for and I can do anything...
    keithstone248 keithstone248 26-30, M 8 Responses Jan 2, 2013

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    The Fire Inside - I quit using heroin 2 yrs ago.  There is almost not 1 day that goes by that I don't think about it.  At first it was the anticipation of getting it...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 28 Responses Aug 31, 2007

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    Story - just moved to nh, used for years, cleaned up, had a very short relapse and now am trying to find suboxones.
    keijei21 keijei21 22-25 1 Response Mar 23, 2012

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    I Dont Know How Much Longer - i am 19 years old. i started using when i was 18, and i used intraveniously every.single.day. multiple times a day for about a year. i am now 160 days...
    SarawAnn SarawAnn 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    I Was Gonna Be Someone - I was never going to be a 35 year old women thinking of it , lying about it . Damn lying to myself . Nah I'm good , just use once a week . Look you're...
    certifiable certifiable 70+, F 1 Response Feb 6, 2013

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    Unfair - How it all started: Well I don't know.  Here are some reasons I think would be why... Weed no longer got me high The pills I took were sissy stuff that didn't get...
    Samantha244 Samantha244 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2011

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    Mother Spoon Calls....... - On July 8th, 2008 I started at the methadone clinic. Its a day that I celebrate, but also mourn. I've used a handful of time since then. More than 3...
    Steener2492 Steener2492 26-30, F 11 Responses Dec 6, 2010

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    2yrs - and still, I cant get it out of my head. I used to be a ********. I would get all strung out before i went on stage. They would play something good like Passenger which is...
    JoyfulSilhouette JoyfulSilhouette 22-25 4 Responses Sep 10, 2012

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    I Really Miss Heroin - Hi im 17 recently my dealer moved and its kinda hard finding a new smack dealer, so basically just is there someone willing to sell in MA?
    spikeupmike spikeupmike 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 21, 2012

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    Quit 6 Years Ago - Hi, I quit using heroin 6 years ago. I used every day for at least a decade. I kicked in jail, a few times, but the last time it stuck. I got arrested for dealin...
    danid187 danid187 31-35 Sep 29, 2010

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    Why Scumbag Junkie ? - First of all, why re-enforce society's false view that we are all bad people who will steal your possessions, murder you and your family and rape your dog...
    felixq78 felixq78 51-55 11 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Heroin: My Love Affair - Six months ago I couldn't even tell you what black tar was. My boyfriend at the time, a serious drug abuser, introduced me to this evil. But it didn't feel...
    asugirl11 asugirl11 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

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    The Photo Has Me Back There!! - I wasn't going to comment again on how much I miss drugs esp a shot of Heroin, but the dog picture brought it back! Before Xmas we had a lurcher...
    cath17 cath17 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    How It Started - The first time I smoked it - I was told it was opium. Later I was convinced to "muscle" it. I overdosed and was sick for Days. I was afraid to try it again, but...
    amira2 amira2 41-45 2 Responses Mar 9, 2011

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    Never Imagined Being A 'career' Junkie - to look at me, I am probably the last person who you'd think was an addict. I am an insurance executive, a mother, and a functioning member...
    xenni xenni 41-45, F 10 Responses Apr 13, 2012

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    I Have No Idea! - i started using heroin about 3 years ago when i experimented with valium, and the environment i was in there was heroin there aswell so i thought whats the harm...
    sinead12 sinead12 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 31, 2009

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    Clean For Two Weeks - ive been clean for two weeks now and i think about heroin every second and a way for me to financially maintain a habit. Weed helps a lot. When you're stoned...
    esantac esantac 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 30, 2010

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    Heroin Ruined My Life. But Now That I'm Clean I Want To Use So Bad - I'm a 24 year old musician. I come from a "good" family, went to college, had plenty of opporunities ahead of...
    dafork dafork 22-25 27 Responses Jul 19, 2011

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    Constant Tapping On My Shoulder . - I want to use , right now I have a huge craving .This is beyond a joke , a decade since I was an addict will she never leave my head .
    certifiable certifiable 70+, F 7 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    A Sad But Happy Ending Story - 2 years ago, my best friend who is an addict for 8 years introduced me to H. Back then i only used weed and some prescription drugs casualy. in 2...
    mrheses mrheses 22-25 2 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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    i dont really miss the actually school and classes. but the regularity of seeing my friends and having routine. i miss that. knowing what i was gonna do all day. no bills and...
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    I just found out two days ago that one of my best friends died from a heroin overdose. She was 25. I miss her so much and I don't know what to do with myself. I hate this drug more...
    Dustinj4mes Dustinj4mes 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 19

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