I Missed Someone So Much It Actually Hurts

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    I messed up real bad.

    All i want to do is to make her happy, but all i've done so far is to hurt her over and over again. I decided to cut contacts with her to protect her heart as well as mine. Now i really regret that decision. I miss her so much my chest hurt.
    oriondelyx oriondelyx
    26-30, M
    Jan 31

    The cemetery where my Dad is buried is an old

    one. Some of the markers are from the early 1700's. I prefer to be alone when I visit my Dad's grave. Not because i am embarrassed to be sitting on the ground beside him and carrying on a conversation, but because I don't have to hurry my visit if I am alone. My wife went...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    May 7, 2015

    Let The Perfect One Go

    I was seeing a girl in college one of the most amazing girls on campus. She was three years older than me and yet we matched. I began dating her my sophomore year and we continued dating for 2 years(long distance, lived together, and worked separated). I was emotionally crippled...
    nosoulchef nosoulchef
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 23, 2012

    My First Love

    when i was 19 i met my first love. we were together for 3 months and i ended up losing my virginity to him. he was my first boyfriend, my first everything. he moved away and i was heart broken. 5 years later and i am still in love with him. ive had other boyfriends and thought i...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 7, 2012

    She was always there

    for me, and I even look most like her. She understand my quirkiness better than anyone. She understood my obsession with chocolate and we would just eat a ton of it together every hannukah. She helped me with my first boy problem even from miles away. She helped me embrace my...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    Widow At 32 With Two Kids

    we went on hoilday to spain got there on the 11th of may this yr my husband went to watch hearts game at pub,fell down stairs was taken to hospital with head injury some how?he got out the hospital dont know if ever will find out was trying to find his way back to our appartment...
    zenlaurie zenlaurie
    31-35, F
    Sep 2, 2013

    Missing Him Too Much?

    Me and my boyfriend have only been together for a little under a month, but it hurts me so much for me to be away from him for even a day. He treats me like a princess, and at times a little too much like one. But I'm scared that I'm becoming too attached to him. Am I?
    DarkCelestriaRose DarkCelestriaRose
    18-21, F
    Oct 25, 2012

    Missed Opportunity

    We have it in us to take it or leave. I in my selfish state decided that I had a career that was more important. I neglected the gift that was being offered to me. She was the nicest person that I had ever come across. I now realise that she was just one in a few million. Did...
    HardingP119 HardingP119
    36-40, M
    1 Response Jan 23, 2013

    It's only been a few days,

    maybe a bit more. I still smell him, taste him, yearn for his touch, the way he looked at me, the way only he could make me feel. He's not right, but he could have been, if only we could have cleared the air properly.
    iamcass iamcass
    31-35, F
    Feb 5, 2014

    Have You Ever Missed Someone It Hurts?

    i've missed someone so much it hurts , we were so in love and i i honestly thought it would be that way forever , i loved him more then words can describe and i still do. we saw each other every single day no exception. my own parents didn't even look at each other the way we...
    amandarose456 amandarose456
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 15, 2012


    Didnt sleep much last night. Tomorrow will be two years without Tanner. He was walking in between my daughter and my wife. Each held his hand as they headed to our truck. My wife let go of his hand to find her keys in her purse when Tanner broke away from my daughter and started...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    2 Responses Apr 19, 2013
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    Nov 5, 2014

    I made a friend here on EP the day I signed up.

    We became friends instantly. Talked (msgd) for a cpl hours the first day. He was going thru some things I was but I was ahead of him in the process. He was such a good person I actually hated his pain worse than my own. He was very gentle, honest and had good morals, always...
    amyj65 amyj65
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jun 3, 2014

    I think the guy was actually my soul mate.

    . If only I has been myself :/ .
    SadieCosmo SadieCosmo
    16-17, F
    Dec 28, 2015

    Wherever They Are...

    I heard the Bach piece again today. The Bach piece I can't name. The Bach piece they were supposed to play a violin solo in at the concert almost two years ago. I think of this person every time I hear this piece. It almost makes me cry. For the past few weeks I've been...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 29, 2013

    I Miss You So Much

    My mother was murdered by my father when I was 9 years old. My father was an alcoholic and he locked me in a closet and waited for my mom to get home because she didn't buy him any cigars. I only remember her screaming and asking were me and my brother were before I heard the...
    eibochi eibochi
    18-21, F
    Jun 30, 2012

    Living In Reverse A Poem For My Angel Niece

    Living in reverse I saw you; your face was so clear You looked at me and said aunt bug wipe your tears I did as you asked and dried my eyes I heard your sweet voice singing lullabies It was reverse; you were comforting me You told me to close my eyes and go back to sleep I did...
    Kaitykay93 Kaitykay93
    18-21, F
    May 22, 2012

    Yesterday started off like any day.

    I was up early and had a cup of coffee on the porch. Then made sure our grandson was up and getting ready for school. Half the time I am not sure what the day is much less the date. It no longer matters that much to me. I was sitting at my desk and just happened to glance at...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    1 Response Jan 6, 2015

    I missed my someone so much

    and I really want to spend my time with him and it hurt cuz we only see each other once a year. Do u know how much it hurt when u missed someone so bad? For it hurt so much that every night I would cried and it really hard for me to sleep and I got force to eat
    lookket lookket
    18-21, F
    Mar 4

    I miss u dad it's been several years

    since you've went to jail. Haven't even seen u since.
    isabellaalyssia isabellaalyssia
    16-17, F
    Nov 6, 2014

    Miss You Already

    you make it so hard to move on . i thought we was doing and out of no were yu dont want date talk or anything ........and yu said something to me that hurt soooooo bad . and if your reading this you no what you said . that was hurtful . ot hurt so bad cuz im always here for you...
    ashlay21 ashlay21
    13-15, F
    May 21, 2012

    I really miss someone.

    ..it hurts so much when he didnt reply my message and I cant live a day without him texting me..Am I overeacted? Everyday I will light up cigar and waiting a text from him...and Im getting really stressed waiting for him. I checked his last seen like every hour just to make sure...
    TheLonelyDude TheLonelyDude
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Nov 6, 2014

    I've lost so many people in my life.

    my granddad died whilst I was in his arms in his sleep. my grandma died of cancer my best friend Jamie got killed in an horrific gun shooting these people made me who I am today and I'm glad to have had them in my life. I miss these three people everyday and things everywhere...
    leahlovesyou leahlovesyou
    22-25, F
    Nov 5, 2014

    I missed you so much.

    And it hurts here coz ive fallen for you now..why now? Before your just a friend for me but now you have a special place here in my heart and this is true. I wish you could read this. I wish i could talk to you again just like before our chatting moments, i just keep on looking...
    Hotmamaanne Hotmamaanne
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    My Boyfriends On Vacation Without Me.

    Unfortunately My Mother Is Super Over-protective And I Rarely Spend Quality Alone Time With Him. He Has Family In A Different State And Visits Them Fairly Often And Ive Yet Too Meet Them... When He Leaves All I Get Is A Vague "Ill Call You" And A Monotone I Love You. Whatever...
    ForeverAlone01 ForeverAlone01
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 16, 2012

    Our Grandson

    My wife and daughter were walking to our truck with Tanner. H was just two years old. When they got close to the truck he broke away and wanted to be the first one there. He took just a few steps and was ran over by a dumptruck and crushed. It happened right in front of my wife...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    Dec 12, 2012

    To See All Grey.

    I miss someone so much that when I think about them it physically hurts. A squeezing, compression around my heart. The problem is no matter how much I grieve the pain is just as it was the day I first felt it. Like a disease if I don't contain it it takes all my thoughts. My very...
    Dragathorian Dragathorian
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 31, 2012


    知らなきゃよかった もう二度と 会えることもないのに 会いたい 会いたいんだ 今でも想う 君がいた あの夏の日を"
    Sakihiro Sakihiro
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2014

    The Fact That He Is Gone...

    ...really hit me hard today. I needed to someone to talk to, but he wasn't there. I couldn't even feel his spirit within me. I was/am devastated. My best friend of 25 years, gone, just like that. Most of my day today consisted of tears, fear and sadness.
    silentwriter180 silentwriter180
    46-50, F
    Jun 19, 2012

    My Grandson

    I drove my grandson to school this morning. On the way back home I had the radio on and was feeling good. Then that song came on, the one i cant listen to without crying. My youngest grandson loved to listen to music on my lap. He had to have the headphones on didnt want to hear...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    Dec 18, 2012

    His Birthday

    Yesterday Tanner would have been four years old, if he had lived. It isnt fair that he had such short time here with us. He was loved and cared for, he was happy and sweet and beautiful.He was almost two when he died and I will never get over it. I dont know wich is worse..his...
    marriedup marriedup
    56-60, M
    Jan 6, 2013

    I Just Want My Babe Back

    About a month or so ago my boyfriend got arrested for some complete bullshit...he's never been to jail never had a record doesn't get in trouble...and all of a sudden someone gets in trouble and wants to drag him into it just to save their own ***...anyway..I've never had to deal...
    Uaiintfresh Uaiintfresh
    18-21, F
    Jul 28, 2012

    Accidental Meeting

    Well, B, you have no idea how much I've missed you since I last saw you face to face. I can still see your smiling face and the joy in your eyes. I still remember you being so close to tears when I told you how I felt about you. Can you believe I can still remember all this...
    bobrido bobrido
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2013

    Miss My Ex Boyfriend

    i miss my ex boyfriend so much.and i do still love him.but he dont love me like he used to.he use to love me so much. i miss his love.and i miss everything about him.and now i have to accept the fact that he doesn't love me anymore.what did i do to deserve this. )':
    valecia valecia
    4 Responses Sep 18, 2012

    ugh hate this feeling.

    When someone is truly in love with you and tells you how crazy he is about you. You love that person back. but can't say it bc you don't want to and just can't do anything about it. for so many complicated reasons. I miss him so much that it hurts. and he doesn't even know that...
    SilverUniicorn SilverUniicorn
    70+, F
    1 Response Jan 30

    A Friend In Need

    On the beach ,,On the sand Near the river ,I heard a sound. It was not a bird ,Not a child A beautiful girl ,Sitting amid. She was singing a song ,All alone I was thinking why ,Is she so forlorn? I walked towards her ,Step by step To know what’s wrong ,And why is she sad. I...
    vimkha vimkha
    31-35, M
    Jul 16, 2012
    ketan363 ketan363
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 23, 2015

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