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    5th Place

      At my place of employment this time evry year we have a compitition getting ready for the Holiday season. I placed 5th out of 9 in the district. Ok, it's not a bad place to be, but, it's not where I wanted to be. I was the 1st store they visited. And by the 3rd store I...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2009

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    Except I can't have one without fear my private

    thoughts will be read. Hooray for EP private blog entries. Not quite the same as pen to paper in a college rule notebook but hey, I'll take it.
    S74rxed S74rxed 31-35, F Oct 24

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    Envy

      So, I went over a work friends house this past Friday night. It's the first time we've hung out outside of work. It was very nice of her to invite me over. She knows what transpired with my daughter and other issues with work. I almost cancelled our get together because i...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 30, 2009

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    Indigo Adults....

      This is an article from a horiscope website. I thought it was interesting because it describes me very well. There are even a couple of parts of sentences that I say often, like....reactive behaviors and fierce and passionate, (people at work say that part about me all of...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 18, 2009

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    Life Sucks......at Times

      You said "I know life sucks", I answered....."Not always, just sometimes." You agreed, nodded your head, said "yeah", and walked away. You reminded me to breath. Thank you, for that and more.   Life sucks........yeah, sometimes it does. We want things, we want...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Mar 20, 2010

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    I Love Writing

    I Love Writing. I have the need to write and write and write some more. I have done research and there are those who say it is because I am epileptic and bipolar. I am really glad to find this website. I am able to write and sometimes help others in the process.Today was a fairly...
    MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor 46-50, M May 6, 2012

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    I'm Sad Today

       I'm feeling sorry for myself today and for the past few days, ok, maybe weeks. I'm tired, and lonely and just need somebody to hold me. Somebody I care about as much as they care about me. Somebody that will be ok for me to cry on. ANd boy do I need a good cry, Not...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 25, 2009

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    Nice, Funny And Unexpected Answers....

       So yesturday one of my friends answered  this question...."If .....(me)......was a superhero, what powers would she have?"   I loved her answer...it totally shocked me.....  ''Look up in the sky. It's super betty bomb shell. With the...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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    Just Thinking........

    I find it funny most people don't like to be left out or alone most/all of the time. So, we make "friends". Friends are all different degrees. Some mean more than others. But I try to do what I can for all my "friends". Too badit doesn't get recipricated. Too bad most people...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Sep 27, 2012

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    Arrrgggg...just Needed To Vent

    I just need to get it off my chest because I have no other place to say what I feel without feeling bad, or getting ridiculed for how I feel. I am alone. I come home to nobody. I don't have many friends, and the friends I do have I have realized are not what I would call...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Oct 12, 2011

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    I Want....

    There are those who say if you say it it will come true, maybe not today or tomorrow, but becaus eyou put it out there in the universe it will happen. So, I'm writing down things that I want. I want to get married, a real wedding, you know with the dress and all the hub-bub...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Oct 23, 2011

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    College Life

    so college is the best four years of your life or something right? well i'm almost one semester in and i rarely can find anything to smile about. i have pseudo -friends, you see. when i'm with them we laugh an joke around, but once the class ends or the lunch line shortens, they...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    Thought For The Day

       Just sitting here thinking....(usually gets me in trouble, thinking that is) :) Anyway, just thinking, do you think that the person who helped in breaking your heart ever thinks about it, about what they had a hand in, about how you are or how you handled things? Do...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 20, 2010

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    Need!

    i just feel the need to write so i dont forget anything. and sometimes i have flashbacks and nightmares and what ive heard called " user dreams" that haunt me until they are written down... so thats it. tonight i start!!! Thank you to this group and everyone in it!
    Mischiefmon Mischiefmon 18-21, F Jul 28, 2012

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    Dreams

           Dreams....we, especially girls, grow up with dreams. Dreams of how our lives will be. Who we will marry, what our wedding will be like, the perfect job, schooling, our friends, the house we will live in, how many children, the perfect dress...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 7 Responses May 22, 2010

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    My Journal

    For me, keeping a journal is somewhat therapeutic. It’s my way of venting, of feeling in control when I have no control over the things going on around me. Sometimes I get lazy and let days and weeks pass between entries, but then I go right back to writing. I especially like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 13, 2012

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    Upset

      So my daughter spent most of the summer vacationing with her father or with friends. No problem. I enjoyed the time alone. Don't get me wrong, I miss her, but, it was nice to not to have to worry about getting home from work at certain times and all that mother stuff...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 5 Responses Aug 11, 2009

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    'Rose Colored Glasses' Last night I was

    talking with a newer friend. He did most of the talking but I got a few words in here and there. I found as the night went by, as we were talking his features started to change. He started to look like a man I loved at 1 point in my life. I found it weird. I guess subconsciously...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Dec 30, 2013

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    Whining About Work...nothin G Special, Just Needed To Whine

    Just feel lost today. I have been working my *** off the past week, major remod going on at work that somehow I became in charge of. The person who should be in charge (still technically is) has done nothing. The people who should be getting in trouble aren't, I'm sick and tired...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Oct 15, 2011

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    Left Behind

    The allure of running away, in every sense of the phrase, is intoxicating. Who hasn't thought of leaving all they have and everyone they know? They must be incredibly happy, or incredibly stupid people. Back to the Mud. As the saying goes in a very good book by Joe A. It is only...
    RoseSparrows RoseSparrows 26-30 1 Response Jul 25, 2012

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    Not Sure How I Feel.........

    This year has been pretty busy in many ways, yet, a bit of down time also. I needed the down time, that's for sure. Events for the year..... - entered a drawing I did into an art show - In May we found out that our father died (Messed up story, maybe I'll write about...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Jul 4, 2013

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    She Moved

      My last story tells how my daughter called to say that she thinks she's going to move to 6 hrs aways from me.   Today is Friday August 21, 2009 and my daughter left for Maryland. She made her decision this past Tuesday night and packed and her father was here at...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 21, 2009

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    A Rainy Day

    I'm writing this as I think about it. I have not been inspired to write in quite awhile yet a little bit ago I couldn't get home fast enough because I have a little part of a potential story in my head. In the past I have written and rewritten before posting anything. As I said...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 17, 2013

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    3:30 In the Morning

      I hate being the only one to do everything. I ask for help and don't get it. I have feelings and they get thrown back in my face. I get tired of trying and getting no respect. I am tired of being surrounded by so many two faced people. I hate working with so many back...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 7 Responses Mar 27, 2009

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    Bonding Withdrawels

    On my way home from work tonight I was listening to the radio. The Dalila show was on and she was reading a letter from an 18 yr old young lady. The author wrote how when she was younger she couldn't wait to be older. (I think most of humanity wishes that when we are children...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 2, 2012

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    Little To Nothing

    There are only a few reasons left to be happy about living. After finding that out, the options for an early (yet hardly and untimely) death are alluring without downfall. Suffocation, overdose, plummeting from a tall object, walking into traffic.. That last one is a stretch, and...
    RoseSparrows RoseSparrows 26-30 Jul 13, 2012

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    I Want It All

    Is that so bad? To want it all? Well I guess in some ways maybe yes. I mean if we have it all, then what will we strive for next. So maybe I don't want it all, but, I do want a comfortable, loving, happy and successful life. Now is that so bad? What I want....... I...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Apr 14, 2012

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    Lucy's Lifetime Journal.

    I have always loved journaling and do a personal journal for myself each and every day.  Most of you know I have a new niece, Lucy and she is the light of my life.  She was born just a little under 3 months ago and I am working on something very special for her high...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 19 Responses Oct 30, 2009

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    Just A Thought

       As much as I think people understand me....I find out that they really don't. Does anybody really understand anybody else? I guess only as good as we can. I think the trick is to try to put ourselves in their shoes. The thing with that is that most people only care...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 22, 2010

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    The I Wants List For Today...

       -I want to say this...you used me and I allowed it, part of me does believe that it wasn't all a game, but most of it was    -I have so much to say and you wont give me the time    -I might have hurt your feelings, but you crushed my...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2009

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    It's Almost The End Of The Year...........

    ......so I was thinking of starting my New Year resolutions - forgive and forget or move on - say goodbye - have fun - meet a partner - find my own place - finish paying off my bills - loose weight/get in better shape - finish my story.....it's getting...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 27, 2012

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    Last

       So, I think I was F***ed over by my x husband for the last time. We were married for 10 yrs, we have now been divorced for 10 yrs. We have 3 children together. We live in 2 different states with about 6 hours of drive time between. My oldest is 20 and after high...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 11, 2010

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    Today..11/27/09 (black Friday)

      The day after Thanksgiving      I went to work for 5 am, that's ok becaus ei really have no need to do the Black Friday shopping like I used to. I used to have fun going out on Black Friday. My best friend and I would get up very early and go stand in...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 3 Responses Nov 27, 2009

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    I "need" An Apology

      There are 2 people that I can think of on this planet that I feel deserve me an apology.   I have  friend that when he hears me apologize he tells me never to apologize. I still do. I don't apologize for what I've done. I apologize for how the person it affected...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 17, 2009

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    Ultimately......

    Ultimately we will all die. And working your *** off does not mean much except maybe with a little bit more money you may get slightly better health care. But, ultimately money or none we will die. So.......... I personally try to do my best every day. I will not please...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2012

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    No Deception In Journaling For Me

    I had begun journaling in my teens. I must have close to 30 journal books; some bought at the local discount store for $1, some of them bought at the stationary or card store for nearly $10 dollars. Beatuiful, inspirational or just inviting, I have written in many journals. Some...
    Missalaineyeus Missalaineyeus 46-50, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    I'm Rambling Just Because I Can't Sleep...

    It's almost my birthday and I'm turning into a mess like usual. There are days I just hate me. I hate who I am, who I pretend to be, and who I'm not. I haven't been feeling well all week, maybe it's the weather, maybe it's depression, I don't know. I want a hug. I want tender...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2011

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    Help

    Ok, so my oldest son (22 yrs old) tells me the other week that he thinks he wants a sex change. Ummmm......could anybody give me some help with this one? Of course I told him I wont love him any less, but, it is going to be wierd if he does. He still needs to talk to the Dr's, so...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Oct 9, 2011

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    Thoughts.......

    So I was just watching a show on TV. The wife in the show gets upset for one reason or another and her husband goes and holds her and lets her cry. That makes me laugh and tear up and even a little jelious. You see a few years back I was in such trauma. I lost a job I enjoyed...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Apr 21, 2013

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    This morning I was watching one of my favorite

    movies.....The Incredibles. Love that movie for so many reasons. The biggest reason, Mr. Incredible reminds me of an old love. After the movie came out I called him my Mr. Incredible. He would just smile. He used to call me Jessica Rabbit (I have big boobs)..........but I didn't...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Dec 8, 2013

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    Why Does Love Turn Into Hate?

    I loved/love a man that I can not have. I know he cares very deeply for me also, he even said he loved me. But he made a choice for one reason or another and chose somebody else. I respect him for that, it still hurts to be rejected, but I still respect it. I still love him for...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F Nov 10, 2010

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    This is an extract from my journal .

    I was 8 years old when I experienced hostel life in school.I did not understand what hostel life meant when I went there.There was no good school nearby ,so my parents had to put me there.I did not know then it meant staying away...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 25

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    I Actually Have One But...

    It doesn't have any lines in it and is not really to my liking.  I'm pretty picky when it comes to journals.  I treasure all my journals.  They're basicly all my emotions, joys and hardships all written down in my messy handwriting.  They show all the things I...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 26, 2009

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    Other Half Of Me

    The problem with me having one is that I write in it sparatically. So I can write in it everyday .. then months can go by without a single entry! Right now I have so much stress and so many emotions in me an empath (by the way I am one so I know) would feel overwhelmed. Anger...
    cdailey cdailey 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 23, 2011

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    I'm Sad

        I'm sad tonight and I'm really not sure. It's a bunch of little things and nobody to talk to about it. Nobody to agree with my thoughts, nobody to disagree with my thoughts, nobody to even tell my thoughts to.     I'm sad because I want...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2009

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    I have started writing again.

    Till now I have written about a couple of pages.I hope I can maintain my positivity all along and concentrate less on the bad events in my life.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 7 Responses Oct 23

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    Update From A Long While Ago

    the boy i met is now my co-worker, his name is Alex and he is super cute, super cool, and super taken. Also I'm on tumblr now, my name is proanime. laters, babes
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    Scattered Brains, Scattered Life Turned Into Life In Shambles..

    I used to read and write a lot. I guess I was the kid who would have been classified as your typical bookworm/geek in high school. However, as of late, I've been involved with a lot of studying + overtime at work that frankly I don't have enough time in the day to make room for...
    luckied luckied 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 18, 2012

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    I Got This In An Email and Thought I Would Share

     (I like what Regina wrote and believe it but sometimes fall off the wagon) Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2009

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    I Wana Place That Not All Of My Friends Use1

    All of my friends are on at least 99% of the journaling sites I use. we're talking about Live Journal, Insane Journal, Dead Journal (which I don't like) and Dreamwidth. I don't like Open Diary, but I can't figure out or find another alternative. I know this site has a blog, but I...
    AgilePhoenix AgilePhoenix 31-35, F May 28, 2012

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    Eating Alone....

    I have been single for awhile now. I don't like it but have excepted that it's just the way things are right now. Ok, fine. So, I'm single, it mena si have to do most things by myself like going out to eat. I go out to eat often, either for lunch or dinner, depends on what I am...
    jrabbit1321 jrabbit1321 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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