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I Need An Escape From Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 144 People

    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jul 16

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-18, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    The best advice I can give someone hell bent on bloodshed as a release would still be really bad advice, but I've been there and I know that it's a momentary escape from something...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I need to face myself, and I'm doing that now. I'm tired of my old me( look at my other account and u will understand) and it's time for me to "start fresh" and hopefully use EP to...
    JazLife21 JazLife21 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Sometimes when everything seems too much it's nice to find a song that reads your emotions and let's you escape briefly from your problems. Music can be soothing, it can be...
    kisukes kisukes 22-25, M Oct 7

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    I'm the only one with the power to kill myself and I'm going to do it soon , I'm tired of waiting for it to get better because it never does
    losingthespark losingthespark 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 30

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    On February 11 I celebrated two years cut free but today I'm celebrating 28 days cut free. I feel so disappointed in myself that it's indescribable
    Lulu6494 Lulu6494 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    Since all this started with me wanting to develop my spiritual gift there has been a man here in spirit, he's with me all the time, he is the father of the kids I babysit, I've...
    flash742 flash742 22-25, F Oct 21

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    I love the state itself, but despise most of the people that live there. It's like they all live in their own little sheltered country. Not to mention the cops abuse their power...
    emeraldtriangle420 emeraldtriangle420 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 16

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    The last time I have cut was three months ago, but I have had the urge to do it again very soon. ;-;
    AngelicMerrow AngelicMerrow 18-21, F Oct 1

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    I am 22, my guy is 54, he fell ill and I asked him if I could stop by for a visit. He lives with is mother which he takes care of and she is homophobic and he is closeted. In short...
    Rudanthonick Rudanthonick 22-25, M Oct 9

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    From Life Right Now... I really just need to escape from life right now, more than I can even explain. Life is so hard, and so confusing, and just not something that i want to do...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    Today, during the routine exodus of buses, I lost myself in those thoughts. The fantastically beautiful panoramic. There's a meaninglessness in the fabric of my life I wish to...
    s0undgarden s0undgarden 16-17, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    It's not that I don't like my family, but more of....I don't like who I am and who I've become since living with my family. Ever since I was 13, I was mostly living alone by myself...
    tanasiluv tanasiluv 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    There is beauty in all, and there is the ugly. Neither exist in solitary corners. Neither can survive without the other. There is balance in all thing, and we seek equilibrium...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Oct 11

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    I cut. I can't explain why. You know, if you have been there. It's not the physical pain i enjoy, but the escape from that which there is no running from. I can't get away so i...
    Kate197979 Kate197979 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    1) Psychology Interests me 2) I used to talk to a imaginary dragon 3) I wished upon a star for mutant powers 4) I admire the colours in fall, reminds me of how change can be...
    hulkgirl hulkgirl 18-21 1 Response Oct 16

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    But I've spent most of my time here and rarely with others in real life as if I wanted to escape from everything. My dad might take the phone away soon so I won't be able to be...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    I am TRYING to learn this & I am having problems with it. In the past 2 years, I have nearly died twice (sepsis & a heart attack), have dealt with cancer, the heart attack...
    ImBatmanNow ImBatmanNow 51-55, M 3 Responses Oct 19

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    When I was a boy, my parents told me that everybody in the world had a soul mate. I went on to have this belief and never examined it fully on his own. Despite my rebellious years...
    ThusWroteZarathustra ThusWroteZarathustra 22-25, M a week ago

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    I'm rotten there's no cure for that...no one's wiling to save me because I'm too crazy and demanding and needy. People tend to runaway, I don't blame them but I really wanted...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I secretly suffer from EDNOS.. I mostly suffer from symptoms of Anorexia but if I feel like I've eaten to much or I feel sick, I then feel the need to make myself vomit, which...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My only escape from this no love drama filled life
    xXxDreamer24xXx xXxDreamer24xXx 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    I recently ended my employment with a family I had been working with for about 2.5 years. I raised the youngest since birth and was like a second mother to him. The mother had...
    Beckka11 Beckka11 31-35, F Oct 21

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    Please, I'm really lonely and I need some company to distract from myself.....
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 6

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    I have been holding grudges and lots of rage for years for the fact that I'm percieved from most people as an inferior When people look at me they consider themselves superior to...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 6 Responses Oct 16

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    Sighhhhhh...I just need a few days away from myself...I want to get out of my head. I want company with someone special. I want to feel happy and hopeful and content and loved and...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    I need to burn myself. The pain lasts way longer than cutting. I need something that lasts.
    marchz13 marchz13 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    Nothing lasts forever, I can go through this time, Its just a phase, Its just a phase, its just a phase, I talk to myself, I Know I'm lying, I'm a part of the illusion I was once...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    There's something in my subconscious mind that yearns for true romantic affection. It's there everyday . It's a slow drum march that takes up the streets of thought. I need to...
    Elsiboney Elsiboney 46-50, M 1 Response Oct 22

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    I don't treat me as well as i should, and when people say nice things to me i don't believe them it seems fake or as if they are only saying those things just because, that's how i...
    angiestones angiestones 18-21, F Oct 17

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    I fill my emptiness with distractions, it used to be adult films the buying DVDs the shopping spree at the bookstores. I know it's not normal to be depressed and also thinking...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    Not i can be....but I am best friends with people who are totally different from myself...I have 3 best friends and people always wonder what we have in common or what has kept as...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 3

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    I broke with my boyfriend and year ago. And if you have read my earlier posts, you would know what kind and nature of a guy he is. We broke up cuz he didnt gave me even a slightest...
    rainbow2196 rainbow2196 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    My ex won't talk to me. He's a waste of space and I shouldn't be with him... But I'm going to be. Please don't tell me I'm better off without him, I know that but I still want him...
    Kerry1304 Kerry1304 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 22

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