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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    in this prison where lucky ones think they're free i try to escape just to feel what would be like to be one...far from this condition just finding my own patterns of...
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    I am very real... maybe a little TOO real at times. Sometimes I forget that moving my lips and hearing the words that escape is NOT thinking... it's actually speaking and others...
    SunnyDayze2 SunnyDayze2 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just need to remove some memories with out effecting the rest of me but nothing seems to work.
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    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Actually, I'm talking to the TV (same difference). I'm kind of a news junkie, but lately the stories being covered and the spin being put on them are just plain annoying in my view...
    Dave002 Dave002 56-60, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    bluecupcakes bluecupcakes 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M Jul 24

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    Seventh grade was fun but now ima eight grader looking like I'm going 2 be a freshman but like girls don't like me cus I talk to a lot and girls fight way to much... WHY THE HELL...
    Bennythebull7 Bennythebull7 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    i need advice from a girl living in uk
    asif25 asif25 22-25, M Jul 23

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    to escape reality would seem to be ideal until you realize your reality shapes your existence......
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 23

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    I made a decision that cost me eternal love, joy, peace, relationship... all the good things that only Love Himself can give. I don't understand why I did it, the only answer would...
    Coloursearching Coloursearching 22-25 Jul 23

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    All these years, I've never quite known what my escapism was until recently. Is it normal? Is it a disorder? Am I mentally ill? Is it common? What is normal? Well to me, in...
    Tamikles Tamikles 26-30, F Jul 22

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    For as long as I could remember everything has always been a struggle. Even now everything is a struggle, I don't know what it feels like to not struggle. I just want to escape it...
    chy08 chy08 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    you can't find one who don't even know where they're you will be loved and destroyed by me all is well around me..except within me seconds of melancholic void maybe i feel...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jul 22

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    Tired... just tired of overdue bills, collection, being single, working hard and not getting anywhere, eating my feelings.
    SelfishShellfish SelfishShellfish 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 22

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    I have limits. They've been pushed. Where's my escape?
    jules021775 jules021775 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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