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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jul 16

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-18, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Today I self harmed for the first time. I just had a sort of mental/emotional break, so I broke a small mirror and used a shard. I've always had a self destructive personality but...
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    Is it bad that I am really scared of myself more then anyone else? I am scared I'm going to do something I'm going to regret in the end or put scars where I will get questioned..
    Muppo23 Muppo23 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mSNvdLpLx-0 How do you know your real?
    RasinBoy RasinBoy 26-30, M Aug 22

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    I have to all the time. This world is tough so when I want peace and to remember my spirit I meditate. I am closer to God and my angel when I can meditate and I feel wonderful. I...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F Aug 22

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    Life brings a lot of surprises. I am feeling the earth but I don't know where I am standing. Don't know but I scared a lot. Is this world is good place for me?
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 29

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    Dementors. There are dementors inside my head.
    greycells greycells 36-40, F 5 Responses Aug 26

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    Depression is a pit full of ****, maggots, and worms, It's always tragic and it's always long term. Unexpected and accepting no solutions, unless you have a noose, friends...
    CJCA CJCA 18-21, M Aug 26

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    I am going to try to stay off EP tomorrow. I know that I will not succeed. But i am getting in trouble at work for not getting work done. What has EP done to me?
    BlueEyedFaye BlueEyedFaye 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 21

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    What are the main things that push you men away in a relationship? And if you women was insecure about your ex's how would you reassure her?
    lollypop61 lollypop61 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    For those of you who are struggling with self harm especially those who are like me and have a major problem with suicidal tendencies.... And you have a boyfriend or husband that...
    Gonzales96 Gonzales96 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I only found about me having this like a year ago. I only started doing something to help me control it in someway. But i will be honest....Before i found out about what this was...
    Rosethewolf Rosethewolf 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    Hi, I know people don't follow me on this site, why should they I am not popular. What I taught that only I felt turns out there are thousands of you guys who are the same as me...
    yashgup yashgup 22-25, M Aug 26

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    I have known my boyfriend for years. We finally got together approximately two years ago. Before we realised how we felt about one another we spent loads of time together because...
    K504lois K504lois 31-35, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    Name that tune. Day2: Come to decide that the things that I tried were in my life just to get high on. When I sit alone, come get a little known But I need more than myself this...
    Noloveforyou Noloveforyou 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    Thanks also to EP I stopped going bar boozing and binge drinking. I had 2 difficult years. Now I don't have that problem anymore. I can stay at home or I can go out without...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    At the moment all these thoughts that aren't necessarily great are building up in my mind and sometimes it's gets to a point where u can't deal with it and I start to go into...
    ImagineTheMelody ImagineTheMelody 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I escaped from a depression Happy i did.... Meh family still fighting, still looking for friends etc But at least now i dont feel the pain that i use to everyday and the darkness...
    InfiniteMusic InfiniteMusic 13-15, M Aug 27

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    I just need time for myself. Everything is just making me overwhelmed with life. Got school, then family, the whole moving from another place, Theater, and there are just people...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F Sep 1

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    Art is my escape from reality
    cleef84 cleef84 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 3

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    I cut for the first time in a few months... Just to try to escape from the pain he causes me... I cant run, cant hide. All I have is cutting.
    Wranglergirl33 Wranglergirl33 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I have hated myself from a very young age. Although my parents never beat me black and blue or locked me in a closet, they played a big role in making me feel completely indequate...
    ridersofrohan ridersofrohan 18-21 1 Response Sep 3

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    I really need to get away from everybody and everything just for a couple of days or more, I need to allow myself to pull myself together.. (I can't believe I used "relapse...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 1 Response Sep 8

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    I feel like a right outsider of reality really left out!I feel like I shouldn't be here and I'm completely different to the crowd! I'm so independent and alone in reality... I look...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F Sep 8

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    Lately , I have been feeling really down. I feel like I am only good when someone needs something. It seems like most of my family and friends will only bother with me when they...
    doubletees doubletees 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    My ex broke up with me about two months ago. He then contacted me a few days ago. First he video called me and I had missed it. Then he had called me and I missed it and then he...
    whoateyourheart whoateyourheart 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Today I went for a swim at my local lake. As I jumped into the water with enthusiasm, I was determined to swim to the little island far off in distance. I paddled and paddled and I...
    BLVLFreeSwim BLVLFreeSwim 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    Nobody knows the real me.. My family doesn't know the pain that's inside. I hide it behind a smile; It's funny how so much pain Can be hidden behind one fake smile. They think I'm...
    ravenzewolf ravenzewolf 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    Seems to happen time and time again. I am inlove with the most wonderful man but the long distance makes it so hard. My mistake was to build my life around around our relationship...
    nicoleACA nicoleACA 22-25, F Sep 1

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    From myself. I get myself in deep trouble sometimes, and just can't seem to stop.
    MrsApple MrsApple 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    Every time I get close to people, I start over-scrutinizing their faults, sort of like a defense mechanism. My brain's like "oh you don't want to be with that person, he texts...
    janeastin janeastin 22-25 Sep 5

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    This is so frustrating!!!! I seriously need help from someone who is committed to answer ten questions from their college/university experience!! I have this assignment due...
    Gabsters05 Gabsters05 16-17, F Aug 25

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    I'm not looking for attention, I'm just trying to vent out my emotions I've been bottling up. But to get to the point, I'm a happy go lucky dude that loves to put a smile on...
    NigNog96 NigNog96 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 27

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