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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    Some do drugs, others go

    for a run, but at the end we are all just searching for that tiny space, perhaps a hole, that gives us shelter from the terrible reality of the world.. But I'm tired of running from reality, always daydreaming, I want to live my life without fear and anxiety.. :)
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 16, 2014

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-18, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    I wish it was as easy as when I was a child. Now, I'm going through a stupid breakup that occupies my mind most the day. Figuring out financial **** on my own without his paycheck...
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    I just need someone to save me
    Xaxus193 Xaxus193 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    .. and it is not about having more fun, or relaxing more... it is not about being more relaxed physically, but mentally. I need to be more careless and maybe more selfish...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    I'm in a state where self harm is becoming a more frequent thought. An easy thought to bear. I hate myself. I hate who I am. I hate my life. Nobody cares unless there is benefit...
    JustThat6irl JustThat6irl 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    Jarlaxle Jarlaxle 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 13

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    Proverbs 3:5-7 Try it. But do it the way he wants you to. Jeremia 48:17,18.
    alwaysconfidant alwaysconfidant 26-30, F Feb 9

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    Believe in yourself and your feeling. Trust yourself to do what your heart is guiding you to do. Your intuition is powerful. Trust it.
    Zelaleme Zelaleme 46-50, F Feb 6

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    i am a loser. loser loser loser loser loser loser loser. just wait before you say that again.
    Hicaniuseu Hicaniuseu 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    It's not as easy as it seems.
    kaixin97 kaixin97 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    LifeIsBeatingMe LifeIsBeatingMe 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I wake up and nothing makes sense. I feel lost and somehow separated from myself. I've lost something. Will I find it if I traverse the unknown. Or will the unknown only emphasize...
    rustyskills rustyskills 41-45, M 8 hrs ago

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    It's how I escape from the pain for a lil while and right now I really just need to escape. :'(
    rokrchik1211 rokrchik1211 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    Screaming at the window Watch me die another day Hopeless situation endless price I have to pay Sanity now it's beyond me there's no choice Diary of a madman Walk the line again...
    joophomme joophomme 41-45, M Jan 27

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    I do this to much: Music and sleep, two great ways to escape from everything.
    mstv1112 mstv1112 16-17, F Feb 7

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    I came here as an escape from Facebook, Instagram and all the other mundane forms of social media that flood the mainstream. I came looking for anonymity but found a place I could...
    PRCgirl73 PRCgirl73 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 13

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    I wanna get away so badly. Escape from my life for a little bit. Just have fun, relax, explore. Just leave my troubles here as I go somewhere happy, and carefree. Like, I wish I...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 5

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    I've been getting high for 3 straight days. Just so I can forget about everything for a while... Sit there, still in agony, yet I can't feel it. But at the same time I feel...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 8

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    school is really stressing me out. im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 28

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    prodemonz prodemonz 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My whole life I have always been a little chunky. I need an Ana buddy to help me with my weight loss journey and I'll help you with yours! I'm a frequent binge eater and I need...
    32327ag 32327ag 18-21, F Jan 30

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    Hey, I really screwed up and I need advice from someone! I met this girl on EP and we really hit it off... Things got a bit hot and heavy and I think I went to far... I tried to...
    84parkerb 84parkerb 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I had RF ablation yesterday on my neck and all I can say is wow. I had a meltdown in the office before we even started & probably should have just walked out. I felt all the...
    Genesis922 Genesis922 41-45, F 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    I need to be touched , I lay in bed weak and limp for a mans touch. To run my fingers along his hairy chest and feel the sweat on his body as he buldges from his underwear. I want...
    ThinkPink21 ThinkPink21 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    This is the story I often ********** to. Some of my own writing. :) Erotica without actually descriptions are the best because, for me, they leave the details to be filled in by...
    NoVADad703 NoVADad703 31-35, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Self Reflections My skin is not a tough armor, its too thin and easily broken. The air i am inhaling is attenuating with each gasp for breath. My shins are quivering and small...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I bullied someone in high school she had forgiven me but I can't forgive myself for it. It fills me with so much sadness realising she could of developed depression and the amount...
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    Working Werewolf spell! You will need the following items for this spell: Voice Full moon Belief. It won't work if you don't believe. SPELL: (Say it 10x; more if you think it will...
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    I could really use someone to talk to. So, I am still recovering, from abuse. My ex threw me, choked me, threatened to kill me. He played mind games. Many, many mind games. He...
    amtired amtired 22-25 4 Responses 17 hrs ago

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