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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Im going to play sims all night

    and escape life for awhile. My emo punk sim is now an adult and she married a young adult and they have a baby named morganna. She will be a kid soon and i want her to master a bunch of traits and get many degrees in college. I might make her move to the isla paradise after she...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Aug 6

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    we're all here. the lights

    and boys are blinding. we need love but all we want is danger. the rumors are cruel. but most of them are true. --t.s.
    amazedbygrace amazedbygrace 31-35, F Aug 7

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    I trapped my heart didn't listen didn't care what it said. shut the **** up I don't want to hurt. anger and depression settled in. for years I traded connection, peace and love for...
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    I know people want instant results but I am not that kind of person. I am not indecisive; I am pensive and I try to be deliberate with my actions and often my words, too. So I need...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 6 hrs ago

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    is there anyone in or around Ohio who wants to run away im near Columbus im 16 and need a friend to travel with i don't care where we go i just need away from my abusive parents i...
    travelingfarsoon travelingfarsoon 16-17, M 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    My name is Vicky. I have cerebral palsy. I went to a boarding school near Brighton. I was a pretty girl then. I had long blond hair. I am slim as well as being quite small. I...
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    this is a true experience, and just for note I don't like peeing myself at all. I don't mind desperation in private, but I don't like it in public or find it fun at all. This for...
    kgirl17 kgirl17 18-21 1 Response 3 days ago

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    hymn of nothingness oh i have serve feels like eternity to feel...joy and sadness illuminate my path with darkness and nothingness away from all this madness unite me with...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Imagine if we weren't here, didn't have a life. Then we would respect having a life, because we couldn't see how extraordinary it can be. We are grateful for the things we have...
    hayzel1 hayzel1 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    At times????are you crazy?????....I want to escape it at all times lol
    listenup listenup 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    For the past 13 years I have been struggling with depression and anxiety. I constantly look for ways to ease the pain by spending time with friends or locking myself in my room...
    xXberialXx xXberialXx 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    reflecting a color only i can see greeted by monsters of my insecurities sleep..escape to another galaxy dream are monsters snatching away my sanity light some candles in...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 19

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    It's not often that I experience deep feelings. My feelings are usually rather short lived and shallow in a way. It's nice when I get in these moods so I can revel in my deepest...
    artxinxmotion12 artxinxmotion12 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    wish i didn't know didn't expected now it's killing me to see you in reality didn't predict to witness this cruelty poisonous and so cold, smiling, throne of all your...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 17

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    I hope there is someone out there who will listen to my story. 2 years ago I fell in love. I realized I was in love with her when she fell asleep in my bed and her cheek was...
    oceanastronaut oceanastronaut 18-21, F Aug 17

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    I'm so much more fascinated by the thoughts in my head, the constructs of my imagination, and the dreams I have at night. This feeling I occasionally get surpasses boredom by...
    StrawHatWanderer StrawHatWanderer 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I have never admitted this to anyone, but I self-punish. The thing is, I've always done this. I remember doing it when I was two years old. A lot of times, I'll get into moods...
    ChristineGalaxies ChristineGalaxies 13-15, F Aug 16

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    My first international travel was a cultural and artistic shock. When I was 20 years old I went backpacking in Europe for a month. It was the first trip abroad that I went on alone...
    onlybychance onlybychance 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 15

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    Anger is not something to be ashamed of. Anger is a natural response to injustice and can help break the cycle of abuse. Anger is a crucial part of recovery. Two weeks ago on 7/31...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F Aug 15

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    I couldn't sleep and I was bored with the internet. Normally, I would just entertain myself in my head. Think about morbid things, how I would tell people about my suicidality and...
    X88B88 X88B88 22-25 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I tell my self that i hate myself at least twenty times a day. Its become a bad habit. It started when i would think of a bad memory or something embarrassing that i did. But now...
    TheAnonymousCat TheAnonymousCat 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 13

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    In my room, I feel safe and secure. in my room, I know I won't have to deal with the anxieties of everyday life. It's the only place left where I can completely relax...
    awkweirdchick awkweirdchick 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 13

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    all the ones who lived in the background living and observing the lights sweet, beautiful vanishing sights how you feel...after a while do you race to create a goal or you...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Aug 12

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    I feel like a need a vacation from myself and the life that I currently live but I don't know how I could ever do that
    confusedcdgurl confusedcdgurl 31-35, T 4 Responses Aug 12

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    So i just looked at this on wikipedia, and to my dismay it was like a description of my life. While i don't have any sort of traumatic background, i have always had an overactive...
    acode acode 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 11

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