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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-18, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    I am there for everyone else and it is my job to be....and then I put myself on the back burner. I know I need help but by the time I ask everyone is wrapped in their own lives. so...
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    This happens all the time. If I don't want to or want to do something, why do people always have to question it? If I want to go watch a movie with the little friends I have, why...
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    Hey I need advice !! I just started another semester in college , and there's this guy in my accounting class I think is really attractive! I really want to talk to him but IDK if...
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    Lately, I've just been alone at home just using electronics. And sometimes I actually act as if I am in the game. As if I'm someone I'm not. My own created character is another...
    HunterScratch HunterScratch 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    I am often asked by people about my E.P.activities.I have learnt about personalities and events that I would not have known otherwise.Talking about sex is not my priority here.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Okay. So there's a person I know. And they mean the world to me. And I would give everything I have for them. They swear up and down they feel the same. But their actions are...
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    Disease - Smile Empty Soul (lyrics): http://youtu.be/YJ-IvH4yIgU
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M Jan 13

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    Too late for anyone to save me
    defwish99 defwish99 31-35, M Jan 16

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    Telling the truth was stupid. I didn't it because I am strong. I was being selfish. I could stil be setting you up for a fall.
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    Anyone reading this most probably want to escape too at sometimes. I therefore don't need to explain myself as we all have an idea where we would like to escape to at times.
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    Screaming at the window Watch me die another day Hopeless situation endless price I have to pay Sanity now it's beyond me there's no choice Diary of a madman Walk the line again...
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    I have an urgent need to forgive myself for something I did in high school. For years I've been very harsh with myself about this mistake and I've been telling myself that what I...
    NamelessNomad NamelessNomad 22-25, F Jan 20

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    I want to escape from all those things I felt and see. My family though that I'm crazy because I am too sensitive and too caring for the pains of others.. But I see it.. I felt it...
    diane1996 diane1996 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    "Now go, attack the Amalekites and totally destroy all that belongs to them. Do not spare them; put to death men and women, children and infants, cattle and sheep, camels and...
    EarthlingWise EarthlingWise 41-45 5 Responses Jan 15

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    Just do I don't have a story, maybe I just need to give myself a shake and am feeling sorry for myself. Just over the past few months all I do is sleep a lot and it's just pure...
    myselfxox myselfxox 31-35, F Jan 9

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    I think it's time that I stop looking for what every person needs, love, from every other person and not the one who's most important. I'm 20 and I've struggled with life not...
    Paperboyc Paperboyc 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    school is really stressing me out. im feeling overwhelmed and im getting mad at myself and im having all these thoughts to just take my anger out on myself and just cut. i feel...
    perksofbeingdepressed perksofbeingdepressed 16-17, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    ( Bring Me The Horizon - Drown ) "It comes in waves, I close my eyes. Hold my breath and let it bury me. I'm not okay, and Its not alright. Won't you drag the lake and bring me...
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    My whole life I have always been a little chunky. I need an Ana buddy to help me with my weight loss journey and I'll help you with yours! I'm a frequent binge eater and I need...
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    Hmm, I'm in denial... I'm not being a jerk, I just didn't want to talk. I'm not being a ***** but I'd rather keep to myself than lash out, but If I could-lash out that is, I would...
    AB2WUS AB2WUS 22-25 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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