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I Need An Escape From Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 147 People

    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    What I post here is often to motivate myself and others.I know it is difficult to follow the advice I post here.But it is worth a try .Today ,I will try to stop any negative...
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 2 Responses 33 mins ago

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    I did speed with my husband . It was not the first time by any means. We stayed up all night and about 10 I started feeling a pain in my back and my heart started fluttering. I...
    cdavis0807gmailcom cdavis0807gmailcom 51-55, F 41 mins ago

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    It's one of those days where I just need to talk to someone...talking to myself can be lonely at times...
    Micky7288 Micky7288 56-60, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I really need some good advice and help! Ok so one of my other exes texted me today and wanted to get back together badly but I'm not so sure about it and he's asked to get back...
    Daredevil1942 Daredevil1942 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    One of my biggest problems I've been having for who knows how long. My friends are always the ones to come to me seeking advice for various things. Since I like helping my friends...
    Ominousity Ominousity 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    I'm completely addicted to the chemicals my brain produces in response to the emotions I generate while daydreaming. It's been 30 years of this and while the circumstances, places...
    rajelle rajelle 41-45, F 6 hrs ago

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    - Love the most - Hate the most - Always forgive - Never forget - Mother of thinking - Need love - poor - hide sadness - you smile i smile - jealous but keep inside Am i bad...
    LengSweetie LengSweetie 18-21, M 6 hrs ago

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    certain people I find hard to talk to not that I don't want to it's nothing to do with how they are it's my issue I just find meeting new friends a bit nervous but want to get over...
    susananngoga32 susananngoga32 31-35, F 7 hrs ago

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    I feel like I could have everything I ever wanted, my dream life, and I still wouldn't feel satisfied. Maybe I would, but I think my restlessness is something different. Its not...
    reenab29 reenab29 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    Well I would feel bad to say I "Need"money. I'm sure other people have much more demanding and pressing needs than me. I'm so miserable at my school. I've been to lots of schools...
    jrm98 jrm98 16-17, F 7 hrs ago

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    An electrical blackout can be caused by excessive demand on the power grid. My city's electricity company managed to fix it in a few hours, but we still spent an evening in the...
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99 16-17, F 7 hrs ago

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    I'm not sure how I can really go about doing this but I'm officially up for adoption. My name is Zana Elise Walker I'm 16 years old from Indiana. I recently got out of an abusive...
    Zanaphobia Zanaphobia 13-15, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    ... At least I'm trying. I'm the type of kid who is an introvert... I'm pretty sure I still don't know the names of a couple of my classmates, even though I've been with the same...
    ThatOneDepressedKid ThatOneDepressedKid 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I just completely filled my diaper i took laxitives and it just hit my diaper is over flowing and leaking looks like I need to double up
    Bffhh Bffhh 18-21, M 8 hrs ago

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    I didn't realise there was a name for it but this sounds about right to describe something I've done for most of my life. I don't "suffer" from it...in fact I rather enjoy it :D...
    Nenmir Nenmir 22-25, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I've always been in denial of experiencing this. I recently just discovered the term for this condition and I was happy to find out that I wasn't the only one. I ALWAYS daydream...
    ilrd ilrd 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I have agoraphobia and anxiety, so I can't hold down a job outside of home. It's too stressful. My body shuts down. I need a decent income from home. Any ideas? I am great with...
    AmyOnEP AmyOnEP 41-45, F 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    My college buddy. I think it all started with my college buddy... Falling in love with him presented a challenge to my rigid beliefs & reawakened the adventurous spirit in me. The...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I feel like I'm losing myself to past experiences. I try to over come all the obstacles in life and still pull myself together but I've realized that through every obstacle I left...
    ladycherie97 ladycherie97 18-21, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I wear a watch. It's an aviator watch - a Glycine Airman SST GMT automatic watch. The face of the watch is orange. My friend says 'pumpkin' orange I don't know. It's an old...
    mokele mokele 31-35, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I remember when I was younger I used to beg my parents for a brother or sister I think it went on until I was 13... Anyways at around 7 I found out I had half siblings. It's funny...
    justlilyg justlilyg 22-25, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Im distancing myself from people because from the experience of 32 years of living a nightmare, I have found humans to be nothing but self absorbed organisms who live to pity and...
    PrettyTragedy83 PrettyTragedy83 31-35, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    I was starving myself and I put myself on a strict diet to eat 3 meals a day and nothing else. But recently, I just ate and ate, and now I have managed to gain so much more...
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I'm sorry to bug anybody but i need someone to talk to. I haven't been so depressed in a long time. I'm all alone and I feel like few people even care if I'm alive. My friends aren...
    JustinAlixander JustinAlixander 13-15, M 7 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Actually, I like reality. Too many people can't handle it. It's sad. If you are ugly, embrace it. If you are fat, admit it. If you are dumb, shut the **** up when I'm...
    Some1umayNo Some1umayNo 46-50, M 1 day ago

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    That old cliche - "we are our own worst enemy". Seems to be what's on my mind as I go into this. I have a history of poor mental health and emotional well-being, which has...
    SolitaryFriend SolitaryFriend 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    There is so much we can do for those who are suicidal, and for those who are in need, and want their life to be over. There is so much we can do, if we just take the time to help...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I've been reading articles about this, and I keep thinking to myself that I actually do suffer from it. I have been talking to close family members and friends about this, and...
    alaniW180 alaniW180 13-15 1 Response 2 days ago