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I Need An Escape From Myself

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F Jul 16, 2014

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19, 2014

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    i used to be so happy and i don't know what happened but now i feel as though I'm just running away from myself
    monkiman22 monkiman22 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    And I do! When I need time alone I'll just lock myself in my bed room. I'll listen to music, play bass and guitar. Sleep. Whatever I want really. Just to relax and calm down for a...
    jakeyxedge jakeyxedge 18-21, M May 10

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    I'm an avid reader of plays and sometimes when I'm reading a really good one, I pretend I'm one of the characters in the story, sometimes I'll get really into it. This isn't so bad...
    TheNarratorGrim TheNarratorGrim 18-21, M May 5

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    I'm a daydreamer, LOL. It's very cool that we have the ability to imagine things. Such a wonderful gift from God. Away from reality. :D
    Rose99228 Rose99228 16-17, F May 16

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    I learn heaps from YouTube it has so much interesting stuff.
    WaverleyCarr WaverleyCarr 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I watched a video on YouTube that this guy ask a women a question he is an Arab and she ask him "Why do you behead people?
    elainenguyen619 elainenguyen619 36-40, F 2 Responses May 12

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    A nice mix to a great song
    mintybear2 mintybear2 41-45, F 1 Response May 13

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    I thought that love is a safe not to pain but reality say even in love coldness is their, which I believed right now and it frustrate me so much
    barbara000 barbara000 36-40, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Just to clear my mind, to find peace and to relax. Because reality bites: the piles of papers, stressful deadlines, annoying coworkers, scary boss, **** up family, traitor friends...
    cmc2 cmc2 26-30 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    More like most of the time. Reality is awfully boring. Stories, art, fiction, daydreaming, entertainment more interesting
    anastasia1992 anastasia1992 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    slowly all of my emotions started to fade into this hole in my chest. at first it was a small hole that made me want to scream but it began to grow until it took over my body. I...
    lexneedshelp lexneedshelp 13-15, F Apr 26

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    I have so much that runs through my head it scares me sometimes
    misfitbmx377 misfitbmx377 22-25, M 1 Response May 18

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    I have a really bad temper waiting to release. I need to get off the pressure but once it's out, I can never turn back. The first biggest thing I fear is God but the second is the...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Yes,I do unhappy..My childhood was very miserable ..My dad actually is a person has some mental problem ..Depression ! He is somehow a little bit obsession too ! He wanna I become...
    Farmerwork Farmerwork 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My life is confusing I hate guys. I can't believe I fell in love with someone like him. I just want to die but I can't because I dont want to hurt my mom. My best friend found out...
    Pageantgurl Pageantgurl 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have such a great life. I have the greatest, most loving family anyone could ask for. I have very good friends that I'm so thankful for. I have a lot of fun and love a lot of...
    GabbyCot GabbyCot 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 27

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    I did not have any idea this was a real disorder. Anyway, for many, many years, I've delved into the deep recesses of my mind to escape from my situations and reality. If I were to...
    GizmoFox GizmoFox 13-15, T 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Honestly, I don't need to love myself to love someone. In my mind that's bullshit. Althought i need to love myself in order to let myself be loved. Just don't give advise if that...
    paiva1904 paiva1904 18-21, M May 8

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    I am starting a path to self-discovery and self-love that I should have done a long time ago. I am not happy with myself and, because of that, I tear other people down. I judge too...
    NebulaSays NebulaSays 26-30, F 5 Responses May 10

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    I hate when people say I love you and its just words. to be more accurate, I hate when my wife says she loves me and can't make me feel it. maybe our marriage was broken long...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 days ago

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    I'm ugly I have cancer I'm fat No one wants to e my friend And everything seems to be going wrong I don't have a million dollars to buy everything that I need I hate myself...
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 8 Responses May 3

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    It really sucks when someone talks to me and gives me some of their time when I know they need something from me. Before they need something from me I either do not exist to them...
    SuriAnne SuriAnne 36-40, F 2 Responses May 13

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    I am 18 years old and I need help from anyone
    robert8182 robert8182 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I’m really hoping some of you can offer me some much needed support and guidance as I’m young, confused and heartbroken. Where do I start? I started my job coming up to 2...
    anony333 anony333 18-21, F May 4

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    Just a couple days back from my trip to Vermont, and I'm eager to plan my next adventure. I've discovered as I'm getting older, my kids are growing up that I feel the need to...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    They could take my home, my life but never could they take my soul. Day after day I reminded myself of this notion. They could take all physical means in my life but never could...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I cant seem to combat against it for very long, my mind always seems to find its way trickling back into thoughts of him...He, who is my best friend. I felt awkward about the...
    SophisticatedPsychopath SophisticatedPsychopath 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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