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I Need An Escape From Myself

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 146 People

    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jul 16

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    My Life

    From  the news broke that i may be  gay nothing that was confirmed  or not but due to ignorance of my oh so loving family.My life seemed so enclosed there clingy fingers always clingy on my chains never wanting me to far away  but not it is as if i am a...
    adrenalinevamp adrenalinevamp 18-21, F Sep 26, 2009

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    No Escape.....

    Sometimes i just want to escape, to escape the way i feel and all the confusion thats in my head, i want to walk away and forget how i feel and just be free from it all....... but i know i cant, because there is NO escape from myself !!!
    TIPSY TIPSY 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2007

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    Not Yet

    I wish sometimes you could see world threw my eyes... I just wanna live again... Can't turn it down, there's no off switch... Beating me down it da ground... I can't give up but ****! I'm stuck... Why do I have a conscious? All it does is **** wit me... SHUT UP!!!! STOP...
    faded1 faded1 31-35, F Aug 1, 2013

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    I Need Out Of My Own Head.

    "Over thinking leads to negative thoughts." It is so completely true. My brain NEVER stops and it makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I can't seem to stop thinking about every little thing I have ever done and how it has/may have affected people around me. Did I make the right...
    LeBonBon LeBonBon 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

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    Remember the Movie "Papillon"?

    Sometimes I feel like the Dustin Hoffman character.  He's been a prisoner for so long that he just gave up trying to be free.  That's how I feel sometimes.  It's been so long since I've had some sense of control over my own life that I think I've just given up...
    gulfcoaster gulfcoaster 46-50, M 10 Responses Jul 28, 2008

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    I need an escape from myself,

    to get out of my own head for a while. I am considering electroshock therapy again (I have had 45! treatments already). I just think it is time to reboot the system. Check. Check. Is this thing on?
    zendaddyt zendaddyt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    Need To Be Free

    I just need a escape from myself, my life, my home, is really stressful, my family is arguing and screaming and there is sometimes cry, which i hate, i just need to escape from it all, no more drama, no more stress, but this is impossible for me, i am stuck here for awhile, but i...
    Desolatebones Desolatebones 18-21, M Jun 24, 2012

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    ARGH!

    I can't stop ******* thinking about everything. And worrying about everything. And double-checking everything and over-analysing everything and I wish I could just float along and not have to constantly be in my head, trapped.
    esclave esclave 16-18, F 4 Responses Oct 31, 2007

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    Hey everyone I hope you all are doing great

    unfortunately I'm not. I hate myself to the millionth degree. I can never escape my unhappiness. Even when I'm happy, sadness is inside me crawling back until it controls me. I don't feel like anything anymore. It hurts me just sitting there in class where everybody is talking...
    BrokenPromises14 BrokenPromises14 13-15, F Sep 19

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    Press Play

    I sit here tuning out the world Sitting with the greatest gift the devil gave the world  Music When the silence is deafening The sound of heavy metal  Slow tempos  Blood wrenching lyrics  Invigorate my tormented soul The pain and worries is drowned out No one...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 1 Response May 18, 2010

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    Caged Mind

      I have thoughts  But I don’t know how to rescue them Stuck in my neurotic mind, sentenced to a life of pain I sit here not knowing what to write I know I have something to say But my thoughts are prisoners to my mind Free but chained Alive but motionless There...
    Nellieccr Nellieccr 18-21, F 2 Responses May 20, 2010

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    Trapped In Meeeeeee

    Lately I've been feeling terrible depressed at the level that I pop up 4 sleeping pills so I avoid the feelings of depression and anxiety I even tried to cut of my veins to me my life is worthless I don't know how I got this way it just hits me like a ton of rocks.
    troubleinblack troubleinblack 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9, 2009

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    Who Is Truly Willing to Spend Time With Someone They Hate?

    No one. So why should I spend so much time with myself? Even when I am with other people I spend all my time inside my head. I don't join conversations because I never seem to get a word in and I've stopped trying.  Most of the time instead of asking people things, I will...
    thornswithoutroses thornswithoutroses 18-21 2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    An Escape From Everything.

    I really need to escape from everything. My sister, myself, and just everyone. I'm really sensitive, and everyone thinks I fake it for attention. I'm not like that. I think about ending everything, but I can't. I'm too scared. I'm scared to leave everyone that actually cares...
    Junkylife Junkylife 13-15 1 Response Oct 9, 2012

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    Chernobylplayground Chernobylplayground 36-40 1 Response Dec 8

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    I always feel like I need constant reassurance though. I'm often afraid to carry out my own plans without approval first. I read an article recently about behavior like this though...
    WinterIncandescence WinterIncandescence 16-17, F Dec 9

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    I am finding it difficult to be myself and still be kind with friends I don't want to lose. I have done both. Being too kind that I lost everything I am and being too self that got...
    rockstin87 rockstin87 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 1

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    I DO thru MUSIC, and become IT...🎵🎶🎼🎤 Music is a big part of my Life!
    Katie419 Katie419 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    The day has turned out to be one of those days when I think, "Why in the **** am I still here? There's got to be more to my life than heartache".
    AthenaJones AthenaJones 36-40, F 5 Responses Nov 28

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    I'm so bored with my life right now. I have to keep living in fear almost every day. I'm tired of society and almost everything else. I'm tired of waking up and its the same thing...
    Hotspicychilli23 Hotspicychilli23 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Sometimes things get so complicated...wanna f*** everything and fly to Alpa Centauri to booze with little green guys...
    Mrowenna Mrowenna 18-21, F 19 hrs ago

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    Im trying not to go insane...
    EternallyHeartBroken EternallyHeartBroken 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    the thing is I don't wanna be saved I enjoy doing it and the fact nobody knows is a thrill... yap I think it's safe to say I'm psychotic... but the feeling it gives me is...
    kittykittyoxc kittykittyoxc 18-21, F Nov 23

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    I am very hurt I just have a lot of emotions that I can't explain but thing I can say is I can feel them and they are not the best feeling I just want to be happy that is all I ask...
    melXlo melXlo 22-25, F Dec 1

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    i stopped for 4 years. and i just started up again. how do i get to where i don't feel like i have to do it.
    kimberlykhaos kimberlykhaos 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 23

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    Hi all, since my new health and wellness job, I've came across so many things that I could do to lose wieght. I found what works for me, I lost 20lbs this months and I'm on my way...
    felemal101 felemal101 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    I always use my imagination but since I suffered from I was a little girl , I had to use it to escape from my miserable life.Now I use imagination to escape from life duties and...
    denez denez 22-25, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    Hi.i'm new to here for knowing i'm not the alone.i am a survivor of phisically abuse,sexual abuse by my parents.four years ago,i escaped from them. and i've been fighting with...
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 20

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    Ok, so I always walk around the house when no one is home with duct tape on my mouth. Sometimes ill get something simple, and try to make it hard to escape from the closet gagged...
    Guythatdoesstuff1 Guythatdoesstuff1 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    Music is the only way I feel like I can breathe. If I didn't have music, I have no clue who I would be. I don't even breathe oxygen. Music is my only escape from all the other...
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    She won't listen to me. She does the same mistakes as I did. I know, that person had a pretty f*cked up life but since the day we met, we promised to try to together. Sometimes she...
    NoxiousUnicorn NoxiousUnicorn 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    I'm just a walking pain, I need to speed up, in order to make it. I need to run away from feelings, and from myself, too. I need to learn how preted. I can't afford to feel my...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I told my mum about my social anxiety. I'm not going to school, school is a place full of judgemental *** holes and so is this stupid house ._. I hate home more than I hate school...
    0Worthless0 0Worthless0 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    Truth be told, I use EP to escape from reality sometimes. Maybe a lot of the times.
    Deez06 Deez06 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I have battled with depression for years, it all stems from a pretty rough upbringing, but then I suppose in getting off topic. I have been in a relationship with my partner for...
    marishkah marishkah 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    I need to gather my heart, hug myself, heal my pain, and walk away..I want ur love to go away, and I dont feel that pain anymore..I need to teach myself how to forget..how to live...
    SnowCrystall SnowCrystall 26-30, F Nov 25

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    I'm a girl with a PAST. A past that no one completely knows about. Just me. yes I've shared a few things to like very few people but I have never said everything. I feel that I don...
    vnesanarti vnesanarti 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    i don't feel myself lately, under so much of pressure trying to be perfect trying to please everyone i try my best but my best never seems to be good enough. i just want to be free...
    sixlives sixlives 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I'm not good at showing most emotions. I never have been. I have a family where I logically know there's love, and love is shown in its own way...but there's no emotional intimacy...
    IntoTheWyld IntoTheWyld 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 25

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    I think I'm a worthwhile person,so why can't I exercise more? I need to keep in mind everyone exercises and does more than I do.I need to extend myself and push for more.It should...
    mirth mirth 46-50, F Nov 27

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    As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”. As...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 9

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    I hate that I left my wife. Ever since I left I have missed her so much. A few months ago we signed the papers. It was so hard too but I did it. She was the world to me and still...
    mophasa mophasa 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    I have only the need to impress myself. as long as I can face myself each day, screw what everyone else thinks. there is only one real judge, and it's not them.
    hollygee hollygee 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    I have sealed myself into a safe little box over the years. I am rediscovering myself now and branching out. I have blamed my husband for being controlling, but have realized that...
    NWBiggirl420 NWBiggirl420 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 3

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