I Need to Find Myself

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    I Want Find My Life Agian

    I don't know who really i'm .I don't know what i wanna do in my life . some times i feel very sad . some times i feel lost . some times i really need to find  love . some times i need to find people who can understand me .  some times i feel that every decision i have...
    nooow nooow
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 28, 2009

    Life Not Including Kids

    I love my kids dearly.  However, I feel like I need to find some kind of activity for myself.  I need to have a life that doesn't surround my kids.  Yes I love them.  Yes they need me now, but its also not fair to revolve my life around them.  What...
    Julia Julia
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2007

    Searching...

    I am now 32 and still not the happy with myself. I feel like a great void is over me. I am lifeless and lazy. I have been depressed for years and I want to know what causes it. I am very shy and have always lived in my head obsessing about very negative things. Wishing for...
    Iwannabehappy Iwannabehappy
    26-30
    6 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    I have been on a search

    for who I am for quite awhile now. Every time I think I am getting closer, everything implodes. Work doesn't help anything, and neither does going out anymore. The people around here are like a sickness because they are all about the same thing; getting ****** up. I want to be...
    LilBoyBluu LilBoyBluu
    22-25, M
    Sep 29, 2014

    Who Am I

        In a crowded room full of laughter I am full of pain; Feeling empty but small; Who am I? Who am I really? Can someone tell me? Who can see behind the mask To the pain and guilt within? Who can really say they know me When I don't recognize myself at...
    Livinginpeace Livinginpeace
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jun 7, 2008

    Who Am I?

    I am 18 years old. Not in school, not working, not doing anything at all. Believe me, I want to do something with my life but the question is, what do I want to do? I would very much love to further my education and obtain my Bachelor's Degree but believe or not, I don't think...
    mitch1836 mitch1836
    18-21, F
    Sep 28, 2013

    I'm so confused, Many say you're life is

    already planned kind of like everyone has their own book. A lot has happened these past few months. Everything is adding up, Things I want for myself or always had a liking in all of sudden is happening. Kind of too fast as well. That it has me starstruck..I never ask for much...
    yasminesaleh00 yasminesaleh00
    18-21, F
    Jul 1, 2015

    I need to find myself.

    Those were the words she spoke to me the morning she left me to find herself. I will never forget the irony of that moment – it was a beautiful Monday morning but it was possibly the most horrible day of my life. The orange sunlight was seeping through my shades, temporarily...
    Ricky2701 Ricky2701
    22-25, M
    Apr 10, 2014

    I Knew..now..i Am Not Sure Anymore. Am I? Gosh.. =(

    It is 4:45 am, and  this feeling of not knowing is getting bigger.All my life  with my perfect family, with the "control" of my life, my luck, every situation was because I put myself in that position, because I wanted to be there, or do something. But one day, everything...
    nosoyyo nosoyyo
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 9, 2011

    Lost In Life...

    What am I today? Its not who I use to be, this stranger that i have become, in the same skin that has always been. I have lost my laughter, and the fun I use to be.  My life has been held back, and I am lost.  The things I want, the things I need are no...
    lostlover25 lostlover25
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2008

    I Lost Myself And I'm Still Trying To Find Myself..

    I had this best friend. I met her when we were in like 5th grade. Then in college about 2 years ago she lost a couple pounds, met a guy, and when he said he didn't like me, she dumped me. It broke my heart at first. After a few months of thinking about all the good times her and...
    LadyLuna3356 LadyLuna3356
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2010

    I'm 13. I turned 13 this year.

    (aug 30) & Now here it comes another year & I still dont know who I am. I lost myself within the years of middle school. (im in 8th grade) There had been Drama Self Harming Friends Depression Even a moment when I was left alone I think people think i do have feelings, but that I...
    13andlost 13andlost
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 6, 2013

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