I Need to Fix My Life

You know that day when you wake up and everything wrong in your life, that you have tried to hide, comes to a point and you freeze. Where do you start, do I have to do this on my own. 576 People

    It's always a work in progress

    and needing tuned up. After all, whose isn't? It's called maintenance....
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jun 2, 2014

    I have a feeling this title might be used a lot

    by me in my life. Lol. Anyways everyday I wake up and it's a tottering balance of can I make myself happy today. I'm basically unhappy everyday from the start but I try. I think what can I do to make myself happy. I might have a shower. I'll have make some breakfast. But I am...
    angel510 angel510
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    feel like my life is infected with to many

    human viruses & in order to make that better i must cleanse my mind & body to re-gain total consciousness of who i am. im ready to take on who i was designed to be or become. im tired of being everyones pillow & trying to heal everyone cuz i feel bad, i need to feel bad for...
    Bayzar Bayzar
    18-21, F
    Jan 4, 2015
    aidenph aidenph
    36-40, M
    Mar 23, 2014
    EatingCereal EatingCereal
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 6, 2015

    Hi everybody. I married 3 yrs ago

    and have a 2 yrs old daughter. My husband started behaving bad to me after our daughter was born. I was constantly criticized for not being a good wife and for being a bad mother. Due to this I've reached depression and wanted to kill myself but didn't do it because of our...
    izabelak2keylard izabelak2keylard
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 24, 2015

    Anyone got a sandblaster

    and three tons of polyfilla?
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    Jan 27, 2015

    Responsibility? What's That?

    I could list all the excuses I have for being where I am today. But that solves nothing. The truth is I just never gave a damn. And I always had family or friends to fall back on. I don't want to be this person anymore. I want more for my life. And one day I want to have a family...
    LittleMissRee LittleMissRee
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2010

    I have ruined my life.

    I'm barely able to hold onto my girlfriend and all I have left is her. I always screw up and I wish I knew how to not screw up
    INeedHelp25565 INeedHelp25565
    16-17, M
    Oct 10, 2015

    I Am A Horrible Provider To My Wife....who Would Have Thought

    So my wife, son and I went to Rehobeth beach this weekend and stayed with my in-laws. My brother-in-laws parents (not my wife's parents) have a trailer home at the beach. I made the comment over lunch of "I wonder what that would cost a month?". This started a trailer...
    j21043 j21043
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 28, 2012

    Basically my mom is a pretty naive lady,

    very simple. She is an assistant professor in a great college. But like I said, she's pretty naive. She can't really process people's actions and their complicated minds. My dad, he's cleverer than my mom, but still naive than most people. He couldn't really maintain his...
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad
    18-21, F
    Nov 5, 2015

    I need to but just don't know how

    because I'm so scared.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 4, 2014

    This Is the First Day of the Rest of My Life

    I am 25 years old, male, and really hope this works. I have been living the past 5 years of my life on a path of self-destruction. I am my own worst enemy and have this built in desire for everything I know is wrong. I want to fix who I am and get back to the decent person I...
    RR5 RR5
    11 Responses Oct 30, 2008

    Worthless Use Of Air And Space.

    My life for the most part has been one big screw up after another and then worrying myself sick trying to fix it.I became disabled then started to COLLEGE THROUGH vOC REHAB BUT THAT WASNT GOOD ENOUGH i HAD TO ALSO GET STUDENT LOANS. This past semester I failed all my classes...
    ctm31024 ctm31024
    51-55, F
    May 22, 2012

    hey my name shicha I live in uk nearly one year

    I have a lot of happy day and happy life in here but today it's not gonna be like that anymore my family thought I kick out from uni and didn't go to class and do some drug I told them and prove to them already that Im not be like that but it's doesn't mean anything to them what...
    shichaa shichaa
    18-21, F
    Apr 17, 2014

    Am I The Only One Out There Who Feels The Way I Do...

    I stumbled across this page because I am desperate for help & guidance from anyone out there who understands the way I am! I am so stuck & constantly feel like I'm at a dead end in my life! I hate the way I am & can't stop the way way I think or feel although I keep trying. I am...
    Destiny89 Destiny89
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2012

    The thing about growing up is

    that you finally know better. It also comes with the realization that MOST things are better left unsaid. That you'd rather suffer in silence than tell your friend how you feel cuz that's what weak people do and your friend will judge you anyway. Also, no one really cares. I...
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad
    18-21, F
    Jan 9

    i always feel guilty

    even just send some text to people I know. I always thinking if I always just disturb them and they will leave me again like other people. why I be just like jerk person -_-
    nunuhadiyati nunuhadiyati
    18-21, F
    Mar 14, 2015

    I'm just so messed up.

    I struggle with people, school, and even waking up on time. I really want to do well so I can contribute but I keep falling short.
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 16, 2014

    My precious 21 year old son died by suicide 4

    years ago last week, I have a daughter now 19 with an almost 1 year old granddaughter with a deadbeat dad, my daughter and gdaughter live with us and "dad" lives 600 miles away. I can't lose them. I am in hell with bankruptcy (due to crazy tax debt, and mistakes made before and...
    51-55, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    man can I relate to this one.

    . I'm 34 divorced, have no car, no drivers license, no friends, a job that pays 8.00 an hour, i Live with family in a run down roach infested trailer home, and to put the icing on the cake have a serious addiction to Crystal methanphetamine, alcohol, and marihuana.. I have slept...
    NugginFutz81 NugginFutz81
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 5

    For many days have passed.

    Many thoughts that comes in my mind saying that I have to get over this things. I have to stop this cycle of sin. I have the strength to say no to it but my I have this character of mine that is saying "not to disappoint". Everyday God is giving me enough grace for me to...
    Donnathena Donnathena
    18-21, F
    Apr 5

    Broken Beyond Repair?

    A lot of times i think I'm just a broken appliance, broken beyond reasonable repair, i'm completely unsocial and every time I try to be it just gets too awkward. The horrible things I've seen in this world have made me not feel safe anymore, not even in my own house. The times...
    extremelysociallyawkwardguy extremelysociallyawkwardguy
    16-17, M
    Sep 27, 2013

    I have done many bad things this year

    that I am not very proud of. I've drank alcohol, I've smoked vape, I've been in 3 relationships all ending badly, and often fight with my friends and family
    justinbartolome justinbartolome
    16-17, M
    Aug 14, 2014
    chianasykes chianasykes
    13-15, F
    Jan 17

    So, it turns out he was hurting my mum too.

    I can't believe that. All along, his main thing he said was that if I told anyone, he'd hurt my mum instead. Apparently he said to mum that he'd hurt me if she told, too. I hate him. I absolutely hate him. I just can't believe that all along she was being hurt too. That was one...
    FabulousUnicorn15 FabulousUnicorn15
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 21, 2015

    Im 16 about to turn 17 i already have a

    daughter she is 5 months old couple of weeks ago i found out that i am going to have another baby. About a month ago i got expelled from school for having a knife and a grinder for weed because i smoke weed. Im trying to stop smoking because my girlfriend/ babymomma said that if...
    rolando1231 rolando1231
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 5, 2015

    Escuchando canciones corta venas del recuerdo.

    ..no fue una muy buena idea.... Necesito compañía ahora...
    ChrisErizo1 ChrisErizo1
    31-35, M
    Jun 29, 2015

    I'm ****** up in life right

    now on some real **** and I'm jus disgusted with myself to be honest. It's like I'm in a wormhole of misery... Jus goin thru the motions right now I'm done bitchin jus need to hit the blunt and breathe easy
    SpaceGhost24 SpaceGhost24
    26-30, M
    May 15, 2014

    I Don't Know What The Answer Is

    I married a wonderful woman about a year and a half ago. We didn't have a lot of money so we did a low key wedding where it was pretty much the two of us. My parents ended up coming as well. A few months later we were able to go on a honeymoon and my mother took care of our...
    j21043 j21043
    31-35, M
    6 Responses May 14, 2011

    I'm So Overwhelmed And Depressed, A Thousand Failed Attempts To Fix My Life, A Downhill Depression, A Long Story

    I don't know why I'm doing this, I just googled "how to fix my life" cuz I'm sitting here in my bedroom just depressed and overwhelmed.  I have so many things to do and I'm not doing them, and I can't seem to get myself to do anything productive.  I want so bad to be productive...
    benjaminelway benjaminelway
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 1, 2012

    Have you ever woken up to start your day

    and wish you can just say screw it! Stay in bed and hope the world can go on without you?
    CrystalJuarez CrystalJuarez
    41-45, F
    Jan 26, 2015

    I feel so bad about myself And the way I live

    I'm a college student and my GPA is so low and I want to get my PhD level . Everyone around is letting me down And my father is so mean with me He uses words that would hurt me a lot such as you're lazy ,you've to work harder and all those negative words I work hard so hard...
    Yasmine1993 Yasmine1993
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2015

    i need to fix my life .

    .. no i want to , but i cant i try so hard to be happy and get better grades and try to get my mom to love me like she loves my sisters but its not working .... everytime i start to get happy and start liking myself something bad happens or my dad hits me
    JeSt0099 JeSt0099
    16-17, F
    Mar 4, 2014

    I fell asleep at 6:00pm

    and woke up at 8:00pm, so for about a half an hour I thought it was morning till I realized it wasn't getting any lighter outside.... I need to learn the difference between am and pm hahahah
    Tawni187 Tawni187
    16-17, F
    Jan 5, 2014

    I Need To Change

    I am so unhappy with myself. So totally and completely unhappy with my life and the way i live it..those of you reading this, please continue to read and then leave your comments below...i am desperate for advice and some sort of guidance. I just dont know what to do..thats my...
    redtoshiba redtoshiba
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 6, 2012

    Dont know how to do it

    but i have to .
    deleted deleted
    Sep 8, 2015

    It's mine. I own it. And

    when the time is right, I will fix it .
    bethany444 bethany444
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    My life is falling apart.

    My social habits and behavior cause me to hate myself, which threatens all of my relationship. I had my heart broken twice on the same night, and followed it up with some terrible choices. I've attempted to change my behavior an break my addictions, but all ended in failure...
    caveerr caveerr
    26-30, M
    May 3, 2014

    I think this is the first time I've actually

    said that I need to fix my life. And I think I actually mean it. I've never done something like this before, but I'm actually gonna take a step in the right direction, and help myself. So, for whoever cares, I'm leaving this site for about a month. I'll be back at some point, I...
    everyonehasbeauty everyonehasbeauty
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 3, 2014

    The time is now! It is pretty much now

    or never. I have a bad gut feeling since I was a child about something next year, I have played a big part contributing to that factor with the lifestyles I chose. I need to start gaining weight because I am rediculously under weight. I have stopped using drugs and staying off...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 29, 2015

    I guess, I've learned a lot from my past

    relationship. I missed so many happy moments with my family and some important events with them. I was physically with them but I was mentally absent. I was broken into pieces when my ex girlfriend left me. I made my self so stupid and I have come to realized that I was so dumb...
    Achelle07 Achelle07
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2014

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