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I Need to Keep Myself From Falling Into the "Depression Pit"

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 446 People

    I Do What I Have to Do

    For over ten months, I was depression-free! The clouds broke and I was free from the pit, a month before I met a man here on EP, who became my best friend. Two months before I met him, I did the right thing for myself... I went into therapy and tried medication. It saved my life...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 6, 2009

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    I Do

    Its not just that I have to keep myself from falling into the "Depressionpit" but for me, its more the "Suicidal pit" I can handle thedepression, its the suicidal stage that I have to prevent myself from falling into. Depression will always be a part of my life, I know this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 26, 2012

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    Never Ending Story

    my first marriage ended up in a divorce bcoz he was a gay.second marriage was also arranged and my husband turned out to be a criminal.now i have applied for dissolution of marriage and raising my two small kids.why i was chosen for this hardship,i still don't know but i have...
    samansaeed17 samansaeed17 26-30 1 Response Feb 2, 2011

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    Depression Pit

    Depression pit,Always appearing,Wrong place,Wrong time,How dare it?I can't afford it,To fall in again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 2, 2012

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    I'm Tired Tonight

    Tonight, I feel depressed.  Maybe it the holiday rush of activities coming to an end.  Maybe, it because this Memorial Day I remember, my parents are gone. Maybe it was because the only words my husband has said to me today, was been in responce to my questions...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog 12919 11 Responses May 25, 2009

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    Not Just That....

    Its not just that I have to keep myself from falling into the "Depression pit" but for me, its more the "Suicidal pit" I can handle the depression, its the suicidal stage that I have to prevent myself from falling into. Depression will always be a part of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 24, 2009

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    Please, Pray For Us

    No, I am falling into the depression pit, but I am watching my husband fall.  I can't begin to explain and relate to my EP friends what all has happened.  But my husband has taken a stand against his autistic daughter, who has refused any Psychiatric or...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog 12919 7 Responses Apr 30, 2009

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    I Still Have to Fight It Everyday In One Form Or Another

     The older I get the more used to it I get and have found many ways to help it, music, better foods, activities for my mind and body and the more I do the less it effects my life. Yet it never actually goes away.
    BeTheBestMe BeTheBestMe 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 25, 2009

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    Depression is a pit full of ****,

    maggots, and worms, It's always tragic and it's always long term. Unexpected and accepting no solutions, unless you have a noose, friends & family are confused. My mother cried when she discovered my intentions, but my mother died, so suicide is last wish. I'm all alone...
    CJCA CJCA 18-21, M Aug 26, 2014

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    "i Never Understood The World"................

    I never understood the world i felt like everyone here ist to bare notolated with no where to go afraid depression and angery. I am a disappointment to all but even sadder myself. I hate the person i am i don't know what i am becoming or where to turn. I have so many barrieriers...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 8, 2011

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    My Life Is Caving In Around Me.

    My life has been horrible since I was 9 years old.   That's when Nanny died she was like my mother she lived with my family.My family never understood me or even like me.   I am now 40 and its just gotten worse.     my daughter Crystal was hit by a car in 1998 she was 10...
    valnbill valnbill 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    No Action Yet

    Last week I wrote that my husband has taken a stand and has reported his Daughter to Dept. of Human Services for child neglect.  He was so distraught over what he had done, but he knew it was the right thing to do. It's a week later...And nothing has happened.  No...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog 12919 2 Responses May 8, 2009

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    I don't know how to start this,

    it has been awhile since I have been to EP to share myself and my heart.. So I guess I will just start and let things out I am sitting here feeling the grip of depression setting in. My heart is empty, lost shattered into a million pieces. I was always taught growing up that...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40 41-45, M Jan 30, 2014

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    Familiar Feelings Arise As The Old Year Ends

    I’m one of the many, many individuals who struggle with the post-Christmas and –New Year’s period.  This is not unfamiliar to me.  As someone who has coped with depression his whole life, the feelings of let-down and emptiness that accompany the long, dark days of January...
    UnderEli UnderEli 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 27, 2011

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    Not Depressed...

    Maybe I need to stop being so realistic all of the time. I'm not depressed, just resentful and angry. I don't feel sorry for myself. I'm angry because I'm not a faker but can't make it in the world or get my needs met. I'm not going to cry about my life. I just have to accept...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 Mar 30, 2011

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    Facedown In The Pit

    I know the title is about staying out of the Pit, but oops -- I'm already there. Facedown in the mire, slowly choking in the mud and death. Been here a while, the view isn't changing & I'm losing the strength to keep my head up.
    EarleyDaysYet EarleyDaysYet 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2009

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    Yet Again...

     yes I do need to keep myself from falling into my depression episodes. This time of the year from my birthday until the start of summer is probably one of the hardest parts to deal with. the day my brother passed away is in March. and then my sister passed away in April...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 14, 2009

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    DHS Case Closed

    Two months ago, by Husband reported his Daughter to the Dept. of Human Services. for neglect and abuse of Daughter's little girl.  Yesterday, the DHS Case Worker called my Husband and reported that he was closing the case.   After 4 unannounced visits, the...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog 12919 14 Responses Jun 6, 2009

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    I'm Starting To Break. I Can Feel It.

    I am thirty two In the past three years or less: I have had a second child with a spouse who did not want this new baby and was living with someone else during part of the pregnancy. I have lost my home to foreclosure. Separated from a drug...
    WhatMattersCannotBeSeen WhatMattersCannotBeSeen 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2009

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    Keep Slipping

    I try hard to keep myself from falling back into that deep dark pit of depression but it's hard and I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I am an expert on the subject of depression. I've battled it my entire adult life. I've done it all drugs, therapy, self help, meditation...
    howsab howsab 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 25, 2011

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    I Am Trying to Stay Out of Depression

    I am trying to keep out of depression. I have it so bad . I put my self in nurse home. So I am trying to listen to up musica and walking every day 2or 3 time aday. And write when my thoughts change. And keep my self out of depression. I am doing better. lashanda
    lashanda lashanda 51-55, F 6 Responses Aug 24, 2008

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    I Dont Wanna Get Up

    there are days i just cant pull my a** out of bed.... i mean i get up long enough to feed my kids and i go back to bed i dont wanna look let alone clean my house.....
    EEYORE6 EEYORE6 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 21, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I've thought about suicide again. I just can't help it. The school, preparations for univeristy and every other thing in my life at the moment gives me loads of stress and I crack...
    delusi0nal delusi0nal 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I need a break from being a mom for just like 3 hours. I pointed this out to my daughter's father and he reminded me I got one yesterday. What an insult. My sister did pick up and...
    morrginme morrginme 31-35, F Feb 8

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    I have never been so depressed....i am currently isolating myself from everyone and pushing everyone away....i feel so broken and run down i dunno what to do anymore....
    redphoenix02 redphoenix02 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    It's dark and the walls slowly start to shift. A mind twitches as a single whisper hums the same lullaby. Wandering the shallow halls of my mind. The same question keeps appearing...
    chasetheweirdo8 chasetheweirdo8 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    at the present looking at a broken mirror. I gave you a chance to be your self. but I see now you won't change. you stuck in your old ways so now I must kill you. drain your blood...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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      as I wake up into this timeline. is see a stupid kid in the mirror. how low did you land after high school. yea life has been tough thats your excuse. well why don't you...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 17

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    I dont feel myself anymore. Ive bren stressed out and always thinkin bout negatives and what bothers me for like 2 months from now and that made me so stressed out. Now imcrying...
    dakingkong dakingkong 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    One easter I couldn't cope with what I had been through and I walked into the kitchen, dad and brothers where in the garden, I opened the draw slowly and thought for a second...
    SgtDeZz SgtDeZz 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 17

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    gosh I need help but no one can help me. I see my life in a downward spiral to destruction.... I am losing my mind.
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 21

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    life is full of bs. happiness is a lie. and peace is an unreachable goal. every day I get more and more cuts. my life is going down a downward spiral. what made me special is...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I really need to lose weight, it's an urge and I can't seem to control it.
    absenceofsound absenceofsound 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Again and again I just stare. I look past the glare. I look pass the superficial beauty. deep into my heart, and my duty? I am just as ugly and rotten as my heart. I try to find...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Some do drugs, others go for a run, but at the end we are all just searching for that tiny space, perhaps a hole, that gives us shelter from the terrible reality of the world.. But...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I'm completely lost in life I have no path but I keep walking towards my goal. I don't know what I am searching for but I'll keep searching for it. How does one find their path?
    acidwizard acidwizard 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    I've tried running away from all of my problems to a new state. They caught me before I left town
    04emmalove14 04emmalove14 22-25, F Feb 16

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    It's a process everyday. I'm told I'm not good enough or I fail at everything. I work hard to keep it together for my children.
    Booksaremypassion Booksaremypassion 41-45, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    again I find myself in a dark road that leads to pain and suffering. before I make the choice of ending my suffering.
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 25

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    It's the worse feeling ever. I have considered suicide also.
    Beastman316 Beastman316 36-40, M Feb 18

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    before 1year I tried to stop smoking .. i did it
    spike7213 spike7213 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    im just in a struggle. a eternal internal fight. I hope that I achieve my goal. but I am just waiting to take the easy way out. I can't.... I won't I am trying. but as I live I am...
    Poeticdeaths Poeticdeaths 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    I can't make up my mind I want to go to school but I don't have any money which means I have to get loans. Loans take forever to pay off so I decided to not go back to school and I...
    ReneeTay ReneeTay 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    My mom is on anidepresants and i feel my dad is under appreciated. My parents problem in their marriage is they dont communicate. no one yells no one even acts like anythibg is...
    thatgirlnamedliz thatgirlnamedliz 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16