I Need to Keep Myself From Falling Into the "Depression Pit"

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    Please, Pray For Us

    No, I am falling into the depression pit, but I am watching my husband fall.  I can't begin to explain and relate to my EP friends what all has happened.  But my husband has taken a stand against his autistic daughter, who has refused any Psychiatric or...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog
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    7 Responses Apr 30, 2009

    Never Ending Story

    my first marriage ended up in a divorce bcoz he was a gay.second marriage was also arranged and my husband turned out to be a criminal.now i have applied for dissolution of marriage and raising my two small kids.why i was chosen for this hardship,i still don't know but i have...
    samansaeed17 samansaeed17
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 2, 2011

    Yet Again...

     yes I do need to keep myself from falling into my depression episodes. This time of the year from my birthday until the start of summer is probably one of the hardest parts to deal with. the day my brother passed away is in March. and then my sister passed away in April...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 14, 2009

    Not Just That....

    Its not just that I have to keep myself from falling into the "Depression pit" but for me, its more the "Suicidal pit" I can handle the depression, its the suicidal stage that I have to prevent myself from falling into. Depression will always be a part of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 24, 2009

    I Still Have to Fight It Everyday In One Form Or Another

     The older I get the more used to it I get and have found many ways to help it, music, better foods, activities for my mind and body and the more I do the less it effects my life. Yet it never actually goes away.
    BeTheBestMe BeTheBestMe
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2009

    "i Never Understood The World"................

    I never understood the world i felt like everyone here ist to bare notolated with no where to go afraid depression and angery. I am a disappointment to all but even sadder myself. I hate the person i am i don't know what i am becoming or where to turn. I have so many barrieriers...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Apr 8, 2011

    I'm Starting To Break. I Can Feel It.

    I am thirty two In the past three years or less: I have had a second child with a spouse who did not want this new baby and was living with someone else during part of the pregnancy. I have lost my home to foreclosure. Separated from a drug...
    WhatMattersCannotBeSeen WhatMattersCannotBeSeen
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 9, 2009

    Depression Pit

    Depression pit,Always appearing,Wrong place,Wrong time,How dare it?I can't afford it,To fall in again.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 2, 2012

    Keep Slipping

    I try hard to keep myself from falling back into that deep dark pit of depression but it's hard and I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I am an expert on the subject of depression. I've battled it my entire adult life. I've done it all drugs, therapy, self help, meditation...
    howsab howsab
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 25, 2011

    I'm Tired Tonight

    Tonight, I feel depressed.  Maybe it the holiday rush of activities coming to an end.  Maybe, it because this Memorial Day I remember, my parents are gone. Maybe it was because the only words my husband has said to me today, was been in responce to my questions...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog
    70+
    11 Responses May 25, 2009

    My Life Is Caving In Around Me.

    My life has been horrible since I was 9 years old.   That's when Nanny died she was like my mother she lived with my family.My family never understood me or even like me.   I am now 40 and its just gotten worse.     my daughter Crystal was hit by a car in 1998 she was 10...
    valnbill valnbill
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2011

    I don't know how to start this,

    it has been awhile since I have been to EP to share myself and my heart.. So I guess I will just start and let things out I am sitting here feeling the grip of depression setting in. My heart is empty, lost shattered into a million pieces. I was always taught growing up that...
    SingleDad40 SingleDad40
    41-45, M
    Jan 30, 2014

    Familiar Feelings Arise As The Old Year Ends

    I’m one of the many, many individuals who struggle with the post-Christmas and –New Year’s period.  This is not unfamiliar to me.  As someone who has coped with depression his whole life, the feelings of let-down and emptiness that accompany the long, dark days of January...
    UnderEli UnderEli
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2011

    No Action Yet

    Last week I wrote that my husband has taken a stand and has reported his Daughter to Dept. of Human Services for child neglect.  He was so distraught over what he had done, but he knew it was the right thing to do. It's a week later...And nothing has happened.  No...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog
    70+
    2 Responses May 8, 2009

    I Am Trying to Stay Out of Depression

    I am trying to keep out of depression. I have it so bad . I put my self in nurse home. So I am trying to listen to up musica and walking every day 2or 3 time aday. And write when my thoughts change. And keep my self out of depression. I am doing better. lashanda
    lashanda lashanda
    51-55, F
    6 Responses Aug 24, 2008

    I Do

    Its not just that I have to keep myself from falling into the "Depressionpit" but for me, its more the "Suicidal pit" I can handle thedepression, its the suicidal stage that I have to prevent myself from falling into. Depression will always be a part of my life, I know this...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 26, 2012

    Depression is a pit full of ****,

    maggots, and worms, It's always tragic and it's always long term. Unexpected and accepting no solutions, unless you have a noose, friends & family are confused. My mother cried when she discovered my intentions, but my mother died, so suicide is last wish. I'm all alone...
    CJCA CJCA
    18-21, M
    Aug 26, 2014

    I Do What I Have to Do

    For over ten months, I was depression-free! The clouds broke and I was free from the pit, a month before I met a man here on EP, who became my best friend. Two months before I met him, I did the right thing for myself... I went into therapy and tried medication. It saved my life...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 6, 2009

    Facedown In The Pit

    I know the title is about staying out of the Pit, but oops -- I'm already there. Facedown in the mire, slowly choking in the mud and death. Been here a while, the view isn't changing & I'm losing the strength to keep my head up.
    EarleyDaysYet EarleyDaysYet
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2009

    Not Depressed...

    Maybe I need to stop being so realistic all of the time. I'm not depressed, just resentful and angry. I don't feel sorry for myself. I'm angry because I'm not a faker but can't make it in the world or get my needs met. I'm not going to cry about my life. I just have to accept...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    22-25
    Mar 30, 2011

    I Dont Wanna Get Up

    there are days i just cant pull my a** out of bed.... i mean i get up long enough to feed my kids and i go back to bed i dont wanna look let alone clean my house.....
    EEYORE6 EEYORE6
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Oct 21, 2008

    DHS Case Closed

    Two months ago, by Husband reported his Daughter to the Dept. of Human Services. for neglect and abuse of Daughter's little girl.  Yesterday, the DHS Case Worker called my Husband and reported that he was closing the case.   After 4 unannounced visits, the...
    PeedeeDog PeedeeDog
    70+
    14 Responses Jun 6, 2009

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