I Need to Let Go of My Past and Stop Beating Myself Up Over It

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    I tried writing this experience once

    but it shut down in the middle, so I'm a little frustrated but I'll try again. I was saying that I find myself doing things just for the sole purpose of proving to myself and to people in my past how much better and cooler and superior I am. I had a dark chapter in my past of...
    Shamandora Shamandora
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 7, 2015
    Confusedchic44 Confusedchic44
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 22, 2014

    I've been through a lot in my life some issues

    I believed I've caused myself due to bad decisions others I've have no control over I feel much guilt and remorse for some of my actions because I've hurt people that wasn't the aim of my actions but it is the result I know I can't change the past I try to make up for things I...
    heather81 heather81
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2014

    So hard to let go knowing the person

    who dumped you is happy with someone else,, I would really love to see him fall but it seems he can float through life unfair! So unfair!!!
    Confusedchic44 Confusedchic44
    46-50, F
    Aug 10, 2014

    Criticism

    Honest criticism is hard to take, particularly from a relative, a friend, an acquaintance, or a stranger. —Franklin P. Jones
    1Babe 1Babe
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2009

    Don't be hard on yourself.

    You cannot please anyone. That's already given. Be yourself. Be weird, be random. Cus you never know who would love the person you hide. Let go of the things that's dragging you down. You don't deserve it. :) There's more to life than sulking about things you cannot have...
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    Mar 31

    Time and time again I have done this.

    It doesn't make a person feel any better reveling on things they wish they could change........I'm not doing that anymore! I can honestly say since I let most of the things that hurt me in the past go, I'm a MUCH HAPPIER PERSON!!!
    drama16queen1997 drama16queen1997
    18-21
    Oct 4, 2014

    I know now what I did not before.

    I screwed up a lot as a child. I suffered because I was not life everyone else. There was even a time were I thought I was a monster because of the dark feeling I held in. But now I know. Now I know that I have Depression and Anxiety. I am not a monster just a normal human with...
    RandomDudeFriend RandomDudeFriend
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 20, 2014

    I am beyond overwhelmed with the difficulties

    in my life. The circumstances would be surmountable to someone who didn't have so much trouble breaking bad old habits. I just cant stop myself from crawling back into that dark truth-less cave iv been hiding in most my life sad dear Lord i need you And coffee
    stufy stufy
    51-55
    2 Responses Aug 18, 2014

    It's usually quite hard to let go

    and move on, but once you, you'll feel free and realize is was the best decision you've ever made.
    Manzzle Manzzle
    22-25, M
    Aug 10, 2014

    The last two days have been good.

    My little sister came over yesterday and we watched the newest Xmen movie. She hadn't seen it yet and I love the movie so I thought I would invite her over for pizza. We had fun and we were laughing so hard we were crying over the gag reel. I need to really for real take a...
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990
    26-30, M
    Jan 19, 2015

    I Do...

    I do this often... I beat myself up more than anyone I know.... If you had 2 grow up and were treated the way I was by folks like mine I'm sure you would too... with the new year coming,I want to change that.... I want to stop living in my past, because its not a pleasant...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 26, 2011
    xoxobi xoxobi
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    Lost Love. Lost Career.

    Lost Home. Rock Bottom. I've apologized for my actions and my part. Why can't I forgive myself and move on, as I'm tormented by guilt, loneliness, anxiety, fear, depression, isolation, and hopelessness. I wish I can love myself and forgive myself and start fresh.
    LoneWolf37 LoneWolf37
    36-40
    4 Responses Dec 18, 2015

    To let go does not mean to stop caring,

    it means I can’t do it for someone else. To let go is not to cut myself off, it’s the realization that I can’t control another. To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is...
    aliveisawesome aliveisawesome
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2015

    I shouldn't have let you go the first time.

    Now I'm left with the constant reminder that you were with her. I know you say to let it go it's in the last but I can't stop beating myself up. This is al my fault, I left...I suffered for years looking for you again to find you broken after giving her your life and creating...
    Pumpkiin Pumpkiin
    26-30, F
    Oct 5, 2014

    I have to a great extent gotten over my past.

    ... I have realized one should give their 100? for the relationship to work and if it don't improve then no point wasting your life and effort on people who are not worth ur efforts.... Atleast you can move on without the guilt of not giving ur best short.....
    shaurya26 shaurya26
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 4, 2014

    I Paid The Price

    The reason why I was holding on to you was the guilt I carried in my heart for the crime I had not committed.Few years back I accidently came across your poetic writings and blogs.Every word of it immersed in pain and the tears , screamed out to me.After what we had once shared...
    TheMirrorWithin TheMirrorWithin
    70+
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    I Really Need To...

    My past was shity. I was never really loved by my parents. I was hurt in so many ways by my parents. I was even hurt by guys that I thought loved me and they never did. They only used me.. I have had and hopefully stop thinking that this is all my fault... I need to really stop...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 18, 2008
    PyrixSin PyrixSin
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    Im normally very good with controlling my

    emotions and am not a vulnerable person but I cant stop thinking about all the bad things I have done in the past, its really troubling me, I have changed my ways now but I still keep dwelling on past events. does anyone else have trouble with this ?????
    petealoop petealoop
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Sep 12, 2014
    justhatgurl justhatgurl
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2015

    that's easier said than done,

    every single day I look at my best friend and my ex and I see them together, every day it gets easier and easier and if I see something I don't want to see, it all comes back down on me harder than before. It's just so hard, I know I'm only young but this has really hurt me, can...
    Holly155 Holly155
    18-21, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    I don't always think about the past

    but when I do I tend to ruminate and feel guilty and it just sucks cuz can't change the past so why freak out about it x.x
    hellookbye hellookbye
    22-25, F
    Jul 22, 2014

    I Wish I Had Amnesia

    Sometime my past is so daunting and overwhelming, I wish I could hit my head and forget it all. It makes me feel ... so used, walked on, like an object. I don't want to feel that way anymore.Being sodomized, And raped at that party with a bowl ... a ******* bowl ... Killed...
    LittleMoonFox LittleMoonFox
    18-21, F
    Jan 1, 2012

    Let You Go and Forget Your Smiles..

    Ku harus lepaskanmu melupakan senyummu..Tetapi saya selalu akan di sini bagi anda.. Saya berjanji anda..  
    xipher xipher
    18-21
    Jul 30, 2008

    I hate my mom and she's been dead

    for years. I hate the fact that I didn't go back home to talk to her BEFORE she died. I hate that I wasn't able to be there for my father when she died. I could go on forever like this but at the end of the day its in the past but I can't let go. the proof of my inability to...
    newasexy newasexy
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

    I always think of things from the past,

    even the smallest things. I constantly just keep replaying them over and over in my mind , eventually just making me feel worse. The worst part of 95% of the time it's nothing even remotely serious , but it can turn my day around in a second...
    musicgurl11 musicgurl11
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    Without Fear

    Here you are again. Negative thoughts all designed for me to fail. Not this time. I have let you ruin me at everything that I thought I couldn't do but was too blinded by you to see it. It's time to let you go and not let you stand in the way of my dream. Being the boss of my own...
    ladyinrage ladyinrage
    46-50, F
    Jul 15, 2013

    A Spiritual Awakening

    I woke up this morning thinking about the situation I am in. In my mind I'm thinking that what I wanted to do would not work out because I don't have any money, living on unemployment and homeless. I was looking at my lot in life and trying to figure out what I wanted to do when...
    ladyinrage ladyinrage
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2013

    how do you let go of your past,

    when u you keep beating yourself up about things that have happened or worse things that could have happened. when I was about 8 I got a half brother, my father had gotten a baby with my stepmother. I lived with my mum and stepdad. but me and my 2 older siblings stayed at my...
    twoface444 twoface444
    18-21, F
    Aug 27, 2015

    Sometimes I just can't let some things go.

    Big or small problems, they dwell in my mind, haunt me and kills me sometimes. I always think everything's my fault when things don't go right and I think the worst things about myself. It's a bad habit, I know, but I can't help it. I just wish I was a whole new better and...
    Foreverdeleted Foreverdeleted
    18-21, F
    Aug 10, 2014

    The Woman With No Name

    I have had no identity for twenty seven years, and I am a wife and mother to three children, but I have recently found out that my husband, is still married to his first wife, even though they divorced thirty three years ago. their two children are down on official documents as...
    sheward sheward
    46-50, F
    1 Response Aug 11, 2009
    camillee camillee
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    this weekend I was at a friends party,

    my whole school year was there. My ex and my best friend still are dating so they were there too, I have made up with them because I'm not the type to hold grudges.. At the start of the night it started off great, but escalated quickly when people were getting drunk, including...
    Holly155 Holly155
    18-21, F
    Dec 1, 2014

    I can't seem to let my past go.

    . I cNt stop thinking of the horrible things I've done Asa teenager now I 20 yrs old .. But it haunts me to this day to think of those things I did to myself and others can anyone else relate or know why this keep happening to me/ us??
    amoriette amoriette
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 19, 2014
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