I Need to Make a Change

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    I realized that for some reason I am happy

    during the day but always grumpy during the night, it feels like I get tired of pretending to be happy everyday, gotta fix this somehow...it affects my guitar lessons, my will to plauy guitar at all, my relationship with everyobe, my grades..ugh
    deleted deleted
    Oct 31, 2015

    Oh boy where to start.

    Video games. Yeah I'm addicted to video games. It all started when I was a kid, being in an immigrant family in a foreign culture video games was the only positive reinforcement I got as a kid. My parents were too tired from work to help, I didn't understand the language so I...
    Pheonix177 Pheonix177
    22-25, M
    Dec 23, 2014
    T1MMY101 T1MMY101
    18-21, M
    Sep 24, 2014

    You know that feeling

    when you know your life isn't going well and you know you have to change things completely? That's how i feel but I'm having trouble escaping the rut I am currently in. I feel this is driving into deep depression and confusion. I hate myself for this and it makes me really...
    lonelyhooligan lonelyhooligan
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2015

    Unknowling Married Someone With A Drug Addiction

    I met someone 3 years ago and after 4 months of intense dating decided to get married.  I had 3 kids and he had one that lives with his mother on the east coast.  To make a long miserable story short, I found out last year that he has a drug addiction and after...
    citygurlindc citygurlindc
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2007

    Changing yourself takes time,

    it is incremental and can seem like hypocrisy to judging observers. While developing yourself you may reverse opinions, contradict yourself and seem inconsistent with your beliefs and actions. Don't allow people to control you with the consistency trap. Consistency has been...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 9

    I'm in an emotionally abusive relationship

    and I care about him too much to let go.
    ohlaurmarie ohlaurmarie
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2014

    Just saying that I am changing my username from

    IAmARebel IAmARebel
    16-17, F
    Oct 25, 2015

    Okay Changes Come To Me!

    Change?! I am the typical person who hate changes in her life. I am afraid, and now? I cant seems to move on. In every story I have, I always relate them the day I got engaged. Since that was the day were everything change! It seems though I take a big leap going to something big...
    Eureka85 Eureka85
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2011

    Make A Change

    Make a change,That's what I'll do,Need to improve,No point,Going on this way,I'm gonna change.
    startinover1 startinover1
    Apr 22, 2012

    I sit and ***** and moan

    but I do nothing about it. I think it's time to make some changes. I just wish I weren't so afraid.
    bethany444 bethany444
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2014

    accept myself for who I am

    and what I am; not who I can be or become. it is not a bad thing to strive to be better; however, is it good to consider yourself always lacking?
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Feb 16

    Sadly I know what I need to do,

    but it makes me so completely uncomfortable.
    Overit1 Overit1
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015

    I'm extremely lazy. I honestly have no idea why,

    maybe it's the Taurus in me. I waste a lot of days just laying in bed. Only leaving it to go to the bathroom, or to eat. I just love being in my room relaxing. But this needs to change. I need to start applying myself more, so that I can achieve the goals I have. It's hard...
    GettingOverShit GettingOverShit
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 9
    deegaf420 deegaf420
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    To End The Family Cycle Of Eating To Death

    Compulsive eating has taken a heavy toll on my Mom and Dad personally. Let me explain both: With my mom, I've never seen her be happy with her size. I've never seen her NOT on a diet. I've never seen her drop the "magical 30" that she's always wanted. Last year, she found out...
    RitaRee RitaRee
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 24, 2011

    I majorly need to change.

    Today was the breaking point. I have lost my identity. I have lost who I am. I was once easy going and fun, full of energy! Now, after being through struggle after struggle, I'm emotionally drained. I have no energy left. I regret a lot of poor decisions I made. This is not me...
    gottabebettertoo gottabebettertoo
    36-40, F
    May 12, 2014

    We get set in our ways.

    We become what we are, based on what we have experienced in our lives. Scars don't heal, they just teach us a lesson. We gain strength & wisdom from them. I don't show my scars, although they run deep. But what I am realizing is that only I have the ability to change me. I do...
    HippieDee HippieDee
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Feb 5, 2015

    Where will I be a year from now?

    A better place and a better frame of mind I hope. So much can happen in a year, especially in my semi-adventurous life. Last year by this time I was single, sad and bitter, now I'm living in a completely different city with my "new" man. Although I am grateful for what I do...
    OperationHotness OperationHotness
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Dec 16, 2013

    My doctor told me I am almost going to be

    diabetic so I need to cut some things out I eat , I want and need to lose weight so I am double on my workouts and get better things I need not what I want for my body when I food shop !!!
    LucidxxShivery LucidxxShivery
    26-30, F
    Nov 6, 2015

    Today I woke up a felt like utter crap.

    Yesterday was quite the same. I have chronic headaches and I feel like poo most of the time. I took a good look at myself in the mirror and said "something has got to give." I googled how to cleanse and heal myself and have found some pretty good detoxes I would like to try. I...
    Xoxolife Xoxolife
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2015

    My best friend is bad

    but I'm good and my mom don't want him a round me so such I cut him off
    htfhj htfhj
    13-15, M
    Jul 16, 2014

    I've been afraid of making changes,

    'cause I built my life around you.
    deegaf420 deegaf420
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2015

    I've had enough of the bullshit.

    Second marriage, second time of lies! No more, I'm living a lie. I know that wife is a cheater. I have been playing the fool, pretending everything is ok, after all, I don't want to hurt the kids, however, I have been here before. The kids will be alright. I want a real women...
    dave6866 dave6866
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 20, 2015

    I need to stop being nice to people

    who ****** me up. I need to stop caring about, feeling pity, and feeling merciful. I need to stop smiling and be scary, so people can stay away from me. so people can't mess with me. I need to be respected, so I need to DO something to get respect. if I only had a chance, if I...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    Feb 16

    I've made so many mistake in the last two years.

    My depression and my anger has caused my family to fall apart and it's time for a change.
    BrittTHart BrittTHart
    26-30, F
    May 4, 2014

    Like eliminating haters

    who try to make you hate yourself! Step one: check.
    crazycalmquiet52 crazycalmquiet52
    22-25, F
    Feb 16

    Where Do I Go From Here?

    I took a stand to-nite. I asked more from my marriage than what is present now. As a recovering alcoholic I realized that the stress was causing me to question my sobriety and mental health. I want more from a marriage than to settle. I want to give and I want the person who I...
    maxwell maxwell
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jul 19, 2007

    It Starts With Me

    I need to change my outlook on myself, I need to change my appearance... my haircolor would be great... I need to be more true to myself and then get back to finding myself.   I've done it again, I gave so much of myself to a relationship that I've forgotten who the...
    BlasphemousAngel BlasphemousAngel
    31-35, M
    3 Responses May 17, 2009

    I have to change a few things!

    Need to make a new year's resolution!
    deleted deleted
    Dec 28, 2014

    i mean why not post what will be different

    about you from now on? i wanna hear what others have been doing to make their lives better :)
    eminor92 eminor92
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 2, 2015

    The jump is so frightening between

    where I am, and where I want to be. Because of all I may become, I will close my eyes and leap. - Mary Anne Radmacher
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    I am going to have to make my parents proud of

    me again i am going to have to start making good positive choices..i need to learn all of that from a professional doctor...my last few days of rambling actually realesed alot frustration on EP...thats why i love using EP...This depression has to stop ASAP tommorrow im making a...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 1, 2015

    I am going to try to make it through the

    holidays, then it's time for change.
    bethany444 bethany444
    46-50, F
    1 Response Nov 19, 2014

    I need to be a better person

    but I don't know how to be...
    iamj iamj
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2014

    New year!!!New Spirits n Resolutions too!

    !! then y the old n same me??? so I hv finally decided to change...what to change still remains undecided bt some definite goals in my mind make me confident that once I get them done then I can keep stepping my weaknesses n get all I dream of!!! Fingers crossed...hopes high...
    Mughee Mughee
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    Sooo pretty much everyone I talk to has been

    telling me I need to change the way I think and how I think about myself. Now usually I pull the "I was abused" or "this is how I have always felt" card. Than one of my friends said I must like feeling this way because if I didn't like it I would have change by now. I got a...
    DontCallMeSunshine DontCallMeSunshine
    18-21, F
    Feb 21, 2015

    I'm getting divorced,

    it's definitely not my proudest moment, but something I have to do. However now I feel like I'm in this weird place, I have a lot of friends but the majority are all couple friends. I need to make new single friends but I'm not even sure where to start?
    deleted deleted
    Jun 27, 2015

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