All the time one thought turn around my head and keep on tapping on my heart : Ask God to love me and protect me .......I am in need of his love and mercy ....Imagine anyone that GOD TAKE AWAY HIS MERCY from him ....I cannot imagine what will appen to him in life or after...
I hurt, I hurt, I hurt. I can't see for my closed, swollen eyes. I can't breathe, my breath left me so long ago how am I still standing? I am sick, over & over again, from this sadness & longing I am so frightened will never leave me.
How can I love a monster? How?? How can I...
Take my poison.
Take my sting.
Take my anger.
Take my pain.
Take my bitterness.
Take my sadness.
Take my hurt.
Take my awful memories.
Take my lack if forgiveness.
Take my inability to let go.
Take my shame.
Take my missing a monster.
Again, please, please take my anger.
If one has faith, one knows they are never unheard. I have that faith.
My prayer is always, please, take this from me - because I can't find a way, no matter how hard I try; how far & wide I search; & how many people I ask for help.
I can't save myself. I think that's pretty...