I Need You to Understand

I need you to understand, that I'm NOT that person anymore. I never was, my emotions were just turned off back then. I'm not gonna do any of the things, you guys want me to just in order, to fit in. I'm through it, over and past it, so...

once again i apologize to everyone for bad spelling grammer and such i just write whats on my mind and post its the main point and the thought style i write, sorry if its not able to read

its always okay to push me and make sure i...

People are made to help the people, so why do people hurt the people?
this is not what they were made for!
When God is watching,
people are hurting all the people, this is not what I made them for!
he's crying, she's crying, they...

I need you to understand that I am so scared. I'm scared of dying. But I do these things because I don't know what else to do. I am awfully sad and I just want to be loved. I just don't understand why I'm feeling like this and why I can...

I think it is about control.I need to know if everyone around me is doing ok,I need to know if they are happy,I need to know if they need anything, of if there`s something I can do.
And thinking about those things all the time,it`s so...

You know those days when you get insightfull and start to think why you are the way you are? well at least I have those days sometimes.
Anyway,I was thinking why am I so broken right now? Many things happened that contributed to that...

I need you to understand that I am a little messed up but I mean well. I need you to understand I have a Lot of love in my heart....but I find it hard to love myself...which makes it hard to love someone romantically.I need you to...

Since I`m sick I havent been completely myself.
Like I`ve been loosing pieces of myself along the way. So I decided to remember who I was in hope it will help me to get those pieces back.
So when I`m ok,you know, not in this dark place...

To everyone who has ever said "I Love You" to me:
It is the most heavily weighted phrase in the Universe to me. It is not to be used for your gain. When you say it, it means you see my strengths and my fragility. You respect...

A lover
 
(who comes into your crumbling castle, bandages your bleeding wounds)
 
bringing perfection........ that initial meeting, that moment of pure, unfailing beauty, etched into your mind forever.....
 
Nothing...

Stop telling me to move on,
Tell the Moon to move on, Tell the Sun to move on, Tell them to sail away across the universe, cuz nothing is gonna change my world, really nothing is gonna change my world if images of their lights before my...

....it really is me

I am very complicated.. very complex... but you are important for me.. So I need you to understand me...

How did you get here?
 
 
(you let me in, baby..... dont you remember?)
 
 
 
i dont remember much these days............
 
 
don't worry about doing your hair, sweet........ and just...

HI !

I have a obsessive boyfriend , how can I tell him that I don't like his obsessive personality ?? one time he asked me to have sex with me , I said no , but he , kept in touching my chest .....
That day passed , he...

I still watch you.............
 
 
 
..............................drag myself through the debris you leave in your wake.............
 
 
 
claw my way through your ragged life...

This is a Re-Post....This was written by 1oldsnoopydoll and I was reminded of it today with a comment on my comment....I wanted to re-post because I thought it was fantastic and of course I need to give credit where it is due...SO enjoy...

[errrm.... excuse me, Mr Ep, why was this story deleted? Ive re read it, and I cant see what could possibly offend..... so Ill just post it again]
 
 
h e dressed up like Judas, come to change all you know. The silver...

always by my side...................
......................................always reminding me,
 
 
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