1. Take a trip- I want this to be a trip sans relatives. Even if it's a trip by myself. I just wanna go somewhere and get some peace of mind and enjoy myself in a place where no...
You came into my life as just another person. I didn't accept for you to be the one I'd start falling for.. The one who finally made me happy. But I'm the dumbass who didn't...
I wish I had more positive childhood memories with my mother growing up. She made many poor decisions throughout my lifetime and unfortunately we've never been very close. It's...
TESTIMONIALMY PERSONAL STORYI am 64 years old and have had nine years of chronic pain following an accident. I have numerous blown discs in my back and neck, and for about two...
I always have imagined of living in a world where everyone is really fat! The average person would weigh around 600lbs and most fast food places would be free and you could have it...
I spent most of my life with one woman, We raised one child together, built a house together and lived a very comfortable life financially for almost forty five years. She was...
I've always had dreams of going traveling, just getting on a boat and exploring all different countries taking in all different cultures and learning new stiff about them countries...
I feel nothing at all.
Inside I am dead.
I hit the ground, but do not fall.
I'm lost within my head.
I swallow the pill that makes it go away.
I become numb.
I feel no...
Mind of Mirrors
I glance in a mirror,
I realise I fear her,
This feral dirty *****.
She's scratching where I itch.
She glares through her hair,
I'm caught in her stare.
Comfortably Numb (Addiction)
I feel so numb
I was feeling in the beginning
Of my day today
Though I didn't like what I felt
So like any addict
I turn to my...
I thought he was my soul mate, but I see I was wrong.
We liked all the same things, we were best friends. We raised two dogs together and started a business together. We started...
I've never had children and lately I've been having a feeling that I don't want to. I loved reading the experiences on this feed because some mums actually wish they never had...
Numbness how did you come to hold,
So strong a grasp that's crushed my soul?
How did you rob me, strong and vain,
and now you linger where once was pain,
Like Fire raging...
so innocent, startled and scared by a man. Unbelievablely submissive. I uncontrollably surrender. Willingly
Personally I do not believe in a perfect partner. And I think, that true love has to be lived in the real world on a day by day, week by week, year by year basis...
and I believe...
All around me are blank walls
Never moving, always the same
Full of fools and a numbing pain
Constantly wailing for a change
These stupid grey walls
Have me trapped...
These empty pages, devoid of any defined reality,
reign over hope more than any ink stains could bear,
for this numbness resides,
when pain no longer haunts the...
Drifting into Numbness
I'm so tired of drifting through life.
dragging my feet,
not knowing or caring which way I'm heading.
The world turns around me
and I'm left behind.
lately I've been having the feeling
that I don't feel anything at all
and nothing is as quite as concealing
as this emotional wall
all these painful situations
I was seventeen when I got pregnant -- My boyfriend (at the timetook me from abortion clinic to abortion clinic trying to get me to have an abortion as I cried and begged to keep...
There are stupid things ive done and said and i just wish i didnt. Idk i feel like everyone all my friends and everyone looks at me like im stupid. Even now i just am annoying...
Negative doubt creeps in like water slowly trickling down the drain.
I try to submerge them but somehow they have air.
I’m in a time and place were everything’s...
Can anyone see this pitiful,
being inside of me?
Broken hearted, yet always singing?
Nothing to smile for, yet always smiling.
Torn apart, and never...
Not What I Used To Be
I am not what I used to be.
At least I don’t think it’s me.
I would not know,
Since now I just go with the flow.
I used to be able to feel,
Many -not all- of the cyber connections I make with people on here are transitory. We all have lives, we all have our own agendas. Not everyone you meet in life is destined to...
What do I want to be?
Happy or sad?
Medicated or not?
Hopeless or hopeful?
Why do I always have to be in the middle?
Or am I in the...
Insanity of thought pervades my mind;
if only incessant thinking would cease,
but it runs rampant here, there, everywhere
like a swelling stream into river...
I'm going to have boudoir photos taken this afternoon/evening.
Bringing along lacy pretty outfits to wear..... ;-)
UPDATE: The photo session went well. I did enjoy it! It's a...
1. Better at piano. 2. Find a true friend. 3. Save enough to do a kitchen remodel 4. Go scuba diving 5. Get my mom dad and In laws wills done 6. Pay off all debts. 7...
as the sun rises,
like a zombie,Numbness
trapped in this dream
i watch life pass by;
i wandered alone,
fighting all that came in my way,
struggling to make sense of this
Contradicting the pain I felt.
Flooding through me like a dose of anesthesia.
Paralyzed by the nothingness.
Unable to bring myself to move.
My Savior, Pain
Too numb to care,
far too broken inside,
bring on the pain.
Just let me know I'm alive.
The pain made me numb,
now let it bring me back.
Let it undo this torture...
I lie here,
Intoxicated by numbness,
It surrounds me like a cloud of thick smoke,
Seeping into my veins, my brain,
I desperately search for some feeling,
There is nowhere to go
Life like a maze
Almost every turn a dead end
Is there no way out
Why am I here
The lowest level of hell
I'm cold and numb
I can't find my way back...
Emotionless pit, endless fall
To the depths of insanity
Timeless confusion, reeking decent
Can’t find my wits
I am bent
Lost feelings, numb mind
Well, besides working out a lot, I only do that to stay in shape for firefighting and EMS medic work. Some patients are very, and I see a lot of things out here. Not much to me...
1)Finish education. 2)Go to Scotland. 3)Move out. 4)Get over anxiety and become more confident. 5)Get back into writing, music and art. 6)Get a tattoo or two. 7)Get a job. 8)Do...
I had been talking to and sharing my everything to a woman I met on experience project. Now, she has deactivated her account and I feel so bad about it. :( . I had been in love...
I surrender to the sacred slumber
as the sun rises in the sky.
An aching numbness pulses through my body
as I have not slept for a little while.
I surrender to the...
Lost In Numbness
Lost in numbness for years
Running from pain
Trapped in the freezing rain
Pain is better than nothing at all
Pain without reason, a cause, or...