I Never Could Imagine I'd Be Where I Am Today

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    I Always Thought...

    I always thought that I'd want love forever. Always need to need someone. Always want to want someone. But I don't anymore. I just want to learn me, that's all. It's what I've become. Things like hate and love are irrelevant now. There is only learning.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 10, 2009

    Happy

    It took Stepping up. Sincerely having Enough of pain. To Finally say Here Comes The chance to give Life a Fighting Moment. Since The Big Break, It feels Like Burden are Lifted. I feel like a Big Part of Me has Taken It's Course. I Haven't Felt this happy in About 2 years. I...
    matthewsmommy matthewsmommy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 17, 2008

    I Appreciate It All

    I grew up poor; first generation Irish. If you remember the triple decker where Damon lived in Good Will Hunting, well that's where I grew up. Maybe not that exact one, but you get the idea. Nineteen kids lived in house next door spread across three 1,200 sq. ft. apartments...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 9, 2011

    Thought I Had At Least a Chance

    Never did i think i would be where i am today couch surfing- watching history repeat itself Never did i think i would be where i am today more jaded than when i was 14, more sure of what i knew even then and yet.... still punching my time card on this rock  True i...
    tulick tulick
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2008

    O No...

    I never thought I would be here today.... I thought I was either going to be six feet under... I'm still alive and kicking.. In a mental hospital... Nope my disorders are doing so much better... Or in rehab.... Doing to whole rehab thing on my own and it's doing great... I just...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jul 18, 2008

    And Not In A Good Way...

    I thought I would be more.  I imagined I would have done more. 
    Iamnobodywhoareyou Iamnobodywhoareyou
    22-25, F
    May 21, 2010

    Who Woulda Thought..

     I woulda never thought i would be in my grandmother's house-and she'd be dead. Never thought i'd be at the school that i'm at. Never thougt my grades would be like they are, or i'd have this terrible procrastination prob.
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2009

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