I Never Felt Like I Had a Mom

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 187 People

    For the longest time,

    the lady who was responsible for giving birth to me and I never bonded nor really had a relationship. It was a very difficult and poor relationship. She had made a majorly poor choice after she discovered that she was pregnant with me after sleeping with a guy she had just met...
    Spiritualhope Spiritualhope
    36-40, F
    Jul 18, 2014

    I wish I had more positive childhood memories

    with my mother growing up. She made many poor decisions throughout my lifetime and unfortunately we've never been very close. It's hard for me even to this day to forgive her for some of the things she's done, and I can't help but partially blame her for how I turned out. I...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie
    18-21, F
    Jul 18, 2014

    My Mom Was Not There

    There seem to be a lot of mom groups huh? Damn Freud! Due to family racial differences and my parents marrying just because my mom was pregnant with me, I was forced to live with my dad as a baby. My mom is Mexican and that side of the family did not like my dad at all. So, my...
    EricS EricS
    31-35, M
    Sep 25, 2008

    Paranoid Schizophrenia

    I grew up with a severely mentally disturbed Mom, diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic when I was 14. Even as an adult, I simply don't tell my Mother anything, and in turn I have made sure that I have the type of relationship with my kids where there's nothing they can't tell me and...
    justjudyblue2 justjudyblue2
    36-40, F
    Apr 18, 2008

    I Caused My Mums Heart Attack

    When I was born my mum had a heart attack and was in hospital for 10 months and I was brought up by aunts. She came home and I went home when I was 1 year old. Then she was an invalid This was the 1950s and hearts were not repairable. She was pretty much bed ridden for the...
    sugerbear sugerbear
    61-65, M
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2008

    I Live In Heartbreak-

    not feeling worthy of her love as a kid has screwed me up for life- i just dont see a way out- it has damaged all my relationships. now i have borderline, attachment problems and no therapy has been of much help, except to demoralize me. there went that last vestiges of  my...
    eden eden
    31-35, F
    Sep 24, 2007

    Beauty Queen

    My mother was a wrong side of the tracks beauty queen who married  a  hard  working engineer.  Together they achieved financial and social heights beyond imagination.  I was raised by staff.  My driver, Harun, we grew up overseas, was my parent. ...
    mmss mmss
    41-45
    Jul 22, 2008

    My Mom Left

    My Mom left when I was young, and my Step mom didn't give a crap about me. Still doesn't. Now my real mom is dead, and my Dad and step mom are divorced. Woo.
    coderedgirlx7 coderedgirlx7
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 3, 2011

    Easily Put

    My mother doesn't act like a mother and refuses to believe she's in her mid-forties and instead sixteen again. Pathetically stubborn, to her the world revolves around herself and it's everyone else's fault. Sugar coating her voice, she lies often. She has never been there for...
    Marowit Marowit
    22-25, F
    Jan 11, 2009

    I Was the Mother

    ..& she was the child.... Except for when she was screaming about what an ungrateful little ***** of a of a daughter I was.  Only when she needed to confess about all her slutty affairs, and all her problems with my father was I "worthy".. As long as i was...
    Vox Vox
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2007

    It's Never Too Late To Heal

    My very first memory is of me crying at a screen door while my step father laughed at me. I think my mother was going somewhere, leaving me behind with that maniac. I think even at the tender age of 3 or 4 I knew he was a maniac. The verbal and physical abuse were...
    catlvr214 catlvr214
    41-45
    1 Response Aug 23, 2008

    Nope....

    My Mom and I were never close. She was never really there for me, and understood me. She didn't belive me, when I told her my father was abusing me. She never took care of me when I was sick, or when I was depressed. She never put me before herself. Her children never came 1st...
    xSilentlySufferingx xSilentlySufferingx
    18-21, F
    Jul 5, 2010

    Now She Wants To Bond!

    My problem is that when I hit 35 or so, my mom decided to rewrite history and declare herself "worlds greatest mom and grandma".  Meanwhile, I never felt like we bonded growing up.  She never once told me she loved me.  My grandmother...
    mchell mchell
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    The Dance

    I never felt like I had a mom, not even a mother.  Sure biological, she gave birth to me.  That doesn't mean she knew how to be a 'mom'.  31.5 years later she's yet to figure it out. It's a dance we do, her and I.  I play the mother, the responsible one, the...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2007

    Well, I Had a Mom...

    but she was more like a child with severe psychological problems whom I was always trying to help, even though she had the authority.
    paradoxical paradoxical
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 15, 2008

    What people say, and what I say

    She was immature due to overprotecting from her mother. She got married to an *******. When she realized her mistake, it was too late. Worked a lot to try to give me a future. Then fell sick, and died. So she did what she could under the circumstances. I can't say I missed...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 1, 2008

    Never

    We never really clicked. Maybe because I remind her of my father with the light skin and freckles? Maybe because I was there and remember her marriage to him and all the bad memories that linger. I'm the last one to remind her of him and I think that has always bothered her. Of...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jan 11, 2009

    I Am Very Sad

    My mother is about to turn 86 she is in a nursing home for people with Dementia related problems. The nursing staff think she is just so wonderful. My mother might have undertaken a change in her personality (some brain cells got killed off) but she is still the person I grew up...
    cello cello
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Oct 11, 2007

    My Mom's Hated Me Most of My Life

    Today I'm 42years old (43 next month) My mom gave me away when i was 7yrs old, before i left i was an abused child, physically, mentally, physically, sexually, i went into the system all my childhood and adolescence as still an abused child in some form, moved out of my last...
    embrissa embrissa
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2008

    Reclusive Mother, Abusive Brother

    Short and to the point. My dad killed himself, my brother found his body....but even before that my brother had anger problems and abused me, and my mom was slowly becoming a recluse. Now, my brother is so angry my mom is fearing for her life. They live together in a trailor my...
    MEDSING MEDSING
    26-30
    Sep 26, 2012

    That avatar is ironic; I used to call her mommy dearest...

    Oh, where to begin?  I have never felt much like I have a mother, in the supportive, loving way that other people have.  I certainly have a mother, but (owing to a perception problem, or reality,) she has always felt to me like a person who put herself first, and I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2007

    Not Till Ep

    My Mom and I were never close. She was never really there for me, and understood me. She didn't believe me, when I told her my father was abusing me. She never took care of me when I was sick, or when I was depressed. She never put me before herself. Her children never came 1st...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 12, 2012

    Awful Mother

    My mother ignored me, abused me mentally and physically, and, to this day, only talks to me when she wants something from me.  Just the other month she accused me of being "crazy" because I happen to remember certain abusive episodes that she says never occurred...
    girlkitty79 girlkitty79
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jul 1, 2008

    We were never close..

    It's as if she only thought of me as a best friend, until now.. She acts more of a friend that a mother. She only acts like a mother when dad's around or when my sister does something she really liked.. It's as if she never gave birth to me.. It's as if I was a family friend all...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 13, 2014

    It's Sad That She Isn't A Mother

    but it's worse that she is my worst enemy. my mother is my worst enemy. she goes out of her way to hurt me. she spreads lies about me, tells people not to hire me to clean their apartments or to babysit. she spread gossip about me, redicules me, and really has been successful at...
    veronica4ever veronica4ever
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2012

    She Was a Ghost

    Even from a very early age, I knew there was something "not right" with my mother.  She was so distant and removed from life, as if she was just a ghost, walking aimlessly on this earth.  She has always been somewhat of a workaholic and pragmatic to the...
    hippieheart hippieheart
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Feb 11, 2008

    Not At All...

    My Mom and I were never close. She was never really there for me, and understood me. She didn't belive me, when I told her my father was abusing me. She never took care of me when I was sick, or when I was depressed. She never put me before herself. Her children never came 1st...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 21, 2010

    Superficial Martyr

    My mother frustrates me to no end ... she has been a mother for 34 years to three girls (I'm the oldest) but  has rarely shown any warmth or depth in the last 21.  My mother kicked my father out of the house 21 years ago, and they ended up divorcing shortly...
    annajc annajc
    31-35
    2 Responses Jan 1, 2009

    Me And Mum Never Bonded

    when i was born, my 39 year old mum had post natal depression and was unable to look after me so she gave my then 15 year old sister the job.  my sister had left school by then and took me everywhere with her, so much so that her boyfriend (now husband) thought i was her own...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 3, 2011

    Unhealthy Relationship With My Mom

    I never bonded with my Mother.  My early experiences with her are filled with memories of criticism.  I was told that I was "weird", "from outerspace" and "in my own little world".  I was the middle child and did not experience the...
    Skyler Skyler
    46-50, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2007

    I Didn't

    All I remember from my mother was her being a drunk, and didn't give a damn about me. She wasn't around ever I grew up pretty much on my own was alone pretty much my whole life. She did try though, she tried getting closer to me right before she passed away. I didn't have it...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2010

    My Mom

    I WON'T SAY THAT ME AND  MOM'S RELATIONSHIP WAS HORRIBLE BUT WHEN  I LOOK AT ME AND MY CHILDREN'S RELATIONSHIP I FEEL IT COULD OF BEEN A WHOLE LOT BETTER. I GREW UP  IN A FAMILY OF SEVEN. FIVE BROTHERS AND ONE OLDER SISTER. WE NEVER HAD MUCH BUT I CAN'T COMPLAIN I HAD AN OKAY...
    sophisticatedangel sophisticatedangel
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2011

    I mean, after I turned like four,

    she treated us like we were pieces of **** and it really effected me. Now I just want her approval and she won't even talk to me on Easter... Why I even thought she would come over and at least say hi, I have no idea.
    Shaywen Shaywen
    16-17, F
    Apr 5, 2015

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