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I Never Got Over Death Of A Loved One

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F Jun 12, 2012

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    Totally Lost

    My mother died when I was 16 as I have said in many of my stories.  My father had her cremated.  That I knew. That is it.  All I knew. I went for 13 years wondering where my mom was. My Dad knew.......he just never told us.  She is somewhere safe he told us.Where.......no...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Broken...

    Today is 7 years since I lost him. Tears while I type and my heart is breaking again. I still love him so much, still miss him, still dream about him, still hurt so much. He was/is the love of my life and I can't get over him. He was my first love, first everything. Am I insane...
    BlueAngel7 BlueAngel7 31-35, F Jul 18, 2013

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    Loss

    I carry her with me. I hold my fathers love so preciously in my heart. When I 40 I got my first tatoo. Its an Irish clover with the Union jack wrapped around it. It's on my back right behind my heart. Are you sure you want your tattoo there he says to me.....Tattoo...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    My Best Friend Died - A Non True Story. I Found

    Okay so I went on the beach with my best friend last night. Now then there was a call by a life gard that there was a man trying to stab people. Now this man seem to be interested in my best friend and she was talking to me saying that this was a lie. Then as everyone was running...
    ellz0569 ellz0569 13-15, F Aug 15, 2013

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    My Mom

    my mom passed away 5 years ago and since then i have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions..i haven't had a stable relationship since then..its like i am trying to find the same comfort and care that she gave ..which i think is impossible..all my friends and relatives are...
    unbriddled unbriddled 26-30 2 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    I walked to the vast knoll I tell myself I'm

    done with this hellhole I remember the pain and agony Your death was sudden and a tragedy I crawl on my belly and look at your new face carved in stone I'm too afraid to look at you again, you'll be a body of bone I bring up and examine my personal friend I look at it's blade...
    FallenxPerfection FallenxPerfection 16-17, F Dec 30, 2013

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    Funerals

    I have been to  more than 10 of them already.  All close family memebers.  1 cousin when she was 16.  My Mom when I was 16.  My Dad.  All my Grandparents.  Aunts and Uncles.  Along with a few others that were due to my bf faimly.  I am going to my Uncle's funeral...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2012

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    Where Are You?

    Those we love don't go away. They walk beside us everyday. Unseen,unheard but always near. Still loved,still missed and very dear.
    hishamocampo hishamocampo 22-25, M Aug 26, 2013

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    Her Name Is Blair.

    It's been a year now since she killed herself.. And I still have that feeling the day I saw her at the wake, I couldn't stop going up there and giving her kisses. I'm sure she loved that, she was the one who had my heart. She always will. I just can't let go, and I don't think I...
    DomsTuna11 DomsTuna11 18-21, F Jun 10, 2012

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2012

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    1988

    My loved one passed away when i was18 since then all of my relationships have averaged 3weeks or less.I MISS HER BADLY
    Bugahaus Bugahaus 41-45 Apr 18, 2012

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    My Dad

    My Dad,Love him,With all my heart,Never got over it,Well over three years now,Guess,I never will,Dad,I love you so.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Apr 3, 2012

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    Smexyshannonxo Smexyshannonxo 13-15, F Aug 25

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    dyingsIowIy dyingsIowIy 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    More then a few people have told me that. But I've only told one very special person those words...
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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I, I can't get these memories out of my mind, And some kind of madness has started to evolve. And I, I tried so hard to let you go, But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole...
    WellisntThisjustPeachy WellisntThisjustPeachy 18-21, M Aug 25

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    Thanks dad! Thanks for telling me you were having an operation those many years ago but wound up dying on the table right after the operation! Thanks for having us get a phone call...
    Jpeavey Jpeavey 41-45, M Aug 30

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    I've never had a fight and i'm quite proud of this achievement. Mainly becuase I 'm a bit of a wuss and would probably get my *** kicked, but also because its nice to know i'm...
    surfdas surfdas 22-25, M Sep 3

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    Yea i know it's a part of life but that doesn't mean I have to accept it. I start crying just at the thought of the ones I love passing away. It's not a good thing. So why should i...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When I was 15, my grandma passed away In a nursing home. My dad called the house when I just got home from school. He was crying and when he told me I was shocked. He was...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F Aug 21

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    Never in a real fight with some drama and all that ****. All the fights i've done were for fun :) i kinda love fighting with friends and i'm kind of violent sometimes :s
    BlueBear98 BlueBear98 16-17, M Sep 4

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    And it doesn't seem fair to. To get over the past is to act like it didn't happen or it didn't affect you. My past has irrevocably shaped me and I can't ignore it. Results of my...
    sweetloaf sweetloaf 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    Sophiakhan1 Sophiakhan1 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't express my emotions verbally very often. So if I tell you I love you, then you better know that I mean it with every fiber of my being.
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    It's a big word I can have sex with a person and not say I love you sometimes when I have that feeling of love I try to convince my self it's lust it takes time for me to love...
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    cjohnson1983 cjohnson1983 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I'm scared and crying I'm hurt inside really bad and broken
    butterflypink butterflypink 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I lost my closest friend to suicide
    horneyteen88 horneyteen88 16-17, F Aug 24

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    thedude5600 thedude5600 36-40, M Sep 7

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    I could feel the wind on my face, it was dark and raining slightly. It felt good. It seemed to carry some of my sorrow away with it. The waves sounded distant but I was standing on...
    joecell joecell 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    Ok so getting back with him was a fail - didn't even respond back to me. Sigh... But I have to let go of the past and face the future by starting in the present. ...Anyone out...
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