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I Never Got Over Death Of A Loved One

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 305 People

    Soon it's your Birthday.

    To this day, you're missed just as much as the day you were taken from me. I wish I had been able to say goodbye. You never told us you were having surgery. I wish I could have been able to tell you, "I love you. You'll always be in my heart no matter what. Without you, I wouldn...
    Whirlwind5 Whirlwind5 41-45, M 2 Responses Dec 3, 2015

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    I will give you the full story My mom took us

    out to eat the day my grandfather died. He died from Alzheimer's. I was really close to him and lately I have been having dreams that he is not dead and standing in front of my bed every time in that dream I run to my parents room and there gone what does that mean? Please tell...
    Gymnasticslover Gymnasticslover 13-15, F Dec 30, 2015

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    My paternal grandmother died.

    . she was only 70 (or so idk) but it seemed to soon for me.. she was so vibrant and alive and (not to mention an exceptional cook and baker) and I just expected her to live forever.. at least 20 years more.. but she got shingles and then they discovered she had a brain tumor as...
    PastelLime PastelLime 31-35 3 Responses Sep 17, 2015

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    Twelve years and counting

    and i still cry occasionally when i think about my cousin/best friend who died suddenly at age 33. Her eldest daughter is a High School senior this year and looks so much like her it hurts. Im tearing up now just typing about it.
    AuxArcs33 AuxArcs33 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    Where Are You?

    Those we love don't go away. They walk beside us everyday. Unseen,unheard but always near. Still loved,still missed and very dear.
    hishamocampo hishamocampo 22-25, M Aug 26, 2013

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    Funerals

    I have been to  more than 10 of them already.  All close family memebers.  1 cousin when she was 16.  My Mom when I was 16.  My Dad.  All my Grandparents.  Aunts and Uncles.  Along with a few others that were due to my bf faimly.  I am going to my Uncle's funeral...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2012

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    Her Name Is Blair.

    It's been a year now since she killed herself.. And I still have that feeling the day I saw her at the wake, I couldn't stop going up there and giving her kisses. I'm sure she loved that, she was the one who had my heart. She always will. I just can't let go, and I don't think I...
    DomsTuna11 DomsTuna11 18-21, F Jun 10, 2012

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    My Dad

    My Dad,Love him,With all my heart,Never got over it,Well over three years now,Guess,I never will,Dad,I love you so.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Apr 3, 2012

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    My Best Friend Died - A Non True Story. I Found

    Okay so I went on the beach with my best friend last night. Now then there was a call by a life gard that there was a man trying to stab people. Now this man seem to be interested in my best friend and she was talking to me saying that this was a lie. Then as everyone was running...
    ellz0569 ellz0569 16-17, F Aug 15, 2013

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    I don't think anyone really gets over the death

    of someone they loved, they just kind of get used to that person not being around..The thing I never got over was...how in the end I wasn't there. For whatever reason, I focused so much on school, and when my friend reached out I wasn't there for him..and he attemtped to commit...
    StayGould StayGould 18-21, F Dec 29, 2015

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    Loss

    I carry her with me. I hold my fathers love so preciously in my heart. When I 40 I got my first tatoo. Its an Irish clover with the Union jack wrapped around it. It's on my back right behind my heart. Are you sure you want your tattoo there he says to me.....Tattoo...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    EPNachoman EPNachoman 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    my aunt passed away from cancer almost two

    years ago. I was so used to seeing her everyday because she lived w us before she got sick. she was sick for over a year and then passed. I miss her every single day. I don't really talk to anyone about it because I feel like nobody will understand the impact losing her had on...
    hnicoleoxox hnicoleoxox 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2015

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    Saturday is your Birthday.

    I wish I could celebrate it with you, Dad. I miss you. I've missed you for a long time. I always struggle this time of year. RIP. I love you... Your Youngest Son
    Whirlwind5 Whirlwind5 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 22, 2015

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    Broken...

    Today is 7 years since I lost him. Tears while I type and my heart is breaking again. I still love him so much, still miss him, still dream about him, still hurt so much. He was/is the love of my life and I can't get over him. He was my first love, first everything. Am I insane...
    BlueAngel7 BlueAngel7 31-35, F Jul 18, 2013

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    My Mom

    my mom passed away 5 years ago and since then i have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions..i haven't had a stable relationship since then..its like i am trying to find the same comfort and care that she gave ..which i think is impossible..all my friends and relatives are...
    unbriddled unbriddled 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    I don't care how many times people try to

    comfort me and tell me that things will be alright, I will never get over losing my first grandmother and brother. They meant the world to me, and on top of that I lose my father last year and this year a year later, I lose my other grandmother. I even witnessed the passing of...
    BELLYBUTTONQUEEN83 BELLYBUTTONQUEEN83 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2015

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    My grandfather died about 1month

    before my birthday that day is never the same without him 
    Gymnasticslover Gymnasticslover 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    It's been that long that Iv forgotten what his

    voice sounds like. I cry every day because I just can't remember for the life of me what it sounded like. I can't remember what his skin feels like. I can't remember what his cologne was either. But I still have a bag of his belongings that I keep. It's the last of his things...
    alice0493 alice0493 22-25, F Sep 17, 2015

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    My mother died when I was 9 years old.

    I was really attached to her for two reasons..one I was adopted so had develmental issues and she made me feel safe. Then she got cancer and died.....I numbed myself to cope with her death. Of course I don't like seeing kids with THEIR moms...when I can't have mine with me...I...
    BioWolf1234 BioWolf1234 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 13, 2015

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    It's been 22 years since my sister committed

    suicide and I still can't get past being angry at her for it.
    mickitg mickitg 41-45, T 1 Response Jan 6

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    1988

    My loved one passed away when i was18 since then all of my relationships have averaged 3weeks or less.I MISS HER BADLY
    Bugahaus Bugahaus 41-45 Apr 18, 2012

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    This is more of a question/opinions from other

    people kind of post. I just woke up so hopefully this will make sense. My brother committed suicide on August 4th, 2014. He would be 23 if he was still alive. He's about 5 years older than me. So I just woke from having a dream about him, and my mother and I like to think of...
    aesco53 aesco53 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9, 2015

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    My grandmother died after I moved away

    and I couldn't come back for her funeral. She was alive when my first child died but didn't live to see my son. I feel like she is watching over him, though. I don't think I'll ever get over how guilty I feel about the entire situation.
    TheFyrewolf TheFyrewolf 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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    cashetty69 cashetty69 51-55, M Dec 1, 2015

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    My best friend and father of my two children

    passed away 3 years ago. I know that in order to have a future I must let go of my past...but I'm having a really hard time moving on and letting go.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 6

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    i meet one of my aunts

    when i was 7, she died when i was 10, i only knew her for that little time, but she was awesome, she was the light in every room she was. She was funny, a relly good chef, she took care of me when i was sick, she was so positive even when she was in the worst situation with...
    blahblahasd blahblahasd 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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    My father died two years ago.

    I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I wasn't there when he passed away because I was too scared. I'm sorry dad.
    AnorakPhan AnorakPhan 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 25

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F Jun 12, 2012

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    8 months ago I lost my dad.

    He went to work one day only to never return again. I keep acting as if I'm fine but I'm really not. My dad was my best friend, and he was litteraly always there for me. If I were at a party at 5 in the morning, I could call him to come and get me, if I was at work wearing shoes...
    lirvraem lirvraem 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 2, 2015

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    mabuhayka mabuhayka 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 1, 2015

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    I had a miscarriage and lost another child a

    few years after that that one wasn't a miscarriage I never told anyone but that's all I ever think about that's why I'm afraid to get pregno again
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 17, 2015

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    Totally Lost

    My mother died when I was 16 as I have said in many of my stories.  My father had her cremated.  That I knew. That is it.  All I knew. I went for 13 years wondering where my mom was. My Dad knew.......he just never told us.  She is somewhere safe he told us.Where.......no...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 27, 2012

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    I walked to the vast knoll I tell myself I'm

    done with this hellhole I remember the pain and agony Your death was sudden and a tragedy I crawl on my belly and look at your new face carved in stone I'm too afraid to look at you again, you'll be a body of bone I bring up and examine my personal friend I look at it's blade...
    FallenxPerfection FallenxPerfection 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2012

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    My best friend died almost 5 years ago.

    I have never experienced death before, and losing someone I seen and talked to almost everyday hit me hard. Can you truly get over such things? His soul was beautiful. one thing i struggle with is...myself, and somehow he brought me out of my dark hole by shining his light. He...
    StayGould StayGould 18-21, F Dec 2, 2015

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    One day, maybe two years ago, I had attempted scuicide, I felt as if I was alone and at the time I didn't have any friends, they had all began to dislike me due to another "friend...
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    Last night, I watched most of the Superbowl with H and her husband. It's really strange to say that, because he has been my friend since we were kids, and still is one of, if not...
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    This Sunday I was informed that my cousin who has been battling cancer for almost 15 years passed away at the very very young age of 20. She got to graduate high school, learned...
    PandaaMee PandaaMee 22-25, F 11 hrs ago

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    Feel like everyone i loved didnt love me or that i never was. Bt its good, wont do that love **** again.
    ElSabre101 ElSabre101 26-30, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I hate this. It's 2:45, my birthday, and I've never felt more alone. Yeah I had a great weekend, spent with some of the best friends in the world, but I want to me loved. Not...
    xadev xadev 18-21, M 5 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    When I was a freshman I attended a dance to be my friend's wingman and keep a guy who liked her on his best behavior. We walked around, looked at dresses, and eventually she...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 14 hrs ago

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    In the church bathrooms, there was a separated area that had a couch. Naughty girls that misbehaved during the service (including myself on more than one occasion) would end up...
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