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I Never Got Over Death Of A Loved One

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    I walked to the vast knoll I tell myself I'm

    done with this hellhole I remember the pain and agony Your death was sudden and a tragedy I crawl on my belly and look at your new face carved in stone I'm too afraid to look at you again, you'll be a body of bone I bring up and examine my personal friend I look at it's blade...
    FallenxPerfection FallenxPerfection 16-17, F Dec 30, 2013

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    Loss

    I carry her with me. I hold my fathers love so preciously in my heart. When I 40 I got my first tatoo. Its an Irish clover with the Union jack wrapped around it. It's on my back right behind my heart. Are you sure you want your tattoo there he says to me.....Tattoo...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    My Dad

    My Dad,Love him,With all my heart,Never got over it,Well over three years now,Guess,I never will,Dad,I love you so.
    storywriter2 storywriter2 46-50 Apr 3, 2012

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F Jun 12, 2012

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    Funerals

    I have been to  more than 10 of them already.  All close family memebers.  1 cousin when she was 16.  My Mom when I was 16.  My Dad.  All my Grandparents.  Aunts and Uncles.  Along with a few others that were due to my bf faimly.  I am going to my Uncle's funeral...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2012

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    Totally Lost

    My mother died when I was 16 as I have said in many of my stories.  My father had her cremated.  That I knew. That is it.  All I knew. I went for 13 years wondering where my mom was. My Dad knew.......he just never told us.  She is somewhere safe he told us.Where.......no...
    flodials flodials 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    If I Had Not....

    I could have been easily that girl with slashed wrist, tattooed ankle, lips darkened by occasional smoking, dirty shirts and broken smile…if I had not loved myself enough to take care of myself during “those times”.
    wingsgirl wingsgirl 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2012

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    Broken...

    Today is 7 years since I lost him. Tears while I type and my heart is breaking again. I still love him so much, still miss him, still dream about him, still hurt so much. He was/is the love of my life and I can't get over him. He was my first love, first everything. Am I insane...
    BlueAngel7 BlueAngel7 31-35, F Jul 18, 2013

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    My Mom

    my mom passed away 5 years ago and since then i have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions..i haven't had a stable relationship since then..its like i am trying to find the same comfort and care that she gave ..which i think is impossible..all my friends and relatives are...
    unbriddled unbriddled 26-30 2 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    1988

    My loved one passed away when i was18 since then all of my relationships have averaged 3weeks or less.I MISS HER BADLY
    Bugahaus Bugahaus 41-45 Apr 18, 2012

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    Her Name Is Blair.

    It's been a year now since she killed herself.. And I still have that feeling the day I saw her at the wake, I couldn't stop going up there and giving her kisses. I'm sure she loved that, she was the one who had my heart. She always will. I just can't let go, and I don't think I...
    DomsTuna11 DomsTuna11 18-21, F Jun 10, 2012

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    I hateeeeee when people just say I love you just to say it or to get what they want! If you don't genuinely love that person, don't say it. I had an ex say he loved me and could...
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    It's been almost an hour since I received the news of my grandma about her health. My family and I have known few months ago her health has gotten worst and the doctor said she has...
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    So Much things that I cant forget. My mother was an alcoholic and i took Care of her all the time. My dad ran away and left me with her. I was only 7 when i learned to Cook my own...
    vickepicke vickepicke 16-17, M Mar 27

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    I tripped over a child safety gate last year, I fractured and partially dislocated my elbow. In this case, the top of my arm jumped out of the elbow socket and jammed. I was sent...
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    I got a text message from a friend telling me that one of my best friends had killed himself. I was in total denial due to him not showing any signs or symptoms of being unhappy...
    kiara95 kiara95 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    Last Call- I just ended what was single handedly the most depressing phone call I've ever had to make. my grandma has been battling lung cancer for several months now and isn't...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I would never ever tell someone I love them, if I didn't love them. I don't think it is right to tell someone you love them, when you really don't. "love" is not a word I throw...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    So, my grandma isnt in the best shape. She sits in her chair all day and can never really leave her house. She gets pretty bored and unhappy sitting there all of the time. Im a...
    chooseyourownlife chooseyourownlife 16-17, F Apr 2

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    When you find the right one you just know. Some find it sooner than I did rather than at 35. But I'm very bless with my girlfriend. She is amazing and I do love her. Saying it and...
    Lynn0617 Lynn0617 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 6

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    And once I mean it, nothing they do can ever make me stop.. Which is a ***** when it doesn't work out. There's one too many beautiful ghosts in this heart.
    xSCARx xSCARx 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My other half is a drug addict I didn't know she was when we started dating now it's two years later and she's worse I feel like she lies and has a secret life on the side for her...
    becks2378 becks2378 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Is it me or is it hard to forget something from the past that you wish never happend
    blueplasma blueplasma 13-15, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    I was (and sometimes still) bullied an picked in constantly. I have no real friends outside of my club team. I have school friends, but then they don't even want to hang out with...
    Emilypaiget Emilypaiget 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Please don't Judas me..... You haven't lived if you've never heard this song! :=)
    Movingonmovingon Movingonmovingon 36-40, F 5 days ago

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    Yesterday was a 3 year anniversary of my biological grandfather'a passing Only knew him for only 5 years. I miss him so much.
    smilesx36 smilesx36 22-25, F Mar 30

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    It's not like saying I love you is easy enough to do. I don't go around telling people I love you. Wait, oh well. Maybe I do but only to some of my closest friend. But do you even...
    Mininyaa Mininyaa 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I just kept it to myself....
    diana711 diana711 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Very true I had it done to me not long ago
    imalez2 imalez2 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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      Nina Simone - You Don't Know What Love Is: http://youtu.be/BguiWbW5j3Q
    musicilove musicilove 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    My best friend. She started acting rude to everyone and bulling me. I made excuses until I had enough. I told her how I felt and she hugged me for the last time before we walked...
    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 13-15, F Mar 22

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    Love cooking for my family especially my hard working mom 💕
    lexix0 lexix0 16-17, F Mar 23

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    Danny I still miss you. You were so loving and caring. I can see you making goofy faces in class trying to make me laugh. It makes me want to cry now. Why didn't I go with you...
    courtneyblue courtneyblue 18-21, F Mar 26

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    and they are miles away. I cannot hold her..
    saltydog74 saltydog74 22-25, M Mar 27

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    It is not so much that I love cooking ... but it is that I love the people I cook for and their response. I love how they devour everything. I love when they ask for seconds and...
    chocomint chocomint 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My grandmother passed away early this morning, and her last words to me were, "I love you too, sweetie." Nana, I love you so much, and though it hurts so badly that you've passed...
    iCaii iCaii 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    "I bleed for you Forever I will lie awake I would Die For You I see the truth I've given you my heart to break I would Die For You"
    LunaOanaAris LunaOanaAris 16-17, F Apr 5

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    "the problem is not so much dying for a friend. it is finding a friend worth dying for"
    mstud17 mstud17 22-25, F Apr 5

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    I fell for someone I simply could not have because of this persons parents and religion. We are both girls. Um, I love her. A lot. And now I have to let her go. I even just found...
    GiambonaB GiambonaB 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Last night, i dreamt my mom died. But its strange cuz she said goodbye first before she ride a car and go. Me and my dad were really sad. I've dreamt my mom died 3 times now. Some...
    MelodyInMyHead MelodyInMyHead 16-17, F Apr 7

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    Three people now actually.... When i was 7, i lost my Grampy to suicide. He hung himself while intoxicated... November of 2011, My eldest brother, James, ended his life with me...
    TeganLynne TeganLynne 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Gabriel Garcia Marquez. Nobel prize of literature. Inspired me during my younger years with his magic realism and the fascinating town of Macondo. Rest in piece brother of...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am extremely insecure!!!! & I HATE it.
    wrt2bwrg wrt2bwrg 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    They should legalize marijuana than just tax the crap out of it to get more money
    markbre23 markbre23 13-15, M Mar 28

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    Okay it all started around in August, at the time I was introduced to this guy. He wasn't just a regular like he was something more... special. I don't have the right words to...
    idontkn0z idontkn0z 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Alone Again Naturally By Gilbert O'Sullivan.
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M Apr 10