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I Never Let Anybody Too Close to Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 86 People

    Just Because

    In my lifetime, I have had too many individuals that I allowed past the inner walls that I built to protect me from those that only want to use what they can, without reguard to my feelings.  I have finally built them strong enough that even my own weaknesses can not break...
    beentherendonethat beentherendonethat 56-60, M 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    just a little...

    ....just only so much then no more. too fearful of what they may think, i hide again. and it's a terrible thing to want to step closer, yet have to give in to my fears and pull back, away and be left with just my loneliness as company. again again. never knowing how to lay it...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2008

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    Well, I Used to Not Let Anybody Close to Me...

    but I'm learning to open up to people. But only to very, very, very few people. It can get very lonely sometimes though.
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Afraid!

     I'm afraid of letting someone close to me and getting hurt...Either physical and emotionally. Mostly because i'm like an open book and get easily hurt.....
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2008

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    My Mask Refuses to Crumble

    Being numb and distant is an easy way to avoid getting hurt. However, it's also an easy way to never really connect with anyone. I've opened up to people before and they've crushed me. So it makes it really hard to open up to anyone. EP is a different story, everyone (well mostly...
    XxSperanzaXx XxSperanzaXx 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Somethings Never Change

    I talk - on a very superficial level, to many people.  I talk for a living - it's not a problem making small talk, making people feel good.  I don't let anyone in on the interpersonal level though -- I avoid this like the plague. It hurts WAY...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2008

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    I Don't Know Which To Choose

    I want nothing more in this entire world than to just be one with someone. And because of this, I would jump at every oppurtunity I could, fall 500 feet, and break my heart. So I have to protect myself from being stupid enough to get too close to someone, because it would break...
    Angelwings7 Angelwings7 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    Rogue

    I never let anybody close to me. Not to spare me, but to spare them. So they don't get hurt. I allow myself to love others unfortunately, because I don't  have much of a choice on that. But as soon as their is a whiff of them getting too close, I remove myself. I know...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    False

    They're all fake, wearing masks. Hypocrites who have no real interest. They say things like "you can tell me anything", "cheer up", "it will get better". They make false promises just to shut you up. No one truly gives a crap what happens to anyone else. They all want help fixing...
    L96Arctic L96Arctic 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    I've always felt afraid to let people get close to me both physically and emotionally. I think this is why I have never dated someone or I get choked up when someone asks me on a...
    LilFA LilFA 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    Its pretty hard actually for me to get close so much to other people I consider it as an attachment, and as my immediate family .I never let someone in my own world easily Im a...
    mystery05 mystery05 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    that never ONCE ended well for me. i will NEVER let that happen... i craze it but i fear it a thousand times more than i crave it
    blackscribbles blackscribbles 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    I used to be afraid I gave a few chances but each time they prove me wrong , the further I move away getting closer and closer to that fear. Until I decided to shut these doors and...
    Starz93 Starz93 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    I get so uncomfortable when people I don't really know hug me or pat my back or touch me in any way!!! And I will absolutely not tell someone that I love them unless I mean it-even...
    screaminginside81 screaminginside81 31-35, F 7 Responses Nov 28

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    You need a good reason for me leting you Get close to me. Ut just hurts so much
    Pot1023 Pot1023 13-15, M Dec 3

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    So my whole life I've always pushed people away for fear of waking up one day that they'll just be gone. When I was young I was really close to my father and then he walked out and...
    BroadwayBound2014 BroadwayBound2014 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    I've always wanted to feel loved but I am never able to open up to people around me. When I'm alone, I would create a world in my head where I befriended all those people I...
    hesitations hesitations 16-17, M Dec 5

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    I'm only wary of letting potential dates get close. I have been burned in the past by doing that. To my family and close friends I am a completely open book.
    SuperheroFanboy SuperheroFanboy 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 5

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    After struggling with and escaping my mother's abuse for three months, I've finally grown comfortable with letting my siblings know what goes on in my life. But today I was...
    Cranksta Cranksta 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    I've been hurt far too much to ever trust anyone
    amaui1 amaui1 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I'd love to be open in that respect. But I've been hurt far too much sadly.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I have found throughout my life, that people are very cruel. They will infiltrate your life, your persona; they will discover your innermost secrets by parading as your friend. But...
    PatrickMoosePants PatrickMoosePants 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 23

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    I'm broken and full of corruption... What will it take for me to stop letting people in... First of all they end up either hurting me, or I hurt them! Maybe even both... But it's...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Call me paranoid, but u don't trust people. People are mean. People are two faced. People will hurt you. People will most likely try to rob you of money, happiness and dignity. I...
    Passionfruit101 Passionfruit101 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    Over the years, I have developed many walls around myself.. although these walls protect myself and my heart they have also isolated me from may of the people I meet. Trying to...
    ben37SC ben37SC 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 5

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    Iam in a situation where I have a partner which is a female for 6 yrs that I have trust issues I love her, but she lies about even small things , because she doesn't like...
    tkgb1 tkgb1 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I opened up a little bit more than I feel comfortable... Thought I was okay at the time... But now my life long secret... The secret that no one knew... No one except for me... Has...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's kind of like a defense mechanism. It just happens. Like there's this alarm inside of me that goes off, and shoots the razor wire walls up so I don't get close and I can cut...
    TheRisingPhoenix TheRisingPhoenix 16-17, F Dec 9

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    If I'm honest I don't think I'll ever properly trust anyone
    Awer1 Awer1 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 23

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    It looks like they're coming back at it again! Taverncraft, a extra of 3 Aspect Entertainment, just announced that they have just engaged some new "Legendary Collection" Steins to...
    zhuanghan zhuanghan 22-25, F Nov 25

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    Not sure why but I guard my heart fiercely but can love/care deeply once you reach it :)
    minnadt minnadt 46-50, M 4 Responses Nov 29

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    It's not that I hate being with other people. It's just that I've got trust issues. I hate people leaving me behind. :( But that's inevitable so I have to face that fact.
    nightfurydoodie nightfurydoodie 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 3

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    When I do, something usually happens to break me. Whether it be intentional or not. They leave. And I feel abandoned. Even though they're not abandoning me, but it feels that way...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 4

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    After being pretty much used by pretty much every ******* guy I ever cared for (except maybe 2 or 3) and being betrayed by every female I have called friends except 2. Yes I am...
    ImJustJen ImJustJen 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    'At the surface it looks perfect, underneath it's just a perfect storm.' - Icon For Hire
    ineedthis2 ineedthis2 18-21, F Dec 6

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    the walls are already up. I do however reinforce them constantly. yes my lack of trust in human nature is to blame.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 9

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    My grandmother says that we all have that someone special, and those special things that happen between two people that we need to keep to ourselves. I didn't think it could ever...
    starkizzed21 starkizzed21 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    ive been doing a lot of thinking lately. about every single detail of my life. im so p!ssed at my life. what makes me even more p!ssed is I know that like more than half of the...
    wickedlilangel69 wickedlilangel69 31-35, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Not again can I do the same mistake That moment will never be forgotten I try and try Through all my nights the same nightmares follow me Can't take it any longer The pain of...
    Sk13k Sk13k 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    Anywhere Except Here-The lightest touch of my hair or hand reached too closely into my personal space has always caused a reaction. Often a hasty violent jerk away from the person...
    Orionthelesser Orionthelesser 18-21, F Dec 10

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    Even though I used to have a lot of friends, I was never close with any of them. Lost 90% of them and those that are left still aren't too close.. It's like I can't connect with...
    fagit20 fagit20 13-15, M Dec 2

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    How do you learn to trust people after being hurt so many times? I mean seriously people just up and expect up and expect that you should trust them not to leave when you've been...
    BrokenBabygirl BrokenBabygirl 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I like helping people, and being someone they can turn to without the fear of judgment. But at times I find people who get a bit too close to me. I to them am someone with enough...
    onewhosupplants onewhosupplants 22-25, M 8 hrs ago

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    iwant that someone to talk to again. someone that’ll listen & not judge cause I get more than enough of that already. nothing is ever rainbows & butterflies. a modern fairy tale...
    defiantlittlewolf defiantlittlewolf 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    Matthis936h6fu1 Matthis936h6fu1 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have always thought first about my family members, my own dignity and the very important experience of being free! I hope that God will never let me have a misadventure into...
    WarmGoldenHeart WarmGoldenHeart 31-35, F Dec 5

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