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I Never Let Anybody Too Close to Me

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    Somethings Never Change

    I talk - on a very superficial level, to many people.  I talk for a living - it's not a problem making small talk, making people feel good.  I don't let anyone in on the interpersonal level though -- I avoid this like the plague. It hurts WAY...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2008

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    I Don't Know Which To Choose

    I want nothing more in this entire world than to just be one with someone. And because of this, I would jump at every oppurtunity I could, fall 500 feet, and break my heart. So I have to protect myself from being stupid enough to get too close to someone, because it would break...
    Angelwings7 Angelwings7 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    Well, I Used to Not Let Anybody Close to Me...

    but I'm learning to open up to people. But only to very, very, very few people. It can get very lonely sometimes though.
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Afraid!

     I'm afraid of letting someone close to me and getting hurt...Either physical and emotionally. Mostly because i'm like an open book and get easily hurt.....
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2008

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    just a little...

    ....just only so much then no more. too fearful of what they may think, i hide again. and it's a terrible thing to want to step closer, yet have to give in to my fears and pull back, away and be left with just my loneliness as company. again again. never knowing how to lay it...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2008

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    Rogue

    I never let anybody close to me. Not to spare me, but to spare them. So they don't get hurt. I allow myself to love others unfortunately, because I don't  have much of a choice on that. But as soon as their is a whiff of them getting too close, I remove myself. I know...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    Just Because

    In my lifetime, I have had too many individuals that I allowed past the inner walls that I built to protect me from those that only want to use what they can, without reguard to my feelings.  I have finally built them strong enough that even my own weaknesses can not break...
    beentherendonethat beentherendonethat 56-60, M 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    False

    They're all fake, wearing masks. Hypocrites who have no real interest. They say things like "you can tell me anything", "cheer up", "it will get better". They make false promises just to shut you up. No one truly gives a crap what happens to anyone else. They all want help fixing...
    L96Arctic L96Arctic 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    My Mask Refuses to Crumble

    Being numb and distant is an easy way to avoid getting hurt. However, it's also an easy way to never really connect with anyone. I've opened up to people before and they've crushed me. So it makes it really hard to open up to anyone. EP is a different story, everyone (well mostly...
    XxSperanzaXx XxSperanzaXx 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I am beyond afraid to get too close to others. It has never been a good thing in the past when I have got close to someone, and let someone in. I always end up hurt, or...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    "Getting in too deep" I'm deeply afraid to get too close to my boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, I am truly head over heels for him, and I haven't felt this way in a long time since...
    takethispain takethispain 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm not good at getting close to people. Well scratch that I'm good at getting close to people but I'm not good at letting people get close to me. I just don't know how- I think it...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    As much I desire having close relationships with people I have come to the realization that I am a self saboteur. I don't know why I do what I do. I have friends but I don't let...
    bluebaby072 bluebaby072 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time to the day when I gave my heart away, to the day when you took it and ran away from me. If I could change I would change everything but...
    SilentButDeadlyPizzaFaceDragon SilentButDeadlyPizzaFaceDragon 18-21, M Apr 6

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    I've been hurt so many times by my friends, family, and everyone else. I don't know if I can take the chance of getting too close, getting too much hope. What if they hurt me too...
    LostAngel12 LostAngel12 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Sometimes I look at the amount of people in this group and wonder if they are all really being sincere when they join this group. Have they all been hurt? Have they maybe hurt...
    Septisoul Septisoul 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    Every time I open up and let down a wall or two. Someone stomps all over me. I don't trust people, and I'm beginning to think I never will.
    Kat51 Kat51 18-21, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    I always try to be open and honest, be the person I would like to be seen as. It can be difficult sometimes and I have opened myself up to a lot of untrustworthy, nasty people over...
    Bellastasia Bellastasia 26-30, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    The moon must have felt my pain that night it turned blood red. After months of staring at the moon, wondering you're looking too, maybe it was my sign ti stop bleeding for someone...
    NefelibataAggression NefelibataAggression 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I used to be a rather trusting person but as of recently I've discovered that some people really aren't your true friends no matter what they say. I would say that currently I only...
    twiggy93 twiggy93 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 11

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    I was working as a manager and a woman applied for a vacancy who was a little older for the role, my boss did not want to give her the job and wanted another candidate with more...
    sabasaba06 sabasaba06 41-45, F Mar 24

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    I've been hurt one too many times by people who claimed they wouldn't hurt me. I don't trust very easily and have yet to find someone with genuine intentions I can depend on.
    goldengirl24 goldengirl24 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I'm afraid of being the person who betrays people when I gain their trust. But I'm also afraid of being betrayed. The result is that I know more of my friend's secrets. They know...
    Septisoul Septisoul 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    some peolpe just want you when they need it. I have benn there before but because of my personality I can't never do that to a person. I put someone else feelings before me.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 15

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    I have such a hard time letting my walls down. Also the fact that i was in a seven yr relationship that just recently ended doesn't help. But I just can't trust people at all. I...
    Fantasy646 Fantasy646 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 30

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    There are only two people in my life that know me very well - and even they don't know *everything* about me. I guess it's safe to say I do not trust very easily, but I do find...
    HappyandSad20 HappyandSad20 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 11

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    I feel like people will judge me harshly. That they might think that I am boring. I am also afraid of them leaving me and not being my friend anymore. That really makes me sad.
    butterflyhearts17 butterflyhearts17 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 28

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    I is hard to trust humanity. are there any good people left?
    tacomasr5 tacomasr5 51-55, M 6 Responses Apr 8

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    i will do anything for my friends and because of that I expect to much from them when i need it. When the time come, they do nothing. I dont want feel this way
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 11

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    This post is for ep member 3 and those I may have hurt unwillingly.If YOU DON'T FORGET AND FORGIVE ,IT WILL BECOME A BIGGER PROBLEM FOR YOU.Good to forgive ;Best ,to forget...
    mona87 mona87 46-50, F 5 Responses Apr 11

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    So don't bother trying, you'll likely fail.
    TheBloodyScourge TheBloodyScourge 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Like this . . .
    KortneeAnne KortneeAnne 22-25, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    Guys, Let's make it easier for you to understand. Girls are crazy, and they have this high and low state of mind. I'm just stating what I believe is a bit obvious when it comes to...
    wherethehealingbegins wherethehealingbegins 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    I am a people person for the most part, but I never let anyone get to close I am afraid they will hurt me and because of this I never let people in ....
    lovingmeyousee lovingmeyousee 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I have a question for all of you out there and I really need an honest answer. How do you know if a guy loves you? Give me a list of examples of what guys need to do in order for...
    Zozolove Zozolove 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 27

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    I sometimes wish I had never had children too. I started out relatively early. I was 20 when I had my daughter and 24 when I had my son. My daughters father was abusive in every...
    BBMS BBMS 41-45, F Mar 30

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    I had one, but I threw it away to get high. Everyone tells you not to get into drugs, but I never listened. Realized too late so now I'm stuck feeling so awkward around people I...
    CDPlayer1 CDPlayer1 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I usually thought that being on this would let me find closer friends and people I could actually talk to even just for fun but then I realized no one took me seriously and most...
    melanie17 melanie17 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    So, one night during the summer, my boyfriend and I were going through some turmoil in our relationship. I was so angry because he was supposed to pick me up from Anacostia Station...
    RoyautePrincess RoyautePrincess 26-30 a week ago

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    I need it bad and let people watch me make love to another girl and let husband too
    drivehercrazy drivehercrazy 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Please don't hate me for loving too much, for needing you so much. I am sorry that my hearts got so entwined in you that my soul can never let go. I have tried everything even...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    So yesterday kinda got me thinking about something i always felt but never actually thought too much about. I realized that no matter how many people I find around, no matter what...
    anonymouslyherenow anonymouslyherenow 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    2 years ago, I met a boy, someone I really loved, yet being young I couldnt even recognise love let alone grasp the concept. So anyway things between me and him were great for a...
    missyy27 missyy27 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Dear family, friends, and all seven billion people in this world, First off, let me tell you about myself. I am a thirteen year old girl, I have two sisters and one step-sister. My...
    mcsunshine09 mcsunshine09 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I haven't talked to anybody lately actually. All I have been doing is focusing on school and myself. I began eating healthy and working out again everyday. So far this is my 2nd...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    Venting to set myself free... a letter to Mr. Wonderful: Dear Mr. Wonderful... Just needed to getting a few things off my chest and share some lessons learned that might help you...
    ChangingDad ChangingDad 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 7

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    I can't even watch commercials with proposals or wedding type shows or see pictures of people getting married or engagement photos without wanting to burst into tears. I have never...
    AshCatSilver AshCatSilver 31-35, F Apr 1

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    This story is about the first Person I ever came out to. So once apon a time a long time ago there was this girl, well not really a long time ago, maby a year but hey its a teenage...
    Gunter96 Gunter96 16-17, M Mar 26

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    Back in 2006 Kurt Vonnegut responded to 5 students that wrote to him. November 5, 2006 Dear Xavier High School, and Ms. Lockwood, and Messrs Perin, McFeely, Batten, Maurer and...
    kwarner kwarner 31-35, M Mar 28

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 4

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    Venting to set myself free... Dear Soon-to-be Ex... As the divorce you have wanted so badly the last 17 months is near, I am writing this in order to let you go. To stop...
    ChangingDad ChangingDad 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 9

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