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I Never Let Anybody Too Close to Me

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    Afraid!

     I'm afraid of letting someone close to me and getting hurt...Either physical and emotionally. Mostly because i'm like an open book and get easily hurt.....
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2008

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    Just Because

    In my lifetime, I have had too many individuals that I allowed past the inner walls that I built to protect me from those that only want to use what they can, without reguard to my feelings.  I have finally built them strong enough that even my own weaknesses can not break...
    beentherendonethat beentherendonethat 56-60, M 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    Well, I Used to Not Let Anybody Close to Me...

    but I'm learning to open up to people. But only to very, very, very few people. It can get very lonely sometimes though.
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    I Don't Know Which To Choose

    I want nothing more in this entire world than to just be one with someone. And because of this, I would jump at every oppurtunity I could, fall 500 feet, and break my heart. So I have to protect myself from being stupid enough to get too close to someone, because it would break...
    Angelwings7 Angelwings7 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    just a little...

    ....just only so much then no more. too fearful of what they may think, i hide again. and it's a terrible thing to want to step closer, yet have to give in to my fears and pull back, away and be left with just my loneliness as company. again again. never knowing how to lay it...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2008

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    Somethings Never Change

    I talk - on a very superficial level, to many people.  I talk for a living - it's not a problem making small talk, making people feel good.  I don't let anyone in on the interpersonal level though -- I avoid this like the plague. It hurts WAY...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2008

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    False

    They're all fake, wearing masks. Hypocrites who have no real interest. They say things like "you can tell me anything", "cheer up", "it will get better". They make false promises just to shut you up. No one truly gives a crap what happens to anyone else. They all want help fixing...
    L96Arctic L96Arctic 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    My Mask Refuses to Crumble

    Being numb and distant is an easy way to avoid getting hurt. However, it's also an easy way to never really connect with anyone. I've opened up to people before and they've crushed me. So it makes it really hard to open up to anyone. EP is a different story, everyone (well mostly...
    XxSperanzaXx XxSperanzaXx 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Rogue

    I never let anybody close to me. Not to spare me, but to spare them. So they don't get hurt. I allow myself to love others unfortunately, because I don't  have much of a choice on that. But as soon as their is a whiff of them getting too close, I remove myself. I know...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    I have never really ever thought of my self, as beautiful, hell I have never even thought of my self, as even average. I just always feel like, I am the ugliest person in the world...
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    Emotion will cloud the brain, but I'm doing my best to not exaggerate here: My home causes me stress, and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it. It's gotten to the point...
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    vynessamae vynessamae 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Tatius Tatius 26-30, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm of afraid of getting hurt so I shut people out if I feel I'm getting too attached. If I can prevent a broken heart then I will.
    foreveralone22 foreveralone22 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    It hurts badly when people so close to you walk out of your life out of the blue; without uttering a single word. The unanswered questions they leave behind them never die.
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    I'm a walking contradiction. I want to be alone but I don't want to be lonely. I want closeness but I'm afraid to let the walls down. I want to share my secrets but I don't want to...
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    the closer they r to u...the closer for them to hurt u.with that,I started losing my trust to people around me...
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    The reason I don't share about my life with people, especially friends and family, is because everything I confessed has been used against me.
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    ive never met anyone in real life who understands the real me!! i have met people on line before who "apparently" have come pretty close to understanding the real me, and i say...
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