I Never Let Anybody Too Close to Me

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    Well, I Used to Not Let Anybody Close to Me...

    but I'm learning to open up to people. But only to very, very, very few people. It can get very lonely sometimes though.
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

    Somethings Never Change

    I talk - on a very superficial level, to many people.  I talk for a living - it's not a problem making small talk, making people feel good.  I don't let anyone in on the interpersonal level though -- I avoid this like the plague. It hurts WAY...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2008

    just a little...

    ....just only so much then no more. too fearful of what they may think, i hide again. and it's a terrible thing to want to step closer, yet have to give in to my fears and pull back, away and be left with just my loneliness as company. again again. never knowing how to lay it...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Aug 31, 2008

    My Mask Refuses to Crumble

    Being numb and distant is an easy way to avoid getting hurt. However, it's also an easy way to never really connect with anyone. I've opened up to people before and they've crushed me. So it makes it really hard to open up to anyone. EP is a different story, everyone (well mostly...
    XxSperanzaXx XxSperanzaXx
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

    I Don't Know Which To Choose

    I want nothing more in this entire world than to just be one with someone. And because of this, I would jump at every oppurtunity I could, fall 500 feet, and break my heart. So I have to protect myself from being stupid enough to get too close to someone, because it would break...
    Angelwings7 Angelwings7
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

    False

    They're all fake, wearing masks. Hypocrites who have no real interest. They say things like "you can tell me anything", "cheer up", "it will get better". They make false promises just to shut you up. No one truly gives a crap what happens to anyone else. They all want help fixing...
    L96Arctic L96Arctic
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

    Rogue

    I never let anybody close to me. Not to spare me, but to spare them. So they don't get hurt. I allow myself to love others unfortunately, because I don't  have much of a choice on that. But as soon as their is a whiff of them getting too close, I remove myself. I know...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 31, 2008

    Afraid!

     I'm afraid of letting someone close to me and getting hurt...Either physical and emotionally. Mostly because i'm like an open book and get easily hurt.....
    andreinac13 andreinac13
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 4, 2008

    Just Because

    In my lifetime, I have had too many individuals that I allowed past the inner walls that I built to protect me from those that only want to use what they can, without reguard to my feelings.  I have finally built them strong enough that even my own weaknesses can not break...
    beentherendonethat beentherendonethat
    56-60, M
    1 Response May 9, 2009

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