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I Never Let Anybody Too Close to Me

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    just a little...

    ....just only so much then no more. too fearful of what they may think, i hide again. and it's a terrible thing to want to step closer, yet have to give in to my fears and pull back, away and be left with just my loneliness as company. again again. never knowing how to lay it...
    Cinderelly Cinderelly 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2008

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    Well, I Used to Not Let Anybody Close to Me...

    but I'm learning to open up to people. But only to very, very, very few people. It can get very lonely sometimes though.
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Rogue

    I never let anybody close to me. Not to spare me, but to spare them. So they don't get hurt. I allow myself to love others unfortunately, because I don't  have much of a choice on that. But as soon as their is a whiff of them getting too close, I remove myself. I know...
    RogueAlphaFemale RogueAlphaFemale 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 31, 2008

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    Afraid!

     I'm afraid of letting someone close to me and getting hurt...Either physical and emotionally. Mostly because i'm like an open book and get easily hurt.....
    andreinac13 andreinac13 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2008

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    False

    They're all fake, wearing masks. Hypocrites who have no real interest. They say things like "you can tell me anything", "cheer up", "it will get better". They make false promises just to shut you up. No one truly gives a crap what happens to anyone else. They all want help fixing...
    L96Arctic L96Arctic 22-25, M 4 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    I Don't Know Which To Choose

    I want nothing more in this entire world than to just be one with someone. And because of this, I would jump at every oppurtunity I could, fall 500 feet, and break my heart. So I have to protect myself from being stupid enough to get too close to someone, because it would break...
    Angelwings7 Angelwings7 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 8, 2011

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    My Mask Refuses to Crumble

    Being numb and distant is an easy way to avoid getting hurt. However, it's also an easy way to never really connect with anyone. I've opened up to people before and they've crushed me. So it makes it really hard to open up to anyone. EP is a different story, everyone (well mostly...
    XxSperanzaXx XxSperanzaXx 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2008

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    Somethings Never Change

    I talk - on a very superficial level, to many people.  I talk for a living - it's not a problem making small talk, making people feel good.  I don't let anyone in on the interpersonal level though -- I avoid this like the plague. It hurts WAY...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2008

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    Just Because

    In my lifetime, I have had too many individuals that I allowed past the inner walls that I built to protect me from those that only want to use what they can, without reguard to my feelings.  I have finally built them strong enough that even my own weaknesses can not break...
    beentherendonethat beentherendonethat 56-60, M 1 Response May 9, 2009

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    I've only had one close friend in my entire adulthood. We are in our mid thirties now and became BFFs at 18. We've been roommates at times and have been through so much together...
    peachygreens peachygreens 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Well yes because i trust no one..its not coz of some personal bad experience..i just cant let people in..i am very vary of human ..i dont know why but i always am afraid that...
    QuirkyKiara QuirkyKiara 18-21, F 4 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    But in a different way. I want to travel. I want to quit my job, friends, and everything else for a year and just be on my own. If anybody has taken time off to focus on themselves...
    buttsmchs buttsmchs 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    I'm afraid of too much attaching to people. its not like I'm hating them or something.it just I hate ended up getting heart broken.I broke up so many times and each time it felt...
    felicia123angel felicia123angel 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    It is a trust thing and a lot of people have hurt my feelings over the years.
    xEvangelinex xEvangelinex 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    If only I thought that you never cared for me once or ever wanted something with me, I guess thatd be better..like things were when it was just the start, always easier.
    nirvsemp nirvsemp 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've never actually had a real relationship. no girlfriend or boyfriend nothing. I've done everything else but never committed. It freaks me out. I feel like I'm claustrophobic...
    artemicionmoon artemicionmoon 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've shared a lot with this man, but in light of recent events, I don't think I can ever trust him with how I feel, or anything actually. It took a lot of courage for me to...
    oddpodd oddpodd 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm afraid, ok? I admit it, I'm afraid, Afraid of what you may ask? I don't know, Afraid of knowing, Afraid of having the chance to get hurt, That's why I never let people come...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    There's only so many times one person can be hurt before they shut down.. Once that happens you'll never see the true person that they are again
    SubmissiveKitty09 SubmissiveKitty09 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    9 months ago, I fell in love with you. 6 months ago, you left me without a goodbye. 5 months ago, you went back to visit, yet I never chose to see you. 2 months ago, I saw you once...
    HeartsBlossoms HeartsBlossoms 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Hi readers, I am writing this today because I need to get my feelings and thoughts out to someone, and I feel like I have absolutely no where else to turn. I have reached a...
    AKT1 AKT1 26-30, M a week ago

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    Not anymore Specifically here You can fake For whatever sake
    nalbyan nalbyan 31-35, F a week ago

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    I keep my heart closed off to people usually. They can always have a part of me, but rarely do they get all of me. I've been shown too many times that it's easy for people just to...
    kk1874 kk1874 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I'm trying to play it cool, and my friend told me to too. I could easily tell you how I feel over facebook msgr just as easily, because we've been that way for the past few months...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F Feb 2

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    I have always had issues with getting close to people. I learned some hard lessons growing up about betrayal and trust. My immediate family was/is dysfunctional with a capital "D...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 2

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    i am a huge contradiction when it comes to this topic. yes i am selective with who i share my personal life with but at the same time i am an open book and will discuss most...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    🌟Well you only need the light when it's burning lowOnly miss the sun when it starts to snow...
    GamesBOSS GamesBOSS 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 1

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    Hi so I'm posting here to write about my mother and how I'm affected with severe depression and anxiety because of her I don't like to point fingers or blame anybody but she is the...
    Pinkskiespinklove Pinkskiespinklove 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    An open letter to myself for when I am ready to recover: Strange how the urge to start a new life creates incentive to end the current. It is not humanity that makes the world seem...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F Feb 1

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    Except I already have. The best friends I managed to keep throughout high school and some college...they are all gone. Of course, I blame no one but myself. I had a best friend in...
    DremeJolie DremeJolie 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    ...which is why I don't let people get too close. 😳
    orangeattic orangeattic 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    No matter what social media site I go on I'm always careful on who I talk to. Almost all the time my intuition is able to pick up on which ones are real and which ones are worth...
    ThisStrangeEffect ThisStrangeEffect 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    Rough day. Surges of tears as the Acceptance and Depression phase continues. There is some sense of these surges being like "bubbles rising to the surface" and I'm able to let go...
    v0lition v0lition 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    Always alone and I can't go out to anybody's place..all my friends are far away from me,anyone around?
    Arab50 Arab50 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    I actually still have the letter in my drawer. I wrote it with a red pen , because well, it was a love letter lol. Obviously i never sent it but it's nice to read over it again. It...
    SugarPlumDreams SugarPlumDreams 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Another day, another person soon to leave my life. As I am sure you have experienced, people come and go into ones life. I struggle with letting people in, close to my heart...
    itscake itscake 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Getting attached to people easily and thinking everyone was my friend has gotten my feelings hurt and made me realize who was actually there for me. I can be a nice ******* person...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Just when I think, feel I have moved on, and I had, emotionally. I had been single for at least 3 months, and I got involved with someone who, unintentionally, and fell for...
    YokoOnosVision YokoOnosVision 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I am careful about letting people close because once I care about you, I care about you. I have a hell of a time trying to uncare about some one. It just doesn't work like that for...
    QueenVen QueenVen 16-17, F Jan 25

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    Everyone somebody and I get close they end up dead or just... I don't know. Gone I guess could be the word to use there.
    SethBanterson SethBanterson 13-15, M Jan 24

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    true. I mean I'm 21 now and the only person basically I'm friends with is my boyfriend literally don't **** with other people.
    L0nerSt0ner L0nerSt0ner 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24

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