I Never Say Everything That Is On My Mind

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    Silent All These Years

    I know that I have low self esteem but I thought it would get better. I never stand up for myself. I never say what's on my mind. It's like I have this deep seeded fear that I can't begin to explain. People walk all over me and I hate it. It feels as though I have my mouth taped...
    shortysvr shortysvr
    26-30, F
    Aug 22, 2012

    I Don't Like To Hurt Peoples Feelings

    I do not tell people when they are bothering me. I also never tell people what I am feeling.I have never been very tactful so I am usually rather quite. I don't like to hurt peoples feelings. I have learned that it is better to be quite then to risk causing harm.
    lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
    36-40, T
    Dec 22, 2012

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