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I Never Thought I Would Live This Long

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    Never Thought I'd Last Through The Dark Days

    never did i think i would last this long. my entire life i thought i would die young and planned it that way for life. when i got older i .. well i got really depressed. i was suicidal and wanted to die every day of my life... i didn't want to live. i vowed to not let myself live...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 14, 2011

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    I'm Still Surprised!!!!

    WELL, IT'S NOT THE MOST INTERESTING STORY, BUT IT'S MINE. IT'S KIND OF EMBARRASSING AS WELL. EVER SINCE I WAS IN MY EARLY 20'S I HAD A PROBLEM WITH ALCOHOL AND I AM TELLING THIS STORY BECAUSE I HOPE IT MIGHT HELP SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT IS TIPPING A FEW TOO MANY AT THE AGE OF 22...
    kindlemam kindlemam 46-50, M Feb 9, 2012

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    And I'm Only 28.

    Truly, I never thought I'd be alive this long.  And I'm only 28.  It's not because I'm a daredevil or physically sick either.  It's just that, I told myself when I was 16, that if I was as unhappy in 10 years as I was then, I'd kill myself.  And I was...
    Mistake Mistake 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    And I'm 18 :)

    I remember when I was in my GCSE years I was utterly convinced I would never take my GCSEs. I had absolutely no doubt that before I took the exams, I would have killed myself.   But I didn't.   Then there were the exams in college that I just took. In the...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    I Was Never Supposed to Make It This Long

    I was born way to soon leaveing me with issues.According to the doctors I would never make it  past 3 weeks so  it was best just to  accept it and move on.Well I made it to  6 months themn they said I would  never make it past 2 years old.I made it past...
    littleboyblue16 littleboyblue16 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    When I was in high school I suffered from some

    serious depression. I thought I would end up killing myself before I was even 20. I'm 20 now, and have come a long way. But I'm not sure what exactly I'm supposed to do now. I never planned what I wanted to do after high school or anything and I'm feeling a little bit lost now.
    littlebirdy420 littlebirdy420 22-25, F Mar 20, 2014

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    TRUE

                                    - Never thought I'd be happy about it either. Mahahahaha! No, I know that I have been...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    Still Amazed

    I lived my 20s firmly planted in the fast lane. Worked in Hollywood for all the biggest names in the entertainment industry. Fast cars, motorcycles, house and too much money to spare. Needless to say I don't remember much of the 80s. Every concert that rolled through I was at...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 24, 2012

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