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I Never Thought I Would Live This Long

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    Still Amazed

    I lived my 20s firmly planted in the fast lane. Worked in Hollywood for all the biggest names in the entertainment industry. Fast cars, motorcycles, house and too much money to spare. Needless to say I don't remember much of the 80s. Every concert that rolled through I was at...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 24, 2012

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    And I'm 18 :)

    I remember when I was in my GCSE years I was utterly convinced I would never take my GCSEs. I had absolutely no doubt that before I took the exams, I would have killed myself.   But I didn't.   Then there were the exams in college that I just took. In the...
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    Never Thought I'd Last Through The Dark Days

    never did i think i would last this long. my entire life i thought i would die young and planned it that way for life. when i got older i .. well i got really depressed. i was suicidal and wanted to die every day of my life... i didn't want to live. i vowed to not let myself live...
    CaptainJackass CaptainJackass 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 14, 2011

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    Ever since I was seven years old I would plan

    out my own suicide and/or suicide attempts. I'm 14 now and when I was younger I'd always tell myself that I'd never live to see the day I graduate middle school and I did that a few months ago. But the age I keep telling myself that I'll be dead by is 18. I made it this far and...
    XxMisguidedxGhostxX XxMisguidedxGhostxX 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 2, 2014

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    When I was in high school I suffered from some

    serious depression. I thought I would end up killing myself before I was even 20. I'm 20 now, and have come a long way. But I'm not sure what exactly I'm supposed to do now. I never planned what I wanted to do after high school or anything and I'm feeling a little bit lost now.
    littlebirdy420 littlebirdy420 18-21, F Mar 20, 2014

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    I'm Still Surprised!!!!

    WELL, IT'S NOT THE MOST INTERESTING STORY, BUT IT'S MINE. IT'S KIND OF EMBARRASSING AS WELL. EVER SINCE I WAS IN MY EARLY 20'S I HAD A PROBLEM WITH ALCOHOL AND I AM TELLING THIS STORY BECAUSE I HOPE IT MIGHT HELP SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT IS TIPPING A FEW TOO MANY AT THE AGE OF 22...
    kindlemam kindlemam 46-50, M Feb 9, 2012

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    And I'm Only 28.

    Truly, I never thought I'd be alive this long.  And I'm only 28.  It's not because I'm a daredevil or physically sick either.  It's just that, I told myself when I was 16, that if I was as unhappy in 10 years as I was then, I'd kill myself.  And I was...
    Mistake Mistake 26-30, M 3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    I Was Never Supposed to Make It This Long

    I was born way to soon leaveing me with issues.According to the doctors I would never make it  past 3 weeks so  it was best just to  accept it and move on.Well I made it to  6 months themn they said I would  never make it past 2 years old.I made it past...
    littleboyblue16 littleboyblue16 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    TRUE

                                    - Never thought I'd be happy about it either. Mahahahaha! No, I know that I have been...
    Wynhaven Wynhaven 36-40, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    And Bobby. And JFK, Jr., too. Both of them died before they had the chance to fulfill their potential.
    mb7700 mb7700 31-35, M Mar 17

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    I never wanted to live, I know some of you respond negativeo hate me, friends who replace me and parents who only care I o this but hear me out. I never had real friends or even a...
    CaseyaBrokenDoll CaseyaBrokenDoll 13-15, F a week ago

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    Weak & powerless I want to let the whole world know that the reason or the cause for all my sufferings and ordeals in life were caused by my own family who do not sound like my...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 14

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    As a child I could do the Vulcan greeting ,and spoke the words "Live long and prosper " A good man has passed and will be missed , just wanted to take a moment to thank him for his...
    rckt148 rckt148 51-55, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    Last night after dinner, my husband asked me why i hated him? I was surprised. I never knew he believed i hated anyone. Out side of the evil spirits of those who do mental and...
    mor2life3 mor2life3 51-55, F 16 hrs ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 43 mins ago

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    My life has always been full of drama and chaos. From the time I was born, I've always been a problem for my parents. My mom was young, almost too young to raise a kid. My dad was...
    ktbugg ktbugg 16-17, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    that I play as my own therapist and it really works at times I come to find out what calms me, what gives me energy, what I like sexually,what to do when I dont want to do it,I...
    lucinda2383 lucinda2383 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    I had an affair with someone I thought was my best friend. I want to be with him, even though I know he will never treat me as a priority. Trying to talk sense into my brain...
    wyoskis639 wyoskis639 26-30 1 Response 55 mins ago

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    After 25 years,she showed up. I lost my virginity,always have loved her.2 months she dumps me because I don't believe in magic,or want to live in a hippie comune. Wtf???
    pecos666 pecos666 36-40 13 hrs ago

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    People love to start arguments about this. Something about my disregard for society's ideals threatens them. I don't know if the concept of living in the wild bothers them because...
    Unbeholden Unbeholden 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    These days I have been felling so annoyed with a nurse from the early intervention in psychosis for the distress and uncomfort she made me feel . These days I thought about the way...
    Soullesss Soullesss 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    There is someone I could kiss for hours- my first and lost love....I miss you sweetheart and I will kiss you again one day and I will never let you go again...
    Barbie2303 Barbie2303 41-45, F 6 hrs ago

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    Ok, so this is something that has really damaged my life badly and I just need to vent it somewhere. It will be very long and I apologise for going off on tangents...
    inexperiencedguy94 inexperiencedguy94 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    Married 25 years with three kids (25, 23, 21). I have been living in a sexless marriage (meaning zero sex) for the past 6 years, touchless (meaning zero touch) for the past 3 years...
    acceptingmediocrity acceptingmediocrity 56-60, M 8 Responses Mar 9

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    Before i even discovered this site or these groups, I remembered his face and the evil look he had. I can still hear his laugh. It was always a flashback in the back of my mind and...
    Jojolopez4 Jojolopez4 16-17, F 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend feels so clingy sometimes that it drives me up the wall. And I feel guilty about feeling this way because the only way to keep the relationship alive is through...
    emeraldangel523 emeraldangel523 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    A more accurate title for this post would probably be that I've lived in a few different haunted houses. Even now we have an entity in our kitchen who we jokingly call the Fridge...
    LyraAlluse LyraAlluse 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Standing in a long queue at the grocer this afternoon, feeling quiet bored I pull out my phone, I respond to a few text messages.... ok now that this is done, so what next? I...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 17 mins ago

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    You know, one never wakes up one day and says "hey, I want to get married to someone who doesn't appreciate me". So here I am at 19 years old, in a sexless marriage. I'm married to...
    Angelwithbrokenwingsxo Angelwithbrokenwingsxo 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 2

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    THE SMOKE THAT THUNDERS The majestic "Smoke that Thunders" Victoria Falls in Zimbabwe is an awe inspiring destination.  Thorny African bushes dot the landscape...
    SwanSongRebeL SwanSongRebeL 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    I am sitting here, sick, having trouble sleeping and thought to share an experience with you. When I was 16, I met a beautiful girl named Nikki. She needed my help with her trig...
    bioprof34 bioprof34 36-40 6 days ago

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    I have lived with someone now for 8 years, I am not sure why i have stayed , well maybe that is not entirely true, at this point I stay because I have basically worked worked for...
    CJrand CJrand 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    well, he isn't an ex, but he's a guy who has been in love with me for a little over 2 years or so. we used to be really good friends, but then he started to get really weird and...
    Scoodaloop Scoodaloop 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 27

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    I can't make decisions about anything, really. I think this stems from being uncertain about nearly everything. I've noticed having "faux" convictions in place in order to mask my...
    urbanseeker urbanseeker 22-25, M 4 Responses Feb 28

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    When I was a kid, I wouldn't do my homework if I wasn't sitting in front of a TV, and I wouldn't listen to my mom and my handwriting was terrible. So my mom set me up with a lady...
    RH17 RH17 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    When I was 8 my dad died, so my mom came to where my dad and I lived to take care of me, but what she really did was lock me away from everybody while she took all the money my dad...
    Bubblebran Bubblebran 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    God give me a chance for closure, or let me find her, bring her to me. Because you know the warrior spirit in me never gave up on his princess, no matter what he never gave up...
    Tarxarin Tarxarin 18-21, M Mar 16

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    Dear sir,I may never get to see you, but I am writing this to you in hopes that somehow…some way.. The words find you. In some way, I write this also to myself to remove...
    nocool nocool 41-45, M Mar 16

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    I remember you. Charles Black. The boy I sat next to in kindergarten. You were nice but you drove me nuts because you only ever used your orange crayon. Wore it down to a nub. I'm...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I spend four years of my life with the mental health services in the uk and I could have even given more years but I decided to engage myself from the services after they...
    Powerlesss Powerlesss 31-35, F 5 Responses Mar 10

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    I fell in love at first sight 8 years ago and every year after that until now has been affected by that. We met in college as he was preparing to graduate in a year and I was just...
    wanderer89 wanderer89 22-25, F 18 hrs ago

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    Today home after some time away. Where I was there was an opportunity to shower, but not always. And then short times. So, I long for a long hot shower And I also have to do the...
    Photosebastian Photosebastian 41-45, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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