I Never Thought I'd Be Where I Am Now

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    Well if you asked me

    where I would be a year ago to now I couldn't answer that question I have one person to thank for helping get threw the passed few months he has become a good friend I started talking to on EP thanks to you Tim my husband had this way of making me feel like everything in our...
    monica0215 monica0215
    51-55, F
    Jan 18, 2015

    I Hate It..

    but i should stay posoitive...cause things could always, always be alot worse than they are right now.. still.....i cant help but be unsatisified with the life ive put myself into by rushing into things without considering consequences due to emotional outbursts and lack of self...
    foamborn foamborn
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 4, 2010

    Honestly, I have no idea

    who I am anymore. As a child I wanted to be on Disney channel and/or be a singer. Is that where I am today? Nope. I am 20 years old and I work in a preschool/daycare. I drive 20 minutes everyday to work and the whole time I am wishing to die. This isnt who I am supposed to be...
    Shamwowza Shamwowza
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 13

    Never Thought I'd Get Fired

    I always thought that people who got fired got fired for a reason. A real, solid reason. As in if you get fired you are a crappy worker with a crappy attitude and you deserved it. I mean seriously, who would fire somebody who was doing well for their company? Well guess what...
    KoteRahl KoteRahl
    22-25, M
    Aug 8, 2013

    Never In A Milion Years

    I never in a million years thought I would end up in Iraq. But never the less I landed their in January 2008. I got through just fine and thought I would never be over here again and lo and behold here I sit in Afghanistan. It is crazy how life works out but it has been good and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 6, 2011

    Not Too Bad

    When I was a kid, lets say I had different dreams for myself. I wanted to become a lawyer, fight for rights, become a lecturer one day. I wanted a family and children. I was so dilligent too. Then I took up smoking, drugs, and lying. I was the Worst liar. I must say that now...
    ThisIsMediocritiesOldAcc ThisIsMediocritiesOldAcc
    18-21, F
    Nov 9, 2012

    When I Was Younger

    when i was younger i would sit and stare out my window and look at these teenagers with there baby's and siting in class next to people with cuts up there arm never did i think that one day they would be me pushing a baby in a pram buy the time im 13 never did i think i would be...
    shanallia shanallia
    16-17, F
    Mar 24, 2013
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    Apr 26, 2010

    I hate it, I hate where I am now.

    I know I should just try and be positive. I know life isn't always easy but I always had life easy. I know other's have it worse then me but I can't help but feel unsatisfied with life. I went from being a trophy wife and mom to girlfriend/part-time mom. I honestly thought my...
    Angela1989 Angela1989
    26-30, F
    Apr 6, 2014

    All's Well That Ends Well?

    If you told me two years ago that I'd be going to a new school which is an hour drive away, be best friends with the class 'geeks', lose my friends whom I've known for four years, have a crush on someone online, worry about getting bad results, flunk in physics, attempt to slit...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jun 13, 2010

    Because Of Where I Started...

    From third grade to fifth grade I been everyone push over.. The one who'd be picked on.. the one who would cheer you up regardless of how you treated me.. Then we moved to sixth grade where I believed you can have one best friend.. The one that is always there for you ( I miss...
    Kzinlove Kzinlove
    13-15, F
    Dec 31, 2011

    In seventh grade, I thought I'd be dead by

    suicide before i was 15. That's how bad I was being bullied and how bad my depression was eating me alive. I'm now 19.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Jan 14

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