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I Never Wanted To Live

for people who have tried suicide, thought about it, wanted to try it. for people hating their family or friends. for insecure people, like me....... 256 People

    I feel like i need to say some of the things

    that are going through me head. Let's go. I don't think people understand that the smallest get to me. It can be as simple someone looking at me in what I think is a weird way. All my life all I've been worried about is being judged. Being judged for what I wear, the way I...
    Piercethetaco00 Piercethetaco00 16-17, F Jan 26

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    I'm sick of this. I just hope everyday to get

    hit by a car or for some accident to happen where I don't make it.
    drearyaching drearyaching 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    So over the past 5years I've been struggling

    to deal with my mums neglect ion & sexual abuse & my eating disorder , there's been numerous hospital admissions for medical reason & also a place of safety at crises times ! It all got to much again and I took an overdose & went to the bridge again with a suicide note in hand...
    princess2121 princess2121 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    All i'm thinking about is suicide

    but no one can understand me why is it so hard to be dead :'( i want to die i want to end my pain is it so much to ask for??
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 9

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    i'm suicidal. i've attempted 4 times

    since september. it's becoming really bad and i might have to go the hospital, i'm terrified.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    I hate being alive, I seriously do.

    My dad's side of the family is so rude to me and I hate it, I really wanna just slit my wrist an bleed out. I ******* hate it here!!! :( someone please help me, I can't do this alone. I really am about to do it, nobody loves me. My ex that I love hates me and my own family doesn...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I don't want to stay here in this word,

    the only reason is my childrens that they don't deserve lost their mother. But constantly I have this face like a clown, always happy so nobody notice, so nobody get preoccupied. All that I know is everyone thinks that Iam so strong and when they see me upset they attack me...
    Luna0902 Luna0902 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Going No Where...

    Honestly, I don't clearly remember a day I ever really want to be 'here' - to be alive. Maybe when I was five or six? Things are so vague and steeped in dark shadows. I never intended to live past 18. Or even 16 for that matter (I tried to OD on Tylenol and iron supplements). I...
    NamharaHulments NamharaHulments 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2012

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    I didn't sign up for this bs!

    And I just ran fresh out of ***** to give to go on.
    dom2wsx dom2wsx 22-25, M Dec 25, 2013

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    Can i kill myself? Nobody cares anyway.

    My life is getting nowhere. I want to end my life but i don't have the courage to do it. What should i do?
    diplomatsafe diplomatsafe 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    Whenever I think about how I never wanted to

    live, I get really mad. My views on life turn very negative. I blame my parents for being cruel and selfish for bringing a life into this crappy world that didn't even ask for it. Because of this, if I ever live to the age where I would have kids, I won't. I'm not going to be...
    Tixol Tixol 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    After 3 years if staying at home due to mental

    illness my parents just mentioned maybe taking a class at a college. Just thinking about it sends me into a panick attack and i started crying. I cannot do this. I guess this was the decision maker..
    Anonomous441 Anonomous441 18-21, F Apr 5

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    Piercethetaco00 Piercethetaco00 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    There has been times in my every day life

    where I think suicide is a better option then living
    bluebird222 bluebird222 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 17

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    Everything would be so much better

    if I hadn't been born...I wouldn't have to deal with the damn voices in my head! I wouldn't have to work...go to school...I would have no worries...I would feel like crap everyday and barely teetering on the edge of despair. They used to tell us in Sunday School that God loved...
    blackxrosexyuuki blackxrosexyuuki 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    bvb200 bvb200 13-15, F Apr 7

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    All Alone...

    "I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how hurt they will be after. But I'm hurt now...
    rosered9854 rosered9854 18-21 2 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    But I have to cause everything costs *******

    money and if I killed my self then my family would be stuck with the financial burden of someone they never understood or liked
    ghoulishx ghoulishx 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I don’t want to die.

    I don’t want to give up, but I cannot continue living in agony and have the one person who is suppose to be there for me, protect, and show guidance; put me down and make me live in constant regret of my mistakes. I have one possible chance at getting out of this hell of an...
    FollowYourBliss77 FollowYourBliss77 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I am so done. So tired.

    It's like I'm falling ever so torturously. Like when u fal off a skateboard you skid before you stop. I'm skidding down, it's peeling off all my layers and strengths. Until I hit the end. It's no vortex or black hole, it's a dead end. Once I hit it it's over. Gone. Dead end.
    mandy94no mandy94no 18-21, F Mar 19

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    My mom likes to call me ugly every morning

    and wonders why I'm always scared to wear ANYTHING I like around her. Tells me she buys '1000$ worth of hot topic. Tells me she likes stuff them all of a sudden it's ****. She wonders why I wit there crying all the time.
    Piercethetaco00 Piercethetaco00 16-17, F Feb 12

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    My mom just told me I'm not going to make it

    and I have no life I can't go another day on this earth goodbye world My own mother just turned on me I have nothing else to live for
    trish213 trish213 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    It's hard to understand myself.

    Being so bipolar. I am hurt.
    breannainreverse breannainreverse 13-15, F Mar 28

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    Tonight is the night they will remember me

    for taking the knife to my wrist and taking the last bottle of pills.... Tonight was the last chance they had to save me... But instead they let me say good by. Tonight's the night I choose suicide.
    TheWaySheFeels3 TheWaySheFeels3 18-21, F Jan 31

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    Amyneedsahug Amyneedsahug 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    I think about it, every nights

    and days, it could make me free, make me happy, make me feel alive through the contrary, i think about how i will do it, when, where, i get ready for it, saying goodbyes to the ones i love.... and ill say goodbye to this life i never asked for as soon as i can ..
    thinordie thinordie 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    Do you ever lay in bed at night hoping you wake

    up in the emergency room and hear the woords: "she's not going to make it"?
    deeplydown deeplydown 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 23

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    My dog is the only reason

    that keep me from suicide. I have no trust in my family to take care of him when I'm gone.. I know they won't, base on how they treat their own daughter.. I know they have no mercy toward anything that they dislike. Then an idea hits me. Why not just take him with me? I want...
    kingkaewjnp kingkaewjnp 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    The only reason I'm still here is I want to

    prove myself wrong. I listen to the demons in my head telling me I won't make it, and I want to be able to say 'I told you so.' If I hadn't been born, though, I would have been happier just floating in nothingness.
    Crynaotic Crynaotic 13-15, F Jan 26

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    It's sounds horrible I know .

    But ever since I was born everything's been a miserable disaster. I can honestly say that not one day has gone by that I didn't think about killing myself . Ever since I was young . I keep trying to tell myself that all the pAin I go through is leading up to something better...
    SincerelyHer SincerelyHer 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Honestly, I don't remember the last time I

    wanted to live and be alive. I kept thinking to myself that this was just a phase in life and things would get better, but it's been almost a year and I completely lost it. I'm ready to go. It's my time, I don't want to suffer anymore. I cry and cry, hoping that one day I will...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I'm alway such a negative person

    and my boyfriend is opposite and due to my anxiety and depression he's probably losing it watching me. I'm almost hoping I'm right about him talking to other chicks just so I have an excuse to leave and say **** life u proved me right baby. Life was never my cup of tea.
    sloaned sloaned 18-21, F Jan 29

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    To sum up mylife story I was beaten (sometimes

    unconscious) and abused daily by my parents I never went to school cause they said it was a waist of money so I self taught myself at a library I was molestedby my dad and now at the age of 16 I'm in a foster home and am suicidal
    Sarahsworldofpain Sarahsworldofpain 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Some say love is the powerful emotion a person

    can feel. It overpowers ever part of your being, weaving it's way through your soul and killing you from the inside. It just took over your common sense, cause you to do stupid things in the name of love. They were scared. Luke, was scared. As the found him, Laid out on the...
    Piercethetaco00 Piercethetaco00 16-17, F Feb 13

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    I have always struggled with depression,

    self-harm, and the mockery of my failed suicide attempts. Recently, I was diagnosed with BPD. People describe it as "An Eternal Hell". I fought because there was always a chance it would get better. But. Now. I don't think it will. And. The thought of ending it all is getting...
    TheBrennahPerry TheBrennahPerry 16-17, F Mar 7

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    lifeisadisaster lifeisadisaster 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    Im having suicidal thoughts

    for like a week now, cant think of anything else but that, since my last suicide attempt on 💊💊 i discovered that i cant suicide , dont have the guts anymore but my mind wont stop wanting it ......... I feel like a deer that is trapped in one place n only escape is to jump...
    efox7 efox7 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 5

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    Im tired. Im tired of being postive

    and gaining negative things instead. Im tired of feeling pain and guilt from the death of my mother. Im tired of waking up feeling insecure to a point where i cant even look myself in the mirror without bursting into tears and feeling disgusted with the way i look. Im tired of...
    Xcinderella Xcinderella 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    No One Asked Me

    No one asked me if I wanted to live.When my parents 'did it' they never consulted me, they just created me without my permission.When I feel sad, I wonder why I am here.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    I never asked for you to have me.

    I never asked for him to tell me he loved me. I never needed to be alive. I guess, I just wanna be dead.
    Piercethetaco00 Piercethetaco00 16-17, F Jan 23

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    Dear Stranger

    I want to run away from home. I want to commit suicide.I'm tired of living a ****** life, in my ****** home, with my bitchy mom.Everything I do is wrong in her eyes.Everytime I try I fail.I'm not tough, no one is, but i'm too weak.I feel a knot in my throat.I've heard if you keep...
    Menimienaiko Menimienaiko 13-15 2 Responses Jul 10, 2012

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    Almost 35

    I'm turning 35 in a month and I have nothing to show for. I'm a college graduate. I've given up my hopes and dreams to accommodate families expectations. I've settled for a man that I fell out of love because if emotional and verbal abuse. I've never drank partied or did drugs...
    minuteheartache minuteheartache 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2013

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    I genuinely don't think anyone would care

    if I did.. If I just collapsed there and then. Sleeping forever. I'm really not attention seeking, just a sad girl. I don't know why I'm here anymore. So much has gone wrong. I see no light at the end of my long, dark, twisted tunnel. My life is worthless. I'd be a little...
    JustThatNobody JustThatNobody 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    tonight I lay On the covers of my bed Feeling

    the cold air breeze against my icy skin The beautiful melody of lana del ray melting in my ears The saltiness of my tears on my lips The lifelessness that lies in me The pain that soars through me Is unbearable
    prettybr0wneyes prettybr0wneyes 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Fantisies

    Birth is an irrevocable defect Dying is too hard to master. So i ought to suffer in this world. I never see a light in this world for me, and if I do The light diminishes so fast. Can we all keep blaming our parents for the mistake they procreated? After all, our childhood doesn...
    KeironKeller KeironKeller 18-21, F May 29, 2012

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    if I could kill myself I would.

    I just don't know how to do it quickly , painlessly and easy. I feel like no one would notice so why not
    lexanoel lexanoel 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    It's such a sad world we live in.

    The first joke we ever learned about the chicken crossing the road? A metaphor for suicide Or when people say: "That band sucks!" No, that band has helped me cope with life. They stopped me from killing myself, and help me put down the blade. When I felt I was slipping...
    frozenfanatic frozenfanatic 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    Nope.i didnt ask to be born,

    i didnt ask to have this life,i didnt ask for any of this
    AmberLovesRabbits AmberLovesRabbits 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    I'm A Nobody And Is Here By Mistake

    I'm a nobody, a existence that wasn't suppose to existence and has MAJOR depression. It hurts inside, like a pitbull bite.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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    I really wish I never was born.

    I'm soooo tired of living. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine... But I'm really not..
    MichaelOKBurns MichaelOKBurns 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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