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I Never Wanted To Live

for people who have tried suicide, thought about it, wanted to try it. for people hating their family or friends. for insecure people, like me....... 458 People

    How can I end my life without pain

    and distortion? I want a sure-death suicidal method, that involve car crashes/drowning/jumping off buildings. I want to try sleeping pills, but is it 100%? I'm so tired of living.
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    Suicide . Failure . Loser .

    Ugly . Poor . Hated . Jealous . envious . Nothing . Worthless . Pig . Cursed . Lonely . Full of ego . Hate to see others happy . Hates god - jealous of how people love him & how he gives People . I hate how unfair he is . My dad left me . I get jealous so bad & hard . That I...
    lordeley952 lordeley952 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 14

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    Honestly, I don't remember the last time I

    wanted to live and be alive. I kept thinking to myself that this was just a phase in life and things would get better, but it's been almost a year and I completely lost it. I'm ready to go. It's my time, I don't want to suffer anymore. I cry and cry, hoping that one day I will...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I feel like no matter what i do nobody is proud.

    ..I've cried in bed for feeling alone I haven't cut but I have been tempted to everyday. I feel so alone, i curl up in bed blocking out the world because it's just cruel i feel like nobody cares in school i can see the hate in the peoples eyes excepts for my three friends. Nobody...
    BVBArmyForever BVBArmyForever 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I didn't sign up for this bs!

    And I just ran fresh out of ***** to give to go on.
    dom2wsx dom2wsx 22-25, M Dec 25, 2013

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    I don't think it would make a difference.

    ... my whole family already discarded me like the piece of trash that I am
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F 4 Responses May 26

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    I did when I was young.

    Those "childhood" happy times.. I ended up hospitalized a few times and tried committing suicide multiple times. I tries to hurt myself and cut a line following the long vain on my left arm and still have the ling dark scar showing on it. I tried OD on two medicines I'd been...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    Yeah, I shouldn't be alive

    if all I'm gonna do is constantly push people away and hurt people....the thought of suicide is constantly in my mind..I want to end it all....
    TheOtakuxx TheOtakuxx 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 18

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    I'm Just An Angel , Ready To Go Back Home .

    If Something Drastic Is To Happen To Me , Do Not Revive Me . I Am Unhappy Here On Earth . I Don't Want To Be Here Another Day . School Is Stressful . My Family Is Stressful . The Pain I Feel Emotionally & Mentally Is So Powerful It's Turned Physical . I Have Plenty Of Scars To...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 16-17, F 2 Responses May 9

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    My dog is the only reason

    that keep me from suicide. I have no trust in my family to take care of him when I'm gone.. I know they won't, base on how they treat their own daughter.. I know they have no mercy toward anything that they dislike. Then an idea hits me. Why not just take him with me? I want...
    kingkaewjnp kingkaewjnp 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    BrokenBellaBixtch BrokenBellaBixtch 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I wanna kill myself, i don't wanna study have

    friends a job a family love or anything else. I just wanna runaway to a beach with palms and happy people barely knowing each other dancing n having fun. But I feel like i'm not born for a future, i wanna live now and go away but i live once so i want to be a free spirit with...
    marialocoo marialocoo 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19

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    MilleniaAzure MilleniaAzure 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    ιѕ an ocean. no reaѕon тo ѕмιle ғeelιng lιĸe alιce wнen ѕнe ғallѕ ιnтo wonderland.jυѕт вarely ѕтandιng and goιng тнroυgн тнe мoтιonѕ oғ тнe day. every ιnѕυlт вrιngιng мe down deeper ιnтo тнe ocean ғeelιng lιĸe drownιng w...
    nohope2345 nohope2345 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    But God had plans requiring me to.

    So i found pals. And live for them.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm officially committing suicide.

    To the ones who will miss me, i am so sorry. To the one i love, remember i love you, until death. And to all those who know me, it's not your fault. To the ones i love, all of you, i wasn't supposed to still be here anyway. And if you know me, even a little, it isn't your fault...
    futurediary futurediary 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I've never wanted to be alive.

    It makes me feel weird to say it, because I am so young, but I can remember being old enough to talk, and not wanting to be here. It's not easy for me, I get bullied, and I have no real friends. The only thing that keeps me going is music, and writing.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    Can someone please just give me a damn gun

    so i can get it over with?
    BlackBlood64 BlackBlood64 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So over the past 5years I've been struggling

    to deal with my mums neglect ion & sexual abuse & my eating disorder , there's been numerous hospital admissions for medical reason & also a place of safety at crises times ! It all got to much again and I took an overdose & went to the bridge again with a suicide note in hand...
    princess2121 princess2121 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    I hate being alive, I seriously do.

    My dad's side of the family is so rude to me and I hate it, I really wanna just slit my wrist an bleed out. I ******* hate it here!!! :( someone please help me, I can't do this alone. I really am about to do it, nobody loves me. My ex that I love hates me and my own family doesn...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I'm so sorry you had to find me like this.

    Please don't don't feel sad, I am in a better place now. I've lost so many battle with the monsters inside my head for too long and now I finally won the war. I finally killed the monster inside my head now. It's gone forever. I'm too tired of constantly covering my scars and...
    Angrysalads Angrysalads 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 12

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    Wish I could die in my sleep,

    so painless yet so carefree. And with that, I can find serenity.
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    kirstyc4321 kirstyc4321 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I'm sick of this. I just hope everyday to get

    hit by a car or for some accident to happen where I don't make it.
    drearyaching drearyaching 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I feel like a waste of space.

    And I really want to just fall asleep and never wake up again.
    mt201409 mt201409 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    So another day goes by,

    and the bad memories still remain. So I'm asking for the help that I asked the other day, a way to die. I'm not asking for attention, friendships, or to be talked out of this, I have had a bad and painful life, you may read up on it In one of my experiences I posted on here...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 2

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    I think about it, every nights

    and days, it could make me free, make me happy, make me feel alive through the contrary, i think about how i will do it, when, where, i get ready for it, saying goodbyes to the ones i love.... and ill say goodbye to this life i never asked for as soon as i can ..
    thinordie thinordie 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    jadeybear69 jadeybear69 16-17, F Jul 15

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    jadeybear69 jadeybear69 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    im 16. Looking for a painless way too end my

    pain. please anyone who has any ideas, please message me
    Teenyphilly Teenyphilly 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 6

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    I never asked to be here.

    I'm so sick of dealing with stupid crap from my family and my boyfriends family. I'm so tired of being called ugly,lazy,dark,and poor. I can't deal with people in this world, they are mean,self fish,and money hungry. The rich steal from the poor. And I hate my dad -_-
    annabell19011 annabell19011 18-21, F 1 Response 22 hrs ago

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    All Alone...

    "I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how hurt they will be after. But I'm hurt now...
    rosered9854 rosered9854 18-21 2 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    i'm suicidal. i've attempted 4 times

    since september. it's becoming really bad and i might have to go the hospital, i'm terrified.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Everything would so much better

    for everyone if I never existed
    cherry1232 cherry1232 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Its like this overwhelming sadness,

    it just comes out of nowhere. And i feel alone and worthless and just numb to the world.
    deviness deviness 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    No One Asked Me

    No one asked me if I wanted to live.When my parents 'did it' they never consulted me, they just created me without my permission.When I feel sad, I wonder why I am here.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    I really wish I never was born.

    I'm soooo tired of living. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine... But I'm really not..
    MichaelOKBurns MichaelOKBurns 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    TheMiracleOne TheMiracleOne 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I want to stop existing not

    even die and go to heaven or hell
    MilleniaAzure MilleniaAzure 13-15, M 3 Responses Jul 22

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    I honestly don't know

    if I'd ever kill myself. Like I have thoughts about it constantly but I don't know if I could. I'm afraid that if I kill myself I'll be tormented by demons for eternity :(
    bruisexviolet bruisexviolet 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    okay so every night I feel crap

    and started crying and them I started to think of killing myself but I tried not to because my family atm is broken my dad doesn't even help my mom. I also hate my dad ever since I was little. My mom is struggling atm and he doesn't help her. Which made me really sad because my...
    annexsenpai annexsenpai 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have thought about suicide

    since I wa about 12, made the decision I wouldn't live to 18 shortly thereafter with my best friend, now I'm 23 with a 2 year old and my best friend is dead. I might not contemplate suicide daily, but I do ponder about it as often as I can imagine... And sometimes I wish I had...
    MrLaughingMan MrLaughingMan 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    There was a time when I was at my lowest.

    I could barely see any light or any way out in my life. I felt as if everything had closed off from me, like I had nothing and nobody. I ended up becoming suicidal at one point. I am a religious person, so some people might not relate exactly, but there was one night that I fell...
    naattrodriguezz naattrodriguezz 16-17, F Jun 10

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    So now it starts, I'm going to try to get a

    little blots before I take the drugs. But hopefully by 2 am I'll be having the drugs in me
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    I want to die but that should not look like

    suicide .... I can crash my two wheeler somewhere in road but I'm scared to do that ... How can I die , can someone kill me ????
    hariprashanth92 hariprashanth92 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 8

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    I'm A Nobody And Is Here By Mistake

    I'm a nobody, a existence that wasn't suppose to existence and has MAJOR depression. It hurts inside, like a pitbull bite.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M 3 Responses May 2, 2012

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