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I Never Wanted To Live

for people who have tried suicide, thought about it, wanted to try it. for people hating their family or friends. for insecure people, like me....... 551 People

    I don't think it would make a difference.

    ... my whole family already discarded me like the piece of trash that I am
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F 4 Responses May 26

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    I never wanted to live.

    .. I'm just causing problems for everybody. I can't do anything right. I'm a failure. Now I know you don't think I can't do anything right but I'm freaking serious. I'm talentless and not good at anything. I can't even think properly. Maybe you're reading this or maybe not but it...
    alilight alilight 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 14

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    And it's getting really really bad.

    .. Friends and family know this and take it as a joke. Infact they treat me like **** still for some reason. Now things are getting to a point I just cannot handle... Someone talk to me, please.
    GuuIsAwesome GuuIsAwesome 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I just wish I was never born tbh.

    I hate my life so much.
    AshtonKellen AshtonKellen 13-15, M 6 Responses Oct 5

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    USMC2001 USMC2001 13-15, M 5 Responses Sep 22

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    There was a time when I was at my lowest.

    I could barely see any light or any way out in my life. I felt as if everything had closed off from me, like I had nothing and nobody. I ended up becoming suicidal at one point. I am a religious person, so some people might not relate exactly, but there was one night that I fell...
    naattrodriguezz naattrodriguezz 16-17, F Jun 10

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    My boyfriend who I thought I was going to spend

    the rest of my life with left me. We lived together, slept with each other every night. Took baths with each other made dinner for each other. He got me a ring and said he promises to be with me forever. My heart is broken: he said the relationship is not something he wants. He...
    Mangocupcakes Mangocupcakes 16-17, F 8 Responses Sep 14

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    I've never wanted to be alive.

    It makes me feel weird to say it, because I am so young, but I can remember being old enough to talk, and not wanting to be here. It's not easy for me, I get bullied, and I have no real friends. The only thing that keeps me going is music, and writing.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    I wish I was never born into my retarded family.

    They have no clue how close they're pushing me over the edge. I either feel like killing myself or killing everyone around me. Sometimes I just want walk out, even though I have nothing, and just walk forever.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    sophieirwinnxo sophieirwinnxo 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 24

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    If I died tomorrow night.

    Would you care? Would I? Would she? Who am I kidding, you have no reason to care, and everyone has to have a reason... Naturally she wouldn't cause she discarded me. And clearly I don't cause I have no reason to care... And what reasons I do have could be seen as lies... Why...
    lostunit lostunit 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 5

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    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    So over the past 5years I've been struggling

    to deal with my mums neglect ion & sexual abuse & my eating disorder , there's been numerous hospital admissions for medical reason & also a place of safety at crises times ! It all got to much again and I took an overdose & went to the bridge again with a suicide note in hand...
    princess2121 princess2121 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    All the time I just hear in my head,

    "killmyselfkillmyselfkillmyselfkillmyself." My mom doesn't give a ****, she just sits her *** on the computer, plays casino games, binge drinks, starts arguments with me and drinks herself to sleep. I hate the stupid *** life she lives and how I'm forced to be around it, not...
    comp0sur3 comp0sur3 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 18

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    SonicEXE SonicEXE 13-15, F Oct 19

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    Nothing goes well in my life.

    No one cares about me and even my parents torture me. I want to suicide but I'm scared...
    anonymous9494 anonymous9494 18-21, F Aug 30

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    SykikGhost1 SykikGhost1 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 29

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    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Aug 29

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    I hate being alive, I seriously do.

    My dad's side of the family is so rude to me and I hate it, I really wanna just slit my wrist an bleed out. I ******* hate it here!!! :( someone please help me, I can't do this alone. I really am about to do it, nobody loves me. My ex that I love hates me and my own family doesn...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    I never wanted to live.

    I can't even begin to explain the identification I have to this sentence. For many, many years I wanted nothing more then to not exist to feel nothing to not need to breath. I didn't want vision or ideas. I wanted my gaily and friends to be as if I was already gone. I wrote down...
    endlessinnerbeauty endlessinnerbeauty 22-25, F Sep 13

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    All Alone...

    "I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how hurt they will be after. But I'm hurt now...
    rosered9854 rosered9854 18-21 2 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    At age 13 I was self harming

    and keeping it secret until my 14th birthday I tried to kill myself for many years I've been fighting my mind to live yet what's the point? I'm 22 now and things have only gotten worse. I've been in tremendous pain due to a tumour, I'm forever having hypoglycaemia which drains...
    rsco6969 rsco6969 22-25, M Sep 10

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    I have thought about suicide

    since I wa about 12, made the decision I wouldn't live to 18 shortly thereafter with my best friend, now I'm 23 with a 2 year old and my best friend is dead. I might not contemplate suicide daily, but I do ponder about it as often as I can imagine... And sometimes I wish I had...
    MrLaughingMan MrLaughingMan 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    My pills and VODKA! YAY!

    .... I once read a story about a rich man whom everyone was jealous of....he lives in solitude. And one day he just killed himself. Will that also happen to me? I don't really know. I can't love other people and I can't trust them enough to believe they care for me in return...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 7 Responses Sep 8

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    How can I end my life without pain

    and distortion? I want a sure-death suicidal method, that involve car crashes/drowning/jumping off buildings. I want to try sleeping pills, but is it 100%? I'm so tired of living.
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm giving up I can't take anymore of this pain

    this life has ruined me I'm not who I was! I'm leaving for good I love you all bye
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 15

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    I want to die but that should not look like

    suicide .... I can crash my two wheeler somewhere in road but I'm scared to do that ... How can I die , can someone kill me ????
    hariprashanth92 hariprashanth92 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 8

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    I really wish I never was born.

    I'm soooo tired of living. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine... But I'm really not..
    MichaelOKBurns MichaelOKBurns 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    I've been struggling lately.

    .. Under a lot of stress.. Last night it got to the best of me, I took pills... Overdosed. My friend ran in and made me puke it all up... Only reason why im still here...
    YoungLovee15 YoungLovee15 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 27

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    I have constant suicidal thoughts

    so I take whatever I can did in my parents medicine cabinet.. I'm waiting for the day when I "accidentally" overdose and make my thoughts go away forever...
    Asi15 Asi15 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    I didn't ask to be put on the planet😂!

    I constantly think about killing myself, I don't see the point in my existence.
    teebagg teebagg 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    There's this funny thing in life.

    People needed people. You, me, everyone else relies on someone for comfort and to be happy with life. I don't really know about anything that makes me truly happy anymore...I've been lucky all my life and I wonder when my luck will run out. It eventually will...in my opinion...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    I never asked to be conceived

    and born. I hate my life so damn much! My mom hates me, my dad molested me and abused me and then left me, my sisters call me names all the time and pick on me, I'm constantly struggling with countless mental disorders that take over my life, my whole life I've been so beat down...
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    i'm suicidal. i've attempted 4 times

    since september. it's becoming really bad and i might have to go the hospital, i'm terrified.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    My dog is the only reason

    that keep me from suicide. I have no trust in my family to take care of him when I'm gone.. I know they won't, base on how they treat their own daughter.. I know they have no mercy toward anything that they dislike. Then an idea hits me. Why not just take him with me? I want...
    kingkaewjnp kingkaewjnp 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    I feel like a waste of space.

    And I really want to just fall asleep and never wake up again.
    mt201409 mt201409 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    Everyone says I know how you feel "But!

    " I wrote this poem when I was 13 if you understand it then you will know your not alone and now I'm 33 not happy but alive. SMILE The smiles no longer mark my face, They come with pain each effort I make to lighten up my morbid face. People ask why do I frown upon these...
    MyTest MyTest 31-35, F Aug 26

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    I'm going to do it in November this year I

    don't give a **** anymore! And people will say serves her right she's so stupid when I die and people here would even say do it! You won't do it for real...I often wonder why? Clearly it's a lot of issues but there's no need to get into it. I can forgive everyone else but I can...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 26

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    I didn't sign up for this bs!

    And I just ran fresh out of ***** to give to go on.
    dom2wsx dom2wsx 22-25, M Dec 25, 2013

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    I wonder why didn't my mom just abort me like

    **** just imagine how happier i would be.
    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 16-17, M 1 Response Oct 3

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    I want to commit suicide.

    Because I have no purpose. Everyone hates me. I have no friends. There's no reason for me to just sit here and take up space. No one cares what happens to me not even my family its just a joke. So I guess I'm trying to say goodbye world.
    bandgeek00 bandgeek00 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 5

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    I think about it, every nights

    and days, it could make me free, make me happy, make me feel alive through the contrary, i think about how i will do it, when, where, i get ready for it, saying goodbyes to the ones i love.... and ill say goodbye to this life i never asked for as soon as i can ..
    thinordie thinordie 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    Honestly, I don't remember the last time I

    wanted to live and be alive. I kept thinking to myself that this was just a phase in life and things would get better, but it's been almost a year and I completely lost it. I'm ready to go. It's my time, I don't want to suffer anymore. I cry and cry, hoping that one day I will...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I'm sick of this. I just hope everyday to get

    hit by a car or for some accident to happen where I don't make it.
    drearyaching drearyaching 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I did when I was young.

    Those "childhood" happy times.. I ended up hospitalized a few times and tried committing suicide multiple times. I tries to hurt myself and cut a line following the long vain on my left arm and still have the ling dark scar showing on it. I tried OD on two medicines I'd been...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 19

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    gomega98 gomega98 16-17, M Sep 25

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    I mean like why not end

    that like now ... If I suicide no one would even notice .. Or maybe just one person would .. But .. I can't take this anymore .. I wish someone was there for me .. I can't resist that any longer ... Not alone I'm sorry.
    frozenteer frozenteer 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 6

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    How long to you want to live in this world?

    I've thought about it and the answer has always been the same. I don't want to live another second. You're so young when you're 30 like me you'd change your words? Such ridiculous assumptions? What's so great about life anyways? Experience something more? Right, I've...
    SwanNual SwanNual 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    LordOfTheFail LordOfTheFail 18-21, F Oct 1

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