I Never Wanted To Live

for people who have tried suicide, thought about it, wanted to try it. for people hating their family or friends. for insecure people, like me....... 955 People

    i rather die than to feel all this.

    .... i feel burdened, i feel obligated...... im tired and i want to end this......
    shy07me shy07me
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 15
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 29, 2014

    I could have easily died in utero.

    My mother was induced 10 days early because I was a massive baby. One doc wanted her to do a natural delivery. The other one, her doc, decided upon a c-section given her age and previous c-section with my sister. Upon pulling me out, they discovered that my umbilical cord was...
    LordOfTheFail LordOfTheFail
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2015

    I want to die but that should not look like

    suicide .... I can crash my two wheeler somewhere in road but I'm scared to do that ... How can I die , can someone kill me ????
    hariprashanth92 hariprashanth92
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    I haven't been happy

    since I don't remember when. I'm about ready to go.
    Asi15 Asi15
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 18, 2015

    Sometimes I feel that the Lord isnt blessing me.

    .. Here I am, working for Him, day and night , reading His scriptures and interpreting prophesies, and sharing the word of God to others. Yet nothing happened. I am still poor and stupid. My grades are very low. I am a failure. I am studying in a public school and I hate my...
    greenamythese77 greenamythese77
    18-21, F
    Sep 27, 2015
    erayn erayn
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 12

    I'm so tired, and exhausted of everything.

    I've done it before I've token a bunch of pills. I'm so lonely, and they don't even care. I feel like I'm slowly dying. I know what I'll do when the time comes soon, I'll drink nail polish, I looked up how much you need to take to go away. I'm so tired of coming in last not 2nd...
    Sakura963 Sakura963
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 1, 2015

    I want to give up, really ******* bad,

    i know taking the easy way out is so called "cowardly" but its to end this pain instantly, id be better off dead
    RosesAndRazors RosesAndRazors
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2015

    I have always thought about

    and I now think it's time. I am trying to look for a painless method to commit suicide instead of resorting to hanging myself which is very hard to do. Please provide any suggestions. Please do not try and convince me not to do so. For me suicide is the answer I am sorry if if...
    bradlydc bradlydc
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Nov 21, 2015

    I keep thinking of killing myself.

    . I'm only 15 years old and I can't stand what the world has come to. With all the wars happening, everythings dying on the planet, everyone is constantly being an ******* to eachother and people today are idiots. All they care about are their own well-being. The other day, I was...
    ThatOnePerson5467 ThatOnePerson5467
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Sep 8, 2015

    So over the past 5years I've been struggling

    to deal with my mums neglect ion & sexual abuse & my eating disorder , there's been numerous hospital admissions for medical reason & also a place of safety at crises times ! It all got to much again and I took an overdose & went to the bridge again with a suicide note in hand...
    princess2121 princess2121
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 4, 2014

    I'm 28 years old, people find me very

    attractive, beautiful and enthusiastic... But whole 28 years of my life have been a torture. First memories I have are buying Baltic vodka for my mom that was/is functioning alcoholic and drug addict. I come from respectable family, but poisonous... I've tried in every way to...
    Nina737 Nina737
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 11

    i'm suicidal. i've attempted 4 times

    since september. it's becoming really bad and i might have to go the hospital, i'm terrified.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2014

    I'm just a bother. No one really cares

    for me. They just take me for granted and then leave me to suffer on my own
    Brokensuicide0920 Brokensuicide0920
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 28, 2015

    One of these days coming,

    I know I'm gonna be strung up some tree. You can go ahead and say life is amazing but it takes time but no its like I was created only for these demons to drag me down when I could have just stayed as a soul maybe in heaven if it exists. Reality is a huge kick in the face, the...
    MrBugsyMalone MrBugsyMalone
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 14

    I never wanted to live.

    .. I'm just causing problems for everybody. I can't do anything right. I'm a failure. Now I know you don't think I can't do anything right but I'm freaking serious. I'm talentless and not good at anything. I can't even think properly. Maybe you're reading this or maybe not but it...
    alilight alilight
    16-17, F
    10 Responses Oct 14, 2014

    And I still don't. I will be

    so happy when I disappear from earth.
    Sacryfice Sacryfice
    26-30, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    a girl i know tried to kill herself with pills a

    while ago. i met her mother today and she told me to befriend her. i dont want to be a hypocrit, how can i tell her to live when i.m waiting for the end of my own damn life? her mother broke down in front of me, saying that she is afraid to let her out of sight fearing her girl...
    sadcookiemonster sadcookiemonster
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 13
    USMC2001 USMC2001
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Sep 22, 2014

    I wish I could say that my parents married out

    of love, but I don't know and I don't think so, now they've divorced, I feel it has reflected badly on me.
    PigMonkeyHybrid PigMonkeyHybrid
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 7, 2015

    I hate that we were brought into this life

    while having no choice in anything. Everything is chosen for you, you just have to accept it. What if I ******* don't want to ? You don't choose your family, your name, your appearance, your country, your gender, your everything! I genuinely hate this all of it. What is...
    Fallenwings4 Fallenwings4
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 12, 2015

    I feel like a waste of space.

    And I really want to just fall asleep and never wake up again.
    mt201409 mt201409
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

    looking for a suicide partner.

    message me if interested
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 12, 2015

    I didn't do nothing wrong to anyone

    but yet I'm homeless in December my parents didn't want me my siblings that I barely know abandoned me my kids say I'm a burden so where do I go I'm 46 with heart and lung problem I don't have no friends you ask for help at places they put u on a waiting list so what there to...
    nobodywants46 nobodywants46
    46-50, F
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015
    nobodywants46 nobodywants46
    46-50, F
    Nov 30, 2015
    emmadarko emmadarko
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    I really wish I never was born.

    I'm soooo tired of living. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine... But I'm really not..
    MikeOkBurns MikeOkBurns
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

    All Alone...

    "I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how hurt they will be after. But I'm hurt now...
    rosered9854 rosered9854
    18-21
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2012

    So today I turn 16! But guess what I'm spending

    my birthday alone AGAIN for the 10th year in a row! Yeah makes me feel loved!! In tired of not being important
    maddog1000 maddog1000
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 30, 2015

    I should be wary of how I script this.

    ... The title of this forum seemingly is a feeling after the intent,no "cry for help"...... simply after the descent........
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 25, 2015

    As far as I can remember I've never been happy

    maybe when I was a young child I had innocent happiness but I can remember my childhood that much. It's amazing how we remember the bad things more than the good things. But as far as simple happiness I've never had that and it seems that recently it's getting worse and worse...
    befuddledninja befuddledninja
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 27, 2015

    Some of us wish we were never born,

    that way we wouldnt have been a faliure
    yaotl1 yaotl1
    16-17, M
    Aug 29, 2015

    I just wish I was never born tbh.

    I hate my life so much.
    AshtonKellen AshtonKellen
    16-17, M
    5 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    I wish I was never born into my retarded family.

    They have no clue how close they're pushing me over the edge. I either feel like killing myself or killing everyone around me. Sometimes I just want walk out, even though I have nothing, and just walk forever.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog
    70+, F
    Oct 20, 2014

    I came to this life even by accident.

    Mom was wearing some protection device and by accident i cam to life. I was the youngest to three oldest sisters. I was the kind of guys who been so sensitive towards animals and sort of other stuff like that. I lived in a house where most of the days"fights" are happening...
    joemane36 joemane36
    36-40, M
    1 Response Mar 18

    I have one last thing to say I'm going to hang

    myself because I can't stand life anymore my heart has been crushed too many times I have been lied too physically beaten so Ya tomorrow it will happen so goodbye EP and World.
    kRaZeDmODDeR kRaZeDmODDeR
    13-15, M
    1 Response May 31, 2015

    I am the outcast. I'm the woman

    who "gave birth to a dead baby". This is who I am now. My self esteem has suffered greatly and still does. I literally don't fit in anywhere. I almost reached my due date.. i was so far along.. everyone was excited and so happy for me. It all just came crashing down. I miss him...
    NoRegretsAndNoRemorse NoRegretsAndNoRemorse
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 29, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 19, 2014

    I was wondering ....maybe

    if i don´t kill myself i will get some kind of reward for living this painful life...all i can do is watch everyone around me being happy and telling me "stop being sad"...it´s like they know something about life that i don´t...i´m just tired of this...i feel like i´m just...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    please pray I make it my daughter verbal

    abusing me now cause I want my freedom I've two nitros and she won't stop that's why I rather live on the streets then to be around her
    nobodywants46 nobodywants46
    46-50, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2015

    I want you to know how much I hurt.

    How much pain I feel every waking moment. How I feel trapped and hopeless these past few years. Everything I say or do is a lie. To protect myself and others because I knew nobody wanted to hear it. That at every turn in my life lead to failure in one way or the other. The first...
    Madmanwithabox29 Madmanwithabox29
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 17, 2015

    I've been saying that

    since I can remember. And I started to remember ten years ago. Been like this all my life.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2014

    I wish that I never existed,

    it would be for the better.
    fhn0512 fhn0512
    18-21, F
    Nov 25, 2015

    I've never wanted to be alive.

    It makes me feel weird to say it, because I am so young, but I can remember being old enough to talk, and not wanting to be here. It's not easy for me, I get bullied, and I have no real friends. The only thing that keeps me going is music, and writing.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2014

    I never wanted to live.

    I can't even begin to explain the identification I have to this sentence. For many, many years I wanted nothing more then to not exist to feel nothing to not need to breath. I didn't want vision or ideas. I wanted my gaily and friends to be as if I was already gone. I wrote down...
    endlessinnerbeauty endlessinnerbeauty
    26-30, F
    Sep 13, 2014

    I want a suicide pact with someone

    so I won't have to die alone.
    alexacrow alexacrow
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2015

    Honestly, I don't remember the last time I

    wanted to live and be alive. I kept thinking to myself that this was just a phase in life and things would get better, but it's been almost a year and I completely lost it. I'm ready to go. It's my time, I don't want to suffer anymore. I cry and cry, hoping that one day I will...
    Ki123 Ki123
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

    I can't take it anymore I'm

    so done with life. I have this feeling of not belonging anymore, I don't know what to do, I'm so empty inside it's incredible. This life it's not meant for me, I wasn't supposed to be here I can't take it anymore so much I want to reap my hair out in going insane because of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 11, 2015

    When small bad things happen to most people,

    people get sad about it. When small bad things happen to me and other depressed people, it is a painful reminder of how much we wish we werent alive.
    thischickiswack thischickiswack
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015

    I fell in love. And then he died.

    My parents won't let me go to the memorial, wake or funeral. He was all I had left. I just want to be with him again. So here I lay home alone, with a bottle of whiskey and my father's prescription bloodthinners. I can't wait to see him.
    UnidentifiedCryingobject UnidentifiedCryingobject
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Sep 8, 2015
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