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I Never Wanted To Live

for people who have tried suicide, thought about it, wanted to try it. for people hating their family or friends. for insecure people, like me....... 728 People

    I never asked to be conceived

    and born. I hate my life so damn much! My mom hates me, my dad molested me and abused me and then left me, my sisters call me names all the time and pick on me, I'm constantly struggling with countless mental disorders that take over my life, my whole life I've been so beat down...
    XxMisguidedxGhostxX XxMisguidedxGhostxX 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2014

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    My pills and VODKA! YAY!

    .... I once read a story about a rich man whom everyone was jealous of....he lives in solitude. And one day he just killed himself. Will that also happen to me? I don't really know. I can't love other people and I can't trust them enough to believe they care for me in return...
    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F 7 Responses Sep 8, 2014

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    USMC2001 USMC2001 13-15, M 4 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    I never asked for this,

    I never wanted to live, what's the point anymore
    Chloe1509 Chloe1509 16-17 Nov 2, 2014

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    I feel like a waste of space.

    And I really want to just fall asleep and never wake up again.
    mt201409 mt201409 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2014

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    Mariangabalon Mariangabalon 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2014

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    I want to commit suicide.

    Because I have no purpose. Everyone hates me. I have no friends. There's no reason for me to just sit here and take up space. No one cares what happens to me not even my family its just a joke. So I guess I'm trying to say goodbye world.
    bandgeek00 bandgeek00 18-21, F 11 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    And I still don't. I will be

    so happy when I disappear from earth.
    Sacryfice Sacryfice 26-30, F Nov 19, 2014

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    Hartini Hartini 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5, 2014

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    I was wondering ....maybe

    if i don´t kill myself i will get some kind of reward for living this painful life...all i can do is watch everyone around me being happy and telling me "stop being sad"...it´s like they know something about life that i don´t...i´m just tired of this...i feel like i´m just...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 18

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    All Alone...

    "I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how hurt they will be after. But I'm hurt now...
    rosered9854 rosered9854 18-21 2 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I never wanted to live.

    .. I'm just causing problems for everybody. I can't do anything right. I'm a failure. Now I know you don't think I can't do anything right but I'm freaking serious. I'm talentless and not good at anything. I can't even think properly. Maybe you're reading this or maybe not but it...
    alilight alilight 13-15, F 11 Responses Oct 14, 2014

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    Why? I don't see why death should be a solution.

    Can someone please explain it? **** off to whatever person that has left you. Is life boring or just sad? Take medicines or drugs. Feeling alone? Meet someone. Afraid of socializing? Drugs/alcohol. Made something that you regret? Fix it, change life, be kind. Can't accept...
    AcidBrain AcidBrain 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    I wish I was never born into my retarded family.

    They have no clue how close they're pushing me over the edge. I either feel like killing myself or killing everyone around me. Sometimes I just want walk out, even though I have nothing, and just walk forever.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 2 Responses Oct 20, 2014

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    crazy to think. that literally no one wants me.

    somebody's gotta make the tough decisions right ?
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 12, 2014

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    just a few more days.

    .. just a few more days and I'll be free.. free to just float.. to sleep and relax and free to just... not be anything.. to simply rest.. and lie down and stop doing everything.. over thinking, exagerrating, lying, breathing... I can finally just stop... so excited for it.. never...
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M Nov 13, 2014

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    I did when I was young.

    Those "childhood" happy times.. I ended up hospitalized a few times and tried committing suicide multiple times. I tries to hurt myself and cut a line following the long vain on my left arm and still have the ling dark scar showing on it. I tried OD on two medicines I'd been...
    SubmissiveSecrets SubmissiveSecrets 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    I didn't sign up for this bs!

    And I just ran fresh out of ***** to give to go on.
    dom2wsx dom2wsx 26-30, M Dec 25, 2013

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    How can I end my life without pain

    and distortion? I want a sure-death suicidal method, that involve car crashes/drowning/jumping off buildings. I want to try sleeping pills, but is it 100%? I'm so tired of living.
    KathLyz KathLyz 22-25, F 5 Responses Jul 17, 2014

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    I have been told to die one too many times,

    so let me tell you something. You want a show EP, you're gonna get a show. I'm going, nothing can stop me now! Bye bye!
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    lostsoul102 lostsoul102 41-45, M Mar 16

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    I never wanted to live.

    .. and I'm hoping to correct life's mistake
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M Nov 13, 2014

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    LIFEGOESON805 LIFEGOESON805 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    its all i can think bout is not being here i

    dont want to feel anymore i cant take it i know when and how i just have to bide my time
    givenupforever givenupforever 22-25, F Mar 5

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    I know I am a mistake

    because life hates me and I don't any point in living. I have been told many times and I just give up.
    Unknown1047 Unknown1047 18-21, M Nov 16, 2014

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    I just wish I was never born tbh.

    I hate my life so much.
    AshtonKellen AshtonKellen 16-17, M 7 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    potatoesrgr8 potatoesrgr8 16-17, M Feb 21

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    fucksunshine fucksunshine 18-21, F Mar 10

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    Everyone says I know how you feel "But!

    " I wrote this poem when I was 13 if you understand it then you will know your not alone and now I'm 33 not happy but alive. SMILE The smiles no longer mark my face, They come with pain each effort I make to lighten up my morbid face. People ask why do I frown upon these...
    MyTest MyTest 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 26, 2014

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    I'm done. its my only way out.

    and my only way to get away. no one needs me, and I've been disowned by everyone. now all that's left. is for me to leave. two weeks ahead of schedule. goodbye
    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    My dog is the only reason

    that keep me from suicide. I have no trust in my family to take care of him when I'm gone.. I know they won't, base on how they treat their own daughter.. I know they have no mercy toward anything that they dislike. Then an idea hits me. Why not just take him with me? I want...
    kingkaewjnp kingkaewjnp 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2013

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    Honestly, I don't remember the last time I

    wanted to live and be alive. I kept thinking to myself that this was just a phase in life and things would get better, but it's been almost a year and I completely lost it. I'm ready to go. It's my time, I don't want to suffer anymore. I cry and cry, hoping that one day I will...
    Ki123 Ki123 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    I've never wanted to be alive.

    It makes me feel weird to say it, because I am so young, but I can remember being old enough to talk, and not wanting to be here. It's not easy for me, I get bullied, and I have no real friends. The only thing that keeps me going is music, and writing.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8, 2014

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    ClockworkTimesUp ClockworkTimesUp 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    I've done my part here.

    I can't do it now. Today was probably the worst day of my entire life and I'm not even exaggerating. Yesterday I said I could make it and that I had support through everything but now I feel like the walls are closing in. I'm all alone and I understand it now. I don't know how I...
    derby123 derby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2014

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    i'm suicidal. i've attempted 4 times

    since september. it's becoming really bad and i might have to go the hospital, i'm terrified.
    silentsufferingg silentsufferingg 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    I don't think it would make a difference.

    ... my whole family already discarded me like the piece of trash that I am
    kayelani kayelani 18-21, F 3 Responses May 26, 2014

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    Do you ever lay in bed at night hoping you wake

    up in the emergency room and hear the woords: "she's not going to make it"?
    deeplydown deeplydown 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 23, 2014

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    I remember the first time I realized I wanted

    to die. I was in fourth grade. I had a dream in relation to a book we were reading in class. A women was about to execute me and some of my female classmates. She announced, "If you want to die, come to the front of the line. If you want to live, go to the back." All the other...
    thischickiswack thischickiswack 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    So close to the edge one little gust of wind

    and I'm gone and never coming back
    xxabiGAYlexx xxabiGAYlexx 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2014

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    GrumpyMe GrumpyMe 22-25, F Aug 29, 2014

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    I hate being alive, I seriously do.

    My dad's side of the family is so rude to me and I hate it, I really wanna just slit my wrist an bleed out. I ******* hate it here!!! :( someone please help me, I can't do this alone. I really am about to do it, nobody loves me. My ex that I love hates me and my own family doesn...
    kelsey9317 kelsey9317 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 16, 2013

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    So over the past 5years I've been struggling

    to deal with my mums neglect ion & sexual abuse & my eating disorder , there's been numerous hospital admissions for medical reason & also a place of safety at crises times ! It all got to much again and I took an overdose & went to the bridge again with a suicide note in hand...
    princess2121 princess2121 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2014

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    I'm honestly trying to quit cutting

    and it's getting to the point where I don't know if I can take it anymore. It would be so much simpler for my brother and sister if I wasn't born. Then they won't have the burden of being my sibling looming over them whenever they step into a public place. I have my family's...
    derby123 derby123 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    debonaireash debonaireash 18-21, M Nov 13, 2014

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    I really wish I never was born.

    I'm soooo tired of living. I'm tired of acting like I'm fine... But I'm really not..
    MikeOkBurns MikeOkBurns 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 2, 2013

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    I'm giving up I can't take anymore of this pain

    this life has ruined me I'm not who I was! I'm leaving for good I love you all bye
    maddog1000 maddog1000 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 15, 2014