I Never Wanted To Live

Honestly, I don't clearly remember a day I ever really want to be 'here' - to be alive. Maybe when I was five or six? Things are so vague and steeped in dark shadows.

I never intended to live past 18. Or even 16 for that matter (I...

I want to run away from home. I want to commit suicide.I'm tired of living a shitty life, in my shitty home, with my bitchy mom.Everything I do is wrong in her eyes.Everytime I try I fail.I'm not tough, no one is, but i'm too weak.I...

if i had the choice, i wouldnt be on the earth. i know i sound like a pussy, but its true. my friends fight me, call me names, hurt me, and scare the hell out of me. and they judge me. my parents are horrible, the names, they...

Birth is an irrevocable defect
Dying is too hard to master.
So i ought to suffer in this world.
I never see a light in this world for me, and if I do
The light diminishes so fast.

Can we all keep blaming our parents for the mistake...

I'm a nobody, a existence that wasn't suppose to existence and has MAJOR depression. It hurts inside, like a pitbull bite.

Today was the first day that I hurt myself to stop the thoughts of suicide. I went to grab a knife but it scared me so instead I started punching the backside of a rolled up carpet. It felt so good feeling the pain somewhere else.

I've...

No one asked me if I wanted to live.When my parents 'did it' they never consulted me, they just created me without my permission.When I feel sad, I wonder why I am here.

"I want to die.""Do you know how that would hurt me? What about me? Why would you do that to me?"Does anyone even care that it's me who's hurting? It's all about them. Why doesn't it matter why I want to do it? They only care about how...

It's been raining in my heart, even when the sun is out and hot. I looked at a locket which my dad had gotten. I never opened it. For me it was crap. I remember well what he told me, but I don't remember him saying it. I shifted sides...

Shit sucks. But I guess the best thing is to drink water. Water is the shit.

I use to cut myself with scissors, razors, glass, anything that was sharp. I never cut myself extremely deep or so far that I could die, because I didn't want to die. I just wanted to numb the pain of my life. Cutting myself would make...