I often over-indulge, especially when I'm with friends. Then I feel guilty about it later and worry about my weight. So, I make myself promises and create strick rules for myself, only to dissapoint myself again later.
Not too often, but sometimes I eat a lot and then feel guilty about it. I think to myself about the reasons I am overweight an how this contributed to it. I think...okay..pretty much know that my emotions are linked to my eating and thats not a good thing. I didnt get a job I was...
or anxious. It soothes me.
I think because both of these are times when my heart is pumping and I feel out of control. Then when I'm eating, I think that triggers me to calm down because being able to sit down and eat a lot means that I'm away from whatever was bothering me.
It's not a food addiction. I don't think that food is love. Food is just constant, and it soothes my inner wounds whe nnothing else can. Even though I feel guilty after eating, and sometimes try to throw it up, I keep doing it.
It's a vicious and never ending cycle, one that I...
i eat because i hate to see a full plate. Because i know that people out their don't have it like i do. i ******* hate it when i don't eat everything because it's a waste. so now im 150 lbs like the dumbass i am. im 15. fuuuckk my life. how do i lose it ?