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I Often Think of Suicide

Decisions... Decisions... 52 People


    I have been thinking about suicide since I was 15 yr olds, and I am now 27 yr olds. I am sure one day I will kill myself. I work in the health industry and I deal with it every day. I live alone, and no one would find me for days. I am afraid to get antidepressants from the...
    Kiie Kiie
    26-30, F
    Aug 11, 2010

    Anyone Want To Talk?

    i just don't feel like doing life anymore and i know my life isn't that horrible... i just really need somebody to talk to who is also going through these thoughts... message me please. i'm 16 and a girl and i just need someone about my age who i can relate to.. thanx.
    katieamber52 katieamber52
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2011

    What To Do When You Feel Like You Have Experienced Everything In Life?

    What to do when you feel like you have experienced everything in life?   I feel like I have experienced everything there is to in life and some things that I do not really care as much about 'having'. I've been in love, I've got an education, I've got a family, I've...
    jetgirl9 jetgirl9
    22-25, F
    Nov 25, 2009

    Please Watch This Video, Its a Song By Good Charlotte

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1xJR8RTZCU&feature=related     Please, all people who think of suicide, watch this video, please hold on, there is always somebody who needs you, awlays, if there is not at this point, they will surely come to your life in...
    orangecloud orangecloud
    Jun 23, 2009

    The Lingering Question Of, "to Be, Or Not To Be"

    I think many perhaps ponder about suicide at least once if not more, and perhaps that is healthy. I think about it at least once a day. I think it through in terms of the act itself, how I would be discovered, and how my friends and family would take it. Honestly, I don;t care...
    ThePeanutTerminator ThePeanutTerminator
    Oct 4, 2012

    My Thoughts They Wander...

    Seems to be a never ending cycle of madness. When you're truly happy, soulfully happy, to your core, you don't want to die. You're happy right? Every insecurity, every mistake, every fear or anxiety you ever had about you or your life isn't there when you're complete and healthy...
    Neur0ticism Neur0ticism
    18-21, F
    Jun 19, 2008

    Ready To Give Up

    For 3 months now I have been fed up with life. I have been, still am, contemplating suicide. I cannot sllep at night and wake up sweating and panicking. My only reason for delaying suicide is my wife and daughter ? What the hell will happen tothem?
    steve26 steve26
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Jan 12, 2010

    I Will Kill Myself When I Am 26. I'm 24 Now.

    I will turn 24 in January.    These next few years I'm devoting to leaving a body of work, because I'm an artist.   But I am looking forward to that day when I'm 26 in a way.   It makes all of the time up until then very valuable and...
    deerandwolves deerandwolves
    22-25, F
    Nov 24, 2009

    Suicide Vs. Fear

    Sometimes I feel like I can't hold life as it is, but n the other side I am to coward to do that, after all we have no certainty of what is waiting us after life, mybe it is another liufe but who insures me that that life would not be worse? Why could be better?? after all...
    mujer1234 mujer1234
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 23, 2008

    The Only Thinglook Forward Too In This Thing Called Life That Crushes Me In And Out

    maybe thats what i;m designed for. an empty creation, desolate darkness, like a ridden infection, made with this emptyness, a void of black, i try to elude, its pulls me back, its fangs potrude. i cant even create a decent poem, maybe i should just get it done and over with and...
    jonnyronny jonnyronny
    18-21, M
    Jan 20, 2010

    What Is the Point of Living?

    My suicide thoughts have gotten worst. I usally dont pay attention to lyrics in songs, but not I do and love the suicide ones. Or ones about dying or killing somone.
    AnomicDeer AnomicDeer
    Aug 27, 2009

    I'm Getting Better

      I often think about suicide, or at least I did. The thoughts are fewer and far between now so I guess I’m doing better. I’m not yet convinced I want to live, but I know I’m not ready to die. My suicidal tendencies started when I was a socially unaccepted...
    running52 running52
    May 27, 2008

    It's Been A Struggle

    Since I was 16 I think... The ideation got stronger each year. The longer I live on earth the more painful memories I accumulated. Just a while ago, I thought I wasn't going to choose to live again if I had another near-death experience (not from suicide though but from accidents...
    Excellency Excellency
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jul 13, 2011

    Working On A Plan

    I am a weak person.  I was raised to be dependent, not make waves, not think for myself, etc.  So here I am, dependent, with no one to depend on but with two kids who depend on me.  Never made waves, never thought for myself or out of the box. There is nothing I want to do...
    goldilks goldilks
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Apr 3, 2011

    Would It Really Matter?

    I think about suicide quite a bit. I think about how I would do it, where, what could go wrong, and how my family would react. My biggest fear is not death itself, but that my death would have zero impact on the world. I don't know if I can really be called suicidal, because...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2010

    Demons In My Head

    I can't get them out. I don't really consider suicide. I've never seriously contemplated it, or planned it out. But sometimes I think about what would happen if I were to die today...and I feel nothing. I jsut don't care. I don't necessarily enjoy living. I find life very mundane...
    RequiemForReves RequiemForReves
    Dec 10, 2009


    Today I left work because I couldn't think. No really. I couldn't think of basic things. All day I made dumb things. Couldn't fill out deposit slips. Couldn't drive safe. Couldn't do ANYTHING. I smile when people are around. I cry when I'm alone. I want to be left alone, and...
    lonelyhealer lonelyhealer
    May 19, 2008

    This Life Is Only Boring

    all my life I must live as a man. Everytime I knowed, that I am not a normal man. After 1990 I discovered who I am. Now I must still live as a man and never can be what I am. I know, that I am a woman in a males body, but also I know, that nobody can help me, because I am a...
    monique54 monique54
    51-55, T
    Jun 17, 2010

    I Desire Peace.....

    Since highschool I've been struggling with one problem after another and it feels like I've had a bunch of weights dumped on me. The worst part is that I cannot talk to anyone, not family, not friends, about the things that haunt me because I'm afraid they will not look at me the...
    KingofHearts11 KingofHearts11
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 18, 2010
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