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I Often Wonder What If

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    What If I Had Chosen ... ?

    An EP friend of mine, "txwoman2" (btw, she's very bright and very cute) posed the classic, "What if?", question in a story recently. As I age (just turned 60) that thought crosses.my mind more often. But I know that I have been blessed with a cup that has been more than half...
    habeant habeant 56-60, M 11 Responses Dec 23, 2012

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    Mahatma Gandhi was a frail man

    who walked barefoot everywhere and had poor dental hygiene. Which, I suppose, would make him a... ahem... super-fragile calloused mystic, hexed with halitosis. Yay!.......
    LoneRider72 LoneRider72 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 30

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    Lol. Lmao. When told i am wrong.

    Or crazy. Or wanting to be spoiled. What if the poor and damaged are right. Most argue whats wrong. Then become poor or damaged. And see society like peers. We get ignored or sedated. Or locked away or deceased. Some of us were wealthy. Some were...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 2 Responses Jun 11

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    Politicians got schooled.

    A year listening to convicts. And ex cons. With no luxury allowed. A year following rape victims words. No luxury allowed. A year taking veterans to the va. By bus or no airconditioning allowed. Six months of food boxes only. With maybe sixteen food...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Jun 18

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    I've Missed Much Without You

    I wonder nearly everyday how your passing altered my life. I wonder would the little boy in me be less broken. I wonder if Dad would have come home more at night. I wonder if Christmas would have been the happy Holiday others tell me it is. I wonder if it would have made a...
    hunnydipz hunnydipz 51-55, M 5 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    If people really do care about me,

    and think of me as their friend.. Hmm..
    lilykitten1998 lilykitten1998 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 11

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    My boyfriend is a future thinker

    and has all if these plans for him and I. I end up ruining it by asking him "what ifs" in the negative way. In my past experiences I have tried to think positively but everything comes out negative and I worry too much about everything? How do I stop it?
    Brittany8193 Brittany8193 18-21 Jun 18

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    My parents actually gave two rats ***** about

    me. What if I didn't dream about slitting my own throat or how my body would waste away if I starved myself. Or how it would be to be raped and beaten and left for dead. Cuz that obviously what I deserve
    Pinkyschwear23 Pinkyschwear23 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I often wonder what if.

    .. That never happened or what if I never met you, what if I had a different family, what if I lived somewhere else, what if you weren't my friend, what if my life was better, what if I was happy, what if you hated me, and what if everything changed...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F Jun 11

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    vijay14 vijay14 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 26

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    I always wonder if I were killed

    and I was on the news would my old friends call my house to find out what happened? or would it still be like now since no one cares I exist.
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Eric Clapton really thought she looked

    Wonderful 'tonight', or was it just the 20th outfit she'd tried on & he just wanted to get to the party..........
    LoneRider72 LoneRider72 36-40, M 3 Responses Jun 25

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    We've all had the what

    if suspicions, we've all had the feelings that were not good enough, we've all had the scare that no one wants us, we all just want to be loved :'( < 3
    sch4denfr3ude sch4denfr3ude 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1

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    I Sometimes Wonder "What If"....

    My mind tends to wonder quite a bit....especially on high stress days at work, like today. Usually I can just send myself to a 'happy place' and make my mind settle down a bit...but not today. Today was a 'what if' day...a day my mind thinks about how things could have been...
    amodelcitizen amodelcitizen 36-40, M 5 Responses May 1, 2013

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    what if i had done something differently.

    ..my life would not be so dull. I wouldn't have lost my love. My tears would not be my friends. What if..
    jayatri17 jayatri17 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    I often wonder what if.

    .....and i think later why not? You must think before action not always,you must act before you think not always. Many times i want leave my mind behind and fuction intuitively not always right,but in the end action must take place,this is important.
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Less cruelty came. Debates are common.

    Many say why spoil or shelter kids. Some love spartan training. Who. The animals. Who rules. The animals. But what if science did. Or the caring. Or trekkies. Could caring people war. Would aliens conquer a caring world. They could conquer...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Jul 1

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    What if there were no labels?

    No straight? No gay? No lesbian? No transgender? Etc. What if we were all just people. What if we were all just bodies, built differently. Like cars, so many makes and models. But we still accept the variety don't we? I really do often wonder, what if?
    TommieLee TommieLee 22-25 6 days ago

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    You Can't Spend Your Life Not Knowing.

    What if, is always a hard thing for me to wonder. What if. When the past is already done, you still think; what if? But for some you just cant spend your life not knowing right? But how can know if its the past? But what if is also a beautiful thing, because it gives us hope...
    Artemis17 Artemis17 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 10, 2010

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    I often wonder what if my mom didn't pas away.

    Where would I be, what would I be doing.
    Brittany8193 Brittany8193 18-21 1 Response Aug 7

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    I Hadn't Gone Back Home That Day

    I walked back in the house that morning, it must only have been 20 minutes after I had left first time, I had to go back and get some papers I had forgotten. My wife was naked and a man was standing behind her, fondling her breasts and pounding her so hard and making her scream...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    If we were always ruled wrong.

    If preservatives caused more than illness. If bashing wasnt really in us. If we were told we were animals so jerks could wreck us legally. If we were kept from space so that jerks could rule easier. If we were kept poor so that powers could make a lame gratitude...
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Jun 4

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    Wonder

    I sometimes wonder if I will get a job one day. I wonder if I will live a long life or a short one. I wonder if people my age consider me their friends. I wonder if I will get married and settle in. I wonder what lies ahead of me. I wonder if there is a god or not. I wonder what...
    EduardoMontes EduardoMontes 13-15, M Jul 27, 2013

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    The memories of missed opportunities

    and what ifs can conjure up powerful emotions of regret. Look, I have regretted a lot of things in my life, but this was the big one. It was not stepping up and being the man I needed to be. Not asking that woman of beauty and intelligence to go out on a date for fear of...
    jonbz17 jonbz17 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    A Pebble

    I hear her measured steps moving further away in front of me. "Mama, I want to walk with you!" "Then try to keep up dear. Walk a little faster and look where you are going." I look up. I try to take faster steps. I see Mama’s dress, so faded and patched at the hem, swinging in...
    DinahMoeHumm DinahMoeHumm 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    Yeah...what If...

    ...what if I had made a different choice..gone in a different direction..if that one time I had said ..yes..how different would my life have been..would I have become famous?..Would I have been happy?..Would I have made a career out of it like a friend did?... I wonder what...
    txwoman2 txwoman2 36-40, F 21 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Oh, Oh, Oh, It’s Magic

    Is magic in our heart and soul? We climb mountains to find it. Is magic the way we think and feel? Emotions go this way and that. We seek it, this thing called magic. Is magic found only in another? Is it you that I have searched for? Can the magic be shared? We seek it, this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    What If

    ... I would have had the courage to talk to the guy that I had a huge crush on when he came to sit next me in the movie theater although there was plenty of free seats... ... I would dare to contact the person I lost contact some years ago... ... I would have told him...
    Fennella Fennella 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    I play this "game" with myself daily.

    How radically different would my life be had I made one or two different choices? It's a cruel game.
    perpetuallyfifteen perpetuallyfifteen 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    Sci Fi

    There's a genre of science fiction that deals with alternate realities - what would the world be like if.....it's fascinating to think what might be and would we be better off or worse.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    I wonder if you miss me.

    I wonder if you ever think of me. I wonder if I will ever hear from you again. I wonder if I am right. I wonder if I am wrong. I wonder if you are happy. I wonder if you feel alone. I wonder how your kids are doing. I wonder if I helped you, or made you better in anyway. I...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 20

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    What if everyone in the world switched places

    with the people they look down upon and got treated the same way they had treated those people
    Nightfang109 Nightfang109 13-15, M Jul 2

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    countrygirlISTaylor countrygirlISTaylor 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    Imagine For A Moment

    What if you forgave yourself?What if you gave yourself the grace you afford others?What if you looked in the mirror and saw what the person who loves you most sees?What if?
    jenvice jenvice 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I often wonder if I'll be successful in the

    future...get my own place...finish college...start my fit club...become a fitness model... Become a better fitness coach...how will I change in the future....will I live alone... Will I stay single forever...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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    stuckinlife247 stuckinlife247 26-30, F Aug 1

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    Unplanned, Unlikely, Unforgettable

    She lifted the pillow from her eyes, and the morning light found her calculating the time from the brightness in the room.  As her mind cleared and her eyes adjusted, yes, probably about 7:30, she found him next to her and watching her with his eyes wide open and a smile on his...
    WildeOscar WildeOscar 51-55, M 12 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    I am not a suicidal person,

    but sometimes I can't help but wonder how everything would be without me around. Sometimes when I am sitting the car, I stare out the window and just think about it. What if I got in a car crash right now and died? What would happen? Would the people who bullied me feel bad...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 16-17, F 1 Response May 28

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    I wonder if anyone has a major crush on me?

    Like I do on some people ... But probably not but that would kinda cool to know I'm loved
    Imfearlessbae Imfearlessbae 16-17, F Jan 27

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    I often wonder what if.

    .. What if a man that would truly complete me is out there What if I did not have 4 young children would I set out to find him. What if I'm too caught up in love/romantic books or movies What if life can't be like fary tales What if I stop believing that someday I will truly be...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    what if we dont all come from rich

    or upper class backgrounds with a family name that everyone recognizes but instead we come from a family that has great value and has struggled to make it in this society and their children did not grow up with a silver spoon in thier mouth but was willing to work just as hard...
    mzzdede123 mzzdede123 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If a soccer player falls in the woods

    and there is no-one there to see it.....does he still wither around in pain like he just passed a kidney stone while giving birth to a bowling ball after being shot three times with in the leg with a handgun????.........
    LoneRider72 LoneRider72 36-40, M Jun 30

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    What If It Happened To You?

    This story was inspired by an article I read a while ago. It was about a 17 year old girl being beaten within an inch of her life by someone from school. When her boyfriend found out about this the next day, he then tracked him down and killed the one who assaulted her. He was...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 9, 2012

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    Until November

    Posted in this same experience group are two other stories, the events that immediately preceded this part of the story. A reading of them is not essential to an understanding of how we find ourselves this afternoon, but I offer those links here anyway. The way we came together...
    WildeOscar WildeOscar 51-55, M 7 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    Is He Worth It?

    He lives in ohio, I live in texas. He has a little girl, I have no kids. He drinks like crazy does drugs and doesn't care about his future, I don't drink dont do drugs and want to open up my own bakery. He wants to be with my body, I want to be with his heart. Will he ever change...
    Christianruby Christianruby 22-25, F 9 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    What if I had a rich dad?

    What would my life be like? Would I be the same or heartless and spoiled?
    ADRASTEIA ADRASTEIA 26-30, F Jul 2

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    I am looking up into the night sky

    and see thousands of points of light. I don't question if we are the only inhabited globe circling a sun I know we are not alone on this universe How do I know? I look around our puny little planet and see the mess humans have made which we call progress. I consider humans...
    nomorei nomorei 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    One Of Us ...

    I live in a city by the sea where a huge variety of people live side by side in a state of relative tolerance and understanding. I describe it this way because, although I'm sure it's not perfect, it does seem to be accepting of people of all kinds and I've heard it said that...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 28 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    What if I don't make it

    and become the person I've always wanted to be. What if I'm not enough? I just feel hugely inadequate lately.
    Kayli90 Kayli90 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    Only If ...

    Hmmm. There was no Hatred around. Ice creams would grow on the mount. Any one could easily run and pick one. Enjoying varied flavours. All chosen fun. We would be able to walk so easily on the road. Ahhh! Vehicles would forget to shed their load. Fruits, veggies were of...
    mejj mejj 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 7, 2013

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    I wonder if there's famous people on here.

    ... But you don't know they're famous
    KylieLaine KylieLaine 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    xmarziax xmarziax 13-15, F 5 Responses Jun 11

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    I often wonder if rap will still be this

    horrible if Pac and BIG were still alive? Those two set the bar high when they were alive.
    djag2007 djag2007 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 15

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