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I Often Wonder What If

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    I'm actually meant to be this way.

    I wonder if this is who I am. I wonder if I made a mistake in becoming like this, or if I was supposed to become as bitter as I am. I wonder if something has a plan for me, or if it's all been a mistake....
    TheHalfMadWriter TheHalfMadWriter 18-21, F Jan 4

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    there really was a "World War Z " moment.

    What would I do? What would I REALLY do?
    favestril favestril 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 23

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    I wonder what if I gotten in the big awesome

    resource rich school With good looking people with better attitudes A school where I can't really be known by almost all grade level student A school that's bound with resources That makes their students competitive applicants for higher education I do wonder every time I...
    amongstleshadows amongstleshadows 16-17, M Feb 11

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    I often wonder what if.

    .. What if a man that would truly complete me is out there What if I did not have 4 young children would I set out to find him. What if I'm too caught up in love/romantic books or movies What if life can't be like fary tales What if I stop believing that someday I will truly be...
    Blanche08 Blanche08 31-35, F Mar 10, 2014

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    I've Missed Much Without You

    I wonder nearly everyday how your passing altered my life. I wonder would the little boy in me be less broken. I wonder if Dad would have come home more at night. I wonder if Christmas would have been the happy Holiday others tell me it is. I wonder if it would have made a...
    hunnydipz hunnydipz 51-55, M 5 Responses Mar 24, 2012

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    Until November

    Posted in this same experience group are two other stories, the events that immediately preceded this part of the story. A reading of them is not essential to an understanding of how we find ourselves this afternoon, but I offer those links here anyway. The way we came together...
    WildeOscar WildeOscar 51-55, M 7 Responses Sep 3, 2012

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    I am the only person

    who isn't that close to their extended family -sister, mom, etc...
    cottonbreeze cottonbreeze 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    There are a crap ton of vehicles in the bottom

    of lakes, rivers, etc. I actually don't "often" wonder that...
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F Nov 13, 2014

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    Often I wonder how many couples I ruined out of

    pure mean spiteful and jealousy. In the end they are at each other's throat, while I sit here and laugh. I know, I'm mean.
    DeeplyLoves DeeplyLoves 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    What If It Happened To You?

    This story was inspired by an article I read a while ago. It was about a 17 year old girl being beaten within an inch of her life by someone from school. When her boyfriend found out about this the next day, he then tracked him down and killed the one who assaulted her. He was...
    JesusKravitz JesusKravitz 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 9, 2012

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    Sometimes the big "what if"s in life put me on

    the border of anxiety and over-thinking. It can pick at my brain, and to try to pull the dangerous curiosity out is like pulling a cat off the sofa, with it's nails snagged onto the fabric. Every time I pull, it clenches deeper into my brain and causes me to have a headache.
    Rilman77 Rilman77 18-21, F Dec 8, 2014

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    what if we dont all come from rich

    or upper class backgrounds with a family name that everyone recognizes but instead we come from a family that has great value and has struggled to make it in this society and their children did not grow up with a silver spoon in thier mouth but was willing to work just as hard...
    mzzdede123 mzzdede123 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 18, 2014

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    I wonder a lot of things.

    Like if I was born into a different family would I be the same person i now? If I had chosen a different road where would I be? I think to much :p But either way I am happy with my choices in life and who I have become :)
    Runenox Runenox 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 23

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    I wonder if anyone has a major crush on me?

    Like I do on some people ... But probably not but that would kinda cool to know I'm loved
    Imfearlessbae Imfearlessbae 18-21, F Jan 27, 2014

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    Unplanned, Unlikely, Unforgettable

    She lifted the pillow from her eyes, and the morning light found her calculating the time from the brightness in the room.  As her mind cleared and her eyes adjusted, yes, probably about 7:30, she found him next to her and watching her with his eyes wide open and a smile on his...
    WildeOscar WildeOscar 51-55, M 11 Responses Apr 25, 2012

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    WhereIsTheLogic WhereIsTheLogic 31-35, F Nov 5, 2014

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    We've all had the what

    if suspicions, we've all had the feelings that were not good enough, we've all had the scare that no one wants us, we all just want to be loved :'( < 3
    sch4denfr3ude sch4denfr3ude 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 1, 2014

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    I often wonder what if I never existed?

    Whose life would I have changed for the better? Whose life did I save? Whose life did I condemn? If I had never existed would anything be different? I doubt it, I honestly doubt it.
    thehonestgentleman thehonestgentleman 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 15, 2014

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    Imagine For A Moment

    What if you forgave yourself?What if you gave yourself the grace you afford others?What if you looked in the mirror and saw what the person who loves you most sees?What if?
    jenvice jenvice 46-50, F 6 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    people didn't have hidden agendas

    and ulterior motives. what if people can be nice to someone without wanting something in return. what if I wasn't damaged beyond repair and I could fathom someone loving me. what if I could love myself enough I didn't need anyone else.
    EgyptianMermaid EgyptianMermaid 22-25, F 9 Responses Mar 10

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    xxtina15 xxtina15 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I wonder if the process to get married was

    as lengthy and tedious as the one to divorce, would anyone really bother? Today I took one more step in this long drawn out divorce process, and I don't know, I just can't help feeling like this all could have been avoided. I mean what if he wasn't so selfish? What if we could...
    MelMel68 MelMel68 31-35, F Feb 24

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    I am not a suicidal person,

    but sometimes I can't help but wonder how everything would be without me around. Sometimes when I am sitting the car, I stare out the window and just think about it. What if I got in a car crash right now and died? What would happen? Would the people who bullied me feel bad...
    PrincessKayleigh PrincessKayleigh 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2014

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    I play this "game" with myself daily.

    How radically different would my life be had I made one or two different choices? It's a cruel game.
    perpetuallyfifteen perpetuallyfifteen 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I always wonder that

    if my friends knew half of what I've gone through and still go through and knew what went on in my mind, if they would still be there and help me get through it.
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    Togepi07 Togepi07 18-21, F Jan 4

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    I sometimes wonder what

    if I had done something different so that my life would have turned out the way I wanted it to be..!? Is there really a point to everything??? I feel happy but yet something is missing...
    jayatri17 jayatri17 22-25, F Dec 25, 2014

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    If he hadn't chose to listen to his stupid

    sisters lies. . . would we still be friends? If I hadn't cared what others thought would we still be as close as we were before? If I hadn't been so angry at him would we have continued speaking? If that had happened would he have had the courage to tell me how he truly felt in...
    TokioDoll TokioDoll 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sci Fi

    There's a genre of science fiction that deals with alternate realities - what would the world be like if.....it's fascinating to think what might be and would we be better off or worse.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 22, 2013

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    Putin decided to become the new czar of Russia

    and rule over the country for the rest of his life (he's quite old right now so he might stay in power till the day he dies)...TЯOLLOLL
    modd096 modd096 18-21, F Oct 13, 2014

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    A Pebble

    I hear her measured steps moving further away in front of me. "Mama, I want to walk with you!" "Then try to keep up dear. Walk a little faster and look where you are going." I look up. I try to take faster steps. I see Mama’s dress, so faded and patched at the hem, swinging in...
    DinahMoeHumm DinahMoeHumm 41-45, F 3 Responses Oct 18, 2012

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    What if I put a prank on my friends,

    me and my friends will go to the mall and I'll tell them i'll treat them and they just sit in the table and i'll order the food, and while they're waiting i'll just leave them there haha
    shrid shrid 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    xmarziax xmarziax 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 11, 2014

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    what if i had done something differently.

    ..my life would not be so dull. I wouldn't have lost my love. My tears would not be my friends. What if..
    jayatri17 jayatri17 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2014

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    So what if I meet a man?

    So what if I fall in love? So what if you love me too? So what if we get married? So what if we buy a cottage? So what if you are my world? So what if we have a baby? So what if we have three more? So what if we love them completely? So what if they grow up? So what if...
    amaryllisflowers amaryllisflowers 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 10

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    I Hadn't Gone Back Home That Day

    I walked back in the house that morning, it must only have been 20 minutes after I had left first time, I had to go back and get some papers I had forgotten. My wife was naked and a man was standing behind her, fondling her breasts and pounding her so hard and making her scream...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 7, 2012

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    What if you did that thing

    that you're afraid of and you did it full out with intent? How do you imagine that it would turn out? Can you even stand the thought of pushing through it? Can you stand imagining the scene in your mind?
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 10

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    I am looking up into the night sky

    and see thousands of points of light. I don't question if we are the only inhabited globe circling a sun I know we are not alone on this universe How do I know? I look around our puny little planet and see the mess humans have made which we call progress. I consider humans...
    nomorei nomorei 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2014

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    what if a time traveler killed his mother

    so he did not exist but if he does not exist he never killed his mom? wait what the what!
    xlderp xlderp 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 22

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    Oh, Oh, Oh, It’s Magic

    Is magic in our heart and soul? We climb mountains to find it. Is magic the way we think and feel? Emotions go this way and that. We seek it, this thing called magic. Is magic found only in another? Is it you that I have searched for? Can the magic be shared? We seek it, this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    What if I was happy? What

    if he hadn't died? What if I still lived there??? What if she hadn't met HIM? WHAT if she loved me? What if she was there for me like a mother should be? What if she cared??? How would I be now if only she cared???What if I didn't hurt mentally???? What if I wasn't bullied...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Oct 31, 2014

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    Wonder

    I sometimes wonder if I will get a job one day. I wonder if I will live a long life or a short one. I wonder if people my age consider me their friends. I wonder if I will get married and settle in. I wonder what lies ahead of me. I wonder if there is a god or not. I wonder what...
    EduardoMontes EduardoMontes 13-15, M Jul 27, 2013

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    If a soccer player falls in the woods

    and there is no-one there to see it.....does he still wither around in pain like he just passed a kidney stone while giving birth to a bowling ball after being shot three times with in the leg with a handgun????.........
    LoneRider72 LoneRider72 41-45, M Jun 30, 2014

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    I just disappeared from this site never to

    speak to anyone. I mean anyone again. What would happen? Would anyone wonder where i had gone? Would they try to see if they could get a hold of me? Even if to leave me a message or two on here. hmmmmm...........
    SadisticPsychoBitch SadisticPsychoBitch 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    I was a different person.

    ....no matter what I do in life I never seem to make much of a mark. I guess I always had this idea that I'd become the person I'm supposed to be and I would stand for something...my parents raised me always to be a leader...but I don't even seem able to make a mark as a writer...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F Apr 23

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    One Of Us ...

    I live in a city by the sea where a huge variety of people live side by side in a state of relative tolerance and understanding. I describe it this way because, although I'm sure it's not perfect, it does seem to be accepting of people of all kinds and I've heard it said that...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss 51-55, F 25 Responses