I seen myself belonging to the black swamp after years of abuse with joyce poorter and my sister hurting me...
I seen myself as so low and worthless - I put myself down so much cuz they put me down...
I cried in silence and heart broken as a 28 year old virgin when they were...
i cant think of one good thing about me. Only the wrong things. Like my apreance which is all messed up nothing good. My personatly is ****** up. no good qualites. when people tell me i think there crazy.
who I am
because everyday I can hear the ones I love telling me what's wrong with me
telling me how wrong I am
from my parents to friends to lovers
all I see is what's wrong
all I think is what's wrong
for me...happiness is just an illusion
it lasts so short...
I know it's a problem that some people have tried to get me to address, but I can't help it. If I had some exceptional quality about me that really REALLY stood out, maybe, just maybe, I could see it enough to feel like there was some hope in seeing other things. But right now...
Here are all the things that are wrong with me and which I can prove:
1. I am flat chested with no boobs
2. I have a big, pointy nose
3. I have bad teeth for my age (5 fillings and 2 root canals)
4. I am the eternal singleton
5. I have no friends
6. I still live at home
7. I am...
- I'm fat
- I'm ugly
- I'm not feminine enough
- I am boring
- I am stupid
- I can be selfish
- I can be clingy
- I am horribly insecure
- I can be wishy-washy
I could go on but seriously, I'd be here all night.