I Pretend I'm Ok

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    I am afraid to ever travel again I am a

    caregiver and can't leave ever and I never want to fall in LOVR
    incorrect60 incorrect60
    51-55, F
    Jun 4, 2014

    I'm so tired of this crap.

    .. I'm done doing everything to make him happy. I'm done hiding my feelings so he can be happy. I'm glad he's so content with how I can hide my emotions when he tells me to, so the day will go how he wants, and yet he doesn't even notice that my smile never even reaches my eyes...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks
    22-25, F
    May 12, 2014

    When People Ask If Your Ok, They Really Dont Want To Hear It

    I dont know what else to do except pretend to be ok. When people ask if your ok, they dont really mean it. They just ask because they feel like they have to. Once you start telling them the truth they wished they never asked to begin with. So for me, I pretened to be ok so people...
    magpie1809 magpie1809
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 11, 2012

    I almost told you how pretty you looked today,

    ..but.. Then I remembered that you stopped being my friend quite awhile ago 😔😒💔
    BeautyAndBeast BeautyAndBeast
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 21, 2014

    I haven't spoken to my x gf in over a year now.

    I dont know if i still love her because i dont know her anymore, but i still miss her and she is on my mind more than often. I know time to be the only medium which heals all wounds, but i thought that after over a year i'd move on by now, and that by now she still wouldn't be...
    oxzymoron oxzymoron
    18-21, M
    May 1, 2014

    Im actually really sad

    but i just act fine
    brittlynne brittlynne
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 16, 2014

    Yup, No One Wants To Hear You Moan And Groan

    fake it till you make it...but man, when will i make it?
    bandogracing bandogracing
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Nov 19, 2010

    Sometimes....I wonder what it would be like to

    put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Mostly, I fantasize about how it would physically feel. I don't think it would be painful. I think it would feel like the immense relief you get when you have a huge pimple and squeeze it as hard as you can until it explodes.....That's...
    blisster blisster
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2014
    Melodyk3 Melodyk3
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2014

    I'm not okay my life has never been okay in my

    eyes I wish people especially my mom would see that and actually listen to me not say your typical "it will be alright" or "stop being so over dramatic" it just makes me feel worse
    Kblue99 Kblue99
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 17, 2014

    I have depression and I don't tell anyone.

    I was just told I was big and fat. I just want to be done with everything right now
    anonymousgirl74 anonymousgirl74
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jun 2, 2014

    Can't always be the one

    that has it together.. 😒
    BeautifulChaosxo BeautifulChaosxo
    16-17, F
    May 16, 2014

    Another night headed to the hospital.

    **** this. 😒 being force fed and watched over sucks but I guess that's me
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 19, 2014

    There's something I need to let go of,

    but it's so hard. When I was younger, I was having sex with my (now ex) boyfriend, and I asked him to stop, because he was hurting me, and he said, "but it feels nice" and he just kept going. So that's effectively rape. It's really hard for me to let go of, how am I meant to...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 31, 2014

    I have anxiety mainly social

    and my husband doesn't understand it. He is involved with a couple groups and volunteers which I think is fantastic and in one of the groups he is in charge of quite a bit. Well in one of the groups they have a big event and he wants me to help like I have the last 2 years I...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2014

    I don't like expressing my feelings

    so I pretend I'm fine.
    KIDFYNES KIDFYNES
    18-21, M
    3 Responses May 9, 2014

    When giving up is not an option.

    I just want to give up with so many things but I can't i have too many people relying on me and it's hard to keep being that strong person when really I feel incredibly weak inside!
    janeyyy987 janeyyy987
    22-25, F
    May 8, 2014

    I guess it was my destine to mess up my life,

    and everyone else's since the day I was born. I just feel so empty, you know? Like I want to cry, but I'm unable to. It's like all my privacy, my private thoughts and feelings, they've been ripped apart. I guess when I told my counsellor I was feeling suicidal, (though I wouldn...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 1, 2014

    When inside I'm screaming.

    Doesn't help having to put on a brave face all the time when you suffer from severe depression and anxiety issues.
    Terdolan Terdolan
    36-40, M
    May 1, 2014

    So I haven't been feeling like my self lately.

    I haven't been able to do many things. I just feel alone sad and miserable!! I really just don't want to do anything but my parents don't understand this, and they force me to do things. For example, i rather stay home and do nothing, while my mom forces me to go to the store...
    ErikaXoXo ErikaXoXo
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 23, 2014

    I feel like no one understands me,

    or even cares to anymore. I always try to paste a fake smile on my face, but I feel as though I can't do that anymore. I just need one person, anyone to care about me. I feel so broken... It gets so bad that I think of ways to end it all. I'm so scared it's going to get to the...
    skinnylittlebitch2 skinnylittlebitch2
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014
    Melodyk3 Melodyk3
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 4, 2014

    I always pretend Iam ok.

    I never let anyone know how depressed I always am. I want to be ok and happy but I know I need a big change in my life. A fresh new start.
    ninimarie ninimarie
    36-40, F
    5 Responses May 17, 2014

    I look through a conversation I had with this

    guy and all of a sudden I feel sick, and sometimes my hands shake. I don't know if I should stop talking to him. I want to do the right thing.
    HollywoodKitty23 HollywoodKitty23
    16-17, F
    Oct 29, 2015

    Read.

    You know the old saying, a grown man never cries.. Screw that. That's a myth. Guys should cry. It really shows that they have a heart and they have feelings. Everytime something happens thats sad, or frustrating, or agitating, I hold on to myself and act like I'm ok. Sometimes I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 25, 2012
    incorrect60 incorrect60
    51-55, F
    Jun 4, 2014

    So my boyfriend has just recently started

    talking to his ex girlfriend from a little while ago and it seems fishy to me because she just started talking to him after breaking up with her boyfriend so now im a bit worried and i tell him that but he just says "oh shes my friend its fine" but he hasnt talk to her for...
    brittlynne brittlynne
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 25, 2014

    I'm 6 months pregnant with my third child

    and my husband of four and a half years, together for eight years, just told me he wants a divorce and says he doesn't love me and has never truly been happy with me. After eight years and about to have three kids... I don't know what to do, I struggle to make it through...
    Tiller5706 Tiller5706
    22-25, F
    May 11, 2014

    At School

    I ALWAYS say I'm okay even when I'm hurting
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    15 Responses Nov 30, 2010

    I fake a smile. I fake a laugh.

    I fake the brightness in my eyes. I fake the walk with my back up straight. I fake the happiness in my attitude. I fake everything.
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2014

    I feel alone right now

    and my bf keeps getting high and im scared
    brittlynne brittlynne
    18-21, F
    May 17, 2014

    I always pretend I am okay in front of my step

    sister but am not my step dad really ****** me of an always takes the **** out of me when she is there because he knows I won't say anything In front of her cause my step sister is really intimidating and it ****** me of I hate them both my life would be better if they were not...
    aliciaxx1407 aliciaxx1407
    18-21, F
    May 1, 2014

    I'm In My Fourth Year Of Acting Theatre.

    I can hide it exceptionally well.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 20, 2010

    My boyfriend wont stop doing weed

    or getting drunk and i love him but idk what to do
    brittlynne brittlynne
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 25, 2014

    Nothing ever works out

    for me, Im just done with life. ✌️
    imbeingmexxx imbeingmexxx
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Jun 23, 2014

    I'm not a babe magnet

    and the only girl I've ever loved is going on holiday with her new "bf" :(
    ncfctom ncfctom
    18-21, M
    3 Responses May 14, 2014

    All Work And No Play

    I guess my focus has shifted, I am just trying to work as much as I can, not easy, last week was horrible, my POTS has kicked off big time again and I spent much of last week falling down.... I think I am building a plan in my head that If I can keep working on my business then I...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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