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    You know the old saying, a grown man never cries.. Screw that. That's a myth. Guys should cry. It really shows that they have a heart and they have feelings. Everytime something happens thats sad, or frustrating, or agitating, I hold on to myself and act like I'm ok. Sometimes I...
    Shark411 Shark411 18-21, M Jun 25, 2012

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    I feel like no one understands me,

    or even cares to anymore. I always try to paste a fake smile on my face, but I feel as though I can't do that anymore. I just need one person, anyone to care about me. I feel so broken... It gets so bad that I think of ways to end it all. I'm so scared it's going to get to the...
    skinnylittlebitch2 skinnylittlebitch2 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 4

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    Of Course I Do.

    I even tell myself that I'm ok-especially at times when I should be engaged and concentrating on stuff. When I should be using the frustration and the dire nature of everything to drive myself and to prepare and repair and build higher, deeper and wider-not the wall of isolation...
    Bfinally Bfinally 46-50, M Nov 5, 2012

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    I'm not okay my life has never been okay in my

    eyes I wish people especially my mom would see that and actually listen to me not say your typical "it will be alright" or "stop being so over dramatic" it just makes me feel worse
    Kblue99 Kblue99 13-15, F 1 Response May 17

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    Im actually really sad

    but i just act fine
    brittlynne brittlynne 16-17, F 4 Responses May 16

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    incorrect60 incorrect60 51-55, F Jun 4

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    My boyfriend wont stop doing weed

    or getting drunk and i love him but idk what to do
    brittlynne brittlynne 16-17, F 1 Response May 25

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    When inside I'm screaming.

    Doesn't help having to put on a brave face all the time when you suffer from severe depression and anxiety issues.
    Terdolan Terdolan 36-40, M 1 Response May 1

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    I always pretend Iam ok.

    I never let anyone know how depressed I always am. I want to be ok and happy but I know I need a big change in my life. A fresh new start.
    ninimarie ninimarie 31-35, F 6 Responses May 17

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    I'm 6 months pregnant with my third child

    and my husband of four and a half years, together for eight years, just told me he wants a divorce and says he doesn't love me and has never truly been happy with me. After eight years and about to have three kids... I don't know what to do, I struggle to make it through...
    Tiller5706 Tiller5706 22-25, F May 11

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    I'm not a babe magnet

    and the only girl I've ever loved is going on holiday with her new "bf" :(
    ncfctom ncfctom 18-21, M 3 Responses May 14

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    Melodyk3 Melodyk3 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3

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    There's something I need to let go of,

    but it's so hard. When I was younger, I was having sex with my (now ex) boyfriend, and I asked him to stop, because he was hurting me, and he said, "but it feels nice" and he just kept going. So that's effectively rape. It's really hard for me to let go of, how am I meant to...
    Ambernonymous Ambernonymous 18-21, F 2 Responses May 31

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    I guess it was my destine to mess up my life,

    and everyone else's since the day I was born. I just feel so empty, you know? Like I want to cry, but I'm unable to. It's like all my privacy, my private thoughts and feelings, they've been ripped apart. I guess when I told my counsellor I was feeling suicidal, (though I wouldn...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses May 1

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    At School

    I ALWAYS say I'm okay even when I'm hurting
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 15 Responses Nov 30, 2010

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    Melodyk3 Melodyk3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 4

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    I'm In My Fourth Year Of Acting Theatre.

    I can hide it exceptionally well.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 20, 2010

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    I fake a smile. I fake a laugh.

    I fake the brightness in my eyes. I fake the walk with my back up straight. I fake the happiness in my attitude. I fake everything.
    lovelygirll2323 lovelygirll2323 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 5

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    So my boyfriend has just recently started

    talking to his ex girlfriend from a little while ago and it seems fishy to me because she just started talking to him after breaking up with her boyfriend so now im a bit worried and i tell him that but he just says "oh shes my friend its fine" but he hasnt talk to her for...
    brittlynne brittlynne 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 25

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    Another night headed to the hospital.

    **** this. ๐Ÿ˜’ being force fed and watched over sucks but I guess that's me
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX 13-15, F 2 Responses May 19

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    Can't always be the one

    that has it together.. ๐Ÿ˜’
    BeautifulChaosxo BeautifulChaosxo 13-15, F May 16

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    I almost told you how pretty you looked today,

    ..but.. Then I remembered that you stopped being my friend quite awhile ago ๐Ÿ˜”๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ’”
    BeautyAndBeast BeautyAndBeast 13-15, F 1 Response May 21

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    I haven't spoken to my x gf in over a year now.

    I dont know if i still love her because i dont know her anymore, but i still miss her and she is on my mind more than often. I know time to be the only medium which heals all wounds, but i thought that after over a year i'd move on by now, and that by now she still wouldn't be...
    oxzymoron oxzymoron 18-21, M May 1

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    I feel alone right now

    and my bf keeps getting high and im scared
    brittlynne brittlynne 16-17, F May 17

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    I always pretend I am okay in front of my step

    sister but am not my step dad really ****** me of an always takes the **** out of me when she is there because he knows I won't say anything In front of her cause my step sister is really intimidating and it ****** me of I hate them both my life would be better if they were not...
    aliciaxx1407 aliciaxx1407 16-17, F May 1

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    Laugh But Still Sad

    Sometimes, you just pretend you are strong. You are happy and you do not need sympathy from anyone.ย Of course,ย itย is your business,ย ย but do you fell lonely? I really do not like to think about it at all. I want to forget my birthday when no one seems to remember it. I still...
    nangthuytinh8671 nangthuytinh8671 22-25 Jun 6, 2012

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    Sometimes....I wonder what it would be like to

    put a gun to my head and pull the trigger. Mostly, I fantasize about how it would physically feel. I don't think it would be painful. I think it would feel like the immense relief you get when you have a huge pimple and squeeze it as hard as you can until it explodes.....That's...
    blisster blisster 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    I have depression and I don't tell anyone.

    I was just told I was big and fat. I just want to be done with everything right now
    anonymousgirl74 anonymousgirl74 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 2

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    I have anxiety mainly social

    and my husband doesn't understand it. He is involved with a couple groups and volunteers which I think is fantastic and in one of the groups he is in charge of quite a bit. Well in one of the groups they have a big event and he wants me to help like I have the last 2 years I...
    Slackergirl Slackergirl 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    When giving up is not an option.

    I just want to give up with so many things but I can't i have too many people relying on me and it's hard to keep being that strong person when really I feel incredibly weak inside!
    janeyyy987 janeyyy987 18-21, F May 8

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    I am afraid to ever travel again I am a

    caregiver and can't leave ever and I never want to fall in LOVR
    incorrect60 incorrect60 51-55, F Jun 4

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    I'm so tired of this crap.

    .. I'm done doing everything to make him happy. I'm done hiding my feelings so he can be happy. I'm glad he's so content with how I can hide my emotions when he tells me to, so the day will go how he wants, and yet he doesn't even notice that my smile never even reaches my eyes...
    AmberFranks AmberFranks 18-21, F May 12

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    All Work And No Play

    I guess my focus has shifted, I am just trying to work as much as I can, not easy, last week was horrible, my POTS has kicked off big time again and I spent much of last week falling down.... I think I am building a plan in my head that If I can keep working on my business then I...
    soulsearchingforever soulsearchingforever 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2013

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    So I haven't been feeling like my self lately.

    I haven't been able to do many things. I just feel alone sad and miserable!! I really just don't want to do anything but my parents don't understand this, and they force me to do things. For example, i rather stay home and do nothing, while my mom forces me to go to the store...
    ErikaXoXo ErikaXoXo 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Yup, No One Wants To Hear You Moan And Groan

    fake it till you make it...but man, when will i make it?
    bandogracing bandogracing 51-55, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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    I don't like expressing my feelings

    so I pretend I'm fine.
    KIDFYNES KIDFYNES 18-21, M 3 Responses May 9

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    Nothing ever works out

    for me, Im just done with life. โœŒ๏ธ
    imbeingmexxx imbeingmexxx 16-17, M 4 Responses Jun 23

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    When People Ask If Your Ok, They Really Dont Want To Hear It

    I dont know what else to do except pretend to be ok. When people ask if your ok, they dont really mean it. They just ask because they feel like they have to. Once you start telling them the truth they wished they never asked to begin with. So for me, I pretened to be ok so people...
    magpie1809 magpie1809 22-25, F 3 Responses May 11, 2012

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