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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I go about smiling at every stranger

    that passes by and looking like I am happy; yet inside I am fighting my own war. Sometimes, more than often, I am my own enemy.
    crystalrosie crystalrosie 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2015

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    i'm always pretending

    that im okay in front of many people because it feels like nobody cares for me. it's like even if i told them that i have some problem they will just ignore me.
    jeonnade jeonnade 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 26

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    I have to pretend i'm okay.

    No one wants to listen to whats on my mind or how my day really was. No one wants the full story. I just have to keep pushing myself through these lonely days and hope everything will get better. I don't give up and I can keep fighting. But i'm weak all by myself. My thoughts...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 22-25, M May 1, 2015

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    It's easier for me to pretend to be okay.

    Then it is to find someone who will listen and understand why I'm not okay. Something's are just too hard to say out loud to people
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    Soooos Soooos 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2015

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    Please can anyone help me ok my boyfriend was

    with his ex for 4years he lived with her they was only young they was in the teens but when he was with her he was talking to his best mate sister and she sent him pictures of her in her underware I asked him why even though this was not When he was with me and he said she just...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    You only want to get rid of me.

    Congratulations. You win.
    Dummy911 Dummy911 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 7 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I always smile and say I'm great,

    but it's such a lie. I'm really wondering when I will finally finish myself off.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 17, 2015

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    is tired of seeing the world in positive way :/

    sorry, but I can't deny this anymore.
    Moondance77 Moondance77 26-30, F Nov 3, 2015

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    I wonder what you think

    when you see me on here and don't message me. I'm sure you have found someone younger, thinner, prettier. Just like my ex husband did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    All I can really do is smile.

    Even when I'm at my lowest point I smile. Sometimes it hurts so much I just can't bare living. It hurts knowing I put my all into someone and gave them my heart and all they did was break it. So yeah I do pretend I'm ok, but now its getting harder and harder to do so everyday.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 Dec 21, 2015

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    I remembered it's my exs birthday today.

    I was doing good until I remembered. Last year I surprised him with supper and a cake, this year I'm alone with our daughter wondering if he's thinking of me... I know I shouldn't miss him but I still do... Happy birthday where ever you are! xo
    KatxxSilverDagger KatxxSilverDagger 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2015

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    Can anyone help me last night me

    and my boyfriend was having sex and he went do u want to watch **** or make one and I said u want to watch **** and he went no am asking u what one u want and he keep saying u want to make one and j said no watch one but I don't no why I said it coz I hate **** so he got one and...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    Can anyone help me when I first got with my

    boyfriend I asked him how many girl he sleep with he said 4 me is ex and 2 girls he sleep with when he was single .... K said who the to girl were he told me one then the other was a one night stand I keep going on n on about it and he broke to me and told me who she was he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 25, 2015

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    Can anyone help me when I first got with my

    boyfriend I asked him how many girl he sleep with he said 4 me is ex and 2 girls he sleep with when he was single .... K said who the to girl were he told me one then the other was a one night stand I keep going on n on about it and he broke to me and told me who she was he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    I'm never really ok. I have days

    where I cover it up better and seem more "functional" and "pleasant", but there is always that deep and swift moving current inside me. One of sadness and bitterness, petty jealousies and simmering anger. Even those closest to me barely see what is really simmering underneath my...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M Jun 3, 2015

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    I was never one to hide my feelings

    or pretend but I learned to set aside what I feel just so I won't make the matters worse but it's tearing me up inside. :'(
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F Nov 18, 2015

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    When I first got with my bf u said do u think

    other people are good looking and he said no then I keep going on n on n on and he went Ye he said he only said that coz I keep going on and he's head was messed from me going on because his first answer was no we been 2geva 2 and half years now and he always said when am in a...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Nov 29, 2015

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    It's only been 2 weeks at school

    and I started losing it today. Don't get me wrong I like school in fact.....I Love school always have and always will. Its just home,staying in the car with my mum for 5 minutes,talking to her at dinner,her saying she loves me.****. I hate it all.I can't stand being around her...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I really need some help ?

    ? Ok so a few years ago before me and my boyfriend got together we was seeing each other and I went on a girl Hoildays and he went on a boys Hoilday he told him I wanted to be single until we both come back he went away and I was scared he might go with someone he told me if he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Nov 18, 2015

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    I must be the ugliest person alive.

    I swear... I think that's why I can never get a friend. Because they're all so judgmental that friendship has to matter based on looks... Wow....
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 18-21, F 8 Responses May 18, 2015

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    It's Easy to say I'm okay

    when I'm not. Perhaps it's even easier to fake a smile, but at the end of the day the mask comes off. There is no point in pretending, when the only one there is me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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    I pretend that I'm ok

    when I'm in front of people but when I'm alone I break down
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I'm not ok. I'm depressed,

    I feel alone, I miss my gran and I'm very tired. Of course I say I'm ok because it's what I always do. I'm not the best at talking about how I feel, I never have been. I'm the guy that listens, that's what I'm best at. I smile and joke and try my best to help people and I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 22, 2015

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Can anyone help me ..

    . Me and my boyfriend have been togother for two and abit years so for the past 3days he been asking me do u want to suck my willy and I keep not doing nothing then yesterday he asked me again I said God and he said am I not allowed ask u or something and I Said Ye so I felt abit...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Dec 1, 2015

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    I pretend far too much,

    it has become a routine. Whenever I smile, it is genuine; I am far too tired to fake a smile. But I cannot express myself to the people around me without turning into an emotional wreck... Perhaps it is my shyness, or lonesomeness, but I cannot bare the thought of letting...
    tiffanyandasaltshaker tiffanyandasaltshaker 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2014

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