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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    The last couple days I've noticed something was

    wrong. I can't put my tongue on it. My boyfriend even noticed it today. I'm getting really pissy all the time and just not myself. I have to go throughout the day just so my friends and family don't think there is something wrong with me. Hopefully this passes. I don't know what...
    soon2016 soon2016 16-17, F 8 Responses Jan 21

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    But there's just some days

    where you have to keep it together. :)
    Dotcom2 Dotcom2 26-30, M Jan 4

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    I ask my boyfriend does he find ppl nice

    and he said I don't look at them coz am in love
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 2

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    Sometimes I tell to people .

    .........I'm fine everything's okay For the purpose of avoiding the question (why)
    gigus gigus 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the

    lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like this" My thoughts triggered. I thought about it as a metaphor. It's like the pens are people. When they are out, with others, in the open (pens...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    bad news first thing in the morning makes me

    feel horrible, but now I have to pretend everything is fine.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    I feel myself breaking

    and it kills me inside
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    I go snowboarding with friends When I'd

    rather be in bed Tonight I'm going to a Garth brooks concert I'd rather stay home and sleep away the hurt But i keep goin out with my friends so they don't see what's really goin on
    welchbw welchbw 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2, 2014

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    Its hard to be like this

    and even if you say you have to worries, i know everyone does. Dont lie to yourself and others saying you're happy there always something making you sad even if you don't show it. At my middle/high school my group of hang out buddies always have something wrong with them but...
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    Life is a very big deceiver!

    whenever i think that my life is getting better, it turns more worst! I don't know what should i do! & in my most difficult time i used to think of a guy who loved me once! even after knowing the issues of my home he loved me! but i rejected his proposal and now its been 3...
    nunu77777 nunu77777 18-21, F Dec 25, 2014

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    Never assume that past is same on the future

    cause there's a lot of changing in our life.
    bhing06 bhing06 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2014

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    I Like to Keep Things Pretty...

    It gets a little messy if I decide to say "I'm not okay, what do you think? I'm so ******* fed up with everything. I don't want to go home today. I feel invisible, but I didn't want to burst your bubble today, b/c you're so happy today." Can you imagine the awkward...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I'm the type of person

    who doesn't like when other people see my cry, or be sad, angry, etc. I always pretend I'm okay, so there is such a big deal about it. I mean, no one in my family really cares about me so...
    maddie91101 maddie91101 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1, 2014

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 2, 2013

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I overcompensate a lot

    when I'm sad or depressed, so people end up thinking I'm crazy and overly happy.
    WhereThereIsHope WhereThereIsHope 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    I'm so upset with the stupid medical field they

    don't seem to give a rats *** unless you have money I'm 21 have twin babies and need my energy back I've been suffering from hypothyroid and on 75 mcg of synthroid....but I think I need more ..and they don't.I swear I don't care to see another doctor in my life. The dumb thyroid...
    sparkle2015 sparkle2015 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I thought I was okay.

    But then a friend sincerely asked me "are you okay?". Then it hit me. I nodded and hold it in till I reach home. I locked myself in my room and just cried like nothing matters. She's probably the first to ask me that and she sounded like she really cared. She made me realize...
    nonymousee nonymousee 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    I didnt realized how ****** up I am

    until someone asked. I confuse dreams with reality; I constantly have to remind myself of consequences because I forget about rules and social norms in reality. I used to and sometimes still hear voices telling me unpleasant things. I used to have sleep paralysis attacks at...
    brownspots brownspots 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    That film crushed my heart.

    I felt like I could cry. It made little sense to my wife sitting next to me, but why would it. It made no sense at all toy daughter, but she's only 4. It was like a dream came true, but then I woke up, and it was, after all, just a dream.
    Heellover Heellover 36-40, M Jan 1

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    My bf ex gf had pic on her twitter of a ring my

    no brought her when he was with her and a pic of just her from a photo shoot she did why would she delte one of herself
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I always smile because I'm lonely.

    If someone asks me if I'm okay I always say yes and smile. Even to strangers I smile so that they can't see that I will break down and cry in front of them. In class I'm very quiet and talk only when I have to answer. That's also the reason I don't have friends. I'm scared to...
    Mahrhindha Mahrhindha 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    piercethevicx piercethevicx 16-17, F 20 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    I know things are not okay,

    i know my life is as messed up and as empty as it can be but i still put a smile in my face to not look weak around them. But i am weak:(
    Boraboo Boraboo 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    Sometimes I want people to attack me

    so I will have a reason to go insane , bat **** crazy and attack back with all I got
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I haven't felt the sting of being in love in

    such a long time i forgot what it feels like to torn down by love. Knowing you'll bend over backwards for just one more dose of the pained feeling of being in love. With something you can't have. Knowing that once you've had that moment it's all over.. Without air i can not...
    dropitnow52 dropitnow52 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    I have a history of depression

    and have only just been off antidepressants for about 2 months. I thought I was ok but I guess I'm not. I feel ok one minute and really sad the next. My bf hates it when I cry but sometimes I can't help it. For the past few days we've been fighting alot and he just broke his 6...
    pensivepaws pensivepaws 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2014

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    shethia shethia 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I walk around school,

    smiling and joking around, When all I want to do is be left alone and cry and vent. I get home tell my mum all of the 'great' things I did that day, then go to my room and just sit there trying not to think until mum makes me come out. At the moment I don't get the point of any...
    kaiana2000 kaiana2000 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I don't even really mind pretending.

    I don't have to explain myself to people. As long as I act like I'm okay, I have hope that u actually will be someday
    a7xwrecked a7xwrecked 16-17, F Jan 3

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    Yesterday was my mothers funeral,

    and not a single tear fell from my eyes. I smiled for most, and even laughed. I stood up and read a piece in the church. There was over 200 people. The vicar said "we normally only get this many people at Christmas." It's not that I'm happy she is dead, although it did put an...
    Heellover Heellover 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Life is a very big deceiver!

    whenever i think that my life is getting better, it turns more worst! I don't know what should i do! & in my most difficult time i used to think of a guy who loved me once! even after knowing the issues of my home he loved me! but i rejected his proposal and now its been 3 years...
    nunu77777 nunu77777 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Everyone has lies they say to others.

    My personal favorite is saying I'm okay. In all honesty I'm far from it. I've felt broken for a very long time now. Loneliness, depression, anxiety and no one to even talk to. All my friends are back home and I've never been close enough with my family to tell them how I truly...
    smokebombtom smokebombtom 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 4

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012