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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2, 2014

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Is anyone good with iPhones

    and the ICloud and website data
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Apr 3

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I've never been an open person,

    always being closed off. And I like it that way, having things for myself. I hate talking about myself in general. I think I've never really told anyone how I am and feel orally. Some people at school have started noticing I'm not fine, even though I try to act normally. The...
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F Mar 3

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Excuses. They consumed my life.

    Bruises on cheek? I was hit by a football. Cuts on my arm? The glass cracked and managed to slice a perfect line. A limp when I walked? Someone knocked me over. Sprained wrist? Injury from PE. Excuses. Excuses. Excuses. Excuses.
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 27

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 2, 2013

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1, 2014

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    piercethevicx piercethevicx 16-17, F 20 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    i hate pretending i give a **** about living

    each and everyday. I'm so heartbroken, stressed, confused, anxious about life that i feel myself falling apart. I know where i want to be in life, but my anxitey keeps me behind. I just want to wake up and feel happy again. I miss feeling really okay and this fake persona i pu...
    Tristechica22 Tristechica22 22-25, F Mar 29

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    I can't pretend any more.

    Today I will be checking in to a hospital. im afraid it will turn out to be more of the same medicate and forget philosophy.
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    Honestly? i felt so tired.

    Drained. Alone. Pained. Broken. I wanted to scream the pain inside me! i wanted to blame! and curse! those people who did this to me... but i just realized i have no more energy to do this....
    ElizabethSwanTurner ElizabethSwanTurner 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Quarter life crisis? I'm

    so depressed.. Drinking my 3rd can now.. I don't know why I'm crying.. I've been crying since this afternoon.. I feel like I'm nothing.. Nothing to be proud about.. I feel useless.. No achievement.. I don't know.. i'm over protected.. I feel maybe, insecure.. I don't know...
    margaux04 margaux04 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I'm so heartbroken. Ex of 3years dumped me

    cause I couldn't make him happy. I miss him so much and I'm trying to move on but I can't. I've never felt this way before about anyone. I have anxiety and depression ever since the breakup. Before the breakup he said he loves me and wants to marry me. I have to pretend like...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    All my life, I've always forced myself to put

    on a smile so that everyone knew I was this "sweet" person. No one (not even my parents) knew what I was dealing with inside. They still don't. Inside, I'm really confused to the point that I don't even know myself. I don't know what I like, what's my favorite color, or what I...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F Feb 10

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    some critical of me going crazy .

    ... I accepted it :)
    gigus gigus 22-25, M Mar 13

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the

    lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like this" My thoughts triggered. I thought about it as a metaphor. It's like the pens are people. When they are out, with others, in the open (pens...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    tukie14 tukie14 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2, 2014

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Mar 11

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    This is the only place I talk about my problems.

    I don't talk to other people about what's bothering me in real life, so I put on a face and pretend nothing is wrong and that I'm happy when in reality I'm anything but
    Becky555 Becky555 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I pretend I'm okay to make everyone else think

    I'm strong that I can do it for me and my baby. But I can't always have my head up high without shedding a tear, my life isn't or has never been a fairy tale but I know others have had it worse so I'm grateful for what I have. Saying the fact the I'm still alive, but I can't...
    ox97 ox97 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    I put a smile on my face

    so I don't have to talk about how I really feel inside.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2014

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    I just keep f**king up

    and im sick of it. I hate pretending to be okay when I'm really not, im broke. I'm not the same person I used to be. you've changed me. I've changed. and everybody's been so hurtful these past weeks I've stopped caring and I haven't been able to say what I truly feel towards...
    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I'm sick of people draining me.

    ....they fight over my attention because being with me makes them happy. What do I get out of thus deal NOTHING. all you talk about is yourself. I'm cutting it off. if where friend it's going to be a two way street. I'm not here just to make you feel good. WHO KNOW WHAT I FEEL...
    evesimone74 evesimone74 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I feel like I can't talk to my boyfriend,

    because he is really unaffectionate toward me. We fought 2-3 days ago, and since then he has not done anything to reconcile the situation. He had a couple of drinks last night and was his affectionate self, and this morning he's back to his cold exterior. Whenever I try to say...
    pensivepaws pensivepaws 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I thought I was okay.

    But then a friend sincerely asked me "are you okay?". Then it hit me. I nodded and hold it in till I reach home. I locked myself in my room and just cried like nothing matters. She's probably the first to ask me that and she sounded like she really cared. She made me realize...
    CallMeShayYeah CallMeShayYeah 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 6

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    gigus gigus 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Because I have to.. I pretend Im okay

    because there is no other choice for me right now.. I pretend Im okay because its easier for me to smile and be with the people.. I pretend Im okay because I dont want to constantly feel the pain.. And most importantly, I pretend Im okay because this is only a part of the entire...
    theoabern0741 theoabern0741 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    SilentScream0327 SilentScream0327 18-21, F Mar 16

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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