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    i ac like im ok because i dont want to tell

    everyone whats really wrong with me
    selenakissmyass selenakissmyass 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1

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    i always tell my friends

    and family that im okay cause they cant really help me and i dont want my friends to worry about me but i want help and i need help :/
    thatdepressedgirl thatdepressedgirl 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    I can be a really insecure person

    and I hate part of me. desperate for approval, like me, like me. Because if you like me, maybe I'll like my self.
    sassy19love sassy19love 13-15 Oct 16

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I often just pretend I'm ok,

    not very many people know what goes through my head and it's better that way. I have more friends on the internet than I do in real life, people I grew up with don't talk to me anymore, I just always tell people I'm fine when they ask whats wrong. Does this make me a bad person...
    Dickard101 Dickard101 22-25, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Most of the times I just pretend I'm fine.

    . But the truth is, I feel sooo lonely and there are times I want to just cry.. I feel so miserable and I'm not who I was anymore and I don't even know why. I spend my days just getting through most of them now. I feel like I don't have 'real friends' and I am not really 'living...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I pretend I'm okay because it's way easier

    explaining what's wrong when all people ever say is "I'm sorry to hear that". Waste of time.
    livefuckingstrong livefuckingstrong 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    So married for a year now

    and we are both miserable, he spend all his time with his friends and he seem much happier , he doesnt like my parfum the way I dress thinks am a bubble head ! we never go out and when we do we are like strangers no holding hands no contact at all, the only time he spend with...
    susieqew susieqew 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    I'm Really

    really, not okay. :(no I don't want to make my story longer thanks for asking. ******* EP **** thing
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    Right I need a little bit of help I asked my

    boyfriend when 2 bill come thou from is flat for his n is ex gf will he tel me n he said yes when thy come all tell u one came and he said he forget tell me coz was not ryt payment anyways so that why he did not tell me should I be mad ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    On the outside I look all happy

    and on the inside I'm crying/hurting!
    abbyboo1234 abbyboo1234 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    moving on doesn't mean you forget about things.

    it just means you have to accept what happen and continue living XD
    ElizabethSwannTurner ElizabethSwannTurner 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    Today people are actually believing me.

    Im flat out not having a good day and people go how are you and I'm like I'm good and they believe it. I must be that good at hiding it now...
    suchi715 suchi715 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    It's been one month and i miss you

    so much, you were gonna be my first baby. . . I hated seeing you leave so soon. Sometimes i wish going with you, being able to hold you in my arms, kissing your forehead, giving you nicknames, seeing what kind of women/man you'd become. How you would have my shortness, you'd...
    myohmy623 myohmy623 18-21 1 Response Oct 3

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    I don't...but if you are pretending to be okay,

    it's time to stop people do care about how your feeling and people will listen...sharing how you feel and maybe why you hide it. That's the first step! And realizing that what your worried about or who bothering you, that thing or that person doesn't matter...be strong stay...
    JPSS JPSS 13-15, M 3 Responses Oct 7

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    So I'm pretty paranoid,

    if I'm walking about in the city I feel like everyone is looking at me, I look at someone walking past like a glimpse and then they just lock onto me until they walk past. I even check my clothes and face to see if I've got anything on me. I listen to music when I walk about but...
    jolley2k jolley2k 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    Does this make me look cheep

    before my boyfriend new me he split with his ex he was with 4 years kind of lost everything but he was talkin drity with this girl he knew she was fat and had sex with 2 girls he said he never liked her he was drunk when he sleep with them and bored and messed up when he was...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Sep 2

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    Time to go to work and fake

    yet another smile.
    nicoleleightonx nicoleleightonx 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I pretend I'm okay with it.

    Just being friends. Hooking up when you were home. I pretend that it doesn't bother me, the promises you broke. You promised me a life, that you asked me to be your wife. We've been playing this game four years now... I've been there for you since day one. The day you had to...
    jh3557 jh3557 18-21, F Sep 3

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    People have no idea how much I bottle up,

    and then they wonder why I end up having a breakdown and shouting at anyone and everywhere
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    It's easier for me to pretend to be okay.

    Then it is to find someone who will listen and understand why I'm not okay. Something's are just too hard to say out loud to people
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 31

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2

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    Everyday... Even after I came back from the

    hospital I don't like sharing anything with anyone. The only time I let out how I feel is when I'm alone and I feel the tears I've been holding in all day fall down my face. And I try to reassure myself that I'll get over everything in the past but I know I'm lying. Because...
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Can I ask a qestion my boyfriends mum had a

    picture of him and is ex in a frame and he said to her ages ago why that still in there and she took it out but she still keep it in a Cubord with all the photos should I be upset and ask my boyfriend about it
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    I really don't have a clue on what I'm feeling

    or what should I do. I mean nothing's wrong in my life! I'm a teenage girl with a perfect life. Everything's perfect; family, friends, etc. But the only thing I hate is myself, I'm fat & a failture in human connection, I'm sad for no particular reason! I cry myself to sleep...
    ifonlykuwait ifonlykuwait 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 19

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    My boyftiend shouts at me coz I go on aboit is

    past and he says he hate talkin aboit it coz the past is the past and a lot of things was a mistake coz I asked him aboit a girl he sleep with ... Am I bein unfair or is he ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 6 Responses Sep 2

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    i knew it.. :( i really can't forget him.

    should i say "Can we start all over?" argh! i really don't know what to do!!!!! im so dead!! i really hate this feeling!!
    ElizabethSwannTurner ElizabethSwannTurner 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Just like it says. I do pretend I'm okay.

    I know it's unhealthy to bottle up my emotions, but I can't help but think what people would say about me. and everyday it gets worse. All I've been thinking about is that the darkness that surrounds me, is getting darker and stronger. And I don't know what else to do or think...
    LoseYourMind LoseYourMind 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 19

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    It's very easy. I keep everything in.

    Nobody actually knows the real ME or what I go through on a daily basis.
    nemophilist8 nemophilist8 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    It's hard opening up to people sometimes.

    Even my boyfriend. I'm dying inside... And I so badly wish I could stop it.
    apexox apexox 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 13

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    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I Like to Keep Things Pretty...

    It gets a little messy if I decide to say "I'm not okay, what do you think? I'm so ******* fed up with everything. I don't want to go home today. I feel invisible, but I didn't want to burst your bubble today, b/c you're so happy today." Can you imagine the awkward...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 5

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    i act like im okay because tbh i want people to

    remember me as wow she was so amazing and nice. i also dont like to bother people with my problems, and its hard to sit there and open up to someone who just wants to know because of the drama thats involved with it, i even like this guy AND I STILL dk how to open up and its...
    katdaughtry katdaughtry 70+, F