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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    I have to pretend i'm okay.

    No one wants to listen to whats on my mind or how my day really was. No one wants the full story. I just have to keep pushing myself through these lonely days and hope everything will get better. I don't give up and I can keep fighting. But i'm weak all by myself. My thoughts...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M May 1

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    acoustic212 acoustic212 16-17, M May 10

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1, 2014

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    tukie14 tukie14 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 22

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2014

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    in front of many people .

    But seriously am i okay ? NO !!!!! I AM NOT OK AT ALL..
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response May 4

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    I feel like no one wants me around.

    ...everyone is just using me and I. hurt by it
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 7 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I've never been an open person,

    always being closed off. And I like it that way, having things for myself. I hate talking about myself in general. I think I've never really told anyone how I am and feel orally. Some people at school have started noticing I'm not fine, even though I try to act normally. The...
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 25

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    I'm not fine when I say

    that I am. It usually means I'm not okay. But I say I am fine anyways because it's the easy answer.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 2 Responses May 17

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    Because I have to.. I pretend Im okay

    because there is no other choice for me right now.. I pretend Im okay because its easier for me to smile and be with the people.. I pretend Im okay because I dont want to constantly feel the pain.. And most importantly, I pretend Im okay because this is only a part of the entire...
    theoabern0741 theoabern0741 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    experience is nothing

    but i m board with gay life. in india no future and no personal life for a gay man. someone is here to be my friend who love a gay man
    pankajpandit pankajpandit 31-35, M May 14

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    Most of the time I'm really not okay

    but I act like I am so people won't ask me what's wrong or to explain myself because I'm tired of feeling like I bother people with my problems..so the only answer is to say "I'm okay"
    emylauren27 emylauren27 18-21, F May 17

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    Quarter life crisis? I'm

    so depressed.. Drinking my 3rd can now.. I don't know why I'm crying.. I've been crying since this afternoon.. I feel like I'm nothing.. Nothing to be proud about.. I feel useless.. No achievement.. I don't know.. i'm over protected.. I feel maybe, insecure.. I don't know...
    margaux04 margaux04 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I put a smile on my face

    so I don't have to talk about how I really feel inside.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    I pretend I'm okay. What other choice is there?

    When you are surrounded by absurdity and then are greeted by people that have never experienced absurdity in their lives and give you a big smile as if the world is this awesome place you have no choice but to smile. When I was growing up I was being sexually abused by my...
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks 41-45, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Is anyone good with iPhones

    and the ICloud and website data
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Apr 3

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    I pretend I'm okay to make everyone else think

    I'm strong that I can do it for me and my baby. But I can't always have my head up high without shedding a tear, my life isn't or has never been a fairy tale but I know others have had it worse so I'm grateful for what I have. Saying the fact the I'm still alive, but I can't...
    ox97 ox97 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 2, 2013

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    deleted deleted 26-30 20 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    I'm sick of people draining me.

    ....they fight over my attention because being with me makes them happy. What do I get out of thus deal NOTHING. all you talk about is yourself. I'm cutting it off. if where friend it's going to be a two way street. I'm not here just to make you feel good. WHO KNOW WHAT I FEEL...
    evesimone74 evesimone74 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    This is the only place I talk about my problems.

    I don't talk to other people about what's bothering me in real life, so I put on a face and pretend nothing is wrong and that I'm happy when in reality I'm anything but
    Becky555 Becky555 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    It's nothing I'm fine It's just one of those

    days I'm just tired I'm good It's cool Everyday I fantasize about killing myself and being free
    CaptainBenza CaptainBenza 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I must be the ugliest person alive.

    I swear... I think that's why I can never get a friend. Because they're all so judgmental that friendship has to matter based on looks... Wow....
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 18-21, F 8 Responses a week ago

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    If I don't, people will call me attention

    seeker, 'cause that's how today's world works.
    thedimone thedimone 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    You see that girl? she looks

    so happy right? telling jokes, smiling, having a great time... and dying inside. she's hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn't want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking. So she keep it all inside. Acts like...
    ElizabethSwanTurner ElizabethSwanTurner 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 23

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    People don't understand the struggle of

    everyday, I don't like to open up to anyone because I'm scared of people to judge me and if I ever did people would see me as a weak and vulnerable person. I don't think anyone would want that to happen to him/her. I don't like saying I'm depressed or sad or not feeling well...
    ReemNoctis ReemNoctis 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    "Keep fighting. Don't give up.

    You can do this." No I can't. I need help.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 5 Responses May 1

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    no one understands how dead inside I am I smile

    put on a show and act fine when I get home I cry and cry until my daughter is home from day care even though she is just a baby and doesn't understand I still go back to acting ok. I feel like its tearing me apart day by day
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 4 Responses May 4

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    I have lost my mother

    who was my everything in life, as I became a single first time mother. a few years later realizing that I needed to flee from my child's abusive father, I struggled with habits and addictions that soon lead my child in the foster system.. Mis judged and completely misunderstood...
    MizzKitty32 MizzKitty32 31-35, F 4 Responses May 5

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    It happens, almost like a record player

    or a level on a game I cannot pass. You get hurt so much that it just starts to be a everyday thing. You laugh sarcastically and say "I knew this was gonna happen....of course..." And idk what I do or say to be put in this position, but I fall right into it. Main reasons why I...
    Latiaaaa Latiaaaa 16-17, F May 3

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