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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 7 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    It's only been 2 weeks at school

    and I started losing it today. Don't get me wrong I like school in fact.....I Love school always have and always will. Its just home,staying in the car with my mum for 5 minutes,talking to her at dinner,her saying she loves me.****. I hate it all.I can't stand being around her...
    Darkprincess24 Darkprincess24 13-15, F a week ago

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    I pretend far too much,

    it has become a routine. Whenever I smile, it is genuine; I am far too tired to fake a smile. But I cannot express myself to the people around me without turning into an emotional wreck... Perhaps it is my shyness, or lonesomeness, but I cannot bare the thought of letting...
    tiffanyandasaltshaker tiffanyandasaltshaker 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I must be the ugliest person alive.

    I swear... I think that's why I can never get a friend. Because they're all so judgmental that friendship has to matter based on looks... Wow....
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 18-21, F 8 Responses May 18, 2015

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    is tired of seeing the world in positive way :/

    sorry, but I can't deny this anymore.
    Moondance77 Moondance77 26-30, F Nov 3, 2015

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    Ok last night I said to my boyfriend should I

    get a sleeve tattoo done and he said if u want and I said would u like it and I said u think they look good on girls and he said I don't no not really looked and I said u not really looked and he said no I big paid much attention aslong there bid for skulls on ... I said I think...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Nov 27, 2015

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Pretend. I pretend to laugh.

    I pretend to smile. I pretend that I'm okay,When I'm really not. You would think that your own family would realize how miserable you are; but they don't. Or it could be that I'm really good at pretending. I pretend so much, it's become a second nature. One day, I wish to let...
    WonderxGirl WonderxGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    So.. I always try to pretebd everything is good

    my life is good when someone asks... But when it comes to really good days like I'm getting something really good that will make me happy.. At the same day everything ends worse than I imagined or thought.. So it leaves me soo depressed and its really hard to pretend that.. So I...
    Rokas2260 Rokas2260 13-15, M 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Depression ******* sucks.

    I'm not really sure what started it and it's hard to fix something that's broken if you can't figure out what broke it in the first place.
    anavioletta anavioletta 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 8, 2015

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    I pretend that I'm okay

    when around people but when I'm in my room alone which is a lot I don't have to pretend having it all bottled up is making it worse.
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F Dec 22, 2015

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    I pretend I'm okay but like a shadow my

    depression is always with me. It make shrink but if I stare at it; it grows. The point is to fake it till you make it. Be it; believe it but when your shadow is staring right back at you, it's hard.
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 11, 2015

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    I was never one to hide my feelings

    or pretend but I learned to set aside what I feel just so I won't make the matters worse but it's tearing me up inside. :'(
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F Nov 18, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    My bf friend text him saying about going

    travling and some girl thy from school lives out there and he told my bf she lives there and I seen it and I said to my bf what's fave saying to you and he told me about going travling and were he wants go and he keep saying what up what up and I keep saying nothing and I said u...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2015

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    All I can really do is smile.

    Even when I'm at my lowest point I smile. Sometimes it hurts so much I just can't bare living. It hurts knowing I put my all into someone and gave them my heart and all they did was break it. So yeah I do pretend I'm ok, but now its getting harder and harder to do so everyday.
    Bailey242 Bailey242 13-15 Dec 21, 2015

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    It's Easy to say I'm okay

    when I'm not. Perhaps it's even easier to fake a smile, but at the end of the day the mask comes off. There is no point in pretending, when the only one there is me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 28

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    I remembered it's my exs birthday today.

    I was doing good until I remembered. Last year I surprised him with supper and a cake, this year I'm alone with our daughter wondering if he's thinking of me... I know I shouldn't miss him but I still do... Happy birthday where ever you are! xo
    KatxxSilverDagger KatxxSilverDagger 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I'm never really ok. I have days

    where I cover it up better and seem more "functional" and "pleasant", but there is always that deep and swift moving current inside me. One of sadness and bitterness, petty jealousies and simmering anger. Even those closest to me barely see what is really simmering underneath my...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M Jun 3, 2015

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 25, 2015

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    Please can anyone help me ok my boyfriend was

    with his ex for 4years he lived with her they was only young they was in the teens but when he was with her he was talking to his best mate sister and she sent him pictures of her in her underware I asked him why even though this was not When he was with me and he said she just...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    Soooos Soooos 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2015

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    oh gosh I hate myself.

    ...and I know everyone else does too....I honestly don't know why I even try anymore
    huntersveil248 huntersveil248 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 5, 2015

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    I wonder what you think

    when you see me on here and don't message me. I'm sure you have found someone younger, thinner, prettier. Just like my ex husband did.
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Jun 10, 2015

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    Can anyone help me when I first got with my

    boyfriend I asked him how many girl he sleep with he said 4 me is ex and 2 girls he sleep with when he was single .... K said who the to girl were he told me one then the other was a one night stand I keep going on n on about it and he broke to me and told me who she was he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    Can anyone help me last night me

    and my boyfriend was having sex and he went do u want to watch **** or make one and I said u want to watch **** and he went no am asking u what one u want and he keep saying u want to make one and j said no watch one but I don't no why I said it coz I hate **** so he got one and...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    I always smile and say I'm great,

    but it's such a lie. I'm really wondering when I will finally finish myself off.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 7, 2015

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    You only want to get rid of me.

    Congratulations. You win.
    Dummy911 Dummy911 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 17, 2015

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    Can anyone help me when I first got with my

    boyfriend I asked him how many girl he sleep with he said 4 me is ex and 2 girls he sleep with when he was single .... K said who the to girl were he told me one then the other was a one night stand I keep going on n on about it and he broke to me and told me who she was he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2015

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I pretend that I'm ok

    when I'm in front of people but when I'm alone I break down
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2015

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    Broken crayons still color.

    Shattered mirrors still reflect light. Being broken does not mean that we are useless. Being shattered does not mean that we must be thrown out. Break a crayon and it becomes perfect for sharing with another person. Shatter a mirror and it becomes a mosaic of little reflections...
    NewRomantics NewRomantics 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    Can anyone help me ..

    . Me and my boyfriend have been togother for two and abit years so for the past 3days he been asking me do u want to suck my willy and I keep not doing nothing then yesterday he asked me again I said God and he said am I not allowed ask u or something and I Said Ye so I felt abit...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Dec 1, 2015

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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