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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 2, 2013

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the

    lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like this" My thoughts triggered. I thought about it as a metaphor. It's like the pens are people. When they are out, with others, in the open (pens...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2

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    Ok so can someone help me with this ?

    ??? Before my bf took me out on a date he was texting this girl in a sexual way he was doin this for aboit the last convo they had I seen on fb was on the 10th may 2013 and he look me out on the 12of may 2013 but then stopped talking to her Afywr that I asked him did he sleep...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    but today is one of those days

    that I could get hit by a car and not give a damn.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I realise that I haven't been on EP

    as much recently, or posted anything. I guess I just feel like all my thoughts are completely messed up and confusing, I wouldn't even know where to begin with anything. I feel as though I'm trapped, in a massive ball of stress, sadness, depression, suicidal thoughts. I wish I...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I walk around school,

    smiling and joking around, When all I want to do is be left alone and cry and vent. I get home tell my mum all of the 'great' things I did that day, then go to my room and just sit there trying not to think until mum makes me come out. At the moment I don't get the point of any...
    kaiana2000 kaiana2000 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 11

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I pretend I'm okay but I'm not.

    I am exhausted, depressed and injured. I smile and laugh to hide the pain but I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. I've been in non-stop constant pain for more than 2 years and so far it's not looking like that's ever going to change. I've been single for 3...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 19

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    It's my best skill, I'm normally like the

    happiest person alive , leave me alone for a few hours and I'll start to think, then the darkness with invade my thoughts ,
    sommer02 sommer02 16-17, F Dec 18

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    I always smile because I'm lonely.

    If someone asks me if I'm okay I always say yes and smile. Even to strangers I smile so that they can't see that I will break down and cry in front of them. In class I'm very quiet and talk only when I have to answer. That's also the reason I don't have friends. I'm scared to...
    Mahrhindha Mahrhindha 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Never assume that past is same on the future

    cause there's a lot of changing in our life.
    bhing06 bhing06 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Life is a very big deceiver!

    whenever i think that my life is getting better, it turns more worst! I don't know what should i do! & in my most difficult time i used to think of a guy who loved me once! even after knowing the issues of my home he loved me! but i rejected his proposal and now its been 3 years...
    nunu77777 nunu77777 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    when in reality I'm worthless.

    I have lost everything I love which was mainly my ex, and now my parents have taken away the last thing that I could lose which is my car because it is the only thing that gets me around and out of this mental house that I'm forced to live in. I have chosen to starve myself...
    HollyD23 HollyD23 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    I feel like I'm falling deeper in a hole,

    I'm usually fun and bubbly but lately a dark cloud is looming over me ...I can't wait till this cloud goes away and I can see the sun again
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F Dec 9

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    No Self-worth & Feeling Unwanted

    I wouldn't call this a story or anything of that nature, if that makes any secne to anyone. But I can be honest that I've alway felt that people never actually saw me when they looked at me. I've alway felt that I could never win when it came to having a good friendships and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    My heart is broken , i have no hope .

    There was a time i used to think that everything is possible , but not anymore . The only thing i always wanted is so simple , but i wanted so bad that i couldn't get it . It's so sad when you look for something every where and you still can't find it . This thing have been...
    Yassine1000 Yassine1000 16-17, M 1 Response 50 mins ago

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 15

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    piercethevicx piercethevicx 16-17, F 17 Responses Dec 3

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    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F Dec 18

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    I'm just looking for the right one it doesn't

    have to be a forever relationship I just need so Done in my life who I can talk to and that I no loves me
    missmozz missmozz 13-15, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Nine years ago today my mother passed away.

    The pain never goes away when you lose a love one but time help ease the pain some. We miss you. I love you ma.
    Hteag Hteag 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Why do I do that , when truly am upset

    and fed up !!! Is it cause it's for selfish reasons , I dunno I really don't !
    LT167 LT167 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 18

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 19

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    I Think I'm Ok?

    To tell the truth I don't really know anymore. I'm not sure if I'm just really good at suppressing things right now or if I'm completely numb. I go through my motions and I have a lot of "nothing days." "Nothing Days" are exactly how they sound. You really don't do much and there...
    andeesha andeesha 26-30, F Oct 31, 2013

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    There are few events in our adult lives

    that change our fundamental beliefs. They are fundamental, after all, for a reason: when they change, you change. And I have to decide if THIS changes my most basic one: that it is better to love, than to not love. I fear that it is out of my hands, and that life has done its...
    iloveyouimee iloveyouimee 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 3

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    i just cant on my days off.

    .... im sorry to those who know me....
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    What does it mean when a girl my boyfriend

    sleep with twice and took her out liked mine n my boyfriend stautes being in a relsonship when me n my bf put it on aug 2013 and she liked it why
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    What my boyfriend talks about with his mates on

    his phone is it anything to do with me ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    Im tired to be the one to make the joke

    and try to make everyone laugh and smile. Im tired of retreating,giving up and say 'im sorry' over and over because I dont want to hurt anyone. No one bother to make me smile, to talk with me and ask me if im okay and is everything cool. They never hesitate to hurt me . so from...
    zmnsha zmnsha 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18

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    Life is a very big deceiver!

    whenever i think that my life is getting better, it turns more worst! I don't know what should i do! & in my most difficult time i used to think of a guy who loved me once! even after knowing the issues of my home he loved me! but i rejected his proposal and now its been 3...
    nunu77777 nunu77777 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    What my boyfriend talks to his mates about

    texting is it any of my bussiness ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 3

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    My boyfriend said that he sleep with a girl

    when he was single and he only wanted sex off her coz he was messed up he said he took her out once but I found pic from his mum wedding and she went he said he asked her that day coz he felt mean and had do them thing to get what he wanted I said upset me thinkin u was like...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30