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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    Scared to fall asleep not knowing

    if I'm gonna wake up the next day. No one i can turn too theres people but i always feel like i bother them when i bring it up and when i do most of my friends yell at me but i only have one in real life that gives me a hug and is there for me.
    Wolfee2012 Wolfee2012 13-15, F a week ago

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I can be a really insecure person

    and I hate part of me. desperate for approval, like me, like me. Because if you like me, maybe I'll like my self.
    sassy19love sassy19love 13-15 Oct 16

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    It's hard opening up to people sometimes.

    Even my boyfriend. I'm dying inside... And I so badly wish I could stop it.
    apexox apexox 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 13

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    I often just pretend I'm ok,

    not very many people know what goes through my head and it's better that way. I have more friends on the internet than I do in real life, people I grew up with don't talk to me anymore, I just always tell people I'm fine when they ask whats wrong. Does this make me a bad person...
    Dickard101 Dickard101 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 25

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    No Self-worth & Feeling Unwanted

    I wouldn't call this a story or anything of that nature, if that makes any secne to anyone. But I can be honest that I've alway felt that people never actually saw me when they looked at me. I've alway felt that I could never win when it came to having a good friendships and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    I'm Really

    really, not okay. :(no I don't want to make my story longer thanks for asking. ******* EP **** thing
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    Ages ago my boyfriend ex gf text him saying

    sonwyjing aboit there flat they had and in end it out of had hand and she text him saying I see the gym worked out of u and he said I did not do it for u and she said I did not say u did ... But why did he say that
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F a week ago

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    Tonight I said to my boyfriend how many times

    have u been out with work at Xmas time and he went a couple and I said I thought u never used to go out when u had your flat becouse he told me that he never used see is mates or go out when he had a flat with his ex gf becouse he had no money and he went mad sayin I went out...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I Like to Keep Things Pretty...

    It gets a little messy if I decide to say "I'm not okay, what do you think? I'm so ******* fed up with everything. I don't want to go home today. I feel invisible, but I didn't want to burst your bubble today, b/c you're so happy today." Can you imagine the awkward...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    Last night me and my boyfriend was goin watch a

    DVD and he made a joke saying watch one of my dad **** dvd come out of this DVD player u think he wud of been jokin coz I said why u say that and he said I was jokin
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Most of the times I just pretend I'm fine.

    . But the truth is, I feel sooo lonely and there are times I want to just cry.. I feel so miserable and I'm not who I was anymore and I don't even know why. I spend my days just getting through most of them now. I feel like I don't have 'real friends' and I am not really 'living...
    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 26

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    I really don't have a clue on what I'm feeling

    or what should I do. I mean nothing's wrong in my life! I'm a teenage girl with a perfect life. Everything's perfect; family, friends, etc. But the only thing I hate is myself, I'm fat & a failture in human connection, I'm sad for no particular reason! I cry myself to sleep...
    ifonlykuwait ifonlykuwait 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 6

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    i act like im okay because tbh i want people to

    remember me as wow she was so amazing and nice. i also dont like to bother people with my problems, and its hard to sit there and open up to someone who just wants to know because of the drama thats involved with it, i even like this guy AND I STILL dk how to open up and its...
    katdaughtry katdaughtry 70+, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    But the truth is that I'm really not okay

    because there is so much stuff going on right now.
    therealsydster therealsydster 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 1

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    I get on here and post things

    because I don't have anyone I can talk to...literally.
    Cristal0330 Cristal0330 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Don't make from someone all your life,

    because if he leaves you, you will lose your love for living and you will be so tired emotionally..
    Mira111 Mira111 18-21, F Nov 1

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    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    No matter how bad things are around me.

    .. I always pretend like everything is fine. I think over time I've been made to believe the showing any kind of weakness is by far the worst thing you can do because most times people use it as a opportunity to use and abuse you in that moments or it makes people think you can...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F Nov 9

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    Everyday... Even after I came back from the

    hospital I don't like sharing anything with anyone. The only time I let out how I feel is when I'm alone and I feel the tears I've been holding in all day fall down my face. And I try to reassure myself that I'll get over everything in the past but I know I'm lying. Because...
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 26

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    I Think I'm Ok?

    To tell the truth I don't really know anymore. I'm not sure if I'm just really good at suppressing things right now or if I'm completely numb. I go through my motions and I have a lot of "nothing days." "Nothing Days" are exactly how they sound. You really don't do much and there...
    andeesha andeesha 26-30, F Oct 31, 2013

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    i always tell my friends

    and family that im okay cause they cant really help me and i dont want my friends to worry about me but i want help and i need help :/
    thatdepressedgirl thatdepressedgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    I've been bullied my whole life.

    And I'm the type to forgive and forget, but when the people who bullied me in the past look at me with guilt in their eyes; seeing how I turned out. Now I don't feel emotions at all and when they try to come out I cry. I feel nothing for anyone not even my family members.
    wolfgal23 wolfgal23 22-25 1 Response Oct 13

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    I just came back form a party

    and I'm sleeping in a friend's house in Barcelona city. There are two friends making up next door... While I am all alone here!! 😂😂 I am not tired and I feel uncomfortable about the situation!!!
    debende debende 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    So I'm pretty paranoid,

    if I'm walking about in the city I feel like everyone is looking at me, I look at someone walking past like a glimpse and then they just lock onto me until they walk past. I even check my clothes and face to see if I've got anything on me. I listen to music when I walk about but...
    jolley2k jolley2k 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 19

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    I don't...but if you are pretending to be okay,

    it's time to stop people do care about how your feeling and people will listen...sharing how you feel and maybe why you hide it. That's the first step! And realizing that what your worried about or who bothering you, that thing or that person doesn't matter...be strong stay...
    JPSS JPSS 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 7

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    Living with depression sucks ***.

    Living with it and not being able to get over your fear of people judging you and looking at you like your so ****** up in the head, that you don't go get the help you need. I just put on a fake smile pretend I'm ok and stuff my face full of food or not eat and cry through out...
    DontKnowWhatToDoHelp DontKnowWhatToDoHelp 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 19

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    I seen on my bf ex gf Facebook

    that they fal out but he can't live without me this was years ago but why would she say that
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    Just like it says. I do pretend I'm okay.

    I know it's unhealthy to bottle up my emotions, but I can't help but think what people would say about me. and everyday it gets worse. All I've been thinking about is that the darkness that surrounds me, is getting darker and stronger. And I don't know what else to do or think...
    LoseYourMind LoseYourMind 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 19

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    I pretend I'm okay, I pretend I'm not hurting

    or depressed because I don't want anyone to know. I thought he was different, I thought he was a nice guy, I thought he really liked me.. I guess I was wrong. I guess I wasn't worth spending time with after all being as he left me alone in a crowded club to go dance with a...
    misspaperwait misspaperwait 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1

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    Can i just stop pretending

    for a day an not worry what people will say to me and not have the chance of being put into a mental hospital I just want to be good not just ok.