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    What my boyfriend talks to his mates about

    texting is it any of my bussiness ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 3

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    If I love you I'll let you go If I love you

    I'll protect your from far And when Im alone in my room, its my turn to cry
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    Last night me and my boyfriend was goin watch a

    DVD and he made a joke saying watch one of my dad **** dvd come out of this DVD player u think he wud of been jokin coz I said why u say that and he said I was jokin
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    piercethevicx piercethevicx 16-17, F 15 Responses Dec 3

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    I told a million lies

    but now I tell a single truth, theres you in everything I do
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F Nov 21

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    What does it mean when a girl my boyfriend

    sleep with twice and took her out liked mine n my boyfriend stautes being in a relsonship when me n my bf put it on aug 2013 and she liked it why
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    Guys please help me out here I still can't get

    over my boyfriend past I seen when he was single he was talking to few girls on Facebook but one he was talking in a sexual way to her he told me it was all talk and he was bored if could of happened but if he wanted to he could of gone round but never but .... We went away a...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the

    lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like this" My thoughts triggered. I thought about it as a metaphor. It's like the pens are people. When they are out, with others, in the open (pens...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 19

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    Can i just stop pretending

    for a day an not worry what people will say to me and not have the chance of being put into a mental hospital I just want to be good not just ok.
    alexjohnson28 alexjohnson28 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    I realise that I haven't been on EP

    as much recently, or posted anything. I guess I just feel like all my thoughts are completely messed up and confusing, I wouldn't even know where to begin with anything. I feel as though I'm trapped, in a massive ball of stress, sadness, depression, suicidal thoughts. I wish I...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I seen on my bf ex gf Facebook

    that they fal out but he can't live without me this was years ago but why would she say that
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    Nine years ago today my mother passed away.

    The pain never goes away when you lose a love one but time help ease the pain some. We miss you. I love you ma.
    Hteag Hteag 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    you know your life sucks

    when a dream you had is the only thing that makes you happy after months of wallowing in sadness
    shazmn shazmn 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 22

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    I feel like I'm falling deeper in a hole,

    I'm usually fun and bubbly but lately a dark cloud is looming over me ...I can't wait till this cloud goes away and I can see the sun again
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F a week ago

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    What my boyfriend talks about with his mates on

    his phone is it anything to do with me ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I walk around school,

    smiling and joking around, When all I want to do is be left alone and cry and vent. I get home tell my mum all of the 'great' things I did that day, then go to my room and just sit there trying not to think until mum makes me come out. At the moment I don't get the point of any...
    kaiana2000 kaiana2000 13-15, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    I Think I'm Ok?

    To tell the truth I don't really know anymore. I'm not sure if I'm just really good at suppressing things right now or if I'm completely numb. I go through my motions and I have a lot of "nothing days." "Nothing Days" are exactly how they sound. You really don't do much and there...
    andeesha andeesha 26-30, F Oct 31, 2013

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    when in reality I'm worthless.

    I have lost everything I love which was mainly my ex, and now my parents have taken away the last thing that I could lose which is my car because it is the only thing that gets me around and out of this mental house that I'm forced to live in. I have chosen to starve myself...
    HollyD23 HollyD23 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Tonight I said to my boyfriend how many times

    have u been out with work at Xmas time and he went a couple and I said I thought u never used to go out when u had your flat becouse he told me that he never used see is mates or go out when he had a flat with his ex gf becouse he had no money and he went mad sayin I went out...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 20

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    My boyfriend said that he sleep with a girl

    when he was single and he only wanted sex off her coz he was messed up he said he took her out once but I found pic from his mum wedding and she went he said he asked her that day coz he felt mean and had do them thing to get what he wanted I said upset me thinkin u was like...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I'm Really

    really, not okay. :(no I don't want to make my story longer thanks for asking. ******* EP **** thing
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    There are few events in our adult lives

    that change our fundamental beliefs. They are fundamental, after all, for a reason: when they change, you change. And I have to decide if THIS changes my most basic one: that it is better to love, than to not love. I fear that it is out of my hands, and that life has done its...
    iloveyouimee iloveyouimee 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 3

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 8 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I don't if what I've done is right

    or wrong........ I'm just tired of people taking me for granted.............. If the person to whom this is meant for is reading this........... all I ever did was care........... what do you????? assume things and push me away...... I wish we had never met...... that way I...
    Dani3lJD Dani3lJD 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    Ages ago my boyfriend ex gf text him saying

    sonwyjing aboit there flat they had and in end it out of had hand and she text him saying I see the gym worked out of u and he said I did not do it for u and she said I did not say u did ... But why did he say that
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Nov 13

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    No Self-worth & Feeling Unwanted

    I wouldn't call this a story or anything of that nature, if that makes any secne to anyone. But I can be honest that I've alway felt that people never actually saw me when they looked at me. I've alway felt that I could never win when it came to having a good friendships and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Pretend there is no silence,

    alone in your own world knowing she never cared Don't notice things that once were hers, Ignore the endless hours Don't chase the dream that your hearts were after Somehow believe in living, forget about the giving Just tell your life it must go on Run from yourself until you...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 7

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    My boyfriend got mad with me

    when I asked him was some boys sister at that footbal he said I always ask if she there
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    Ryt yesterday I did sonwyjing crazy Made a fake

    account on Facebook to find sonwyjing out when my boyfriend ewe single he was talkin to some girl in sexual way he told me he never sleep with her was all talk so it been playin on my mind for over a year now so yesterday I made fake proflie and message her and I said as anyone...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Ok so can someone help me with this ?

    ??? Before my bf took me out on a date he was texting this girl in a sexual way he was doin this for aboit the last convo they had I seen on fb was on the 10th may 2013 and he look me out on the 12of may 2013 but then stopped talking to her Afywr that I asked him did he sleep...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses