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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    I haven't used this profile in over a year

    and that has probably been a year too long. I came to this site years ago because I couldn't talk to my family and burden them with my problems. In the past year that I've been away I've tried other methods for dealing with problems and depression however I never really came to...
    IWishIUnderstood IWishIUnderstood 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    hate You try but fail You love

    but hurt You see but are to blind You smile but would cry You live to die
    Yaright678 Yaright678 18-21, M 1 Response May 19

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    Hi to anyone who is wiling to give me

    advice😔 im in a bit of a dilemma. So i have recently been attracted to someone n we only speak via social networks... I have met and spoke to him physically before but we never exchanged numbers. So basically wen i try to contact him he doesn't get bk to me!! I kno sometimes...
    sascha168 sascha168 22-25, F 1 Response May 15

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    heyitsabike heyitsabike 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    Im a closet gay, I cant come out cause my

    family are very religious. And Im suffering from depression. I just want to interact with people who might understand me.
    christoff201 christoff201 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 29

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    It's no secret that people

    who cry are often thought of as burdens and downers so, what else are we sad people to do? We break down one day, tell the people closest to us our problem, and then we slap on a smile and "move on". But when betrayal cuts deeply, there is no way to move on.
    Heartbeatangel Heartbeatangel 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16

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    Slowly I am losing everyone I care about.

    I am in a dark place and feel really alone for the first time in my life. I have been a widow for two years and I think things are getting worse. I have no one I am comfortable talking to about it. I guess death cooties are real and I just want my best friend back. He knew me...
    MRack MRack 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 7

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    I just wish things we're how they used to be.

    faking a smile gets old but I can't stop because I don't want people to worry
    madison1998 madison1998 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I pretend I'm okay because it's way easier

    explaining what's wrong when all people ever say is "I'm sorry to hear that". Waste of time.
    livefuckingstrong livefuckingstrong 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    Bellastasia Bellastasia 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    No Self-worth & Feeling Unwanted

    I wouldn't call this a story or anything of that nature, if that makes any secne to anyone. But I can be honest that I've alway felt that people never actually saw me when they looked at me. I've alway felt that I could never win when it came to having a good friendships and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Ever since I was little every male

    that has been in my life has hurt me in some way. Life has been a hard tough road for me. I am a young mother with three beautiful kids and I feel like they are the only things keeping me on this earth as they all need me so much. If they were not here I wouldn't be here. I...
    mzjade mzjade 31-35, F May 22

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    Raindroups,,,Fall from everywhere ,

    I reach out for You! But your Not there...... So I Stood Waiting in the Dark........with your picture in my hands.. Story of a broken Heart . . . .Dreams . . . . . & Faith . . . Stay with me ....cos I Can't breath without you . . . . I dont Wanna know whats like Without you...
    Adl5000 Adl5000 26-30, F May 8

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    On the outside I look all happy

    and on the inside I'm crying/hurting!
    abbyboo1234 abbyboo1234 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I act really nice and happy to other people.

    .. at least I try to. I'm hoping that's who I am, a nice person... I am a good person, I think, but clearly the way I've been acting is just that, acting. Only one person has ever seen through it and since he noticed, he's been distant, he has his own problems and I completely...
    KidLost KidLost 13-15, F 1 Response May 21

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    I am so depressed but no one knows

    because I pretend like I am ok
    Bullied12 Bullied12 13-15, F 3 Responses May 14

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    I Think I'm Ok?

    To tell the truth I don't really know anymore. I'm not sure if I'm just really good at suppressing things right now or if I'm completely numb. I go through my motions and I have a lot of "nothing days." "Nothing Days" are exactly how they sound. You really don't do much and there...
    andeesha andeesha 22-25, F Oct 31, 2013

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    I'm Really

    really, not okay. :(no I don't want to make my story longer thanks for asking. ******* EP **** thing
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    I take more time to notice the beauty in

    everything yet I still don't see it in myself. I know I have a great personality and am very kind hearted but at times I am pretty stubborn. I always ask myself what is it that people see in me to be my friend or why it is that people even want to talk to me... Or even just look...
    fgarci04 fgarci04 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I am pre-transition. I'm pre-everything

    actually. I've known that I wanted to be male my whole life, but I only realized that I can't go on as a female just a few months ago. I haven't told anyone. I have great friends, family and an amazing girlfriend in my life that I know would support me. I just can't bring myself...
    Allyis08 Allyis08 22-25 1 Response Jun 2

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    Hey, my name is Kiana I wanted to write about

    this topic cause I know what it is like to not be okay... I always pretended to be okay when really all I wanted to do is die... But since I had my daughter I've really been happy. My daughter gave me a reason to live. She needs me. I don't fake a smile anymore my smiles are...
    Pandalover7 Pandalover7 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 1

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    I try to stay positive

    for other people, to make them feel like everything is okay. But as I do this, I pretend that everything is okay, and I pretend I'm happy when I'm not.
    TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys TeethTheSizeOfPianoKeys 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 5

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    So ive constructed the message

    but im not brave enough to send it😂😒
    sascha168 sascha168 22-25, F 2 Responses May 15

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    I just joined..I'm recently going through a

    breakup a few weeks ago I lived with my ex, I received a text message from him..he was out in the field for a couple weeks, he'd call me seemed ok then a text message came in, told me he thinks we shouldn't be together anymore and to get all my stuff out by the weekend so I did...
    Denise13190 Denise13190 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm absolutely worthless.

    . I'm so sick of getting treated like ****. I just wish a guy would want to spoil me. Take me on dates. Surprise me with little things. It's been nine months and he's taken me on one date.. He was supposed to bring me out to dinner tonight and because it's raining he decided to...
    battlewounds battlewounds 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    I took a courage to know the truth about our

    break up because every night it cost me pain asking myself why did i do to you for you to make me feel worthless. And yes i can't help not to say I miss you although I don't know if you really miss me but i guess your not which i found true. I maybe a bit of a masochist because...
    thenatebook thenatebook 22-25, M 1 Response May 27

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 5 Responses May 13

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    I don't really feel i can tell people anything

    when I'm annoyed. I just keep it to myself and stay quiet.
    samdavis3 samdavis3 16-17, M Jul 3

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 9 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    When people see me I'm always smiling

    and being happy, but when I'm home i make sure everyone is a sleep, and I cry and scream as loud as I can.
    ConfusedxAwkward ConfusedxAwkward 13-15, F 1 Response May 2

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    And I'll continue to do so,

    because the moment I think about reaching out someone crushes me before I get the chance. Sometimes I hate being a "strong" person emotionally, because I'm that one that will never tell you when I'm thinking about hurting myself. I survived once and got help before I did...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 2 Responses May 31

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I pretend I'm okay but in reality I wish I

    could fix what's broken but I know if I do that I will tear my house apart, my children, my home, everything. Why is it so hard to express how you feel to someone that you been with, what seems like your whole life? That's a question I can't answer but I've asked myself time and...
    devilseye1996 devilseye1996 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Like to Keep Things Pretty...

    It gets a little messy if I decide to say "I'm not okay, what do you think? I'm so ******* fed up with everything. I don't want to go home today. I feel invisible, but I didn't want to burst your bubble today, b/c you're so happy today." Can you imagine the awkward...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    So I have a friend that I'm really close to,

    and well now she always gets in a bad mood and has a mad look In her face, I talk to my other friends too and sometimes she just gets all quiet and doesn't talk and I grew tired of it ! Sometimes I'm in such a great mood and then she comes around and kills my vibe. I tell myself...
    melrose11 melrose11 18-21, F May 18

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I just can't be happy

    for too long can I? Just as I thought I was getting back on track, being more happy more often something always has to ruin it. I just wish I wasn't me
    Carrrie Carrrie 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 9

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    I pretend I'm okay for the sake of my family

    and very close friends. I would hate them all to see how I really feel and how much it hurts inside. How hard it is for me to carry on living. I would never ever let them see this side to me because I care about them all to much. So to save them from all the heartache and hurt...
    sademptynothing sademptynothing 13-15, F 1 Response May 31

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