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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 5

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    What I say: I'm fine What I mean:

    Neurologically, there is a lot wrong with me and I want to die; but, I don't want to tell you about it because there's nothing you can do about it and I don't want you to feel stressed or guilty about something you have no power over.
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox 18-21, F Jul 14

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    glassbonespaperskin glassbonespaperskin 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I've never been an open person,

    always being closed off. And I like it that way, having things for myself. I hate talking about myself in general. I think I've never really told anyone how I am and feel orally. Some people at school have started noticing I'm not fine, even though I try to act normally. The...
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    I walk around school,

    smiling and joking around, When all I want to do is be left alone and cry and vent. I get home tell my mum all of the 'great' things I did that day, then go to my room and just sit there trying not to think until mum makes me come out. At the moment I don't get the point of any...
    kaiana2000 kaiana2000 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 7 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 25

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    I lost my fiance in November 2007.

    I lost my brother last week who protected me from the man who raped me at 8. I have not cried ever. And i do not think I need to. God is kind and i believe that. It does not mean I am not broken from within but i still move on. I want to feel lighter by crying but I am unable to...
    deceptiveoutofcloset deceptiveoutofcloset 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 24

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    I'm never really ok. I have days

    where I cover it up better and seem more "functional" and "pleasant", but there is always that deep and swift moving current inside me. One of sadness and bitterness, petty jealousies and simmering anger. Even those closest to me barely see what is really simmering underneath my...
    Tuva Tuva 31-35, M Jun 3

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    I have to pretend i'm okay.

    No one wants to listen to whats on my mind or how my day really was. No one wants the full story. I just have to keep pushing myself through these lonely days and hope everything will get better. I don't give up and I can keep fighting. But i'm weak all by myself. My thoughts...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M May 1

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    I haven't many friends.

    just two male friends that I care about. but we really see each other. I don't have any female friends because it's always been hard for me. (feel free to read my past post about my last female friends and you'll see why). I've been lonely lately and tried making plans with some...
    Hteag Hteag 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 26

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 19, 2014

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    Maybe it will help me to feel

    that i'm okay while im actually not.
    IrenkaSchipper IrenkaSchipper 16-17, F Jun 14

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    I fell deeply in love with someone I shouldn't

    have, but I couldn't help it as she was my twin flame. I was filled with shame & guilt, hiding our love from everyone including each other. She passed away and I couldn't tell anyone of the agony I was facing but I couldn't breath & often felt like I'd been shot in the chest. I...
    Fiftypercent Fiftypercent 18-21 Jul 4

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    I just got my eyebrows threaded.

    I need to feel more beautiful. Any more tips on how to be more beautiful? Here is a picture of my new eyebrows.
    Roger773 Roger773 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 31

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    I'm a mom I hide crying myself asleep the scars

    on my thigh from the many blades I hide how much I truly hate myself I hide my eating problems I hide it all and fake a smile I don't do it for me any more I have no choice but to pretend if I don't there would be no one there for her but it's slowly killing me inside
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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    Depression ******* sucks.

    I'm not really sure what started it and it's hard to fix something that's broken if you can't figure out what broke it in the first place.
    anavioletta anavioletta 16-17, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    I always pretend that I'm okay

    even when I'm not. This is the 4th time my husband has been caught flirting online with other men. I need him to be honest with himself. I'm not standing in his way if that's what he wants. At this point I just need to focus on me and not him.
    spngal spngal 46-50, F Aug 3

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    My best friend has been going through some

    stuff lately and now is arguing with me about it. She has not had her phone for 2 weeks and both of us were out of town. She is now telling me that I didn't care despite calling and texting her to say and that love her over those two weeks. she's also saying I should have known...
    NarryCake NarryCake 16-17, F Aug 19

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    There are times that i just close my eyes

    and pretend that everything will gonna be alright..
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 29

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    How could you put me aside

    after your movie?
    elinacynthia elinacynthia 22-25, F Jul 23

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I understand why you would want her over me.

    She is prettier than me, she is skinnier than me, she talks more than I do, and she doesn't have as many issues as I do. If I was you, I would pick her too...
    spence96 spence96 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 15

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    I think today is the first day in a while

    that I haven't pretended that I'm okay. I actually feel pretty good today. And when suffering from severe depression it actually feels good to have a real smile on my face for once instead of a fake one.
    emotionsrunwild emotionsrunwild 18-21, F 3 Responses May 13, 2014

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    I have a strong feeling

    that my friend is slowly choosing someone else over me. The only friend (hang out buddy) that i have. And i don't want that to happen cuz let's be honest...i don't like to be alone. (if i had other options I wouldn't have been that scared about it. would've been easier to move...
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    You ask me if I'm ok cause you know I'm sad

    but I pretend I'm okay :,(
    vaitatiana34 vaitatiana34 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 2

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 2, 2014

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    Pretend. I pretend to laugh.

    I pretend to smile. I pretend that I'm okay,When I'm really not. You would think that your own family would realize how miserable you are; but they don't. Or it could be that I'm really good at pretending. I pretend so much, it's become a second nature. One day, I wish to let...
    WonderxGirl WonderxGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    I tried to pretend that everything was okay.

    .. That that hadn't hurt me at all... That somehow you didn't have to say you were sorry, repeatedly, like you did... That if you wanted to say it anyways, I would have already forgiven you.... But I lied... To myself... To you... To our friendship. I guess I'm not good at...
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 Aug 16

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    I want to kill myself

    so badly. I want to cut. I hate myself more than anything. I ******* suck. I hate myself
    XxautychanxX XxautychanxX 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 7

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    I wonder what you think

    when you see me on here and don't message me. I'm sure you have found someone younger, thinner, prettier. Just like my ex husband did.
    upextraolives upextraolives 46-50, F 17 Responses Jun 10

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    The thing about living is

    that their will be some form of human interaction. A forced small talk to be polite and the inevitable question, "How are you" followed by an even more dreadful "I'm okay." I say these words without a second thought. But I am not okay.
    macabre00 macabre00 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I fake a smile, I just hate myself

    so much, I sometimes want to kill myself, but it's too wrong. I suck at everything, I'm so ******* dumb, I'm a huge loser, I'm drop off school because I stupidly believed my uncle and inconsiderate (You will move to France and u have to take tailor career, I couldn't do it, my...
    Theworldandme Theworldandme 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I got no sleep at all

    and I think it's because I couldn't stop thinking about him and I wouldn't stop crying
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 Aug 17

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    You see that girl? she looks

    so happy right? telling jokes, smiling, having a great time... and dying inside. she's hurt and tired. Tired of all the drama, tired of not being good enough, tired of life. But she doesn't want to look dramatic, weak and attention seeking. So she keep it all inside. Acts like...
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    I must be the ugliest person alive.

    I swear... I think that's why I can never get a friend. Because they're all so judgmental that friendship has to matter based on looks... Wow....
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 18-21, F 9 Responses May 18

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    I constantly say I'm fine

    but deep down I'm drowning in my own tears
    anamontanez anamontanez 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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