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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9, 2014

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 2, 2013

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    Quarter life crisis? I'm

    so depressed.. Drinking my 3rd can now.. I don't know why I'm crying.. I've been crying since this afternoon.. I feel like I'm nothing.. Nothing to be proud about.. I feel useless.. No achievement.. I don't know.. i'm over protected.. I feel maybe, insecure.. I don't know...
    margaux04 margaux04 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I'm past the point of being okay with

    pretending. I want to finally be able to say that I'm okay & mean it. I don't want to think about cutting anymore; nor do I want to have these stupid flashbacks. Please just let me be okay soon, because I really can't take fighting my tears all day & crying hysterically at...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 6 Responses Apr 25

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    Myself and sleep In a love story.

    ..Destroys it the bell every morning
    gigus gigus 22-25, M Mar 16

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    I pretend I'm okay to make everyone else think

    I'm strong that I can do it for me and my baby. But I can't always have my head up high without shedding a tear, my life isn't or has never been a fairy tale but I know others have had it worse so I'm grateful for what I have. Saying the fact the I'm still alive, but I can't...
    ox97 ox97 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    KariOHou KariOHou 51-55, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    some critical of me going crazy .

    ... I accepted it :)
    gigus gigus 22-25, M Mar 13

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    I can't pretend any more.

    Today I will be checking in to a hospital. im afraid it will turn out to be more of the same medicate and forget philosophy.
    SShawnO SShawnO 41-45, M 2 Responses Mar 10

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    I walk around school,

    smiling and joking around, When all I want to do is be left alone and cry and vent. I get home tell my mum all of the 'great' things I did that day, then go to my room and just sit there trying not to think until mum makes me come out. At the moment I don't get the point of any...
    kaiana2000 kaiana2000 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I pretend everything is okay

    so nobody worries about me. I let my sadness hide in the back of my heart hoping that it will just go away and wondering how to fix it if it doesn't. I don't know what is the truth anymore.
    cutsy cutsy 36-40, F 2 Responses May 2, 2014

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2, 2014

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    SilentScream0327 SilentScream0327 18-21, F Mar 16

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    I've never been an open person,

    always being closed off. And I like it that way, having things for myself. I hate talking about myself in general. I think I've never really told anyone how I am and feel orally. Some people at school have started noticing I'm not fine, even though I try to act normally. The...
    dysfori dysfori 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    gigus gigus 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 13

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    I'm sick of people draining me.

    ....they fight over my attention because being with me makes them happy. What do I get out of thus deal NOTHING. all you talk about is yourself. I'm cutting it off. if where friend it's going to be a two way street. I'm not here just to make you feel good. WHO KNOW WHAT I FEEL...
    evesimone74 evesimone74 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    in front of many people .

    But seriously am i okay ? NO !!!!! I AM NOT OK AT ALL..
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    I feel like no one wants me around.

    ...everyone is just using me and I. hurt by it
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28, 2014

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    I'm so heartbroken. Ex of 3years dumped me

    cause I couldn't make him happy. I miss him so much and I'm trying to move on but I can't. I've never felt this way before about anyone. I have anxiety and depression ever since the breakup. Before the breakup he said he loves me and wants to marry me. I have to pretend like...
    ccarol9073 ccarol9073 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 13

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    I feel like I can't talk to my boyfriend,

    because he is really unaffectionate toward me. We fought 2-3 days ago, and since then he has not done anything to reconcile the situation. He had a couple of drinks last night and was his affectionate self, and this morning he's back to his cold exterior. Whenever I try to say...
    pensivepaws pensivepaws 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    I have to pretend i'm okay.

    No one wants to listen to whats on my mind or how my day really was. No one wants the full story. I just have to keep pushing myself through these lonely days and hope everything will get better. I don't give up and I can keep fighting. But i'm weak all by myself. My thoughts...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    This is the only place I talk about my problems.

    I don't talk to other people about what's bothering me in real life, so I put on a face and pretend nothing is wrong and that I'm happy when in reality I'm anything but
    Becky555 Becky555 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 25

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    Because I have to.. I pretend Im okay

    because there is no other choice for me right now.. I pretend Im okay because its easier for me to smile and be with the people.. I pretend Im okay because I dont want to constantly feel the pain.. And most importantly, I pretend Im okay because this is only a part of the entire...
    theoabern0741 theoabern0741 26-30 2 Responses Mar 30

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    i hate pretending i give a **** about living

    each and everyday. I'm so heartbroken, stressed, confused, anxious about life that i feel myself falling apart. I know where i want to be in life, but my anxitey keeps me behind. I just want to wake up and feel happy again. I miss feeling really okay and this fake persona i pu...
    Tristechica22 Tristechica22 22-25, F Mar 29

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    Everyday i go to work

    and pretend to be okay. i keep a smile plastered on my face and i pretend to be happy. i know that in order to be professional..this is what i have to do. i have to check my problems at the door. i cant stand people that have problems and they come into the office and take it...
    welcome2myworld welcome2myworld 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 15, 2014

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    I'm haunted by the past,

    dissapointed with the present, and afraid of the future. Day in, and day out, I have vivid flashbacks of my youth, of the fun I had, memories I relish, fears I faced, and joy that every new day brought me, but now it's all slipped away. I always used to imagine fatherhood, love...
    Eclipse993 Eclipse993 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I just keep f**king up

    and im sick of it. I hate pretending to be okay when I'm really not, im broke. I'm not the same person I used to be. you've changed me. I've changed. and everybody's been so hurtful these past weeks I've stopped caring and I haven't been able to say what I truly feel towards...
    chlojjs chlojjs 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 13

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    gigus gigus 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 21

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    I put a smile on my face

    so I don't have to talk about how I really feel inside.
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    So, earlier, my friend decided to switch the

    lids on two of her pens, which she knows really irritates me. Then she said "don't worry though, I never put them in my pocket like this" My thoughts triggered. I thought about it as a metaphor. It's like the pens are people. When they are out, with others, in the open (pens...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 26, 2014

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    I pretend I'm okay, sometimes.

    I just don't show it but whenever I'm alone, I cry. I cry because of what I feel towards someone and whenever I think of something. I know, it's natural and it also happens to everyone.
    AnnPe AnnPe 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    lifenotknife lifenotknife 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F Mar 11

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    I have lost my mother

    who was my everything in life, as I became a single first time mother. a few years later realizing that I needed to flee from my child's abusive father, I struggled with habits and addictions that soon lead my child in the foster system.. Mis judged and completely misunderstood...
    MizzKitty32 MizzKitty32 31-35, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    "Keep fighting. Don't give up.

    You can do this." No I can't. I need help.
    MagicEyes95 MagicEyes95 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    no one understands how dead inside I am I smile

    put on a show and act fine when I get home I cry and cry until my daughter is home from day care even though she is just a baby and doesn't understand I still go back to acting ok. I feel like its tearing me apart day by day
    youngkinyteenmom youngkinyteenmom 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1, 2014

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    It's easier and safer

    than saying how u really feel.