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I Pretend I'm Okay

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    There's a lot of crap going on at the moment

    as my parents are divorcing and for my mum it can't go fast enough. Problems is she swings into these depressive phases and threatens to kill herself! I'm having to support her whilst feeling pretty crappy myself :( to be fair it sucks but I can't stop myself from telling...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff 18-21, F Aug 19

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    Slowly I am losing everyone I care about.

    I am in a dark place and feel really alone for the first time in my life. I have been a widow for two years and I think things are getting worse. I have no one I am comfortable talking to about it. I guess death cooties are real and I just want my best friend back. He knew me...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 6 Responses Feb 7

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    What does this mean When someone says oo my

    van broke down and then someone goes get ya finger out then and they go my finger will be somewere else in a min
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Aug 19

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    When my boyfrinrd was 16 he kissed his friend gf

    and he's only just found out he's now 22 he his friend was not very happy they did not talk for abit but is friend text him sayin hi can we meet up but he keep sayin he don't want meet up with him coz it was years ago who ryt ????
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F Aug 24

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    It's the hardest thing to tell someone the

    truth. How much I'm hurting on the inside...so I pretend. It's easier to say that I'm okay than to let anyone see the tears in my smile.
    ImxoxSurviving ImxoxSurviving 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I just feel like this is the end

    for me I know I am only 16 but somedays I feel like I should just end my life my life is really not that important so why not say **** it and end this **** I am thinking about this and I am starting to say **** it
    nadirah96 nadirah96 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    faking a smile everyday.

    it sucks so bad and I don't think anyone understand how I'm actually feeling inside
    dizzydreamerrr dizzydreamerrr 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Nobody Really Wants to Know ...

    It seems people are so busy, so preoccupied, etc. these days they either don't care to listen or are too worried to share the truth of the matter for fear of not being listened to.  I can't blame those who don't share ... I'm one of them. I realize, after an illness, people...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal 31-35, F 24 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Not Ungrateful

    You can feel me, nervous bundle of awkward energy squirming under the table; I'm talking to people, being charming, and there's your touch, hidden, but potent. You used to touch me to make me calm. You used to find me when I was gone, one foot out the door in a conversation I...
    RascallyRabbit RascallyRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

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    I'm Sorry

    Maybe I should write this as a confession instead of a story.   I'll probably end up deleting it anyway ... the truth hurts ... lol.   I've battled depression for most of my life.  The last 10 years at least, I've won that battle more often than not. I...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 19 Responses Mar 9, 2010

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    I Think I'm Ok?

    To tell the truth I don't really know anymore. I'm not sure if I'm just really good at suppressing things right now or if I'm completely numb. I go through my motions and I have a lot of "nothing days." "Nothing Days" are exactly how they sound. You really don't do much and there...
    andeesha andeesha 26-30, F Oct 31, 2013

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    My boyftiend shouts at me coz I go on aboit is

    past and he says he hate talkin aboit it coz the past is the past and a lot of things was a mistake coz I asked him aboit a girl he sleep with ... Am I bein unfair or is he ?
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 5 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Fake It 'till You Make It

    time and time again i have felt like i was bleeding inside... and plaster a smile on my face to hide the fact.  and around people i dont really know well, i still do.  it is just so much easier than dealing with their pity.  sympathy i can handle; pity, no. ok...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I can make it through today.

    Even with my head pounding and my hands numb and my stomach twisted in knots. And if I feel the same way tomorrow I can make it through that day too. One day at a time. One ******* day.
    mybonerandme mybonerandme 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I'm quite new to this site,

    but I feel like I need this. I feel like I need to share my story, and get all of this off of my chest. I'm not use to doing this though, I never really open up to anyone. I bottle my emotions and stay in my shell. When I was 12 years old, I started cuting myself..I'm ashamed of...
    laurenkouhi laurenkouhi 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    On the outside I look all happy

    and on the inside I'm crying/hurting!
    abbyboo1234 abbyboo1234 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I pretend I'm strong

    and that I don't need or want anyone to help me or give me any kind of support. I'm really a wreck though. I sometimes cry when no one is home and I don't go out unless it's necessary like say, school, work, or running errands. I finally got a haircut. I was in therapy for a...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Well Usually I Do!

    Except I've gotten to the point I know I'm about as far from OK as it's possible to be and still manage to survive, don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything like that. I just know I can't continue the way I am, I'm desperately trying to change the things that are wrong in...
    Illiteratetroll Illiteratetroll 46-50 9 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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    When you ask someone was she pretty

    and they go whe was allright what does that mean
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    When someone asks me how I am I say I'm fine

    and every once in a while I want someone to understand that I'm not ok
    alwaysloverh alwaysloverh 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    Everyday my mom and her bf treat me like crap

    and I try to ignore it but sometimes its to much>
    TheMistake TheMistake 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    Can you have sex with soneone

    and have nothing for them
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 21

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    Sometimes you just need to stay positive,

    not only for your own sanity, but for those around you as well. Giving off positive vibes has the potential to give those you care about or come into contact with the strength to cope with whatever problems they may be dealing with, as well as reinforcing your own mental...
    dodongo55 dodongo55 18-21, M Aug 5

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    Would anyone be upset

    if they seen they boyftiend history on fb and he had been looking up girls he knows but he don't have them on Facebook ..?? I got really upset and he go rid of Facebook so I said to him go bk on it and I wqnr go thou them again and he keep sayin no no coz it only goin make you...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    People have no idea how much I bottle up,

    and then they wonder why I end up having a breakdown and shouting at anyone and everywhere
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm Really

    really, not okay. :(no I don't want to make my story longer thanks for asking. ******* EP **** thing
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    I'm alone in solitaire all day.

    I'm stuck at home all day while my boyfriend works, he works really long hours. I don't speak to anyone. no one calls me or anything, when he comes home (usually very late) I make dinner and we sit and eat, he plays on his phone (texting) before he showers and then goes to bed...
    justwanttobeanonymous justwanttobeanonymous 70+, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    No Self-worth & Feeling Unwanted

    I wouldn't call this a story or anything of that nature, if that makes any secne to anyone. But I can be honest that I've alway felt that people never actually saw me when they looked at me. I've alway felt that I could never win when it came to having a good friendships and...
    DarkAngel0309 DarkAngel0309 22-25, F 6 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Broken Inside

    We all pretend to be okay...wether its at the beside of a dying loved one or in the middle of a test with 20 million problems on your mind and wishing you could just let go and burst into tears. i've been through both of these and the 1st one we do because of compassion..we don...
    loobiesa loobiesa 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2007

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    Yeah

    I'm okay (see I can act)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2013

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    i have a lot that I shouldn't act like nothing

    is wrong when I just want to break down in tears!
    Nikayee Nikayee 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I pretend I'm ok, when nothing is right,

    I act fine when I'm bugged by friends or family, I never tell people that I'm in pain, I just want to start cutting
    MayLuvsCookies MayLuvsCookies 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    When u say I thought I was in love with her does

    that mean I did love her but not like u
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    a man is all about his experience.

    lot of time we are not what we show to the world. a lot of time our family our values our heart does not allow us to do what we want...
    nishnishnish nishnishnish 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    It's easier for me to pretend to be okay.

    Then it is to find someone who will listen and understand why I'm not okay. Something's are just too hard to say out loud to people
    Brok3nSoul Brok3nSoul 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    When you say your shocked

    when someone breaks up with u what does it mean
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I've Been Pretending....

    I put on a smile and tell you everything is ok, but the truth is my heart is breaking. I play along with the game you are playing...the game you are playing with everyone, not just me. I see this happening and wonder what have I done wrong?? It’s not me…it’s you…you need...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Mar 1, 2013

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    Sick Of Pretending..

    Im sick and tired of pretending that telling you goodbye, for the second time!! Was the best thing for the both of us. But why than do i replay every little conversation we ever had, through text mostly, trying to find hidden meanings behind the words you said. Just thinking and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Jul 14, 2012

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    It is easy to pretend you are ok

    when you are in the company of others. Putting on a mask is like putting on your make up- a staple part of your day that becomes routine for when you are on your way out to start your day. You can fake a smile and a laugh, engage in conversation and put on all the pretences of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 19

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    No one wants to hear

    if you're not okay...
    Jennyboii Jennyboii 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 28

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    People ask if I'm ok.

    I respond ya I'm fine. But HELLO! I'm dieing inside. Fine NEVER means fine
    grace206013 grace206013 13-15, F 5 Responses Aug 7

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    HidingTheScars HidingTheScars 13-15, F 3 Responses May 2

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    I Like to Keep Things Pretty...

    It gets a little messy if I decide to say "I'm not okay, what do you think? I'm so ******* fed up with everything. I don't want to go home today. I feel invisible, but I didn't want to burst your bubble today, b/c you're so happy today." Can you imagine the awkward...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 8 Responses Aug 5, 2007

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    I always pretend i'm okay

    even when i'm ready to just ball my eyes out. If someone asks me about my problems it just makes me so much more upset. So i always pretend to be okay....
    Alisonsmith2014 Alisonsmith2014 18-21, F 9 Responses Jan 16

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    At school I act happy

    and act like I'm okay.... Then I break down at home.
    depressedandhurt101 depressedandhurt101 13-15, F 4 Responses May 1

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    So I just have to tell this to someone

    so please be understanding that all of this is not for sure, but is quite likely. So when I was really little something happened ( I don't remember much) and it ended with a metal pole stabbing my eye. Several years later when I was eight I got blind spots and my vision has...
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 6

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    I pretend I'm okay because it's way easier

    explaining what's wrong when all people ever say is "I'm sorry to hear that". Waste of time.
    livefuckingstrong livefuckingstrong 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    It's become a problem.

    Everyone in my life thinks I'm this happy and bubbly person. I'm not. I have this other side of me that is dark. Not happy and rainbow. I have a side that sits in my room, waiting for the day to pass by. I have a side of me that lays in my bed, crying and sulking about why my...
    tomaddyandbeyond tomaddyandbeyond 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2013

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    My boyfriend got rid of Facebook coz I was

    asking him loads of qestions about it and makin us argue he said it not worth argueing over so he go rid of it but he's not telling people real reason why he got rid of it
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 20

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    Should I belive my boyfriend

    when he says he only get a ***** and wanks over me
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I just got a little bit upset the other day we

    was shopping and my boyftiend got 3 hard ons ... He said they was just ramdom ones .... Then he got another one by me kissing him he said to me he can't help them and I said I only got wet only over him and he said I don't care what u get wet over but he said he said that coz he...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    KaliKween KaliKween 18-21, F Aug 12

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    Hi, How Are You? Fine Thanks, and You?

    Isn't it funny how a person can have so many acquaintances and be surrounded by people but still experience such profound disconnection? We pass each other on the street and say a quick reflexive Hi How are you? Fine, thanks, and you? I'm fine. See you later. It kinda saps the...
    CharlieAfrica CharlieAfrica 22-25, F 20 Responses Jun 13, 2009

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    Does this make me look cheep

    before my boyfriend new me he split with his ex he was with 4 years kind of lost everything but he was talkin drity with this girl he knew she was fat and had sex with 2 girls he said he never liked her he was drunk when he sleep with them and bored and messed up when he was...
    kayloulou kayloulou 22-25, F