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I Pretend Like I Am Not Depressed

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    I Don't Want People Worrying About Me

    You have those days when you're just glad to be alive and around everyone. Those days when you're happy to be around people even if they're full of hate. But you also have those days when you feel like crap, where the world seems like it's coming down on you because of something...
    stripesANDsunshine stripesANDsunshine 18-21, F Sep 6, 2009

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    Everyone expects me to be little miss perfect.

    I have always been the strong one in my family complex. My sister is bipolar and was diagnosed when she was only 10. I was 8 years old and then was pushed to the side. I felt like I always had to be the happy child for the longest time to help my mother out. She never understood...
    marie3195 marie3195 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I find myself constantly using comedy to ensure

    that others around me don't really know... Me. I feel like I'm shattering on the inside. I need someone to talk to, and I'm stuck all by myself.
    baylift baylift 18-21, M 1 Response May 5

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    I don't have any real friends

    that actually care about me. People always vent to me and ask for help, but when I need someone they are never here. I'm not the person that shares personal stuff, but knowing someone would actually be there for me when I need them would be a first
    katelynt12 katelynt12 13-15, F Oct 24

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    College essays and apps.

    ... I feel like am inundated with unexpected trauma....
    Driftingminds Driftingminds 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    No matter where I am

    or what I'm doing, I'm always wearing my fake smile. I go places with people so they don't suspect anything of me...but now, the guilt is really adding up.
    OMGxWTFxBBQ OMGxWTFxBBQ 18-21, M Aug 2

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 27

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    Hi I like to pretend

    that im not depressed to everyone around but the truth is I am severely depressed and I have even tried to end it all. I don't like people knowing how I feel and what I think and so I close it all away and I guess I have just reached a boiling point and so im here venting...
    rhondaclarke rhondaclarke 18-21, F Oct 14

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    people think I see color.

    they think I know the joy of the sun. but my whole life is a black and white photo and the gray tones are an endless array of sadness. I no longer remember the warmth of the sun or the love of another
    kwrc kwrc 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Many women or men use suicide tactics

    as manipulation for attention. .....please institutionalize
    istilllovemilk56 istilllovemilk56 51-55, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    I do that just so that people don't feel bad

    for me... It's my battle so why in life others?
    Beautyrev Beautyrev 16-17, F Oct 7

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    What's the point? He can

    either live me, or live me. No amount of saving will change anything. Love not save the depressed.
    kiddishguy kiddishguy 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    I have been pretending

    that I am not depressed for a long while now almost to the point where I believe that I am not but ultimately I can't run from it because the sadness always comes back. While there are a few things that I really enjoy in life, they just can't out weigh the sadness I feel...
    keribaby keribaby 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M Aug 9

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    You ever not want to talk to anyone,

    not smile, tired of acting happy when you are not? but not sure why. I have had this feeling for a couple of weeks and not sure how to get out of the swamp of it.. Any advice
    joeske joeske 46-50, M Oct 4

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T Sep 21

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I could literally stay in bed all day

    if you let me...I wonder why I'm so down
    Socialanxietyhelp Socialanxietyhelp 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    I always do this cause I don't like telling

    people how I feel. I don't like to bother people with my ****. So pretending is the way to go :D
    PedroNune PedroNune 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 21

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    I Can't Cry Anymore

    I'm a mother and a caregiver, and for these reasons and more feel that I have to be strong for my family. But sometimes the sadness inside becomes almost unbearable. I haven't been able to really cry for a long time now, just a few quick tears now and then. I want to cry, feel...
    Mountaingirl07 Mountaingirl07 51-55, F 2 Responses Sep 29, 2011

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    Every day it feels like the physical burden I'm

    carrying just gets heavier. Occasionally, it feels like I'm not carrying it, but when I remember I am, it hits me all over again. Today it's especially heavy. I can't even stand up straight, and I've wanted to cry all day. Why do I feel this way? My life is a good life, my...
    kwrc kwrc 16-17, F Oct 30

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    I always act happy so no one really knows how

    depressed I am I'm just the weirdo that doesn't talk and doesn't have friends but I can't make friends when I get scared to talk to people everything that my family says makes me so depressed but I let them see me depressed I'm not happy I'm never happy anymore and no one cares...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Fake It With A Smile.

    Im 13. Going on 14 years old. Im ALWAYS depressed. I have gotten shingles over 3 times in 2 years..for those of you who do not know, it is very unlikely people over the age of 50 get it,You cannot even get the vacination until you are 50 or older. Ive learned almost everyday...
    catmarie11 catmarie11 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 10

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    Its My Problem.

    i act happy, i always have a smile on my face, im pretty funny. deep down im the exact opposite. People think im happy when really i wanna cry. there is so much wrong but i just dont wanna talk to anyone about it. I feel like it would just bother people, why do they need to hear...
    sorryforcomplaining sorryforcomplaining 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2012

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    Mr. Nice Guy

    I do not know why but when I feel really depressed and do not like me let alone the world, I am nicer to people.  I wave more to strangers and make snippy little jokes to make others feel better.  All the time hating my own life and my own hypocritacal attitude.  I...
    allofus allofus 46-50, M 3 Responses Jun 25, 2009

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    Good for u :) so u CAN still act like a not

    depressed! So you are not on the lowest step of depression.
    fauxlady fauxlady 22-25, F Sep 10

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    Im just not happy anymore I'm sad I almost came

    close to taking my own life 2 days ago I got kicked out of school for not living in the correct township my friends abandoned me my ex was the love of my life and he dumped me for another girl my parents could care less I just don't know anymore I don't see how people expect to...
    Haybaylove Haybaylove 13-15, F Aug 2

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    Everyone sees me on the outside at this happy

    person who always has a smile on her face and can have fun and make you laugh... Nobody sees or knows how I really feel inside... I love it how the national greeting isn't "Hi!" Or "Hello" anymore.. It's "Hi, how are you?" "Good! how are you?" "Good!" and you walk away...
    Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 Sadgirlwithoutarazor1 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I confided in a close friend

    that I have depression. She replied, "Everyone has depression." I don't blame her at all for thinking that way. She doesn't know any better. But I can never talk about it again.
    ipark024 ipark024 22-25, F May 13

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    I go through the day with a smile on my face.

    I pretend that just for a day everything is okay. I pretend my biological mother still wants to know me after all these years of not knowing she existed. I pretend moving to Texas was a good thing and that my biological mother wants to be a part of my life.
    JennBaby94 JennBaby94 18-21, F Jun 10

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    Everyday you take pills

    and cigar just to fill the void in your heart. Everyday you wear the same fake smile before leaving the house. Deep down people don't know how stressed you are. But don't worry. You're strong. That's because you still able to fake a smile eventhough it's not truly genuine...
    TheLonelyDude TheLonelyDude 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I feel like people understand me in this app,

    that im not the only one in need of comfort and someone to talk to.
    GenesisThoe GenesisThoe 16-17, F 1 Response May 5

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    Some days is more difficult then others

    but I try to pretend I am ok. I have struggled with depression since I was a teenager. About 8 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression. I have never told anyone. Why? Because I found the more I tried to express how I feel the more people disappeared from my life...
    Edanamarie Edanamarie 26-30, F Sep 26

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    I'm so unhappy with life.

    I pretend my life is fine, but in reality I am so desperate for something to help me. Problem is no one cares. Who would want someone elses burden anyways? I barf everything I eat and sleep most of the day from how depressed I am. Loneliness is a *****.
    cringing cringing 16-17, F Jun 13

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    What Else Can I Do?

    I've been through so much lately, but the worst part living 1000+ miles away from my family and right near my wife's family, who are all quite unsupportive and just don't care. I have no friends down here where I live. I'm alone. I'm questioning everything I've learned as the...
    zaaphod zaaphod 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 16, 2013

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    People think of me as a happy

    and cheerful girl but once I'm in my house I'm all depressed my own parents hate me can't live with it I need someone to I stand my problems I hate this I'm just too ******... How on earth am I supposed to know what I'm does if I don't know what happiness is I feel as if I never...
    LemonMerang LemonMerang 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 13

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    I've thought of cutting myself many times,

    pretty much daily. Yet I've never done it. No one in my life knows I'm depressed, and I can't go to them to talk about this. Every time I would get in the shower, I would feel this weird feeling that I really wanted to do it.
    Mokuba Mokuba 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have no friends, but

    when I see people I always tend to smile and act like nothing in the world is wrong with me. I've been laying in the bed now for 6 days now, I don't eat, I try to eat but I just get full, but anyways, I literally have no one to talk to. No one walks in my room to talk to me. I...
    bellasophia bellasophia 18-21, F 1 Response May 22

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    DatGirl99 DatGirl99 13-15, F a week ago

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    Some days are better

    than others. Today is one of the worst. Is there anyone who can help me with my depression? If not, then someone can just kill me! Just squeeze my ******* neck until my life is gone?! I can't take it right now! I feel like tomorrow MAY be better if I get a good nights sleep...
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I am my family is not a real family.

    people claim family is everything but tbh i hate my family. im so depressed and irritated its not like im just some emotional teenage girl im not just having stupid problems im having serious problems
    ihaveaname99 ihaveaname99 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    She depresses me... I need her.

    .. She plays with me too much, I CAN'T STAND HER!!! Yet she brightens my day when I see her... We show endless affection too each other we act like a couple, she won't permit it. (a sad *** friend-zone story)
    Jr2299 Jr2299 13-15, M Jul 6

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    I feel like since I don't have kids

    or a significant other that there is none that would miss me. I have never been in a relationship and I know there isn't anyone that is better for knowing me. I honestly can't think of one good thing about myself. Not having close family or friends now that I'm in 30's is so...
    2fly1079 2fly1079 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 19

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    Faking It, Hiding It

    I fake my smiles. only a few of my smiles are legitiment, like the smiles to the guy i like. but my smiles are still fake. when no ones looking, my face looks sad, but if im in public, i try to just make it look like im thinking about something. i hide it. i cut myself, you can...
    Darkfaint Darkfaint 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2012

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    I've been depressed since 7th grade

    and i'm a junior now..My depression will be the bane of my existence. It goes away making me think i'm better but when I least expect it...it comes back. I've tried to fight it but it's winning. I'm losing the battle and the scariest part is I don't care that i'm losing. I smile...
    Mackieboo Mackieboo 16-17, F Aug 22

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    Fake Smiles

    i wonder how many people actually do this? if i dont pretend like i am not depressed then i would be one of those people you hate to be around. no one wants to be around the person that is always complaining about what is wrong with themselves. i just act like i am ok to passify...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 8, 2009

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. Please help me.
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M Aug 6

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    I was under the impression

    that the "fake it til you make it" method works. I've been faking it for two years now... Hopefully someday I'll be happy again, and I mean really happy. Maybe someday I'll learn to love life again.
    notsurewheretogofromhere notsurewheretogofromhere 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 28

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    I Feel Like I'm Two People

    I don't know what to do. I never really realized I was depressed until I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt like I had died inside. But of course I can't tell people this, so I put on this air of being the best at everything. Most of the...
    annesocial annesocial 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 13, 2010

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